My mum died when I was 17 after a bitter divorce, my dad was violent and a drinker my mum used me as her therapy and taught me to drink form 6, I've had two disabled children at 18 and 21 they are now in there 30s, I couldn't save me but I've been the best and present mum I could be my daughter has survived cancer and so many health problems, all I cna do is love them but I still run form danger even now x I don't care about being on my own and isolating I like my own company but I can't handle anything outside my home I'm nearly 50 good on you for speaking it's hard isn't it the abandonment as a child within a family, form the outside we had a jice life but I was so lonely form when my grandmother died when I was 4 she took care of me I was on my own after that and whne they were home the arguing and fighting and my dad mentally torture you if you have angered him even now x
I am this. My parents admitted that they never wanted children and pawned me off on each other until I was finally kicked out. I joined religion after religion and only recently realized it was from a starvation of belonging. I am a nurse and became a hospice nurse in prison, caring for murderers and rapists on their death bed. Quit that and did COVID nursing. Now I'm back in school to become an engineer. Without my parents in my life, I have the freedom to choose any path I like without the consideration for how my parents will judge my choices. The price of freedom is painful, high, and chaotic but.. you're free
My mum died when I was 17 after a bitter divorce, my dad was violent and a drinker my mum used me as her therapy and taught me to drink form 6, I've had two disabled children at 18 and 21 they are now in there 30s, I couldn't save me but I've been the best and present mum I could be my daughter has survived cancer and so many health problems, all I cna do is love them but I still run form danger even now x I don't care about being on my own and isolating I like my own company but I can't handle anything outside my home I'm nearly 50 good on you for speaking it's hard isn't it the abandonment as a child within a family, form the outside we had a jice life but I was so lonely form when my grandmother died when I was 4 she took care of me I was on my own after that and whne they were home the arguing and fighting and my dad mentally torture you if you have angered him even now x
I am this. My parents admitted that they never wanted children and pawned me off on each other until I was finally kicked out. I joined religion after religion and only recently realized it was from a starvation of belonging. I am a nurse and became a hospice nurse in prison, caring for murderers and rapists on their death bed. Quit that and did COVID nursing. Now I'm back in school to become an engineer. Without my parents in my life, I have the freedom to choose any path I like without the consideration for how my parents will judge my choices. The price of freedom is painful, high, and chaotic but.. you're free
I watched my nan died in front of me, I knew I had lost the love of my life till my kids were born x