I absolutely can relate and am in a similar situation. I had to have both of my hips replaced at 39. Then all kinds of midlife crisis came on as well as chronic pain. My kids are becoming young adults and every now and again I see a picture when they were little dudes. Really messes with me.
Only one thing u can do, Belive in your self, Belive in your greatness, Belive in your dreams, your life is awesome, and If your life dont like u must change the point of view, everyones have their fight agaist their demons, i hope u didnt feel alone, u r not became your hero
I feel the same, I think you should stop victimizing yourself, it's hard but if you want to have a worthwhile life you should listen to me. Just search on Google about it. Obviously it may not be what happens to you, but do not close please.
Eddie Ortega hey thanks, it’s so kind of you! I was super low but I’m actually sensing that I’m gettin better now. I think sometimes the chaos can spark the light and urge us to try to be better... hoping you are good too 💕
@@MlkMeow It's satisfying knowing you're pulling thru slowly but surely. You're welcome. I agree with you 😌 Going thru a tough time atm... but in life even our own mistakes and struggles hold beauty, and ultimately that is exactly what shapes us as individuals. Stay strong
I still remember that night The night you held me and said if it’s meant to be I’ll see you again I still remember that last kiss I remember the feeling of knowing you weren’t mine anymore I keep hoping that “meant to be” will be soon Cause deep down I think I’ll always want you I love you.
You'll be fine. Take it one day at a time. Things have a way of unfolding in very unexpected, yet ironic ways. You can't predict it, so there's no use in being afraid. You make it through bit by bit, and as you get older time goes faster and you remember less and less. I'd like to tell you to savor these years, but that's useless advice when you're young. The best thing I can tell you is to make your own way, and don't do anything just because people tell you to or it's expected of you. Strive to live a life without regrets, because those are the things that really start to weigh the older you get.
nothing is ever guaranteed. so please for the love of god, don’t sit back and watch things happen to you. Make stuff happen. Make your heart full. Be your own best friend. Live.
I just wished I treasured every moment of my childhood. to would be nice to go back when I had no worries. when I didn't have to worry about my last summer. now my last summer is here, I don't even know if its a summer or not. I wish I could treasure the moments when me and my cousins would stay up all night and play cod zombies but now everyone has moved away and have jobs and life. its sad and I just have greif over the past. one scenario that plays in my head 24/7 is when im done with my graduation party and come home at 3am, I would just lay in my bed and just sib and ponder over the memories, playing 2014 hits and logging on to my first Minecraft world that me and my cousins would play on, being my friendlist and seeing people that were online for the 3 years. I treasure every moment and just wished to treasure people. kids, enjoy life and make trouble :).
Man I felt that. Remember being grounded? I felt like I was on a mission. Like how can I possibly sneak out or get her to soften up lmao! Or just sit there wondering... what’s everyone else doing out there? Probably enjoying me not being around now that I think about it lol. If we knew THEN what we know now right?
I feel the exact same way. Ever since I started high school it feels like my life has just fast forwarded to now. And now that I have graduated high school, I feel so lost, and I never know what to do or where to go. I wish I could just go back to the start and enjoy my childhood to the fullest. I miss not worrying about tomorrows and what I will do in the next 5 years. I just want to be young again.
people have a concept of living their lives to the fullest but I think that, because you only do it once and you can’t skip ahead or go back and redo things, that everyone’s lives are their fullest. Just by virtue of being the only life you get. But I dunno. It’s 6am and my flight doesn’t leave for two and a half hours and I just got off one that started at 11.
Andrew : you really got it. By virtue of its uniqueness and difficulty to recreate, each moment its a masterpiece, it’s a matter of enjoying every second of it
1:59 am and I'm crying because I turned 18 just a few months ago and my life is just "starting", I feel like time goes by quicker than I've ever felt and I'm wasting away. I wish I could go back to when I thought life would be more interesting now.
Can I say that i hate internet and I hate how fake the world and the relationships are becoming...but since I’ve discovered ur channel I think I have hope again? Like how many beautiful people are reunited here! Thank you cyborg, you really helped ❤️Baci from Italy
Chiara Esposito I can totally relate to this. I’m 20 and I feel like people my age and younger are the loneliest. Even when I try and reach out, people always go for the thing that gives them the most instant gratification aka the internet. Friendships aren’t valued as much I suppose. Or maybe it’s just me...
I am 19 and I totally feel you! I constantly feel disappointed and broken for my mistake of seeing ppl for who they are not! But you know maybe there’s still some hope ...
My first trip I realized the same x10 and I also came to realize all we’re even here for is to love each other. Fake? Yeah it’s a mirage usually but it feels good while it last right? Is the pain worth it after? Hell no but physically humans will heal let go move on and then crash into it all over again, and again, and again. Until we’re so damaged we don’t even know how to lift ourselves up to search or stumble around through life enough to meet them again. This song definitely is a reminder. All of there songs are! That life’s really fake as shit musics real feelings are TERRIBLE to show and fake? Yeah. Everything around you is fake! Look! Fake walls cheap ass hinges holding doors cheap tacks holding pictures or posters! Cheap carpet ( that’s slowly killing you with formica ) cheap paint that’s for what the eyes? White? Why not black!? Just white.. it’s all fake as hell.. love though? Can’t believe how real that shit is! It’s terrifying. You’ll never know though until you crash, into them, them, not the fling or the lusty bs lol them. Don’t look either or you won’t even come close. Play that song Sail now if your like TO MUCH SAUCE rn lmao.. joke ya mind.. drop acid not bombs 😘
I like watching vintage footage. It actually took place before my time. Im now 41 and time has zipped by and time will never slow down for anything. I guess time is in a rush to get to its destination.
I feel like this song has found me at the right moment in my life. Things are changing for me. I'm transferring back to the normal high school in my area. I've been going to an alternative school that helps kids with bad grades and if you improve them you get to go back to the regular high school. Today is the end of the first semester and after Christmas break I will be returning to the normal high school. I'm going to miss all the kids and teachers at the small alternative school. Idk if I can handle the regular high school I'm scared. I might just fail on purpose to go back idk. My anxiety is getting the better of me. Thank u for the upload cyborg
I transferred to a school like that on my first day of grade 11. I wasn’t far behind, but I worked very hard and graduated a year early. They are like a second family, but they want to see you succeed. Do it for them.
Planet Panda fucking weird.. I’m in the same situation, I’m leaving my alt school and I’m starting at the normal high school after the break, pretty scared too
I miss a guy i never dated. He always felt like he was meant to cross my path. He was made to listen to my heartbreak and just be there at the tough time i had. I never said i liked him but i did oh god. I liked him so much he became my muse when i wrote lyrics. At a point i felt like he liked me too but idk. I just miss all the conversations and the songs he sang to me at midnight.
I see you made that comment 2 yrs. Ago, which makes u 18 now? What I want to say to you is this: try, try, try to embrace every moment you have each and every day. It goes soooo fast, you can't even imagine. And you will look back at the moments you had right now and long for those too. Trust me, yesterday I was 18, today I'm middle aged. One of the best quotes I ever read was " We didn't know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun".
