I’m not gonna lie Big Mike, I’m honestly in that “dark place” and it manifested after my amazing time at Six Flags yesterday but what bothered me is nobody wanted to talk to me, ride with me, or even sit on the bus back to the city. Along with nobody wanted to even check up on me. Sure I can talk with people but even for me, it becomes draining and forced and a forced smile is uglier than a frown. So I’m fearful of being alone for the rest of my life. For most it’s peaceful to live a life of a lone wolf but for some being forced to is a whole ‘nother story.
Hey there. I am right there with you. You can talk to me off social media if your want. I also went to Six Flags yesterday. I went to Fright Fest, and called myself going to get out of the things in my mind that are oppressing me even though they still haunted me while at the park (no pun intended). I really am here for you if you need a friend of a listening ear.
Hey brother I feel you… I’d like for you to reach out to me offline on my social media. There we can exchange contact info if you’d like. As I said in the video, I CARE!!! And I mean that!
What to do when one had to endure 25 years of chronic illness, and still fighting. Prisoner of a hijacked body. Mind not working, body not working. Where to go, what to do, who to fight?
I would give my comments on this as I always do but 99% of the time no one wants to hear the REAL truth. Life is not always beautiful or worth living. No disrespect but you and others cannot compare your life and your situations to others. It DOES NOT always get better. And that is SERIOUSLY the truth, though a very sad one. People cannot keep saying cliche statements like “It gets better”. And going through things in life is not a test. If you want to have a REAL conversation regarding this topic SERIOUSLY PLEASE reach out to me. These cookie cutter basic statements and comments needs to stop. For real. It can do more harm than good. It always does for me. No one has to continue to keep the faith. And for me, talking to others made my life WAY worse. I SERIOUSLY wish I did keep all of my problems to myself. For example, I am having a hell of a time joining the military because I reached out for what I was told would be help. It ruined my life. I didn’t realize how much reaching out ruined my life until I tried to join the military. I would give anything to be you sir. Now I seriously wish I had kept my problems to myself. And everyone does not believe in God or prayer. It really isn’t worth talking to someone and I’m being SERIOUS right now. And as far as money, you obviously need that to survive.
Ok… I respect your comment and do understand that my point of view may not be for EVERYONE and that’s cool. However it is my point of view and those who are able to receive it will receive it and there are some that won’t. This is coming from someone that has been abused, mistreated, betrayed, depressed, in debt, and the list goes on. I’m definitely not comparing my life to no one else’s, but what I hope to accomplish is to encourage anyone that’s going through a rough time to keep pushing… That’s it. It’s not going to be for EVERYONE as I already stated. Just answer me one thing… Is suicide ever the answer? Not everyone has to think as I do or have faith if they choose not to, but I feel that it’s my duty to share and hope it doesn’t fall on deaf ears. If you wish to have a more in depth discussion I’d be more than happy to.
@@BigMike_RTTV I understand that your point of view is your point of view. Mines is mines as well as it is for others. A point of view is a perspective. I have also been abused, mistreated etc like you and am currently in a ton of debt by the same systems who abused me. When I reached out for “help”, or at least what I thought would be, especially by the systems that claim that they are supposed to help people in distress, I was only abused further and severely and permanently traumatized. That is my perspective and also very true and real. I even had flashbacks today of some of the trauma. I am actually starting to notice more and more people opening up about similar experiences that I have had, on the internet so I know that sadly I am not alone in this. Often times people, as I have been, are shut up when talking openly about this, which naturally and obviously makes the trauma and likelihood of a tragic situation higher. I am not debating that your opinion is your opinion. My opinion is mines. However, please take into consideration that people have been telling people for years to “keep pushing and keep fighting” etc. I have heard it one time to many and I am open to believe that others just might feel the same way. I am not speaking for them , I am simply being open minded. Those kind of words do not solve anything and don’t get people out of their situations. It can actually in some instances be harmful to say something like that. Plus, for a person to get to such a low point or even go through, they have obviously tried to keep pushing or fighting. There is no law, etc that says that a person “must keep pushing “. No one HAS to keep pushing. Now, I understand that the conversation may look a little different if a person has people like children who depend on them, but that person still does not HAVE to keep pushing. In my case, and the case for so many others we don’t have dependents. We shouldn’t keep being left out of the conversation. Obviously if people had to strength to keep pushing and fighting to begin with they wouldn’t be in a contemplation phase. I know that every time I have been in a dark place and someone has told me to keep pushing it made me way worse and even caused permanent damage and even made me feel belittled and still does to this day. I am only speaking for myself not others. However, I can assume that others may possibly also feel or have felt the same way and this needs to be taken into consideration as part of the conversation. And I will love to continue this conversation off social media, if you will have me. However, as a person who has struggled for a long time now, I am kind of scared because I am usually already met with opposition to the perspective that I am trying to bring forward the second I start to have such conversations with people. I hope that will not be the case between you and I.
