You definitely sound like you have more clarity. It's so comforting to know there are doctors like you that have so much passion and dedication to the work they do. Joy looks good on you.
Healthcare burn out is no joke , you’ll have no choice to stop and rest or have a mental breakdown 😢.. thank you for your kind words, your blogs and your positivity always 🙏🏾
Thank you so much for your kindness, honesty and words of encouragement. I'm currently working on getting into med school and trying to learn tons of new things while working full time to support myself and my wife. It's tough and sometimes it feels like I'm getting nowhere. But we'll keep pushing and trying 🖤
Dr. Rachel Southard, I’ve been a nurse for 7+ years, I still have nightmares about being in school becoming a nurse, it’s such an information overload and being a physician especially OBGYN resident. I just can’t imagine the stresses daily, physical, and mental challenges you face. I’m always so proud of you and when I see your videos . I totally get the imposter syndrome, I still have to pinch myself some days to remind myself that I actually a Nurse and I’m proud of myself, but not only myself I’m proud of you. I love you Dr. Rachel Southard, you motivate me to one day proceed with the next step and getting into medicine, please don’t ever stop making content. One of the original day 1 followers. -Clint P, Indigenous Nurse from Southern Alberta ❤️🫶🏽❤️🫶🏽❤️🫶🏽
Dr. Rachel...I love your rawness and honesty in your vlogs. I am not a doctor, but I resonate with " Imposter syndrome" as well. I think when you are hard on yourself and have high standards, sometimes its easy to forget that everything is temporary. Just yesterday I was watching your medical school vlogs and now you're a second year resident! Way to go!
Your words and advice are spot on. I recall when I started a new position 3 years ago and felt like an idiot. Then one day I realized I was settled and felt I knew what I was doing. What a great feeling that was! You are doing great, Rachel. Hang in there. I am leaning in for that big hug. ❤
Hello Rachel, I've been following you since you started your residency, and I share the same specialty as you, but I'm in Mexico. I enjoy watching your videos because I can deeply relate to the exhaustion and, at the same time, the effort you put into staying strong. I admire you and truly appreciate the time you take to share your words, which, of course, are very helpful because they make me feel accompanied. Sending you a big hug.
Dealing with imposter syndrome right now, I’m studying to be a psychologist, and the amount of information to learn is so vast. Feels like if I don’t know everything - I shouldn’t say anything Love you Rachel 🫂🩵
I just watched one of your videos about when you were preparing for the mcat and now I'm watching you in your second year of residency. You grew up so fast lol! I wanted to ask you, do you ever miss the times when you were just starting your medical career journey? Do you wish that you would have savored your life more when you were "less" stressed and busy?
Thank you so much for the beautiful message at the end. Residency is sooo hard and it feels like I cannot do anything right but just knowing that you are growing and thriving gives me hope ❤️❤️❤️
I admire you a lot, ik being a doctor is hard and I thank you for doing this I see the hard work that doctors do, I will always be grateful to doctors for helping me deliver my baby girl safely and did everything they could to keep me safe and my daughter, I love watching your videos because I see that you love your job a lot thanks for making time to make videos and show us what is being being a female doctor☺️
Thank you so much for that message, Rachel! 💕 I have been a nurse for two years and just became a new CVICU nurse (been off orientation for 4 months now) and it is been super tough, totally experiencing imposter syndrome. I'm just trying to take a deep breath, reflect and recover. I made two mistakes that weren't severe but were not ok either, and it's been haunting me. I'm also very much burnout and I think this is linked to my mistakes. Just a hard moment for me but I will get through it. ✨
Don't worry about speed!! It's how mistakes are made and lil things are missed that can become major things. I'm speaking from personal experience, learned my lesson roughly. Just do your best AT YOUR OWN PACE. Or you will end up in front of a family with your staff in a court room
I want everyone to know that I don’t stare at the clock once or think about the timing of my C-section. It’s at the end when the attending has told me how efficient I was. And not every c section is like that. Some take an hour. Some take 45 minutes. It really just depends. But by all means, there’s not a single moment during any case that I think about the clock. C-sections are too quick paced and involved to have a single thought away from the patient or baby. 👍👍👍👍👍Hope that clarified for the people who don’t operate.