@@RainbowBrite80 i’m 21 now in uni and I honestly forgot about this comment. Some people are just meant to cross and not be in your life forever. That’s what i’ve learned. But thank you, your comment made my day haha
Idk how I got here or why but... I'm crying. I'm crying my life out. This whole song... It's just incredible. We never know when we'll stop living. We'll never know our destiny...
С каждым годом возвращаюсь к этому видео. Эмоции все те же, тупо плачу. Время так быстро летит, и как же больно осознавать что ничто не вечно, особенно близкие. Спасибо автору за это видео, оно пробирает до души (особенно тронул момент где старички играют с собачкой :,)
Mine didn't left the world but left me after 8 years of friendship just because she gets married...i would prefer to know that she's not in this world neither to know that she just choosed to live without me...
@@AngelOfNightmare27 My stranger friend, I know it's hard to hear (or read) but love is above all. Friendship knows no debts, only offers. If she is happy, strong and respected, it should be more than enough for you. You've lived your moments, none of this was false. Now it is time to step forwards, with a smile, if not upon your face, within you. Because that is what people do, they move on.
A teen girl surrounded by excitement and entertainment. But all I want to do it go home and be in my room. I really feel like I'm wasting this part of my life. At least that's what everyone says.
It's been 7 months since we broke up but it feels like it just happened yesterday. I'm sorry I gave you a hard time. I'm sorry if I'm too imperfect. I'm sorry if my best still wasn't enough. Please never love a woman like me again. Please live a life full of love and happiness. I'm sorry, my empire. I will always love you.
This is one of the most beautiful videos I have ever seen on TH-cam. The nostalgia of the home movies combined with the haunting ethereal music makes for a sublime life affirming 3min 42 seconds.
i wont wait anymore. i wont wait for you to fade, for life to move. ill move, as i should, and never stop moving. we came to an end a while ago, its time for me to start new.
It's my favorite clip, especially the first thirty seconds. The happiness on the groom's face warms my heart. I dream of the day when my love and I will receive the sacrament of marriage and when we will bring children into the world that God sends us. Thank you, Cyborguinha, your sensitivity is charming!
This footage reminds me of artwork/photography used by The Innocence Mission to convey joyful moments in life, often with another, exploring the miracle of life and it’s transitory nature. To convey the longing for connection and the space between us, and the experience of being a creature. I’ve been an Innocence Mission fan for over 20 years and find their music to be among the most beautifully sad yet hopeful I have ever encountered. As always, thanks for this video.
Yesterday i broke up with my first love, the woman i thought would never let me down, that i would never leave me alone, and today i can only be drunk so as not to feel the pain i felt yesterday when she broke up with me. Thanks for this song, i dont really like the harmonycs but it made me remember about everything in a "good" way, now i like this song
Me too my gf Amanda broke up with me 2 hours ago and I’m fucking heart broken :( I feel like life is worthless without that person you dear most. Fuckk me I’m soooooo broken!!!
you think you'll never get better and at the moment that missing void is eating you up and you feel so helpless but trust me.. You will. I thought the same when my first love left me, but I'm 3 years from there now and I'm so much happier now with someone who truly deserve me. Keep going my friend!
Remembering fighting into depression. A lot of rough things happened in my life and Gosh it was HARD. I was so unhappy and overwhelmed by my troubles and problems. When I’ve decided to talk to my best friends about that because I clearly wanted to disappear, I started to heal. I listened to this song each times and it reminded me how precious the life is. It helped me a lot and I cannot be more greatfull. Today, I’m still struggling but I’m way happier. Much love ❤️
"Music always seems to me to produce that effect. It creates for one a past of which one has been ignorant, and fills one with a sense of sorrows that have been hidden from one's tears. I can fancy a man who had led a perfectly commonplace life, hearing by chance some curious piece of music, and suddenly discovering that his soul, without his being conscious of it, had passed through terrible experiences, and known fearful joys, or wild romantic loves, or great renunciations" (Oscar Wilde)
i keep thinking i make myself be sad, that its all my fault and i should do things to distract me and make me happy. but the feeling is so intense it doesnt feel like im doing it to myself. it hurts so much, i dont want to do this to myself.
we were meant to be together. since ive known you i knew we would be together even after years of change. fate is funny that way. but we were never meant to stay together. what will be will be.
I dont know if its just me but the most beautiful part of this music is the videos and images in the background. they remind me that every life has a beginning and is full of beautiful, precious moments, whether the life ends up being long or short.
Some people live their life when theyre young. Some people live their life when they're old. Either way, wherever you are, whenever that is. You'll be happy and content.
sorry for rushing things over the summer. i needed you the most. you helped me get over a lot of things and fears and you took my insecurities away. thank you. sometimes i wish you were still in my life. every now and then i cry looking at the pictures of us. i still got the polaroids but i should probably burn them soon. i can’t believe i’m not over you yet. you hurt me but i still love you. i wish you came back. but you found someone better. i’m sorry for not being enough.. love you fatima.
*Lyrics:* When can I see? When can I see? When my urge to wallow anymore When can I kiss you? When can I love you? Time my urge to wallow in you When can I tell you? That I'm evil, you For willing my power in you all When can I see? When can I see? When my urge to wallow anymore
I hear something slightly different: When can I see you? When can I feel you? Delivering my urge to wallow anymore When can I kiss you? When can I woo you? Turn my urge to wallow in you When can I tell you? That I really love you? Forever and ever, I know When can I see you? When can I feel you? End my urge to wallow anymore
@@ValeriaCarranza24 oh, well There you go, friend: When can I see? When can I see? When my urge to wallow anymore When can I kiss you? When can I love you? Time my urge to wallow in you When can I tell you? That I'm evil, you For willing my power in you all When can I see? When can I see? When my urge to wallow anymore
This makes me feel a type of sadness and nostalgia I don't think I've ever felt before. It's truly beautiful, but at the same time it's almost difficult for me to listen and watch this. I usually don't believe in this stuff but I really feel like I'm feeling who I used to be, in another life.
During quarantine it felt like I was living the same day for the past 8 months. I would wake up, eat, play the same game, shoot the same enemies, run the same mile, listen to the same music, and text the same people that shared the same mindset. But then, my friend lost his life in Iraq. It hit me like a truck. It changed. My mom took me on a trip to San Jose. And I began to see everything I have ever wanted to see. The sunlight shine through tall trees, I could hear the brilliant but tranquil silence of the earth. I found it. I found what I am. Who I am. What I want to do. Who ever you are, disrupt your daily life. Stop and wait for nothing, think on what is past life, think on what is past your understandings. Grow. It’s okay.
With school, I feel as if I’m trapped in a house seeing others enjoy life, while I’m just sitting there having already wasted 16 years of my life on education. Then to only expect myself to go to college and spend more time to only get a job and forever live the same day over again.
