I’ve dealt with depression since I was 9. I’m 20 now and doing 100x better now that I’m on the right treatment for it. I don’t remember the last time I was this happy. Coming back to this song brings back nostalgia. 6 years later.
@@AdaminTranzit depends how you look at your situation I get bad ptsd and anxiety but I’m managing I hope it gets better for you I hope you get help for yourself.
@@tiffany1002 its hard when you have 0 friends and you are 17 which means any friend you meet you prolly won click with because they already have a set personality due to their friends they have. I am 17 lets face it, everyone at this age already has friends, im not wanted or needed
I was also 10, Im now 15, Im not much better now, but I like to think that it would make her happy to see that, that stills mean I got a little better.
I was obsessed with this song so much when I was younger and I haven't listened to it in years and watching this takes me back. I feel all the nostalgia
almost everyone is blocking this thinking its going to make people kill themselves, this song is a healing incanation to those who understand the pain or know of it. Why block it? I love this song. This SONG keeps me GOING.
I spent so long to find this song and then it gets blocked by almost everyone, i'm not suicidal i just need the vibe of this song for an art project, it took hours to find this song not blocked, it really is a good song tho
@@Iwidelyoutliveeverything well that's for them but the commentor might be different. I personally blame my parents as they birthed me and they are the ones who got anger problems from
I heard this song when I was younger and I was in a horrible time in my life. I'm so thankful I was able to push through. Hearing this song when I was younger, I felt understood and I didn't feel as alone. I hope everyone is able to fight their battle, depression is a serious fight but never impossible.
been fighting since i was 10 1/2, im almost 14 and my heart is in so much pain. i need somebody so bad to cry to nothings getting better its only getting worse im losing myself, there is a special someone in my life that's saved me numerous times and he probably doesnt even realize it. If he wasn't in my life i probably would have had a successful suicide attempt long before now but now were distant and i miss him sm. and i cant cut anymore since i do band and i need to wear gloves which is not part of my uniform until i can get green concealor and a scar removal kit until i can get my current scars tattooed over when im older. as of now i feel like im bleeding tears and screams of emotional distress out of my heart. im emotionally attached to that one guy best friend, im losing myself. ive been falling apart since i was a little girl. I just need help. I just want to be okay bc nothing is getting better. it got better for one summer, and then 7th grade came along and i fell down again. im in 8th grade now and im mentally losing myself. im doing my best ive got all A's and B's in school, im trying my hardest and my mental health is getting worse and worse by the day. i just want to be okay i just want to be happy again
@@kadenceuhhI've been fighting for while to but I don't know anymore it's gotten so bad that I keep sharpening pencils and taking them to my arm it's getting so bad and my last reason to live is fading away
@@wolf-dw3vx im in a much better place now, i dont miss my old bsf anymore in that way but i just kinda look back on how close we used to be rarely, but you got this dude you can do it. ive improved in many ways and so can you eventually, may take years like it took me.
I listen to this song a lot when I was 13 and I was going through a really rough time. I’m turning 17 now and I came back to this song. I’m gonna listen to it for the first time since then, 13 year-old me would be proud of the person I am now, I know that for sure and we’ve come along way and I’m so proud of her for getting through what she did. I won’t say that I wish it didn’t happen because I wouldn’t be where I am now if it didn’t, I love you 13 year-old self❤
“Just a cut?” Just a scratch. “What’s that mark?” “It was the cat.” Just an excuse Just a lie “What’s with all the bracelets?” “Just fashion, why?” Just a tear Just a scream “Why were you crying?” “Just a bad dream.” But it’s not just a cut, or a tear or a lie. It’s always. “ just one more. “
Was 15 when I first listen to it, Couldn’t help myself but relived the pain for years, almost 10 years later now. Came back to listen to it. Cuz, it never left. The pain is buried. It takes just a thought, couple of voices to trigger it go resurface. And, all I could think is “this is it, world. Goodbye”. “I was misplaced, born in the wrong time, wrong place”. I am very sorry to each and every one who are listening to this. Especially if youre listening to this when you’re just a child. I’m very sorry.
My favorite thing about this song is how many people pitch in to it. It describes so many people, that it tells them they’re not alone. Keep fighting everyone, it may not get better today, or tomorrow, but it will happen. For those that are still facing their own war, and those who’ve won, kiss your scars. They’re a part of you, and proof that you’re still here to wear them❤️
i dont care, you are just a stranger you don't actually feel the care even if you pretend you do. You might someone make better, but i will suffer and your empty words mean shit to me sand my pain thanks
I hate how they think people will commit suicide by listening to this song, so they try to block it. This song actually heals me. It makes me feel better
Don't worry, this too shall pass.. brighter days are always up ahead! Life truly is like a damn rollercoaster with it's ups and downs. It's inevitable no matter who you are, where you're from, or how much $ or privilege one may have.. EVERYONE, & I mean every. Single. Person. On. This. Planet is dealt some legit hardships within their lifetime! Just take it as a life lesson you've gotta get thru, and eventually those brighter days will come back around to give you a lil break from those darker times.. until you've recovered enough, & possibly even prepared yourself with reinforcements for the next lesson life has lined up for you!
i was 7 when i first heard this, i was 8 when i was listening to this while doing sh. it really sucks. but i've gotten better now. i was addicted to hurting myself. this proves that whatever you're going through will clear up at least a little
Used to listen to this on repeat when I was like 14-15. Made me cry every time but I felt that pain. I’m 22 now and grateful I’m still here. I still struggle and came back to this song several years later and I still cry. Life is not easy. But please, stay. Somebody loves you 💔
This song was the last song I listen to before I tired to take my life, if it wasn’t for my boyfriend I wouldn’t be writing this comment. I thank the world for him 🤍🤍. He left….
Take care, I wish you all the best 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
This song helps me but makes me cry everytime. I can relate to this song so much and when I need a reason to keep fighting I play this song that helps me cope with my depression and my ptsd
I choke up every time I try to sing this. I can't sing it without crying or almost crying. I think about my mother and my boyfriend, the two people who truly love me. I'd feel so bad if I was gone and couldn't be here for them.