Thanks for sharing throughout residency it means a lot to me to get a view of life as an ob/gyn resident before it’s my turn !!!! Appreciate you 💜 still go back to your old videos too on my study breaks (I’m in M2) cause helps me to feel like I have someone grinding it out too :)
basically its learned helplessness. you see there is a problem you want to fix the problem and you realize you can't fix the problem and you ignore and move on and then the next person comes along and sees problem.
Do you really enjoy cooking after coming back from work? If I had a long day at work, I would prefer to buy something to eat and have more "me" time instead of spending another hour cooking.
Hello, I’m a first year resident and sometimes eating out can be so relaxing. For me it’s psychological though in the sense that after giving so much of me to my job and patients, I crave being nurtured. Therefore, going to my favorite sushi place or getting take out feels nice. However, cooking can be so decompressing. Being present can even reduce anxiety and stress for me and cooking after a long day can do this (even if the dishes get done later in the night).
Its funny you discussed election. Will the new laws pertaining to women's reproductive rights that are coming up effect you as a Ob/gyn? Im asking because here in AL my recent GYN visit seemed weird. They are severly short staffed and took a long time to do routine things.
While I’m in residency, I don’t think it will impact me as an OBGYN. I train at a catholic hospital, so we actually have pretty strict laws that we have to abide by under the hospital, unfortunately. I am in California, fortunately. So I feel that we are pretty protected and supported from an OBGYN standpoint in how we treat and what our patients are able to do with their bodies.
The eye twitching thing is worrying me for you… I develop ticks at one point in my life when I was so super stressed and I didn’t know that was why because I was really young in high school.. but it’s because I was overly stressed and needed a break and I wish looking back. My parents realized it and took me out of school until I got better. I needed a mental health break. Today I no longer have twitches I give myself the brakes I need and I’m on medication for my mental health. Please be careful and take care of yourself.
I’m interested in OBGYN but on rotation I still feel like patients are uncomfortable during a PAP. Can you role play or walk us through what you say to patients or any tips you have about how to make the speculum/processmore comfortable?
Sweetie, you seem really sad and disheartened. I know you're exhausted and this path hasn't turned out at all like you thought. Please know there are other paths. There are other ways you can help people other than killing yourself like this. Life is so precious and a gift that we take for granted. No one would think twice if you and Patrick sat down and decided your mental, physical, and soul health is not worth this torture. Please be kind to yourself. You have but one life to live with the love of your life.❤
I love the path I’m on! I feel like I reiterate that a lot in my videos. Not every day is wonderful like any other job, but I love OBGYN and I love my patients. Not to mention that I’m trying to document my life (which I also love doing). but many weeks I’m filming while I’m really burnt after working 80hrs weeks. it is REALLY hard on anyone! I love what I do. What I share are critiques of the residency training system and these are things that can be improved.
The path to being a doctor is not an easy one...but it's a calling...and I applaud Dr. Rachel is sharing her life story every week. She's an amazing spirit ❤️
Hey Rachel, i msged u previously about how many hrs a day u studied in med school and you said an additional 5 hours outside out 8-4pm lectures, could you please clarify during the 8-4pm lectures how many hours roughly were you actively revising?
That’s a great question. It really varies. Every c section will be different. I think the one immediately after that one that I did took almost 1.5hrs. Every body is different, and every case is very different.
@@RachelSouthardI should have been clearer, if you are pleased with 27 minutes, for I assume an uncomplicated, straight forward section, what would be typical for a seasoned OB/GYN? How much better do you hope to get?
Yes you have been through Hell and still are.’ I just keep thinking that yes you could quit, nobody would blame you. We would understand. However The OB/GYN PATIENT would really lose your care. Patients need doctors like you. Caring and with a heart. You aren’t money focused. and you get excited about your😊work. Underneath the exhaustion and frustration that are darn near killing you…… you love your job. Hang in there even when you really want to quit . If you don’t finish yur future patients are never going to have a doctor like you. Just finish then pick and chose how much you want to work and where. Everything will be open for you. Just finish if you don’t you will be miserable because you. Will be so hard on yourself. Would hate to see that. I am not your patient but would highly recommend you to any of my loved ones. Blessings and prayers. Delora
The eye twitching thing is worrying me for you… I develop ticks at one point in my life when I was so super stressed and I didn’t know that was why because I was really young in high school.. but it’s because I was overly stressed and needed a break and I wish looking back. My parents realized it and took me out of school until I got better. I needed a mental health break. Today I no longer have twitches I give myself the brakes I need and I’m on medication for my mental health. Please be careful and take care of yourself.