Nothing - I lost all my friends, I’ve lost hope in friendship and I’m in a constant sadness just watching other people living their life, I feel lonely and I’m scared pretty much all the time. I feel I’m also wasting time, reading your comment makes me feel less lonely, thank you, at least there’s someone who feels the same way as I do < 3
Sitting here in my room contemplating to get ready for school thinking about the bullies and stress that iam gonna face today and this title really inspires me to do better because everything has an end I'm so happy I found this masterpiece and this channel thank you for making it a bit more better..💗
This is probably the best edit you've done, and I LOVE your videos. There is just something so special knowing these are all home movies (you know, rather than some new wave french flick :P)
Every waking moment we spend dealing with stupid bullshit is what drags us down until we sink we can’t ever truly break free unless u ur self are willing to I love this
As a side note to my original statement, I suppose the ambience of the song coupled with these old home videos (from someone’s family) some how does something to my brain where I watch it and I honestly want to tell these ppl that I miss them. Especially the part where the grandparents are sitting on the bench and waving. And that’s crazy I guess, because I don’t know who they are.
I like to think that nothing actually has an end. Endings seems to be, to me at least, the meaning we choose to give to everything that isn't part of our present anymore, that doesn't take place in our current time-line and space. It's not part of our "here and now", so it belongs to somewhere else. But after all, it is still there. Moments remain, we just get to go past them. This song makes me feel like i'm standing in some outer space, getting to see from afar every little memory that I have of you. Of you and me. Of me with you. Of you with me. I know everything's still there, but I don't get to feel it anymore, now the only thing I can access is the nostalgic feeling of remembering. I'm thankful for that, but I miss you. I miss you and there's no real end to that.
I remember it so well, the cold at 7:30 in the morning , walking with friends to the cafeteria or to just talk and socialize with others , my family I saw for 6 hours a day, it was middle school where I had friends , where I knew people and people knew me , I was in a class with people I knew since kindergarten, always getting in trouble , having the first friend group I’ve ever had , all of us being innocent , Standing by the red brick wall waiting for 8:30 to hit so we can go all together to our first period class, and ending the day at 2:52 and hanging out with friends outside , I was 13 exited to be a teen , but I’m 16 now and I know I’ll never get the same experience I had then
las personas que has visto en el video ya no existen, tal como trataran de verte una generación futura, no existiremos pero dejaremos un sentimiento igual que vemos este video: sentimiento unico e inigualable. Es la posteridad que nos toca. :)
Ya know I show my friends a lot of what you do and they tell me they are just videos but to me what you do is art that I just admire, Thank you for everything :,)
I wish i could fall in love like that again, because now it feels fabricated, fictious. I wish i could feel what i felt before, letting yourself be loved is agonizing.
for my sad pals in the comments: you’re life’s only starting, you’re not missing out on anything and if it’s happening it’s meant to be. just don’t lose your hope and work hard to be better every day..whenever i’m depressed i remind myself that we’re all human and we’re all going through something but some people are better at hiding it.
I wish I could cherish my current childhood but there is so much work to do and i am so pressured to find out everything now. I havent even hung out with all my friends yet and i havent done stupid things that are okay for a kid to do. Im just sad that I cant express myself and I am trying to find myself but its so much. Its too much. In 3 months my childhood is gone and i dont have anything to show for it. Only awards and fake smiles Thank you for everyone who read this
The way the voice is distorted is so comforting to me. It's like someone understand how I feel. Not knowing who I am anymore. Feeling disconnected from my memory. Estranged in my own bed.
I hate the fact that I know I have to live my life to the fullest, enjoy it and everything. I'm studying something I like, but I don't feel too passionate about it. I think it's too late to change that, not because my life is almost ending, but because it would be dissapointing for my parents. Idk. Reading youtube comments in songs like this always makes me thing about it. I hope some day these feelings change.
There will be a day when you'll be thinking about this exact moment. Maybe when u have ur first child? maybe when u get that amazing job? Or even maybe when you're low someday again? You'll think about this very moment, and you'll try to remember how different everything was. You'll see how much you've changed. How much life has changed. And you'll miss it. You'll someday wish to feel *this* moment again. And I think that's beautiful. The fact that someday this moment or/this song will feel "nostalgic" To me is just beautiful. It reminds you that it's all slipping away and worrying will only make it worse. In the end it doesn't matter if u aced that test or if u finished that project and maybe even got promoted. In the end it all comes down to *how* it made u feel. Ofc I'm not saying don't be productive, but rather that don't *just* try to be productive, try to make yourself feel good. Don't cover that stupid song u hate but everyone loves, don't go into engineering because thats _more_ successful. If u do anything that u don't enjoy for for the sole purpose of being productive,it's really not of much use🙃. I'm sorry I went on such a big rant lmao if u read all of that I seriously love you, you can become the godfather of my children
when i see these home videos edits it makes me happy, a random stranger decided to make your home videos into a comfy and beautiful edit with great music maybe no one who knows them or family will ever see it, but i like to imagine family finds them and makes them happy
Hey Grace. Everything must be difficult by now for you but you'll find what you really want in the right time. Enjoy the journey and don't starve yourself too much. You'll find her promise. You just have to be patience while finding out who you really are.
Is it just me or does anyone also feel that chill in their body like sadness, loneliness throughout your whole body (idk how to really explain) like literally.. Also listening to song like this make me miss my country when i was around 6-11 years old
i don’t k no ow why i have this sudden empty phases in my weeks like i rlly just want them to go away,, i feel so apathetic and even communicating to my friends seems so idle feeling...i wanna be okay i just wanna be okay
i can’t help but think about my childhood. i always wanted to grow up and my mama told me to stop saying that because once i do i will wish i could go back and holy fuck she was right. i wish nothing more than to start over. do it all again and again till i remember every move i made by heart and can recreate it if you asked me to. i once was so little and now i’ve overgrown my own body. i can’t believe this is the same skin that held her, that sweet little girl with so much hope and so many dreams for this life. i can’t believe how much i hurt her. how much i’ve disappointed her, i must’ve. i know what she thought i would be like now and i am no where near that. i really do fear my future. i don’t think i will go anywhere and i don’t think i’ll become anything important or memorable. i think i’ll honestly never even be able to be on my own. i can’t even get a job. i feel if i get a job i’ll never be able to not have one till i’m old and retire if i’m lucky and get to retire which i probably won’t. i don’t want to say goodbye to just living life. i don’t do much anyways though so what’s the point. i don’t know how to get started. i am scared i feel like i’m still that young girl and i feel like i just got shoved into a 19 year olds body and was told to start my life and career and i am scared and i don’t know what i’m doing. i can’t stop thinking about everything. i really don’t want to grow up. i already did though. i’m already almost 20 and once i am 20 i’m not a teenager anymore and that means my childhood truly is over. i had only one go and that was it and i wish i knew this back then cause i would’ve done so much different. i wish i would realize that now too kind of cause i know in the future i’ll think i’m young now and ruined it now too which i am. if that makes sense. i’m really just rambling and repeating the same things. i don’t think anyone will even see this i don’t think i’ll even post it. idk why i’m typing this i’m trying to put out my thoughts but they’re all over the place. i try so hard to sound smart when i write but i feel like i sound stupid. i feel like that goes for most things i do in my daily life. idk. i love this song though.
