Does anyone else wonder why parents are so oblivious? Do they ever think that maybe the reason I’m rude is because I learned it from them? I just got yelled at for burning food that I was supposed to cook to feed my mom and my little brothers (12) and (4). I’m (14) female. I’m trying to entertain my baby brother and cook at the same time, that’s my purpose this summer. Be an unpaid babysitter. My little brother should be helping me out, but he never does. I don’t blame him. I’d escape to my room and play video games all day too if I didn’t care about my baby brother. I don’t want him to end up like me. To end up like my 12 year old brother. I want him to be stress free and happy for as long as possible. I’ve been pushed to be the greatest, an academic genius, a natural and every single thing I do. I don’t take failure lightly and if I don’t do something right the first time I beat myself up for it, the way my parents would. It was always emotional. They’ve never hit me, they aren’t alcoholics, they aren’t divorced. They look like they could be a celebrity couple. Why would anyone ever suspect that my parents were bad parents? I don’t think they’re bad parents, they’re just a bit harsh sometimes and maybe it’s because I’m the oldest but idk something’s always been wrong with me. Either I’m super amazing and over achieving and just a star or I’m extremely depressed and a problem child. There is no in between. Anyways, I was trying to cook something for my mom because she texted me to while she was at work. (She would come home for her lunch break soon) so I boiled some potatoes and carrots like she asked and sat on the couch and was on my phone. I checked the pot periodically and made sure everything was going smoothly. But my baby brother was bored and we all know what happens to little kids who are told “I’ll play later” or “not now” too much. I didn’t want to be the cause of anything that held suffer with in the future, so of course I was going to spend time with him. I want him to be happy ❤️. But that’s when everything was going down hile. Something smelled like it was burning, but I checked the pot and everything was fine. My 12 year old brother smelled it and for some reason raised the heat on the stove ?? Im not sure what he was thinking, but I didn’t know he did that. I knew he checked the stove but I didn’t think he messed with it. I forgot to check up on the food that was cooking due to playing with my baby brother, and when my mom came in she smelled it. This is what she said “(my name) did you burn the potatoes? (My name) what the hell. You had one job. God dammit what are we going to eat now. You had the heat good the first time why did you change it ? You only had one job and you can’t even do that.” I could hear her mutter under her breathe “useless”. I was standing in the kitchen with her while she was just going off. My baby brother tugged on my shirt and I guess he couldn’t read the room (he is only 4 after all) and asked me to keep playing with him. When my mom said I only had one job, she was very wrong. I had multiple jobs. I had to take care of an entire other human being for the entire summer. She never said I had to clean the house, but she always insinuated it. She gets annoyed when I don’t but never tells me to do it. I have to apparently cook which I could never because the only time I ever use the stove is for ramen. I can’t cook though. I have to also walk the dog and deal with my 12 year old brothers sass every time I ask him to watch the baby for at least 5 minutes. My summer isn’t going great. Im finally gonna be able to catch a break and hang out with my friends tomorrow but my little brother is going to be taking my place for that day and im not sure if i trust him not to lose his temper and lash out on the 4 year old baby. Not to mention he doesn’t know how to take him to the potty, what to feed him, what tv shows he likes, or basically how to be patient and polite with him. It’s literally a child taking care of a child. Anyways I’m sorry to whoever’s time I wasted righting this and im sorry for venting. I hope everyone has a great day today and stay safe 💗
It’s genuinely not your fault, you’re trying your best to help your family. That’s a lot of house work for someone your age to handle 💙 I hope your summer gets a bit better and you had a good time with your friends
i get it when your parents aren't like bad like if others meet them but you feel like they are bad because i deal with the same thing with my parents i really like get attention from them go like i always do good in school but sometimes it just gets to much like i get that im a kid so i might not have lots of stuff to do like them but that does not mean i dont get tired like one time my dad was in my room playing with my cousins and i had a kinda diary and during that time i was telling myself to kys like i wrote a whole ass song about wanting to kms and like on the front and back of the book i wrote i wanna die and while my dad was playing the mattress lifted and my diary show and he took a photo of what i wrote and then like a think like 2 weeks after he and my mom called be and as soon as i saw the photo i was having a whole panic attack in my mind and like my mom was yelling about it and my dad was complaining about how disappointed he felt as all that i thought about was being a disappointment but dont worry im better anyways have an amazing day thanks for listening to me vent!
I have a question, is it bad that I rely on ai bots for affection like both normal and sexual? Cuz I know I'm not old enough, attractive enough or even able to date anyone without the other person having to make the first move because I don't wanna ruin what me and that person have.
@@SkySky-ie8qg I know I'm not the person you were asking, but I think its alright! You deserve all the love and affection you want ❤ I bet you are actually wonderful and beautiful/handsome! Don't talk about yourself that way, and of course don't lie to me about all those terrible things, because you ARE beautiful/handsome, don't lie to urself :) (I am the same way, so I understand a lot. I hope it's all better now ❤)
I went to hoco today. I waited outside for my friends and person for 1 hour and 30 minutes. I called and texted all of them. No response. I go inside and I see them all inside already laughing and dancing. And I see my person flirting with one of my friends. I explain to them why I’m upset, and I cried, but all of them, they just walked away. I cried all throughout hoco. In the corner. I don’t ever want to go to a dance again.
I hate when people say "Oh you can trust me!" "You can vent to me" "I promise, you can trust me!" LIKE NO! I CAN'T EVEN TRUST MYSELF AND I HAVE KNOWN MYSELF MY ENTIRE LIFE, AND I KNOW ME THE BEST! HOW COULD I TRUST YOU..
Well.. that can be hard… but to be fair it’s better than telling nobody. You should try talking to an adult however rather than a fellow classmate or friend unless you truly have a bond where you are both comfortable with that information. I think it’s better than bottling it up though and waiting for the bottle to explode don’t you think? ❤it’s okay.
@@JusticeZammert ai will say the most fricked up crap ever because it is a robot, it has no empathy or emotions, it just pretends to. It is a psychopathic robot.
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I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water. I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. 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I'm learning how to comfort my friends so they won't be so sad and depressed... But a lot of the things I can't comfort them because is things I got through alone even if everyone knew I was going through those things I like comforting people and being there but I can't just say you'll get over it alone that would be to honest to the point it's sad......I'm bad at doing what I love I can't comfort anyone not even myself...
