Lost my software engineering job due to panic disorder. Out of therapy but it didn't work. Now I'm completely lost in life. Your videos help a lot. Thanks Bailey.
It's a daily struggle even for me at 47, to reach and maintain a healthy perspective. I've dealt with many similar issues: family members literally telling me, AS A KID, that I won't amount to shit (that's not even the half of it). Physical issues that just are never not going to be there probably. Longterm toxic friendships I only recently realized were just complete shit-onions, as they say in programming. None of it can deter me now. It is all going to be FOR something. That is one of the core decisions a person has to make. Thanks for these. You have a soothing effect somehow.
Your videos like this of just straight forward talking with no editing are the most impactful in my opinion. It helps me reflect on a lot of similarities in my life and it’s starting to feel weird how many similarities i notice at times. I’ve also had to deal with EDS and POTS with symptoms for nearly a decade along with many other health issues. It’s even more difficult to manage taking care of your own health when it feels like family is up against you in random ways. I’ve also dealt with similar instances of my mom questioning my capabilities constantly due to my health, it’s painful and confusing when that energy comes from people who are supposed to support and uplift you.
I also process better when speaking things out loud and I do the same exact thing to go back and listen because sometimes things just be flying out of my mouth and then I understand them better when I re-listen, same with my writing!! Just from hearing you speak I can tell that you will definitely accomplish anything you put your mind to, and I know I'm just a stranger on the internet but I believe in your rebellious spirit and applaud ur authenticity journey and ur inspiring me to start my own!!!
A brazilian guy here, just passing to say that i really enjoy your channel, helps me alot with my practice in english hear you talking about your life, problems, good things and normal daily stuff :)
fuck me, this one hit hard. i'm sorry you had to go through that with your mom, i can empathise as my family growing up wasn't the most healthy either. i'm still dealing with the effects to this day, and same thing with the voices. it's so hard to move past it but just you talking about it and being so candid has been a true comfort, i can't express that enough. i think i might do the same, set up my phone, no fancy lighting or mic, and just talk it out. keep doing what you're doing, keep making progress, keep being you. i hope 2025 turns out fucking stellar.
I made some videos but I feel so disconnected that I took them down. I've had a lot of inner conflict about how I feel about my thoughts and things I wouldn't even share with the public be on the internet, it seems like a crossing of my own inner boundaries. I struggle to understand why some people feel the need to share their entire lives for the world to see.
Interesting vlog/ramble. I like the point about "quiet moments of rebellion", like doing something someone said you can't or shouldn't be able to do. That really resonated with me! I sort of do that on my music channel, to quiet some of the naysayers from my past. Having been a ballerina is an amazing accomplishment!! It surprised me to hear afterwards that you're bad at running, which is surely less athletically demanding than ballet! Do you get into that back story a bit more in other videos? Also, how do you pronounce your last name? Congrats on finding your own voice, and on creating a community around helping people find theirs.
You're cool. Thanks for the story time! True, it's so important to remember to do what makes you feel better and freer. so let's all go and have more fun! 😸
I still have my mother's voice in my head. Don't know why you showed up in my recommendations. But you have a nice presence. You come across as thoughtful, intelligent, i'd say articulate. Best wishes for the year. I do hide myself away.
I have been through a lot of different therapy groups over the years and you are certainly one of the only people I have encountered who genuinely has insightful knowledge 👍I'm glad the response you're getting inspires you and know that you inspire us too! Just a whole lot of fucking inspiration going around LOL
Awesome! This is one of my very favorite TH-cam channels! TH-cam therapy is a Real Thing. I've heard many who have reported success with stories similar to yours. It's only as complicated as you want to make it. The subtext of rebellion gives your channel unique energy! Each video is unique and delightful. I can't wait for the next one! Hang in there. We love you!
Ok, I locked myself away because people got tired of watching to me on the streets reaching up people and not have an affective responsability people tend to forget what they say, or mean God always gives away a chance to recover the lost time.
Bailey’s inner child stopped running so that she could blossom into the inspiring adult that would run marathons when she was told not to. Thankful for how relatable and insightful you became :D
These videos are awesomely entertaining. It's a good thing to make videos like these to learn the reality of others. I'm always kind because we never what others are going through.
Bailey you and I are opposites in many ways, but I do find that I can easily relate to your thoughts. And your popularity says something about our need to find connections in this world we live in today. Thanks
Since 2018, I've been keeping a journal. For the majority of days, there is an entry but a lot of days are nothing burgers so I don't write anything. If something positive happens, I highlight it. At the end of the year, I'll read all the journal entries for the past year. Also, 69th comment.