@@cherismith6366 Well I can assure you that that won’t be the case that your words will fall on deaf ears. I’m always open to listen and gain new perspectives. I’m not saying that my way is the only way, but it’s the way that I know, and that’s all I can share. Please feel free to reach out to me offline on one of my social media platforms… Same username for Facebook and Instagram. I look forward to hearing from you.
@@BigMike_RTTV Okay. Awesome. Will do. I will be sending a message to one of your inboxes in the next couple of days or so, so just be on the lookout. Thanks for being open to a conversation. I really appreciate that.
@@cherismith6366 the sad thing is that if you just open up to the people who don't care/ don't have the tools to do so they will shut it down or worse look at you like a burden. I gotta say getting the support by expanding your inner world, authentic behaviour and self love is a hell of a journey especially when you start with self hatred or the need to want control of circumstance ( ie very external factor and very uncontrolled) to dictate how you judge yourself from the view of those traumas. I have my fair share of complicated life stories and still get CPTSD flashes. I have even talked others and my own abusive mom out of a familial suicide. Most of the time people come to these conclusions and commit suicide because there is nothing that can be done but discouragement, impostor syndromes, false blame, harsh judgement, blown up problems and or a lack of self can skew the truth. It's not easy but I found that just letting the person talk and feel safe to go through every con to living which can have a pro solution to cause change. I am sorry you got the butt of people's nonsense, many people did the same to me and worse I became queen of my own victimhood to make others feel better exclusively and left myself to the dust. I kept looking for people once I learnt that there was healthier mindsets and healthier people that as a standard is worth the time spent. No guru of life nonsense but being flawed humans willing to listen and help. I may not be a Christian but I still appreciate the act here and want to let you know how I see it. Being human alone can make you crazy. Being hurt by those who should've kept you safe can make you crazy. Time skews expectations too. So it makes sense why it can feel like it all spins out of control. Buildings that "make it difficult" to jump off of finds 2 things, 1-the people planning on doing the deed will do it if unobstructed therefore just adding an extra effective obstacle gives people opportunity to change thier minds, meaning any sort of interaction makes people double think and 2- if buildings and thier anti-suicidal obstruction is designed artfully and the building itself is beautifully done it deters cases happening at all even if it is lacking in extreme safety measures from after the redesigns at that point. Little things can bring change. Being able to count down through tough moments, self understanding, self Regulation and learning social skills is all possible. And if not via diving into videos/books there's help from therapists, authentic people or maybe hopefully a positive outreach from a random internet user can just send a hug for all the times it didn't happen. Either way I'm happy that you still are able to articulate how you feel despite bad circumstances anyway. You miss 100% of the time if you don't react. I hope all this together helps now for the you of this moment. People forget how far they come, what they did survive and what they can appreciate.
2 Timothy 2: 3,4 and 5 Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. [4] No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. [5] And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully.
