TW for mentions of SA Having a crush as a hypersexual person is the worst shit ever. You imagine doing vile things to them, hurting them, sometimes r-wording them. Its so fucking scary. I hate it so much. I just want to be loved, but my brain is forcing me to think otherwise. I dont want sex from a relationship, but somehow that happens to be the only thing my brain wants. I find myself fantasizing everyday about how i want to do terrible things to my crush, and its not fucking cute or "yandere coded" its so scary and harmful to me because im afraid thst one day i will act on these "desires."
School and mental health. I sat in the bathroom and ate lunch today, I have social anxiety eating in front of people, and I only feel comfortable w my friends. They LEFT me at my lowest. They knew about my depression, social anxiety, eating disorder and multiple things. They said they’ll never leave, and they brought everyone down with them. A teacher came in, and said “why were you eating in the bathroom?” I stayed quiet, and was about to burst down in tears. She said “if you’re scared, we can always find a place for you to eat.” I felt comforted. I told her that people sexualize me because of my body, nd they bully me in ways that are not so normal ( making sexual jokes about me ) I don’t think i can do it anymore guys. Everyone has left me, im not sure if i can take it all. Im getting bullied each day for what? They make fun of me for no reason. I’m at my lowest. I’m at my breaking point.. i had a mental breakdown in the bathroom when my friend threw a hand sanitizer my mother gave me. I was DONE. With everything that was going on,i was completely done. I sobbed in the bathroom, missing class. My friend said she’s going to come with me to comfort me. She left me, went with her friend that told her. “Sara owes me an apology for all the times she told on me!” She hit me multiple times, that’s why i told on her when she hit my eye. I went to the office without anyone knowing, i cleaned myself up in the bathroom and told them. “I don’t feel well, my head hurts and my throat is sore.” They said, is it the friends or do u not feel good? I said it’s kinda both. I told them im okay to go back to class. 2 minutes in class, i looked at the people who ruined my mental health. Long tear streaming down my face, ran out the classroom to the counselor. My breathing got better, because i got a habit of calming myself down in front of people. I got sent back to class, trying to calm myself down by sketching. I felt so vulnerable at that moment.
They suck. The school councilor sucks. Your bullies suck. Everyone. You don’t deserve this. No one does. I don’t care if you secretly don’t agree with me it is the truth that you deserve better and I care about you.
Butterfly challenge The Butterfly The rules: 1. When you feel you want to cut, take a pen or marker and draw a butterfly on your arm. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly to fade naturally. NO scrubing it off. 4. If you cut before the butterfly is gone, you've killed it. If you don't cut it lives. 5. If you have more than one butterfly, cutting kills all of them. 6. Another person may draw them on you. These butterflies are extra special. 7. Even if you don't cut, feel free to draw a butterfly to show your support. 8. Know that we care. 9.im commenting this on every vid with #sh feel free to help❤
Y’know what really depressing? The fact that I can barely connect with people. Even more depressing, I’m allergic to most animals with fur that shed, so I can’t even connect with most animals either.
If you want a dog try getting a cavapoo they are good for that! And great snugglers i use mine when i cry poor guy seen sm but! Good news!!! They dont shed unless they have more cavalier showing
I’ve been doing a lot better with my mental health! I haven’t cried myself to sleep in a couple weeks! And I feel better! Turns out my best friend I thought was moving away isn’t! But my 13 birthday was this week and a hurricane hit my town really bad and my dad who’s a firefighter had to work too so I couldn’t see him for five days straight he could have been gone forever I’m so happy he’s safe I just got to my house today and my electricity is working again! If you’re a praying person please pray for my family and town! Thank y’all And keep going ❤❤❤!
I feel like that too sometimes. I’m not sure what you might be going through but I hope things get better for you. Have a lovely day🙂 if you ever want someone to talk to I’ll be here.
YOUR EXISTENCE MATTER.FCK THOSE WHO MADE U FEEL LIKE THIS.U DESERVE LOVE , PLEASE DON'T SAY STUFF LIKE THAT.U CAN ALWAYS VENT TO BE I WILL ALWAYS LESSEN TO U.I HOPE YOU GET BETTER.."NEVER DOWN NEVR WHAT"?..I LOVE U❤️❤️
I found my person to hug and talk to. but i feel emotionless like they tern of and it needs to tern on and if I don’t. I feel like they will be like that forever.