"There is resilience in every part of your day" I really needed to hear that today!
Rachel, Please consider this a virtual hug. You got this :)
You definitely sound like you have more clarity. It's so comforting to know there are doctors like you that have so much passion and dedication to the work they do. Joy looks good on you.
Healthcare burn out is no joke , you’ll have no choice to stop and rest or have a mental breakdown 😢.. thank you for your kind words, your blogs and your positivity always 🙏🏾
Thank you so much for your kindness, honesty and words of encouragement. I'm currently working on getting into med school and trying to learn tons of new things while working full time to support myself and my wife. It's tough and sometimes it feels like I'm getting nowhere. But we'll keep pushing and trying 🖤
You are doing it, each and every day. You got this ❤
@ thank you, kind stranger! I wish all the best to you too!
Dr. Rachel Southard, I’ve been a nurse for 7+ years, I still have nightmares about being in school becoming a nurse, it’s such an information overload and being a physician especially OBGYN resident. I just can’t imagine the stresses daily, physical, and mental challenges you face. I’m always so proud of you and when I see your videos . I totally get the imposter syndrome, I still have to pinch myself some days to remind myself that I actually a Nurse and I’m proud of myself, but not only myself I’m proud of you. I love you Dr. Rachel Southard, you motivate me to one day proceed with the next step and getting into medicine, please don’t ever stop making content.
One of the original day 1 followers.
-Clint P, Indigenous Nurse from Southern Alberta ❤️🫶🏽❤️🫶🏽❤️🫶🏽
Thank you! It’s so nice watching these videos and taking a moment to relax and reflect ❤️
Dr. Rachel...I love your rawness and honesty in your vlogs. I am not a doctor, but I resonate with " Imposter syndrome" as well. I think when you are hard on yourself and have high standards, sometimes its easy to forget that everything is temporary. Just yesterday I was watching your medical school vlogs and now you're a second year resident! Way to go!
Your words and advice are spot on. I recall when I started a new position 3 years ago and felt like an idiot. Then one day I realized I was settled and felt I knew what I was doing. What a great feeling that was! You are doing great, Rachel. Hang in there. I am leaning in for that big hug. ❤
Hello Rachel, I've been following you since you started your residency, and I share the same specialty as you, but I'm in Mexico. I enjoy watching your videos because I can deeply relate to the exhaustion and, at the same time, the effort you put into staying strong. I admire you and truly appreciate the time you take to share your words, which, of course, are very helpful because they make me feel accompanied. Sending you a big hug.
Dealing with imposter syndrome right now, I’m studying to be a psychologist, and the amount of information to learn is so vast. Feels like if I don’t know everything - I shouldn’t say anything
Love you Rachel 🫂🩵
Wow , you are such a warrior. You’re so strong and I wish you all the best. You are going to look back on this one day!!!!
Meditation ,playing classical guitar and volunteering are very helpful to manage the burnout.
The pep talk I needed. Thank you ❤
I miss your coffee montages! :) I really admire you Rachel; keep striving and working hard; you're really making a difference and a huge impact!
Aww I love the new spot to sit after work. It’s reminiscent of you sitting in your old rooms 🥹🥹
I just watched one of your videos about when you were preparing for the mcat and now I'm watching you in your second year of residency. You grew up so fast lol! I wanted to ask you, do you ever miss the times when you were just starting your medical career journey? Do you wish that you would have savored your life more when you were "less" stressed and busy?
Thank you so much for the beautiful message at the end. Residency is sooo hard and it feels like I cannot do anything right but just knowing that you are growing and thriving gives me hope ❤️❤️❤️
That peptalk was exactly what I needed today ❤❤
REAL topic. Thanks so much for covering things like this in particular. excited for the new vid!