Cherish being 20. Trust me I’m 38 and wish like hell I was still 20. That’s so young! Don’t get overwhelmed, though I do too. And it’s always when I think about the future. That’s when I get anxiety. Just taking it a day at a time helps me. Just think about today and tomorrow will take care of itself.
i miss him so much ): i wish he realize that one day, i know i’m the one i know i’m different for him i know he can’t live without me but he’s depressed now.. i hope one day we get better together 😔 i miss us..
It’s easing to watch footage of people from the past, because we know they all have overcome the hardship in their life and they’re probably dead by now, but they all fulfilled their life to the fullest, and so will us. We will.
when i told you id always care about you and id always love you, i meant it. even if you didnt mean it back. a piece of me will be with you until the end of time. but i have to move on.
You betrayed me. You gave me a pain of which I'd never felt before. You made me grieve to the point where I didn't want to cry anymore. Man, how much I cried. Yet, I forgive you. I shouldn't, but I do. Our relationship was completely flawed, I knew that from the start, but this whole time, I was hoping that maybe it could work. That maybe I'll have those stories where the person's first love is their only love. What a fool I was. You were never even able to communicate with me. You never talked to me. I always felt like I was doing something wrong. Throughout our whole relationship, I would cry myself to sleep because of the fear that I would lose the best thing in my life because of my own incompetence. Those tears were wasted, though. You found someone better than me. A better lover than I could ever be. I know I wasn't the best, but you could have told me. Why lead me on, even whilst breaking up with me, or even afterwards? I told you to be honest and blunt with me. I told you that I wanted only what you wanted. I hated you for so long. I hated what you did to me. I hated myself for not being enough. You couldn't even say it to me. You couldn't say that you cheated on me and you couldn't say why you really left me. I had to approach you about it. And you gave your sob story. And now I believe it. I know what you did is still wrong, and you know it too. I don't think I have feelings for you. I don't think that's what's going on. I don't even miss you. I think I miss what I once had. I think I miss that connection with another human being. I miss the thought that maybe I'm worthy of love after all. That I'm even somewhat physically attractive. That I can be someone to someone. I don't have feelings for you, and I hope you've let go of me as well. I'm sorry you had to go through that turmoil for nothing. I'm sorry you have to feel the same things I felt. I don't think you're a bad person. We all make mistakes and we all have ended up hurting someone around us because of our actions. It's unavoidable. I just wish I had saved myself the pain. I wish I could say that I'm happy to have been your go-to when you needed it, but after this, I could never be proud of that. It was cool while it lasted, Annie. I hope you someday learn how to be in a proper relationship and can settle down and be happy. I know we moved too fast, but just know that at one point, I was proud to be called your girlfriend. As for me, I probably won't find someone else for another 5+ years. It hurts, but it's the truth. After this year, I'll finally be an adult. Dating is a lot harder outside of high school, as you can imagine. I'm terrified. Absolutely terrified. But like I've once said before to you, I always end up okay
enjoy your life
thanks
You too :)
:)
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You as well, Cyborg, you as well
i hate being aware that time keeps passing me by, but yet still not having enough energy to live my life to the fullest
alejvdra same:(
Its ok well make it through you know
I absolutely can relate and am in a similar situation. I had to have both of my hips replaced at 39. Then all kinds of midlife crisis came on as well as chronic pain. My kids are becoming young adults and every now and again I see a picture when they were little dudes. Really messes with me.
this is me in one sentence..
The sad things is the more you want it the more difficult it becomes.
nostalgia is omnipresent; longing is forever
Nostalgia is a comfy soft carpet woven with each person's shining memories.
you break my heart
You highfalutin tho
🥺💖💔
We did not know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun
Remember and respect your memories, but don't stay there, keep continue buddy!
This comment made me cry..
So poetic!
That is one of the most accurate statements I have ever heard...
Это можно смело набить в качестве татуировки
I feel like I’m wasting my life...but can’t do anything to change that fact.
Feel the same here :/
Tala stop watching porn
Only one thing u can do, Belive in your self, Belive in your greatness, Belive in your dreams, your life is awesome, and If your life dont like u must change the point of view, everyones have their fight agaist their demons, i hope u didnt feel alone, u r not became your hero
HOLY SHIT! FEEL THE SAME WAY, I JUST WANT TO FUCKING CRY RIGHT NOW!
ENJOY YOUR LIFE
I feel the same, I think you should stop victimizing yourself, it's hard but if you want to have a worthwhile life you should listen to me. Just search on Google about it.
Obviously it may not be what happens to you, but do not close please.
This is not how I envisioned my New Year’s Eve crying alone in my room with this song but hey here am I
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I've been there.. I hope you're doing much better now
Eddie Ortega hey thanks, it’s so kind of you! I was super low but I’m actually sensing that I’m gettin better now.
I think sometimes the chaos can spark the light and urge us to try to be better... hoping you are good too 💕
@@MlkMeow It's satisfying knowing you're pulling thru slowly but surely. You're welcome. I agree with you 😌
Going thru a tough time atm... but in life even our own mistakes and struggles hold beauty, and ultimately that is exactly what shapes us as individuals. Stay strong
Why alone?
“seasonal depression goes in melancholy mode”
I still remember that night
The night you held me and said if it’s meant to be I’ll see you again
I still remember that last kiss
I remember the feeling of knowing you weren’t mine anymore
I keep hoping that “meant to be” will be soon
Cause deep down I think I’ll always want you
I love you.
Dude, that is so beautiful
Heavenly Diaz i feel ya
I'm fucking crying now.
that brought up some memories.. love from new zealand.
I thought these were the lyrics. Fuck this is good
I want to hear this song right before I die.
oh yeah, the covid cleaned the earth will take the damn being that destroyed it ...... damn man.
If you really want too it will happen peace n loveeee
I feel the same way
Currently 19 fearing adulthood don’t know if I’ll succeed in life . I’m hopeful though somewhere inside me but I’m so scared of the world
Everything Will be ok.
easy easy
same here 19 aswell and suffering from depression. future sure is uncertain
V I’m here for you
You'll be fine. Take it one day at a time. Things have a way of unfolding in very unexpected, yet ironic ways. You can't predict it, so there's no use in being afraid. You make it through bit by bit, and as you get older time goes faster and you remember less and less. I'd like to tell you to savor these years, but that's useless advice when you're young. The best thing I can tell you is to make your own way, and don't do anything just because people tell you to or it's expected of you. Strive to live a life without regrets, because those are the things that really start to weigh the older you get.
sleep party people + old video clips is a god tier combination
I agree
“I wish there was a way you knew you were in the good ol days before youve actually left them” best quote ever by Andy Bernard, The Office tv show
The greatest tragedy is that there isn't background music like this in real life
Airpods
AirPods
Honestly lol
Airpods.....