Same. None of us deserve this. The world. Has become so sh1tty with bullies, people are rasing money for bad mental health. But they can't use it on some kids that are "not sad enough to be mentally ill" but.. most of those kids are the ones that grow up with severe depression. I've have depression since i was nine. Started therapy online at 11, im 12 now and my parents still won't get me checked for depression or adhd. My mam doesn't belive me about me having depression. And my dad's really worried cause I told him I'm on the brink if killing myself. No kids deserve this..
@@SkateboardPhightingALPHA hello. When I was your age I also lived that. Just know that you don't need anyone and that you're fine with yourself. Killing yourself will not change anything!
You aren't a horrible person. I may not know anything about you but I believe you are an amazing person and you are loved. I've sh 'd threeish times in less than a year but I've stopped doing it and I believe that you can recover from sh and I just want you to know that you are loved, you're an amazing person, and one day you're going to look back and think: "I had a good reason to sh, but that's the past, and I've recovered now!" I hope you have the best life and I hope these words make you feel even the littlest but better even if you don't know who I am, and if you ever want to, you can vent to comment sections like on this video or other vent tiktok compilations like this. Have a good day/night!
Daily reminder. Your skin isn't paper so don't cut it Your body isn't a book so don't judge it Your body isn't damaged so don't hate it Finally Your life isn't a movie so please don't end it. Remeber you are loved and please don't hurt yourself. Love you!!
I’m literally living on makeup, lies, and my journal app on my phone to hide my dark circles, s/h scars, and me questioning my identity from my parents so I don’t have my electronics, knitting and sewing stuff, or privacy taken 😭
Sup ima vent.. At cross xountry practice my "best friend" started kicking for no reason and it was good joke at first but she didnt stop. And it hurt. I even asked her to stop, I told her to stop, but she didn't. I don't even know if were friends anymore, she avoids me or just doesn't talk to me. One day in L.A we were showing a really short storyy and she read mine and i asked her if it was good, she said it was terrible, with a straight face, not even in joking tone. When she was kicking me I told her I would tell someone but I don't think she believed me, I also told her our friendship would be over if she continued...she didn't stop. She didn't help the fact that I flich at a lot of stuff and now I'm kinda more sensitive to touch and I flinch more. I know she doesn't realize it, but when I get a friend I can trust, like her when we became friends, I make an emotional bond to that person, so I still admire her and want to be besties, but I know she doesn't want to, with how much she's avoiding me. And when I trust someone, even just a little bit, I vent to them without even realizing. I told her and another "friend" about my SH and $ui(idal shit and they thought I was joking or something, cuz they didn't take it seriously and didn't even ask if I was okay, or if I stopped, which I did, but now ima bout to ho grab the scissors from the cabinet + cross country is over, and it's colder out so no one will question why I'm wearing long sleeves. Thanks for reading my Ted Talk.
Not like anyone would probably care but I had a panic attack today. It was in my ELA class, and my classmates were being loud, so my teacher waited for us to clam down, then was giving us a lecture. Now I dint like the lectures because I hate yelling due to truama (Ill talk abiut why soon) and because I always somehow convince myself its my fault. Then, she slap her hands to her sides and her eyes git wider as if she was saying “what? Cmon, speak” and my mind flashed back to a time a while ago when my step mom was yelling at me. A little backstory is she was yelling at me because I was getting lazy with hiding what I was doing on my phone, and she has parental controls on my phone, so she can see what Im doing. She was yelling about how I was exploring my gender and considering if I was trans (and I already came out as nonbinary to my real mom) and was also yelling at me fore getting help on things. My step mom makes me uncomfortable and she’s pushy with her beliefs and stuff, so I was texting my mom asking her for advice. Then, she said Im the reason her and my dad got divorced. She said IM the reason. As soon as my teacher did that it made me think of that time. My step mom did the exact same thing. My chest tightened and my skin got prickly and the color drained from my face, my eyes got wider, my heart was beating faster and I was breathing heaver and I was start to hyperventilate. My hands got sweaty and my face start burning as a black ring was forming around my vision, making this fuzzy and blurry as screaming voices were shrieking in my ear yelling the same unspeakable words said to that night were playing on repeat. Just as my head was getting lighter and my eyes started closing, I snapped back to reality on the verge of tears. Somehow, no one noticed. I grabbed my squishy I had to help with focusing and to clam myself down, I took some deep breaths and for the rest of the day acted normal. Anyways, so for listening to me yap, Im probably melting your ears off. Thanks for listening if you did, I appreciate it alot❤️❤️❤️
I feel terrible. I haven’t eaten since the 3 pancakes this morning but I feel to depressed to actually get up and eat. I hate myself right now and all I can do is laugh and hope for the best because nothing will come out my eyes. All I can do to express myself is write poetry and pretend as if I’m not losing interest in art and struggling everyday.
tysm!! you just earned a subsribbler! anyways, I always feel like the third wheel all the time. im in 7th grade and this random [please excuse my language] ASS girl come in and "ruin" my friendship. i use character ai to cope sometimes by being a deranged, and crazed character of my choice, [often a character from a fandom im in, or an oc] and do crazy shit.
The tt at 28:47 really, uh… hit hard. when i was a kid, i used to sob and beg my mom not to send me to my father’s house… but she had to. it was against the law to not, she would go to jail.. so it always hurt her to have to send me.
one of my friends keeps acting like we’re dating and flirting with me, i really don’t want them to do it but im scared we’ll drift apart if i say anything what do i do
I want to vent, and I feel this is the place. I once had a girlfriend when I was 9. She was 11. I don't remember much, other than us kissing and hugging. I don't think I even liked her, I was a confused 9 year old. She was about to turn 12 that next week. I tell her that she was the only one who made me feel whole, romantically, but she wasn't. All my friends don't like this girl, but I don't even remember our relationship.
