The truth is everything you've been Tru had to happen.there was a lesson you needed to learn and gain from. The pain you've experienced strip away your childish/naive nature and force you to growth and mature. Don't be bitter becaz it happened let it make you into a greater person
Hey, Ik I’m one in billions and you’ll never hear from me again but if your seeing this iam Jeffrey thank you for making this... Right now everything is going wrong in my life and my parents hate me and wanna send me to a bunch of different psychiatrists and my girlfriend is grounded and I won’t be able to see her for over a month and I just have felt total depression and hatred for everything in this life and this instrumental by itself has just been helping me get by as I’m screaming into my pillow right now where nobody but God can hear me... You’ve made me feel better so thank you sir, God bless
I used the same sample that's in this video and my cover got auto copy righted. Whats the deal with EMPIRE studios? they are the strictest record company I know
How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, you're falling back down why do we live in disguise or hide our feeling inside and paint it over with lies just to look like were fine well i wont live with no lies well i wont live in disguise cause i have nothing to hide well i will show you my pride all my emotion inside and through my pain i still shine end of the tunnel of life i see my darkness and light i see my beauty revive i see the beautiful in life where my mind is alright and i wont cry every night and i can say i survive How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, you fucked up bad dont let them tell you no lies you have a beautiful mind and through the dark you will shine just like the chandelier light and when youre cold and alone and need somebody to hold just hit me up on my phone and ill be there in a moment and i will show you the way the way out of the pain and i could show you how with some love you could change and things wont be the same cause yeah i feel your pain ive been through the same let me get you through your pain How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, you fucked up bad
Loi Mattsson (Verse 1) So sense it’s been a while i’ll get shit off my chest The love we had was such a mess Nothing much Just endless stress I remember those days Staring into each other’s gaze Wondering why shit doesn’t ever feel the same I still wonder if that was our warning, to this day (Chorus)-- These days i sit in my room Nothing much to do I’m use to being on FaceTime with you To be honest, nothing feels the same and i’m feeling nothing but blue The end was as clear as glass and honestly I wish it would’ve last But we knew our love was broken Needed a cast But the happiness felt like i was wearing a mask The love was broken, felt like a task (Verse 2)--- So trust me when i say carry on I don’t want you to feel like i was your only one Trust me i wish it could’ve lasted long But i feel like were just too young So i’m sitting in this corner trying to put my mess together Because now i gotta makeup for all this shit And i’m still feeling under the weather Pouring rain Cloudy days No sunlight in my garden No summer rays So for the 500th time I’m telling you shit doesn’t feel the same (Chorus)--- These days i sit in my room Nothing much to do I’m use to being on FaceTime with you To be honest, nothing feels the same and i’m feeling nothing but blue The end was as clear as glass and honestly I wish it would’ve last But we knew our love was broken Needed a cast But the happiness felt like i was wearing a mask The love was broken, felt like a task (Verse 3)--- I’ve been trying to lose attachments but your always there Every time I see you I try to seem like I don’t care But it feels like someone just pushed me down the fucking stairs And now all people do is look and stare And it’s hard keeping feelings bald up, it’s just something so hard to bare It felt like my task was to wait for my heart to tare
[LYRICS] How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you Yeah High up, but you fall down harder Trapped in the concept Falsely accused Misused, and misled Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace (I tried to be patient with you) (Yeah) (High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my (How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds And if she could, she'd prolly dance On my grave, inside my head I see your face, I fucking hate That I love you still (High up) Yeah (But you fall down harder) Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Yeah How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, but you fall down harder.
Anyone just pouring their soul into this beat, because we all have the sad moment, we can relate too, and come back to this and say, "Damn, that shit really happened.." and you just wanna cry, or you just wanna tell everyone about your problems. you wanna let the world know you're not doing good? Bro i felt this beat hard.
[Verse] There is no way that the pain fades away Really all u can do is just numb all the pain Because when u feel numb, you don't feel anything And when you feel nothing, life just feel like a dream And I would rather be dreaming than having to live in this nightmare of mine Where I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind and I can not express it, I can not adress it Cause people around me just cannot accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt And I get it I do this hand and I was dealt Still kinda feel like I'm living in hell And these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself Tell me I'm worthless Tell me that I have failed Tell me that all my pain isn't real cus I'm 15, I don't really know how pain feels Man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through You don't understand half the things that I have been through Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view Screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through You don't understand half the things that I've been through Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view [PreChorus] I'm feeling numb.. [Chorus] Trying so hard to embrace on my pain Trying so hard just to face all my pain Trying so hard just to break all these chains But they brought me down, I think I can't Trying so hard to embrace on my pain Trying so hard just to face on my pain Trying so hard just to break all these chains But they brought me down, I think I can't
i feel, just kidding, i dont, so ripped inside that i wont, cry, even if i try, to, smile, i just want , to, die, cause i cant feel alive, no matter how hard i, try, you were my, last mistake, i was sleeping in love, but now im awake, now im above, to the ceeling, from all of this feelings, feel like a monster, cause i trust her, and let myslef feel, thought it was real, just a bad deal, now i just need to heal, whatever is left, cause you peel, the last shread , of humanity, i kept, inside me, now is just me, feeling sorry for what we could be. i feel, just kidding, this year was, faith shaking, heart breaking, im just 19, wasnt ready for this, im just a teen, and you knew, right from the start, i spoke with you, right from the heart, spit it all out, without a doubt, crying out loud, i bowed, down from my cloud, and allowed, you to know, mo than anyone, and now im done, cold steel, still tripping, maybe i will, or i wont, i feel, just kidding, i dont.
How did you get here? I’m drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you yeah High up you’re falling back down Trapped in a concept falsely accused Was used and misled Bitch I’m hoping you fucking rest in peace Now the fact I’m alone is fucking comforting And I cant seem to shake this fucking feeling in my Uh cold shoulder, heartbroken, misspoken I’m cut open, her fingers in my stab wounds And if she could, she’d probably dance on my grave Inside my head, I see your face I fucking hate that that I love you still Carry on like flights I just carry on with this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on uh Carry on like flights I just carry on with this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on uh Yeah How did you get here? I’m drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you yeah High up you’re falling back down
Stressed out out of my mind My friends tell me I’m fine I try to ask for help but they seem to always decline I don’t know what to do I feel I’m sinking through Down below I go and never ever make it too tomorrow I feel this sorrow I try to hide and fight and fake and even bottle Up my emotions I’m losing focus I have no purpose in this fucking life I’m done It’s game over I’ve been through a lot Untie that fucking knot Whatchu think, this ain’t a game you only got one shot So many things to do So many things to see So many things to love and share and lack and act and be Rest In Peace to Juice Rest In Peace to X Rest In Peace to Nipsey Hussle Jesus Christ who’s next? I can’t do this shit no more I’m so fucking depressed My hearts broken and my life’s a big god damn mess, fuck
Look, I said I was sorry and I swear that I meant it You ain't want it to last you just wanted to end it I'm hurting you know it depression is pendin Need you in my life I admit I'm dependent Everytime I tried to talk you never wanted to listen I miss when we hugged I miss when we was kissin I drove you away but girl you had the wheel Did you ever love me? Was our shit for real? Cause when you got a cut I went straight for the bandaid When I needed stitches girl you went and ran away Now I'm dealing with the aftermath I can't take it no more And I can't find anyone to talk to and let my feelings pour Forced to bottle it up and cry in the night Audibly, louder than a Boeing in flight My hearts fucking broken yeah it needs a cast Flying my flag on my pole at half mast Cause to me this a tragedy to you a mistake I'm hung up on love and you're filled up with hate I just wanted one chance to explain, conversate You ignored me and blocked me, yeah that just feels great Now I gotta live with this, carry the weight For the rest of my life, I might not end it late It hurts me to think your new dudes gonna fuck you Not because I'm a pervert but because I love you You don't know how I feel and nor do you want to You think I'm insane and you think I'm a cunt too That's why I wanted to talk and why I blew up your phone Never meant to spam you but I felt so alone Now I gotta deal with this shit on my own Fuck love man feelings I cannot condone I miss you so much you've already forgotten My hearts breaking more and my brain is just rottin That note that you gave it's now gone and that hurts But I had to do it to move on or worse And I... fuckin.. Why do I love you, why am I so stuck I can't think or speak, all I can say is fuck Fuck my life, something finally goes right But a crazy bitch interferes and it's gone by the night Deteriorating my soul and my mind I wish I could see cause back then I was blind Now I'm stuck and hung up thinking all in hindsight I love you, you loved me, it's over goodnight
bro i never comment but this was fucking AMAZING. You are really talented and if you will know how to put it all together in a song and get your flow straight, consider me as you fan
The way I’ve been feeling... I’m holding my noose while I’m looking at my ceiling Thinking about all the people I’ll effect with this leaving And my demons keep preaching about the hate and all the grieving But the moonlights closing in I can hear X speaking RIP X we all miss you💔