I know you commented this two years ago, but let me tell you something. Today I woke up in the morning at like 8am and I was SUPERR tired but I managed to roll out of bed and make myself breakfast, I ate, brushed my teeth and took a shower. Then I put on some fresh clothes, got my airpods and went on a walk with my cats. (yes I walk my cats on a leash) when I came back I made tea for myself and spent the whole day watching my comfort show until suddenly I started craving ice cream so I took a little trip to the grocery store and came back home to eat my ice cream and watch the TV until this very moment. Now you're probably thinking why the HELL I'm telling you this, well, the point is - last year me would NOT BELIEVE I could do what I did today. Right now I think I had the most unproductive day ever, but last year me would be shocked at the fact I even got out of bed. So it does get better, stay strong. I love you!
This song brings back so many emotions and memories that still affect me now. The fact that I blasted this everyday and no one even came in to ask if I was ok… I was struggling so much. I’m so glad that I didn’t let my dark thoughts win though because I would have missed so many good things and memories.
I found this song a few years ago.. and now I find myself back here, again... Here to remind myself of a reason to keep living.. this song saved my life.. it reminded me of how the family I have left would feel if I left this Earth.. I listened to it every day, as a constant reminder to live for others, even if I can't live for myself. At one point, it all got too much, along with the fact that I couldn't live with the memories of what some awful people did to me.. and I attempted.. after my friends had ran up and hugged me, yelling "YOU'RE ALIVE!".. I knew I couldn't do that to them.. after this, a year later, I ended up watching a friend spiral downwards and commit suicide in front of me.. This song shouldn't be blocked, this song can save lives, and has saved lives.
@@fenixjames5447 I wish the same.. the awful people I was referring to is my biological parents. My bio dad killed someone in front of me, then held me at gunpoint.
@@fenixjames5447 The friends i was referring to are long gone. It's been a while since I've posted.. and a lot has happened. I only have one person left. They're all I have.
@@Sonnenblume_18 if you ever need someone else in your corner, let me know. We're all human and deal with our own struggles. The least we can do is help another struggling soul.
I haven't cried in for ever but half way though this post and I could hardly finish if it was not for Spotify only having one of this song with terrible sound I would have never seen this post
I found this song while I was going through so much at the time, I used to listen to it crying my eyes out while harming myself, very shitty time of my life, was going through so much too much for 14 year old me to handle, but I pushed through, alone, I didn’t need anyone, I had myself and that was enough I made it for me, if you’re reading this and you’re also going through something You’ll be okay trust me It’ll pass whatever you have going on it’ll pass believe me It does get better You have yourself that should be enough, hang on a little longer.
I listened to this and songs similar when I was 12. I am nearly 25 now and think about everything I wouldve missed out on if i’d have taken my life. To all the young teens out there, please please please reach out to someone you trust and don’t stop fighting 🤍
God. 6 years ago i listened to this on repeat for hours every chance i got. It kept me alive in the first dark part of my life. To anyone reading this, I believe you. I believe that its bad, I know that you're tired. I know. You are not alone and every day you choose to live is a day that you are so very brave. Live for the quiet between breaths, live for the noise of your heartbeat. Choose life and laugh in the face of those who told you that you wouldnt. 🩷 I will believe in you even when you cant believe in youself.
It's been years since I've been here. Still makes me cry but not for the same reason, back then i didnt wanna be here. But today I cry cause i wish i could hug my younger self.
same. first time i heard this was 12 and remember how much i related to it and now seeing myself at 21 so wish i could go back and comfort my younger self.
It’s amazing how listening to this song at 24 years old hits harder than it did at 14, I saw the original video at like 12 or 13. I take medicine for depression but it feels like every day it just gets worse
I’ve been listening to this song for years. It has been both my ups and my downs. There have honestly been times I’ve hurt myself listening to this… but in perspective I’m still here because of this song. Year by year things will change. What you put your focus too will show. Keep you head up and don’t let anything get in the way
Yall im going through alot rn this is holding me together i just spent the last hour just listening to it on repeat while reading the comments its a good thing knowing im not alone😢😥☹💔💔
The first time I wanted to take my life I was in 6th grade... it was 2017... I am currently about to be a senior in high school... since 6th grade ive attempted 7 times... I dont know why im still here holding on but i am... when i listen to this sing it makes me wish my mom loved me... i moved out of her house two years ago and its been insane... im currently diagnosed with MDD, anxiety, PTSD, ADHD, BPD, and restless leg syndrom, i know i have ocd, autism, and DID but have never been diagnosed. Im 17 and still fighting for my life... if you think you cant make it im here to tell you other wise... i shouldnt be alive rn and i dont mean that in a suicidal way... but here i am... i dont even believe in god or whatever... but here i am still fighting... idk why... and i dont really wanna keep fighting... but here i am... so dont give up alright? ive been through hell and back and tbh would gladly talk to anyone who needs it... so if you need me reply to this comment and ill give yall my socials... yall deserve to life even if u dont know what for...
I'm sorry , but keep fighting. we are all going through a similar fight ig, I'm abit younger than U guys at 14 ,with around 13 attempts. but in still here fighting along with others. I struggle with sh aswell. but let's all try to keep fighting
I am 15 and my bsf is 17. My bsf attempted last weekend(idk if she has attempted b4 ever that was the first time she attempted since we became friends) and I didn't know what to feel I was just crying and crying and didn't know how I would be able to go on if she died luckily she didn't die and was in a ward for a week she just got out today but still sh's I've also thought abt committing lots of times the only thing that kept me from doing it was my mama but she hasn't even been the reason for a long while now, my bsf is the only reason I keep going I also deal with sh and when she attempted I thought of all the ways I could and I didn't think I could go on especially bc she wrote me a 5 page long letter and I was just a total mess I still am
We're really similar, I was also in 6th grade in 2017, 18 right now, the disorders (ASD, BPD, C-PTSD, psychotic depression, an ED) and I feel kinda hopeless. However I'm religious and it's the only thing keeping me going, İ had a dream earlier this year showing me that I'm among the good believers and I don't wanna ruin it by sinning to die by suicide... I don't think I'll ask my therapist for help until I have something to kill myself with like a rope... I always say I'll be alive by our next appointment, but I don't know when it's the last time I'll say that before it turns into a lie...
i'm feeling down and it's been exactly 5 years since i've listened to this song over and over again in my old room. i just want to be reminded that i've made it through once and i'll come through again no matter what. wish you guys all the best!
