I hope you know how brave you are. Not just for battling OCD but for sharing this story. Your story is honest and real, and it will make people suffering with POCD feel less alone. Thank you!
I love this video, I can relate to it so much. POCD really made me feel like a monster that didn’t deserve forgiveness or even a minute of joy in life.
My pocd makes me obsess about past conversations on apps, I don’t remember how one went and I know I felt gross when they told me they weren’t the age that should have been on this app. It only resurfaced recently due to rumination, if anything happened, I’m sure I would of ruminated years ago about it from the gecko cause I always felt that fear I ruminate on when in the conversation did they say or send certain things prior or after they disclosed their real age I would have remembered this situation, as my ocd around this theme, was activated prior to this specific person who I talked to who shouldn’t of been on an adult app. I never thought of this other person till like 6 years later, now... why :(
@@dylannicks1146 The thing with me is that- I’ve never flirted with ANYBODY online, nor have I ever had intensions to. It’s just- I’ve made certain ‘jokes’ and spoke about certain topics with others, some around my age (I was 15-16 at the time and I’m 17 now)) and others a bit younger. Because of what I’ve said, wheather it’s a joke or anything else has lead me to serious panic attacks. I constantly wonder ‘what if’ and it gets absolutely terrifying… I know.. others may say “well.. you were young and kids make mistakes” but.. I just can’t shake it..
We all make mistakes, man. Try to (without ruminating about the past) tackle your current beliefs about those particular events from your past to establish a more rational view of yourself. I'm sorry, I really am. This must be really shit right now. But it doesn't have to always be
very interesting video I recognize myself well. I think I may have pocd, but have not had it confirmed by a psychologist/doctor if I have a diagnosis of ocd. I'm waiting for an appointment. I am very excited to receive an answer
For 6 years I suffered from HOCD, but now I'm developing another theme that I'm not even sure if it's even OCD, I think I might have POCD, I started to be afraid that I might be attracted to little children, I look at pictures of little girls on the internet to see what I feel, I have intrusive thoughts but not as often as with HOCD and I think they are not as bothersome, I feel the urge to want to do something with them, but it doesn't seem forced , it's like I really want this, I then start to sound and feel my body get hotter, I can't tell if I'm really attracted to kids or if it's just POCD, I don't want to be a monster and I want to be attracted to girls my age, help!
Stop checking to see if you're attracted to them or not. Whether or not it's just pOCD or if you are actually a P, you still have OCD so the checking is a compulsion. Everyone with POCD has been in this situation. I know people who have been in this exact situation. Are you different? Are you a P? Maybe, maybe not. Stop trying to look for answers because you're just prolonging the horror of it. I shouldn't tell you this, because I'm giving you reassurance which isn't good for you in the long term, but OCD can make you feel as if you are aroused to the point where your body physically reacts in that way. That isn't genuine arousal, it's the opposite. Google "groinal response OCD" and only look at reliable sites, don't look on reddit or quora or unofficial, unscientific BS. After that, never do any compulsions again as much as possible - no checking, no ruminating, no reassurance-seeking, no confessions or you will nake it worse in the long run. It sounds harsh but I've had OCD for well over a decade like many people here and I truly just want the best for you. I hate that other people share this illness with me, it's no joke
I’ve been trying to message u to find out where did u get treatment in Bristol please ? I’m currently in Bristol and struggling I’m paying an absolute fortune on nocd and can’t afford it anymore
Hello, my question is, how did you finally got rid of the POCD and how did you finally got OUT of these intrusive POCD-thoughts? What I mean is, we all know that once we got in this OCD-cycle, but HOW to get OUT of this shit again?