to anyone reading this i’m thankful for you keep your head up i believe in you never stop trying im here for you xx if you need to rant reply to this comment i’m here to listen x💗
i learnt the price to gain in all is that you lose yourself, i trade my happiness for yours, i hope the music helps with the empty voids that linger and reside inside you i had em too, thats why i feel the need to try and guide you i learnt to care for strangers like they were my flesh and blood i learnt that when my niggas stressed they tend to text to plug (???) i learnt the way addiction work, it likes to stretch and tug and grip you in till you dont notice you obsessed with drugs i promise im not here to judge you i got demons too i know for some of yall its fun and just a thing to do i learnt for some of yall its pain and you cant live without it i learnt a pill is what we take so we dont feel about it i had a homie back in school who used to always smile no matter what you put him through you couldnt put him down and now that hes no longer round i wish i asked about, the things he delt with silently that finally took him out verse 2 im not here to teach you lessons but this is pure depression and its not the lines, i hope you find a message i hope you find the peace within yourself that youve been searching for i see the tears behind your eyes cus ive been hurt before i see the truth behind your smile because i smile too i know you lying say you fine cus thats what i would do i know calls because you got the hand that i was delt i know you suffer and your pride wont let you cry for help im not here to teach you lessons, but ive been through depression and its not the lines i hope you find perspective i learnt that happiness is always there inside of you so being happy isnt something that you try to do when we release the things we love they wont be gone for long its the fear they wont come back that keeps us holding on i learnt the trick for being happy comes from letting go because depression is not having what you want the most 💔 Let go - Trey Day see the original song its so good (underated) and somehow fits in this perfectly
There is no way that the pain fades away Really all u can do is just numb all the pain Because when u feel numb, you don't feel anything And when you feel nothing, life just feel like I'm dreaming And I would rather be dreaming than having to live in this nightmare of mine Where I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind and I can not express it, I can not adress it Because people around me just cannot accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt And I get it I do this thing and I was dealt But it still kinda feel like I'm living in hell When these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself Tell me I'm worthless Tell me that I have failed Tell me that all my pain isn't real cus I'm 13, I don't really know how pain feels Man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through You don't understand all the things that I've been through Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view Screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through You don't understand all the things that I've been though Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view
Ima let go Bodies drop dead on the floor Falling in darkness while my eyes glow Im in a never landin void I can feel it in my heart The pain comes closer, why are u so far? Scarred hearts Pain hits hard while i smoke in the dark Thinkin of u when i gaze at the stars So i can ease the never endin pain in my heart I reminisce on what it used to be Then i fell in love, bcuz of the old stupid me Being dragged down by a demon I can see him while im sleepin Buh i Live while im dead Inside Tired of havin to fight Just wanna have a good sleep at night Wanna wake up and see ur beautiful eyes Broken Thoughts re-wrotten Hands lose eachother as i drag in the cold and Got the gun so its time to load it Fuck these girls all they know is how to fold and So at this point i have to stop hopin I gave u my heart, and u decided to take it and throw it So i come up with the questions that i have re-spoken The questions that open ur eyes While i hold a smile for a disguise One day i hope u realize the real eyes and the real lies So why? Why does it feel like I wanna die?
Будучи молодым испытал я столько боли Я же говорил что я тебя не достоин Может стоит умереть и тогда меня полюбишь Сука я же знал что когда то будет больно Как же трудно засыпать без спокойной ночи Как же трудно знать, что ты меня больше не любишь Знаю тяжко, но умираю я от боли Мне просто обидно что теперь мы не знакомы День за днём становится все хуже, я скучаю Сможешь снова полюбить? Будет трудно знаю Сердце подарю тебе прошу ты не сломай Жанм я тебя люблю, прошу меня ты не бросай А сердце так тревожна, полюбить меня так сложно Сделал я большую глупость,ты прости меня за тупость Как же я скучаю по твоим глазам невыносимо После всех этих историй, ты не заменима Жанм знаешь трудно забывать твои глаза Как же больно и обидно, у меня течет слеза Желания появится опять ко мне вернуться? Знай тот же номер у меня и те же чувства Я познал в этой жизни лишь одну удачу Она смотрела на меня словно что то значу Может это сон, и будешь ты всегда со мной Знаю жанм очень трудно, и мне тоже тяжело Знаешь, как сильно я боялся потерять твои глаза Каждый вечер я утоплен, в собственных слезах Жанм , обещаю что исправлюсь для тебя Ты прости меня, ты прости меня
This pain I feel in my soul it won't never end I'm still tryna figure out where the pain begins I feel like I’m worthless and confused Feel like no one understands what I go through And it hurts my fucking soul That the girl I loved so deeply she left me alone Damn Carry on I been tryna carry on but this pain in my head won't let me carry on Carry on I been tryna carry on but I love u so I can't fucking carry on This pain in my chest Got me feeling kinda stressed And it’s starting to take a toll I feel like I’m living with no soul but I carry on Looking for better days so I need to carry on Yea just carry on Yea if u can’t find a point life just carry on Yea I know some days feel kinda rough You gotta persevere and be tough And I’m telling you u must Just carry on This pain will be forever but carry on
hey guys i just wrote this, please let me know what you think. straight from the heart; sittin in my room here just looking at stars, remembering all the times that we spent apart, these emotions in my head man where do I start, when everyone around me wore your face in all their art , why do i bother wearing a little heart on my sleeve , when you dont understand that it breaks when as you leave, the amount of tears on my face you wouldn't believe, that's because my life with you was my belief, and it's your love that I'm so glad I received, but theres a darkness around me lying that its cursed, when all i wanted was to show you a heaven on earth, I'm sad right now but I just dont know what to say, god I hope you're listening because I'm about to pray, everytime I wanted to grab and hold her hand, slowly feeling like you're slipping away like sand, so i hope this dream is just a another lie, what's the point of it maybe Im just here to die, you were the bird in my cage I taught you how fly, the sound of your voice making me just wanna cry, watching you in the sky I'll never see you again, hoping the time we had together wasn't play pretend, now i hope this dream doesn't come to and end, I promise I love you from the bottom of my heart, and ill do anything to try and not break us apart... rip xxx , i love you
sounds dope vro keep it up..if writing and making music is ur happiness or whatever it might be then follow it and never let anyone stop u from accomplishing ur dreams
@@Vidiceski i know im late man but good stuff man i hope you doing good right now and i pray u make it through it while God is leading you to freedom just believe man❤
girl you left me on my own you stabbed me in my back you aine even hit my phone I wonder if you ever cared all this time that I spent you threw away them letters that I happily had sent and now im reminiscing all the feelings that I had that you took for granted you got me feeling bad
A broken heart hurts just like death It leaves you with the five stages of grief And one less person to keep Denial The feeling of waking up and my first thought is you, ready to send you the goodmorning text You know that shits true My breakfast tastes very unappetizing You left me in my bed just crying You know what its just a break or something I know you'll come back to me just trust me Anger 2 weeks no call? The hole in my wall is a perfect ramification of this representation I hate you I hate that damn face Don't look at me like i'm the only person youll ever love this damn face Screaming into my pillow just no one in the human race fucking understood you were the best thing for me and you just fucking disappeared voluntarily Bargaining I remember sending that text begging for you back Do you remember me waiting at your doorstep? PLEASE LOVE ME BABY YOUR EVERYTHING I NEED I really can't stop you your in every one of my dreams Come back i'll give you everything you can dream Depression I promise you the bruised knuckles really don't mean nothing That cut? Must've fallen again, you know me I'm clumsy I ate up your love it was so sweet like honey Youll probably just laugh at me again. How funny Acceptance Fuck this step i'm writing this so you know i really aint there yet I've accepted something I've accepted that we really are nothing I've accepted that we aint ever gonna be something I've accepted that i fucked that up and hurt your feelings i'm disgusting And without discussing that we ended up nothing
Yuh I miss you . Bloods goes down my arm Really don’t feel like I’m living my life right I feel like my demons each day taking a bite Feelings like if I where to hang and close my eyes would I see white ? Would I because I just wanna die I don’t wanna be alive don’t even know how I sleep at night Knowing I’m in pain It sucks knowing no one feels the same I feel alone x1 I feel like the closet with the noose is my home Every in my life goes So what different would it make it if you left Big hole in heart Don’t even No if you teared up ripped me apart I’m in pain I’m not the same ( sings along )
Nothing can cure broken Love is the strongest emotion When ur in love it feels like ur in a spell potion They say love is a drug And it’s the worst addiction Getting ur heart broke by ur love is a unseen prediction Wishing u could go back To seen the pain he/she would give you Now ur crying and crying with noting left to do Needing someone’s shoulder need someone to lean on But without that u feel it’s impossible to be strong And ur mind keep telling u something will go wrong But that’s y u have to know to carry on💔
They said I'd Rest In Peace 30 mins I killed the bottle of wine Got to only share my feelings with the end of a hotline, damn I'd rather paint my walls red with my head Instead of spending another minute with those eyes that were the ocean, Oh shit, Beautiful as fuck I can't deny it, Made my heart dance and bounce around for a little bit. Oh god, How couldn't you have ever loved me, I spent every minute like a fucking shopping spree. All the gifts you gave, And all the kisses you planted; I thought that I was growing, But I just fermented, You never meant it, You never meant it, Took you for granted, You never meant it, You felt bad for me, Now it's sad to see, The sea of RBC, You never meant it.