What do you do all day? & Do you reside by yourself? does the concept of financial hardship have anything to do with you speaking out? or is that a reason for any negative aspects to your life? & yes there is certainly a correlating reason why I ask this & yes I subbed.
“Question yourself, yes, but don’t doubt yourself. There’s a difference.” - Charmaine Wilkerson PS: Bailey you rock girl! Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooom!
I guess i shouldn't care who sees it, but, i'm not looking forward to the blacklash from the family, it's not just my mom that twists things around..so i do lock myself a way. I'm going to try not doing that. But, usually people tend to take their problems out on me,so im pretty damaged If you want to make a video like that; i'm sure we'd all watch. It was good to hear this, mom twisted some crap up yesterday. But,i spoke up about it. To know it's not just happening to me. Well obviously it's not ,but ,until you hear somebody speak about it. It feels isolated , thank you for sharing 🙏
5:28 Feels like it wasn't that long ago that people yapping over Minecraft footage really blew up, think people got tired of the Mr Beast "Editing on funny powder" with crazy cuts and high energy all the time. Which is nice cause I quite like videos like this, this feels very much like old TH-cam come back again. 9:12 "waking up and going for that run" From what ive recently learned, that voice you heard in your head was not your mom but your Judge archetype. It was using your mom's voice as a mask, trying to protect you from having another unfortunate fainting moment. It's similar to when you have experienced abuse, the abuse doesn't stop cause your archetype programs (mainly the Judge and the Victim) play the thing over and over in your head on repeat. The person that caused you the initial stuff could have long since passed on, doesn't matter cause they will just use it as a mask to continue to play it to try and "protect you". This is when the archetypes go from helpful to hindering. 11:50 "yapping about things that don't really matter at the end of the day" I think it worked cause it touched allot of people, allot of people could relate to that in some way. You might not have felt it mattered, allot of people did. Don't put yourself down like that Bailey, you matter more than you think to allot more people than you know (parasocial relationships are interesting).
I can relate but my mother had good intentions she just had a lot of trauma. She just stresses over nothing and brings everyone down with her but your mum sounds more like a manipulator. Sorrybyou had to go through that, that sounds awful ❤
You can do anything "if" you put your mind to it. Toxic parents are the worst, I thought I heard me father speaking... lol What helped me a lot is at looking how he had it when he was at the same age. It doesn't take everything away but when you feel pity for someone you can't be angry on that same person. Some will say but it stays you mother, bla bla bla, well no, don't even try going back to that. You worthy of a lot more than just running in the same circle.
The point you made about how your mom manipulated you into thinking that you are this horrible person was similar to how my mom made me believe what I was. I am glad you didn't listen to her. 😊😊
You Mom attempting to brainwash you into thinking things that you weren't, is a clear-cut example of "projective identification." And your Mom always bringing up your passing-out-while-running incident to invalidate and discourage you, is an example of "snapshotting." Both are evidence of narcissistic abuse, and the projecting and snapshotting is also underscored with "gaslighting." As well, your Mom attempting to re-enter into your life recently, is an example of a "narcissistic hoover." No contact is the best option. While she is your Mom and always will be, you can love her from afar by setting strong boundaries.
@@condatis6175 it is a joke from polish emigrants in UK. When you get catch on something (speeding, crossing the road... whatever) and showing doc. Driving Linces -> it happend to be very common mistake reciving a ticket. -> the name and surname is "Prawo Jazdy"... And "Ty" by polish means "You" :) :D...
Lang. was not checked back in the days... Many tickects was send to "Prawo Jazdy" ... but it gets deeper because it can be transalate to "Allowance to grind". So, Prawo Jazdy is an epic and I just made myself a moment of fun while reading "Ty" (you)., :D I hope you get a joke :D.
she's probably Avril Lavigne in disguise she's probably too busy hiding all the insane partying that goes on around the clock to appear to be a demure girl next door type BAILEY I GOTTA HAND IT TO YA your channel is one Ive subbed to and UNSUBBED and LURKED without commenting then RESUBBED to MORE TIMES than I can count carry on ewe crazy diamond
Your Moms parent(s) likely did similar fucked up things to her. She just doesn’t know any other way to act or communicate. She may never figure it out, and it’s not your responsibility to help her.
