I cried so hard, I still do but I'm finding relief because every word is how I feel. I've lost my son took his life, my daughter overdosed & my g'kids got excommunicated from me. I lay in my bed & all their things are around me. I questioned God, I feel failure & blame myself. What could I have done. I sat there during the Holidays & I felt like you see in the movies where I'm almost in a tunnel & I'm just thinking I don't even know these people. I used to be such a butterfly & now I'm just so very lost. I just feel like I've lost my place in life. Every word of this song hit home. Bruised walls. I have literally been up against my wall just pounding cause it hurts so bad. I'm so alone but this song has help me so much. REN has helped me so much. I'm getting those feelings out in music & I love music but I have never related to an artist like I have his to music.
I just want to start by saying you're not a failure. I'm so sorry for your losses and everything that that has put you through. Pain from loss can feel so overwhelming, especially when we find ourselves feeling alone as well, but know that you're not alone. The power of Ren's music alone helps us to understand that we're not alone, as it connects to us emotionally and knowing that someone is able to relate means that on some level we're going through similar experiences, meaning we're not alone. On top of that, however, you have the people of this community who are here for you, myself included. You said you WERE such a butterfly, but I think you're still that butterfly, you're just going through a metamorphosis. Life may not have gone the way one hopes or you intended so far, but your future is going to bring you joys that you may not have ever considered. Sending you lots of love
Much love to you. None of this is your fault. You've done the best you could in any moment. As Ren asks in Dear God: "Do we even choose" (our own destiny)? Ren seems to wrestle with that question a lot and I've wondered a lot about this, too. When I'm so stuck that I can't seem to escape, can I really choose to get out? I think the answer is both (a paradox). I recommend Thomas Huebl's work on individual, ancestral, and collective trauma. Take care. The butterfly is still there, dormant. ❤
You Sir are the finest reactor for those of us who have unwittingly fallen into the Ren rabbit hole. Baring your soul with genuine, gentle and thoughtful insights.
Thank you so much :) I really appreciate it. It's been a gift for me to be able to share these videos with all of you, and to spark such genuine conversations to be a part of. I honestly can't tell you enough how happy I am that so many of us have been able to connect in this way. Much love
Did anyone catch that this video takes place on the bridge? Not a "rooftop" as some people assume. This is both profoundly beautiful and deeply personal, in the extreme. This _"How can I even be me... in the absence of you"_ is such a powerful sentiment.
I didn't actually know exactly how his friend ended up doing it, but this makes the video hit even harder knowing that. Great catch. Man the last lines I had to stifle the tears. It's just so real. I feel like I was listening to a private moment that I shouldn't be, which is what makes Ren's music so beautiful because he chooses to let us see the inside of his mind and soul. Much love
What @@Veeliscious said. That is my understanding, too -- that this performance is on the bridge where his friend chose to end his life. It makes it the performance even more of a gut punch. The circumstances of the event to which the song is referring also makes me think that the on the *surface* relatively upbeat-sounding "over and over we go, over the hills and the valleys below" has a really tragic connotation of going over the edge (literally and figuratively). It's a hell of a song, and absolutely tough to listen to every single time; especially the ending.
Thank you shadow A My son chose to do this by going homeless to do drugs. Once they do there is nothing under the law that you can do to get them back. It’s their choice to make. Even if you can find them there’s no recourse legally they have the right to do it. I did get closure however. His body was found at a recycling center coming off of the collection truck Somebody thought it was a sex doll. I can pay to find out the cause of death but what’s the point? I have his ashes and that’s what I’m left with. He wanted the state to take care of him since I wouldn’t and he’d already pariahtised every family member that would take him in. And I did so many times. Your analysis of this video is heartfelt and your words very kind. I think in this current aeternity many are not able to remember how to be anything but depression and sadness. When society encourages us not to be self responsible and gravitate towards victimization there are many holes to fall through. Much love and encouragement to all those going thru this🌺❤️🔥🦋
I'm so sorry for your loss, Christi. This kind of loss is just so difficult. I've lost people close to me but never my child, so I can't say that I know exactly how you're feeling, but I want you to know that you're not alone in this. I wish it had turned out for the best, but I'm glad that you got closure. Though we can't bring back those who we've lost, we can keep them alive in our hearts, which you do. Much much love to you
Heartbreaking Christi. My partner was in addiction for many years, whilst he is alive and in recovery now (we are no longer together) I understand how immensely hard it is to not become an enabler, and even harder to not fall victim to their manipulations to get money out of you as they self medicate their pain - I've been left with £30k debts as I wasn't strong enough - that nearly took me to ending my life instead several times. It's a devastating situation for all involved including those suffering addition. I pray your son at peace now and that you can find peace in accepting everything you did for him was for love and his - and the rest of your family's - highest good
I lost my daughter 3 years ago to an overdose after she fought mental illness and addiction for 20 years. She was in my life for 38 years. My husband died almost a year later. I hang onto Ren for dear life. I wish she were here to "meet" Ren and now Chinchilla. As for my daughter, as Ren said "I miss you so". My heart is broken forever but somehow Ren, you are helping me. Glad I found you.
Literally their songs so far have been just so powerful. Like you mentioned, to be able to put all of this into music means his experiences up until this point have just been so crushing, and yet he still shares this pain with us which is beautiful. Much love
You are very good at understanding much of the feelings, thoughts, and nuances of the original performance. And all of these positive comments seem to relate. Now just imagine if you didn't completely butcher the actual song during the reaction. I challenge anyone to scroll through this reaction and find a moment they are actually performing rather than him talking. I randomly selected 10 different moments and only once did I catch a moment of them singing. Even as a reactor - you are destroying the performance for yourself, too
First of all, thank you for the compliment :) I really appreciate it. In regards to the butchering, so to speak, there are two things I'd like to mention. This is one of my earlier videos when I was first getting introduced to Ren and Chinchilla and hadn't done reactions before, so this definitely isn't my most succinct work. Though the other, and I think the more important part, is that this is a reaction, as you also mentioned. It's meant to be the thoughts and feelings that arise when I'm watching the art that these two created, and speaks volumes of how powerful their music is if it evokes that kind of reaction. If someone wants to listen to the song, specifically, they can (and should) listen to the original video instead of listening to my commentary. I've improved the way I approach the reactions since, but even if I hadn't I would rather butcher the video and provide a breakdown because there are a fair few who watch the videos and English is not their first language so they come here for an understanding of the meanings behind the words and I'd rather that they also enjoyed it than I actively just skip past things so that it gets more "viewable." Thank you for taking the time to comment. I appreciate your watching of the video, even if it wasn't to your taste. Much love
The fact they travelled all the way to Wales to film this on the Menai Bridge which his best friend Joe Hughes jumped from is simply heartbreaking. They are just incredible.
I've been in both of these positions; first the person left behind, and then 21 years later the person who gave up and took their own life (or attempted to). You hit the nail on the head with just about everything you said. And Ren... Just blows me away a little more with every single thing I find of his. Truly one of THE most talented humans of our time. I was lucky enough to have a coworker send me 'Hi Ren' 2 weeks after my suicide attempt. Changed my life; not in a huge way, but enough to make me want to stick around and see what he'll do next. Sometimes it's just the smallest thing that can change one life, and in turn, change many.