This is the first time I listen to this song again after 8 years and I’m remembering how low I was in my life. I ended up in the hospital for trying to OD but I’m happy I was able to find a different path in life. This song still hurts in my heart but it reminds me of how stronger I am now. And anyone who is going thru something in life, don’t hesitate to reach out because life is so beautiful we’re just so stuck in our heads that we forget what’s out there.
I listened to this when I was 10, I'm 18 now and moving out of my home town, still healing from my childhood. It gets better, I promise. Look for the good things in life rather than becoming helpless. You'll be okay, it takes a while but life is worth living.
I am a suicide survivor. I still struggle through my lows, but I keep fighting. I still spend most days alone after work days, and I treasure the small great moments with my loved ones. I tell my self daily I am here for a reason. I hold onto that, because most times I have nothing else. It's been 11 years since my attempt. Tomorrow is a new day.
Even though I'm not suicidal, a part of me feels comforted by listening to songs like these ones. I'm not sure if I'm right about this but I might have been depressed at a young age and no one saw it and I didn't notice. I just don't know how to deal with it properly. I've just been trying to stay positive.
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “what, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, all you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. Our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. so rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
I was only 9 when I first heard this song. I wish I could have helped that little boy out, it hurts to lose someone but it hurts even more knowing you deserve better but don’t have the power to do anything about it
i was like 7/8 years old the first time i heard this, and i was extremely depressed which is crazy to think about now knowing how young i really was. i'm 14 now im in a similar place and i feel like a hug from that little girl i once was could save us both
I think if the me that found this song 6 years ago could see me now, she’d give me a massive hug - she was naive thinking she didn’t want to be alive then, not knowing how much harder she would suffer later in life. but I’m doing my best & I encourage others to just keep going, it may hurt like hell but you deserve to keep living
Looking back at the girl I was listening to this song, it breaks my heart because I thought I’d never live past 18 but here I am, turning 28 July 2 💖 don’t give up keep going you’ll get through it.
sweetheart I'm so sorry. I if there's anything I can do for you please let me know. I'm a complete stranger but sometimes that's who we need. I used to listen to it too. It's rough. I'm so so sorry.
This song has always meant so much to me through every stage of my life from teenage to adulthood. Now listening again as a mum of a little girl, another dimension added. I will do everything it takes for me and for her until my last breath. To everyone out there listening to this song. I see you 🫶🏻
When i was younger i used to cry while listening to this song without understanding the lyrics. Now i have become an adult and listening this song again with tears and i can feel the lyrics now deeply. May God save us from this cruel world and may he show mercy on helpless dumb weak people like us.Amen
I remember listening to this song when I was little, relating to it a bit. Now I relate to it fully. I was listening to it one night, until all my emotions came too much, I was sobbing and I couldn't breathe. But that night I didn't cut, I went straight to the roof. I originally went out for fresh air but when I got there, I had made up my mind. The stars were so beautiful, some still fighting, but I wasn't a fighter. I told myself I was ugly, in so many ways. My appearance was ugly, my attitude was ugly, my scars were ugly. I said goodbye to everyone, I was ready to leave. My friends were spam calling me, telling me to get my parents, not to do it. I didn't understand why they wanted me to not do it. I'm happy I'm still here. I would've missed so many great things. I'm thankful for everyone in my life.
I listen to this song for years, it's really sad but relatable because l've dealt with so much depression and self-hate, I been a cutter since I was 10, been dealing with suicide since I was 14, and I use to be an IV heroin addict for years, today I'm 29 I'm a few months clean and still struggling but working on my self-harm and thoughts of suicide. Depression is a hard thing to work through.
I’ve been listening to this since I was 10 and I’m now 19. (The original and then I found this and other videos of it) Still feeling this so much and I wish I could and I’ve tried but I can’t bring myself to go from my family as they are incredible and I adore them more than anything. It hurts so bad when I feel like this and then remember what would happen so I come listen to this song multiple times a week and just silently sit with it to try and calm down and maybe live through this a little bit. Thank you. It’s sad and depressing but connects well and even with the negative thoughts I’m glad I can connect with a song.
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “what, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, all you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. Our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. so rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
I heard this song for the first time in 6th grade, and it made me cry because I felt understood for the first time, and I listened to it almost every day for the next 2 years. I'm now 19, a freshman in college, and working towards my associate in fine arts, my psych saying my depression is finally in remission. It's been a long ass time since I've heard this song, and wow. I wish I could go back in time and hug little me, and just hold them close, and let them know that they deserve all the good things in the world, and that what happened wasn't their fault. And show them my highschool diploma, photos of me at prom with my friends, me in my cap and gown with my brother... bc something like graduating highschool was a dream that I never thought would come true. And I believed it. But here I am, working towards my goal of becoming a professional artist! To the next 10-year-old who listens to this song... and thinks they wont makes it... please keep fighting... The darkness will pass, no storm can last forever. I promise.