Am I really going insane Am I really losing my brain It’s on the daily when I’m feeling this pain I show you my smile but it’s really fake I hold in my sadness just for your sake My imaginations drifting apart You’re playing my games so I press restart I’mma hit this blunt til no fucks are given Imma sip this cup until it’s empty Ouuu it’s starting to hit me Flash bang to the brain Man I’m feeling this pain I don’t go for body shot I aim straight for your brain For fuck sake let me go insane I’m realizing the undying depression in my mind That’s how I spend my time Looking through the times from time to time I think about that wasted time that I spend on my undenying lifetime Forget my life I just wanna strive Wanna be the best That bulletproof vest So hit me when your best And that’s a bet
I tried ma hardest to carry on, But, nothing seems to go right like,.. what am I doing wrong? i'm losing my strength its like death was ma fate my heart still hurt, most likely from my last heart break' (my heart still aches) "I don't feel the same" Can't sleep at night, so I stay up late the pain i've been through, i cannot seem to shake "oh! this smile on my face?, yeah its been faked!" i'm not the same, i haven't felt the same My thoughts have been running in a circle like a toy train I think i'm going insane I've been lost for so long.. But i needa carry on you can clearly hear the pain in ma voice Oh yeah that's right, you ignore every little voice unless its yours, other than that it's useless you had me feeling like sh-t I can't believe i let you make me feel so worthless I could've done better, but I didn't think i deserve it
man, really feel like the man see pictures of you and him on instagram i was cool with breaking hearts until you broke mine now there’s so many thought going through my mind
Baby I'm in love with you no matter the weather Just remember That I'm always here like nobody's been there Life ain't fair So plz take care Don't be mad I'm good matter the fact I'm getting cheddar Life for me might get better
I’m just asking for answers You said I can feel , you that it’s real, but there’s no end to the pain that I feel, you said that I’m not alone , but then you left , but I know your watching from up above, but I cant still seem to catch my breath , like is this a dream, because I want it to be, when will it end , that’s what you asked me , but I still didn’t seem to care, I’m really numb, so sorry sorry That I couldn’t feel your pain , because I been feeling mine for to long , I visualize this world in so many ways , but I still can’t seem to see why you had to leave this way , but I’m still asking this question till this day , why you had to leave couldn’t you leave another day I know that I’m asking to much but I just need you one more day, . RIPX💔 Forever in our hearts ❤️
Rather die without you, I can’t live on without you, I dreamt of when I found you, And now I’m lost without you, I’d rather be dead now, Then living in my own town, Without you by my side, how, Did I fuck up so bad now? I dreamt of when I met you, Screamed when he said she left you, Now I can’t sleep, I bet you, Do you know I don’t regret you? Stood by your grave for hours, Lost in my thoughts for hours, Every day I bring you flowers, Passed on, those words are sour. Should’ve watched what I was doing, Dropped you off, I heard the shooting, Drove right back, the blood you were losing, Now I wish someone would shoot me. Only I can use these. These mean more to me than anything else
I Wrotes this about a girl who broke my heart Hope you guys enjoy the lyrics and keep in mind the first 3 lines arefrom presence raps cause those lyrics really cut me deep so i thought id add the in mine but the rest is all mine. There is no way that the pain fades away really all you can do is just numb all the pain because when you feel numb you dont feel anything and when you feel nothing you feel like you dreaming i would rather be heartless than having to live another day in this life where i act like im happy not even trying when deep down inside i know that im dying i gave you my heart and you tore it apart you fucked me right over right from the start guess its my fault shouldnt give out my heart believed what you said now im stuck in the dark you told me you loved me girl was it true you knew what ive seen and what been though guess its cuz i was overdue had scars from the last one, not you too now im alone and im stuck in my mind while you havin fun with all these other guys feeling depressed got tears in my eyes i cant seem to get you out of my mind x2 i guess it true when they say love is a curse it only goes two ways for better or worse never been lucky You could guess which word fuck all the people imma just do me writing these songs are how i express no one compares helps me deal with my stress
How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you Yeah High up, but you fall down harder Trapped in the concept Falsely accused Misused, and misled Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace (I tried to be patient with you) (Yeah) (High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my (How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds And if she could, she'd prolly dance On my grave, inside my head I see your face, I fucking hate That I love you still (High up) Yeah (But you fall down harder) Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Yeah How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, but you fall down harder
How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you Yeah High up, but you fall down harder Trapped in the concept Falsely accused Misused, and misled Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace (I tried to be patient with you) (Yeah) (High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my (How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds And if she could, she'd prolly dance On my grave, inside my head I see your face, I fucking hate That I love you still (High up) Yeah (But you fall down harder) Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on,…
There is no way that the pain fades away, really all you could just do is numb all the pain, because when you feel numb you don't feel anything, and you feel nothing I just feel like I'm dreaming, I would rather be dreaming than having live in this nightmare in my world, I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind, and I can not express it I can't not adress it, because people around me can not just accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt, and I get i do this the hand I was delt, still kinda feel like I'm living in hell, well these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself.......tell me I'm worthless, tell me that I fell, tell me that all of my pain isn't real, cause I'm just 12 I don't really know how pain feels, man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through, you don't understand all the things that I've been through, would last a day if you had to live in my shoes, wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view, screw you you don't have a clue what I go through, you don't understand all the things that I've been through, wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes, would last a day if u saw the world from my view.
Fucking my system Feeling like a minis Lost in my time I felt like I'm a waste of my life Really wana die Feel like i couldn't even be a alive I don't know why oh why I cry everyday and night Hoping for somebody to take my life Yeh lost and found Feel like ima drown Can't even feel all this pain going in me making me insane
14 and so confused on how I got here No one left no one to even care Deep down I am screaming but they only see the tears Deep down I am screaming but no can even hear So I carry on I feel alone ask for help the answer to my questions still unknown So I pick up my phone and scream and yell on I feel alone pure silence Talking to the dial tone So I call and try to regain what’s my mine My last resort is the operator on the other side of the hot line He said Kid what’s on your mind How can he relate if I don’t even know what’s mine Cut my wrist rush me to the hospital I’ve flat lined Note to my mother Mom I had to take what’s mine I can promise you the decision took time Not to gain the courage but to now what I was doing wasn’t Murder I would never do any of this to hurt her It’s just when I asked you for help You told me to snap out of it, that I wasn’t actin like myself
I hate that I have to love you it's just your cute face Tried to take a lil step back bc I know you didn't like me like those other men I hope you happy now I'm sad and all alone I wish I could go back in never coming home ............ tried to do it I just couldn't get through it these feelings in maneuvering wish that you'd love me like I do to you but I know it never happen I guess I'm just a fool And everytime I see you I fucking drool Why can't she love me I hope you have a good day And I know I went a little fast back in the day These feelings you should pay Messing with dudes that don't like you think it's okay But for some reason I hate the feeling of my.......
I feel, Just kidding, I don’t, I won’t, Never cried, never lied, Just kidding, I do both, There’s no hope, Can’t escape reality, Always thinking bout the world and how it all ends in fatality.
All this pain inside my chest hurt my body and I'm trying my hardest to move on there something in the way were I keeps on holding on everyday I'm feeling hurt ngl I'm at my worst I try to thug it out but all these tears just wanna burst I'ma smoke all my pain away until I feel no hurt I'm feeling so damn lost i feel like im the only one the world I got my family by my side my side but those niggas never put me first I try my hardest to move on I keep on letting go but my heart stays holding on I try my hardest to forget you but I can't carry on even with all this pain inside my body chooses to not move on I put my feelings in this song I let the pain flow thru the bong I ask God for forgiveness for all my wrongs
Ever felt happy as well as depressed? That's my life,like a knife in the chest Bullet in the vest,painful but alive and dressed I try to buy stars but get everything less Started spitting in hindi so that people can connect But these demons send negativity through a text I keep getting high to fly away from my burning nest More or less,i am dead inside even dreams threaten me in bed And i have lost the angel me cause i keep waking up in hell Have tried done every drug on the shelf But this temporary numbness doesn't make me happy and well
dark roads.. headed no where fast. til you start to just wanna crash... soo tired of everything.. literally, my shawty say she down but i know she really not that into me.. i peep the fake love.. i gets no love.. no love at all. fuck it ima keep goin hard, stayin strong til i dissolve, i got problems, so if a nigga got a problem i aint afraid to let that gun revolve.. i evolve, i evolved, to something else, im something else...