No offence but shouldn't you take orders from within above, seek ye first the kingdom the answers are not in the environment or anothers perspective it's inside everything you ever need, you'll see or fill it sooner o later that voice after the mum figure wasn't present or long gone was your own voice unfortunately remembering the pain to try to protect you
Lost my software engineering job due to panic disorder. Out of therapy but it didn't work. Now I'm completely lost in life. Your videos help a lot. Thanks Bailey.
Listening to Bashar has brought me great peace and understanding of my crappy time in life. You’ve got to be pretty open minded though to consider it.
It's a daily struggle even for me at 47, to reach and maintain a healthy perspective. I've dealt with many similar issues: family members literally telling me, AS A KID, that I won't amount to shit (that's not even the half of it). Physical issues that just are never not going to be there probably. Longterm toxic friendships I only recently realized were just complete shit-onions, as they say in programming.
None of it can deter me now. It is all going to be FOR something. That is one of the core decisions a person has to make. Thanks for these. You have a soothing effect somehow.
Your videos like this of just straight forward talking with no editing are the most impactful in my opinion. It helps me reflect on a lot of similarities in my life and it’s starting to feel weird how many similarities i notice at times.
I’ve also had to deal with EDS and POTS with symptoms for nearly a decade along with many other health issues. It’s even more difficult to manage taking care of your own health when it feels like family is up against you in random ways. I’ve also dealt with similar instances of my mom questioning my capabilities constantly due to my health, it’s painful and confusing when that energy comes from people who are supposed to support and uplift you.
I also process better when speaking things out loud and I do the same exact thing to go back and listen because sometimes things just be flying out of my mouth and then I understand them better when I re-listen, same with my writing!! Just from hearing you speak I can tell that you will definitely accomplish anything you put your mind to, and I know I'm just a stranger on the internet but I believe in your rebellious spirit and applaud ur authenticity journey and ur inspiring me to start my own!!!
Thank you Bailey. These videos have helped me. Been having a rough time. I ramble to myself on late night runs, thinking of recording them
A brazilian guy here, just passing to say that i really enjoy your channel, helps me alot with my practice in english hear you talking about your life, problems, good things and normal daily stuff :)
Thanks for the storytime Bailey, you seem like a really strong person.
Respect for starting your channel, it's a courageous thing to put yourself out there in these ways
Documenting yourself is probably the best thing about technology.
It's also a way to live in the past
It's a poison taken as medicine.
@@funkymunky it's a medicine taken as a poison
I look at it as immortilizing yourself online, be it good or bad is up in the air
Since the first video that I came across of yours, it has helped in some form. I actually took notes today on your video. Thank you again
fuck me, this one hit hard. i'm sorry you had to go through that with your mom, i can empathise as my family growing up wasn't the most healthy either. i'm still dealing with the effects to this day, and same thing with the voices. it's so hard to move past it but just you talking about it and being so candid has been a true comfort, i can't express that enough. i think i might do the same, set up my phone, no fancy lighting or mic, and just talk it out. keep doing what you're doing, keep making progress, keep being you. i hope 2025 turns out fucking stellar.
This is my favorite channel on yt now, all of your videos are relatable
I made some videos but I feel so disconnected that I took them down. I've had a lot of inner conflict about how I feel about my thoughts and things I wouldn't even share with the public be on the internet, it seems like a crossing of my own inner boundaries. I struggle to understand why some people feel the need to share their entire lives for the world to see.
im happy and proud you're doing this! keep it up!!
Interesting vlog/ramble. I like the point about "quiet moments of rebellion", like doing something someone said you can't or shouldn't be able to do. That really resonated with me! I sort of do that on my music channel, to quiet some of the naysayers from my past. Having been a ballerina is an amazing accomplishment!! It surprised me to hear afterwards that you're bad at running, which is surely less athletically demanding than ballet! Do you get into that back story a bit more in other videos? Also, how do you pronounce your last name? Congrats on finding your own voice, and on creating a community around helping people find theirs.
You're cool. Thanks for the story time!
True, it's so important to remember to do what makes you feel better and freer.
so let's all go and have more fun! 😸
I still have my mother's voice in my head. Don't know why you showed up in my recommendations. But you have a nice presence. You come across as thoughtful, intelligent, i'd say articulate. Best wishes for the year. I do hide myself away.
I have been through a lot of different therapy groups over the years and you are certainly one of the only people I have encountered who genuinely has insightful knowledge 👍I'm glad the response you're getting inspires you and know that you inspire us too! Just a whole lot of fucking inspiration going around LOL
thank you for doing youtube ... i would have knew that a awesome person like you bialey existed ... you inspire me
Thanks for sharing your diary entries with the internet. Keep running keep rebelling keep evolving! 🙏🏼
Awesome!
