I’ve felt this too. What I first felt as dullness I now understand as space, and it brings me calm and peace. And the thoughts or words that elude me at times do so because they aren’t needed. That was something that took some time to realize. Much of what I thought was essential was actually just busy-ness of the mind.
Happened so many times recently. Grappling with the mind trying to remember the word I'm thinking. Maybe going senile. Awakening am taking in so much change. New perceptions, new sensations, information coming from the Cosmos is flooding my mind. Memory makes way for all this new info. Filing away old for the new. Not finding the word which does come eventually, is just a blip in the process. The dullness must be new energy. Before evolving I mostly felt anxiety, depressed thinking, fear ect. That's gone now, but do feel well what now! Out of the blue I'm hearing about the eco system, the hopi prophecy, dark matter, mass energy, the hadron collider. And understand it all so clearly, I have a whole new brain. So many new interests, I want to become a naturalist so can pass it on to the next generation. Just shows brain capacity, is use it or lose it. Same with our physical body.
I felt this too. In just a few months my mind became dull, with no motivation , especially in buying things, taking care of myself. While I like the change in me as I’m more preaceful now but I’m also seeing lack of vigor in my work life
Also, parmahansa yogananda said with meditation old brain cells die. So karmas get cleared quickly this could also be a one reason. The person becomes more present.
As any component of the universe, we too are conditioned to do our best. Our best in all our forms. The awareness of the truth of our essence only frees us from the delusion of suffering. Our function is to LIVE. The best we can in our physical form. 🙏🏻
This is making me smile. Just yesterday for the first time, awareness saw the “my” thought moving through spaciousness. This is a poor discrimination, comments the mind.
your answer has given me so much peace , iv experienced a great deal.of emotional trauma and being in the moment is the only place my mind finds peace ,thankyou
Hello sir, I am 29 after awakening at 25 ,I barely leave my home,i don't have desire to work also, so I find it very difficult to start any work , and it seems like I am stuck and can't do anything related to my career or health, so how do you manage your career, if there is no desire?
You are not alone. I have felt this for the last 8 years I still have a career and wad able to move to London for work and get used to a new environment. What ever is happening is happening all I can do is see it and keep doing my tasks with no love or hate. Sometimes I feel baffled by people who are so invested in their work that I think may be I am wrong but then that too is just a thought so I let it pass
I'm 46 and awakened 18 months ago. I have a thriving business but now i just can't give a crap. Really struggling to do anything anymore, but it's still better than selling and getting a job, so i toil away. I don't know how to do this for 20 more years. Sorry to hear and hope things change for you... And all of us
This is happening to me too. My fear is that with dementia one falls below consciousness awareness and is no longer aware that one is aware. It's hard to rise above this fear. 😢
I can definitely relate to this after awakening experiences, I feel like Im losing my edge and zoning out a lot. I feel like possibly being more diligent with single pointed focus meditation and holding focus may help offset this?
Focused attention techniques are not meditation at all. They are merely methods of concentration used by the ego to “get an edge” in the world for its own goals. The attitude of the ego is control. Any “techniques” in concentration are methods of control. True meditation is abiding in the Self, and involves the attitude of surrender. It is an open awareness (diffused focus, but is highly alert and aware) instead of focused attention. So you can see two different attitudes towards spiritual practice. The most common is control which is ego trying to do spiritual practice (that is a trap) and the other is surrender (of the ego) which is giving up everything including your identity and this world. It entails a loss of control which can be very scary for the ego. Let it go. Only the ego needs an “edge” in this world but the divine knows how to take care of everything and its ways are much higher than the ego
Not an edge in the world, the thing is, if there is no ego at the fundamental level of reality, then the whole idea of attaining the self or knowing the self is also from the individuals pov. From the pov of everything that is, parts of it would always be unenlightened, as we can see in existence it is already so. Hence whatever is happening, is happening as a part of the cosmic whole, and the focused attention meditation too is a meditation, just for a different goal than enlightenment. A lot of schools that do not seek ultimate enlightenment like western esotericism and such also practice meditation like candle meditation and such. Let's not gatekeep.
Yes the ego is always seeking an edge in the world. “There is no ego” is only an intellectual understanding until it is fully realized by experience. As long as the 5 senses are perceiving a world, the mind fully believes and identifies as the illusory ego’s existence and operates as that. People are free to use whatever they feel is helpful on the journey as one has to start somewhere, but to be clear, focused attention is not meditation, it is a concentration technique. One only understands this when they get to the point of surrendering all techniques. That won’t happen at the beginning obviously. Focused attention practices create a subject object separation which is dualistic- of course the awareness that arises through this concentration practice can then be leveraged to then rest/abide in the Self (letting go into nondual reality). Meditation is not a doing (of any technique), it is the natural state of being/abiding in one’s true nature. This is how to discern what is meditation and what is not. People spend years, even decades following their breath and wonder why they feel fundamentally untransformed. Most of what is called the spiritual path is the ego seeking, doing, and trying things, even perfecting a technique (a trap). But the only true spiritual practice at the end of it is surrender, to rest and abide in the Self. I share this from my experience and hope this is helpful to someone 🙏
Why should mind become dull. After awakening our looking at world changes that's all.Many awakened men Jiddu UG Vivekananda Yogananda Shivananda wrote many books and regularly lecturing.If mind to become dull how could they do all that. In fact Yogananda said read literature to seekers.
Thank you for addressing this topic! I appreciate your perspective on mind and delusion.
I’ve felt this too. What I first felt as dullness I now understand as space, and it brings me calm and peace. And the thoughts or words that elude me at times do so because they aren’t needed. That was something that took some time to realize. Much of what I thought was essential was actually just busy-ness of the mind.