This is the perfect encapsulation of that "grief paralysis". If you've ever been hit with that terrible black wave, learning a loved one is gone forever, every scintilla of energy leaves your body. Everything ceases to function and slows to a crawl, except senses to observe your immediate surroundings. You over examine everything, inside and out. A stain on a wall could become a bruise. Your own breath echos like walls and floors full of ghosts. The room you're in is the very literal tomb you have in the forefront of your mind. Only time can heal and it might not even be a guarantee. A wonderful appraisal of a very special talent. Thank you.
You said this so perfectly. It's just that, like everything in the world falling away and your insides bubbling up to the surface to create a cage that keeps you feeling trapped. I really appreciate your consideration of this, thank you. Much love
I found this video (and comment) wayyyy late, but you're so precisely right. I'm sorry for the loss you experienced that allowed you to perfectly capture in words the 10 or so hours I lived immediately after my mom passed abruptly.
No way... That's even more dreadful. I can't imagine the layer of sadness that it would add not to see them for one last time. Heartbreaking. Much love
Thanks for such a heartfelt reaction to this! Something I find really cool about this song is that it tells 2 perspectives at the same time. The first is Ren putting himself in his friend's shoes, what it's like to be in the kind of deep, dark depressive state that would lead to someone making that decision. Not feeling 'safe in these halls' being the mind, 'bruises on the walls' being past traumas, 'bodies in the floors' the call of death in the back of your mind. Not knowing who you are anymore because depression strips that from you. The second is coming from his own experience of what happened, painting a picture of the loss and emptiness that follows from having someone close to you make that decision, not knowing how to be you anymore without them in your life. The whole song can be heard through either of those perspectives and each line holds a double meaning which I think is just so brilliant. Its a very dark but very beautiful song, thank you for covering it.
Yeah I didn't really think about the other perspective until we got to the end of the song, but I relistened to the song with that in mind and the ability to cater to two perspectives with the same words is astounding. The way you said this is perfect, that's exactly the duality of it and it's breathtaking in the sense of the beauty of the song but also the heartache of the song. Love your explanation and thank you for the support. Much love
I love that perspective, @Apollo Rising. I've listened to this song a *lot*. It's my favourite Ren piece so far - it's beautifully devastating, the harmonies are astonishing, and Chinchilla is amazing here. But the more I listened to it and absorbed the lyrics, the more confused I was about who exactly was speaking to us. The end bit is obviously Ren, no confusion there. But was the rest Ren telling us his story, his reaction to his friend's death? Or was it Ren putting himself in his friend's head and telling the story from that side? I swung between each possibility almost every time I listened, unable to decide. You have resolved it perfectly, it's *both*. Thank you. This man impresses me more and more every day I spend down the rabbit hole. He really is a total feckin' genius.
Well Said. Much love and respect from The UK. A Jungle Massive Big Up to Ren and Chinchilla. It's about time decent Raw music was bought back to our ears.
Haha, you're definitely right. This is brilliant, touching, captivating, and all of the positive expressions one could think of for music because damn, the emotion that this song evokes and conveys is just on another level. Much love from Canada :)
The pain of losing a friend is something that never goes away. It’s been years now and I still cry at a simple thought of him. I still have videos on my phone of him just so I can hear his voice sometimes. This song hits a spot in my soul very few things can touch. It actually gave me the courage to post a song I wrote called Lessons. I write to help with my own issues and wasn’t planning on ever showing it to anyone but if I can touch a single person the way this song touches me, why wouldn’t I put it out there? Music can be so powerful and it’s a shame to think about how many masterpieces are out there sitting on someone’s computer never to be heard by anyone. I think Ren will inspire a huge wave of new artists to come out of hiding and finally share their words with the people!
First of all, I love Lessons. I can feel your pain through the lyrics and the way you perform it. It's that kind of pain that's born from so much love and for you to carry on his legacy like that is beautiful. Thank you for bearing your soul both in the song and here. When I lost my grandma, who was very important in my life, I remember how much music helped to support me through that time so you're right, the power of music is incomparable. Much love to you for your strength, creativity, and just being a fantastic person.
This is probably my favourite of all of Ren's songs. To me the lyrics can be taken from both Ren's point of view and also from that of the friend who took his own life. Great reaction as always.
It's definitely true. I listened to it again with that in mind, and it's insane the ability Ren has to write such complex emotions from so many different perspectives. Gotta love his talent. Thanks for the support :) Much love
They're definitely on the way. Sorry it's been so long haha, but they're definitely in my sights. I've also heard that Crutch is very emotional so I'm preparing myself for that one as well. Much love
The way I've always interpreted this duet was as a duet between the friend who committed suicide (characterised by Chinchilla and her ghost-like singing) and the friend who was left behind, Ren. Showing how the first one felt the weeks before they took their life and while doing so, and how the one left behind feels the time after it, thus giving a lot of the lines a double meaning from two different sides, like for example "I can't breathe" as literally not being able to breathe because of suicide but also not being able to breathe through your own crying/tears . Most lines in the song could have this double meaning to it.
Holy smokes! Your reaction is right up there with the music! I've listened to How To Be Me 100's of times with reactors and without. You've brought even more meaning to it. Bravo❤
Your breakdowns of songs are so thoughtful & in depth. I find myself echoing your thoughts & nodding along furiously at times just because I feel it that strongly. I recced your reaction to Hi, Ren in the comments on the original video because I know Ren watches reactions to his songs, & I really thought he should see it. Your appreciation of artists & their music is so apparent in the care you take with each song you listen to & analyze. You're probably my favorite person who does this, & I've thoroughly enjoyed everything I've seen from you so far. Thank you for always being so considerate of those going through hard times, dealing with physical &/or mental illnesses, & just generally being an awesome human being. 😊
Thank you so much, seriously. Not only for your support and kindness, but for recommending me to Ren like that. I really appreciate it. To take the time and consideration to do that is something I can't thank you enough for. I think we're all here to experience life together, and for those that are going through struggles in any way, shape, or form, it's even more important that they know that we're a community, so to hear you thanking me for that actually brings tears to my eyes. Much love, and thanks for being amazing
Thank you for saying that. The light and love is the reason I wanted to start this channel. Hearing you say that is one of the greatest compliments, so thank you for saying that and for taking the time to watch Aidan :) Much love
That has been at the core of my heart for some time now. It really took root when my grandma passed away and I realized that the way that we keep people alive is by talking about them and sharing their stories. It's not immortality in the biological sense, but talking about them, sharing their experiences and lessons, etc, is how we keep their energy and memory alive long after they're gone. Much love Stranger
What a fantastic reaction. I especially loved your analysis of hiw much we need to be connected, intimately, right now, during this time in history where there are so many pent up emotions; so much hurt, sadness, anger, rage... So many whose emotions have not been seen and acknowledged. I loved how in tune you were with not only the lyrics, but also the tapestry of their voices together.
