Vlog | the struggle of feeling lonely...(navigating adulting)

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Book Review:
A Reading List
If you love books, this is a pleasant read because it talks about 5 books that center around the main characters.
A small downside to it though is since we follow around 3 characters, the turn around of the story through the perspective of each character take one whole chapter before going back to the previous chapter's storyline. 😅
equipment
»cam: IP11/14
»editing: Sony Vegas 15, Adobe Photoshop, VLLO
»tripod: xaomi
»tablet: ipad pro 11
»laptop: Acer Aspire VX
»laptop cooling pad: Deep Cool X6 Multicore cooler
»keyboard: Logitech K380
»mouse: Logitech M185
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[A little diary entry]
The past week (weeks) have been tough.
Being alone is different from the feeling of loneliness (living away from my family for a couple of years now!), but sometimes, and most days for me can still feel pretty sad.
Anxiety can be very debilitating, but I don't want it to ruin how I live my life. I feel guilty that I feel the way I feel, because I am surrounded with love and support from the people around me.
I feel blessed to have people who are patient and loving even when I haven't been patient and loving towards myself.
Jeremiah 29: 11
»For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
[I've been clinically diagnosed with anxiety and depression for 7 years already. 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I've stopped taking medication, but I try to manage so much of how I feel from day to day by redirecting it through therapeutic habits. Most days I am at my best, but there are times, that I do get episodes of such a low mood. I'm getting through most of them. I managed to capture some days of myself at my lowest in this video (and some that I didn't include) because there are times that I hope I can write down my thoughts (but lol, I can't always manage), or hope to read someone who goes through the same thing so I can say like, "Yes, this is exactly how it feels". I've made this video in case it can reach someone who might be feeling the same way, right now. I can't completely gather my thoughts as I am writing them down right now but I hope I do capture more of what I feel (after this writer's block lol) so I can let you know, or feel that you too are not alone.
I don't want to treat my depression and anxiety diagnosis as something terminal - that's why I don't want to speak as though it is the end to justify everything else like my thoughts, how I act towards myself or how I am towards others. I want to get through it, so I don't have to struggle with it because I want to be better with how I see myself,and better for the people around me. I pray for you, too💛]
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[@junkolav]

Awwee. Hope you’re doing great! Happy birthday ❤

[@aevely]

❤❤❤

[@AussieCeleste-qq7sn]

I have those days too it's not nice feeling like that

[@ciarelle]

new subbie here. hugs, so relatable huhu

[@AussieCeleste-qq7sn]

I hope you feel better soon

[@Regina-wu6hq]

sending you a virtual tight hugs 🫂

[@aevely]

Thank you, and to you too 💛

[@imariana9852]

Gwenchana.....??