Happened so many times recently. Grappling with the mind trying to remember the word I'm thinking. Maybe going senile. Awakening am taking in so much change. New perceptions, new sensations, information coming from the Cosmos is flooding my mind. Memory makes way for all this new info. Filing away old for the new. Not finding the word which does come eventually, is just a blip in the process. The dullness must be new energy. Before evolving I mostly felt anxiety, depressed thinking, fear ect. That's gone now, but do feel well what now! Out of the blue I'm hearing about the eco system, the hopi prophecy, dark matter, mass energy, the hadron collider. And understand it all so clearly, I have a whole new brain. So many new interests, I want to become a naturalist so can pass it on to the next generation. Just shows brain capacity, is use it or lose it. Same with our physical body.
I felt this too. In just a few months my mind became dull, with no motivation , especially in buying things, taking care of myself. While I like the change in me as I’m more preaceful now but I’m also seeing lack of vigor in my work life
I think it happens because we loose desires after doing practice like meditation.
Also, parmahansa yogananda said with meditation old brain cells die. So karmas get cleared quickly this could also be a one reason. The person becomes more present.
As any component of the universe, we too are conditioned to do our best. Our best in all our forms. The awareness of the truth of our essence only frees us from the delusion of suffering.
Our function is to LIVE. The best we can in our physical form.
🙏🏻
Thank you, l appreciate your videos, they are very soothing
This is making me smile.
Just yesterday for the first time, awareness saw the “my” thought moving through spaciousness.
This is a poor discrimination, comments the mind.
your answer has given me so much peace , iv experienced a great deal.of emotional trauma and being in the moment is the only place my mind finds peace ,thankyou
Hello sir, I am 29 after awakening at 25 ,I barely leave my home,i don't have desire to work also, so I find it very difficult to start any work , and it seems like I am stuck and can't do anything related to my career or health, so how do you manage your career, if there is no desire?
Same here bro
I have also experienced a lack of caring for what was seemed so important
Hi prashant. U r not alone. It happen with me too. And most of the people who been through spritual awakening has similar problem.
You are not alone. I have felt this for the last 8 years I still have a career and wad able to move to London for work and get used to a new environment. What ever is happening is happening all I can do is see it and keep doing my tasks with no love or hate. Sometimes I feel baffled by people who are so invested in their work that I think may be I am wrong but then that too is just a thought so I let it pass
I'm 46 and awakened 18 months ago. I have a thriving business but now i just can't give a crap. Really struggling to do anything anymore, but it's still better than selling and getting a job, so i toil away. I don't know how to do this for 20 more years.
Sorry to hear and hope things change for you... And all of us
This is happening to me too. My fear is that with dementia one falls below consciousness awareness and is no longer aware that one is aware. It's hard to rise above this fear. 😢
I have had this also...
Did It pass?
I can definitely relate to this after awakening experiences, I feel like Im losing my edge and zoning out a lot. I feel like possibly being more diligent with single pointed focus meditation and holding focus may help offset this?
Focused attention techniques are not meditation at all. They are merely methods of concentration used by the ego to “get an edge” in the world for its own goals. The attitude of the ego is control. Any “techniques” in concentration are methods of control. True meditation is abiding in the Self, and involves the attitude of surrender. It is an open awareness (diffused focus, but is highly alert and aware) instead of focused attention. So you can see two different attitudes towards spiritual practice. The most common is control which is ego trying to do spiritual practice (that is a trap) and the other is surrender (of the ego) which is giving up everything including your identity and this world. It entails a loss of control which can be very scary for the ego. Let it go. Only the ego needs an “edge” in this world but the divine knows how to take care of everything and its ways are much higher than the ego
Not an edge in the world, the thing is, if there is no ego at the fundamental level of reality, then the whole idea of attaining the self or knowing the self is also from the individuals pov. From the pov of everything that is, parts of it would always be unenlightened, as we can see in existence it is already so. Hence whatever is happening, is happening as a part of the cosmic whole, and the focused attention meditation too is a meditation, just for a different goal than enlightenment. A lot of schools that do not seek ultimate enlightenment like western esotericism and such also practice meditation like candle meditation and such. Let's not gatekeep.
Yes the ego is always seeking an edge in the world. “There is no ego” is only an intellectual understanding until it is fully realized by experience. As long as the 5 senses are perceiving a world, the mind fully believes and identifies as the illusory ego’s existence and operates as that. People are free to use whatever they feel is helpful on the journey as one has to start somewhere, but to be clear, focused attention is not meditation, it is a concentration technique. One only understands this when they get to the point of surrendering all techniques. That won’t happen at the beginning obviously. Focused attention practices create a subject object separation which is dualistic- of course the awareness that arises through this concentration practice can then be leveraged to then rest/abide in the Self (letting go into nondual reality). Meditation is not a doing (of any technique), it is the natural state of being/abiding in one’s true nature. This is how to discern what is meditation and what is not. People spend years, even decades following their breath and wonder why they feel fundamentally untransformed. Most of what is called the spiritual path is the ego seeking, doing, and trying things, even perfecting a technique (a trap). But the only true spiritual practice at the end of it is surrender, to rest and abide in the Self. I share this from my experience and hope this is helpful to someone 🙏
By edge I meant not making mistakes all the time through constant lapses of concentration
Why should mind become dull. After awakening our looking at world changes that's all.Many awakened men Jiddu UG Vivekananda Yogananda Shivananda wrote many books and regularly lecturing.If mind to become dull how could they do all that. In fact Yogananda said read literature to seekers.