Are too fricking expensive
nothing is ever guaranteed. so please for the love of god, don’t sit back and watch things happen to you. Make stuff happen. Make your heart full. Be your own best friend. Live.
💜
Thank you. I think I needed to see this
💓💓💓
❤️❤️❤️
😊😊
i wish i could meet u for the first time all over again. i miss you so much
i wish we could talk like we used to. but it’s for the best.
:(
to dear Atheer
I wish I could restart life
😞
Ohhhhh... You summed up everything that was in my heart :(
I just wished I treasured every moment of my childhood. to would be nice to go back when I had no worries. when I didn't have to worry about my last summer. now my last summer is here, I don't even know if its a summer or not. I wish I could treasure the moments when me and my cousins would stay up all night and play cod zombies but now everyone has moved away and have jobs and life. its sad and I just have greif over the past. one scenario that plays in my head 24/7 is when im done with my graduation party and come home at 3am, I would just lay in my bed and just sib and ponder over the memories, playing 2014 hits and logging on to my first Minecraft world that me and my cousins would play on, being my friendlist and seeing people that were online for the 3 years. I treasure every moment and just wished to treasure people. kids, enjoy life and make trouble :).
this is beautifully written. gosh.
Felt this fr that growing up shit scary
Man I felt that. Remember being grounded? I felt like I was on a mission. Like how can I possibly sneak out or get her to soften up lmao! Or just sit there wondering... what’s everyone else doing out there? Probably enjoying me not being around now that I think about it lol. If we knew THEN what we know now right?
@@lostandfound2329 Being grounded never worked as a punishment for me because I would just be reading or doing random shit in my room anyway
I feel the exact same way. Ever since I started high school it feels like my life has just fast forwarded to now. And now that I have graduated high school, I feel so lost, and I never know what to do or where to go. I wish I could just go back to the start and enjoy my childhood to the fullest. I miss not worrying about tomorrows and what I will do in the next 5 years. I just want to be young again.
people have a concept of living their lives to the fullest but I think that, because you only do it once and you can’t skip ahead or go back and redo things, that everyone’s lives are their fullest. Just by virtue of being the only life you get. But I dunno. It’s 6am and my flight doesn’t leave for two and a half hours and I just got off one that started at 11.
Theresa Turman exactly. There is no such thing as tomorrow.
Andrew : you really got it. By virtue of its uniqueness and difficulty to recreate, each moment its a masterpiece, it’s a matter of enjoying every second of it
Amen!
Yes but im only 15 and have regrets. If i chose the different option then id feel as though i was living my life more
1:59 am and I'm crying because I turned 18 just a few months ago and my life is just "starting", I feel like time goes by quicker than I've ever felt and I'm wasting away. I wish I could go back to when I thought life would be more interesting now.
Same
I feel the exact same i turned 18 a month ago and everything seems quicker and without any meaning
Can I say that i hate internet and I hate how fake the world and the relationships are becoming...but since I’ve discovered ur channel I think I have hope again? Like how many beautiful people are reunited here! Thank you cyborg, you really helped ❤️Baci from Italy
Chiara Esposito I can totally relate to this. I’m 20 and I feel like people my age and younger are the loneliest. Even when I try and reach out, people always go for the thing that gives them the most instant gratification aka the internet. Friendships aren’t valued as much I suppose. Or maybe it’s just me...
The world has always been fake
Sadly there’s nothing we can change about it
I am 19 and I totally feel you! I constantly feel disappointed and broken for my mistake of seeing ppl for who they are not! But you know maybe there’s still some hope ...
My first trip I realized the same x10 and I also came to realize all we’re even here for is to love each other. Fake? Yeah it’s a mirage usually but it feels good while it last right? Is the pain worth it after? Hell no but physically humans will heal let go move on and then crash into it all over again, and again, and again. Until we’re so damaged we don’t even know how to lift ourselves up to search or stumble around through life enough to meet them again. This song definitely is a reminder. All of there songs are! That life’s really fake as shit musics real feelings are TERRIBLE to show and fake? Yeah. Everything around you is fake! Look! Fake walls cheap ass hinges holding doors cheap tacks holding pictures or posters! Cheap carpet ( that’s slowly killing you with formica ) cheap paint that’s for what the eyes? White? Why not black!? Just white.. it’s all fake as hell.. love though? Can’t believe how real that shit is! It’s terrifying. You’ll never know though until you crash, into them, them, not the fling or the lusty bs lol them. Don’t look either or you won’t even come close. Play that song Sail now if your like TO MUCH SAUCE rn lmao.. joke ya mind.. drop acid not bombs 😘
Mom, I miss you every day...
She’s with you always
hey cyborg, you make my life much more interesting.
She is your creamy cheese and jelly, isn't she?
Piero Pinnelli hell yes
You mean depressing huh
I like watching vintage footage. It actually took place before my time. Im now 41 and time has zipped by and time will never slow down for anything. I guess time is in a rush to get to its destination.
I feel like this song has found me at the right moment in my life. Things are changing for me. I'm transferring back to the normal high school in my area. I've been going to an alternative school that helps kids with bad grades and if you improve them you get to go back to the regular high school.
Today is the end of the first semester and after Christmas break I will be returning to the normal high school. I'm going to miss all the kids and teachers at the small alternative school. Idk if I can handle the regular high school I'm scared. I might just fail on purpose to go back idk. My anxiety is getting the better of me. Thank u for the upload cyborg
Far from you in Korea but cheers for you.
I transferred to a school like that on my first day of grade 11. I wasn’t far behind, but I worked very hard and graduated a year early.
They are like a second family, but they want to see you succeed. Do it for them.
Planet Panda fucking weird.. I’m in the same situation, I’m leaving my alt school and I’m starting at the normal high school after the break, pretty scared too
I pretty sure you can Anon you have to persist, review your texts and keep the good work don't be afraid. Never
I hope your first two weeks of school were okay. I hope you’re okay too x
this account makes me so happy, love your work
I miss a guy i never dated. He always felt like he was meant to cross my path. He was made to listen to my heartbreak and just be there at the tough time i had. I never said i liked him but i did oh god. I liked him so much he became my muse when i wrote lyrics. At a point i felt like he liked me too but idk. I just miss all the conversations and the songs he sang to me at midnight.
he liked you, too.
He liked you too.
sometimes we meet who we think are the most important or most special people are people who are only in our lives long enough to teach us a lesson
I see you made that comment 2 yrs. Ago, which makes u 18 now? What I want to say to you is this: try, try, try to embrace every moment you have each and every day. It goes soooo fast, you can't even imagine. And you will look back at the moments you had right now and long for those too. Trust me, yesterday I was 18, today I'm middle aged. One of the best quotes I ever read was " We didn't know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun".
@@RainbowBrite80 i’m 21 now in uni and I honestly forgot about this comment. Some people are just meant to cross and not be in your life forever. That’s what i’ve learned. But thank you, your comment made my day haha
Making mistakes is okay, sometimes an end its just another way to open a different door. I really needed the song in this moment. Thanks to everyone
Thank you for this comment.