Ik how it feels i have friendships and im currently dating and even its been gud for awhile im still worried im gunna neglect it and its gunna fall apart:
4:07 i cried at this. i remember telling my parents my dreams when i was like 8 or 9 and they said well that wont make a lot of money.. just jeez let me be happy with myself i cannot tell you how crushed i was that day.
I'm so disappointed in myself, i was only going to eat dinner today, just a little meal, but i had dinner and a snack and a popsicle, I'm never going to lose weight this isn't fair I'm so mad at myself
Oh im sorry im sure u dont need to loose js perfect the way u are but if u rlly want to celery helps weight and try asking someone like a friend/family member/someone close to help watch what you eat and start exercising more!!
Vent Yk when you're the only one in the friends group with stricter parents. I love them to pieces but sometimes I feel so restricted. I barely spend time with them but its because their trying to get me food on the table. If I chose to hangout with my friends it cant involve money because recently I have formed this perspective where whenever I spend even a few dollars of money thats theirs I feel soooo guilty to the point where I stop buying stuff. I feel sooo guilty purely because THEY worked for it and I know they would do anything for me including spend money if they need to, but when I buy things like literally anything whether its clothes a new toothbrush or even groceries I feel guilty. Lately my grades have dropped and I feel like ive been letting them down. I study every day and I want to repay them anyway I can especially by getting good grades but I can't even do that anymore. When schools the one thing your good at and your just not good at it anymore you fell worthless. I have dreams, I have a dream career, a dream future that I want. I want to be able to put my parents into retirement but for that I need a good job, to get a good job I need to get good grades, to get good grades I need to study harder, but how do I study harder I come home from school and study every single day. I also see others with similar dreams to me but their soooo much closer then am so its discouraging. Others may have hobbies but I don't have any purely because I want to get my dreams. Ive been feeling so low lately and I try everything to pick me up but nothing has worked. I want to get that dream that I have been dreaming of but I fear that I may not reach that dream. I fear failure. I want to make my parents proud more than anything. If you have anything to just get me to try, try looking at some homework or do at least any sort of work. On top of all this and all the other issues I have, my neighbour lost her daughter who had a muscular disease and her husband (the caretaker) couldn't stand being in a house by himself after she left, to the point where he hu*g himself in his own home. She had a gut feeling to come home that day form work and when she came home she saw her de*d husband hanging.I watched the security footage from my house back and its heart wrenching, she's now having to pay all the funeral bills for the both , fund for her both kids, pay the bills for the house, the hospital bills for her's daughters surgery and everything. I can't help myself but feel so bad for them every time I drive past their house. Just imaging life loosing your sister and father. This is just 2 of the things ive been dealing with. This is already pretty long so Ill finish up but you dont have to read this if you dont want to , you dont have to reply or have sympathy for me, I just need to learn too suck it up and get moving with life otherwise it will leave me behind and wont ever come back. I want my dreams so I just need to work for them. Idk why I wrote this.