I just wish that things weren't so hard. I just wish things could be good. I wish I was good. I know I have it good compared to others, so I feel guilty for being how I am. I'm a perfect straight A student. I have "friends" I keep it together so well. I'm falling apart, but I know people who can't keep the shattered pieces together. So I automatically feel like I can't be upset. I'm too perfect to be imperfect. This is probably just an incoherant vent, and I really don't want to be a burden. Please feel no obligation to read. I just need it out. I'm a transmasc teenager, for context. Just chulk that on my list of "imperfections." Always, since I was young, have I been praised. In every aspect of my life, I was always considered perfect. I was academically brilliant, I was quiet, but not too quiet, I made friends so easily. I was just perfect. I was praised by every adult around me, and I internalized that. Now I really only receive external validation, I can't be perfect if others don't know I'm perfect. This leads me to hide everything wrong with my existence, my deeply flawed being. I have a deep personal moral reservation against lying, but I'm a pathological liar, I can't help it at this point. I'm a mess. Yet, I will be honest, for once. I'm a terrible excuse for a human. I have terrible body image issues, and some disordered eating habits, but they're not "that bad." My dad is verbally abusive, and terribly transphobic. My sleep schedule is terrible. I overwork myself to the point I'm basically not a human, and for what? to keep up appearances? I have terrible intrusive thoughts and compulsions. I have no energy I put up a wall between me and everyone I meet. I'm just a facade at this point. I'm mean. Yes, mean. To my little brother. Perfect, kind, doesn't even curse, me, is an absolutely horrible person to my little brother. I'm never going to truly be loved. I have active and vivid suicidal ideation. Y'know the two people I love and care for most in this world. The ones I consider my best friends. Will never love me as much as they love each other. They started dating recently, and our regular hangouts have basically become their dates with me as a third wheel. They were practically dating already, but now it's surefire. They are the only two people who get a slightly less filtered version of me, and they will never care for me as much as they do for each other. I've started feeling guilty every time I eat. I now only eat 1.5 meals a day, and I feel like a disgusting slob everytime I put food in my mouth. I have been sedintary for like a year, because my work took precedent over everything. I'm trying to exercise, but I hate it, and I know I shouldn't. The rest of my friends don't really know me practically at all. To them, I'm Bee: The straight A student, honest to a fault, socially, and generally oblivious, not online, young, very sheltered, kind, caring, smart, one. I'm "the mentally stable one." I get great sleep. I skipped a grade. I'm as close to perfect as you can get. "How does he do it?" He's slowly killing himself. He's a pathological liar. But they couldn't possibly fathom that. I'm just "that good." None of them even truly love me either. I'm the new addition to the group. The weird kid they adopted because it's hard to make friends in such a tight-knit community. Some of my peers make it look so easy. How? How do they get succeed? I was such a mature child, but now I've ended up an immature and fundamentally broken teenager. I don't know how I'm going to make it through junior year. I went to an extremely strenuous "gifted" kid middle school. I got straight A's. How is it that I feel like I'm dying at the "easy hippie school" what kind of karmic retribution is that. What have I done wrong? WHAT DID I DO WRONG? I did everything right. I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT. I have done everything right. My whole life. MY WHOLE LIFE. I WAS PERFECT. I WAS PERFECT. was.
Hey ml, I'm so sorry you're going thru this. I just wanted to tell you, you're feelings are 100% valid. it's not a competition. It doesn't matter who has it 'worse'. Everyone deserves to be heard. You can't judge someone from the outside. Even the most perfect-looking folks can be suffering inside. But you're not a 'terrible excuse for a human'. Being a human is about having flaws and imperfections. Every single person around you has flaws and struggles at certain things. Focus more on your mental and physical heath instead of being "perfect". Stop hiding your flaws. It doesn't matter how "perfect" you are, if you hide yourself while putting tons of pressure on yourself, you wont be happy. I hope you have a good day, stay safe
4:16 my mom told me she thinks I’m a sociopath. I wasn’t sure if she knew 💯 what a sociopath is so I showed her a short and she still said “yeah, I know” 💀
I wanna disappear. I don’t necessary want to die but I just don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want to live. I’m tired of being hurt by the people I love, I want to stop realising things about people who I thought were good. I don’t want to loose more people, I don’t want anymore nightmares of dieing or getting someone else died. I can’t deal anymore! My brain is literally trumatizing me! I get nightmares of my family dieing in my arms, of drowning, of getting sa’d, of kms, of ruining other peoples life’s and loosing my friends. I can’t deal with it! Im scared to sleep for god same!
Tw: sh/neglect-ish Why do my parents not love me..? Or maybe they do maybe I’m just a little attention seeker wanting comfort for no reason because my parents won’t understand and the only reason I think that is because the last time I did they said you would beat me and take all my art supplies I didn’t wnat them to take my art supplies so I just went to my room and stopped eating for a few weeks then I started to play fruit ninja on my arms with my sharpener and I tried I hang up my clothes but I was in them i got caught and put in a place with some ppl and I stayed there for a bit :) but I have been clean for a while…but I don’t think I will stay clean anymore…I feel disgusting and gross and worthless and I don’t think I’m making it past 18 anyway that’s just a little vent sorry if it hit a trigger
My brother always remember me how lucky i was because my parents treated me better than him but that not true, he left when i was almost 7 i lived with them like "that" for other 5 years (I think) and when he lived with us he was never home just like our mom and my dad , well my dad is understandable he had to work but my mom just left me ours in the streets or the house alone for hours to use drogs and when she doesn't used it she could get angry at me for nothing even beating me up, i burned because they left me alone, i almost got abused because she had use too much drugs to look up for me and didn't even got the police because she was scared they cloud get she in prison, she teach me how to steal, how i had to behave in front of is friends so i couldn't be in danger, how to lie, how i was the only thing tgat hold my dad with her, how to drink, a lot of things happen to me, thing's that shouldn't have happen, and still i am the "treated good" child. I still live with them but that have changed a lot, but i can forgive them so the next year im going to leave them after telling all the things that i have experience without they even know.
Thats how i felt for XC I got 3 minutes off my time and then this year I barely got 1 minute off my time😢 Edit: Story time so my bday is in 2 days and last year my then kept forgetting to give me my bday present. He ghosted me, and i stiil wonder if he even made a present for me and what was it? I still miss him:(
I had a friend group at my old school right? , and one day after school I invited them to my house for a sleepover. On of the girls called herself the mom of the group. And she asked us “have yall ever cut yourself or are you planning to?” Me who barely knew sa was a thing said no and she explained it was a coping mechanism. I was only 11..