Idk how I got here or why but... I'm crying. I'm crying my life out. This whole song... It's just incredible. We never know when we'll stop living. We'll never know our destiny...
С каждым годом возвращаюсь к этому видео. Эмоции все те же, тупо плачу. Время так быстро летит, и как же больно осознавать что ничто не вечно, особенно близкие. Спасибо автору за это видео, оно пробирает до души (особенно тронул момент где старички играют с собачкой :,)
to my best friend, who left this world too early, i dedicate you this song, je t'aime pour toujours
:(
Mine didn't left the world but left me after 8 years of friendship just because she gets married...i would prefer to know that she's not in this world neither to know that she just choosed to live without me...
@@AngelOfNightmare27 My stranger friend, I know it's hard to hear (or read) but love is above all. Friendship knows no debts, only offers. If she is happy, strong and respected, it should be more than enough for you. You've lived your moments, none of this was false. Now it is time to step forwards, with a smile, if not upon your face, within you. Because that is what people do, they move on.
@@panoswakeup thank you for your comment, I'll do my best to move on.
@@AngelOfNightmare27 It's the kindest thing to do, be strong :)
A teen girl surrounded by excitement and entertainment. But all I want to do it go home and be in my room. I really feel like I'm wasting this part of my life. At least that's what everyone says.
one of my fav musicians of all time
these old home videos are incredible.
It's been 7 months since we broke up but it feels like it just happened yesterday. I'm sorry I gave you a hard time. I'm sorry if I'm too imperfect. I'm sorry if my best still wasn't enough.
Please never love a woman like me again. Please live a life full of love and happiness.
I'm sorry, my empire. I will always love you.
You deserve better, get up and live your life to the fullest. You should also live and be happy :)
“I’m sorry, my empire. I will always love you”
I can’t begin to explain how “real” those words feel.
This is one of the most beautiful videos I have ever seen on TH-cam. The nostalgia of the home movies combined with the haunting ethereal music makes for a sublime life affirming 3min 42 seconds.
i wont wait anymore. i wont wait for you to fade, for life to move. ill move, as i should, and never stop moving. we came to an end a while ago, its time for me to start new.
It's my favorite clip, especially the first thirty seconds. The happiness on the groom's face warms my heart. I dream of the day when my love and I will receive the sacrament of marriage and when we will bring children into the world that God sends us.
Thank you, Cyborguinha, your sensitivity is charming!
please don't break my heart, but if you do... I'll understand.
@alok gupta well at least you proved to yourself you're a true friend no matter what, and no matter how it hurt.
This footage reminds me of artwork/photography used by The Innocence Mission to convey joyful moments in life, often with another, exploring the miracle of life and it’s transitory nature. To convey the longing for connection and the space between us, and the experience of being a creature. I’ve been an Innocence Mission fan for over 20 years and find their music to be among the most beautifully sad yet hopeful I have ever encountered.
As always, thanks for this video.
Yesterday i broke up with my first love, the woman i thought would never let me down, that i would never leave me alone, and today i can only be drunk so as not to feel the pain i felt yesterday when she broke up with me.
Thanks for this song, i dont really like the harmonycs but it made me remember about everything in a "good" way, now i like this song
Isan Mestarine you'll be okay just keep going,please.
Me too my gf Amanda broke up with me 2 hours ago and I’m fucking heart broken :( I feel like life is worthless without that person you dear most. Fuckk me I’m soooooo broken!!!
dillan skatez it's all a process,give it time you'll find yourself again
you think you'll never get better and at the moment that missing void is eating you up and you feel so helpless but trust me.. You will. I thought the same when my first love left me, but I'm 3 years from there now and I'm so much happier now with someone who truly deserve me. Keep going my friend!
Damn simp
Remembering fighting into depression. A lot of rough things happened in my life and Gosh it was HARD. I was so unhappy and overwhelmed by my troubles and problems. When I’ve decided to talk to my best friends about that because I clearly wanted to disappear, I started to heal. I listened to this song each times and it reminded me how precious the life is. It helped me a lot and I cannot be more greatfull. Today, I’m still struggling but I’m way happier. Much love ❤️
Cyborg, everyone always comments how your work makes them feel. But what about you? Are you okay?
I hope he is
Hes a cyborg of course he is
Cyborgs are humans too, they can feel
K0rr0s1v 6996 unless he’s devoid of all human emotion, concerned only with the preservation of the cyborg race
If he stopped doing videos like this, thats the time where the answer is no
"Music always seems to me to produce that effect. It creates for one a past of which one has
been ignorant, and fills one with a sense of sorrows that have been hidden from
one's tears. I can fancy a man who had led a perfectly commonplace life, hearing
by chance some curious piece of music, and suddenly discovering that his soul,
without his being conscious of it, had passed through terrible experiences, and
known fearful joys, or wild romantic loves, or great renunciations" (Oscar Wilde)
Thank you
So much.
oscar wilde is fucking wild, man
This is beautiful. Do you know of any other quotes such as this?
Wow music really is everything
i miss my love and if you’re reading this i’m sorry
oh my gosh you’re gorgeous
If all of you guys still want that person why don’t you go get them back? Or try?
bailey and claire ❤️❤️
A Homeboy started seeing someone else
Noah Ahmed Cavadzade much love
i keep thinking i make myself be sad, that its all my fault and i should do things to distract me and make me happy. but the feeling is so intense it doesnt feel like im doing it to myself. it hurts so much, i dont want to do this to myself.
we were meant to be together. since ive known you i knew we would be together even after years of change. fate is funny that way. but we were never meant to stay together. what will be will be.
I dont know if its just me but the most beautiful part of this music is the videos and images in the background. they remind me that every life has a beginning and is full of beautiful, precious moments, whether the life ends up being long or short.
Some people live their life when theyre young. Some people live their life when they're old. Either way, wherever you are, whenever that is. You'll be happy and content.
sorry for rushing things over the summer. i needed you the most. you helped me get over a lot of things and fears and you took my insecurities away. thank you. sometimes i wish you were still in my life. every now and then i cry looking at the pictures of us. i still got the polaroids but i should probably burn them soon. i can’t believe i’m not over you yet. you hurt me but i still love you. i wish you came back. but you found someone better. i’m sorry for not being enough.. love you fatima.
*Lyrics:*
When can I see?
When can I see?
When my urge to wallow anymore
When can I kiss you?
When can I love you?
Time my urge to wallow in you
When can I tell you?
That I'm evil, you
For willing my power in you all
When can I see?
When can I see?
When my urge to wallow anymore
Thank you good gentleman
*whistles* weeeeeeewwwww damn
I hear something slightly different:
When can I see you?
When can I feel you?
Delivering my urge to wallow anymore
When can I kiss you?
When can I woo you?
Turn my urge to wallow in you
When can I tell you?
That I really love you?
Forever and ever, I know
When can I see you?
When can I feel you?