Stop doing the compulsions and looking for answers or a way out. Embrace the pain as much as you can and don't expect answers. It's very, very excruciating but the experience will improve you as a person. It's easier said than done, it takes practice but human beings are much tougher than you think, you included. I thought it was impossible with OCD.. until I persisted bravely and with discipline. You CAN do it, because I can. If I can do it, so can you
A couple of months ago I have this ugly dream,in wich my son put his fingers in my vagina(Disgusting I know)I never had intrusive thoughts until that day.(at least I think they are intrusive thoughts)Now,almost every day I see that image in my head.Then anxiety starts with questions like What if I like that?what if I am a pedofile and thats the reason that image keep comming in my head?Why this image is still there?What if I do something?Then when I see other kids again I start asking those questions and that image keep runing thru my head😔😔Then I start cry,and feel shame,and its hard even to tell someone because I am scared of their reaction.I just dont know how to handle it.I love my son more than anything in this world,I am a great Mother I know that,and this really scares me 😔please can someone just tell me what is wrong with me?Since that dream my thoughts sometimes are just worse,and I dont know how to handle it,I feel like Im the only person with this.I just dont know what to do.😔Sometimes Im scared to just look at my son or other kids because Im scared that I will get thoughts.This is so scary.Please Sam can you help me how to get rid of this because Im so sick to feel this way.I just want to enjoy with my son and my daughter,and it's so hard with this thoughts sometimes.😢😢
Thoughts don't equal your actions, I understand what you're going through, but actively trying to remove the thoughts from your head makes it worse. I'd recommend a psychologist or a therapist that specializes in ocd to talk to, if you inform them that these are just intrusive images and not intentions, you likely will not get in any trouble for it if theyre a good therapist. Also remember that bad and dangerous people are not afraid of being dangerous and bad. just the fact that you're afraid shows that you arent a bad person at all, please remember that. you arent alone in this, ive been struggling similarly but recovery takes time and patience. you are not disgusting, you are not a monster, you are a great person, I'm sure of it.
I hope you know how brave you are. Not just for battling OCD but for sharing this story. Your story is honest and real, and it will make people suffering with POCD feel less alone. Thank you!
100%!
You’re welcome! 💪🏻😊
I love this video, I can relate to it so much. POCD really made me feel like a monster that didn’t deserve forgiveness or even a minute of joy in life.
I relate to what you said so much. Thanks for this
Been suffering for a year now, thank you for sharing!
13:37 thank you for sharing your experiences. Can you speak to ways you worked on not having expectations for events, situations, outings etc?
Yes! Love this Sam, you're explanation and struggle is crucial for others to hear.
Thanks Nick! 💪🏻
My pocd makes me obsess about past conversations on apps, I don’t remember how one went and I know I felt gross when they told me they weren’t the age that should have been on this app. It only resurfaced recently due to rumination, if anything happened, I’m sure I would of ruminated years ago about it from the gecko cause I always felt that fear
I ruminate on when in the conversation did they say or send certain things prior or after they disclosed their real age
I would have remembered this situation, as my ocd around this theme, was activated prior to this specific person who I talked to who shouldn’t of been on an adult app. I never thought of this other person till like 6 years later, now... why :(
Damn- our.. situations are extremely similar.
I’m happy to know I’m not alone with my situation, and I hope your doing okay bro..
@@BigOlGojifan you too, I understand what your feeling
@@dylannicks1146
The thing with me is that- I’ve never flirted with ANYBODY online, nor have I ever had intensions to.
It’s just- I’ve made certain ‘jokes’ and spoke about certain topics with others, some around my age (I was 15-16 at the time and I’m 17 now)) and others a bit younger.
Because of what I’ve said, wheather it’s a joke or anything else has lead me to serious panic attacks.
I constantly wonder ‘what if’ and it gets absolutely terrifying…
I know.. others may say “well.. you were young and kids make mistakes” but.. I just can’t shake it..
@@dylannicks1146 yeah and it tends to be very scary having these thought, hope you get better man..
We all make mistakes, man. Try to (without ruminating about the past) tackle your current beliefs about those particular events from your past to establish a more rational view of yourself. I'm sorry, I really am. This must be really shit right now. But it doesn't have to always be
very interesting video I recognize myself well. I think I may have pocd, but have not had it confirmed by a psychologist/doctor if I have a diagnosis of ocd. I'm waiting for an appointment. I am very excited to receive an answer
📧 phil@ocdrecovery.com we will respond today!