This is one of my very favorite TH-cam channels!
TH-cam therapy is a Real Thing. I've heard many who have reported success with stories similar to yours.
It's only as complicated as you want to make it.
The subtext of rebellion gives your channel unique energy!
Each video is unique and delightful. I can't wait for the next one! Hang in there. We love you!
Ok, I locked myself away because people got tired of watching to me on the streets reaching up people and not have an affective responsability people tend to forget what they say, or mean God always gives away a chance to recover the lost time.
Idk but you're really cute so I'm mildly grateful you did c:
Bailey’s inner child stopped running so that she could blossom into the inspiring adult that would run marathons when she was told not to.
Thankful for how relatable and insightful you became :D
These videos are awesomely entertaining. It's a good thing to make videos like these to learn the reality of others. I'm always kind because we never what others are going through.
You are one of my heroes Bailey
you figured it out! congrats!
You motivated me to go for a run, thanks Bailey :)
Bailey you and I are opposites in many ways, but I do find that I can easily relate to your thoughts. And your popularity says something about our need to find connections in this world we live in today. Thanks
I love your spunky personality!
Many thoughts, but this one cannot wait ❤:
Your mom sounds just like mine, Bailey. 😮💨❤️🩹🫂
Uploading vlogs onto TH-cam for yourself is indeed the best up to make and upload vlogs. 😊
Congratulations you've become a famous person! (at least for a ten thousand people 😄).
Healthy presentation about your journey in life
Go Bailey Go!
Since 2018, I've been keeping a journal. For the majority of days, there is an entry but a lot of days are nothing burgers so I don't write anything. If something positive happens, I highlight it. At the end of the year, I'll read all the journal entries for the past year. Also, 69th comment.
walking > running
What do you do all day? & Do you reside by yourself? does the concept of financial hardship have anything to do with you speaking out? or is that a reason for any negative aspects to your life? & yes there is certainly a correlating reason why I ask this & yes I subbed.
“Question yourself, yes, but don’t doubt yourself. There’s a difference.” - Charmaine Wilkerson
PS: Bailey you rock girl! Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooom!
I guess i shouldn't care who sees it, but, i'm not looking forward to the blacklash from the family, it's not just my mom that twists things around..so i do lock myself a way. I'm going to try not doing that. But, usually people tend to take their problems out on me,so im pretty damaged
If you want to make a video like that; i'm sure we'd all watch.
It was good to hear this, mom twisted some crap up yesterday. But,i spoke up about it. To know it's not just happening to me. Well obviously it's not ,but ,until you hear somebody speak about it. It feels isolated , thank you for sharing 🙏
5:28 Feels like it wasn't that long ago that people yapping over Minecraft footage really blew up, think people got tired of the Mr Beast "Editing on funny powder" with crazy cuts and high energy all the time. Which is nice cause I quite like videos like this, this feels very much like old TH-cam come back again.
9:12 "waking up and going for that run"
From what ive recently learned, that voice you heard in your head was not your mom but your Judge archetype. It was using your mom's voice as a mask, trying to protect you from having another unfortunate fainting moment. It's similar to when you have experienced abuse, the abuse doesn't stop cause your archetype programs (mainly the Judge and the Victim) play the thing over and over in your head on repeat. The person that caused you the initial stuff could have long since passed on, doesn't matter cause they will just use it as a mask to continue to play it to try and "protect you". This is when the archetypes go from helpful to hindering.
11:50 "yapping about things that don't really matter at the end of the day"
I think it worked cause it touched allot of people, allot of people could relate to that in some way. You might not have felt it mattered, allot of people did. Don't put yourself down like that Bailey, you matter more than you think to allot more people than you know (parasocial relationships are interesting).
I can relate but my mother had good intentions she just had a lot of trauma. She just stresses over nothing and brings everyone down with her but your mum sounds more like a manipulator. Sorrybyou had to go through that, that sounds awful ❤
You can do anything "if" you put your mind to it.
Toxic parents are the worst, I thought I heard me father speaking... lol
What helped me a lot is at looking how he had it when he was at the same age.
It doesn't take everything away but when you feel pity for someone you can't be angry on that same person.
Some will say but it stays you mother, bla bla bla, well no, don't even try going back to that.
You worthy of a lot more than just running in the same circle.
This video came out at such a perfect time for me like you have NO idea
Share your story!