Two incredible artists come together and make something otherworldly. I have so much respect for these two not just together but individually. I’m 50 yrs old and I’m so impressed with their talents. I just can’t get enough. Thank you for your touching words and caring soul.
I am up all night now watching reactors and of all of them I think you are spot on and are my favorite. Sometimes you are saying what I think and sometimes I learn something I didn't see. Loving Ren so much and wanting the world to see and hear him....I tell everyone!
😊 It seems like she starts late, but they are singing in a 'round' during that one part, like when you were little and you would sing with others "row, row, row your boat....". It's great because she doesn't actually catch up, she just stops her line to go back to singing in unison with him. Lovely❤
ROUNDS! That's what it's called. I was trying to think of the name of it because my friends and I will sit there and go back and forth like that when we're singing a song, but for the life of me I couldn't remember. Thank you so much haha. You're right, the way they do it here is absolutely amazing, and the way they unify at the end is almost as though both voices are now synched, which is a great touch. Much love!
Maybe I'm wrong but I took the baptism line has just as been soaked with sweat from the fear of talking to the dead cause when you're baptized you're doused with holy water it's communion you get accepted by the faith
Oh man, I didn't consider it as you being accepted by the faith. That adds even more depth to it, especially if faith is in reference to those that have passed. Very nice insight. Much love
Very insightful reaction! I totally agree with you about the musical representation of crying. That’s a very good way to describe it. ETA: Rencore. Yes.
Man I love the way you break these down! The things you say brings so much more out of Ren's art for me and gets me thinking even more. Appreciate what you do bro!
YOU'RE AN AMAZING REACTOR. I love how you break down every verse play by play. I commented on your last one and you responded which was amazing. I'm wondering if you could react to Heretic by Ren.
THANK YOU!! I'm honestly so lucky to have such supportive people like yourself alongside me for the journey, so thank you for that :) I'll probably end up going through all of Ren's work over time but I'll definitely add those to be watched. Much love and thanks again :)
I've watched every Ren react you made so far and man... I love your analyses. You catch all important details and metaphors while developing a deep and meaningful perspective. This one in particular hit me hard, and see someone like you describe it so beautifully means a lot for those who been through it. Thank you!
I really appreciate it :) It's been an honest pleasure just to be able to share and discuss with so many people through the channel. I think connecting like this is something a lot of us are missing and just to be able to talk and chat as a result of the videos has been such a gift, because I know how important connection is, especially now. Much love and thank you for being awesome!
Another deep and thoughtful reaction that makes me think even more about all of the feelings that this song brings. Thank you! And wish you a great day!
In terms of the pausing, I think you're right that it takes the emotion out of the song to some degree, but my assumption is usually if someone is watching the song here they've already seen it. That's also why I post the link to the video in the description in case people want to watch before the breakdown. Thank you for taking the time to watch :) Much love
This is so haunting, reminds me of my all time favorite folk band " The Civil Wars", never heard anyone with that sound outside of them. This is an amazingly rare talent, so special
He really is talented beyond measure. Just from what I've seen so far he has such a myriad of styles, too, which is insanely difficult to do in and of itself, but to do it to the caliber he can is absolutely bonkers. I'll have to check out The Civil Wars! Much love
There's just something so different about what he does. I think it's how important he considers the human experience that helps to drive my love of him and his music. Much love
Crutch is next :) I'm very much looking forward to it. And I'll check out freckled angel as well. Casper had also mentioned it so for you guys I definitely have to check it out! Much love
Thank you very much for this reaction. And for your words. I think you made me understand better why I'm so touched listening to Ren. Every time I see one of his performances, my heart skips a beat and an immense sorrow invades me... but I don't know how to put words of explanation on it. This song in particular makes me feel again the abyss that has opened up in me for years, and even more so since the death of my wife... and me too at times I don't know how to live, or why. Although I practice Buddhism and am very supported by friends, I too see myself looking up at the sky and pleading "why?". In any case, thank you for your words which allowed me to say these few words too! Michel, from France.
Thank you for taking the time to share with us and for the vulnerability and bravery that it takes to do that. I know that losing someone can feel impossible, especially when they're someone so so close to you, but I think that feeling of loss and sorrow is a true testament to the love that the two of you share, and for you to tell your story and share your thoughts about her is another way that we keep those people alive both in our hearts and in our memories. I hope you know you're not alone. Much love from Canada. Nav
Haha I've never thought about it as counselling before but honestly it means so much to me that you consider the videos to be even in the realm of that. If I'm being honest, I read that and it brought tears to my eyes, so I think we broke each other, haha. Much love
This song hits the hardest for me. People assume I've done loads in life, but they haven't seen the three mental breakdowns that caused me to restart everytime. I watched kingdom turned to dust, my riches turned rust hits harder than a fly on a windscreen
That's just it. When it comes to what gets shared or seen nowadays, it's mostly successes or the highs in peoples' lives which paints a false picture of what life can really be like. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to be hurting, in fact it's those downs that help us truly fall into the ups. I'm sorry that you've gone through those breakdowns, but know that you're an inspiration to those who are going through it so thank you for that. Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 funnily enough already planning my next phase...doing just that. So little information about the issues I've had, so thinking of starting something to provide advice and resources for others :) I fall hard but I power up quickly once I get going again
"do our saviors die too soon because my sins surround me." ... Having been raised as a Christian, the correlation between saviors and sins for me speak, not merely of the literal act of being rescued, but also of being capable of being redeemed. Biblically speaking, Christ the Savior being crucified and dying on a cross both saved and spared all sinners from a deserving eternity in Hell and offered those who accepted that sacrifice a gateway to becoming redeemed and renewed as people. But what if our saviors die before we have the chance of being rescued? What if we aren't spared hell? What if, instead, there's no chance at ever being redeemed from being defined by the worst parts within ourselves? As a suicide survivor and after losing my baby brother to suicide, I know first-hand what kind of desperation and agony those thoughts can feel like - and just how irreversibly far they can push you.
I'm so sorry about your loss. Losing a loved one, especially in tragedies like that, leaves a pain that feels unbearable. While I'm not sure what your beliefs are, I want you to know I believe that things the things that we've done or the things that have happened to us do not dictate our future, but serve as stepping stones to better ourselves, the good, the bad, and the terrible. You're not in need of redemption, you're a beautiful human being just the way you are, no matter what you've done, thought, been told, anything. What's important in life is we keep taking steps forward to better ourselves, those around us, and the future. If you're someone who believes there's a reason for everything, there's a reason that you survived and that you're here now, and by telling your story you give strength to others while simultaneously empowering yourself, so hat's off to you. Much love because you are loved.
This is not a song about REN and his own attempt, but a very close friend that did. The bridge is the same bridge his friend did it. The song is a omarge to his friend.
Loving your reactions to Ren ❤ Reacters are gaining a lot of mileage out of Ren's content. It would be nice if you all encourage your followers to subscribe to his channel 🤔
Do our Saviors die too soon? For my sins surround me. I started questioning if he was looking at it from Biblical faith as in Jesus died for our sins. But did he die too soon meaning so long ago and before him personally that his sins do not apply. Because he is haunted and suffocating beneath all of his sins as they follow and surround him every waking second of every day.