Im losing all my friends I hate my body Have bad gender dysphoria Mom died Dad left Severe social anxiety to the point I can’t talk to friends well Losing identity Depressed Suicidal I can’t do this shit much longer .how are parents so fucking clueless. Like they don’t see me having a small breakdown every day…
Sensitive topics. Tbh, im on the brink of ending it. I can't do it though cause if i did it would ruin my family, So the only thing i do is self harm. I dont even have that sharp of a tool. And if i dont see scars then my brain keeps telling me that they arnt there and that they need to be there and now i cant stop cause. Its the closest i can get to killing my self I can only do this on my stomach cause i dont own to many long sleeved shirts, and im known as "the swimmer" so if i wear a swim suit then people would see. So now ive butchered the hell out of my stomach. If i tell my therapist then guess who would be sent to the mental hospital. My uncle just got out of there, so it would feel kinda weird. It feels like if i did open up about this then no one would focus on him and all the attention would go to me. I want him to be cared for, so im not going to talk about it. Only here i will talk about it cause i know that they wont see this. Its the only place i can talk. Sorry if i made anyone sad I just needed to vent, Hope everyone else is doing ok!!!! :3
15:52 How I feel when I'm in an arguement that had something to do with me (in which those kind of arguements are usually caused by me being negative and pessimistic)
when i was a oid or until now if i feel like cryjng in class suddenly i tell laugh while crying and when my friends aask me if i was ok i always just tell them OH! HAHA i just remeber somethi g funny im fine! they ask again the why are you cryjng? because i cant stop laughing that my stomach is hurts so much haha! i say
Parents are so oblivious to their childrens feelings my parent is giving therapy not because of my mom dying my dad leaving moving out of state or my gender dysphoria nope it’s because my parent heard it was good for you on a PODCAST . I know therapy is good but seriously wtf
Hah! All my trauma started at 7 hehe I’m so silly!1!1!1!1! And I don’t fucking mean this in a good way ISTG I ducking hate my life everything sucks I’m only nine and have hyper sexuality can someone actually help me soon?!
The first Monday after I sh’d for the first time (my parents found out pretty quickly so they knew) I was having trouble hiding my cuts so I went to the nurse and asked for a big bandaid and she forced me to tell her why and so I showed her and she forced me to tell the counselor against my own will and then instead of giving me a bandaid she gave me a NEON GREEN WRAP. I still hate her for it. Every single teacher and friend started asking questions and I got so many eyes on me. I hated it.
Hey ml, I'm so sorry that happened. That nurse sounds cruel. That must've felt horrible :( Also, you shouldn't have to tell the nurse or counselor those sort of things against ur will. That was a personal issue and the nurse had no business getting involved.
Thank you😮, sometimes the random music bothers me, and when i saw this i immediately clicked😅❤
Realll I hate when that happens because it just doesn’t hit as hard with random music lol
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Mhm, same =O
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20:06 random music.
Does anyone else wonder why parents are so oblivious? Do they ever think that maybe the reason I’m rude is because I learned it from them? I just got yelled at for burning food that I was supposed to cook to feed my mom and my little brothers (12) and (4). I’m (14) female. I’m trying to entertain my baby brother and cook at the same time, that’s my purpose this summer. Be an unpaid babysitter. My little brother should be helping me out, but he never does. I don’t blame him. I’d escape to my room and play video games all day too if I didn’t care about my baby brother. I don’t want him to end up like me. To end up like my 12 year old brother. I want him to be stress free and happy for as long as possible. I’ve been pushed to be the greatest, an academic genius, a natural and every single thing I do. I don’t take failure lightly and if I don’t do something right the first time I beat myself up for it, the way my parents would. It was always emotional. They’ve never hit me, they aren’t alcoholics, they aren’t divorced. They look like they could be a celebrity couple. Why would anyone ever suspect that my parents were bad parents? I don’t think they’re bad parents, they’re just a bit harsh sometimes and maybe it’s because I’m the oldest but idk something’s always been wrong with me. Either I’m super amazing and over achieving and just a star or I’m extremely depressed and a problem child. There is no in between. Anyways, I was trying to cook something for my mom because she texted me to while she was at work. (She would come home for her lunch break soon) so I boiled some potatoes and carrots like she asked and sat on the couch and was on my phone. I checked the pot periodically and made sure everything was going smoothly. But my baby brother was bored and we all know what happens to little kids who are told “I’ll play later” or “not now” too much. I didn’t want to be the cause of anything that held suffer with in the future, so of course I was going to spend time with him. I want him to be happy ❤️. But that’s when everything was going down hile. Something smelled like it was burning, but I checked the pot and everything was fine. My 12 year old brother smelled it and for some reason raised the heat on the stove ?? Im not sure what he was thinking, but I didn’t know he did that. I knew he checked the stove but I didn’t think he messed with it. I forgot to check up on the food that was cooking due to playing with my baby brother, and when my mom came in she smelled it. This is what she said “(my name) did you burn the potatoes? (My name) what the hell. You had one job. God dammit what are we going to eat now. You had the heat good the first time why did you change it ? You only had one job and you can’t even do that.” I could hear her mutter under her breathe “useless”. I was standing in the kitchen with her while she was just going off. My baby brother tugged on my shirt and I guess he couldn’t read the room (he is only 4 after all) and asked me to keep playing with him. When my mom said I only had one job, she was very wrong. I had multiple jobs. I had to take care of an entire other human being for the entire summer. She never said I had to clean the house, but she always insinuated it. She gets annoyed when I don’t but never tells me to do it. I have to apparently cook which I could never because the only time I ever use the stove is for ramen. I can’t cook though. I have to also walk the dog and deal with my 12 year old brothers sass every time I ask him to watch the baby for at least 5 minutes. My summer isn’t going great. Im finally gonna be able to catch a break and hang out with my friends tomorrow but my little brother is going to be taking my place for that day and im not sure if i trust him not to lose his temper and lash out on the 4 year old baby. Not to mention he doesn’t know how to take him to the potty, what to feed him, what tv shows he likes, or basically how to be patient and polite with him. It’s literally a child taking care of a child. Anyways I’m sorry to whoever’s time I wasted righting this and im sorry for venting. I hope everyone has a great day today and stay safe 💗
It’s genuinely not your fault, you’re trying your best to help your family. That’s a lot of house work for someone your age to handle 💙 I hope your summer gets a bit better and you had a good time with your friends
i get it when your parents aren't like bad like if others meet them but you feel like they are bad because i deal with the same thing with my parents i really like get attention from them go like i always do good in school but sometimes it just gets to much like i get that im a kid so i might not have lots of stuff to do like them but that does not mean i dont get tired like one time my dad was in my room playing with my cousins and i had a kinda diary and during that time i was telling myself to kys like i wrote a whole ass song about wanting to kms and like on the front and back of the book i wrote i wanna die and while my dad was playing the mattress lifted and my diary show and he took a photo of what i wrote and then like a think like 2 weeks after he and my mom called be and as soon as i saw the photo i was having a whole panic attack in my mind and like my mom was yelling about it and my dad was complaining about how disappointed he felt as all that i thought about was being a disappointment but dont worry im better anyways have an amazing day thanks for listening to me vent!