That was awesome
Very helpful video, thank you.
Nice to see a young, open, honest young woman. Not fake. I approve of your message. I have 40 subscribers. Not sure I can get any weirder.
you are so beautiful . i hope your future is very bright.
why i watch your videos:they pop up in my recommended
Rough life. Micheal is in my universe
Chin up darling. Your story is an echo of my own
I'm starting to see why you were so touched by the athlete comment. Well, I stand behind that... you are an athlete, keep running.
wow !! you uploaded a video this fast ... nice cat too
We are one
Ill make u stay that way till comfortable with yourself. What u have been given.
The point you made about how your mom manipulated you into thinking that you are this horrible person was similar to how my mom made me believe what I was. I am glad you didn't listen to her. 😊😊
You seemed you got back from the future and you started out your channel.
You’re not just some girl ☹️😩🥺🥺🥹🥹 BAILEY GANG 😂
You Mom attempting to brainwash you into thinking things that you weren't, is a clear-cut example of "projective identification." And your Mom always bringing up your passing-out-while-running incident to invalidate and discourage you, is an example of "snapshotting." Both are evidence of narcissistic abuse, and the projecting and snapshotting is also underscored with "gaslighting." As well, your Mom attempting to re-enter into your life recently, is an example of a "narcissistic hoover." No contact is the best option. While she is your Mom and always will be, you can love her from afar by setting strong boundaries.
🩷 you’re amazing!! Sorry your mom sucks. I’m glad you’re away from her control. Keep going!
nice video👍
Keep it up 🇪🇬
You have beautiful hair
👍👌
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it.
Potential
Young pretty and smart. There is someone in her life destroying it with thire mindset. End of story.
but I like being a shut in hermit
most people would think it is boring probably
but it doesn't take a lot to make me content
🙂
Ty
PL?
Just kidding -> it is PL. Prawo Jazdy ;). (Nm Snm)
@@A.Freebornhuh? Prawn jazdy = Drivers licence ( not much nm, snm say no more). I don't get your meaning at all.
@@condatis6175 it is a joke from polish emigrants in UK. When you get catch on something (speeding, crossing the road... whatever) and showing doc. Driving Linces -> it happend to be very common mistake reciving a ticket. -> the name and surname is "Prawo Jazdy"... And "Ty" by polish means "You" :) :D...
Lang. was not checked back in the days... Many tickects was send to "Prawo Jazdy" ... but it gets deeper because it can be transalate to "Allowance to grind". So, Prawo Jazdy is an epic and I just made myself a moment of fun while reading "Ty" (you)., :D I hope you get a joke :D.
No way to win here, we all get yellow depression.😅
nice
Anyone in 2095?
Malt Liquor Therapy for everyone...youtube
Well u can talk that way.
Baily I think you should try acting classes and see how that is going . I have a feeling you would do well at it .
Talk at us Bailey
No. Im not playing at all about that. Prove it.
8:37 - translation: you are significantly smarter than her and she didn’t know how to handle it.
she's probably Avril Lavigne in disguise she's probably too busy hiding all the insane partying that goes on around the clock to appear to be a demure girl next door type BAILEY I GOTTA HAND IT TO YA your channel is one Ive subbed to and UNSUBBED and LURKED without commenting then RESUBBED to MORE TIMES than I can count carry on ewe crazy diamond
It's crazy how real this video looks even tho she is an AI
very inch arresting
Okay. Now, what?
Your Moms parent(s) likely did similar fucked up things to her. She just doesn’t know any other way to act or communicate. She may never figure it out, and it’s not your responsibility to help her.
She did well.But has unrealistic expectations. It surprised me that she had a voice in her head.
No offence but shouldn't you take orders from within above, seek ye first the kingdom the answers are not in the environment or anothers perspective it's inside everything you ever need, you'll see or fill it sooner o later that voice after the mum figure wasn't present or long gone was your own voice unfortunately remembering the pain to try to protect you
...Because you were a rich girl, even if not Jason McCanna?! Namastè.
"maybe I should do makeup tutorials" (unsubs)
Skibidi
u look like Amber Heard
Your mother tried to put some sense of humility in your socio path. Be grateful
Has anyone ever told you, you look like Amber Heard?
And Amber Heard looks a bit like Keira Knightley. Weird huh? lol.
@ no
@@Dandysfm Yeah. lol.
@ so?
For me she is very Like Phoebe Bridgers, even voice when she talks...
To grift off of the male loneliness epidemic and profit. Good at lying, though.
What are you on about lol