I always appreciate it when reactors pause the video to break things down, but I’m finding your pausing far too frequent, for far too long each time. Can you even get the feel of a piece of music with such heavy pausing? Especially when the video isn’t rewound a little after each time it’s paused. Your breakdowns are great, don’t get me wrong. You clearly know what you’re talking about, but I feel that you should let the track play a little longer before pausing. Let it breathe, bro ☺️ Just my opinion, anyway ✌️
I definitely agree with you, I just don't think I have the capacity to house all the considerations that bubble up from Ren's music if I wait to pause too long haha. I'll try to curb it to some degree in the future though :P Thanks for your support :) Also just to touch on the part about getting a feel for the piece, I feel like I do but I also have the opportunity to watch it again after as well, which makes it okay for me :P Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 if I asked the question, I imagine others will be thinking it, too. A lot of us are looking for very specific things when we come to a reaction channel. Understanding what you’re listening to and watching is obviously key, but we’re looking for that first-time reaction so that we can kind of get that feeling back for ourselves. Especially at our favourite parts. When you pause it so frequently, and for so long each time, you/we lose all of that. You should definitely rewind five seconds after each pause. It helps you get back into the track, and we all appreciate that. It might help a little with all the pausing, but I still feel you’ll have more people engaged if you knocked it down a couple a notches. Again, that’s just my opinion. Perhaps I’m in the minority of people who think this way, but I’m assuming I’m not haha. Thank you for taking the time to reply to me.
Who are you Shadow? I was more careful with interpretation of Ren's lyrics, we can never really be sure what he is singing about, his meaning. You don't even need to try and explain what he is singing about. His words said it all, no confusion. Leave his words to the audience to experience their own feelings and understanding. I wonder what your 'day job' is, line of work? You do not need to reply to that of course, I'm curious.
You're definitely right, there's no confusion in the words that Ren says or the way he presents his music, but that's not why I started the channel. I just appreciate art, especially art with a message, and finding meaning in things and sharing that experience alongside others. It's the connection that gets forged as a result of the connection Ren makes with us that really makes me want to continue doing videos like this. I totally get if that's not what you're looking for, but that's why I love doing this. I'm a teacher by day, haha. Much love :)
Do you know what a reaction video is ? It’s where someone gives their thoughts and analysis of a creative work . If you are disappointed that Shadow is giving his interpretation of REN’s lyrics then you should not click on a reaction video but the artist’s original video . The rest of us who click on Shadow’s channel are coming to hear his breakdown and opinion - which are spot on and brilliant I might add.
@@shadowaeternum2690 I understand. After a couple other reactions of yours I started to see how you do things. Of course my opinion may differ and that's fine. Not everyone would take what I wrote with as much understanding, maybe even say I was hyper critical. Perhaps I was. It could be I was in one of my own emotional days and hearing Ren again with this one hit me differently. I now know what type of 'reactions' you do, I may not always like them, but some are ok. I can just move on of course and not say anything, probably would have been best, as I seem to have sparked comments to my remark, and they didn't seem all that agreeable. :) It is what it is. The world and every one living on it have their own life's struggles and opinions. That is what makes life interesting, good or bad. In short, you do things the way you like to do, I get it. I hope there will be no more hard feelings from others against me.
Ren is a poet. Poetry speaks to each person differently, depending on all the things that make the reader an individual. Shadow A is sharing the meaning he is taking from REN’s words, which is a perfectly legitimate response to art. No artist drops his creation into a silent vacuum, they offer it to the world because they want to be heard.
There's a lot that goes on in the Ren videos and I don't want to miss a beat because his art speaks SO much that it would be impossible for me to not pause and still cover all of the ground that his music does. Definitely not a reaction style for everyone but I think it's the best way to do justice to his work. Much love
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The crying perspective is new and pretty accurate to me
I cried so hard, I still do but I'm finding relief because every word is how I feel. I've lost my son took his life, my daughter overdosed & my g'kids got excommunicated from me. I lay in my bed & all their things are around me. I questioned God, I feel failure & blame myself. What could I have done. I sat there during the Holidays & I felt like you see in the movies where I'm almost in a tunnel & I'm just thinking I don't even know these people. I used to be such a butterfly & now I'm just so very lost. I just feel like I've lost my place in life. Every word of this song hit home. Bruised walls. I have literally been up against my wall just pounding cause it hurts so bad. I'm so alone but this song has help me so much. REN has helped me so much. I'm getting those feelings out in music & I love music but I have never related to an artist like I have his to music.
I just want to start by saying you're not a failure. I'm so sorry for your losses and everything that that has put you through. Pain from loss can feel so overwhelming, especially when we find ourselves feeling alone as well, but know that you're not alone. The power of Ren's music alone helps us to understand that we're not alone, as it connects to us emotionally and knowing that someone is able to relate means that on some level we're going through similar experiences, meaning we're not alone. On top of that, however, you have the people of this community who are here for you, myself included. You said you WERE such a butterfly, but I think you're still that butterfly, you're just going through a metamorphosis. Life may not have gone the way one hopes or you intended so far, but your future is going to bring you joys that you may not have ever considered. Sending you lots of love
Great words sir 👏
Much love to you. None of this is your fault. You've done the best you could in any moment. As Ren asks in Dear God: "Do we even choose" (our own destiny)? Ren seems to wrestle with that question a lot and I've wondered a lot about this, too. When I'm so stuck that I can't seem to escape, can I really choose to get out? I think the answer is both (a paradox). I recommend Thomas Huebl's work on individual, ancestral, and collective trauma. Take care. The butterfly is still there, dormant. ❤
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Sending some love and virtual hugs to you ❤
You Sir are the finest reactor for those of us who have unwittingly fallen into the Ren rabbit hole.
Baring your soul with genuine, gentle and thoughtful insights.
Thank you so much :) I really appreciate it. It's been a gift for me to be able to share these videos with all of you, and to spark such genuine conversations to be a part of. I honestly can't tell you enough how happy I am that so many of us have been able to connect in this way. Much love
Did anyone catch that this video takes place on the bridge? Not a "rooftop" as some people assume. This is both profoundly beautiful and deeply personal, in the extreme.
This _"How can I even be me... in the absence of you"_ is such a powerful sentiment.
I didn't actually know exactly how his friend ended up doing it, but this makes the video hit even harder knowing that. Great catch.
Man the last lines I had to stifle the tears. It's just so real. I feel like I was listening to a private moment that I shouldn't be, which is what makes Ren's music so beautiful because he chooses to let us see the inside of his mind and soul. Much love
@@GhostWatcher2024 My understanding it is The bridge from which Joe Hughes is assumed to have jumped
What @@Veeliscious said. That is my understanding, too -- that this performance is on the bridge where his friend chose to end his life. It makes it the performance even more of a gut punch. The circumstances of the event to which the song is referring also makes me think that the on the *surface* relatively upbeat-sounding "over and over we go, over the hills and the valleys below" has a really tragic connotation of going over the edge (literally and figuratively). It's a hell of a song, and absolutely tough to listen to every single time; especially the ending.