Ik how it feels but you're gonna burn yourself out there bud take a break and ik its hard but stop worrying about things so much and do things that bring you joy whether that be gaming watching tv drawing going outside and taking a walk etcetc and i suggest that try getting an emotional support animal or something i think that would rlly help and myb getting a therapist would help and have u tried telling your parents abt this like feeling like your letting them even though im sure thats not ture im sure their proud of you for js being U but like myb yall could work smth out like myb u could do chores like cleaning doing the dishes etcetc and depending how old you are and stuf you could take small jobs like babysitting etc and heres two coping mechanisms ik of that coulkd possible help you age regression and pet regression i do age regression and pet regression js sum ikof lolz behii i hope your life gets better〔^±^〕
Ik how it feels but you're gonna burn yourself out there bud take a break and ik its hard but stop worrying about things so much and do things that bring you joy whether that be gaming watching tv drawing going outside and taking a walk etcetc and i suggest that try getting an emotional support animal or something i think that would rlly help and myb getting a therapist would help and have u tried telling your parents abt this like feeling like your letting them even though im sure thats not ture im sure their proud of you for js being U but like myb yall could work smth out like myb u could do chores like cleaning doing the dishes etcetc and depending how old you are and stuf you could take small jobs like babysitting etc and heres two coping mechanisms ik of that coulkd possible help you age regression and pet regression i do age regression and pet regression js sum ikof lolz behii i hope your life gets better〔^±^〕
I tried to overdose on pills last night, but for some reason I'm still alive. I'd say it's a miracle but I'm not really happy. I told my mom, my older brother and my younger brother about me trying to overdose. My mom called me selfish, asked if I did it just for attention and said she didn't believe me. We went back home and she forced me to sit in the bathroom and stick my fingers down my throat to try and get myself to throw up. I was having an extreme panic attack during all of it and they didn't care. After I couldn’t manage to throw up I was forced to sit on the couch with them and talk even after I told them I really didn't want to talk and I was forced to show her my wrists. She threw away the gloves I was using to cover my wrist so now I have no way to cover up the scars. Also I was forced to stay up until 12 am until she finally gave me permission to go to sleep. I also have no privacy anymore. I wish I had never told them.
@@idk_whyi when I was forced to talk to them I was so emotionally and physically exhausted I was almost falling asleep on the couch. I was crying and telling my mom how tired I was but she kept telling me I couldn't go to sleep yet. I was just so, so tired and I wasn't allowed to leave the room or go to my room and she didn't allow me to sleep. Sorry if it doesn't make sense 😅
@@Lainewastakenhostage oh that makes sense anf yh that happens to me all the time and usually i js zone out and pick up in afew words to repeat when they ask if im listening then i usually gi cry or age regress
Im sorry i understand my parents lecture me all the time whether it B abt my disorders my sh etcetc and i hate i have a quiet spot i go to its a bit away but w is and they barely even notice uim gone but desolate is right if that happens often u HAVE to tell someone and btw am always here if u need xXxXxX
I hate my body, I hate how my thighs are so large compared to my body. I hate it, I hate everything. I hate how my weight is 93lbs at 5’0. I hate how I’m not skinny like my other friends. I’ve been trying to lose weight, I’ve been trying to be skinny. But nothings working, nobody’s here. Nobody cares, I get called beautiful and everything. But I don’t feel like it’s genuine. I wanna leave this planet, I wanna be with my grandparents, I wanna stay with them in the sky, I don’t wanna be here. I wanna cry into someone’s arms and be a child going to her mother, but I’m someone who sucks all the kindness out of kind people. Being “beautiful” is my personality, I’ve made it this way. I don’t know what to live for or what to do anymore. I wanna leave.
My relationship with him got so bad, whenever he’s actually nice to me it feels.. weird and makes me kinda.. uncomfortable? Idk why i feel this way when it happens.
Yesterday was so bad i had a test in ict and i got an f bc of one mistake then i held back tears i breathed so loudly once everyone looked at me i started crying i was the only one who got an f and the worst thing is that he was there he was watching i strted crying after class a girl tried to make me feel better but she just couldnt i had to do some homework before my next class then i cried in the bathroom but the bell ringed i looked so bad i washed my face but still went to class i was almost late it sucked and i almost fell back to sh i didnt end up doing it tho i also feel so bad about my weight like why am i so fat im lit 40kgs for 156cms people my age are 37kgs or less ive been feeling so bad for the last past moths my parents got divorced and im never enayones first choice
I first commented, I told myself I can’t kms for the next 5 years 🫠, but would anyone like to make this promise with me? It doesn’t have to be as long as 5 years, any amount of time works :) If you’d like to share anything, feel free to! ❤
I'd like to add something to all of this...I tried to jump of a bridge but one of my friends stoped me but I almost did because of fat shaming but my grandma says I'm not fat but I really am I'm fat ugly I don't fit in anywhere my best friend killed herself I miss her so much...I just want to switch spots with her instead of her dying I should have died...