End my urge to wallow anymore
@@ikemoon127 ya sounds about right 👂🎧
It's so hard to make out the lyrics over the chorus effect. You have good ears my dude.
Oh god, I want to live so badly. I really do.
I was 5 yesterday, today I’m 15, tomorrow I’ll be 25 ... where did time go?where did that child and smile go? Why did it have to end?
Nothing ever ends.
Thank you for your work, been listening for a while
Also, hey
Thought these were the lyrics 😹
@@ValeriaCarranza24 oh, well
There you go, friend:
When can I see?
When can I see?
When my urge to wallow anymore
When can I kiss you?
When can I love you?
Time my urge to wallow in you
When can I tell you?
That I'm evil, you
For willing my power in you all
When can I see?
When can I see?
When my urge to wallow anymore
יהונתן V dang, you’re quite sweet, :Dthanks
יהונתן V thank you 💖
I wanted to cry so much while im watching this; your job is so beautiful, thank for this
This makes me feel a type of sadness and nostalgia I don't think I've ever felt before. It's truly beautiful, but at the same time it's almost difficult for me to listen and watch this. I usually don't believe in this stuff but I really feel like I'm feeling who I used to be, in another life.
During quarantine it felt like I was living the same day for the past 8 months. I would wake up, eat, play the same game, shoot the same enemies, run the same mile, listen to the same music, and text the same people that shared the same mindset. But then, my friend lost his life in Iraq. It hit me like a truck. It changed. My mom took me on a trip to San Jose. And I began to see everything I have ever wanted to see. The sunlight shine through tall trees, I could hear the brilliant but tranquil silence of the earth. I found it. I found what I am. Who I am. What I want to do. Who ever you are, disrupt your daily life. Stop and wait for nothing, think on what is past life, think on what is past your understandings. Grow. It’s okay.
With school, I feel as if I’m trapped in a house seeing others enjoy life, while I’m just sitting there having already wasted 16 years of my life on education. Then to only expect myself to go to college and spend more time to only get a job and forever live the same day over again.
Nothing -
I lost all my friends, I’ve lost hope in friendship and I’m in a constant sadness just watching other people living their life, I feel lonely and I’m scared pretty much all the time. I feel I’m also wasting time, reading your comment makes me feel less lonely, thank you, at least there’s someone who feels the same way as I do < 3
Find smth that doesnt make you feel that way and chase it
Sitting here in my room contemplating to get ready for school thinking about the bullies and stress that iam gonna face today and this title really inspires me to do better because everything has an end I'm so happy I found this masterpiece and this channel thank you for making it a bit more better..💗
Stay strong !
this hits hard, i love you
It's 8am and i'm crying. Thank you.
This is probably the best edit you've done, and I LOVE your videos. There is just something so special knowing these are all home movies
(you know, rather than some new wave french flick :P)
The sort of footage that highlights the desire of having experienced a time which I haven’t, and the song enhances it even more.
Every waking moment we spend dealing with stupid bullshit is what drags us down until we sink we can’t ever truly break free unless u ur self are willing to I love this
This video makes me nostalgic for a life that was never mine...
As a side note to my original statement, I suppose the ambience of the song coupled with these old home videos (from someone’s family) some how does something to my brain where I watch it and I honestly want to tell these ppl that I miss them. Especially the part where the grandparents are sitting on the bench and waving. And that’s crazy I guess, because I don’t know who they are.
I like to think that nothing actually has an end. Endings seems to be, to me at least, the meaning we choose to give to everything that isn't part of our present anymore, that doesn't take place in our current time-line and space. It's not part of our "here and now", so it belongs to somewhere else. But after all, it is still there. Moments remain, we just get to go past them.
This song makes me feel like i'm standing in some outer space, getting to see from afar every little memory that I have of you. Of you and me. Of me with you. Of you with me. I know everything's still there, but I don't get to feel it anymore, now the only thing I can access is the nostalgic feeling of remembering. I'm thankful for that, but I miss you. I miss you and there's no real end to that.
I remember it so well, the cold at 7:30 in the morning , walking with friends to the cafeteria or to just talk and socialize with others , my family I saw for 6 hours a day, it was middle school where I had friends , where I knew people and people knew me , I was in a class with people I knew since kindergarten, always getting in trouble , having the first friend group I’ve ever had , all of us being innocent , Standing by the red brick wall waiting for 8:30 to hit so we can go all together to our first period class, and ending the day at 2:52 and hanging out with friends outside , I was 13 exited to be a teen , but I’m 16 now and I know I’ll never get the same experience I had then
Everything you do makes me happy. Thank you Cyborg. ♥️
las personas que has visto en el video ya no existen, tal como trataran de verte una generación futura, no existiremos pero dejaremos un sentimiento igual que vemos este video: sentimiento unico e inigualable. Es la posteridad que nos toca. :)
Ya know I show my friends a lot of what you do and they tell me they are just videos but to me what you do is art that I just admire, Thank you for everything :,)
I wish i could fall in love like that again, because now it feels fabricated, fictious. I wish i could feel what i felt before, letting yourself be loved is agonizing.
__a song u should listen to is called >> time by The Impures
not sure what i just watched..but fits my christmas depression:P
YOU HAVE THE ENERGY!
YOU HAVE THE PASSION!
YOU HAVE THE LOVE!
YOU HAVE THE RIGHT!
... TO LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT.
NOW GET OUT THERE AND LIVE IT!
needed this right about now, thank you
for my sad pals in the comments: you’re life’s only starting, you’re not missing out on anything and if it’s happening it’s meant to be. just don’t lose your hope and work hard to be better every day..whenever i’m depressed i remind myself that we’re all human and we’re all going through something but some people are better at hiding it.
wtf ağlıyom
I wish I could cherish my current childhood but there is so much work to do and i am so pressured to find out everything now. I havent even hung out with all my friends yet and i havent done stupid things that are okay for a kid to do. Im just sad that I cant express myself and I am trying to find myself but its so much. Its too much. In 3 months my childhood is gone and i dont have anything to show for it. Only awards and fake smiles
Thank you for everyone who read this
Simple music
Simple shots
And yet this is beyond beautiful
Thank you
This made me cry
Same
You always find music I like listening to. Thanks for all you do
i never want to forget how this song makes me feel
The song with the old clips gives me a sense of nostalgia and melancholy at the same time. It's pretty cool
I always end up coming back to this somehow
The way the voice is distorted is so comforting to me. It's like someone understand how I feel. Not knowing who I am anymore. Feeling disconnected from my memory. Estranged in my own bed.
Yeah, everything has an end so try to love even if sometimes you dont have enough energy.
I hate the fact that I know I have to live my life to the fullest, enjoy it and everything. I'm studying something I like, but I don't feel too passionate about it. I think it's too late to change that, not because my life is almost ending, but because it would be dissapointing for my parents. Idk. Reading youtube comments in songs like this always makes me thing about it. I hope some day these feelings change.
There will be a day when you'll be thinking about this exact moment.
Maybe when u have ur first child? maybe when u get that amazing job? Or even maybe when you're low someday again?