Sorry all but that's misinformation, it was absolutely not performed on that bridge, if you don't hear it from Ren don't believe it ❤
Thank you shadow A
My son chose to do this by going homeless to do drugs. Once they do there is nothing under the law that you can do to get them back. It’s their choice to make. Even if you can find them there’s no recourse legally they have the right to do it. I did get closure however. His body was found at a recycling center coming off of the collection truck Somebody thought it was a sex doll. I can pay to find out the cause of death but what’s the point? I have his ashes and that’s what I’m left with. He wanted the state to take care of him since I wouldn’t and he’d already pariahtised every family member that would take him in. And I did so many times.
Your analysis of this video is heartfelt and your words very kind. I think in this current aeternity many are not able to remember how to be anything but depression and sadness. When society encourages us not to be self responsible and gravitate towards victimization there are many holes to fall through. Much love and encouragement to all those going thru this🌺❤️🔥🦋
I'm so sorry for your loss, Christi. This kind of loss is just so difficult. I've lost people close to me but never my child, so I can't say that I know exactly how you're feeling, but I want you to know that you're not alone in this. I wish it had turned out for the best, but I'm glad that you got closure. Though we can't bring back those who we've lost, we can keep them alive in our hearts, which you do. Much much love to you
Heartbreaking Christi. My partner was in addiction for many years, whilst he is alive and in recovery now (we are no longer together) I understand how immensely hard it is to not become an enabler, and even harder to not fall victim to their manipulations to get money out of you as they self medicate their pain - I've been left with £30k debts as I wasn't strong enough - that nearly took me to ending my life instead several times. It's a devastating situation for all involved including those suffering addition. I pray your son at peace now and that you can find peace in accepting everything you did for him was for love and his - and the rest of your family's - highest good
I lost my daughter 3 years ago to an overdose after she fought mental illness and addiction for 20 years. She was in my life for 38 years. My husband died almost a year later. I hang onto Ren for dear life. I wish she were here to "meet" Ren and now Chinchilla. As for my daughter, as Ren said "I miss you so". My heart is broken forever but somehow Ren, you are helping me. Glad I found you.
They don't disappoint for sure. All of the tragedy and suffering Ren has gone through, I can't imagine.
Literally their songs so far have been just so powerful. Like you mentioned, to be able to put all of this into music means his experiences up until this point have just been so crushing, and yet he still shares this pain with us which is beautiful. Much love
You are very good at understanding much of the feelings, thoughts, and nuances of the original performance. And all of these positive comments seem to relate.
Now just imagine if you didn't completely butcher the actual song during the reaction.
I challenge anyone to scroll through this reaction and find a moment they are actually performing rather than him talking. I randomly selected 10 different moments and only once did I catch a moment of them singing.
Even as a reactor - you are destroying the performance for yourself, too
First of all, thank you for the compliment :) I really appreciate it.
In regards to the butchering, so to speak, there are two things I'd like to mention. This is one of my earlier videos when I was first getting introduced to Ren and Chinchilla and hadn't done reactions before, so this definitely isn't my most succinct work. Though the other, and I think the more important part, is that this is a reaction, as you also mentioned. It's meant to be the thoughts and feelings that arise when I'm watching the art that these two created, and speaks volumes of how powerful their music is if it evokes that kind of reaction. If someone wants to listen to the song, specifically, they can (and should) listen to the original video instead of listening to my commentary. I've improved the way I approach the reactions since, but even if I hadn't I would rather butcher the video and provide a breakdown because there are a fair few who watch the videos and English is not their first language so they come here for an understanding of the meanings behind the words and I'd rather that they also enjoyed it than I actively just skip past things so that it gets more "viewable." Thank you for taking the time to comment. I appreciate your watching of the video, even if it wasn't to your taste.
Much love
The fact they travelled all the way to Wales to film this on the Menai Bridge which his best friend Joe Hughes jumped from is simply heartbreaking. They are just incredible.
I've been in both of these positions; first the person left behind, and then 21 years later the person who gave up and took their own life (or attempted to). You hit the nail on the head with just about everything you said. And Ren... Just blows me away a little more with every single thing I find of his. Truly one of THE most talented humans of our time. I was lucky enough to have a coworker send me 'Hi Ren' 2 weeks after my suicide attempt. Changed my life; not in a huge way, but enough to make me want to stick around and see what he'll do next. Sometimes it's just the smallest thing that can change one life, and in turn, change many.
This is the perfect encapsulation of that "grief paralysis". If you've ever been hit with that terrible black wave, learning a loved one is gone forever, every scintilla of energy leaves your body. Everything ceases to function and slows to a crawl, except senses to observe your immediate surroundings. You over examine everything, inside and out. A stain on a wall could become a bruise. Your own breath echos like walls and floors full of ghosts. The room you're in is the very literal tomb you have in the forefront of your mind. Only time can heal and it might not even be a guarantee.
A wonderful appraisal of a very special talent. Thank you.
You said this so perfectly. It's just that, like everything in the world falling away and your insides bubbling up to the surface to create a cage that keeps you feeling trapped. I really appreciate your consideration of this, thank you. Much love
I found this video (and comment) wayyyy late, but you're so precisely right. I'm sorry for the loss you experienced that allowed you to perfectly capture in words the 10 or so hours I lived immediately after my mom passed abruptly.
What made it even harder for Ren, is his friends body has never been found.
No way... That's even more dreadful. I can't imagine the layer of sadness that it would add not to see them for one last time. Heartbreaking.
Much love
Thanks for such a heartfelt reaction to this! Something I find really cool about this song is that it tells 2 perspectives at the same time. The first is Ren putting himself in his friend's shoes, what it's like to be in the kind of deep, dark depressive state that would lead to someone making that decision. Not feeling 'safe in these halls' being the mind, 'bruises on the walls' being past traumas, 'bodies in the floors' the call of death in the back of your mind. Not knowing who you are anymore because depression strips that from you. The second is coming from his own experience of what happened, painting a picture of the loss and emptiness that follows from having someone close to you make that decision, not knowing how to be you anymore without them in your life. The whole song can be heard through either of those perspectives and each line holds a double meaning which I think is just so brilliant. Its a very dark but very beautiful song, thank you for covering it.
Yeah I didn't really think about the other perspective until we got to the end of the song, but I relistened to the song with that in mind and the ability to cater to two perspectives with the same words is astounding. The way you said this is perfect, that's exactly the duality of it and it's breathtaking in the sense of the beauty of the song but also the heartache of the song. Love your explanation and thank you for the support.
Much love
I love that perspective, @Apollo Rising.
I've listened to this song a *lot*. It's my favourite Ren piece so far - it's beautifully devastating, the harmonies are astonishing, and Chinchilla is amazing here.
But the more I listened to it and absorbed the lyrics, the more confused I was about who exactly was speaking to us.
The end bit is obviously Ren, no confusion there.