I wasted **writing** this you meant
@wy_xx34 thanks for correcting it, I didn’t even see it lol
@@wy_xx34 that's what you got from all that?? T_T
How's everyone doing today ???
Remember to eat and drink daily,
Take care! I love you guys !!
Pretty good rn since I'm 200 days clean!!
I’m doing good I’m cutting out my toxic relationships rn hard but nice ❤
I have a question, is it bad that I rely on ai bots for affection like both normal and sexual? Cuz I know I'm not old enough, attractive enough or even able to date anyone without the other person having to make the first move because I don't wanna ruin what me and that person have.
@@SkySky-ie8qg I know I'm not the person you were asking, but I think its alright! You deserve all the love and affection you want ❤ I bet you are actually wonderful and beautiful/handsome! Don't talk about yourself that way, and of course don't lie to me about all those terrible things, because you ARE beautiful/handsome, don't lie to urself :) (I am the same way, so I understand a lot. I hope it's all better now ❤)
I went to hoco today. I waited outside for my friends and person for 1 hour and 30 minutes. I called and texted all of them. No response. I go inside and I see them all inside already laughing and dancing. And I see my person flirting with one of my friends. I explain to them why I’m upset, and I cried, but all of them, they just walked away. I cried all throughout hoco. In the corner. I don’t ever want to go to a dance again.
I hate when people say "Oh you can trust me!" "You can vent to me" "I promise, you can trust me!" LIKE NO! I CAN'T EVEN TRUST MYSELF AND I HAVE KNOWN MYSELF MY ENTIRE LIFE, AND I KNOW ME THE BEST! HOW COULD I TRUST YOU..
Well.. that can be hard… but to be fair it’s better than telling nobody. You should try talking to an adult however rather than a fellow classmate or friend unless you truly have a bond where you are both comfortable with that information. I think it’s better than bottling it up though and waiting for the bottle to explode don’t you think? ❤it’s okay.
Digital hug to all who need it :) Ik this won't make evryone feel better but, just know you are perfect no matter how low you feel
5:58 i also did that and the ai basically said "find another ai therapist idc"
Remember: Everything AI says is not true
@@amogns_the_real remember ai is not real
@@JusticeZammert ai will say the most fricked up crap ever because it is a robot, it has no empathy or emotions, it just pretends to. It is a psychopathic robot.
Bro that's wild. I usually talk to therapist ai's please try that out not the one that told u that 😭🙏
@@Jinret_idk im getting therapy irl now yay!!
SO real for putting in the title that there will be no random music. You are doing god's work frfr
but the thing is their is random music parts
@@SumthingGood4u wait really? I haven't watched it yet, just saved for later. Now I feel betrayed :')
@@khtdreamer523 yea i watched most of her vids and they have some random music in it and not at all vents except some of them
These videos are so real..
Ikr
I want to say that today officially... My scars have faded!!!! ❤
Omw that's amazing!!!!!!! I can't relate but omw that's so hard for it to go. im so happy For you!!!
Good job darling 🥰
@@SkateboardPhightingALPHA Thanks, it means a lot❤️❤️
@@Uzis_tail_but_for_how_long ^^
SO PROUD
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I love you when you forget me
I’m proud of you for getting some sleep
I’m proud of you for trying to sleep
I’m proud of you for waking up
I’m proud of you for getting up
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth
I proud of you for tending toward your braces
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I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it)
I’m proud of you that you got out of your room
I’m proud of you for getting dressed
I’m proud of you for eating breakfast
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I’m proud of you for being alive
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I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend
I won’t judge you for your looks
I won’t judge you from your race
I won’t judge you for your life
I won’t judge you for your family
I won’t judge you for your past/childhood
I won’t judge you for your body
I won’t judge you for your tears
I wont judge you for your age
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I wont judge you for your money
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You are beautiful
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You are everything you want to be
You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes
I wont judge you for anything
I'm so proud of you
I’m proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water.
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I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
You're not alone
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I'm proud of you and I love you so much,remember you will always be *my* first choice
I love this ❤️❤️
thanks mate
made me cry omg 😭
how the hell has this not have more likes-
Motherfucker, you just made my day. I love you too man. ❤
I'm learning how to comfort my friends so they won't be so sad and depressed... But a lot of the things I can't comfort them because is things I got through alone even if everyone knew I was going through those things I like comforting people and being there but I can't just say you'll get over it alone that would be to honest to the point it's sad......I'm bad at doing what I love I can't comfort anyone not even myself...
And I can't help them through it and not everyone gets through it :(
I was lied to there is random music in here. I don’t know if it’s for copyright issues or not but I don’t care. I’m angry.
Has nobody watched the whole video? THERE IS RANDOM MUSIC😭
11:23 it had random music
TH-cam blocked this video, I had to do it at the last minute, sorry
FINALLY. NO LOFI MUSIC WHILE IM HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN WHILE LISTENING TO IT😭😭🤚
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE NO RANDOM MUSIC I LOVE YOU SM❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
5:32 i just wanna say this specific tiktok got me into the stanley parable bc of the audio
3:40 got a little too relatable for comfort. anyone else feel the same?