Hi. Coming here 5 years later, after 2 su1cide attempts. I'm just here to tell you that I know it's awful rn and you're in hella amount of pain. After heck of time and therapy, meds, hospitals, SURVIVING, it gets better. Not super well but easier. I'm grateful I was saved. Met amazing people, bought a cat, visited many countries. Finally I feel okay on this Earth. It's September rn, suicide prevention month. I want to tell you to reach out for help. Please do it for your future self who still has a chance if you gave it to them. Love you all guys. Be strong, win this battle
This song has saved me countless times. There’s just something about the part about the Mother finding her daughter hits so different. I’ve been dealing with depression basically my whole life and I’m about to turn 21. Even though I still have thoughts but I just come back to this song whenever I feel that to try to give myself a little bit of hope to keep going…
I come back to this song constantly because I jus had a suicide attempt the year of 2023 n I’m currently still in recovery ❤️🩹 n I honestly still feel like I’m better off dead but I am thankful 🥹 that God didn’t take me cause then I wouldn’t be able to watch my boys grow up n play.I jus love 💕 them so much n I couldn’t imagine life without them
I scared 😟 my family so badly so I don’t think 💭 I’ll be doing that again ever oh I’m also only 19 years old n now I have to go everywhere in a wheelchair 🦼 so yeah
I listen to this song when it came as a child, im a teenager now it makes me so sad knowing I relate more to it then before,because i never understood these lyrics as a kid but i do now.
I was Baker acted 2 different times for suicidal thoughts in October of 2016 and February of 2017 in the state of Florida. I never acted on them I'm so glad I got help when I did who knows where I would be if I didn't get the help I'm thankful for the doctors that helped me when I was in the hospital. May God bless them that are going thru depression and psychiatric problems just know that you're not in the fight alone
It’s been 6 years since I was a little girl listening to this song on repeat, singing it in the shower hoping my parents would listen to the words, planning how I was going to end it. And I was 11. That was not ok, and when I found this again I couldn’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of sadness for my younger self. But I am so glad she kept going. So glad she was too scared to try. So glad I’m alive today, and so shook hearing this song again.
Middle school was my darkest time now I'm 18 and it's getting back to the dark place never thought I would come back to this 7 years later I was just a kid
i feel so sad that i was literally watching that one animation video of this that i can’t find anymore when i was fr 10… i’m now 16 and it’s like things are even worse
I used to listen to this when I was considering taking my own life and it honestly helped me through it quite a bit. Coming back to it now almost a decade later, I just got a wave of emotions I haven't felt in a long time. It's so interesting how music can bring back emotions, thoughts and feelings that you almost forgot you once had. I wish I could go back to my past self and just say how sorry I am that they ever had to feel this way. I can't imagine relating to this song now, though I know I once did. Thank you for reposting this.
Life gets better my loves.. always. I dealt with depression since I was 12 I’m 22 now and peaceful 😢❤
It's on and off but you are right, there is always something to look forward too, a light at the end of the tunnel of darkness consuming you
I’ve dealt with depression since I was 9. I’m 20 now and doing 100x better now that I’m on the right treatment for it. I don’t remember the last time I was this happy. Coming back to this song brings back nostalgia. 6 years later.
no it fucking doesnt, it gets fuvcking wrose
@@AdaminTranzit depends how you look at your situation I get bad ptsd and anxiety but I’m managing I hope it gets better for you I hope you get help for yourself.
@@tiffany1002 its hard when you have 0 friends and you are 17 which means any friend you meet you prolly won click with because they already have a set personality due to their friends they have. I am 17 lets face it, everyone at this age already has friends, im not wanted or needed
Who comes back to hear this song every time they feel like shit?
truth hahah
Me
agreed
Me too
Me I feel like this all the time
i was 10 years old hearing this for the first time, im 16 now, and i wish i wouldve given that little girl i was a hug. she deserved better.
real
I was also 10, Im now 15, Im not much better now, but I like to think that it would make her happy to see that, that stills mean I got a little better.
fr same that’s why i’m here cuz i remembered this song
this is me but i’m 15 soon to be 16 i hope your okay ❤
❤
I was obsessed with this song so much when I was younger and I haven't listened to it in years and watching this takes me back. I feel all the nostalgia
fr
Agree
Took me so long to find this
this is me. makes me cry honestly. do i miss my depression or is this some kind of musical regression? x§
@@njux1871 prolly both
almost everyone is blocking this thinking its going to make people kill themselves, this song is a healing incanation to those who understand the pain or know of it. Why block it? I love this song. This SONG keeps me GOING.
That's true
it actually pisses me off that spotify blacklisted it.
I spent so long to find this song and then it gets blocked by almost everyone, i'm not suicidal i just need the vibe of this song for an art project, it took hours to find this song not blocked, it really is a good song tho
literally the other two videos were blocked or they just had a blank screen
It kept me going through yesterday and the day before, i was in the hospital from an OD
“now she’s greeting death” my fav line, still gives me chills tbh
"look at me now are you proud of your precious child.."
legit I was to scream these at the top of my lungs at my parents
same
but she herself said it wasn't their fault
@@Iwidelyoutliveeverything well that's for them but the commentor might be different. I personally blame my parents as they birthed me and they are the ones who got anger problems from
Fr
Me too
I heard this song when I was younger and I was in a horrible time in my life. I'm so thankful I was able to push through. Hearing this song when I was younger, I felt understood and I didn't feel as alone. I hope everyone is able to fight their battle, depression is a serious fight but never impossible.
been fighting since i was 10 1/2, im almost 14 and my heart is in so much pain. i need somebody so bad to cry to nothings getting better its only getting worse im losing myself, there is a special someone in my life that's saved me numerous times and he probably doesnt even realize it. If he wasn't in my life i probably would have had a successful suicide attempt long before now but now were distant and i miss him sm. and i cant cut anymore since i do band and i need to wear gloves which is not part of my uniform until i can get green concealor and a scar removal kit until i can get my current scars tattooed over when im older. as of now i feel like im bleeding tears and screams of emotional distress out of my heart. im emotionally attached to that one guy best friend, im losing myself. ive been falling apart since i was a little girl. I just need help. I just want to be okay bc nothing is getting better. it got better for one summer, and then 7th grade came along and i fell down again. im in 8th grade now and im mentally losing myself. im doing my best ive got all A's and B's in school, im trying my hardest and my mental health is getting worse and worse by the day. i just want to be okay i just want to be happy again
@@kadenceuhhI've been fighting for while to but I don't know anymore it's gotten so bad that I keep sharpening pencils and taking them to my arm it's getting so bad and my last reason to live is fading away
@@wolf-dw3vx im in a much better place now, i dont miss my old bsf anymore in that way but i just kinda look back on how close we used to be rarely, but you got this dude you can do it. ive improved in many ways and so can you eventually, may take years like it took me.
