I’m so proud of you! I’m a preschool teacher and I love it. No children of my own, so I get my fill. Beauty & makeup has always been my true passion. I’m 40& I don’t feel as if things are too late, but proud of you for doing your part in following your heart! Thinking all good vibes for you! ❤
Kait, thanks so much for sharing you story and your life path. I was a music major in conservatory too. My studio teacher at the time told me “I would be best in a typical 9-5 role.” As someone who also deals with sensitivity in my abilities, that has always stayed with me. Today, I'm in my mid-twenties. I incorporate music into all aspects of my life, but I’m not a full-time performer. I also came from an upbringing of living in poverty, and I have the same confrontation with financial stability. I work a minimum of 65 hours a week in my full time arts administration job, teaching music, and my part time gig in the arts, performing in several ensembles nights and weekends, but it’s not that full time career in the performing arts that I imagined for myself. Right now, I’m also considering “blowing my life up,” to actually have time to pursue what I know deep down I’m capable of. It was encouraging and uplifting to hear another story that is similar to mine, thanks for sharing-pursue what your gut is telling you! I’ll be right there with you.
Thank you for sharing your diagnosis. My best friend has EDS and I have psoriatic arthritis, OA, and RA as well as a bunch of other crap. Living life with chronic illnesses is difficult, and it is so great to see you doing so many things and not letting your EDS limit you! Loved you before, love you more now!♥️♥️
I’m a huge supporter of space in relationships! My partner and I both have quality time as a big love language but we’re also both pretty independent people. Since we don’t live together, we have a lot of time apart but it makes us really treasure time we have together. We also enjoy just doing our own thing even when together - separate hobbies, interests, etc. I’ll read outside, he’ll be on his laptop inside. That way we don’t have to limit ourselves to only what the other person feels up to doing at that moment
I really truly hope the radio thing goes spectacularly! I’m so happy you’re following your passions. No matter how things pan out, you’re pointing your feet and taking steps in the direction of your North Star. Also, I think both backgrounds are lovely. A little shadow never hurt anybody 😁
Totally hear you on the alone time especially regarding not watching what you want to watch or listen to when they’re in the room. It’s been rough since covid working from home together and I have found that since spending more time in office or away from each other a little, it’s actually really nice in the evening to REconnect since we aren’t “connected” all day long.
Sending you lots of love, it takes so much courage to actually follow your passion for music and your creative side despite having a full-time corporate career. And please don’t ever stop doing TH-cam, I love both your personal and beauty channel so much, and I think most people watching your videos would agree with me that you’ve created something very special here, a beauty community that is more critical and strives away from massive consumerism, and also a community with people suffering from invisible disabilities. ❤️ Hope that your radio thing works out, that’d be super exciting!
That means so much to me. I freaking LOVE my community here and I wish I could meet all of you in person. I definitely won't stop posting on my channels, I just might not be able to post as frequently.
Lots of radio stations let you on the air if you test well AND *sell x amount of ads each month.* You can probably become a DJ more easily than you realize, if you move to a bigger market. Great idea doing an apprenticeship, but do not underestimate the value of a successful background in sales. You've already got a Golden Ticket, don't be afraid to leverage it.
Really enjoyed this video!! I love that you are growing in confidence, and really getting to know your true self, and facing your fears. Hoping this meeting went well, but I'm sure it did!!
I'm so excited for you! My partner is a lifelong hip hop musician, but he got his start in radio similar to you, volunteering at a small local station. From there he was able to get an overnight gig at one of the biggest stations up here (kexp) and now has a daily show and a management position. It's been great for him because it has kept music in his life every day and supported a lot of his music career as he gets older and can't do the traditional tour life like he used to (we're in our forties). Best of luck on your journey!
i was mesmerized by your earrings the whole time!! you’re inspiring me to blow my life up a little bit too and not let fear control my life so i really appreciate hearing your pov (:
I've had a similar situation myself. I dove into academia after my bachelor's at the urge of my peers because I did well but fell into anxiety-depression when COVID hit. After getting out of academia, went down the corporate path for a few years and just left around my 30th birthday. Corporate life isn't just for me. Medicine has always been at the back of my mind because I need that personal interaction and fulfilment. Just started volunteering at a few places to build up my resume for further schooling in healthcare. Wishing you all the best in your creative passions!
I’m about ten years older than you are, and you are such an inspiration to me. The vulnerability you share, the work you’ve been doing on yourself, the way you advocate for your health, your honesty in product reviews-everything. I’m blowing up my life right now too, but I’m leaving my marriage and starting over to have the space to be myself. Thank you for sharing your journey so openly 🩷
Such a great video. I love and respect the hell out of your honesty. And I’ve been watching you for about a year I think ? And this is my absolute fave look from you - you look STUNNING!!!! Rapid fire: this background is much better imo, huge congrats on your revelations! , I loooooove your second channel, I feel most creative putting makeup on! It’s awesome starting the day just making all these colourful fabulous choices as I like to wear many types of looks depending on my mood. My quirkish fashion also makes me feel creative and I love to watercolour paint when I have time which is typically only in the summer (mom and teacher here). Sorry to blab on but you inspire me. All the good vibes to you!💛💛
Wondering if ukulele could help you get started into guitar a little easier! If you want one that sounds more like a guitar, you could get a baritone ukulele, I have one and it’s great! I also have a soprano and alto. They’re much lighter, smaller, and a little easier to play. I don’t have any trouble with fine motor skills, but I feel like ukulele could help you ease yourself into guitar. Obviously if you want to do guitar do that!!! I’m just throwing out ideas☺️ Sending you love and prayers🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
Good for you!!! I had a bad habit in relationships of compromising too much of the me stuff. It wasn't like they demanded it, I just had to find a better balance for myself. :)
Totally, I fall into the same traps. Jon fully encourages me to have alone time, but I always want to spend time with him so I have to force myself to do my own thing sometimes!
Hi Kait, it is unbelievable how much we have in common :) I am also in my mid thirties, in a committed relationship, not ready to mother anyone yet, crazy about music (as I studied Jazz singing when I was a late teen) never really pursued it as a career, instead I chose a stable job in advertising and I am also a beauty TH-camr (for about 8 years). There are some differences - I live in a capital of tiny European country and create my videos in my native language, which might be a slight disadvantage, but on the other hand I am quite fortunate in health and family department. Watching your videos makes me appreciate it even more. Some people might find you overconfident, but I think that your strength and confidence is very inspiring :)
Holy moly Kait this was an amazing video in such unexpectable ways! (Bear with me here as my enthusiasm is overflowing.) Despite us having very different lives, I found some specific aspects of your experiences super relatable. I share with you a love for music since a very young age. I've been playing guitar for more than 10 years, also write music occasionally and enjoy it, but am hesitant to share it online when I compare my work to other artists, and also due to my lack of knowledge in recording and production. I too have a corporate job, which engages me but has been somewhat exhausting recently. To pivot towards a more fulfilling career (unrelated to music, though), I'm pursuing an online part-time Master's degree, which has been equally if not more exhausting, but my husband is extremely supportive and that has helped so much. To me, the beauty of music lies in its omnipresence and infinite potential. I once dreamed of being a performer and songwriter, but the fear of falling out of love with it or failing held me back. Now, with a more manageable lifestyle post-college, I'm delving into music theory at my own pace. My progress over the last few years may be slow, but it's deeply rewarding since I'm still feeling artistic growth and fulfillment. I guess your playlist has been the same way to you this whole time you've been working on it. The way you talk about music is truly special and precious, and I honestly believe you're meant for something bigger in this industry. Your bravery to fully commit to your passion is truly inspiring, and your approach is honestly really smart and commendable. Best of luck with your KMUD project and your house-hunting journey. I look forward to staying updated on your journey, as long as you're willing to share :)
I’ve commented a couple times…but I just recently discovered you and I’ve binge-watched a lot of your videos. I love your personality. I’m really similar in a lot of ways and I feel like we’d be friends IRL haha. I just wanted to say I went through a VERY similar situation to what you describe, but with dance instead of musical theater. I have a different career too, but I still am a serious dancer! I hope you’re still making space to pursue your love of music, Kait!!