Please can we talk. 25 years here.. everything you said is exactly true. Never heard it so close to me
For 6 years I suffered from HOCD, but now I'm developing another theme that I'm not even sure if it's even OCD, I think I might have POCD, I started to be afraid that I might be attracted to little children, I look at pictures of little girls on the internet to see what I feel, I have intrusive thoughts but not as often as with HOCD and I think they are not as bothersome, I feel the urge to want to do something with them, but it doesn't seem forced , it's like I really want this, I then start to sound and feel my body get hotter, I can't tell if I'm really attracted to kids or if it's just POCD, I don't want to be a monster and I want to be attracted to girls my age, help!
Stop checking to see if you're attracted to them or not. Whether or not it's just pOCD or if you are actually a P, you still have OCD so the checking is a compulsion.
Everyone with POCD has been in this situation. I know people who have been in this exact situation. Are you different? Are you a P? Maybe, maybe not. Stop trying to look for answers because you're just prolonging the horror of it.
I shouldn't tell you this, because I'm giving you reassurance which isn't good for you in the long term, but OCD can make you feel as if you are aroused to the point where your body physically reacts in that way. That isn't genuine arousal, it's the opposite. Google "groinal response OCD" and only look at reliable sites, don't look on reddit or quora or unofficial, unscientific BS.
After that, never do any compulsions again as much as possible - no checking, no ruminating, no reassurance-seeking, no confessions or you will nake it worse in the long run.
It sounds harsh but I've had OCD for well over a decade like many people here and I truly just want the best for you.
I hate that other people share this illness with me, it's no joke
Thank you for this. If you could recommend one book, what would it be?
Books on the reading list 🙂
Thanks so much for your video, I'm having EMDR while waiting for ERP therapy will EMDR help
EMDR is not recommended for OCD
I’ve been trying to message u to find out where did u get treatment in Bristol please ? I’m currently in Bristol and struggling I’m paying an absolute fortune on nocd and can’t afford it anymore
📧 phil@ocdrecovery.com for info on our services!
Hello, my question is, how did you finally got rid of the POCD and how did you finally got OUT of these intrusive POCD-thoughts?
What I mean is, we all know that once we got in this OCD-cycle, but HOW to get OUT of this shit again?
Hey Christine - Acceptance as Sam mentions in all his videos 🙂
Stop doing the compulsions and looking for answers or a way out. Embrace the pain as much as you can and don't expect answers.
It's very, very excruciating but the experience will improve you as a person. It's easier said than done, it takes practice but human beings are much tougher than you think, you included.
I thought it was impossible with OCD.. until I persisted bravely and with discipline. You CAN do it, because I can. If I can do it, so can you
A couple of months ago I have this ugly dream,in wich my son put his fingers in my vagina(Disgusting I know)I never had intrusive thoughts until that day.(at least I think they are intrusive thoughts)Now,almost every day I see that image in my head.Then anxiety starts with questions like What if I like that?what if I am a pedofile and thats the reason that image keep comming in my head?Why this image is still there?What if I do something?Then when I see other kids again I start asking those questions and that image keep runing thru my head😔😔Then I start cry,and feel shame,and its hard even to tell someone because I am scared of their reaction.I just dont know how to handle it.I love my son more than anything in this world,I am a great Mother I know that,and this really scares me 😔please can someone just tell me what is wrong with me?Since that dream my thoughts sometimes are just worse,and I dont know how to handle it,I feel like Im the only person with this.I just dont know what to do.😔Sometimes Im scared to just look at my son or other kids because Im scared that I will get thoughts.This is so scary.Please Sam can you help me how to get rid of this because Im so sick to feel this way.I just want to enjoy with my son and my daughter,and it's so hard with this thoughts sometimes.😢😢
Don’t worry. Follow the advice here and just live as if you didn’t have these thoughts/feelings. Just focus on actions. Those are what matter
Thoughts don't equal your actions, I understand what you're going through, but actively trying to remove the thoughts from your head makes it worse. I'd recommend a psychologist or a therapist that specializes in ocd to talk to, if you inform them that these are just intrusive images and not intentions, you likely will not get in any trouble for it if theyre a good therapist. Also remember that bad and dangerous people are not afraid of being dangerous and bad. just the fact that you're afraid shows that you arent a bad person at all, please remember that. you arent alone in this, ive been struggling similarly but recovery takes time and patience. you are not disgusting, you are not a monster, you are a great person, I'm sure of it.