But was the rest Ren telling us his story, his reaction to his friend's death? Or was it Ren putting himself in his friend's head and telling the story from that side?
I swung between each possibility almost every time I listened, unable to decide.
You have resolved it perfectly, it's *both*. Thank you.
This man impresses me more and more every day I spend down the rabbit hole. He really is a total feckin' genius.
Well Said.
Much love and respect from The UK.
A Jungle Massive Big Up to Ren and Chinchilla.
It's about time decent Raw music was bought back to our ears.
SCRATCH Decent.
I meant Brilliant, Touching, Captivating and shit loads more fantastic praises.
My Bad.
Haha, you're definitely right. This is brilliant, touching, captivating, and all of the positive expressions one could think of for music because damn, the emotion that this song evokes and conveys is just on another level.
Much love from Canada :)
The pain of losing a friend is something that never goes away. It’s been years now and I still cry at a simple thought of him. I still have videos on my phone of him just so I can hear his voice sometimes. This song hits a spot in my soul very few things can touch. It actually gave me the courage to post a song I wrote called Lessons. I write to help with my own issues and wasn’t planning on ever showing it to anyone but if I can touch a single person the way this song touches me, why wouldn’t I put it out there? Music can be so powerful and it’s a shame to think about how many masterpieces are out there sitting on someone’s computer never to be heard by anyone. I think Ren will inspire a huge wave of new artists to come out of hiding and finally share their words with the people!
First of all, I love Lessons. I can feel your pain through the lyrics and the way you perform it. It's that kind of pain that's born from so much love and for you to carry on his legacy like that is beautiful.
Thank you for bearing your soul both in the song and here. When I lost my grandma, who was very important in my life, I remember how much music helped to support me through that time so you're right, the power of music is incomparable. Much love to you for your strength, creativity, and just being a fantastic person.
This is probably my favourite of all of Ren's songs.
To me the lyrics can be taken from both Ren's point of view and also from that of the friend who took his own life.
Great reaction as always.
It's definitely true. I listened to it again with that in mind, and it's insane the ability Ren has to write such complex emotions from so many different perspectives. Gotta love his talent.
Thanks for the support :) Much love
You said exactly what I was feeling
Ren wrote this after he was lost in sorrow when a friend committed suicide. This song is so sad.
It truly, truly is. Loss is so difficult in and of itself, but it hurts so much more when that loss is a choice. Much love
I wish I could hit more like buttons after watching this reaction.... you're last message made me cry dang... you are a good human!
Thank you so much again. I honestly almost cried at the end there myself. I had to take a second because that last part really really hit. Much love
It is probably even harder when they never found his body. There is no closure.
Thank you for this reaction.
You answered my question about their harmonies, she cry sings
Everything else you said was spot on.
I LOVE this reaction- all of the understanding, and explanation, you encapsulated this beautifully!!!!!- New sub-SDK
Please check out Dear God, Insomnia, Depression & Crutch... I think you'll get them... All great... If you're still down, Penitence & Dominoes too.
They're definitely on the way. Sorry it's been so long haha, but they're definitely in my sights. I've also heard that Crutch is very emotional so I'm preparing myself for that one as well. Much love
The way I've always interpreted this duet was as a duet between the friend who committed suicide (characterised by Chinchilla and her ghost-like singing) and the friend who was left behind, Ren. Showing how the first one felt the weeks before they took their life and while doing so, and how the one left behind feels the time after it, thus giving a lot of the lines a double meaning from two different sides, like for example "I can't breathe" as literally not being able to breathe because of suicide but also not being able to breathe through your own crying/tears . Most lines in the song could have this double meaning to it.
Waaah.... i didnt realize it was a bridge; you're right. Thanks.
Thank goodness for REN🙏 💓 I just love your soul reactions, Shadow!!!! DAMN YOU ARE ALWAYS ON! I learn so much from you. THANKS 😊
Thanks so much :) Your support is honestly so amazing
Holy smokes! Your reaction is right up there with the music! I've listened to How To Be Me 100's of times with reactors and without. You've brought even more meaning to it. Bravo❤
Dude i was waiting so long for more Ren content from you
Haha thank you so much :) It's an honour for you to be looking forward to the breakdowns. I hope the patience was worth it :P Much love
Its always worth. Youre doing THE best analysis of his songs. I feel like other reactors should watch your reactions :D
Your breakdowns of songs are so thoughtful & in depth. I find myself echoing your thoughts & nodding along furiously at times just because I feel it that strongly. I recced your reaction to Hi, Ren in the comments on the original video because I know Ren watches reactions to his songs, & I really thought he should see it. Your appreciation of artists & their music is so apparent in the care you take with each song you listen to & analyze. You're probably my favorite person who does this, & I've thoroughly enjoyed everything I've seen from you so far. Thank you for always being so considerate of those going through hard times, dealing with physical &/or mental illnesses, & just generally being an awesome human being. 😊
Thank you so much, seriously. Not only for your support and kindness, but for recommending me to Ren like that. I really appreciate it. To take the time and consideration to do that is something I can't thank you enough for.
I think we're all here to experience life together, and for those that are going through struggles in any way, shape, or form, it's even more important that they know that we're a community, so to hear you thanking me for that actually brings tears to my eyes. Much love, and thanks for being amazing
I think this is the best reaction to this song I have seen and Ive seen a LOT
Thank you for the light and love that you put into this channel Nav. Great discussion.
Thank you for saying that. The light and love is the reason I wanted to start this channel. Hearing you say that is one of the greatest compliments, so thank you for saying that and for taking the time to watch Aidan :) Much love
Great reaction, and indeed, the ones who live on, are never the same...and they are forever missed and life is never the same.
"All will ever be is stories".... man... that is a genuine gem.
That has been at the core of my heart for some time now. It really took root when my grandma passed away and I realized that the way that we keep people alive is by talking about them and sharing their stories. It's not immortality in the biological sense, but talking about them, sharing their experiences and lessons, etc, is how we keep their energy and memory alive long after they're gone.
Much love Stranger
Loved your reactions so much. I literally felt how you did when I watched this video. How powerful they are together to create such emotions in people
Baptism is immersion.
Loved your breakdown and respect you for calling for people to reach out, Ren is good therapy
I wish everyone felt like they were always able to reach out
What a fantastic reaction. I especially loved your analysis of hiw much we need to be connected, intimately, right now, during this time in history where there are so many pent up emotions; so much hurt, sadness, anger, rage... So many whose emotions have not been seen and acknowledged. I loved how in tune you were with not only the lyrics, but also the tapestry of their voices together.
Two incredible artists come together and make something otherworldly. I have so much respect for these two not just together but individually. I’m 50 yrs old and I’m so impressed with their talents. I just can’t get enough. Thank you for your touching words and caring soul.
They are so amazing, it's unjust how underrated they were for so long. Their music just has so much heart and passion. Much love
Another great Ren breakdown m8.
Thanks so much Iam :) Much love
There is something so wonderfully old school about this. You nailed the description of this song.
Just wow. You are always so insightful but this was fantastic. Thank you SA.