When your body starves it typically loses mostly muscle and bone density, so if you ever go back to a normal diet you will probably gain the weight back since all you are doing is getting rid of necessary components. Instead try eating more nutritious foods and start doing small exercises and work up from there. That is where you will lose the weight and keep it from coming back. You can do this. I believe that you can get better. 🤗♥️ @@serenityIsnotsus-d5l
I dunno if it’s SA that happened so I’m asking for an opinion here TW:SA maybe??? So I have an older cousin(F)who might have SA’d me(F) from 8-12? She used to pinch my ass, and when I went through puberty she started pinching my tits too like every time she saw me commenting on how my chest was getting bigger. But like the part I’m unsure of is that she did it as a “joke” to get me upset which it did because I hated it, but like everyone I told brushed it off as a joke and that she was just trying to get a reaction out of me which was true. Everyone treated it as a joke even if it made me terribly upset. But like it was Just inappropriate contact she touched my ass and tits to get a reaction out of me and I hated it happening because it felt like an invasion of my personal privacy, but everyone I told just said it was a joke and to not respond to her. At the time I was 8-12 and she was a legal adult. :/ so just wondering if this was SA? Or if I was just being paranoid? But I don’t know if it’s SA or if it was just a continued joke?
TW for mentions of SA
Having a crush as a hypersexual person is the worst shit ever. You imagine doing vile things to them, hurting them, sometimes r-wording them. Its so fucking scary. I hate it so much. I just want to be loved, but my brain is forcing me to think otherwise. I dont want sex from a relationship, but somehow that happens to be the only thing my brain wants. I find myself fantasizing everyday about how i want to do terrible things to my crush, and its not fucking cute or "yandere coded" its so scary and harmful to me because im afraid thst one day i will act on these "desires."
You deserve better. You deserve comfort in a person and not fear about what would happen. You are not alone.
School and mental health. I sat in the bathroom and ate lunch today, I have social anxiety eating in front of people, and I only feel comfortable w my friends. They LEFT me at my lowest. They knew about my depression, social anxiety, eating disorder and multiple things. They said they’ll never leave, and they brought everyone down with them. A teacher came in, and said “why were you eating in the bathroom?” I stayed quiet, and was about to burst down in tears. She said “if you’re scared, we can always find a place for you to eat.” I felt comforted.
I told her that people sexualize me because of my body, nd they bully me in ways that are not so normal ( making sexual jokes about me )
I don’t think i can do it anymore guys. Everyone has left me, im not sure if i can take it all. Im getting bullied each day for what? They make fun of me for no reason. I’m at my lowest. I’m at my breaking point.. i had a mental breakdown in the bathroom when my friend threw a hand sanitizer my mother gave me. I was DONE. With everything that was going on,i was completely done. I sobbed in the bathroom, missing class. My friend said she’s going to come with me to comfort me. She left me, went with her friend that told her. “Sara owes me an apology for all the times she told on me!” She hit me multiple times, that’s why i told on her when she hit my eye. I went to the office without anyone knowing, i cleaned myself up in the bathroom and told them. “I don’t feel well, my head hurts and my throat is sore.” They said, is it the friends or do u not feel good? I said it’s kinda both. I told them im okay to go back to class. 2 minutes in class, i looked at the people who ruined my mental health. Long tear streaming down my face, ran out the classroom to the counselor. My breathing got better, because i got a habit of calming myself down in front of people. I got sent back to class, trying to calm myself down by sketching. I felt so vulnerable at that moment.
Don't kys, you wont have any second thoughts.
They suck. The school councilor sucks. Your bullies suck. Everyone. You don’t deserve this. No one does. I don’t care if you secretly don’t agree with me it is the truth that you deserve better and I care about you.
Butterfly challenge
The Butterfly The rules: 1. When you feel you want to cut, take a pen or marker and draw a butterfly on your arm. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly to fade naturally. NO scrubing it off. 4. If you cut before the butterfly is gone, you've killed it. If you don't cut it lives. 5. If you have more than one butterfly, cutting kills all of them. 6. Another person may draw them on you. These butterflies are extra special. 7. Even if you don't cut, feel free to draw a butterfly to show your support. 8. Know that we care. 9.im commenting this on every vid with #sh feel free to help❤
Y’know what really depressing? The fact that I can barely connect with people. Even more depressing, I’m allergic to most animals with fur that shed, so I can’t even connect with most animals either.