I’m only 11 and I’m In therapy…
Same. None of us deserve this. The world. Has become so sh1tty with bullies, people are rasing money for bad mental health. But they can't use it on some kids that are "not sad enough to be mentally ill" but.. most of those kids are the ones that grow up with severe depression. I've have depression since i was nine. Started therapy online at 11, im 12 now and my parents still won't get me checked for depression or adhd. My mam doesn't belive me about me having depression. And my dad's really worried cause I told him I'm on the brink if killing myself.
No kids deserve this..
Same and I need some 😊
i had to do therapy IN SCHOOL when I was 11 I'm 12 now :(
Same I started therapy when I was 10-11.
Therapy never changed anything for me so I hope it can help you out :)
@@SkateboardPhightingALPHA hello. When I was your age I also lived that. Just know that you don't need anyone and that you're fine with yourself. Killing yourself will not change anything!
The day my mother found out I was doing sh the why she looked at me like I was a horrible person
You aren’t horrible person. She just doesn’t understand what you’re going through. You can vent if you want
You aren't a horrible person. I may not know anything about you but I believe you are an amazing person and you are loved. I've sh 'd threeish times in less than a year but I've stopped doing it and I believe that you can recover from sh and I just want you to know that you are loved, you're an amazing person, and one day you're going to look back and think: "I had a good reason to sh, but that's the past, and I've recovered now!" I hope you have the best life and I hope these words make you feel even the littlest but better even if you don't know who I am, and if you ever want to, you can vent to comment sections like on this video or other vent tiktok compilations like this. Have a good day/night!
Daily reminder.
Your skin isn't paper so don't cut it
Your body isn't a book so don't judge it
Your body isn't damaged so don't hate it
Finally
Your life isn't a movie so please don't end it.
Remeber you are loved and please don't hurt yourself.
Love you!!
Watching vent videos caz i have truma ❌
Watching vent videos caz there the vibe✅
I avoid crying because I’m ugly when I do it. It’s crazy that no one can notice!
Bro there is random music in there💀💀💀
Frrrrrrr like 4 times
The fact im crying at 2 in the morning due to pressure, blame, parents. Etc
Please stay healthy and clean. For us.
I’m literally living on makeup, lies, and my journal app on my phone to hide my dark circles, s/h scars, and me questioning my identity from my parents so I don’t have my electronics, knitting and sewing stuff, or privacy taken 😭
I don’t have backup friends but I have like 12 different friend groups that I hang out with at different times
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26:02 yup and that's why they're my fav animal :3.
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Sup ima vent..
At cross xountry practice my "best friend" started kicking for no reason and it was good joke at first but she didnt stop. And it hurt. I even asked her to stop, I told her to stop, but she didn't. I don't even know if were friends anymore, she avoids me or just doesn't talk to me. One day in L.A we were showing a really short storyy and she read mine and i asked her if it was good, she said it was terrible, with a straight face, not even in joking tone. When she was kicking me I told her I would tell someone but I don't think she believed me, I also told her our friendship would be over if she continued...she didn't stop. She didn't help the fact that I flich at a lot of stuff and now I'm kinda more sensitive to touch and I flinch more. I know she doesn't realize it, but when I get a friend I can trust, like her when we became friends, I make an emotional bond to that person, so I still admire her and want to be besties, but I know she doesn't want to, with how much she's avoiding me. And when I trust someone, even just a little bit, I vent to them without even realizing. I told her and another "friend" about my SH and $ui(idal shit and they thought I was joking or something, cuz they didn't take it seriously and didn't even ask if I was okay, or if I stopped, which I did, but now ima bout to ho grab the scissors from the cabinet + cross country is over, and it's colder out so no one will question why I'm wearing long sleeves.
Thanks for reading my Ted Talk.
11:17 i was so confused i thought my alarm was going off cause that sounds just like it 😭😭🙏
5:10 I feel like he/she should’ve had time on their own to tell their parents
Not like anyone would probably care but I had a panic attack today. It was in my ELA class, and my classmates were being loud, so my teacher waited for us to clam down, then was giving us a lecture. Now I dint like the lectures because I hate yelling due to truama (Ill talk abiut why soon) and because I always somehow convince myself its my fault. Then, she slap her hands to her sides and her eyes git wider as if she was saying “what? Cmon, speak” and my mind flashed back to a time a while ago when my step mom was yelling at me. A little backstory is she was yelling at me because I was getting lazy with hiding what I was doing on my phone, and she has parental controls on my phone, so she can see what Im doing. She was yelling about how I was exploring my gender and considering if I was trans (and I already came out as nonbinary to my real mom) and was also yelling at me fore getting help on things. My step mom makes me uncomfortable and she’s pushy with her beliefs and stuff, so I was texting my mom asking her for advice. Then, she said Im the reason her and my dad got divorced. She said IM the reason. As soon as my teacher did that it made me think of that time. My step mom did the exact same thing. My chest tightened and my skin got prickly and the color drained from my face, my eyes got wider, my heart was beating faster and I was breathing heaver and I was start to hyperventilate. My hands got sweaty and my face start burning as a black ring was forming around my vision, making this fuzzy and blurry as screaming voices were shrieking in my ear yelling the same unspeakable words said to that night were playing on repeat. Just as my head was getting lighter and my eyes started closing, I snapped back to reality on the verge of tears. Somehow, no one noticed. I grabbed my squishy I had to help with focusing and to clam myself down, I took some deep breaths and for the rest of the day acted normal. Anyways, so for listening to me yap, Im probably melting your ears off. Thanks for listening if you did, I appreciate it alot❤️❤️❤️
I always tried to be nice and happy but I always end up being nothing…….people think I don’t care but I do I really really do
How are you?
I feel terrible. I haven’t eaten since the 3 pancakes this morning but I feel to depressed to actually get up and eat. I hate myself right now and all I can do is laugh and hope for the best because nothing will come out my eyes. All I can do to express myself is write poetry and pretend as if I’m not losing interest in art and struggling everyday.
Im gonna eat a battery /j
I am feeling like how I felt when I was 9 , ✨️like a piece of shit✨️
I'm...good...my day was...good. (Says this after not getting out of bed today.)
