"it's not that hard"

don't mention this in other posts please.
for me. it's hard to run a relationship. constant fear of my heart being broken again is hard to manage. especially with such heavy feeling devoted to someone. when i am in one. i'm committed as a girl my age can be. which is alot. i'd spend all my days and nights with you just in exchange for love. because i'm barely loved romantically and touch starved i get so commited, my parents are protective of me having a boyfriend n i just wanna be left alone. it's my fault if he breaks my heart. not yours. also the constant pressure of my audience, because i'm muslim. i get i can't date i totally understand that because it's hard to control. because i'm so s3ggs and sh addicted being in love takes my mind off it. you feel me? it's that hard to manage, think again