I am up all night now watching reactors and of all of them I think you are spot on and are my favorite. Sometimes you are saying what I think and sometimes I learn something I didn't see. Loving Ren so much and wanting the world to see and hear him....I tell everyone!
Your reaction moved me. Loved your analysis.
Great reaction with beautiful thoughts!
😊 It seems like she starts late, but they are singing in a 'round' during that one part, like when you were little and you would sing with others "row, row, row your boat....". It's great because she doesn't actually catch up, she just stops her line to go back to singing in unison with him. Lovely❤
ROUNDS! That's what it's called. I was trying to think of the name of it because my friends and I will sit there and go back and forth like that when we're singing a song, but for the life of me I couldn't remember. Thank you so much haha. You're right, the way they do it here is absolutely amazing, and the way they unify at the end is almost as though both voices are now synched, which is a great touch. Much love!
Maybe I'm wrong but I took the baptism line has just as been soaked with sweat from the fear of talking to the dead cause when you're baptized you're doused with holy water it's communion you get accepted by the faith
Oh man, I didn't consider it as you being accepted by the faith. That adds even more depth to it, especially if faith is in reference to those that have passed. Very nice insight. Much love
Brilliant breakdown brother 👏
Very insightful reaction! I totally agree with you about the musical representation of crying. That’s a very good way to describe it.
ETA: Rencore. Yes.
Man I love the way you break these down! The things you say brings so much more out of Ren's art for me and gets me thinking even more. Appreciate what you do bro!
Goddamn you are perceptive
YOU'RE AN AMAZING REACTOR. I love how you break down every verse play by play. I commented on your last one and you responded which was amazing. I'm wondering if you could react to Heretic by Ren.
OR everybody drops
both amazing songs and a strong way of interpretation which I think you can interpret in a poetic way as well.
THANK YOU!! I'm honestly so lucky to have such supportive people like yourself alongside me for the journey, so thank you for that :) I'll probably end up going through all of Ren's work over time but I'll definitely add those to be watched. Much love and thanks again :)
I've watched every Ren react you made so far and man... I love your analyses.
You catch all important details and metaphors while developing a deep and meaningful perspective.
This one in particular hit me hard, and see someone like you describe it so beautifully means a lot for those who been through it.
Thank you!
I really appreciate it :) It's been an honest pleasure just to be able to share and discuss with so many people through the channel. I think connecting like this is something a lot of us are missing and just to be able to talk and chat as a result of the videos has been such a gift, because I know how important connection is, especially now.
Much love and thank you for being awesome!
Another deep and thoughtful reaction that makes me think even more about all of the feelings that this song brings. Thank you! And wish you a great day!
Thanks so much :) I'm glad to be on this journey with you! Much love
Fabulous reaction, I love your description of vocally crying, sad but beautiful 💕
Thanks so much :) Much love
Great reaction. Subscribed
Very moving
Thank you. I'm glad that you thought so. Much love
That’s so wild how you described it…. I just heard this song and shared it, saying “it’s like a punch to my soul”
You shared it accurately because it is definitely a punch to the soul, which I'm finding is Ren's superpower. Much love
I think your pause finger took the emotion out of that song ,,nice breakdown
In terms of the pausing, I think you're right that it takes the emotion out of the song to some degree, but my assumption is usually if someone is watching the song here they've already seen it. That's also why I post the link to the video in the description in case people want to watch before the breakdown.
Thank you for taking the time to watch :) Much love
I love your videos man, your amazing 😍
No, you are amazing :)
mmm ... all i am left with to say is thank you ...
This is so haunting, reminds me of my all time favorite folk band " The Civil Wars", never heard anyone with that sound outside of them. This is an amazingly rare talent, so special
He really is talented beyond measure. Just from what I've seen so far he has such a myriad of styles, too, which is insanely difficult to do in and of itself, but to do it to the caliber he can is absolutely bonkers. I'll have to check out The Civil Wars!
Much love
I love your discussion. I am completely taken in with REN’s music.
There's just something so different about what he does. I think it's how important he considers the human experience that helps to drive my love of him and his music. Much love
A really thoughtful analysis of an extremely powerful song. Sub'd.
Thanks so much :) Much love
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1k subs and climbing!
Thank you :) Much love
Thank you for this reaction! Please please check out Crutch feat. Bibi next. It is absolutely stunning.
Oh and maybe Freckled Angels for another song made about the friend he lost. It’s beautiful.
Crutch is next :) I'm very much looking forward to it. And I'll check out freckled angel as well. Casper had also mentioned it so for you guys I definitely have to check it out! Much love
Thank you very much for this reaction. And for your words. I think you made me understand better why I'm so touched listening to Ren. Every time I see one of his performances, my heart skips a beat and an immense sorrow invades me... but I don't know how to put words of explanation on it.
This song in particular makes me feel again the abyss that has opened up in me for years, and even more so since the death of my wife... and me too at times I don't know how to live, or why. Although I practice Buddhism and am very supported by friends, I too see myself looking up at the sky and pleading "why?". In any case, thank you for your words which allowed me to say these few words too!
Michel, from France.
Thank you for taking the time to share with us and for the vulnerability and bravery that it takes to do that.
I know that losing someone can feel impossible, especially when they're someone so so close to you, but I think that feeling of loss and sorrow is a true testament to the love that the two of you share, and for you to tell your story and share your thoughts about her is another way that we keep those people alive both in our hearts and in our memories. I hope you know you're not alone.
Much love from Canada. Nav
Your monolog at end broke me 😢 thank you for doing what your doing TH-cam premium =
Haha I've never thought about it as counselling before but honestly it means so much to me that you consider the videos to be even in the realm of that. If I'm being honest, I read that and it brought tears to my eyes, so I think we broke each other, haha. Much love
I love your reactions, you have great talent in take out layers and finding the truth of humans' nature. You have a good understanding of poetry.
Thank you so much for this, it truly warms my heart
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I love getting on and seeing you have a new reaction! Love how in depth you dive into these masterpieces. Thank you 🙏🏼
I love that you love it! Thanks for your support and for being your wonderful self :) Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 of course! Do you ever livestream?
My favorite Ren song..💖💔💖💔
It's such a great song. He has such a way with words
First time watching this channel. What an excellent breakdown of Ren's lyrics/song and of a deeply complex topic. New sub here. UK
Thanks so much :) I really appreciate it. Much love from Canada
Amazing reaction. Ren-core, I love it! I'll use that, if it catches on we owe that one to you 🙂
Haha that would be awesome! I'm glad you loved it :P Much love
New subscriber! Looking forward to your reaction on this and your other videos.
Thanks so much! Much love
The bruises are on the walls. The bodies are in the floor.
Sorry. Spectrum won't let me settle until I correct it.
Great reaction, man. ❤
Haha no need to apologize! Thanks for the support :) Much love
I love this and the only other duo who hit me like this would be Civil Wars
There have been quite a few people that have mentioned Civil Wars. I think I'm going to have to check them out! Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 Similar chemistry with each other. They broke up, but they are quite great.