I’m not gonna lie Big Mike, I’m honestly in that “dark place” and it manifested after my amazing time at Six Flags yesterday but what bothered me is nobody wanted to talk to me, ride with me, or even sit on the bus back to the city. Along with nobody wanted to even check up on me. Sure I can talk with people but even for me, it becomes draining and forced and a forced smile is uglier than a frown. So I’m fearful of being alone for the rest of my life. For most it’s peaceful to live a life of a lone wolf but for some being forced to is a whole ‘nother story.
Hey there. I am right there with you. You can talk to me off social media if your want. I also went to Six Flags yesterday. I went to Fright Fest, and called myself going to get out of the things in my mind that are oppressing me even though they still haunted me while at the park (no pun intended). I really am here for you if you need a friend of a listening ear.
@@cherismith6366 Sure that’s fine with me.
Hey brother I feel you… I’d like for you to reach out to me offline on my social media. There we can exchange contact info if you’d like. As I said in the video, I CARE!!! And I mean that!
What to do when one had to endure 25 years of chronic illness, and still fighting. Prisoner of a hijacked body. Mind not working, body not working. Where to go, what to do, who to fight?
Thanks for sharing bro, property and love to who ever needs it.
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I would give my comments on this as I always do but 99% of the time no one wants to hear the REAL truth. Life is not always beautiful or worth living. No disrespect but you and others cannot compare your life and your situations to others. It DOES NOT always get better. And that is SERIOUSLY the truth, though a very sad one. People cannot keep saying cliche statements like “It gets better”. And going through things in life is not a test. If you want to have a REAL conversation regarding this topic SERIOUSLY PLEASE reach out to me. These cookie cutter basic statements and comments needs to stop. For real. It can do more harm than good. It always does for me. No one has to continue to keep the faith. And for me, talking to others made my life WAY worse. I SERIOUSLY wish I did keep all of my problems to myself. For example, I am having a hell of a time joining the military because I reached out for what I was told would be help. It ruined my life. I didn’t realize how much reaching out ruined my life until I tried to join the military. I would give anything to be you sir. Now I seriously wish I had kept my problems to myself. And everyone does not believe in God or prayer. It really isn’t worth talking to someone and I’m being SERIOUS right now. And as far as money, you obviously need that to survive.
Ok… I respect your comment and do understand that my point of view may not be for EVERYONE and that’s cool. However it is my point of view and those who are able to receive it will receive it and there are some that won’t. This is coming from someone that has been abused, mistreated, betrayed, depressed, in debt, and the list goes on. I’m definitely not comparing my life to no one else’s, but what I hope to accomplish is to encourage anyone that’s going through a rough time to keep pushing… That’s it. It’s not going to be for EVERYONE as I already stated. Just answer me one thing… Is suicide ever the answer? Not everyone has to think as I do or have faith if they choose not to, but I feel that it’s my duty to share and hope it doesn’t fall on deaf ears. If you wish to have a more in depth discussion I’d be more than happy to.