I admire you a lot, ik being a doctor is hard and I thank you for doing this I see the hard work that doctors do, I will always be grateful to doctors for helping me deliver my baby girl safely and did everything they could to keep me safe and my daughter, I love watching your videos because I see that you love your job a lot thanks for making time to make videos and show us what is being being a female doctor☺️
Thank you so much for that message, Rachel! 💕 I have been a nurse for two years and just became a new CVICU nurse (been off orientation for 4 months now) and it is been super tough, totally experiencing imposter syndrome. I'm just trying to take a deep breath, reflect and recover. I made two mistakes that weren't severe but were not ok either, and it's been haunting me. I'm also very much burnout and I think this is linked to my mistakes. Just a hard moment for me but I will get through it. ✨
You got this! You’re doing great❤
Don't worry about speed!! It's how mistakes are made and lil things are missed that can become major things. I'm speaking from personal experience, learned my lesson roughly. Just do your best AT YOUR OWN PACE. Or you will end up in front of a family with your staff in a court room
I want everyone to know that I don’t stare at the clock once or think about the timing of my C-section. It’s at the end when the attending has told me how efficient I was. And not every c section is like that. Some take an hour. Some take 45 minutes. It really just depends. But by all means, there’s not a single moment during any case that I think about the clock. C-sections are too quick paced and involved to have a single thought away from the patient or baby. 👍👍👍👍👍Hope that clarified for the people who don’t operate.
i personally love general surgery but watching you made me want to become obgyn
Thanks for sharing throughout residency it means a lot to me to get a view of life as an ob/gyn resident before it’s my turn !!!! Appreciate you 💜 still go back to your old videos too on my study breaks (I’m in M2) cause helps me to feel like I have someone grinding it out too :)
I needed that so much today 🥹🩷💜 thank you for the pep talk about resilience and imposter syndrome 🥺
thanks for a little motivation speech, It's really important to hear these words from time to time. I'll definitely go back to rewatch again❤
Can't wait. Thank you for helping us. You're still my Hero Dr Southard!
You bet!🩷
basically its learned helplessness. you see there is a problem you want to fix the problem and you realize you can't fix the problem and you ignore and move on and then the next person comes along and sees problem.
Do you really enjoy cooking after coming back from work? If I had a long day at work, I would prefer to buy something to eat and have more "me" time instead of spending another hour cooking.
Cooking for yourself CAN be me time if you can shift your mindset. There are so many benefits. ❤
I enjoy taking that time cooking to bond with Patrick. It’s our quality time together. So it’s actually really lovely and something I look forward to.
@@RachelSouthard Nice!
Hello, I’m a first year resident and sometimes eating out can be so relaxing. For me it’s psychological though in the sense that after giving so much of me to my job and patients, I crave being nurtured. Therefore, going to my favorite sushi place or getting take out feels nice. However, cooking can be so decompressing. Being present can even reduce anxiety and stress for me and cooking after a long day can do this (even if the dishes get done later in the night).
Thank you for your last refletion about imposter syndrome, I needed to hear it, and thank you for your videos, amazing 💛💛✨
keep being amazing !!!
Enjoy the journey. Enjoy the moment ♥️
Appreciate this message ❤. Current intern feeling all the things.
You’re doing great. Don’t you worry
Its funny you discussed election. Will the new laws pertaining to women's reproductive rights that are coming up effect you as a Ob/gyn? Im asking because here in AL my recent GYN visit seemed weird. They are severly short staffed and took a long time to do routine things.
While I’m in residency, I don’t think it will impact me as an OBGYN. I train at a catholic hospital, so we actually have pretty strict laws that we have to abide by under the hospital, unfortunately.
I am in California, fortunately. So I feel that we are pretty protected and supported from an OBGYN standpoint in how we treat and what our patients are able to do with their bodies.
@@RachelSouthard Thanks so much for answering me. You are an amazing Doctor. Keep up the good work. Tell Patrick Hello. Thanks 😊
The eye twitching thing is worrying me for you… I develop ticks at one point in my life when I was so super stressed and I didn’t know that was why because I was really young in high school.. but it’s because I was overly stressed and needed a break and I wish looking back. My parents realized it and took me out of school until I got better. I needed a mental health break. Today I no longer have twitches I give myself the brakes I need and I’m on medication for my mental health. Please be careful and take care of yourself.