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This song hits the hardest for me. People assume I've done loads in life, but they haven't seen the three mental breakdowns that caused me to restart everytime. I watched kingdom turned to dust, my riches turned rust hits harder than a fly on a windscreen
That's just it. When it comes to what gets shared or seen nowadays, it's mostly successes or the highs in peoples' lives which paints a false picture of what life can really be like. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to be hurting, in fact it's those downs that help us truly fall into the ups. I'm sorry that you've gone through those breakdowns, but know that you're an inspiration to those who are going through it so thank you for that. Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 funnily enough already planning my next phase...doing just that. So little information about the issues I've had, so thinking of starting something to provide advice and resources for others :)
I fall hard but I power up quickly once I get going again
"do our saviors die too soon because my sins surround me." ... Having been raised as a Christian, the correlation between saviors and sins for me speak, not merely of the literal act of being rescued, but also of being capable of being redeemed. Biblically speaking, Christ the Savior being crucified and dying on a cross both saved and spared all sinners from a deserving eternity in Hell and offered those who accepted that sacrifice a gateway to becoming redeemed and renewed as people. But what if our saviors die before we have the chance of being rescued? What if we aren't spared hell? What if, instead, there's no chance at ever being redeemed from being defined by the worst parts within ourselves? As a suicide survivor and after losing my baby brother to suicide, I know first-hand what kind of desperation and agony those thoughts can feel like - and just how irreversibly far they can push you.
I'm so sorry about your loss. Losing a loved one, especially in tragedies like that, leaves a pain that feels unbearable. While I'm not sure what your beliefs are, I want you to know I believe that things the things that we've done or the things that have happened to us do not dictate our future, but serve as stepping stones to better ourselves, the good, the bad, and the terrible. You're not in need of redemption, you're a beautiful human being just the way you are, no matter what you've done, thought, been told, anything. What's important in life is we keep taking steps forward to better ourselves, those around us, and the future. If you're someone who believes there's a reason for everything, there's a reason that you survived and that you're here now, and by telling your story you give strength to others while simultaneously empowering yourself, so hat's off to you. Much love because you are loved.
Let's continue his powerful duets with ren BiBi [crutch]
That's definitely next :P Much love
Probably the most poignant song about grief I’ve ever heard.
It speaks to the soul in such a direct way. Absolutely heart wrenching. Much love
th-cam.com/video/gUWK331b8T4/w-d-xo.html Here's another song from Ren and pictures of who this song is about 😪
Thank you Casper :) I'll have to check that out! Much love
This is not a song about REN and his own attempt, but a very close friend that did. The bridge is the same bridge his friend did it. The song is a omarge to his friend.
Loving your reactions to Ren ❤
Reacters are gaining a lot of mileage out of Ren's content. It would be nice if you all encourage your followers to subscribe to his channel 🤔
Thank you so much :)
Do our Saviors die too soon? For my sins surround me. I started questioning if he was looking at it from Biblical faith as in Jesus died for our sins. But did he die too soon meaning so long ago and before him personally that his sins do not apply. Because he is haunted and suffocating beneath all of his sins as they follow and surround him every waking second of every day.
I always appreciate it when reactors pause the video to break things down, but I’m finding your pausing far too frequent, for far too long each time. Can you even get the feel of a piece of music with such heavy pausing? Especially when the video isn’t rewound a little after each time it’s paused.
Your breakdowns are great, don’t get me wrong. You clearly know what you’re talking about, but I feel that you should let the track play a little longer before pausing. Let it breathe, bro ☺️
Just my opinion, anyway ✌️
I definitely agree with you, I just don't think I have the capacity to house all the considerations that bubble up from Ren's music if I wait to pause too long haha. I'll try to curb it to some degree in the future though :P Thanks for your support :)
Also just to touch on the part about getting a feel for the piece, I feel like I do but I also have the opportunity to watch it again after as well, which makes it okay for me :P
Much love
@@shadowaeternum2690 if I asked the question, I imagine others will be thinking it, too.
A lot of us are looking for very specific things when we come to a reaction channel. Understanding what you’re listening to and watching is obviously key, but we’re looking for that first-time reaction so that we can kind of get that feeling back for ourselves. Especially at our favourite parts. When you pause it so frequently, and for so long each time, you/we lose all of that.
You should definitely rewind five seconds after each pause. It helps you get back into the track, and we all appreciate that. It might help a little with all the pausing, but I still feel you’ll have more people engaged if you knocked it down a couple a notches.
Again, that’s just my opinion. Perhaps I’m in the minority of people who think this way, but I’m assuming I’m not haha. Thank you for taking the time to reply to me.
Who are you Shadow? I was more careful with interpretation of Ren's lyrics, we can never really be sure what he is singing about, his meaning. You don't even need to try and explain what he is singing about. His words said it all, no confusion. Leave his words to the audience to experience their own feelings and understanding. I wonder what your 'day job' is, line of work? You do not need to reply to that of course, I'm curious.
His analysis is what im coming for to His channel. Let him do his thing, hes very good at it
You're definitely right, there's no confusion in the words that Ren says or the way he presents his music, but that's not why I started the channel. I just appreciate art, especially art with a message, and finding meaning in things and sharing that experience alongside others. It's the connection that gets forged as a result of the connection Ren makes with us that really makes me want to continue doing videos like this. I totally get if that's not what you're looking for, but that's why I love doing this.
I'm a teacher by day, haha. Much love :)
Do you know what a reaction video is ? It’s where someone gives their thoughts and analysis of a creative work . If you are disappointed that Shadow is giving his interpretation of REN’s lyrics then you should not click on a reaction video but the artist’s original video . The rest of us who click on Shadow’s channel are coming to hear his breakdown and opinion - which are spot on and brilliant I might add.
@@shadowaeternum2690 I understand. After a couple other reactions of yours I started to see how you do things. Of course my opinion may differ and that's fine. Not everyone would take what I wrote with as much understanding, maybe even say I was hyper critical. Perhaps I was. It could be I was in one of my own emotional days and hearing Ren again with this one hit me differently. I now know what type of 'reactions' you do, I may not always like them, but some are ok. I can just move on of course and not say anything, probably would have been best, as I seem to have sparked comments to my remark, and they didn't seem all that agreeable. :) It is what it is. The world and every one living on it have their own life's struggles and opinions. That is what makes life interesting, good or bad. In short, you do things the way you like to do, I get it. I hope there will be no more hard feelings from others against me.
Ren is a poet. Poetry speaks to each person differently, depending on all the things that make the reader an individual. Shadow A is sharing the meaning he is taking from REN’s words, which is a perfectly legitimate response to art. No artist drops his creation into a silent vacuum, they offer it to the world because they want to be heard.
Can I recommend that you not chop the video to pieces with a remark every other line???
You talk too much. Why keep pausing it midway through the song when you can review it after it's finished?
There's a lot that goes on in the Ren videos and I don't want to miss a beat because his art speaks SO much that it would be impossible for me to not pause and still cover all of the ground that his music does. Definitely not a reaction style for everyone but I think it's the best way to do justice to his work. Much love