If you want a dog try getting a cavapoo they are good for that! And great snugglers i use mine when i cry poor guy seen sm but! Good news!!! They dont shed unless they have more cavalier showing
"u were clean for 10 days, Vanesa why?why?
Some people just don’t understand.
I’ve been doing a lot better with my mental health!
I haven’t cried myself to sleep in a couple weeks!
And I feel better!
Turns out my best friend I thought was moving away isn’t!
But my 13 birthday was this week and a hurricane hit my town really bad and my dad who’s a firefighter had to work too so I couldn’t see him for five days straight he could have been gone forever I’m so happy he’s safe I just got to my house today and my electricity is working again!
If you’re a praying person please pray for my family and town! Thank y’all
And keep going ❤❤❤!
Awe good job im happy your feeling gud and glad you're dad is safe :>
Good job on doing better, I hope it stays that way :)
Why am i alive
I feel like that too sometimes. I’m not sure what you might be going through but I hope things get better for you. Have a lovely day🙂 if you ever want someone to talk to I’ll be here.
YOUR EXISTENCE MATTER.FCK THOSE WHO MADE U FEEL LIKE THIS.U DESERVE LOVE , PLEASE DON'T SAY STUFF LIKE THAT.U CAN ALWAYS VENT TO BE I WILL ALWAYS LESSEN TO U.I HOPE YOU GET BETTER.."NEVER DOWN NEVR WHAT"?..I LOVE U❤️❤️
Bc we like to Surfer
Wow these people are very supportive:)
Tysm but its still not so great because of mental heath;
Espacially because of school and te people there.
@@KinokoX3XD i hope you're doing better dear.ily>3
I found my person to hug and talk to. but i feel emotionless like they tern of and it needs to tern on and if I don’t. I feel like they will be like that forever.
Uhm its spelt turn **
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And ik how ya feel
why is my memory shit? why can't i have a normal and cute relationship? why can't i eat regularly? why am i tearing my own life apart? just why?
Ik how it feels i have friendships and im currently dating and even its been gud for awhile im still worried im gunna neglect it and its gunna fall apart:
4:07
i cried at this. i remember telling my parents my dreams when i was like 8 or 9 and they said well that wont make a lot of money..
just jeez let me be happy with myself i cannot tell you how crushed i was that day.
Well depending what it was they were probably right and im sure they didnt meet that way
I'm so disappointed in myself, i was only going to eat dinner today, just a little meal, but i had dinner and a snack and a popsicle, I'm never going to lose weight this isn't fair I'm so mad at myself
I'm so sorry u are suffering from ed.i hope u get the help u need.ILY>3💗
Oh im sorry im sure u dont need to loose js perfect the way u are but if u rlly want to celery helps weight and try asking someone like a friend/family member/someone close to help watch what you eat and start exercising more!!
You don’t need to. Trust me. In the long run you will realize how bad this situation is and that you
i'm eating right now but man i randomly felt this wave washing over me that i'm eating too much and i didn't even take a bite or two man.
Vent
Yk when you're the only one in the friends group with stricter parents. I love them to pieces but sometimes I feel so restricted. I barely spend time with them but its because their trying to get me food on the table. If I chose to hangout with my friends it cant involve money because recently I have formed this perspective where whenever I spend even a few dollars of money thats theirs I feel soooo guilty to the point where I stop buying stuff. I feel sooo guilty purely because THEY worked for it and I know they would do anything for me including spend money if they need to, but when I buy things like literally anything whether its clothes a new toothbrush or even groceries I feel guilty. Lately my grades have dropped and I feel like ive been letting them down. I study every day and I want to repay them anyway I can especially by getting good grades but I can't even do that anymore. When schools the one thing your good at and your just not good at it anymore you fell worthless. I have dreams, I have a dream career, a dream future that I want. I want to be able to put my parents into retirement but for that I need a good job, to get a good job I need to get good grades, to get good grades I need to study harder, but how do I study harder I come home from school and study every single day. I also see others with similar dreams to me but their soooo much closer then am so its discouraging. Others may have hobbies but I don't have any purely because I want to get my dreams. Ive been feeling so low lately and I try everything to pick me up but nothing has worked. I want to get that dream that I have been dreaming of but I fear that I may not reach that dream. I fear failure. I want to make my parents proud more than anything. If you have anything to just get me to try, try looking at some homework or do at least any sort of work. On top of all this and all the other issues I have, my neighbour lost her daughter who had a muscular disease and her husband (the caretaker) couldn't stand being in a house by himself after she left, to the point where he hu*g himself in his own home. She had a gut feeling to come home that day form work and when she came home she saw her de*d husband hanging.I watched the security footage from my house back and its heart wrenching, she's now having to pay all the funeral bills for the both , fund for her both kids, pay the bills for the house, the hospital bills for her's daughters surgery and everything. I can't help myself but feel so bad for them every time I drive past their house. Just imaging life loosing your sister and father. This is just 2 of the things ive been dealing with. This is already pretty long so Ill finish up but you dont have to read this if you dont want to , you dont have to reply or have sympathy for me, I just need to learn too suck it up and get moving with life otherwise it will leave me behind and wont ever come back. I want my dreams so I just need to work for them. Idk why I wrote this.