I first listened to this song at 11… little me was so broken and oblivious to what was about to come her way
How are you? 💜
me too wish i could give her a big hug.
God that first note brings me back, the pain I felt as a little middle school kid hearing that.
I listen to this song a lot when I was 13 and I was going through a really rough time. I’m turning 17 now and I came back to this song. I’m gonna listen to it for the first time since then, 13 year-old me would be proud of the person I am now, I know that for sure and we’ve come along way and I’m so proud of her for getting through what she did. I won’t say that I wish it didn’t happen because I wouldn’t be where I am now if it didn’t, I love you 13 year-old self❤
I started to listen to this song at 13 too and I'm also 17 now and still going through it bad
it pisses me off to see so much people feel better at 17 while being depressed at 13. i began to be depressed AT 17
“Just a cut?”
Just a scratch.
“What’s that mark?”
“It was the cat.”
Just an excuse
Just a lie
“What’s with all the bracelets?”
“Just fashion, why?”
Just a tear
Just a scream
“Why were you crying?”
“Just a bad dream.”
But it’s not just a cut, or a tear or a lie.
It’s always.
“ just one more. “
Don't do it
Keep holding on, I hope things will get better for you
Stay strong
I found this poem on google and wrote it down in my book and i love it, i'm glad you found it too
😭
Facts
I feel that deep, the scars on my skin tells a story no one will ever understand
Was 15 when I first listen to it,
Couldn’t help myself but relived the pain for years,
almost 10 years later now.
Came back to listen to it.
Cuz, it never left. The pain is buried.
It takes just a thought, couple of voices to trigger it go resurface.
And, all I could think is “this is it, world. Goodbye”.
“I was misplaced, born in the wrong time, wrong place”. I am very sorry to each and every one who are listening to this. Especially if youre listening to this when you’re just a child. I’m very sorry.
My favorite thing about this song is how many people pitch in to it. It describes so many people, that it tells them they’re not alone.
Keep fighting everyone, it may not get better today, or tomorrow, but it will happen. For those that are still facing their own war, and those who’ve won, kiss your scars. They’re a part of you, and proof that you’re still here to wear them❤️
Yes, thank you
i dont care, you are just a stranger you don't actually feel the care even if you pretend you do. You might someone make better, but i will suffer and your empty words mean shit to me sand my pain thanks
I hate how they think people will commit suicide by listening to this song, so they try to block it. This song actually heals me. It makes me feel better
randomly just unlocked a memory that I used to listen to this all the time when I was 7
Life is ironic. Things went so much better when I last listened to this song... My grandma was still alive. I still had friends. I had hope...
Don't worry, this too shall pass.. brighter days are always up ahead! Life truly is like a damn rollercoaster with it's ups and downs. It's inevitable no matter who you are, where you're from, or how much $ or privilege one may have.. EVERYONE, & I mean every. Single. Person. On. This. Planet is dealt some legit hardships within their lifetime!
Just take it as a life lesson you've gotta get thru, and eventually those brighter days will come back around to give you a lil break from those darker times.. until you've recovered enough, & possibly even prepared yourself with reinforcements for the next lesson life has lined up for you!
I used to listen to this in high-school when I was extremely depressed, self-harming and attempting suicide. Now I'm a mum, this songs hits different
🫂
This song saved my life
Same it also might be the one that I play when If I end it
You wanna talk about it ?@@HalieghChampeau
I haven’t been okay for as long as I can remember. This song meant the world to me, I can memorise all the lyrics after hearing this for years.
i was 7 when i first heard this, i was 8 when i was listening to this while doing sh. it really sucks. but i've gotten better now. i was addicted to hurting myself. this proves that whatever you're going through will clear up at least a little
Stay strong, I wish you all the best
It gets better i promise, stay strong. Sending love
Used to listen to this on repeat when I was like 14-15. Made me cry every time but I felt that pain. I’m 22 now and grateful I’m still here. I still struggle and came back to this song several years later and I still cry. Life is not easy. But please, stay. Somebody loves you 💔
You are making me cry! I need this!
This song was the last song I listen to before I tired to take my life, if it wasn’t for my boyfriend I wouldn’t be writing this comment. I thank the world for him 🤍🤍. He left….
Take care, I wish you all the best
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your moms smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
and i thank God you're still here🤍
@@lydia.rosin1725 💜
For what it’s worth I’m glad your alive
@@danielploss6120 stay strong 🤍
Im crying right now beautiful voice Courtney:( :)
This song helps me but makes me cry everytime. I can relate to this song so much and when I need a reason to keep fighting I play this song that helps me cope with my depression and my ptsd
Havent listened to this song in many many years and omg still makes me cry ahaha the nostalgia
I choke up every time I try to sing this. I can't sing it without crying or almost crying. I think about my mother and my boyfriend, the two people who truly love me. I'd feel so bad if I was gone and couldn't be here for them.
stay strong queen
I know you commented this two years ago, but let me tell you something.
Today I woke up in the morning at like 8am and I was SUPERR tired but I managed to roll out of bed and make myself breakfast, I ate, brushed my teeth and took a shower. Then I put on some fresh clothes, got my airpods and went on a walk with my cats. (yes I walk my cats on a leash) when I came back I made tea for myself and spent the whole day watching my comfort show until suddenly I started craving ice cream so I took a little trip to the grocery store and came back home to eat my ice cream and watch the TV until this very moment.
Now you're probably thinking why the HELL I'm telling you this, well, the point is - last year me would NOT BELIEVE I could do what I did today. Right now I think I had the most unproductive day ever, but last year me would be shocked at the fact I even got out of bed. So it does get better, stay strong. I love you!