Suicide in my mind I'm ready to die I'm ready to go and I'm ready to ride So I put the gun to my mind then i say my good byes Then you see my soul rise da tha sky
LYRICS : ♡ How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you Yeah High up, but you fall down harder Trapped in the concept Falsely accused Misused, and misled Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace (I tried to be patient with you) (Yeah) (High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my (How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds And if she could, she'd prolly dance On my grave, inside my head I see your face, I fucking hate That I love you still (High up) Yeah (But you fall down harder) Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Carry on, life flies, so just carry on With this pain inside of my chest Got no choice but to carry on, uh Yeah How did you get here? I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, but you fall down harder
Lately I've been feeling so alone Don't even know why I have a phone Nobody ever hits me up and I'm stuck, never had somebody I could call my own It's lonely walking down this road, fake friends that I didn't have to know Same ones that screwed me over and whenever I need em I turn around and they just turn ghost I feel I'm at an all time low I am depressed and it hurts me to know, my ex is happy and I can't seem to cope She's ignoring every text message I wrote My anxieties high, my medications low I am so stressed and I hate being home, I sit and over think everything alone I wish I had somebody to hold
all this blood is slowly poring off my wrist, i cant move on u didnt hit me up at least, i look back and i can see u and me but u took the esay way out and my heart destroyed into 3 piece, 1 yells come back, the other says stay, the third one just reflects on all the pain that u left, yeah ik i am strong and ill have to move on but ur the reason ppl stop believing in love, i trusted u with my all got heartbroken now my pain is more than numb, lmao ik u tried to sing my lyrics while listening to this amazing beat so drop a like mf!
Como você chegou aqui? Estou bêbado e confuso Eu tentei ser paciente com você De muito alto, você está caindo [XXXTENTACION] Preso em um conceito, falsamente acusado Usado e enganado Vadia, eu espero que você descanse em paz Agora, o fato de estar sozinho é confortante Mas eu não consigo esquecer esse sentimento no meu... Uh, indiferente, desolado, incompreendido, Esfaqueado, e com os seus dedos dentro da minha ferida E se ela pudesse, dançaria no meu túmulo Dentro da minha cabeça, eu vejo seu rosto Eu odeio ainda te amar [XXXTENTACION] Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente Com essa dor dentro do meu peito Não tenho escolha senão continuar Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente Com essa dor dentro do meu peito Não tenho escolha senão continuar Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente Com essa dor dentro do meu peito Não tenho escolha senão continuar Yeah [Dynasty Shiloh & XXXTENTACION] Como você chegou aqui? Estou bêbado e confuso Eu tentei ser paciente com você, sim Em alto, você está caindo de volta
0:25 carry this weight on my shoulders chained by shackles, it feels like its boulders i can't recall the last time i was sober its getting more harder as i get more older honestly dont know why my hearts freezing over i feel a new presence i check over my shoulder i feel deaths grip, and it only gets closer sooner or later, he'll be doing me over just like a bitch she is a feline me and girl talked and at night it was facetimes, but i thought as a couple, we were to make time stuck in the grape vine you really made the time fly in a matter of no time but now im drowning in liquor i damage my liver mixed drinks hitting quicker now im thinking clearer as im crying me a river honestly people im so used to leaving without a reason so fuck it, delete em i tried to be nice i tried to be loyal but i guess im doing no right because im alone at night in my head it dont feel right so im smoking this weed its been helping me to feel all right im not in a good state of mind with my friends im getting high i suppress how much I feel inside i can not tell them im not fine so i say that im all right im so dim, im not as bright someone smother out my light drink and party everynight vodka makes me warm inside ive been searching for a fuck to give but i cant see a fuck in sight drinking, doubles up my sight feel like i double up in size off some tabs im in the sky but i feel lonely this is a story of a kid, so lost like dory his own parents didnt wan him to the streets they let him play little did they know he found those drugs at such a young age 12 years old, coke it numbed his face drip, he didnt like the taste and first time it was in a J, then he start experimenting himself he was medicated hes so high hes too sedated super paranoid hell anxious might go crazy he might just go ape shit
LYRICS How did you get here I'm drunk and confused I tried to be patient with you, yeah High up, you fall back down And it repeats I think, yeah, I'm guessing :)
Where u been all along When i needed ur hugs...needed ur love Needed a shoulder to cry on... You were the last i had my mind on So i lied...and admiting that im wrong... Mind blown ..i was detonated.. This life we experience...was designated... With no hesitation..spiraling in desperation... Our situation was gift with imagination.... But i can no longer split this time affair Sincerely yours...the nightmare...
Version without tags m.soundcloud.com/user-445449347/xxxtentacion-carry-on-instrumental-remake-prod-iam-jeffrey
iam Jeffrey you think you can send me the untagged version
But it literally still has tags
Gian Marr Music obviously im gonna keep the first one
iam Jeffrey you do you. I was just saying fam
Can i use it to non-profit??
My brother died today he was only 6.... I cry when ever I listen to this
I hope things get better for you. God bless you and your family
The truth is everything you've been Tru had to happen.there was a lesson you needed to learn and gain from. The pain you've experienced strip away your childish/naive nature and force you to growth and mature. Don't be bitter becaz it happened let it make you into a greater person
My condolences bro 😔🙏
im so sorry man:(
Kyrin Rogers I’m sorry
Hey, Ik I’m one in billions and you’ll never hear from me again but if your seeing this iam Jeffrey thank you for making this... Right now everything is going wrong in my life and my parents hate me and wanna send me to a bunch of different psychiatrists and my girlfriend is grounded and I won’t be able to see her for over a month and I just have felt total depression and hatred for everything in this life and this instrumental by itself has just been helping me get by as I’m screaming into my pillow right now where nobody but God can hear me... You’ve made me feel better so thank you sir, God bless
Hey Jeffrey, I sincerely hope your situation gets better 🙏🏼
@@kpg333 i hope everyone is getting better, 2020, still got some shit in me
Jeffrey if u need a friend my insta is r_em.ii and my sc is ethaneboy
bro is better now?
💔 R.I.P xxxtentacion 18.06.2018 =[
The SHaco :(
The SHaco 6-18-18
@@zacharyyt2254 Spanish people put the day before the month, check yourself.
The SHaco 🤞🏼💔♾
It was my birthday too...man wasn’t that a great present 💔💔
Remember no matter how hard life gets because it never gets better. Just keep carrying on that’s all we can do 💯
R.I.P Xxxtentacion 🙌😴💔
Do jocelyn flores, you're very talented...
Thomas just look up potsu I'm closing my eyes, that's the original Jocelyn Flores beat
A música não é do potsu o autor é o Shiloh Dinasty
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This guy isn't talented he just said Jeffrey in the middle of the beat while he plays the beat and it ruins the whole vibe
Its not call talent its call taking the lyrics of a song aways and saying its your own
Rip to my everybody dies in their nightmares instrumental
iam Jeffrey what happens to it?
iam Jeffrey what happened
File didn't save
Nah it got copyrighted because of the sample they used
I used the same sample that's in this video and my cover got auto copy righted. Whats the deal with EMPIRE studios? they are the strictest record company I know
Rest in peace. :'(
The fact that this song has the same tempo as rap god 😭😭🙏🙏🙏 (rip x)
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, you're falling back down
why do we live in disguise
or hide our feeling inside
and paint it over with lies
just to look like were fine
well i wont live with no lies
well i wont live in disguise
cause i have nothing to hide
well i will show you my pride
all my emotion inside
and through my pain i still shine
end of the tunnel of life
i see my darkness and light
i see my beauty revive
i see the beautiful in life
where my mind is alright
and i wont cry every night
and i can say i survive
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, you fucked up bad
dont let them tell you no lies
you have a beautiful mind
and through the dark you will shine
just like the chandelier light
and when youre cold and alone
and need somebody to hold
just hit me up on my phone
and ill be there in a moment
and i will show you the way
the way out of the pain
and i could show you how
with some love you could change
and things wont be the same
cause yeah i feel your pain
ive been through the same
let me get you through your pain
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, you fucked up bad
Nais :p
Loi Mattsson 🔥
wow that was amazing
Loi Mattsson (Verse 1)
So sense it’s been a while i’ll get shit off my chest
The love we had was such a mess
Nothing much
Just endless stress
I remember those days
Staring into each other’s gaze
Wondering why shit doesn’t ever feel the same
I still wonder if that was our warning, to this day
(Chorus)--
These days i sit in my room
Nothing much to do
I’m use to being on FaceTime with you
To be honest, nothing feels the same and i’m feeling nothing but blue
The end was as clear as glass
and honestly I wish it would’ve last
But we knew our love was broken
Needed a cast
But the happiness felt like i was wearing a mask
The love was broken, felt like a task
(Verse 2)---
So trust me when i say carry on
I don’t want you to feel like i was your only one
Trust me i wish it could’ve lasted long
But i feel like were just too young
So i’m sitting in this corner trying to put my mess together
Because now i gotta makeup for all this shit
And i’m still feeling under the weather
Pouring rain
Cloudy days
No sunlight in my garden
No summer rays
So for the 500th time
I’m telling you shit doesn’t feel the same
(Chorus)---
These days i sit in my room
Nothing much to do
I’m use to being on FaceTime with you
To be honest, nothing feels the same and i’m feeling nothing but blue
The end was as clear as glass
and honestly I wish it would’ve last
But we knew our love was broken
Needed a cast
But the happiness felt like i was wearing a mask
The love was broken, felt like a task
(Verse 3)---
I’ve been trying to lose attachments but your always there
Every time I see you I try to seem like I don’t care
But it feels like someone just pushed me down the fucking stairs
And now all people do is look and stare
And it’s hard keeping feelings bald up, it’s just something so hard to bare
It felt like my task was to wait for my heart to tare
You forgot the Jeffery part
Shiloh always makes Xxxtentacion's songs beautiful ❤️
R.I.P x you will be missed but never forgotten😭🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
This album is timeless I don’t care what nobody say
R.I.P X💔💔
nostalgia
, i remember i used to play fortnite in season 2 and llisten to this at the same time. :(
[LYRICS]
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you
Yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Trapped in the concept
Falsely accused
Misused, and misled
Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace
(I tried to be patient with you)
(Yeah)
(High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting
And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
(How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken
I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds
And if she could, she'd prolly dance
On my grave, inside my head
I see your face, I fucking hate
That I love you still
(High up) Yeah
(But you fall down harder)
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Yeah
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, but you fall down harder.