Ik how it feels but you're gonna burn yourself out there bud take a break and ik its hard but stop worrying about things so much and do things that bring you joy whether that be gaming watching tv drawing going outside and taking a walk etcetc and i suggest that try getting an emotional support animal or something i think that would rlly help and myb getting a therapist would help and have u tried telling your parents abt this like feeling like your letting them even though im sure thats not ture im sure their proud of you for js being U but like myb yall could work smth out like myb u could do chores like cleaning doing the dishes etcetc and depending how old you are and stuf you could take small jobs like babysitting etc and heres two coping mechanisms ik of that coulkd possible help you age regression and pet regression i do age regression and pet regression js sum ikof lolz behii i hope your life gets better〔^±^〕
Ik how it feels but you're gonna burn yourself out there bud take a break and ik its hard but stop worrying about things so much and do things that bring you joy whether that be gaming watching tv drawing going outside and taking a walk etcetc and i suggest that try getting an emotional support animal or something i think that would rlly help and myb getting a therapist would help and have u tried telling your parents abt this like feeling like your letting them even though im sure thats not ture im sure their proud of you for js being U but like myb yall could work smth out like myb u could do chores like cleaning doing the dishes etcetc and depending how old you are and stuf you could take small jobs like babysitting etc and heres two coping mechanisms ik of that coulkd possible help you age regression and pet regression i do age regression and pet regression js sum ikof lolz behii i hope your life gets better〔^±^〕
@@idk_whyi thanks for actually taking time out of your day to read it. Thanks for your help too.
@@Sarah143-p2p ofc np what im here for! ●±●
Thank you for uploading these❤.
Them: " What do you want to be when u grow up?"
Me: "..... dead......."
I really need this🙏🏼🥺💞
My mom found out bout my sh and now I can't sh so my life is a living hell I want to more
Ughh i js hate everything sm
0:00 real
I tried to overdose on pills last night, but for some reason I'm still alive. I'd say it's a miracle but I'm not really happy. I told my mom, my older brother and my younger brother about me trying to overdose. My mom called me selfish, asked if I did it just for attention and said she didn't believe me. We went back home and she forced me to sit in the bathroom and stick my fingers down my throat to try and get myself to throw up. I was having an extreme panic attack during all of it and they didn't care. After I couldn’t manage to throw up I was forced to sit on the couch with them and talk even after I told them I really didn't want to talk and I was forced to show her my wrists. She threw away the gloves I was using to cover my wrist so now I have no way to cover up the scars. Also I was forced to stay up until 12 am until she finally gave me permission to go to sleep. I also have no privacy anymore. I wish I had never told them.