This song brings back so many emotions and memories that still affect me now. The fact that I blasted this everyday and no one even came in to ask if I was ok… I was struggling so much. I’m so glad that I didn’t let my dark thoughts win though because I would have missed so many good things and memories.
I found this song a few years ago.. and now I find myself back here, again... Here to remind myself of a reason to keep living.. this song saved my life.. it reminded me of how the family I have left would feel if I left this Earth.. I listened to it every day, as a constant reminder to live for others, even if I can't live for myself.
At one point, it all got too much, along with the fact that I couldn't live with the memories of what some awful people did to me.. and I attempted.. after my friends had ran up and hugged me, yelling "YOU'RE ALIVE!".. I knew I couldn't do that to them.. after this, a year later, I ended up watching a friend spiral downwards and commit suicide in front of me..
This song shouldn't be blocked, this song can save lives, and has saved lives.
lucky you i wish i didn't have a family...
@@fenixjames5447 I wish the same.. the awful people I was referring to is my biological parents. My bio dad killed someone in front of me, then held me at gunpoint.
@@fenixjames5447 The friends i was referring to are long gone. It's been a while since I've posted.. and a lot has happened. I only have one person left. They're all I have.
@@Sonnenblume_18 if you ever need someone else in your corner, let me know. We're all human and deal with our own struggles. The least we can do is help another struggling soul.
I haven't cried in for ever but half way though this post and I could hardly finish if it was not for Spotify only having one of this song with terrible sound I would have never seen this post
Used to listen to this song back when my life was broken. Thankful for where I am today, I'm 3 years clean.
omg congrats
I proud you❤️
I found this song while I was going through so much at the time, I used to listen to it crying my eyes out while harming myself, very shitty time of my life, was going through so much too much for 14 year old me to handle, but I pushed through, alone, I didn’t need anyone, I had myself and that was enough I made it for me, if you’re reading this and you’re also going through something
You’ll be okay trust me
It’ll pass whatever you have going on it’ll pass believe me
It does get better
You have yourself that should be enough, hang on a little longer.
I listened to this and songs similar when I was 12. I am nearly 25 now and think about everything I wouldve missed out on if i’d have taken my life. To all the young teens out there, please please please reach out to someone you trust and don’t stop fighting 🤍
Yeah, I was 10 when I found this song, now I'm 17 next month yet I am still here listening to it. Time has passed but not alot has changed.
Why would I tell anyone when they would just laugh
9 year old me will never forget this
God. 6 years ago i listened to this on repeat for hours every chance i got. It kept me alive in the first dark part of my life. To anyone reading this, I believe you.
I believe that its bad, I know that you're tired. I know. You are not alone and every day you choose to live is a day that you are so very brave. Live for the quiet between breaths, live for the noise of your heartbeat. Choose life and laugh in the face of those who told you that you wouldnt. 🩷 I will believe in you even when you cant believe in youself.
It's been years since I've been here. Still makes me cry but not for the same reason, back then i didnt wanna be here. But today I cry cause i wish i could hug my younger self.
you’re doing better now, at least
same. first time i heard this was 12 and remember how much i related to it and now seeing myself at 21 so wish i could go back and comfort my younger self.
The worst moment ever is when you are numb to this song
Ayyyy that's me
@@that_forest_fae idk whether to say same or sorry
@@taylorkraus9491 I'm not depressed as badly as I was 2 years ago but it's hard to cry
Same here
It’s amazing how listening to this song at 24 years old hits harder than it did at 14, I saw the original video at like 12 or 13. I take medicine for depression but it feels like every day it just gets worse
I’ve been listening to this song for years. It has been both my ups and my downs. There have honestly been times I’ve hurt myself listening to this… but in perspective I’m still here because of this song.
Year by year things will change. What you put your focus too will show. Keep you head up and don’t let anything get in the way
Yall im going through alot rn this is holding me together i just spent the last hour just listening to it on repeat while reading the comments its a good thing knowing im not alone😢😥☹💔💔
ong, i’m 16 and life is just hard yfm. you’ll make it tho, if u need to talk i’m here for u 🫶🏻
I was 11 when I first heard this.. I’m 20 now and I still come back to it every once in a while
All these years and this song still makes me cry. I'm not even someone who tends to cry
The first time I wanted to take my life I was in 6th grade... it was 2017... I am currently about to be a senior in high school... since 6th grade ive attempted 7 times... I dont know why im still here holding on but i am... when i listen to this sing it makes me wish my mom loved me... i moved out of her house two years ago and its been insane... im currently diagnosed with MDD, anxiety, PTSD, ADHD, BPD, and restless leg syndrom, i know i have ocd, autism, and DID but have never been diagnosed. Im 17 and still fighting for my life... if you think you cant make it im here to tell you other wise... i shouldnt be alive rn and i dont mean that in a suicidal way... but here i am... i dont even believe in god or whatever... but here i am still fighting... idk why... and i dont really wanna keep fighting... but here i am... so dont give up alright? ive been through hell and back and tbh would gladly talk to anyone who needs it... so if you need me reply to this comment and ill give yall my socials... yall deserve to life even if u dont know what for...
I'm sorry , but keep fighting. we are all going through a similar fight ig, I'm abit younger than U guys at 14 ,with around 13 attempts. but in still here fighting along with others. I struggle with sh aswell. but let's all try to keep fighting
I am 15 and my bsf is 17. My bsf attempted last weekend(idk if she has attempted b4 ever that was the first time she attempted since we became friends) and I didn't know what to feel I was just crying and crying and didn't know how I would be able to go on if she died luckily she didn't die and was in a ward for a week she just got out today but still sh's I've also thought abt committing lots of times the only thing that kept me from doing it was my mama but she hasn't even been the reason for a long while now, my bsf is the only reason I keep going I also deal with sh and when she attempted I thought of all the ways I could and I didn't think I could go on especially bc she wrote me a 5 page long letter and I was just a total mess I still am
@@rosymcafee2698 Im so sorry that you had to deal with that. Its something I don't even wish upon my greatest enemy. Ik i don't know you but I'm here
Thank you, this has helped hearing this. ❤
We're really similar, I was also in 6th grade in 2017, 18 right now, the disorders (ASD, BPD, C-PTSD, psychotic depression, an ED) and I feel kinda hopeless.