Anyone just pouring their soul into this beat, because we all have the sad moment, we can relate too, and come back to this and say, "Damn, that shit really happened.." and you just wanna cry, or you just wanna tell everyone about your problems. you wanna let the world know you're not doing good? Bro i felt this beat hard.
[Verse]
There is no way that the pain fades away
Really all u can do is just numb all the pain
Because when u feel numb, you don't feel anything
And when you feel nothing, life just feel like a dream
And I would rather be dreaming than having to live in this nightmare of mine
Where I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind and I can not express it, I can not adress it
Cause people around me just cannot accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt
And I get it I do this hand and I was dealt
Still kinda feel like I'm living in hell
And these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself
Tell me I'm worthless
Tell me that I have failed
Tell me that all my pain isn't real cus I'm 15, I don't really know how pain feels
Man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through
You don't understand half the things that I have been through
Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes
Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view
Screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through
You don't understand half the things that I've been through
Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes
Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view
[PreChorus]
I'm feeling numb..
[Chorus]
Trying so hard to embrace on my pain
Trying so hard just to face all my pain
Trying so hard just to break all these chains
But they brought me down, I think I can't
Trying so hard to embrace on my pain
Trying so hard just to face on my pain
Trying so hard just to break all these chains
But they brought me down, I think I can't
damn bro, u 19 now, hope u doing good fam
May god bless you
you forgot the Jeffrey
I think u should be happy
i love this song it hits me in a different angel and makes me let it all out
i feel,
just kidding,
i dont,
so ripped inside that i wont,
cry,
even if i try,
to,
smile,
i just want ,
to,
die,
cause i cant feel
alive,
no matter how hard i,
try,
you were my,
last mistake,
i was sleeping in love,
but now im awake,
now im above,
to the ceeling,
from all of this feelings,
feel like a monster,
cause i trust her,
and let myslef feel,
thought it was real,
just a bad deal,
now i just need to heal,
whatever is left,
cause you peel,
the last shread ,
of humanity,
i kept,
inside me,
now is just me,
feeling sorry for what we could be.
i feel,
just kidding,
this year was,
faith shaking,
heart breaking,
im just 19,
wasnt ready for this,
im just a teen,
and you knew,
right from the start,
i spoke with you,
right from the heart,
spit it all out,
without a doubt,
crying out loud,
i bowed,
down from my cloud,
and allowed,
you to know,
mo than anyone,
and now im done,
cold steel,
still tripping,
maybe i will,
or i wont,
i feel,
just kidding,
i dont.
Woah. You created that?
Charles E yup
Wow.Great job!
Charles E thanks! i apreciate it!
ionescu tudor no prob😁
How did you get here?
I’m drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you yeah
High up you’re falling back down
Trapped in a concept falsely accused
Was used and misled
Bitch I’m hoping you fucking rest in peace
Now the fact I’m alone is fucking comforting
And I cant seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
Uh cold shoulder, heartbroken, misspoken
I’m cut open, her fingers in my stab wounds
And if she could, she’d probably dance on my grave
Inside my head, I see your face
I fucking hate that that I love you still
Carry on like flights I just carry on with
this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on uh
Carry on like flights I just carry on with
this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on uh
Yeah
How did you get here?
I’m drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you yeah
High up you’re falling back down
Emily Alyssa you goat for this
Thx
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Emily Alyssa iii
Stressed out out of my mind
My friends tell me I’m fine
I try to ask for help but they seem to always decline
I don’t know what to do
I feel I’m sinking through
Down below I go and never ever make it too tomorrow
I feel this sorrow
I try to hide and fight and fake and even bottle
Up my emotions
I’m losing focus
I have no purpose in this fucking life I’m done
It’s game over
I’ve been through a lot
Untie that fucking knot
Whatchu think, this ain’t a game you only got one shot
So many things to do
So many things to see
So many things to love and share and lack and act and be
Rest In Peace to Juice
Rest In Peace to X
Rest In Peace to Nipsey Hussle
Jesus Christ who’s next?
I can’t do this shit no more I’m so fucking depressed
My hearts broken and my life’s a big god damn mess, fuck
Look, I said I was sorry and I swear that I meant it
You ain't want it to last you just wanted to end it
I'm hurting you know it depression is pendin
Need you in my life I admit I'm dependent
Everytime I tried to talk you never wanted to listen
I miss when we hugged I miss when we was kissin
I drove you away but girl you had the wheel
Did you ever love me? Was our shit for real?
Cause when you got a cut I went straight for the bandaid
When I needed stitches girl you went and ran away
Now I'm dealing with the aftermath I can't take it no more
And I can't find anyone to talk to and let my feelings pour
Forced to bottle it up and cry in the night
Audibly, louder than a Boeing in flight
My hearts fucking broken yeah it needs a cast
Flying my flag on my pole at half mast
Cause to me this a tragedy to you a mistake
I'm hung up on love and you're filled up with hate
I just wanted one chance to explain, conversate
You ignored me and blocked me, yeah that just feels great
Now I gotta live with this, carry the weight
For the rest of my life, I might not end it late
It hurts me to think your new dudes gonna fuck you
Not because I'm a pervert but because I love you
You don't know how I feel and nor do you want to
You think I'm insane and you think I'm a cunt too
That's why I wanted to talk and why I blew up your phone
Never meant to spam you but I felt so alone
Now I gotta deal with this shit on my own
Fuck love man feelings I cannot condone
I miss you so much you've already forgotten
My hearts breaking more and my brain is just rottin
That note that you gave it's now gone and that hurts
But I had to do it to move on or worse
And I... fuckin..
Why do I love you, why am I so stuck
I can't think or speak, all I can say is fuck
Fuck my life, something finally goes right
But a crazy bitch interferes and it's gone by the night
Deteriorating my soul and my mind
I wish I could see cause back then I was blind
Now I'm stuck and hung up thinking all in hindsight
I love you, you loved me, it's over goodnight
Ur songs the best one I've read so far, dope
Caleb here damn, I honestly didn't even think this was that good. Appreciate it man! 😆
bro i never comment but this was fucking AMAZING. You are really talented and if you will know how to put it all together in a song and get your flow straight, consider me as you fan
your*
damn. i felt that shit.
Please omg do everybody dies in their night mares
AIFLAS LLC yeah it might come out today or tomorrow i have things to do today so look out in a few hours or tomorrow
Fain
It's called potsu - i'm closing my eyes
JustinTimeNL thats Jocelyn flores u dumbfuck
Yes
Now u can carry on ur faith like a angel in heaven
The way I’ve been feeling...