You'll think about this very moment, and you'll try to remember how different everything was. You'll see how much you've changed. How much life has changed. And you'll miss it. You'll someday wish to feel *this* moment again.
And I think that's beautiful. The fact that someday this moment or/this song will feel "nostalgic" To me is just beautiful. It reminds you that it's all slipping away and worrying will only make it worse.
In the end it doesn't matter if u aced that test or if u finished that project and maybe even got promoted. In the end it all comes down to *how* it made u feel. Ofc I'm not saying don't be productive, but rather that don't *just* try to be productive, try to make yourself feel good. Don't cover that stupid song u hate but everyone loves, don't go into engineering because thats _more_ successful. If u do anything that u don't enjoy for for the sole purpose of being productive,it's really not of much use🙃.
I'm sorry I went on such a big rant lmao if u read all of that I seriously love you, you can become the godfather of my children
You are a true revolutionary
when i see these home videos edits it makes me happy, a random stranger decided to make your home videos into a comfy and beautiful edit with great music
maybe no one who knows them or family will ever see it, but i like to imagine family finds them and makes them happy
Sad song....This melody make me feel aware about the end of it all....
Hey Grace. Everything must be difficult by now for you but you'll find what you really want in the right time. Enjoy the journey and don't starve yourself too much. You'll find her promise. You just have to be patience while finding out who you really are.
Everything has an end but...... every end has new a beginning ;)
Cyborg, thank u so much for these
Is it just me or does anyone also feel that chill in their body like sadness, loneliness throughout your whole body (idk how to really explain) like literally.. Also listening to song like this make me miss my country when i was around 6-11 years old
i don’t k no ow why i have this sudden empty phases in my weeks like i rlly just want them to go away,, i feel so apathetic and even communicating to my friends seems so idle feeling...i wanna be okay i just wanna be okay
As a kid we wish nothing but to be an adult.
As an adult we wish to be a kid.
Enjoy the present. It's all there is
i can’t help but think about my childhood. i always wanted to grow up and my mama told me to stop saying that because once i do i will wish i could go back and holy fuck she was right. i wish nothing more than to start over. do it all again and again till i remember every move i made by heart and can recreate it if you asked me to. i once was so little and now i’ve overgrown my own body. i can’t believe this is the same skin that held her, that sweet little girl with so much hope and so many dreams for this life. i can’t believe how much i hurt her. how much i’ve disappointed her, i must’ve. i know what she thought i would be like now and i am no where near that. i really do fear my future. i don’t think i will go anywhere and i don’t think i’ll become anything important or memorable. i think i’ll honestly never even be able to be on my own. i can’t even get a job. i feel if i get a job i’ll never be able to not have one till i’m old and retire if i’m lucky and get to retire which i probably won’t. i don’t want to say goodbye to just living life. i don’t do much anyways though so what’s the point. i don’t know how to get started. i am scared i feel like i’m still that young girl and i feel like i just got shoved into a 19 year olds body and was told to start my life and career and i am scared and i don’t know what i’m doing. i can’t stop thinking about everything. i really don’t want to grow up. i already did though. i’m already almost 20 and once i am 20 i’m not a teenager anymore and that means my childhood truly is over. i had only one go and that was it and i wish i knew this back then cause i would’ve done so much different. i wish i would realize that now too kind of cause i know in the future i’ll think i’m young now and ruined it now too which i am. if that makes sense. i’m really just rambling and repeating the same things. i don’t think anyone will even see this i don’t think i’ll even post it. idk why i’m typing this i’m trying to put out my thoughts but they’re all over the place. i try so hard to sound smart when i write but i feel like i sound stupid. i feel like that goes for most things i do in my daily life. idk. i love this song though.
Cherish being 20. Trust me I’m 38 and wish like hell I was still 20. That’s so young! Don’t get overwhelmed, though I do too. And it’s always when I think about the future. That’s when I get anxiety. Just taking it a day at a time helps me. Just think about today and tomorrow will take care of itself.
i miss him so much ): i wish he realize that one day, i know i’m the one i know i’m different for him i know he can’t live without me but he’s depressed now.. i hope one day we get better together 😔 i miss us..
fuck man, i fucking feel you. 🥺
It’s easing to watch footage of people from the past, because we know they all have overcome the hardship in their life and they’re probably dead by now, but they all fulfilled their life to the fullest, and so will us. We will.
when i told you id always care about you and id always love you, i meant it. even if you didnt mean it back. a piece of me will be with you until the end of time. but i have to move on.
They look so happy and it gives me joy the same amount it gives me a feeling of sadness and melancholy.
Not everything. Some things last a lifetime.
__a song u should listen to is called >> time by The Impures
I have an exam tomorrow but now, I’m here. I’m here and enjoying the music.
You betrayed me. You gave me a pain of which I'd never felt before. You made me grieve to the point where I didn't want to cry anymore. Man, how much I cried. Yet, I forgive you. I shouldn't, but I do.
Our relationship was completely flawed, I knew that from the start, but this whole time, I was hoping that maybe it could work. That maybe I'll have those stories where the person's first love is their only love. What a fool I was.
You were never even able to communicate with me. You never talked to me. I always felt like I was doing something wrong. Throughout our whole relationship, I would cry myself to sleep because of the fear that I would lose the best thing in my life because of my own incompetence.
Those tears were wasted, though.
You found someone better than me. A better lover than I could ever be. I know I wasn't the best, but you could have told me. Why lead me on, even whilst breaking up with me, or even afterwards? I told you to be honest and blunt with me. I told you that I wanted only what you wanted.
I hated you for so long. I hated what you did to me. I hated myself for not being enough. You couldn't even say it to me. You couldn't say that you cheated on me and you couldn't say why you really left me. I had to approach you about it. And you gave your sob story. And now I believe it.
I know what you did is still wrong, and you know it too. I don't think I have feelings for you. I don't think that's what's going on. I don't even miss you. I think I miss what I once had. I think I miss that connection with another human being. I miss the thought that maybe I'm worthy of love after all. That I'm even somewhat physically attractive. That I can be someone to someone.
I don't have feelings for you, and I hope you've let go of me as well. I'm sorry you had to go through that turmoil for nothing. I'm sorry you have to feel the same things I felt. I don't think you're a bad person. We all make mistakes and we all have ended up hurting someone around us because of our actions. It's unavoidable. I just wish I had saved myself the pain. I wish I could say that I'm happy to have been your go-to when you needed it, but after this, I could never be proud of that.
It was cool while it lasted, Annie. I hope you someday learn how to be in a proper relationship and can settle down and be happy. I know we moved too fast, but just know that at one point, I was proud to be called your girlfriend.
As for me, I probably won't find someone else for another 5+ years. It hurts, but it's the truth. After this year, I'll finally be an adult. Dating is a lot harder outside of high school, as you can imagine. I'm terrified. Absolutely terrified. But like I've once said before to you, I always end up okay
I don’t believe in forever but I also believe that nothing ends because even after it’s over, the memories.. the energy of what was remains.