However I'm religious and it's the only thing keeping me going, İ had a dream earlier this year showing me that I'm among the good believers and I don't wanna ruin it by sinning to die by suicide... I don't think I'll ask my therapist for help until I have something to kill myself with like a rope... I always say I'll be alive by our next appointment, but I don't know when it's the last time I'll say that before it turns into a lie...
i'm feeling down and it's been exactly 5 years since i've listened to this song over and over again in my old room. i just want to be reminded that i've made it through once and i'll come through again no matter what. wish you guys all the best!
It’s been over 3 years, yet here I am again
This is the first time I listen to this song again after 8 years and I’m remembering how low I was in my life. I ended up in the hospital for trying to OD but I’m happy I was able to find a different path in life. This song still hurts in my heart but it reminds me of how stronger I am now. And anyone who is going thru something in life, don’t hesitate to reach out because life is so beautiful we’re just so stuck in our heads that we forget what’s out there.
I’m now 25 and I’ll still listen too this since 13
11 year old me on my bunk bed attempting while listening to this. I wish I could hug little me so bad, she didn’t deserve all the pain she endured💔
same here! 18 now and survivingggg❤
Real
This song really has saved my life. Im 14 and dealing with depression and i dont know what i would do with out this song...😞❤🩹
I listened to this when I was 10, I'm 18 now and moving out of my home town, still healing from my childhood. It gets better, I promise. Look for the good things in life rather than becoming helpless. You'll be okay, it takes a while but life is worth living.
I'm crying thinking of this being my mum
same
I'm not picturing my mother I'm picturing my dad but holy shit I relate to you
coming back to this after all those years is such a weird feeling
I am a suicide survivor. I still struggle through my lows, but I keep fighting. I still spend most days alone after work days, and I treasure the small great moments with my loved ones. I tell my self daily I am here for a reason. I hold onto that, because most times I have nothing else. It's been 11 years since my attempt. Tomorrow is a new day.
Listened to this song years ago. I find it so hopeless that I still haven't gotten better
Relistening to this song as an adult after spending years of my CHILDHOOD screaming this song at the top of my lungs is so heart wrenching.
this whole song gives me the chills. i can relate to this song sm.
Even though I'm not suicidal, a part of me feels comforted by listening to songs like these ones. I'm not sure if I'm right about this but I might have been depressed at a young age and no one saw it and I didn't notice. I just don't know how to deal with it properly. I've just been trying to stay positive.
I heard this song when I was 10,just turned 16 and till feel the same.I wish I could give little me a big hug because she didn’t deserve that❤
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “what, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, all you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. Our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. so rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength.
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
I was only 9 when I first heard this song. I wish I could have helped that little boy out, it hurts to lose someone but it hurts even more knowing you deserve better but don’t have the power to do anything about it
i was like 7/8 years old the first time i heard this, and i was extremely depressed which is crazy to think about now knowing how young i really was. i'm 14 now im in a similar place and i feel like a hug from that little girl i once was could save us both
I think if the me that found this song 6 years ago could see me now, she’d give me a massive hug - she was naive thinking she didn’t want to be alive then, not knowing how much harder she would suffer later in life. but I’m doing my best & I encourage others to just keep going, it may hurt like hell but you deserve to keep living
It's awful how I come back to this song every relapse.
GOD I SWEAR I CRY EVERY TIME I HEAR THIS SONG
guess i’m at that point again huh
Same 🤷♀️😒😟😟
Me too
Always a dark time
Yep
Looking back at the girl I was listening to this song, it breaks my heart because I thought I’d never live past 18 but here I am, turning 28 July 2 💖 don’t give up keep going you’ll get through it.
when i was 10 i'd cry alone in my room to this song. i'm 20 now and i still cry to this same song, in the same room, with the same feelings
sweetheart I'm so sorry. I if there's anything I can do for you please let me know. I'm a complete stranger but sometimes that's who we need. I used to listen to it too. It's rough. I'm so so sorry.
@@someformofusername6132 i know you won't care even if you read and to be real with you I just need to vent about stuff...
This song has always meant so much to me through every stage of my life from teenage to adulthood. Now listening again as a mum of a little girl, another dimension added. I will do everything it takes for me and for her until my last breath. To everyone out there listening to this song. I see you 🫶🏻
I found this song when I was 9. Sad part is, I had never related to a song so much.
been listening to this song for years.
3:02 it did ❤
When i was younger i used to cry while listening to this song without understanding the lyrics. Now i have become an adult and listening this song again with tears and i can feel the lyrics now deeply. May God save us from this cruel world and may he show mercy on helpless dumb weak people like us.Amen
I wish so young lisening to this now turning 18 and still here lisening
i come back to this wonderful song every time i feel the absolut worst and it has helped me through some tuff times
I come back to this song when things get worse.
real
me too
I used to be here 5years ago now I'm back :)
I remember listening to this song when I was little, relating to it a bit. Now I relate to it fully. I was listening to it one night, until all my emotions came too much, I was sobbing and I couldn't breathe. But that night I didn't cut, I went straight to the roof. I originally went out for fresh air but when I got there, I had made up my mind. The stars were so beautiful, some still fighting, but I wasn't a fighter. I told myself I was ugly, in so many ways. My appearance was ugly, my attitude was ugly, my scars were ugly. I said goodbye to everyone, I was ready to leave. My friends were spam calling me, telling me to get my parents, not to do it. I didn't understand why they wanted me to not do it.
I'm happy I'm still here. I would've missed so many great things. I'm thankful for everyone in my life.
i'm also glad you're still here, stranger. good luck with everything.