REI? Ooo, that sounds fun 😆 Really, though, I’m not a what that acronym means. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
Reproductive Endocrinology & Infertility!
I’m interested in OBGYN but on rotation I still feel like patients are uncomfortable during a PAP. Can you role play or walk us through what you say to patients or any tips you have about how to make the speculum/processmore comfortable?
You work alottt kudos 👏
I love ❤️ your hair girly 4:28 , I know this may sound random but what type of hair products you put on?
It looks so silky and well hydrated
In the Building watching from Baltimore MD 😎😎😎
You might have answered this already, tengo pregunta, do you have a MD or a DO? And is there truly a difference in between the two? 🤔
DO. Not really!
Hi Rachel , how come can’t film in the hospital anymore ?❤
Sweetie, you seem really sad and disheartened. I know you're exhausted and this path hasn't turned out at all like you thought. Please know there are other paths. There are other ways you can help people other than killing yourself like this. Life is so precious and a gift that we take for granted. No one would think twice if you and Patrick sat down and decided your mental, physical, and soul health is not worth this torture. Please be kind to yourself. You have but one life to live with the love of your life.❤
I love the path I’m on! I feel like I reiterate that a lot in my videos. Not every day is wonderful like any other job, but I love OBGYN and I love my patients.
Not to mention that I’m trying to document my life (which I also love doing). but many weeks I’m filming while I’m really burnt after working 80hrs weeks. it is REALLY hard on anyone! I love what I do. What I share are critiques of the residency training system and these are things that can be improved.
The path to being a doctor is not an easy one...but it's a calling...and I applaud Dr. Rachel is sharing her life story every week. She's an amazing spirit ❤️
Hey Rachel, i msged u previously about how many hrs a day u studied in med school and you said an additional 5 hours outside out 8-4pm lectures, could you please clarify during the 8-4pm lectures how many hours roughly were you actively revising?
do you do c-sections on women who have ovarian cancer or is that a specialty doctor OB/GYN oncologist?
Would you recommend those compression stockings for lymphedema Rachel? Or minor swelling?
What is an appropriate goal time for a section?
That’s a great question. It really varies. Every c section will be different. I think the one immediately after that one that I did took almost 1.5hrs. Every body is different, and every case is very different.
@@RachelSouthardI should have been clearer, if you are pleased with 27 minutes, for I assume an uncomplicated, straight forward section, what would be typical for a seasoned OB/GYN? How much better do you hope to get?
I also do not know that answer tbh. I’ve never asked!
its not water rolling off the back its you coping mechanism ignore.
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You seem to be very unhappy with your job in most blogs.
I am happy with my career :) the system we train in could be improved.
does your thing on the front view mirror say sex wax?
yes, it's a scent thing. it's a surf board wax brand.
Yes you have been through Hell and still are.’ I just keep thinking that yes you could quit, nobody would blame you. We would understand. However The OB/GYN PATIENT would really lose your care. Patients need doctors like you. Caring and with a heart. You aren’t money focused. and you get excited about your😊work. Underneath the exhaustion and frustration that are darn near killing you…… you love your job. Hang in there even when you really want to quit . If you don’t finish yur future patients are never going to have a doctor like you. Just finish then pick and chose how much you want to work and where. Everything will be open for you. Just finish if you don’t you will be miserable because you. Will be so hard on yourself. Would hate to see that. I am not your patient but would highly recommend you to any of my loved ones. Blessings and prayers. Delora
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this video literally came in the perfect moment in my life, love you
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The eye twitching thing is worrying me for you… I develop ticks at one point in my life when I was so super stressed and I didn’t know that was why because I was really young in high school.. but it’s because I was overly stressed and needed a break and I wish looking back. My parents realized it and took me out of school until I got better. I needed a mental health break. Today I no longer have twitches I give myself the brakes I need and I’m on medication for my mental health. Please be careful and take care of yourself.
this video literally came in the perfect moment in my life, love you
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