My brain is a piece of crap. I'm doing good but I wanna FEEL. BAD!!!! HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY FLIPPING SENSE!?!?!?!?
Who else when they were younger wanted to live forever?but does not anymore?
tysm!! you just earned a subsribbler! anyways, I always feel like the third wheel all the time. im in 7th grade and this random [please excuse my language] ASS girl come in and "ruin" my friendship. i use character ai to cope sometimes by being a deranged, and crazed character of my choice, [often a character from a fandom im in, or an oc] and do crazy shit.
THANK YOU
The tt at 28:47 really, uh… hit hard. when i was a kid, i used to sob and beg my mom not to send me to my father’s house… but she had to. it was against the law to not, she would go to jail.. so it always hurt her to have to send me.
There’s literally random music in the video multiple times 💀
POV: you vented to your friends and you have to say your just kidding so that they aren't scared of you
7:42 OMG THEY CALLED ME OUT BROSKI WHATTTT
one of my friends keeps acting like we’re dating and flirting with me, i really don’t want them to do it but im scared we’ll drift apart if i say anything what do i do
I want to vent, and I feel this is the place. I once had a girlfriend when I was 9. She was 11. I don't remember much, other than us kissing and hugging. I don't think I even liked her, I was a confused 9 year old. She was about to turn 12 that next week. I tell her that she was the only one who made me feel whole, romantically, but she wasn't. All my friends don't like this girl, but I don't even remember our relationship.
21:01 what audio is this? (The carnival like music)
Sorry for being late, but the song name is called final duet by Farrah C. Barry!
@@The_GoofiestGooberEver thank you so much
My brother hates me…he hit me made me insecure and depressed…I don’t see him as family anymore
The Kyle one is so real,
I just wish that things weren't so hard. I just wish things could be good. I wish I was good.
I know I have it good compared to others, so I feel guilty for being how I am.
I'm a perfect straight A student.
I have "friends"
I keep it together so well.
I'm falling apart, but I know people who can't keep the shattered pieces together. So I automatically feel like I can't be upset. I'm too perfect to be imperfect.
This is probably just an incoherant vent, and I really don't want to be a burden. Please feel no obligation to read. I just need it out.
I'm a transmasc teenager, for context. Just chulk that on my list of "imperfections."
Always, since I was young, have I been praised. In every aspect of my life, I was always considered perfect. I was academically brilliant, I was quiet, but not too quiet, I made friends so easily. I was just perfect. I was praised by every adult around me, and I internalized that. Now I really only receive external validation, I can't be perfect if others don't know I'm perfect.
This leads me to hide everything wrong with my existence, my deeply flawed being.
I have a deep personal moral reservation against lying, but I'm a pathological liar, I can't help it at this point. I'm a mess. Yet, I will be honest, for once.
I'm a terrible excuse for a human.
I have terrible body image issues, and some disordered eating habits, but they're not "that bad."
My dad is verbally abusive, and terribly transphobic.
My sleep schedule is terrible.
I overwork myself to the point I'm basically not a human, and for what? to keep up appearances?
I have terrible intrusive thoughts and compulsions.
I have no energy
I put up a wall between me and everyone I meet. I'm just a facade at this point.
I'm mean. Yes, mean. To my little brother. Perfect, kind, doesn't even curse, me, is an absolutely horrible person to my little brother.
I'm never going to truly be loved.
I have active and vivid suicidal ideation.
Y'know the two people I love and care for most in this world. The ones I consider my best friends. Will never love me as much as they love each other. They started dating recently, and our regular hangouts have basically become their dates with me as a third wheel. They were practically dating already, but now it's surefire. They are the only two people who get a slightly less filtered version of me, and they will never care for me as much as they do for each other.
I've started feeling guilty every time I eat. I now only eat 1.5 meals a day, and I feel like a disgusting slob everytime I put food in my mouth.
I have been sedintary for like a year, because my work took precedent over everything. I'm trying to exercise, but I hate it, and I know I shouldn't.
The rest of my friends don't really know me practically at all. To them, I'm Bee: The straight A student, honest to a fault, socially, and generally oblivious, not online, young, very sheltered, kind, caring, smart, one. I'm "the mentally stable one." I get great sleep. I skipped a grade. I'm as close to perfect as you can get.
"How does he do it?"
He's slowly killing himself. He's a pathological liar. But they couldn't possibly fathom that. I'm just "that good."
None of them even truly love me either. I'm the new addition to the group. The weird kid they adopted because it's hard to make friends in such a tight-knit community.
Some of my peers make it look so easy. How? How do they get succeed?
I was such a mature child, but now I've ended up an immature and fundamentally broken teenager.
I don't know how I'm going to make it through junior year.
I went to an extremely strenuous "gifted" kid middle school. I got straight A's. How is it that I feel like I'm dying at the "easy hippie school" what kind of karmic retribution is that. What have I done wrong?
WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
I did everything right. I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT.
I have done everything right. My whole life. MY WHOLE LIFE.
I WAS PERFECT. I WAS PERFECT.
was.
Hey ml, I'm so sorry you're going thru this. I just wanted to tell you, you're feelings are 100% valid. it's not a competition. It doesn't matter who has it 'worse'. Everyone deserves to be heard. You can't judge someone from the outside. Even the most perfect-looking folks can be suffering inside. But you're not a 'terrible excuse for a human'. Being a human is about having flaws and imperfections. Every single person around you has flaws and struggles at certain things.
Focus more on your mental and physical heath instead of being "perfect".
Stop hiding your flaws. It doesn't matter how "perfect" you are, if you hide yourself while putting tons of pressure on yourself, you wont be happy.
I hope you have a good day, stay safe
4:16 my mom told me she thinks I’m a sociopath. I wasn’t sure if she knew 💯 what a sociopath is so I showed her a short and she still said “yeah, I know” 💀
I wanna disappear. I don’t necessary want to die but I just don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want to live. I’m tired of being hurt by the people I love, I want to stop realising things about people who I thought were good. I don’t want to loose more people, I don’t want anymore nightmares of dieing or getting someone else died. I can’t deal anymore! My brain is literally trumatizing me! I get nightmares of my family dieing in my arms, of drowning, of getting sa’d, of kms, of ruining other peoples life’s and loosing my friends. I can’t deal with it! Im scared to sleep for god same!