I was 16 when I first listen to this. I’m 23 now and nothing has changed…
im 16 now and listened to this when i was 8-10 nothings changed for me either love but i hope it does for u uve made it so far
I listen to this song for years, it's really sad but relatable because l've dealt with so much depression and self-hate, I been a cutter since I was 10, been dealing with suicide since I was 14, and I use to be an IV heroin addict for years, today I'm 29 I'm a few months clean and still struggling but working on my self-harm and thoughts of suicide. Depression is a hard thing to work through.
It is a hard thing to work through… I hope you’re doing okay❤️
I’ve been listening to this since I was 10 and I’m now 19. (The original and then I found this and other videos of it) Still feeling this so much and I wish I could and I’ve tried but I can’t bring myself to go from my family as they are incredible and I adore them more than anything. It hurts so bad when I feel like this and then remember what would happen so I come listen to this song multiple times a week and just silently sit with it to try and calm down and maybe live through this a little bit. Thank you. It’s sad and depressing but connects well and even with the negative thoughts I’m glad I can connect with a song.
take it to a publisher 😭🙏
I’m crying thinking about what it’d do to my parents if they saw me like that. I tend to forget I love them that deeply.
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “what, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, all you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. Our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. so rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength.
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
I heard this song for the first time in 6th grade, and it made me cry because I felt understood for the first time, and I listened to it almost every day for the next 2 years. I'm now 19, a freshman in college, and working towards my associate in fine arts, my psych saying my depression is finally in remission. It's been a long ass time since I've heard this song, and wow. I wish I could go back in time and hug little me, and just hold them close, and let them know that they deserve all the good things in the world, and that what happened wasn't their fault. And show them my highschool diploma, photos of me at prom with my friends, me in my cap and gown with my brother... bc something like graduating highschool was a dream that I never thought would come true. And I believed it. But here I am, working towards my goal of becoming a professional artist!
To the next 10-year-old who listens to this song... and thinks they wont makes it... please keep fighting... The darkness will pass, no storm can last forever. I promise.
Hi. Coming here 5 years later, after 2 su1cide attempts. I'm just here to tell you that I know it's awful rn and you're in hella amount of pain. After heck of time and therapy, meds, hospitals, SURVIVING, it gets better. Not super well but easier. I'm grateful I was saved. Met amazing people, bought a cat, visited many countries. Finally I feel okay on this Earth. It's September rn, suicide prevention month. I want to tell you to reach out for help. Please do it for your future self who still has a chance if you gave it to them. Love you all guys. Be strong, win this battle
This song has saved me countless times. There’s just something about the part about the Mother finding her daughter hits so different. I’ve been dealing with depression basically my whole life and I’m about to turn 21. Even though I still have thoughts but I just come back to this song whenever I feel that to try to give myself a little bit of hope to keep going…
I come back to this song constantly because I jus had a suicide attempt the year of 2023 n I’m currently still in recovery ❤️🩹 n I honestly still feel like I’m better off dead but I am thankful 🥹 that God didn’t take me cause then I wouldn’t be able to watch my boys grow up n play.I jus love 💕 them so much n I couldn’t imagine life without them
I also died like 6 times before I actually woke up n asked for water 💧 cause I didn’t have none while in a coma lol 🤣🤣💀💀
I scared 😟 my family so badly so I don’t think 💭 I’ll be doing that again ever oh I’m also only 19 years old n now I have to go everywhere in a wheelchair 🦼 so yeah
I had this song memorized at 13 and now I'm 22 with a daughter of my own hoping to God she never feels the way I felt.
I remember this song, the memories
I listen to this song when it came as a child, im a teenager now it makes me so sad knowing I relate more to it then before,because i never understood these lyrics as a kid but i do now.
I was Baker acted 2 different times for suicidal thoughts in October of 2016 and February of 2017 in the state of Florida. I never acted on them I'm so glad I got help when I did who knows where I would be if I didn't get the help I'm thankful for the doctors that helped me when I was in the hospital. May God bless them that are going thru depression and psychiatric problems just know that you're not in the fight alone
It’s been 6 years since I was a little girl listening to this song on repeat, singing it in the shower hoping my parents would listen to the words, planning how I was going to end it. And I was 11. That was not ok, and when I found this again I couldn’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of sadness for my younger self. But I am so glad she kept going. So glad she was too scared to try. So glad I’m alive today, and so shook hearing this song again.
The way I started listening to this in fifth grade and rediscover it every few years
Middle school was my darkest time now I'm 18 and it's getting back to the dark place never thought I would come back to this 7 years later I was just a kid
i feel so sad that i was literally watching that one animation video of this that i can’t find anymore when i was fr 10… i’m now 16 and it’s like things are even worse
I used to listen to this when I was considering taking my own life and it honestly helped me through it quite a bit. Coming back to it now almost a decade later, I just got a wave of emotions I haven't felt in a long time. It's so interesting how music can bring back emotions, thoughts and feelings that you almost forgot you once had. I wish I could go back to my past self and just say how sorry I am that they ever had to feel this way. I can't imagine relating to this song now, though I know I once did. Thank you for reposting this.
hard to think i listened to this in second grade and it was my favorite song
Got chill that whole song. So very well written its like you were channeling my thoughts and feelings perfectly.
my friend found my playlist and said he's gonna listen to it and this is in it, I hope he doesn't realize...
I deal with depression for more than a decade and it is one of the feelings that kills you.
Really, I just want to care and be loved by everyone.
I feel your words in my Head and Hearth
over 10 years from the first time i heard this song. Came back to it today. Life is so hard
Word. 😞 we ain’t ask for none of this. 🙂↔️ now that we’re the new adults who knew life would be this hard? 🙂↕️
When I first heard this song I was 17 and it helped me so much I'm 24 now and if only I could tell that little girl it'll all be good in the end
"well this is it world, goodbye"
the way i had this on repeat when i 9 😟
I was listening to this when I was 8 dawg jesus
i was 9