Tell the police that’s physical and verbal abuse, I’m so sorry that happened to you🤍if you need someone to talk to you can talk here
Why were you gorced to stay awake how
@@idk_whyi when I was forced to talk to them I was so emotionally and physically exhausted I was almost falling asleep on the couch. I was crying and telling my mom how tired I was but she kept telling me I couldn't go to sleep yet. I was just so, so tired and I wasn't allowed to leave the room or go to my room and she didn't allow me to sleep. Sorry if it doesn't make sense 😅
@@Lainewastakenhostage oh that makes sense anf yh that happens to me all the time and usually i js zone out and pick up in afew words to repeat when they ask if im listening then i usually gi cry or age regress
Im sorry i understand my parents lecture me all the time whether it B abt my disorders my sh etcetc and i hate i have a quiet spot i go to its a bit away but w is and they barely even notice uim gone but desolate is right if that happens often u HAVE to tell someone and btw am always here if u need xXxXxX
chat I just took a fucking shower on my fresh cuts 😅
I hate my body, I hate how my thighs are so large compared to my body. I hate it, I hate everything. I hate how my weight is 93lbs at 5’0. I hate how I’m not skinny like my other friends. I’ve been trying to lose weight, I’ve been trying to be skinny. But nothings working, nobody’s here. Nobody cares, I get called beautiful and everything. But I don’t feel like it’s genuine. I wanna leave this planet, I wanna be with my grandparents, I wanna stay with them in the sky, I don’t wanna be here. I wanna cry into someone’s arms and be a child going to her mother, but I’m someone who sucks all the kindness out of kind people. Being “beautiful” is my personality, I’ve made it this way. I don’t know what to live for or what to do anymore. I wanna leave.
My relationship with him got so bad, whenever he’s actually nice to me it feels.. weird and makes me kinda.. uncomfortable? Idk why i feel this way when it happens.
Yesterday was so bad i had a test in ict and i got an f bc of one mistake then i held back tears i breathed so loudly once everyone looked at me i started crying i was the only one who got an f and the worst thing is that he was there he was watching i strted crying after class a girl tried to make me feel better but she just couldnt i had to do some homework before my next class then i cried in the bathroom but the bell ringed i looked so bad i washed my face but still went to class i was almost late it sucked and i almost fell back to sh i didnt end up doing it tho i also feel so bad about my weight like why am i so fat im lit 40kgs for 156cms people my age are 37kgs or less ive been feeling so bad for the last past moths my parents got divorced and im never enayones first choice
I have bad memory I Forget things really easy like really easy
1:40 and then they don't text back...
I first commented, I told myself I can’t kms for the next 5 years 🫠, but would anyone like to make this promise with me? It doesn’t have to be as long as 5 years, any amount of time works :) If you’d like to share anything, feel free to! ❤
Ignore my cringeness lol!
I just wanted to say this will be one of my last videosni watch until i am dead. i will miss yall❤
Don’t Do it
U made a video 4 days ago why would u say this kinda comment for attention
1m ago
I haven't ate in 4days and I lost work weight... Like 10 pounds...
I'm still fat so how much longer should I starve myself?
Sorry I didn't mean to add "work"
I'd like to add something to all of this...I tried to jump of a bridge but one of my friends stoped me but I almost did because of fat shaming but my grandma says I'm not fat but I really am I'm fat ugly I don't fit in anywhere my best friend killed herself I miss her so much...I just want to switch spots with her instead of her dying I should have died...
When your body starves it typically loses mostly muscle and bone density, so if you ever go back to a normal diet you will probably gain the weight back since all you are doing is getting rid of necessary components. Instead try eating more nutritious foods and start doing small exercises and work up from there. That is where you will lose the weight and keep it from coming back. You can do this. I believe that you can get better. 🤗♥️ @@serenityIsnotsus-d5l
I dunno if it’s SA that happened so I’m asking for an opinion here
TW:SA maybe???
So I have an older cousin(F)who might have SA’d me(F) from 8-12? She used to pinch my ass, and when I went through puberty she started pinching my tits too like every time she saw me commenting on how my chest was getting bigger. But like the part I’m unsure of is that she did it as a “joke” to get me upset which it did because I hated it, but like everyone I told brushed it off as a joke and that she was just trying to get a reaction out of me which was true. Everyone treated it as a joke even if it made me terribly upset. But like it was Just inappropriate contact she touched my ass and tits to get a reaction out of me and I hated it happening because it felt like an invasion of my personal privacy, but everyone I told just said it was a joke and to not respond to her. At the time I was 8-12 and she was a legal adult. :/ so just wondering if this was SA? Or if I was just being paranoid? But I don’t know if it’s SA or if it was just a continued joke?
can you be my mom/dad plz
lowkey don't know if I'm overreacting or if it was SA tbh.