I’m holding my noose while I’m looking at my ceiling
Thinking about all the people I’ll effect with this leaving
And my demons keep preaching about the hate and all the grieving
But the moonlights closing in I can hear X speaking
RIP X we all miss you💔
Love you that’s what you needa hear
to anyone reading this
i’m thankful for you
keep your head up
i believe in you
never stop trying
im here for you xx
if you need to rant reply to this comment
i’m here to listen x💗
deep.audios ❤️
💖💖🥺
i learnt the price to gain in all is that you lose yourself,
i trade my happiness for yours, i hope the music helps
with the empty voids that linger and reside inside you
i had em too, thats why i feel the need to try and guide you
i learnt to care for strangers like they were my flesh and blood
i learnt that when my niggas stressed they tend to text to plug (???)
i learnt the way addiction work, it likes to stretch and tug
and grip you in till you dont notice you obsessed with drugs
i promise im not here to judge you i got demons too
i know for some of yall its fun and just a thing to do
i learnt for some of yall its pain and you cant live without it
i learnt a pill is what we take so we dont feel about it
i had a homie back in school who used to always smile
no matter what you put him through you couldnt put him down
and now that hes no longer round i wish i asked about,
the things he delt with silently that finally took him out
verse 2
im not here to teach you lessons but this is pure depression
and its not the lines, i hope you find a message
i hope you find the peace within yourself that youve been searching for
i see the tears behind your eyes cus ive been hurt before
i see the truth behind your smile because i smile too
i know you lying say you fine cus thats what i would do
i know calls because you got the hand that i was delt
i know you suffer and your pride wont let you cry for help
im not here to teach you lessons, but ive been through depression
and its not the lines i hope you find perspective
i learnt that happiness is always there inside of you
so being happy isnt something that you try to do
when we release the things we love they wont be gone for long
its the fear they wont come back that keeps us holding on
i learnt the trick for being happy comes from letting go
because depression is not having what you want the most 💔
Let go - Trey Day
see the original song its so good (underated) and somehow fits in this perfectly
Rest easy we will remember you X ❣️❣️
There is no way that the pain fades away
Really all u can do is just numb all the pain
Because when u feel numb, you don't feel anything
And when you feel nothing, life just feel like I'm dreaming
And I would rather be dreaming than having to live in this nightmare of mine
Where I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind and I can not express it, I can not adress it
Because people around me just cannot accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt
And I get it I do this thing and I was dealt
But it still kinda feel like I'm living in hell
When these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself
Tell me I'm worthless
Tell me that I have failed
Tell me that all my pain isn't real cus I'm 13, I don't really know how pain feels
Man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through
You don't understand all the things that I've been through
Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes
Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view
Screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through
You don't understand all the things that I've been though
Wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes
Wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view
real shit man
Hey I’m 14 and I hope you feel like the world doesn’t understand when you try and fit in
Candii Babiee you copied this
U copied from presence u copier
This is copied 🙄
I'm leaving this comment here so after a month or a year when someone likes it, I get reminded of this song💙…
0:24 I died lmao. Other than that good instrumental
_My name is Jeff_
a man who come once in a time
Ima let go
Bodies drop dead on the floor
Falling in darkness while my eyes glow
Im in a never landin void
I can feel it in my heart
The pain comes closer, why are u so far?
Scarred hearts
Pain hits hard while i smoke in the dark
Thinkin of u when i gaze at the stars
So i can ease the never endin pain in my heart
I reminisce on what it used to be
Then i fell in love, bcuz of the old stupid me
Being dragged down by a demon
I can see him while im sleepin
Buh i
Live while im dead
Inside
Tired of havin to fight
Just wanna have a good sleep at night
Wanna wake up and see ur beautiful eyes
Broken
Thoughts re-wrotten
Hands lose eachother as i drag in the cold and
Got the gun so its time to load it
Fuck these girls all they know is how to fold and
So at this point i have to stop hopin
I gave u my heart, and u decided to take it and throw it
So i come up with the questions that i have re-spoken
The questions that open ur eyes
While i hold a smile for a disguise
One day i hope u realize the real eyes and the real lies
So why?
Why does it feel like I wanna die?
i feel your pain bro
Cansado de pelear conmigo mismo,
Будучи молодым испытал я столько боли
Я же говорил что я тебя не достоин
Может стоит умереть и тогда меня полюбишь
Сука я же знал что когда то будет больно
Как же трудно засыпать без спокойной ночи
Как же трудно знать, что ты меня больше не любишь
Знаю тяжко, но умираю я от боли
Мне просто обидно что теперь мы не знакомы
День за днём становится все хуже, я скучаю
Сможешь снова полюбить? Будет трудно знаю
Сердце подарю тебе прошу ты не сломай
Жанм я тебя люблю, прошу меня ты не бросай
А сердце так тревожна, полюбить меня так сложно
Сделал я большую глупость,ты прости меня за тупость
Как же я скучаю по твоим глазам невыносимо
После всех этих историй, ты не заменима
Жанм знаешь трудно забывать твои глаза
Как же больно и обидно, у меня течет слеза
Желания появится опять ко мне вернуться?
Знай тот же номер у меня и те же чувства
Я познал в этой жизни лишь одну удачу
Она смотрела на меня словно что то значу
Может это сон, и будешь ты всегда со мной
Знаю жанм очень трудно, и мне тоже тяжело
Знаешь, как сильно я боялся потерять твои глаза
Каждый вечер я утоплен, в собственных слезах
Жанм , обещаю что исправлюсь для тебя
Ты прости меня, ты прости меня
I wish we had this in spotify 😔😔😔
This pain I feel in my soul it won't never end
I'm still tryna figure out where the pain begins
I feel like I’m worthless and confused
Feel like no one understands what I go through
And it hurts my fucking soul
That the girl I loved so deeply she left me alone
Damn
Carry on I been tryna carry on but this pain in my head won't let me carry on
Carry on I been tryna carry on but I love u so I can't fucking carry on
This pain in my chest
Got me feeling kinda stressed
And it’s starting to take a toll
I feel like I’m living with no soul but I carry on
Looking for better days so I need to carry on
Yea just carry on
Yea if u can’t find a point life just carry on
Yea I know some days feel kinda rough
You gotta persevere and be tough
And I’m telling you u must
Just carry on
This pain will be forever but carry on
I'm a lil worried you okay?
You okay bro
Darn that's deep
Thanks
hey guys i just wrote this, please let me know what you think. straight from the heart;
sittin in my room here just looking at stars, remembering all the times that we spent apart, these emotions in my head man where do I start, when everyone around me wore your face in all their art , why do i bother wearing a little heart on my sleeve , when you dont understand that it breaks when as you leave, the amount of tears on my face you wouldn't believe, that's because my life with you was my belief, and it's your love that I'm so glad I received, but theres a darkness around me lying that its cursed, when all i wanted was to show you a heaven on earth, I'm sad right now but I just dont know what to say, god I hope you're listening because I'm about to pray, everytime I wanted to grab and hold her hand, slowly feeling like you're slipping away like sand, so i hope this dream is just a another lie, what's the point of it maybe Im just here to die, you were the bird in my cage I taught you how fly, the sound of your voice making me just wanna cry, watching you in the sky I'll never see you again, hoping the time we had together wasn't play pretend, now i hope this dream doesn't come to and end, I promise I love you from the bottom of my heart, and ill do anything to try and not break us apart...
rip xxx , i love you
sing along starting at 0:25
sounds dope vro keep it up..if writing and making music is ur happiness or whatever it might be then follow it and never let anyone stop u from accomplishing ur dreams
@@Vidiceski this is good man!
@@Vidiceski i know im late man but good stuff man i hope you doing good right now and i pray u make it through it while God is leading you to freedom just believe man❤
this makes me so nostalgic for some reason
girl you left me on my own
you stabbed me in my back
you aine even hit my phone
I wonder if you ever cared all this time that I spent
you threw away them letters that I happily had sent
and now im reminiscing all the feelings that I had
that you took for granted you got me feeling bad
F
F
This beat is so special I need to come back to this I’m not ready yet
A broken heart hurts just like death
It leaves you with the five stages of grief
And one less person to keep
Denial
The feeling of waking up and my first thought is you, ready to send you the goodmorning text
You know that shits true
My breakfast tastes very unappetizing
You left me in my bed just crying
You know what its just a break or something
I know you'll come back to me just trust me
Anger
2 weeks no call?
The hole in my wall is a perfect ramification of this representation
I hate you
I hate that damn face
Don't look at me like i'm the only person youll ever love this damn face
Screaming into my pillow just no one in the human race fucking understood you were the best thing for me and you just fucking disappeared voluntarily
Bargaining
I remember sending that text begging for you back
Do you remember me waiting at your doorstep?
PLEASE LOVE ME BABY YOUR EVERYTHING I NEED
I really can't stop you your in every one of my dreams
Come back i'll give you everything you can dream
Depression
I promise you the bruised knuckles really don't mean nothing
That cut?
Must've fallen again, you know me
I'm clumsy
I ate up your love it was so sweet like honey
Youll probably just laugh at me again. How funny
Acceptance
Fuck this step i'm writing this so you know i really aint there yet
I've accepted something
I've accepted that we really are nothing
I've accepted that we aint ever gonna be something
I've accepted that i fucked that up and hurt your feelings i'm disgusting
And without discussing that we ended up nothing
So lit, i. An even relate,,, i lost my dad thru suicide guess it was volantariliy
Do Save me!!!! You're the goat for this one
Yuh I miss you .
Bloods goes down my arm
Really don’t feel like I’m living my life right
I feel like my demons each day taking a bite
Feelings like if I where to hang and close my eyes would I see white ?