@@BigMike_RTTV I understand that your point of view is your point of view. Mines is mines as well as it is for others. A point of view is a perspective. I have also been abused, mistreated etc like you and am currently in a ton of debt by the same systems who abused me. When I reached out for “help”, or at least what I thought would be, especially by the systems that claim that they are supposed to help people in distress, I was only abused further and severely and permanently traumatized. That is my perspective and also very true and real. I even had flashbacks today of some of the trauma. I am actually starting to notice more and more people opening up about similar experiences that I have had, on the internet so I know that sadly I am not alone in this. Often times people, as I have been, are shut up when talking openly about this, which naturally and obviously makes the trauma and likelihood of a tragic situation higher. I am not debating that your opinion is your opinion. My opinion is mines. However, please take into consideration that people have been telling people for years to “keep pushing and keep fighting” etc. I have heard it one time to many and I am open to believe that others just might feel the same way. I am not speaking for them , I am simply being open minded. Those kind of words do not solve anything and don’t get people out of their situations. It can actually in some instances be harmful to say something like that. Plus, for a person to get to such a low point or even go through, they have obviously tried to keep pushing or fighting. There is no law, etc that says that a person “must keep pushing “. No one HAS to keep pushing. Now, I understand that the conversation may look a little different if a person has people like children who depend on them, but that person still does not HAVE to keep pushing. In my case, and the case for so many others we don’t have dependents. We shouldn’t keep being left out of the conversation. Obviously if people had to strength to keep pushing and fighting to begin with they wouldn’t be in a contemplation phase. I know that every time I have been in a dark place and someone has told me to keep pushing it made me way worse and even caused permanent damage and even made me feel belittled and still does to this day. I am only speaking for myself not others. However, I can assume that others may possibly also feel or have felt the same way and this needs to be taken into consideration as part of the conversation. And I will love to continue this conversation off social media, if you will have me. However, as a person who has struggled for a long time now, I am kind of scared because I am usually already met with opposition to the perspective that I am trying to bring forward the second I start to have such conversations with people. I hope that will not be the case between you and I.
@@cherismith6366 Well I can assure you that that won’t be the case that your words will fall on deaf ears. I’m always open to listen and gain new perspectives. I’m not saying that my way is the only way, but it’s the way that I know, and that’s all I can share. Please feel free to reach out to me offline on one of my social media platforms… Same username for Facebook and Instagram. I look forward to hearing from you.
@@BigMike_RTTV Okay. Awesome. Will do. I will be sending a message to one of your inboxes in the next couple of days or so, so just be on the lookout. Thanks for being open to a conversation. I really appreciate that.
@@cherismith6366 the sad thing is that if you just open up to the people who don't care/ don't have the tools to do so they will shut it down or worse look at you like a burden. I gotta say getting the support by expanding your inner world, authentic behaviour and self love is a hell of a journey especially when you start with self hatred or the need to want control of circumstance ( ie very external factor and very uncontrolled) to dictate how you judge yourself from the view of those traumas. I have my fair share of complicated life stories and still get CPTSD flashes. I have even talked others and my own abusive mom out of a familial suicide. Most of the time people come to these conclusions and commit suicide because there is nothing that can be done but discouragement, impostor syndromes, false blame, harsh judgement, blown up problems and or a lack of self can skew the truth. It's not easy but I found that just letting the person talk and feel safe to go through every con to living which can have a pro solution to cause change. I am sorry you got the butt of people's nonsense, many people did the same to me and worse I became queen of my own victimhood to make others feel better exclusively and left myself to the dust. I kept looking for people once I learnt that there was healthier mindsets and healthier people that as a standard is worth the time spent. No guru of life nonsense but being flawed humans willing to listen and help. I may not be a Christian but I still appreciate the act here and want to let you know how I see it. Being human alone can make you crazy. Being hurt by those who should've kept you safe can make you crazy. Time skews expectations too. So it makes sense why it can feel like it all spins out of control. Buildings that "make it difficult" to jump off of finds 2 things, 1-the people planning on doing the deed will do it if unobstructed therefore just adding an extra effective obstacle gives people opportunity to change thier minds, meaning any sort of interaction makes people double think and 2- if buildings and thier anti-suicidal obstruction is designed artfully and the building itself is beautifully done it deters cases happening at all even if it is lacking in extreme safety measures from after the redesigns at that point. Little things can bring change. Being able to count down through tough moments, self understanding, self Regulation and learning social skills is all possible. And if not via diving into videos/books there's help from therapists, authentic people or maybe hopefully a positive outreach from a random internet user can just send a hug for all the times it didn't happen. Either way I'm happy that you still are able to articulate how you feel despite bad circumstances anyway. You miss 100% of the time if you don't react. I hope all this together helps now for the you of this moment. People forget how far they come, what they did survive and what they can appreciate.
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2 Timothy 2: 3,4 and 5 Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. [4] No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. [5] And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully.