In the era of faking and vlogging clg like making it a unreal life there's someone who talks so real and true things .. hats off to you for being so open
i have observed this that Toppers in aiims have a separate group which they make ot kinda elite and others are left out. You will see toppers who are rich will attend weddings of eachother's family, go on trips etc but others are just left out. There is groupism going in aiims and no one except students are responsible for it. People from poor backgrounds disappear, i swear!
Yes, u r totally right!! 👍🏻👍🏻 ARS, Nishita Purohit, Vanshika etc. r examples.They have formed a separate group. Recently they attented ARS mom-dad's anniversary together, which is in a way gud thing. I m not pointing personally anyone but yes this is the harsh and real truth.👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
@@shiza7291 it is a toxic thing almost everywhere. I am not sure about every college but i am sure about most of the colleges be it medical, engineering or other degree colleges.
Being a 3 rd year mbbs student,I can definitely relate to this .. People do feel lonely in the medical college at some point or the other ..they tend to lose friends at pointless issues.. but then u have to be strong and stay connected with your parents to gain positivity and sail through 😌
I can so relate to this..this..thing isn't just limited to aiims or govt colleges..i guess people in medical colleges somehow behave this way..they somehow inflict an inferiority complex over the other person so they feel they are good enough.. Sometimes at the end of the day.. I feel it's just rat race..and i just want to break free... 😞
These things happen so often...i don't know why people don't talk about this...i once did a study on our final year students 76% students had mild to moderate depression and most of them felt alone ...problem is nobody wants to take charge of these things.. 😞
Hey Rashmi , I am final year student @ lady hardinge and I just wanted to say that I can relate to each and every word that you said. I am also sitting all alone in my room right now , just saw your video , much power to you because I can feel whatever you are saying . I can see that pain in your eyes . I had great friends in school but in college like you said that if you don’t get that vibe with anybody . I try to stay strong on most days but some days I feel like it would been much easier and fulfilling if I would have even one person with whom I could completely be myself where I could get the warmth I needed . Lots of love and warmth to you 😊
@@Jivan____1 Bhai agar tu ye sab nahi samejh pa rha hai to acchi baat hai.. God Bless..tum kabhi is sab me na paro...but you should understand that it is reality aur sayad tum abhi itne mature nahi ho ki samejh sako ye sab
@@ramkrishna5107 maturity ka to pta nhi. but apn simple concept rakhte h ki kaam itna h ki usko karne me tym hi nhi milta ki kuch loneliness jaisa kuchh feel kre
I literally can feel what you tell di..I am preparing for neet UG..so I made myself a little isolated...it feels like I lost many things 😔...but I believe in universe🙏 everything will just worth it
Same.. I hv 2 best friends. Bcoz of my preparation for neet I maintained little distance but they completely left speaking to me. Things like this are so depressing. But nothing is more than achieving our drms. No matter what let's keep going everything will reach us at the right time.
soo true, lost so many friends during this preparation time. M a dropper for neet 2023, seeing those friends making new friends enjoying their college lives gives me so much of FOMO, but at the end its going to be worth.... our dreams are more important than anything else
Thanks Rashmi for making students aware of mistakes and experiences that you want your juniors to avoid . It takes a lot of guts to speak of these things publically and you really did it . You should be really proud of urself . Best of luck for your future . You will rock it ...
My god. I haven't related to anything how much I related to each and every word you said. There are a lot of conversations about mental health pre NEET but no one talks about the part when you get selected and enter college. Everyone just assumes that getting selected in a good government medical college brings all the happiness and satisfaction one needs. It is especially difficult when don't find the type of friend group you were hoping for.
i used to be obsessed over the toppers life who get aiims delhi and even my dad used to tell me how they’re going in parties and enjoying all events. But now I’ve realised, choose what you can handle, everyone’s way of life is different. Life goes on either way. Thankyou for sharing your experience Rashmi di! All the best for future endeavours🤗
@@mitalishinde6890 oh thankyou for liking my playlists 😆I’m actually hoping to join mbbs at cmc ludhiana very soon. Just got a seat allotment yesterday. Goodluck on your journey in medicine as well!
Didi this is the same situation I am facing in my BSC government college. Currently I am in final year. Our first year started in 2020 at that time I tried to make a lot of friends. I am a neet aspirant. I felt that in my free time they will be there with whom I can share my thoughts, my feelings. But as time passed by they all got their new friends some in college, some in tuitions, some have relationships. I was just left out by them as such they don't even know me. In college functions also I have to go alone and enjoy alone. As I don't want to show it to my family that I don't have friends in college. But I don't mind this things. Yes obviously it hurts some time that why everyone has such a big group of friends and I don't have a single one to chill with them and to talk with them. I have friends online but no one in college. I am still preparing for neet and hope to get a government mbbs seat in top medical college of west bengal. Dreams are more important than making friends.
Thanks for sharing , I can relate so much, I had been like that 2 years ago, isolating myself just to be a topper. But now I realized I want a happy life not a topper life. Its okay being average but the actual wealth is having good people around, making real life friends that will always support you and you will support them. Balance banao guys, when you go to college study like a champion but don't forget to socialize. pls share more experiences from college and how and what you suggest us to do in 1st year. In the end its life and no one wants a sad life.
It's okay, and u are not less than anyone. This thing happened with me in school. Even I used to score great but I thought that maybe first three toppers are more intelligent. So I never talked to them, but i always used to think to go in their group.
Hey this is dermatology resident here. I could see my younger version in this video. I can feel you. I remember one day I went to psychiatry posting alone when everyone else went to a concert and the HOD asked me why are you alone and I told him, he said bachha why didn't you go then? So I realized over time that the fault was mine for not being so open, for being a nerd and a bookworm when I could've easily cleared my exams with half the effort I put, for thinking that I have to get the best marks, when in reality that doesn't even matter. I see so many of my batchmates who literally used to come to college just for the sake of it doing much much more better than me because life isn't fair, opportunities doesn't come for everyone. What I've learnt is don't take your life so seriously, padhai hoti rahegi, exams atey rahenge par ye waqt haina, ye early twenties, ye excitement, ye energy, ye kabhi wapas nai ayengey. It doesn't mean that you don't focus on your studies but you have to make time for everything. Because trust me 5-6 years down the lane you'll be left with nothing but emptiness and bitterness for the life you've lived and will continue to live. Don't expect life to get better after college, in fact you'll be very depressed competing for pg seat, and then comes pg life which you must know is hell. So this is the only time when you'll make genuine friends, after this your mindset is corrupted by maturity and life becomes bland, there is no friendship but just colleagues. Sure you'll have more money than you have now but with that also comes this vague but persistent question: “Why am I doing this? ”
Being a 2nd year student I could relate to each and every word… It felt as if you were narrating my own story.. It’s your friend circle that makes a place cherish-able and if you don’t have people whose vibes match with yours then the place is a living hell for you.. The phase I am going to is such that I feel my preparation days were a 1000 times better than this…
seriouly mbbs is not what we think then why lakhs students die to get a med seat i dont understand , i am a dropper but after knowing the harsh truth that even after studying this much we cant even have a single true frnd, i feel like quitting my neet prep. btw this is Anjana, i am still confused dont know shall i continue or if not do i have other option...
@@bhaskerkumar1424 see the thing is there’s always 2 phases of the coin and everything has its own pros and cons… these demerits mentioned above are real yet they are no reason to quit preparing .. you do find great people here.. and how much ever I rant about mbbs I know that I am gonna be a DOCTOR… this keeps me going .. and this is what should keep you going… ✌🏼
@@aakashapurv8472 yeah you are right but i needed something which can keep me going like the main reasons why i should choose this field medicine takes years to become a successful doc tho i am not giving up kyuki bio student ke pass yehi neet ek best option hota h 😶
That's so right! That's what happening with me currently. It's been a year since my friend circle abandoned me, but I was very much attached to them. So I thought if I continue to be kind they will love me and have me back. But they still go like on and off. They have hurt me so often. And being an overthinker, I can't get over it. I keep thinking how it would have been if we were together. It hurts so much. And I am so tired of it. So tired of having hurt over and over. I am so confused.
Never seen someone being so real about one's journey... Really loved it and somehow as a loner found it relatable...(about the part of skipping Shimla trip for studying and later regretting it). Lots of love 💙💙💙
All that feelings I could see it on her face and I could also feel every bit of them. Thankyou for being so brave and Kudos for speaking ur heart out. U r never alone, we all r with u always. U r the voice of lakhs of students!! Be brave, be bold, be beautiful and just be you. U r ur biggest asset. I wish u all the best. All my love to u Rashmi❤️❤️. Keep smiling always 🌼🌼🌼🌼
What is up with y'all always telling this "your life is someone's dream" Like? Go work hard like we did, like we burned our night oil. It's someone's dream doesn't mean that i can't tell you that this dream is also a nightmare? Are we not allowed to show how mbbs life is filled with loneliness and other shit just because we got a college?she isn't thinking she is alone, she actually is alone, how can you be so weird that someone's tells you about their struggles and you tell them that they should be happy that atleast they got a college?
@@Vinblastin Because I wanted to? That's really the dumbest thing someone has asked. What the fck are you even saying? We work a certain job because we like it doesn't mean it's all rainbows and sunshine? When she shows her better days, she is going to show the dark days too. Life isn't la la land, medical is definitely more stressful, it has it's perks but they are always outnumbered by the cons. It's weird to ask someone this question. It's like someone telling you that they are tired of life and you will tell them "why choose to live? Just d!e"... I really really hope you aren't a neet aspirant or a medical student because the way you think, talk, you will be a horrible doctor .
@@Vinblastin Sharing the dark side and negative aspects doesn't mean that they don't love their profession.If high moments of prople are appricieated then low moments should also be equally accepted. Her vdo might save other college people who are trapped in this vicious cycle.
I am not a AIIMS student neither mbbs student. I relate to you totally. The college life is weird to connect to people because honestly somewhere vibe’s doesn’t match.
It's same story in every college. There is popular group who just are shitty people's giving each other confidence. I just hate them and their vibes . It is depressing when you can't talk to people's and can't connect to them. I am dealing with same issues and it's affecting my mental health and my studies. I lovee to hear from you. Thanks for sharing ❤️
I am in 2nd year .... totally relate with every line specially friends and I don't have single friend who see pain and loneliness in my eye and smile... currently suffering from all these things but after this video I feel motivated I am not alone who suffering from these things .....we are strong and emotional people who thinks too deep
Am a neet aspirant 2nd year dropper at present... Even i loose most of my school freinds,close freinds ...i literally have no one to talk to share my fellings...but after listening uh i realise god is training to survive in College life🙂
Its basically like a cycle and recycle. When we complete 10th standard,it seems that the higher secondary years would be damn exciting, but then eventually things start taking a negative turn. We think college life would be great, but then the same happens. We then become fully matured adults with a job and we start envisioning a wonderful professional life, but then again it slowly progresses along the direction that we had never wanted. Life is complicated 😪 So its best to adapt accordingly, keeping in mind the situation and the environment!!!! Despite all the negativity around, we still have happy and successful people all around!!!!
Rashmi didi apne sahi bole ...i always think aiims delhi is royal life by always seeing you. Feeling very heavy hearted seeing this...my respect for u even increased more now...rahi baat rank ki aap hi hamare liye air 1 ho because ur patience and dedication apko uss rank 1 ka hakdaar bana ta hai...i never comment on any TH-cam videos but after u said this in video that u r a loner i feel u r my own family member felt ki i could seat near you and listen all your stuffs and entertain you...i being ur Lil sister love you so much didi mai dilse cahati hoon ki u get a lot of interactions from many youtubers and enjoy life to fullest...lots of love didi don't be sad didi like this nahi to issme aapko dekhle sachme mujhe rona a gaya...u r my idol...be happy
Don't feel FOMOS. This is very normal in MBBS. Everyone is mature and choosy so that they don't always get their cup of tea 😀..... Keep grinding keep going 🥳🤠
Your words and sounds expresses ur pain. But u are brave that u had managed to find ur solution. Cheers to you and don't feel inferior. Just keep going.. u gonna do great..
That's the delusion I want to break of people, MBBS is not the end, it's just the beginning, I am a graduate from AIIMS jodhpur and here I am hell lot confused about what branch to choose, which path to take, plus counselling delays. Guys, it's a endless journey.
See guys that the issue with PREMIUM Institutes like AIIMS, JIPMER... ETC wha sirf rankers he jate hai, In facility wise that's the best u can get from such Institute but agar tu imagine kar raha hai ki maze honge to bhul jao, see toppers aur backbenchers ke beech mein zameen Aasmaan ka farkh hai, maza ayega lekin utna nhi jitna tum soch te ho, agar koi dost ban bhi gaya ya koi group ban bhi gayi to it will be like " Jo karna hai jaldi karo mujhe ye chap complete krna hai" Woh atmosphere nhi hoga. BEST EXAMPLE is YT pe aiims college fest aur baki koi bhi medical clg fest compare karo, aiims ka decorations may be sabse achha ho pr u have to focus on bacche jaha aiims ke bacche MR BEAN jaise steps kr rhe hai dusre clg mein hip pop mtlb khulke naach rhe hai.. It was just an example kisi ko hurt nhi krna tha..
I am so glad that you came out of that loop hole.. That's so frustrating.. I hv a very close friend of mine who is doing pg in medicine in rml hospital under LHMC.. And the environment is so bad.. He works day and night without any break doesn't even hv breakfast.. No time for lunch n Dinner.. No sleep schedule nothing mental health is at the worst stage.. Still seniors n sr doesn't care and scolds them for every little thing but doesn't come forward to help.. And with that they have thesis to complete.. Fuck.. N if you fell ill its hard to recover.. Doctors specially one who work in ground level are suffering the most.. N there's no hope that it will change..
di, when I watched you, I also thought, u are so much happy in ur life, but now I knew reality that's not real happiness which we are show off ...thnks for sharing ur experience
I could see myself in this video. Being an introvert, it's hard to connect with people. I have been to a school for 12 years (from kg to grade 10) and I've not made a lot of friends. the thing is, i never tried. and i don't want to 'try' and get friends. i had 2 friends, who was always there for me, and i was comfortable with them. that's it. and then i came to another place for higher secondary education, i was so lonely, lonelier than i was in grade 10. koi nahi tha, literally i was talking to my old friends online all the time. phir bhi kuch dost bani thi, best friends, comfortable log toh bilkul bhi nahi he. still, i don't hate what I'm. I still don't think I'm that lonely. i have two friends, which i made outside school, one when i was like 3 and she stuck to me till now, I'm 19. 16 years❤️ and another one i met accidentally online by 2017 i guess. she is still there with me. and now, I'm not physically seeing them cause of my neet preparation, but I'll be, after this year. I'm very comfortable with them. and only them.we have hell a lot of fun with our own trips and stuff. i miss them.Even though i really wanna go to delhi, if possible AIIMS, I'm really scared I'm just gonna end up like my higher secondary school. but even if i do, it's okay. my friend is also doing preparation, for neet 2025 actually (she is planning to drop a year already) and i hope she can join me in delhi. and even if she don't, I'll still be fine. I actually really like being alone, and I've never been that miserable alone. thoda sa underconfidence he but I'll work on it. friends and all, ye sab toh luck pe upar he. even some extroverts struggle to find friends in college life. i already have good friends. college me ho bhi nahi toh bhi I'll manage. I'll have to prepare for usmle from then😅😂🥲
yes being an introvert I can relate...I think for some reason it's our parents fault too because for me personally they are the reason I have social anxiety...because like they are over protective and there's a saying too much of anything is dangerous..that's my case my parents never let me talk to anyone and spend some time with them and that's why I don't know how to communicate with someone ...I have a very bad luck in friendship it's not like I didn't have friends but the thing is no one was close to me
Hey Rashmi, so relatable! But you know, it's very intrinsic to our fraternity yaar, we faced that too and it's unfair, we medicos are very alone in our journey, it's just sad. I really really appreciate that you are portraying the real side of medical college life so that future aspirants can make informed choices atleast, they won't simply jump onto this just by the rosy pictures they have in their minds painted by coaching institutes and everyone who's selling that dream.
I'm also confused brother...... I am a fresher and this year I cleared JEE mains and getting nits / IIITs....... And also thinking of taking a drop for neet only because of stable life in future ( money matters ) ...... I don't know whether I am right or wrong ...... Pls guide me
@@DrAkashraj woh log Kitna cool zindegi ji rahe honge after mbbs and md..... Aur Mai 🥲 .... I lost myself totally..... I don't know what to do in future...... Maine 11th & 12th Mai neet ke Liye padha....but last me family ki financial condition sahi krne ke Liye JEE ke Liye 3 months padha ( mbbs course is very long ).... and I gave JEE .....but now I'm suffering from FOMO ( fear of missing out ) so that's why and off course money is the additional reason
I could notice u clearly didi, that u were trying to control the tears from ur eyes and looking down to hide them , but don't worry didi ur gng to become a great doctor 💓😊 and love u
It's okay to be alone! Aiims dehi sirf dost banane k liye nhi hai our na hi Fest celebrate krne k liye h.... Ye sab to local college me bhi ho jata h Aiims INDIA ke BEST DOCTOR ban ne k liye hai Aap BEST DOCTOR BANIYE fir apko kisi k piche nhi jana pdega duniya apke piche bhagegi. ❤
i can relate to this also in 11th and 12th now initially no one used to talk to me in coaching as i am not from that place and i also ignored chattering because of my low scores in exams....but after 1 year in 12th i score the highest that helped me too much to boost my confidence
I am a neet aspirant from kota.. And I'm already alone....i can relate to almost everything she said... I didn't make any frndz here...don't feel like talking to even one person cuz....feels less confident and I do feel lonely many atimes ( it's just me my books,my room and lonely nights) And I know sometimes how much it takes from you to stay happy like this....(these emotions and feelings can't be put in words) Knowing this from u that even in your college life you felt this just wanna say *she's really strong!!* ❤🌸
You are brave 👏👏nobody ever shares such sides, usually medicos share the ideal, vague side. It really takes A LOT to express these things 👏👏👏 thankyou ❤️
Till class 8th I had only one close friend of mine coz same reason I am also a loner and I don't enjoy involving myself with every kinda ppl. But from class 9th my school was changed and I never had that tipical school memories and school life that mostly people usually do. 4 years from class 9th till my 12th I used to sit alone, eat alone, only used to to exchange hi..hellos with my classmates while others were grouping n having fun. At the start I used to feel hella lonely all the time but right now I m so used to it that I am chill with all this now. I m currently preparing for neet and if my college life would also be the same that I would have to a loner than I will be chill with that also..I don't expect it to be like what everyone generally gets..So don't worry You R Not Alone.. PS :- being lonely is sad..but being Alone is powerful 😇
In my mbbs life graduated 3 yrs ago....eventhough we have phone and internet access but most of time we did was community activities like games,tv room,mess etc etc...so we never have lonliness....but now mostly girls prefer to form groups or phone centric life.....this is unhealthy
I'm an neet ug aspirant currently in 12th. The clg I've ever wanted didn't actually turn out the way I visualized it. There's a foundation batch in our clg which they call "aiims batch" and we are regular batch. Actually our clg has 8 state board divisions and 1 cbse division.( I'm in cbse div) at first when I discovered this class system oh lord I was completely shattered in pieces. As if everything is collapsing. But today, I wouldn't want my life to be any different. I don't want to be in that aiims division. My class is just perfect. The friendships I made here, I'm sure will last long. What I want to tell you from my story is, trust the universe. You really don't know what plans it holds.
After going through the comment section i can it's not only me but everyone is facing difficulties with their friends during NEET prep. My story goes like I'm actually a chill person who is friendly with everyone but i will share my thoughts and story to only my best friend who was with me for 14 years. After 10th we both chose different major but somehow we stayed connected. But after i start prep for NEET everything is upside down. She starts to make new friends, college life etc etc.... and yeah she is contacting me sometimes but it feels like the old connection thing is gone. I will be waiting for her msgs and calls since i like to share everything to her but our call ends with 10 mints of talk (it will after 3 mnths and like that and only 10 mnts, we used to talk like shit whenever we call but,..) . I feel like its somewhat communication problem or something and i don't know the other side story , so i will save this year from talking about it and after my NEET i will talk about it to her and make a wise decision. Maybe due to the distance we maybe falling apart and it's common thing to happen, if we want to end this we will have good ending and if she want a break i will wait until everything. So to my aspirant fellows we have to stay strong time's like this and stay focused. You are not alone who is going through this kinda stuffs, so prepare mentally and if we overcome all this difficulties our life will be better. Someone better will be waiting for in any point of our life. And the years of friendship or any relationship doesn't matters because we have to chose with whoever we feel comfortable. We don't know the other side story , maybe they are too trying hard to keep it but couldn't feel the comfortable anymore its not their mistake and not anyone's. Its that how life will be. its long😅,so if anyone read it till here ALL THE BEST ❤
Omg u r soo true. I had similar feelings when I changed my school in 11 this year.I felt so alone that I joined Allen which I never wanted previously 😭😭
@@RASHMIAIIMSDELHI1722 I actually did Not want to take science after 10 but my parents like typical indian parents did Not let me take humanities.😔😔 but now I'm actually enjoying Allen .I made few friends and teachers there are way cooler than any typical school.
@@Sagar-dj1ef shi mei bhai mene socha tha commerce lunga ca ki prep karunga Mere gharwalo ne science dila diya 😭😭 U will not believe I changed my subject 4 times in school
@@Hmx_mrx bro I get u.parents should be jailed for shoving their expectation to children fr.my metal health would be 100 times better if I were able to choose what to study 😩😩
Usually we are live in a world where people like to be more extroverted. And we introverts gets a little more time to process the whole thing to connect them
Aiim to babut chota hai compares to aisa's biggest campus IMS BHU (my dream capmus, literally the best exposure)...be happy i can feel your pain...and can relate too, hate this topper grouping and all and many more
This is my first comment on youtube because i can't stop myself to express my feeling . jab bhi akele rahta hu ek loneliness satane lagti he or pata nahi me apni feeling kisi ko bata nahi pata , bus aapko bata raha tha kyoki app mujhe nahi jante . Bus itna kahana chahata hu ki situations badal sakti he . If we start enjoy any possible moment of life. Request you to stay happy 😊 😃 .
Ykw i can clearly see you were holding your up so tightly to not cry... Because eventually these things does affects your mental health... And it's one of the main reason why medical student get into depression... And i am extremely proud of you that you have faced it all along with spreading positivity.. while you were facing some horrible things... I wish everyone and everything thing which went away from you.. comes to you in many folds 💕.. you recieve abundance of love fame and power ilysm Rashmi di... You've always been my motivation tho I live in Delhi and so many times i feel an urge to meet you. 🥺I really want to meet you. But before this happens I want to reflect back the positivity you've given to me and to thousands of kids like me.. ❤️ 🧿 keep shining there's a lot to overcome .. and miles to cross may god bless you with extreme power 💕🧿
@@karinapal780 pagol naki....mbbs is far beyond from your thought ..... 1st year e giye pass korar jonno sobai lorai Kore...ar tumi tar saathe neet porar Kotha vabcho.....🤣 Very funny 😂 dekha gelo ager year er theke kome gelo number 🤣
Being in 2nd year......I can also totally relate and have suffered the same.......the groupism.....the toxicity and at the end we r left alone by just one two close friends.
Sometimes just instead of all those facility and stuffs we need a single genuine person who understands our shit whats going in our life and doesn't motivate but stays there and there always........I have really a good friend whom I can talk whole day and still feel more to do......and that's what friendship is
I can feel it cause for neet 2022 i got isolated from everyone except one of my bestie who's also prep with me and i used to talk less with my family members even with my mom it was my 3rd drop...i failed cause for this time i really studied consistently 6-7 hours from January to july 17 😅 for now I switched my interest in another thing cause i have accepted sometimes a perticular thing can't be for you may be you are made for another great thing 😃👍
Don't loose hope.. you have already achieved a lot.. getting into AIIMS is a dream of many.. you r already a champion.. and try to make a senior friend who can guide you (who himself or herself a good person).
This is one of the main reasons why I don't want to study medicine in India. There's just a lot of groupism and stress which causes students to loose their true self. Rashmi, Whenever you feel left out or incompetent just remember that you are in a college a lot of kids dream about and it's you who made into AIIMS by your hard work. It takes a lot to even get into such colleges and you've got it so be proud of yourself ❤
@@SIDRA-hw2tf true but they also focus more on extracurricular activities, clubs etc. Rashmi mentioned rank holders forming a group, which is fine, but it's sad how it's determined where u stand solely on ur academics. But in foreign countries, they atleast have clubs etc which u can join as per ur interest and form a friend circle based on that which I think is amazing to have.
Yaa it's true👀👀🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺, i am in ...AIIMS Rishikesh....and i am as also habitual to read everything...and now i literally can't understand that how to study just importants before the exams🥺🥺🥺.
Ma’am I m in MAMC first year and during my NEET PREp I always used to wonder that my college life will be hell beautiful , today it’s not like that I don’t do fun and all but deep inside I don’t really enjoy it and I feel a huge load that how will these 5 years pass. I really don’t feel good about my college life.
Daily I learn new about medical life.... And i get tense that what will be life and then I just want to leave neet preparation due to depression of all these things
Rashmi Di , I'm a first year Student at AGARTALA GOVT. MEDICAL COLLEGE . I'm following you since 2020 and here I'm finally into a medical college ... Somehow your journey , your experiences , motivation and thoughts keep me going throughout that NEET phase .You always been an Inspiration for me . It was and It is still my dream to meet u as I live in Delhi but after getting college in Tripura ..I'm residing here ...but still I wish and I hope that one day I would get a chance to meet my one of Inspiration who taught me in so many ways to how to deal everything . Everytime I feel connected to you and even after getting into a college I connected here with every sort of thing u said in the video and I have my 2nd internals exams and you rightly said that we study just before the exam but how to study nd pass before the exam that is a thing for me to handle right now as I was habitual of reading everything. But Thankyou you made me realize that yes it can be done !! I am always been grateful to you and hoping that I would meet you one day !!❤ Thanks alot , you are a part of my Journey because of whom I'm here in a medical college😊😇 So I wanted to Thank you...Thankyou Rashmi Dii !!❤😇
Congratulations Anjali! I’m first year psychiatry pg resident doctor in Agartala GMC! Feel to connect if you feel lost or anything!!! MBBS is like a war of its own!! Keep good care of yourself!! @an.any.a❤
I want to add more that I never saw someone to explain in such an honest way you did dii...Amazing You will get everything you love di I pray to Allah.
This how my life is everyday I'm a 3rd year mbbs student, every day I wake up with no motivation and I feel terrible, i expected alot about mbbs college life, but here the college life entirely different it is not even near to expectations, I feel everyday to quit college but i can't because I'm from a lower middle class background i don't know what to do even if I dropout, and I see my engineering friends enjoyed their college and got out with a high paying jobs which makes me feel terrible because I should complete my mbbs and should again compete for residency and my motivation is zero , man the journey is real hell.
Now I found a person who can guide me towards the right path...... Brother pls help me ...... I'm confused from last 3 months...... The fact is ..... " This year I cleared JEE mains exam and getting nits / IIITs and jadavpur university through wbjee ...... And back on the mind I'm thinking of taking a drop for neet only because stability in future ...... I still don't know should I take drop or not..... I'm very much confused and scrolling videos like this for a perfect desicion...... I'm from a lower middle class family ...... Financial background is very weak 🤧
I have also pressure that my mbbs friends who got selected this year...... They will become rich 🥲 and I will be thrown from my friend circle ......Al ready I have lost my peer group
I'm doing MBA and i get it. The clg life..ppl really romanticize the heck out of it, but that's not true for some of us. I never really vibed much with other ppl. Sure i'll engage in the small talks but nothing deeper than that. I've my school circle still entact and the way i connect with them is so different and real. well i just have 2 more semesters to go which are roughly like 6-7 months. Don't quit, we'll manage somehow. Let's navigate through this boring & frustating chapter of our life together!
The best thing is...ki jb hm khud realise kar lete hain ki hamare andar kami kya hai....and us par work out krte hain...then things become meaningful..kudos to you and all the best... won't go in details ...bt you know what i mean
This is kinda so true . There are some type of people who love to build connections and bonds but without any supportive environment they just couldn't.
I'm litterly feeling this right now I'm taking a drop for neet 23 . And unawarely got apart from my best friend and all others. Sometimes it hurts like hell that don't know how to talk someone even though you're an extrovert in past 😔
Same man all school frnds r gone and u are literally all alone still chasing ur dreams thinking clg life will be atleast fun lekin kahi pe bhi u aren't really happy unless you learn to be ur own best friend.... ❤️
@@isha5412 one of the best thing I have heard was you are responsible for your own happiness. They day you let go of the fact that others will make you happy is the day you will feel relieved. And as you said you need to be your own best friend ♥
We are very happy at here JLNMCH bhagalpur ...everyone is happy here 😊😊we enjoy we study we have very good friends also and college life is chill here ...we do everything we wish to 😊😊
Wasting half your life studying just to be unhappy is a very sad position to be in Our lives on this earth is short and fill those with memories of good and bad Don't try to regret anything you do in your deathbed that would be the most precious gift of life Thousands of doctors, lawyers, engineers,lecturers,politicians will come and go no one will be remembered....
Same thing is happening with me also...When I was in class 8 in school I became very busy in studying studying and studying... Jo bhi krenge chuttiyon me ...lekin tb friends hi nhi the ....I am missing my school days 🥺 because that type of enjoy Maine nhi Kiya only due to study....ha ye sahi hai ki mere tb ke teachers ko bahut proud hai mere upr but for me there is no fun memories to remind 🥺🥺🥺
It's fine. I know listening to everyone else around you talking about their memories from school life makes you feel bad, and trust me, it's the same for me. Not that I don't have memories or I didn't have friends, but a lot of negativity is what I have in my memories, which makes me look back at my life and wonder why all these memories feel like "this is not what I wanted." But if you look closely, life is giving you another chance because you've realised maybe you should've enjoyed your life a little more and now you can because it's not bad that you were studying when everyone else was having fun. It's going to help you in the future, but if you feel bad about not having fun, then do it now so that when you look back in 4-5 years, you don't feel the same way you are feeling right now. Growing up and learning things is what matters, not what you were in your past, so work on making yourself better in every way. You've got a whole life to explore, make mistakes, and learn, so do it while you can. Sorry, I know it's a long message, but I felt like saying all this because I too feel the same way, but I've understood that it's a crime to grow up in ages but not grow up mentally, emotionally, and in every other way possible. Also, apologies for any mistakes.
Hello dii....yaa di I can connect what you said... I mean literally it's exactly what I have felt...but as you are a singer you know you're going to be joyful soon....love you dii ❤️❤️❤️
So much Attraction to mbbs is the most overrated thing I've ever seen.. I myself attempted neetug 2 times.. According to me the most important thing in life is you to be truely happy and satisfied..but if during neet prep and in mbbs course all you are getting is sadness and loneliness even after grinding so much ..then what's the use of everything. .nothing ..I've seen my bcom friends happily enjoying their lives ..moral of the story--no course is more important than your happiness ! So if you are an aspirant and you are isolating yourself ..please don't ..don't stress out yourself if not mbbs there is this whole beautiful world waiting for you..!! BE HAPPY
I cracked JEE and wbjee this year and am getting nits /IIITs and jadavpur university in west Bengal......and also thinking to take a drop for NEET 2023......btw I'm a fresher..... I don't know why my mind fluctuates into mbbs ...... I Still don't know what should I choose.......
@@jeetpodder8947 it happens when you have other option so if you really want to you can try neet as well but somelike like me who never though about anything else apart from being a doctor or to be precise my family never let me to think about any other field it's not their fault i enjoyed science and biology in initial days and my interest toward surgery and biology increased so i mylself submerged into this medical field ocean and i was happy and even today i don't regret this desicion but i am all alone in this journey during these 2 prep years i have no friends , family barely talk to me , no cousin support, i don't even use social media all this just make me left out from this world .
@@spike.xx_ Don't know why I'm getting some emotional reading your comment 🥲btw I'm an aspirant (not anymore) i thought mbbs is not my cup of tea so I just left it and now will give my 100% in anything that I choose🤞🏻
@@deepthigoud8545 well wished for your future do whatever you like just don't forget you have this life too enjoy it and give your 100% in work as well these years won't come back so don't regret after years.. 🤝
I m first yr MBBS student from Pakistan... watching ur video,I literally feel as if u stole my feelings... honestly Didi exactly same is here ... loneliness, depressed regarding syllabus and countless other problems... others around us( outside clj) imagine us to be most lucky ( yes we are lucky), but not happy as we expected to be ... Anyways, now I realize that it's ok if no one want to befriend us ... now I m back to my track ...I tried enough to be social but all in vein ... Plz Didi guide me through MBBS... how to study smart? ...when to study smart and when to study hard.? How to retain knowledge...I ask u to share the mistakes that makes u regret today...I wanna and can definitely be a successful doctor...
Heyy hii same happening with me. I am first yr student it's been 2 months I didn't open book and didn't sleep at night because of the environment. No one literally no one talk with me in class. I am assuming u completed your 1st year. Let's talk anf guide me. I gone into depression because of my roommate everyone gave her value and she is knowledgable and I am with zero knowledgable knew nothing like nothing so please help me.here my mother shifted with me came from 200km and shifted with me so I could survive. But every day is getting difficult. I don't feel like going college and studying a bit
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In the era of faking and vlogging clg like making it a unreal life there's someone who talks so real and true things
.. hats off to you for being so open
Soo truee
She is true
She is not in any pictures with Aryan bhaiyaa or any other toppers group
i have observed this that Toppers in aiims have a separate group which they make ot kinda elite and others are left out. You will see toppers who are rich will attend weddings of eachother's family, go on trips etc but others are just left out. There is groupism going in aiims and no one except students are responsible for it. People from poor backgrounds disappear, i swear!
Is it happens only in aiims or in other medical colleges too?
Yes, u r totally right!! 👍🏻👍🏻 ARS, Nishita Purohit, Vanshika etc. r examples.They have formed a separate group. Recently they attented ARS mom-dad's anniversary together, which is in a way gud thing. I m not pointing personally anyone but yes this is the harsh and real truth.👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
@@shiza7291 it is a toxic thing almost everywhere. I am not sure about every college but i am sure about most of the colleges be it medical, engineering or other degree colleges.
@@shiza7291 west bengal tumeh final yr mai bhi single room allot nehi hota hai..1st yr mai to ek kamre 4 or 4 log rehete hai
Pehle aisa nahi tha
Being a 3 rd year mbbs student,I can definitely relate to this .. People do feel lonely in the medical college at some point or the other ..they tend to lose friends at pointless issues.. but then u have to be strong and stay connected with your parents to gain positivity and sail through 😌
I can resonate with you.... A fellow 3rd year MBBS student.
Which college!?
@@jivisha_ GMC fzd
I can so relate to this..this..thing isn't just limited to aiims or govt colleges..i guess people in medical colleges somehow behave this way..they somehow inflict an inferiority complex over the other person so they feel they are good enough.. Sometimes at the end of the day.. I feel it's just rat race..and i just want to break free... 😞
Hmmmm probably
Frnds bass naam ke hote ha max, toh make positivity & Almighty God as your everything & parents toh ha hi 😄 toh chill Maro ✨
can we just appreciate her honesty 🥺
These things happen so often...i don't know why people don't talk about this...i once did a study on our final year students 76% students had mild to moderate depression and most of them felt alone ...problem is nobody wants to take charge of these things.. 😞
Nahi
@@courage5904 chup re
Bohot galdi reality batai 😂👍🏻
Hey Rashmi , I am final year student @ lady hardinge and I just wanted to say that I can relate to each and every word that you said. I am also sitting all alone in my room right now , just saw your video , much power to you because I can feel whatever you are saying . I can see that pain in your eyes . I had great friends in school but in college like you said that if you don’t get that vibe with anybody . I try to stay strong on most days but some days I feel like it would been much easier and fulfilling if I would have even one person with whom I could completely be myself where I could get the warmth I needed . Lots of love and warmth to you 😊
@Peer Asim nissar 0
Hihihi I am here😊😊😊😊😊
Kyahi h ye sab v feel krne ka tym rehta h aplogo k paas
@@Jivan____1 Bhai agar tu ye sab nahi samejh pa rha hai to acchi baat hai.. God Bless..tum kabhi is sab me na paro...but you should understand that it is reality aur sayad tum abhi itne mature nahi ho ki samejh sako ye sab
@@ramkrishna5107 maturity ka to pta nhi. but apn simple concept rakhte h ki kaam itna h ki usko karne me tym hi nhi milta ki kuch loneliness jaisa kuchh feel kre
I literally can feel what you tell di..I am preparing for neet UG..so I made myself a little isolated...it feels like I lost many things 😔...but I believe in universe🙏 everything will just worth it
same here🙂🙃
Same.. I hv 2 best friends. Bcoz of my preparation for neet I maintained little distance but they completely left speaking to me. Things like this are so depressing. But nothing is more than achieving our drms. No matter what let's keep going everything will reach us at the right time.
going through the same situation...just hope that God gives us strength to survive
What she said.i don't understand.🥺
soo true, lost so many friends during this preparation time. M a dropper for neet 2023, seeing those friends making new friends enjoying their college lives gives me so much of FOMO, but at the end its going to be worth.... our dreams are more important than anything else
Thanks Rashmi for making students aware of mistakes and experiences that you want your juniors to avoid . It takes a lot of guts to speak of these things publically and you really did it . You should be really proud of urself . Best of luck for your future . You will rock it ...
Thankyou
My god. I haven't related to anything how much I related to each and every word you said. There are a lot of conversations about mental health pre NEET but no one talks about the part when you get selected and enter college. Everyone just assumes that getting selected in a good government medical college brings all the happiness and satisfaction one needs. It is especially difficult when don't find the type of friend group you were hoping for.
i used to be obsessed over the toppers life who get aiims delhi and even my dad used to tell me how they’re going in parties and enjoying all events. But now I’ve realised, choose what you can handle, everyone’s way of life is different. Life goes on either way. Thankyou for sharing your experience Rashmi di! All the best for future endeavours🤗
Absolutely agreed. Btw what are you studying if you don't mind asking ???
Cool music playlist btw
@@mitalishinde6890 oh thankyou for liking my playlists 😆I’m actually hoping to join mbbs at cmc ludhiana very soon. Just got a seat allotment yesterday. Goodluck on your journey in medicine as well!
Didi this is the same situation I am facing in my BSC government college. Currently I am in final year. Our first year started in 2020 at that time I tried to make a lot of friends. I am a neet aspirant. I felt that in my free time they will be there with whom I can share my thoughts, my feelings. But as time passed by they all got their new friends some in college, some in tuitions, some have relationships. I was just left out by them as such they don't even know me. In college functions also I have to go alone and enjoy alone. As I don't want to show it to my family that I don't have friends in college.
But I don't mind this things. Yes obviously it hurts some time that why everyone has such a big group of friends and I don't have a single one to chill with them and to talk with them. I have friends online but no one in college.
I am still preparing for neet and hope to get a government mbbs seat in top medical college of west bengal. Dreams are more important than making friends.
Same condition 😭
I am also from WB ...I have no friend 😭
2023 aspirant?
@@aafreenziya2405 hmm
Same situation.. am also in bsc final year .. 😔😔
Thanks for sharing , I can relate so much, I had been like that 2 years ago, isolating myself just to be a topper. But now I realized I want a happy life not a topper life. Its okay being average but the actual wealth is having good people around, making real life friends that will always support you and you will support them.
Balance banao guys, when you go to college study like a champion but don't forget to socialize.
pls share more experiences from college and how and what you suggest us to do in 1st year. In the end its life and no one wants a sad life.
It's okay, and u are not less than anyone. This thing happened with me in school. Even I used to score great but I thought that maybe first three toppers are more intelligent. So I never talked to them, but i always used to think to go in their group.
What she said.i don't understand.🥺
Right you
Hey this is dermatology resident here. I could see my younger version in this video. I can feel you. I remember one day I went to psychiatry posting alone when everyone else went to a concert and the HOD asked me why are you alone and I told him, he said bachha why didn't you go then? So I realized over time that the fault was mine for not being so open, for being a nerd and a bookworm when I could've easily cleared my exams with half the effort I put, for thinking that I have to get the best marks, when in reality that doesn't even matter. I see so many of my batchmates who literally used to come to college just for the sake of it doing much much more better than me because life isn't fair, opportunities doesn't come for everyone. What I've learnt is don't take your life so seriously, padhai hoti rahegi, exams atey rahenge par ye waqt haina, ye early twenties, ye excitement, ye energy, ye kabhi wapas nai ayengey. It doesn't mean that you don't focus on your studies but you have to make time for everything. Because trust me 5-6 years down the lane you'll be left with nothing but emptiness and bitterness for the life you've lived and will continue to live. Don't expect life to get better after college, in fact you'll be very depressed competing for pg seat, and then comes pg life which you must know is hell. So this is the only time when you'll make genuine friends, after this your mindset is corrupted by maturity and life becomes bland, there is no friendship but just colleagues. Sure you'll have more money than you have now but with that also comes this vague but persistent question: “Why am I doing this? ”
where can i contact you mam/sir to solve my derma vs radio dilemma? please help…
Being a 2nd year student I could relate to each and every word… It felt as if you were narrating my own story.. It’s your friend circle that makes a place cherish-able and if you don’t have people whose vibes match with yours then the place is a living hell for you.. The phase I am going to is such that I feel my preparation days were a 1000 times better than this…
seriouly mbbs is not what we think then why lakhs students die to get a med seat i dont understand , i am a dropper but after knowing the harsh truth that even after studying this much we cant even have a single true frnd, i feel like quitting my neet prep. btw this is Anjana, i am still confused dont know shall i continue or if not do i have other option...
@@bhaskerkumar1424 see the thing is there’s always 2 phases of the coin and everything has its own pros and cons… these demerits mentioned above are real yet they are no reason to quit preparing .. you do find great people here.. and how much ever I rant about mbbs I know that I am gonna be a DOCTOR… this keeps me going .. and this is what should keep you going… ✌🏼
@@aakashapurv8472 yeah you are right but i needed something which can keep me going like the main reasons why i should choose this field medicine takes years to become a successful doc tho i am not giving up kyuki bio student ke pass yehi neet ek best option hota h 😶
@@bhaskerkumar1424 it’s all worth the feeling ki doctor banne wale hai…
That's so right! That's what happening with me currently. It's been a year since my friend circle abandoned me, but I was very much attached to them. So I thought if I continue to be kind they will love me and have me back. But they still go like on and off. They have hurt me so often. And being an overthinker, I can't get over it. I keep thinking how it would have been if we were together. It hurts so much. And I am so tired of it. So tired of having hurt over and over. I am so confused.
Never seen someone being so real about one's journey... Really loved it and somehow as a loner found it relatable...(about the part of skipping Shimla trip for studying and later regretting it). Lots of love 💙💙💙
What she said.i don't understand.🥺
@@nith4366 subtitles h english mei 🙂!!!
@@vimlamehra7242 subtitles r not showing for everything she said.
I did back in school (skipping trip)
I still regret it.
@@vimlamehra7242 ..
Literally I'm able to relate to each and every single word of you . I was exactly in the same situation in my engineering college too...💓
U r not alone...we are with you 🥰
All that feelings I could see it on her face and I could also feel every bit of them. Thankyou for being so brave and Kudos for speaking ur heart out. U r never alone, we all r with u always. U r the voice of lakhs of students!! Be brave, be bold, be beautiful and just be you. U r ur biggest asset. I wish u all the best. All my love to u Rashmi❤️❤️. Keep smiling always 🌼🌼🌼🌼
Arey didi akele rhna hi shi hai yr... Jitne logo se judoge utna hi bwaal ... Its my opinion... Be the king of your life...
True , abb vibe hi match nai karegi to kya hi hoga
Aisa nai hai...mai bhi yahi Sochta tha..pr life aise nai chalti...I got depressed...and had a terrible feeling everyday I woke up for 3 months....
Your life is someone's dream
So don't think that you are alone or whatever
We all are always with you
What is up with y'all always telling this "your life is someone's dream" Like? Go work hard like we did, like we burned our night oil. It's someone's dream doesn't mean that i can't tell you that this dream is also a nightmare? Are we not allowed to show how mbbs life is filled with loneliness and other shit just because we got a college?she isn't thinking she is alone, she actually is alone, how can you be so weird that someone's tells you about their struggles and you tell them that they should be happy that atleast they got a college?
@@seren5483 then why you choose this stream man !
@@Vinblastin Because I wanted to? That's really the dumbest thing someone has asked. What the fck are you even saying? We work a certain job because we like it doesn't mean it's all rainbows and sunshine? When she shows her better days, she is going to show the dark days too. Life isn't la la land, medical is definitely more stressful, it has it's perks but they are always outnumbered by the cons. It's weird to ask someone this question. It's like someone telling you that they are tired of life and you will tell them "why choose to live? Just d!e"... I really really hope you aren't a neet aspirant or a medical student because the way you think, talk, you will be a horrible doctor .
@@Vinblastin Sharing the dark side and negative aspects doesn't mean that they don't love their profession.If high moments of prople are appricieated then low moments should also be equally accepted. Her vdo might save other college people who are trapped in this vicious cycle.
@@Vinblastin Baitho beta
Bahut kuch samajhna hai zindagi me
I am not a AIIMS student neither mbbs student. I relate to you totally. The college life is weird to connect to people because honestly somewhere vibe’s doesn’t match.
It's same story in every college. There is popular group who just are shitty people's giving each other confidence. I just hate them and their vibes . It is depressing when you can't talk to people's and can't connect to them. I am dealing with same issues and it's affecting my mental health and my studies. I lovee to hear from you. Thanks for sharing ❤️
I am in 2nd year .... totally relate with every line specially friends and I don't have single friend who see pain and loneliness in my eye and smile... currently suffering from all these things but after this video I feel motivated I am not alone who suffering from these things .....we are strong and emotional people who thinks too deep
Suffering same bro
Am a neet aspirant 2nd year dropper at present... Even i loose most of my school freinds,close freinds ...i literally have no one to talk to share my fellings...but after listening uh i realise god is training to survive in College life🙂
Same sis
ha acha hai.
Same here
Same yaar🤐
Same here
Her voice at last shivered🥺 feels like she really had a bad time back then...I just wish no one else face such things. 💛
Its basically like a cycle and recycle. When we complete 10th standard,it seems that the higher secondary years would be damn exciting, but then eventually things start taking a negative turn. We think college life would be great, but then the same happens. We then become fully matured adults with a job and we start envisioning a wonderful professional life, but then again it slowly progresses along the direction that we had never wanted.
Life is complicated 😪
So its best to adapt accordingly, keeping in mind the situation and the environment!!!! Despite all the negativity around, we still have happy and successful people all around!!!!
Rashmi didi apne sahi bole ...i always think aiims delhi is royal life by always seeing you. Feeling very heavy hearted seeing this...my respect for u even increased more now...rahi baat rank ki aap hi hamare liye air 1 ho because ur patience and dedication apko uss rank 1 ka hakdaar bana ta hai...i never comment on any TH-cam videos but after u said this in video that u r a loner i feel u r my own family member felt ki i could seat near you and listen all your stuffs and entertain you...i being ur Lil sister love you so much didi mai dilse cahati hoon ki u get a lot of interactions from many youtubers and enjoy life to fullest...lots of love didi don't be sad didi like this nahi to issme aapko dekhle sachme mujhe rona a gaya...u r my idol...be happy
What she said.i don't understand.🥺
@@nith4366 one day ull!🥺🥺
@@LEONLOVESMUSIC actually nith ko sirf english aata hai isliye wo esa bol rha h bhai
Don't feel FOMOS. This is very normal in MBBS. Everyone is mature and choosy so that they don't always get their cup of tea 😀..... Keep grinding keep going 🥳🤠
What she said.i don't understand.🥺.
@@nith4366 why?
@@misschoudhary436 he dont understand hindi thats the reason i think
@@lifeisbeautiful9945 bt she use a bit of hindi vrna to english m hi bol rhi ye to
Your words and sounds expresses ur pain. But u are brave that u had managed to find ur solution.
Cheers to you and don't feel inferior. Just keep going.. u gonna do great..
Thanks for understanding
@@RASHMIAIIMSDELHI1722AIIMS ke saare students chutiye hote sab padaaku
That's the delusion I want to break of people, MBBS is not the end, it's just the beginning, I am a graduate from AIIMS jodhpur and here I am hell lot confused about what branch to choose, which path to take, plus counselling delays. Guys, it's a endless journey.
Kya aiims itna Acha Hai jitna batata Jatan hai
See guys that the issue with PREMIUM Institutes like AIIMS, JIPMER... ETC wha sirf rankers he jate hai, In facility wise that's the best u can get from such Institute but agar tu imagine kar raha hai ki maze honge to bhul jao, see toppers aur backbenchers ke beech mein zameen Aasmaan ka farkh hai, maza ayega lekin utna nhi jitna tum soch te ho, agar koi dost ban bhi gaya ya koi group ban bhi gayi to it will be like " Jo karna hai jaldi karo mujhe ye chap complete krna hai" Woh atmosphere nhi hoga. BEST EXAMPLE is YT pe aiims college fest aur baki koi bhi medical clg fest compare karo, aiims ka decorations may be sabse achha ho pr u have to focus on bacche jaha aiims ke bacche MR BEAN jaise steps kr rhe hai dusre clg mein hip pop mtlb khulke naach rhe hai.. It was just an example kisi ko hurt nhi krna tha..
dance wala point ,mai bhi yeh hi soch raha tha
Absolutely yr
I am so glad that you came out of that loop hole.. That's so frustrating.. I hv a very close friend of mine who is doing pg in medicine in rml hospital under LHMC.. And the environment is so bad.. He works day and night without any break doesn't even hv breakfast.. No time for lunch n Dinner.. No sleep schedule nothing mental health is at the worst stage.. Still seniors n sr doesn't care and scolds them for every little thing but doesn't come forward to help.. And with that they have thesis to complete.. Fuck.. N if you fell ill its hard to recover.. Doctors specially one who work in ground level are suffering the most.. N there's no hope that it will change..
I understand, it’s so scary
@@RASHMIAIIMSDELHI1722 r u preparing for pg? Which year r u in?
di, when I watched you, I also thought, u are so much happy in ur life, but now I knew reality that's not real happiness which we are show off ...thnks for sharing ur experience
I could see myself in this video. Being an introvert, it's hard to connect with people. I have been to a school for 12 years (from kg to grade 10) and I've not made a lot of friends. the thing is, i never tried. and i don't want to 'try' and get friends. i had 2 friends, who was always there for me, and i was comfortable with them. that's it. and then i came to another place for higher secondary education, i was so lonely, lonelier than i was in grade 10. koi nahi tha, literally i was talking to my old friends online all the time. phir bhi kuch dost bani thi, best friends, comfortable log toh bilkul bhi nahi he. still, i don't hate what I'm. I still don't think I'm that lonely. i have two friends, which i made outside school, one when i was like 3 and she stuck to me till now, I'm 19. 16 years❤️ and another one i met accidentally online by 2017 i guess. she is still there with me. and now, I'm not physically seeing them cause of my neet preparation, but I'll be, after this year. I'm very comfortable with them. and only them.we have hell a lot of fun with our own trips and stuff. i miss them.Even though i really wanna go to delhi, if possible AIIMS, I'm really scared I'm just gonna end up like my higher secondary school. but even if i do, it's okay. my friend is also doing preparation, for neet 2025 actually (she is planning to drop a year already) and i hope she can join me in delhi. and even if she don't, I'll still be fine. I actually really like being alone, and I've never been that miserable alone. thoda sa underconfidence he but I'll work on it. friends and all, ye sab toh luck pe upar he. even some extroverts struggle to find friends in college life. i already have good friends. college me ho bhi nahi toh bhi I'll manage. I'll have to prepare for usmle from then😅😂🥲
Ur nw 19 nd ur in 12th? Which attempt is urs at 23?
yes being an introvert I can relate...I think for some reason it's our parents fault too because for me personally they are the reason I have social anxiety...because like they are over protective and there's a saying too much of anything is dangerous..that's my case my parents never let me talk to anyone and spend some time with them and that's why I don't know how to communicate with someone ...I have a very bad luck in friendship it's not like I didn't have friends but the thing is no one was close to me
Hey. Are u neet 2023 asiparent
@@WorkForUrself 3rd.
I love her honesty more than anything!!
Thank you so much , there's so much to learn from you!
Hey Rashmi, so relatable! But you know, it's very intrinsic to our fraternity yaar, we faced that too and it's unfair, we medicos are very alone in our journey, it's just sad.
I really really appreciate that you are portraying the real side of medical college life so that future aspirants can make informed choices atleast, they won't simply jump onto this just by the rosy pictures they have in their minds painted by coaching institutes and everyone who's selling that dream.
I'm also confused brother...... I am a fresher and this year I cleared JEE mains and getting nits / IIITs....... And also thinking of taking a drop for neet only because of stable life in future ( money matters ) ...... I don't know whether I am right or wrong ...... Pls guide me
@@jeetpodder8947 If money is your motivation for Medicine, absolutely don't !
@@DrAkashraj woh log Kitna cool zindegi ji rahe honge after mbbs and md..... Aur Mai 🥲 .... I lost myself totally..... I don't know what to do in future...... Maine 11th & 12th Mai neet ke Liye padha....but last me family ki financial condition sahi krne ke Liye JEE ke Liye 3 months padha ( mbbs course is very long ).... and I gave JEE .....but now I'm suffering from FOMO ( fear of missing out ) so that's why and off course money is the additional reason
@@jeetpodder8947 the grass is always greener on the other side of fence. Life is too short to regret. Make your rebirth with a different attitude.
@@jeetpodder8947 I am also confused between jee and neet what should I do???
Thanks for sharing the reality rashmi....so proud of uh❤
I could notice u clearly didi, that u were trying to control the tears from ur eyes and looking down to hide them , but don't worry didi ur gng to become a great doctor 💓😊 and love u
It's okay to be alone!
Aiims dehi sirf dost banane k liye nhi hai our na hi Fest celebrate krne k liye h.... Ye sab to local college me bhi ho jata h
Aiims INDIA ke BEST DOCTOR ban ne k liye hai
Aap BEST DOCTOR BANIYE
fir apko kisi k piche nhi jana pdega duniya apke piche bhagegi. ❤
i can relate to this also in 11th and 12th now
initially no one used to talk to me in coaching as i am not from that place and i also ignored chattering because of my low scores in exams....but after 1 year in 12th i score the highest that helped me too much to boost my confidence
I am a neet aspirant from kota.. And I'm already alone....i can relate to almost everything she said... I didn't make any frndz here...don't feel like talking to even one person cuz....feels less confident and I do feel lonely many atimes ( it's just me my books,my room and lonely nights) And I know sometimes how much it takes from you to stay happy like this....(these emotions and feelings can't be put in words)
Knowing this from u that even in your college life you felt this just wanna say
*she's really strong!!* ❤🌸
You are brave 👏👏nobody ever shares such sides, usually medicos share the ideal, vague side. It really takes A LOT to express these things 👏👏👏 thankyou ❤️
Till class 8th I had only one close friend of mine coz same reason I am also a loner and I don't enjoy involving myself with every kinda ppl. But from class 9th my school was changed and I never had that tipical school memories and school life that mostly people usually do. 4 years from class 9th till my 12th I used to sit alone, eat alone, only used to to exchange hi..hellos with my classmates while others were grouping n having fun. At the start I used to feel hella lonely all the time but right now I m so used to it that I am chill with all this now. I m currently preparing for neet and if my college life would also be the same that I would have to a loner than I will be chill with that also..I don't expect it to be like what everyone generally gets..So don't worry You R Not Alone..
PS :- being lonely is sad..but being Alone is powerful 😇
In my mbbs life graduated 3 yrs ago....eventhough we have phone and internet access but most of time we did was community activities like games,tv room,mess etc etc...so we never have lonliness....but now mostly girls prefer to form groups or phone centric life.....this is unhealthy
Soo honest yaar Loved it ♥️
It happens everywhere we have to deal with it. You automatically connect with people of same vibes same background or similar nature
I'm an neet ug aspirant currently in 12th. The clg I've ever wanted didn't actually turn out the way I visualized it. There's a foundation batch in our clg which they call "aiims batch" and we are regular batch. Actually our clg has 8 state board divisions and 1 cbse division.( I'm in cbse div) at first when I discovered this class system oh lord I was completely shattered in pieces. As if everything is collapsing. But today, I wouldn't want my life to be any different. I don't want to be in that aiims division. My class is just perfect. The friendships I made here, I'm sure will last long. What I want to tell you from my story is, trust the universe. You really don't know what plans it holds.
She is not satisfied even after getting Aiims 🤣🤣🤣🤣
My condition is much worse being in a college with zero friend and ultimate loneliness
After going through the comment section i can it's not only me but everyone is facing difficulties with their friends during NEET prep. My story goes like I'm actually a chill person who is friendly with everyone but i will share my thoughts and story to only my best friend who was with me for 14 years. After 10th we both chose different major but somehow we stayed connected. But after i start prep for NEET everything is upside down. She starts to make new friends, college life etc etc.... and yeah she is contacting me sometimes but it feels like the old connection thing is gone. I will be waiting for her msgs and calls since i like to share everything to her but our call ends with 10 mints of talk (it will after 3 mnths and like that and only 10 mnts, we used to talk like shit whenever we call but,..) . I feel like its somewhat communication problem or something and i don't know the other side story , so i will save this year from talking about it and after my NEET i will talk about it to her and make a wise decision. Maybe due to the distance we maybe falling apart and it's common thing to happen, if we want to end this we will have good ending and if she want a break i will wait until everything. So to my aspirant fellows we have to stay strong time's like this and stay focused. You are not alone who is going through this kinda stuffs, so prepare mentally and if we overcome all this difficulties our life will be better. Someone better will be waiting for in any point of our life. And the years of friendship or any relationship doesn't matters because we have to chose with whoever we feel comfortable. We don't know the other side story , maybe they are too trying hard to keep it but couldn't feel the comfortable anymore its not their mistake and not anyone's. Its that how life will be.
its long😅,so if anyone read it till here ALL THE BEST ❤
Omg u r soo true. I had similar feelings when I changed my school in 11 this year.I felt so alone that I joined Allen which I never wanted previously 😭😭
Are u ok there now
@@RASHMIAIIMSDELHI1722 I actually did Not want to take science after 10 but my parents like typical indian parents did Not let me take humanities.😔😔
but now I'm actually enjoying Allen .I made few friends and teachers there are way cooler than any typical school.
@@Sagar-dj1ef shi mei bhai mene socha tha commerce lunga ca ki prep karunga
Mere gharwalo ne science dila diya 😭😭
U will not believe I changed my subject 4 times in school
@@Hmx_mrx bro I get u.parents should be jailed for shoving their expectation to children fr.my metal health would be 100 times better if I were able to choose what to study 😩😩
Usually we are live in a world where people like to be more extroverted. And we introverts gets a little more time to process the whole thing to connect them
Yeah exactly
Aiim to babut chota hai compares to aisa's biggest campus IMS BHU (my dream capmus, literally the best exposure)...be happy i can feel your pain...and can relate too, hate this topper grouping and all and many more
Thanks for showing reality
Really needed now🙂
Lots of love
Totally relatable ..every medical students story 🥲
Thank you for being so REAL and Genuine♥️♥️
This is my first comment on youtube because i can't stop myself to express my feeling . jab bhi akele rahta hu ek loneliness satane lagti he or pata nahi me apni feeling kisi ko bata nahi pata , bus aapko bata raha tha kyoki app mujhe nahi jante . Bus itna kahana chahata hu ki situations badal sakti he . If we start enjoy any possible moment of life. Request you to stay happy 😊 😃 .
Ykw i can clearly see you were holding your up so tightly to not cry... Because eventually these things does affects your mental health... And it's one of the main reason why medical student get into depression... And i am extremely proud of you that you have faced it all along with spreading positivity.. while you were facing some horrible things... I wish everyone and everything thing which went away from you.. comes to you in many folds 💕.. you recieve abundance of love fame and power ilysm Rashmi di... You've always been my motivation tho I live in Delhi and so many times i feel an urge to meet you. 🥺I really want to meet you. But before this happens I want to reflect back the positivity you've given to me and to thousands of kids like me.. ❤️ 🧿 keep shining there's a lot to overcome .. and miles to cross may god bless you with extreme power 💕🧿
Wow, thanks for your grateful msg
@@karinapal780 pagol naki....mbbs is far beyond from your thought ..... 1st year e giye pass korar jonno sobai lorai Kore...ar tumi tar saathe neet porar Kotha vabcho.....🤣 Very funny 😂 dekha gelo ager year er theke kome gelo number 🤣
@@jeetpodder8947 unnecessary 😑
@@RASHMIAIIMSDELHI1722rankers r not rankers anymore.. aryan raj from your batch got 397 in neet pg and 104 in inicet.
Being in 2nd year......I can also totally relate and have suffered the same.......the groupism.....the toxicity and at the end we r left alone by just one two close friends.
Sometimes just instead of all those facility and stuffs we need a single genuine person who understands our shit whats going in our life and doesn't motivate but stays there and there always........I have really a good friend whom I can talk whole day and still feel more to do......and that's what friendship is
I can feel it cause for neet 2022 i got isolated from everyone except one of my bestie who's also prep with me and i used to talk less with my family members even with my mom it was my 3rd drop...i failed cause for this time i really studied consistently 6-7 hours from January to july 17 😅 for now I switched my interest in another thing cause i have accepted sometimes a perticular thing can't be for you may be you are made for another great thing 😃👍
what are you doing instead of medical now
Good luck in everything you'll do! ✨
@@JodioJoestar-gy8eo I'm doing bsc for now...long journey ahead :)
@@silverheadlines thankyou 😊🤝
@@bickyplease best of luck for your journey ahead.
Don't loose hope.. you have already achieved a lot.. getting into AIIMS is a dream of many.. you r already a champion.. and try to make a senior friend who can guide you (who himself or herself a good person).
Well said Rashmi! Everybody is unique in their own way. So never think U are less than anyone else. Keep going!!❤️❤️
This is one of the main reasons why I don't want to study medicine in India. There's just a lot of groupism and stress which causes students to loose their true self.
Rashmi, Whenever you feel left out or incompetent just remember that you are in a college a lot of kids dream about and it's you who made into AIIMS by your hard work. It takes a lot to even get into such colleges and you've got it so be proud of yourself ❤
It's everywhere...
If you think there's no groupism in foreign colleges, you are wrong.
@@SIDRA-hw2tf they have it the most.. and also bullying
@@SIDRA-hw2tf true but they also focus more on extracurricular activities, clubs etc. Rashmi mentioned rank holders forming a group, which is fine, but it's sad how it's determined where u stand solely on ur academics. But in foreign countries, they atleast have clubs etc which u can join as per ur interest and form a friend circle based on that which I think is amazing to have.
Want more from uh rashmi di...please sharing ur experiences it will help us a lot
Yaa it's true👀👀🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺, i am in ...AIIMS Rishikesh....and i am as also habitual to read everything...and now i literally can't understand that how to study just importants before the exams🥺🥺🥺.
In which year of mbbs r u di ?
How much did you score to get aiims rishikesh?
Ma’am I m in MAMC first year and during my NEET PREp I always used to wonder that my college life will be hell beautiful , today it’s not like that I don’t do fun and all but deep inside I don’t really enjoy it and I feel a huge load that how will these 5 years pass. I really don’t feel good about my college life.
Egg role kha aao
Ay you're strong than most of those fakes
Great video!! So true and absolutely relatable. Glad someone had the courage to share their experience, Hats off Rashmi!!!
Daily I learn new about medical life.... And i get tense that what will be life and then I just want to leave neet preparation due to depression of all these things
never ever someone came from the limelight and really shared the struggle of studying at elite schools
Dii u are someone special and I can feel ur emotions even though I have not gone through 😍stay strong and more power to u 💪👍😍luv u dii
Rashmi Di , I'm a first year Student at AGARTALA GOVT. MEDICAL COLLEGE . I'm following you since 2020 and here I'm finally into a medical college ...
Somehow your journey , your experiences , motivation and thoughts keep me going throughout that NEET phase .You always been an Inspiration for me . It was and It is still my dream to meet u as I live in Delhi but after getting college in Tripura ..I'm residing here ...but still I wish and I hope that one day I would get a chance to meet my one of Inspiration who taught me in so many ways to how to deal everything .
Everytime I feel connected to you and even after getting into a college I connected here with every sort of thing u said in the video and I have my 2nd internals exams and you rightly said that we study just before the exam but how to study nd pass before the exam that is a thing for me to handle right now as I was habitual of reading everything.
But Thankyou you made me realize that yes it can be done !!
I am always been grateful to you and hoping that I would meet you one day !!❤
Thanks alot , you are a part of my Journey because of whom I'm here in a medical college😊😇
So I wanted to Thank you...Thankyou Rashmi Dii !!❤😇
Congratulations Anjali! I’m first year psychiatry pg resident doctor in Agartala GMC! Feel to connect if you feel lost or anything!!! MBBS is like a war of its own!! Keep good care of yourself!! @an.any.a❤
@@RubiscoTalks Thankyou !❤ Delighted to see this comment . Definitely looking forward to connect with you mam ! 😊❤
@@KrustyKrab1166 I don't understand Bengali ! Sorry .
I want to add more that I never saw someone to explain in such an honest way you did dii...Amazing
You will get everything you love di
I pray to Allah.
I got 690 this year, I'm very sad because i won't get AIIMS Delhi 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔
@Facts & Truths Of Nature i got into JIPMER Pondicherry. I'm happy now and I've decided to move past the fact that i didn't get AIIMS Delhi 😌
This how my life is everyday I'm a 3rd year mbbs student, every day I wake up with no motivation and I feel terrible, i expected alot about mbbs college life, but here the college life entirely different it is not even near to expectations, I feel everyday to quit college but i can't because I'm from a lower middle class background i don't know what to do even if I dropout, and I see my engineering friends enjoyed their college and got out with a high paying jobs which makes me feel terrible because I should complete my mbbs and should again compete for residency and my motivation is zero , man the journey is real hell.
Now I found a person who can guide me towards the right path...... Brother pls help me ...... I'm confused from last 3 months...... The fact is ..... " This year I cleared JEE mains exam and getting nits / IIITs and jadavpur university through wbjee ...... And back on the mind I'm thinking of taking a drop for neet only because stability in future ...... I still don't know should I take drop or not..... I'm very much confused and scrolling videos like this for a perfect desicion...... I'm from a lower middle class family ...... Financial background is very weak 🤧
I have also pressure that my mbbs friends who got selected this year...... They will become rich 🥲 and I will be thrown from my friend circle ......Al ready I have lost my peer group
I'm doing MBA and i get it. The clg life..ppl really romanticize the heck out of it, but that's not true for some of us. I never really vibed much with other ppl. Sure i'll engage in the small talks but nothing deeper than that. I've my school circle still entact and the way i connect with them is so different and real.
well i just have 2 more semesters to go which are roughly like 6-7 months.
Don't quit, we'll manage somehow.
Let's navigate through this boring & frustating chapter of our life together!
Such a real and relatable perspective !
The best thing is...ki jb hm khud realise kar lete hain ki hamare andar kami kya hai....and us par work out krte hain...then things become meaningful..kudos to you and all the best... won't go in details ...bt you know what i mean
This is kinda so true . There are some type of people who love to build connections and bonds but without any supportive environment they just couldn't.
I'm litterly feeling this right now I'm taking a drop for neet 23 . And unawarely got apart from my best friend and all others. Sometimes it hurts like hell that don't know how to talk someone even though you're an extrovert in past 😔
Same man all school frnds r gone and u are literally all alone still chasing ur dreams thinking clg life will be atleast fun lekin kahi pe bhi u aren't really happy unless you learn to be ur own best friend.... ❤️
Same here....i lost my whole group of 5 besties...now they don't even tell me when and where they meet🥺i just see status pics....
@@isha5412 one of the best thing I have heard was you are responsible for your own happiness. They day you let go of the fact that others will make you happy is the day you will feel relieved. And as you said you need to be your own best friend ♥
@@isha5412 Selection Hua ?
We are very happy at here JLNMCH bhagalpur ...everyone is happy here 😊😊we enjoy we study we have very good friends also and college life is chill here ...we do everything we wish to 😊😊
Relatable. Hostel life made me realize the importance of mental health
Wasting half your life studying just to be unhappy is a very sad position to be in
Our lives on this earth is short and fill those with memories of good and bad
Don't try to regret anything you do in your deathbed that would be the most precious gift of life
Thousands of doctors, lawyers, engineers,lecturers,politicians will come and go no one will be remembered....
u r not alone we are with u have a big family diiiidii
Much more power to you di..
I wish a very happy and cheerful life for you. May god bless you.❤❤
I relate to everything you said. And funnily I am sitting alone in my hostel room of my medical college too.
Same thing is happening with me also...When I was in class 8 in school I became very busy in studying studying and studying... Jo bhi krenge chuttiyon me ...lekin tb friends hi nhi the ....I am missing my school days 🥺 because that type of enjoy Maine nhi Kiya only due to study....ha ye sahi hai ki mere tb ke teachers ko bahut proud hai mere upr but for me there is no fun memories to remind 🥺🥺🥺
It's fine. I know listening to everyone else around you talking about their memories from school life makes you feel bad, and trust me, it's the same for me. Not that I don't have memories or I didn't have friends, but a lot of negativity is what I have in my memories, which makes me look back at my life and wonder why all these memories feel like "this is not what I wanted." But if you look closely, life is giving you another chance because you've realised maybe you should've enjoyed your life a little more and now you can because it's not bad that you were studying when everyone else was having fun. It's going to help you in the future, but if you feel bad about not having fun, then do it now so that when you look back in 4-5 years, you don't feel the same way you are feeling right now. Growing up and learning things is what matters, not what you were in your past, so work on making yourself better in every way. You've got a whole life to explore, make mistakes, and learn, so do it while you can.
Sorry, I know it's a long message, but I felt like saying all this because I too feel the same way, but I've understood that it's a crime to grow up in ages but not grow up mentally, emotionally, and in every other way possible. Also, apologies for any mistakes.
@@ayushiraj8750 really thank you so much for appreciating me and understanding my problem ...it's very grateful to listen ur solution...
@@Sanskruti2004 you're always welcome 😀
Hello dii....yaa di I can connect what you said... I mean literally it's exactly what I have felt...but as you are a singer you know you're going to be joyful soon....love you dii ❤️❤️❤️
don't depressed mam please,be strong 🙏
THEEE NAMEEEE DRRR RASHMI SHARMAA ISSS ENOUGHHH FORRR USSS......
Can completely relate. Been there, felt that 💯
So much Attraction to mbbs is the most overrated thing I've ever seen..
I myself attempted neetug 2 times..
According to me the most important thing in life is you to be truely happy and satisfied..but if during neet prep and in mbbs course all you are getting is sadness and loneliness even after grinding so much ..then what's the use of everything. .nothing ..I've seen my bcom friends happily enjoying their lives ..moral of the story--no course is more important than your happiness ! So if you are an aspirant and you are isolating yourself ..please don't ..don't stress out yourself if not mbbs there is this whole beautiful world waiting for you..!! BE HAPPY
I cracked JEE and wbjee this year and am getting nits /IIITs and jadavpur university in west Bengal......and also thinking to take a drop for NEET 2023......btw I'm a fresher..... I don't know why my mind fluctuates into mbbs ...... I Still don't know what should I choose.......
@@jeetpodder8947 it happens when you have other option so if you really want to you can try neet as well but somelike like me who never though about anything else apart from being a doctor or to be precise my family never let me to think about any other field it's not their fault i enjoyed science and biology in initial days and my interest toward surgery and biology increased so i mylself submerged into this medical field ocean and i was happy and even today i don't regret this desicion but i am all alone in this journey during these 2 prep years i have no friends , family barely talk to me , no cousin support, i don't even use social media all this just make me left out from this world .
@@spike.xx_ Don't know why I'm getting some emotional reading your comment 🥲btw I'm an aspirant (not anymore) i thought mbbs is not my cup of tea so I just left it and now will give my 100% in anything that I choose🤞🏻
@@deepthigoud8545 well wished for your future do whatever you like just don't forget you have this life too enjoy it and give your 100% in work as well these years won't come back so don't regret after years.. 🤝
@@deepthigoud8545 I too was an neet aspirant but not anymore I decided to choose other courses
Thanks for speaking ur heart out…much love to you❤❤
I m first yr MBBS student from Pakistan... watching ur video,I literally feel as if u stole my feelings... honestly Didi exactly same is here ... loneliness, depressed regarding syllabus and countless other problems... others around us( outside clj) imagine us to be most lucky ( yes we are lucky), but not happy as we expected to be ...
Anyways, now I realize that it's ok if no one want to befriend us ... now I m back to my track ...I tried enough to be social but all in vein ...
Plz Didi guide me through MBBS... how to study smart? ...when to study smart and when to study hard.? How to retain knowledge...I ask u to share the mistakes that makes u regret today...I wanna and can definitely be a successful doctor...
@Nonconform876 oo bhai, kashmir, India me hai
Heyy hii same happening with me. I am first yr student it's been 2 months I didn't open book and didn't sleep at night because of the environment. No one literally no one talk with me in class. I am assuming u completed your 1st year. Let's talk anf guide me. I gone into depression because of my roommate everyone gave her value and she is knowledgable and I am with zero knowledgable knew nothing like nothing so please help me.here my mother shifted with me came from 200km and shifted with me so I could survive. But every day is getting difficult. I don't feel like going college and studying a bit
hey dii ! be strong we all with you
Dii pls share your whole experience with uss....... literally want to know it.... thank you so much diduuuu ♥️💯
Really appreciate the way you expressed yourself ❣️
Thanks for sharing your experience di
di aap is type ke experience ki video plz zroor or bnao
bcz we connects you and jo mistake aap se hui fir kbhi vo hmse na ho plzzz
Best video of telling bitter ignored truth , proud of you 👍👍🙏🙏💛💛