Would I because I just wanna die
I don’t wanna be alive don’t even know how I sleep at night
Knowing I’m in pain
It sucks knowing no one feels the same
I feel alone x1
I feel like the closet with the noose is my home
Every in my life goes
So what different would it make it if you left
Big hole in heart
Don’t even No if you teared up ripped me apart
I’m in pain
I’m not the same
( sings along )
Nothing can cure broken
Love is the strongest emotion
When ur in love it feels like ur in a spell potion
They say love is a drug
And it’s the worst addiction
Getting ur heart broke by ur love is a unseen prediction
Wishing u could go back
To seen the pain he/she would give you
Now ur crying and crying with noting left to do
Needing someone’s shoulder need someone to lean on
But without that u feel it’s impossible to be strong
And ur mind keep telling u something will go wrong
But that’s y u have to know to carry on💔
Rest in peice 😷 we'll miss you
Kfyia peace*
奇妙になる thx brother
Kfyia no problem bro ✌️
says the person with a fortnite profile picture
This song is such a vibe
They said I'd Rest In Peace
30 mins I killed the bottle of wine
Got to only share my feelings with the end of a hotline, damn
I'd rather paint my walls red with my head
Instead of spending another minute with those eyes that were the ocean,
Oh shit,
Beautiful as fuck I can't deny it,
Made my heart dance and bounce around for a little bit.
Oh god,
How couldn't you have ever loved me,
I spent every minute like a fucking shopping spree.
All the gifts you gave,
And all the kisses you planted;
I thought that I was growing,
But I just fermented,
You never meant it,
You never meant it,
Took you for granted,
You never meant it,
You felt bad for me,
Now it's sad to see,
The sea of RBC,
You never meant it.
RIP I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU AND UR SONGS!
Do a instrumental of save me off 17 and ayala outro
honestly wish this was on itunes
Am I really going insane
Am I really losing my brain
It’s on the daily when I’m feeling this pain
I show you my smile but it’s really fake
I hold in my sadness just for your sake
My imaginations drifting apart
You’re playing my games so I press restart
I’mma hit this blunt til no fucks are given
Imma sip this cup until it’s empty
Ouuu it’s starting to hit me
Flash bang to the brain
Man I’m feeling this pain
I don’t go for body shot I aim straight for your brain
For fuck sake let me go insane
I’m realizing the undying depression in my mind
That’s how I spend my time
Looking through the times from time to time I think about that wasted time that I spend on my undenying lifetime
Forget my life
I just wanna strive
Wanna be the best
That bulletproof vest
So hit me when your best
And that’s a bet
thats a lot of time
Can I use these lyrics?
Played this 100 times
I'm making a song to this 😅
I tried ma hardest to carry on,
But, nothing seems to go right
like,.. what am I doing wrong?
i'm losing my strength
its like death was ma fate
my heart still hurt, most likely from my last heart break'
(my heart still aches)
"I don't feel the same"
Can't sleep at night, so I stay up late
the pain i've been through, i cannot seem to shake
"oh! this smile on my face?, yeah its been faked!"
i'm not the same, i haven't felt the same
My thoughts have been running in a circle like a toy train
I think i'm going insane
I've been lost for so long..
But i needa carry on
you can clearly hear the pain in ma voice
Oh yeah that's right, you ignore every little voice
unless its yours, other than that it's useless
you had me feeling like sh-t
I can't believe i let you make me feel so worthless
I could've done better, but I didn't think i deserve it
man, really feel like the man
see pictures of you and him on instagram
i was cool with breaking hearts
until you broke mine
now there’s so many thought going through my mind
Baby I'm in love with you no matter the weather
Just remember
That I'm always here like nobody's been there
Life ain't fair
So plz take care
Don't be mad I'm good matter the fact I'm getting cheddar
Life for me might get better
There's this new girl I got to get her
"The hardest thing in life is to let go of the person you love most"
True
I’m just asking for answers
You said I can feel , you that it’s real, but there’s no end to the pain that I feel, you said that I’m not alone , but then you left , but I know your watching from up above, but I cant still seem to catch my breath , like is this a dream, because I want it to be, when will it end , that’s what you asked me , but I still didn’t seem to care, I’m really numb, so sorry sorry That I couldn’t feel your pain , because I been feeling mine for to long , I visualize this world in so many ways , but I still can’t seem to see why you had to leave this way , but I’m still asking this question till this day , why you had to leave couldn’t you leave another day I know that I’m asking to much but I just need you one more day, . RIPX💔 Forever in our hearts ❤️
Long live x legends never die
Who is singing in the background ? :)
Phat Huynh Shiloh Dynasty :')
Nolan Paul
Shiloh a boy.
Shiloh
Nolan Paul its a guy
x_ItzKillerx they announce that it was a boy
Rather die without you,
I can’t live on without you,
I dreamt of when I found you,
And now I’m lost without you,
I’d rather be dead now,
Then living in my own town,
Without you by my side, how,
Did I fuck up so bad now?
I dreamt of when I met you,
Screamed when he said she left you,
Now I can’t sleep, I bet you,
Do you know I don’t regret you?
Stood by your grave for hours,
Lost in my thoughts for hours,
Every day I bring you flowers,
Passed on, those words are sour.
Should’ve watched what I was doing,
Dropped you off, I heard the shooting,
Drove right back, the blood you were losing,
Now I wish someone would shoot me.
Only I can use these. These mean more to me than anything else
This cures my depression lmao.
The best song i ever heard
I Wrotes this about a girl who broke my heart Hope you guys enjoy the lyrics and keep in mind the first 3 lines arefrom presence raps cause those lyrics really cut me deep so i thought id add the in mine but the rest is all mine.
There is no way that the pain fades away
really all you can do is just numb all the pain
because when you feel numb you dont feel anything and when you feel nothing you feel like you dreaming
i would rather be heartless than having to live another day in this life
where i act like im happy not even trying when deep down inside i know that im dying
i gave you my heart and you tore it apart
you fucked me right over right from the start
guess its my fault shouldnt give out my heart
believed what you said now im stuck in the dark
you told me you loved me girl was it true
you knew what ive seen and what been though
guess its cuz i was overdue
had scars from the last one, not you too
now im alone and im stuck in my mind
while you havin fun with all these other guys
feeling depressed got tears in my eyes
i cant seem to get you out of my mind
x2
i guess it true when they say love is a curse
it only goes two ways for better or worse
never been lucky You could guess which word
fuck all the people imma just do me
writing these songs are how i express
no one compares helps me deal with my stress
Dude omg that is so good is it ok if I use this I'll give you credit
@@shotta_ave223 go for it
@@iwhink ight bet thank you
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you
Yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Trapped in the concept
Falsely accused
Misused, and misled
Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace
(I tried to be patient with you)
(Yeah)
(High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting
And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
(How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken
I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds
And if she could, she'd prolly dance
On my grave, inside my head
I see your face, I fucking hate
That I love you still
(High up) Yeah
(But you fall down harder)
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Yeah
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Bro i wrote some pain to this beat can i use it and drop a song on soundcloud?
i think you cant but the lets pretend were numb instrumental is pritty much the same
i love this man..
Hour version please
Just put it on repeat. It's worth it!
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you
Yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Trapped in the concept
Falsely accused
Misused, and misled
Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace
(I tried to be patient with you)
(Yeah)
(High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting
And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
(How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken
I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds
And if she could, she'd prolly dance
On my grave, inside my head
I see your face, I fucking hate
That I love you still
(High up) Yeah
(But you fall down harder)
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on,…
There is no way that the pain fades away, really all you could just do is numb all the pain, because when you feel numb you don't feel anything, and you feel nothing I just feel like I'm dreaming, I would rather be dreaming than having live in this nightmare in my world, I feel like my pain is just trapped in my mind, and I can not express it I can't not adress it, because people around me can not just accept it, they can not accept all the pain that I felt, and I get i do this the hand I was delt, still kinda feel like I'm living in hell, well these people don't get it, they tell me to kill myself.......tell me I'm worthless, tell me that I fell, tell me that all of my pain isn't real, cause I'm just 12 I don't really know how pain feels, man screw you, you don't have a clue what I go through, you don't understand all the things that I've been through, would last a day if you had to live in my shoes, wouldn't last a day if you saw the world from my view, screw you you don't have a clue what I go through, you don't understand all the things that I've been through, wouldn't last a day if you had to live in my shoes, would last a day if u saw the world from my view.
IG-Skies This is copied all you dod was switch the age
@@jesse8554 fuck up bitch
Hmu😂
Single_bitch hi whats up😂
@@jesse8554 what's good 😂
Fucking my system
Feeling like a minis
Lost in my time
I felt like I'm a waste of my life
Really wana die
Feel like i couldn't even be a alive
I don't know why oh why I cry everyday and night
Hoping for somebody to take my life
Yeh lost and found
Feel like ima drown
Can't even feel all this pain going in me making me insane
Would I be able to use this for a song?