I dont feel like the back up freind…i AM the back up freind
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Tw: sh/neglect-ish
Why do my parents not love me..? Or maybe they do maybe I’m just a little attention seeker wanting comfort for no reason because my parents won’t understand and the only reason I think that is because the last time I did they said you would beat me and take all my art supplies I didn’t wnat them to take my art supplies so I just went to my room and stopped eating for a few weeks then I started to play fruit ninja on my arms with my sharpener and I tried I hang up my clothes but I was in them i got caught and put in a place with some ppl and I stayed there for a bit :) but I have been clean for a while…but I don’t think I will stay clean anymore…I feel disgusting and gross and worthless and I don’t think I’m making it past 18 anyway that’s just a little vent sorry if it hit a trigger
My brother always remember me how lucky i was because my parents treated me better than him but that not true, he left when i was almost 7 i lived with them like "that" for other 5 years (I think) and when he lived with us he was never home just like our mom and my dad , well my dad is understandable he had to work but my mom just left me ours in the streets or the house alone for hours to use drogs and when she doesn't used it she could get angry at me for nothing even beating me up, i burned because they left me alone, i almost got abused because she had use too much drugs to look up for me and didn't even got the police because she was scared they cloud get she in prison, she teach me how to steal, how i had to behave in front of is friends so i couldn't be in danger, how to lie, how i was the only thing tgat hold my dad with her, how to drink, a lot of things happen to me, thing's that shouldn't have happen, and still i am the "treated good" child. I still live with them but that have changed a lot, but i can forgive them so the next year im going to leave them after telling all the things that i have experience without they even know.
*step dad who is jokeing abt me stealing his candy: 😮*
*me who has been "fasting" for 2 days: 💅*
why do they say no random music but random music apears?
What is the sound used at 3:34
Thats how i felt for XC I got 3 minutes off my time and then this year I barely got 1 minute off my time😢
Edit: Story time so my bday is in 2 days and last year my then kept forgetting to give me my bday present. He ghosted me, and i stiil wonder if he even made a present for me and what was it? I still miss him:(
I had a friend group at my old school right? , and one day after school I invited them to my house for a sleepover. On of the girls called herself the mom of the group. And she asked us “have yall ever cut yourself or are you planning to?” Me who barely knew sa was a thing said no and she explained it was a coping mechanism. I was only 11..
6:00 literally real bro.
HELP BUT THERES RANDOM MUSIC?!
4:58 CAR SEAT GEADRWST SPOTTED sorry chat im veryfixated
FINALLY.
7:43 does anybody know the song for this??
There was still random music
Im losing all my friends
I hate my body
Have bad gender dysphoria
Mom died
Dad left
Severe social anxiety to the point I can’t talk to friends well
Losing identity
Depressed
Suicidal
I can’t do this shit much longer .how are parents so fucking clueless. Like they don’t see me having a small breakdown every day…
Sensitive topics.
Tbh, im on the brink of ending it.
I can't do it though cause if i did it would ruin my family,
So the only thing i do is self harm.
I dont even have that sharp of a tool.
And if i dont see scars then my brain keeps telling me that they arnt there and that they need to be there and now i cant stop cause.
Its the closest i can get to killing my self
I can only do this on my stomach cause i dont own to many long sleeved shirts, and im known as "the swimmer" so if i wear a swim suit then people would see.
So now ive butchered the hell out of my stomach.
If i tell my therapist then guess who would be sent to the mental hospital.
My uncle just got out of there, so it would feel kinda weird.
It feels like if i did open up about this then no one would focus on him and all the attention would go to me.
I want him to be cared for, so im not going to talk about it.
Only here i will talk about it cause i know that they wont see this.
Its the only place i can talk.
Sorry if i made anyone sad
I just needed to vent,
Hope everyone else is doing ok!!!! :3
15:52 How I feel when I'm in an arguement that had something to do with me (in which those kind of arguements are usually caused by me being negative and pessimistic)
FINALLY
when i was a oid or until now if i feel like cryjng in class suddenly i tell laugh while crying and when my friends aask me if i was ok i always just tell them OH! HAHA i just remeber somethi g funny im fine! they ask again the why are you cryjng? because i cant stop laughing that my stomach is hurts so much haha! i say
And then there's rando music.
What does Blk mean??
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11:19 “No random music”
???
Title: No random music!
Video : *proceeds to have random music*
There's still random music :/
“No random music!” wth is 17:34 then…🤨🤨🤨 (not hating…just questioning why u be lying..)
Does anyone know the song from 5:37 - 5:46?
There was random music 😃
I clicked to ovoid random Musik, and still got some 😭😭😢
There’s 911 likes rn. I better call 911 lol
17:02 song please
Eek by surasshu :)
@@That1guy-e74 thanks!!!
12:22 random music
17:34
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2:55 this
3:34 this too
Parents are so oblivious to their childrens feelings my parent is giving therapy not because of my mom dying my dad leaving moving out of state or my gender dysphoria nope it’s because my parent heard it was good for you on a PODCAST . I know therapy is good but seriously wtf
To true 8:25 23:48 also thxxxx❤
There is random music, fuck you talking about?
Markiplier?...
11:17 misleading title.
Hah! All my trauma started at 7 hehe I’m so silly!1!1!1!1! And I don’t fucking mean this in a good way ISTG I ducking hate my life everything sucks I’m only nine and have hyper sexuality can someone actually help me soon?!
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Wrong time
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The first Monday after I sh’d for the first time (my parents found out pretty quickly so they knew) I was having trouble hiding my cuts so I went to the nurse and asked for a big bandaid and she forced me to tell her why and so I showed her and she forced me to tell the counselor against my own will and then instead of giving me a bandaid she gave me a NEON GREEN WRAP. I still hate her for it. Every single teacher and friend started asking questions and I got so many eyes on me. I hated it.
Hey ml, I'm so sorry that happened. That nurse sounds cruel. That must've felt horrible :(
Also, you shouldn't have to tell the nurse or counselor those sort of things against ur will. That was a personal issue and the nurse had no business getting involved.
@@coco_x_x thank you
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"no random music"
No one cares.
tf is wrong with you, these are REAL people struggling, and why'd you click on this video if nobody cares?
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