Always wanted change so now im hoping for the best
Been feeling burdens lookin to be blessed
You: how did get you here
You:I'm drunk and confused
Me: I tried to be patient with you
You: oooh and now
Me: you're falling back down...
It's hold on😩
I'm high up, but you're falling back down
Nah it's You ****Ed that up
Still missing x
Do dead inside !!(:
We love you jahseh 💕🕊
14 and so confused on how I got here
No one left no one to even care
Deep down I am screaming but they only see the tears
Deep down I am screaming but no can even hear
So I carry on
I feel alone
ask for help the answer to my questions still unknown
So I pick up my phone and scream and yell on I feel alone pure silence
Talking to the dial tone
So I call and try to regain what’s my mine
My last resort is the operator on the other side of the hot line He said Kid what’s on your mind How can he relate if I don’t even know what’s mine
Cut my wrist rush me to the hospital I’ve flat lined
Note to my mother
Mom I had to take what’s mine
I can promise you the decision took time
Not to gain the courage but to now what I was doing wasn’t Murder
I would never do any of this to hurt her
It’s just when I asked you for help
You told me to snap out of it, that I wasn’t actin like myself
Maxwell Cutts maxwell i hope your still alive buddy, message me on instagram if you ever need to talk. @username_838291
R/I'm 14andthisisdeep
RIp X honestly our prayers go out to him his family and his friends. 🙏
I hate that I have to love you it's just your cute face
Tried to take a lil step back bc I know you didn't like me like those other men
I hope you happy now I'm sad and all alone I wish I could go back in never coming home ............ tried to do it I just couldn't get through it these feelings in maneuvering wish that you'd love me like I do to you but I know it never happen I guess I'm just a fool
And everytime I see you I fucking drool
Why can't she love me
I hope you have a good day
And I know I went a little fast back in the day
These feelings you should pay
Messing with dudes that don't like you think it's okay
But for some reason I hate the feeling of my.......
Young Thug 3rd video i seen you
My heart hurts..
I feel,
Just kidding,
I don’t,
I won’t,
Never cried, never lied,
Just kidding,
I do both,
There’s no hope,
Can’t escape reality,
Always thinking bout the world and how it all ends in fatality.
All this pain inside my chest hurt my body and I'm trying my hardest to move on there something in the way were I keeps on holding on everyday I'm feeling hurt ngl I'm at my worst I try to thug it out but all these tears just wanna burst I'ma smoke all my pain away until I feel no hurt I'm feeling so damn lost i feel like im the only one the world I got my family by my side my side but those niggas never put me first I try my hardest to move on I keep on letting go but my heart stays holding on I try my hardest to forget you but I can't carry on even with all this pain inside my body chooses to not move on I put my feelings in this song I let the pain flow thru the bong I ask God for forgiveness for all my wrongs
Ever felt happy as well as depressed?
That's my life,like a knife in the chest
Bullet in the vest,painful but alive and dressed
I try to buy stars but get everything less
Started spitting in hindi so that people can connect
But these demons send negativity through a text
I keep getting high to fly away from my burning nest
More or less,i am dead inside even dreams threaten me in bed
And i have lost the angel me cause i keep waking up in hell
Have tried done every drug on the shelf
But this temporary numbness doesn't make me happy and well
I like how u make music to keep it up bro
@@BKCHRIZ Means a lot :')
Esta genial para escribir un tema dios !
dark roads.. headed no where fast. til you start to just wanna crash... soo tired of everything.. literally, my shawty say she down but i know she really not that into me.. i peep the fake love.. i gets no love.. no love
at all.
fuck it ima keep goin hard, stayin strong til i dissolve, i got problems, so if a nigga got a problem i aint afraid to let that gun revolve..
i evolve, i evolved, to something else, im something else...
Dammnnn You Snapped 🔥🔥🔥
It's sad seeing x gone
Suicide in my mind
I'm ready to die
I'm ready to go and I'm ready to ride
So I put the gun to my mind then i say my good byes
Then you see my soul rise da tha sky
That kick is insane.
LYRICS : ♡
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you
Yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Trapped in the concept
Falsely accused
Misused, and misled
Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking rest in peace
(I tried to be patient with you)
(Yeah)
(High up) Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting
And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
(How did you get here) Cold shoulder, heart broken, misspoken
I'm cut open, the fingers in all my stab wounds
And if she could, she'd prolly dance
On my grave, inside my head
I see your face, I fucking hate
That I love you still
(High up) Yeah
(But you fall down harder)
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on, uh
Yeah
How did you get here?
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, but you fall down harder
Lately I've been feeling so alone
Don't even know why I have a phone
Nobody ever hits me up and I'm stuck, never had somebody I could call my own
It's lonely walking down this road, fake friends that I didn't have to know
Same ones that screwed me over and whenever I need em I turn around and they just turn ghost
I feel I'm at an all time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know, my ex is happy and I can't seem to cope
She's ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxieties high, my medications low
I am so stressed and I hate being home, I sit and over think everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold
copied from the 7 years old remix. but lyrics go with this best.
all this blood is slowly poring off my wrist, i cant move on u didnt hit me up at least, i look back and i can see u and me but u took the esay way out and my heart destroyed into 3 piece, 1 yells come back, the other says stay, the third one just reflects on all the pain that u left, yeah ik i am strong and ill have to move on but ur the reason ppl stop believing in love, i trusted u with my all got heartbroken now my pain is more than numb, lmao ik u tried to sing my lyrics while listening to this amazing beat so drop a like mf!
yo bru. that shit was fire u got spark and I like it.
“I trusted you with all my got heartbroken”nigga wtf
That shit is fire bro
My best friend past away last week
So this song help me with my pain 💔👏💔
xd Sensei I’m sorry for ur loss😕
Jacob Higdon thanks man
damn.. sorry for your loss
Thx
Como você chegou aqui?
Estou bêbado e confuso
Eu tentei ser paciente com você
De muito alto, você está caindo
[XXXTENTACION]
Preso em um conceito, falsamente acusado
Usado e enganado
Vadia, eu espero que você descanse em paz
Agora, o fato de estar sozinho é confortante
Mas eu não consigo esquecer esse sentimento no meu...
Uh, indiferente, desolado, incompreendido,
Esfaqueado, e com os seus dedos dentro da minha ferida
E se ela pudesse, dançaria no meu túmulo
Dentro da minha cabeça, eu vejo seu rosto
Eu odeio ainda te amar
[XXXTENTACION]
Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente
Com essa dor dentro do meu peito
Não tenho escolha senão continuar
Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente
Com essa dor dentro do meu peito
Não tenho escolha senão continuar
Sigo em frente, como um voo, eu sigo em frente
Com essa dor dentro do meu peito
Não tenho escolha senão continuar
Yeah
[Dynasty Shiloh & XXXTENTACION]
Como você chegou aqui?
Estou bêbado e confuso
Eu tentei ser paciente com você, sim
Em alto, você está caindo de volta
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carry this weight on my shoulders
chained by shackles,
it feels like its boulders
i can't recall the last time i was sober
its getting more harder
as i get more older
honestly dont know
why my hearts freezing over
i feel a new presence
i check over my shoulder
i feel deaths grip,
and it only gets closer
sooner or later, he'll be doing me over
just like a bitch
she is a feline
me and girl talked
and at night it was facetimes,
but i thought as a couple, we were to make time
stuck in the grape vine
you really made the time fly
in a matter of no time
but
now im drowning in liquor
i damage my liver
mixed drinks
hitting quicker
now im thinking clearer
as im crying me a river
honestly people
im so used to leaving
without a reason
so fuck it, delete em
i tried to be nice
i tried to be loyal
but i guess im doing no right
because im alone at night
in my head it dont feel right
so im smoking this weed
its been helping me
to feel all right
im not in a good state of mind
with my friends im getting high
i suppress how much I feel inside
i can not tell them im not fine
so i say that im all right
im so dim, im not as bright
someone smother out my light
drink and party everynight
vodka makes me warm inside
ive been searching for a fuck to give
but i cant see a fuck in sight
drinking, doubles up my sight
feel like i double up in size
off some tabs im in the sky
but
i feel lonely
this is a story
of a kid, so lost like dory
his own parents didnt wan him
to the streets they let him play
little did they know he found those drugs
at such a young age
12 years old, coke it numbed his face
drip, he didnt like the taste
and first time it was in a J,
then he start experimenting
himself he was medicated
hes so high
hes too sedated
super paranoid
hell anxious
might go crazy
he might just go ape shit
LYRICS
How did you get here
I'm drunk and confused
I tried to be patient with you, yeah
High up, you fall back down
And it repeats I think, yeah, I'm guessing :)
Where u been all along
When i needed ur hugs...needed ur love
Needed a shoulder to cry on...
You were the last i had my mind on
So i lied...and admiting that im wrong...
Mind blown ..i was detonated..
This life we experience...was designated...
With no hesitation..spiraling in desperation...
Our situation was gift with imagination....
But i can no longer split this time affair
Sincerely yours...the nightmare...