When I was 16, a psychological coach asked me what I wanted to be later in my life, and I replied "I want to sing and dance", to which he reacted somewhat angrily telling me to give a serious answer to his serious question. I couldn't come up with anything else, but it made me put off my dreams for more than 20 years. Fast forward: decades later I am in the music business now, not the way I had planned in my teens, but still. What I want to say is: if music is your passion, age is not going to extinguish that fire. You have every reason to be confident. 😘
Oh my gosh I was in biz dev sales for almost 4 years and I totally get it. I left the job to learn a new sphere that hopefully can be my passion job as sales job was so overwhelming and draining for me. Unfortunately the war started (I’m from Ukraine) and my plans were moved so I’m learning new skills only now so yeah… Anyway, thank you for sharing your experience and your thoughts. It’s amazing to follow your passions I hope everything will work out for you ❤ P.S I also shut in loud environments I think now after years of therapy it’s not the case, also just want to support the teen you that had to experience all that unpleasant stuff with people around you at that time.
I love music and love music writing, but there’s virtually no way to do it as a paying job (I primarily write in Italian and that’s the case for that at least). I also come from an academic background and the lack of job security has scarred me for life lol. I’ve since changed jobs and have stuck to writing for a small webzine - it’s an unpaid gig but a very lovely community of people you can geek out with, who are open to suggestions and let me write what I want and when I want it. I wish you the best!
Kait, I can wholeheartedly relate to your thoughts on sales/bus dev. Tactic A might work for me but not for others. Tactic B might work for other but it for me. I can name all night long. It’s very stressful as is, however, when there’s someone like your supervisor, you might as well just leave that place🤯 I’m rooting for your new journey!!
I love the window view but I also prefer more of the plant side, I easily get distracted so that’s my main reasoning. Love the video though and thanks for sharing your struggles, especially career choice. I myself have struggled to find my passion and how to get a job that fits those goals. ❤
Kait, I would love to hear you sing. So much of what you're saying resonates with my own life and how I feel. I went to school for vocal performance (opera and jazz). I ended up leaving it behind because of two profs that made me feel that if I wasn't music theory genius (TERRIBLE at math) that I could never have a true career as a performer. So F those profs and F your music theatre teacher! Of course I know now that that was absolute bullshit, but my 22 year old self lost her confidence. I miss music in my life so much. Like you, I don't like singing in front of my partner (husband) and it's almost like a part of my life that I hide away and it makes me sad. I truly hope that you find your creativity, spark and joy again. I'm also looking for mine. Side note: I am also tall and lost out on parts in musicals when I was teenager because of my height. #TallGirlMusicTheatreProblems
In Aug 2019 I travelled to LA to see one of my best friends. Just a 4 day getaway, and we spent 2 of them in Ojai. He wanted to take me to Carmel - he travels there a couple times a year by himself to have a getaway - but I just didn't have enough time. Ojai was a perfect alternative. We stopped a few times on the drive so my friend to could take photographs - so much agriculture as you said, but also on such a different scale from what I am used to (I live in Cleveland, OH). We walked around a lot, perused thrift stores, trespassed on someone's estate to enjoy a great view of the valley...visited a place that purports to have the best strawberry shortcake. Sorry to go on and on, but I hold my memories of that time very close to my heart. I hope your Ojai dreams come true!
I would recommend perhaps working for a record label! I interned at a label called topshelf records a while back and it totally blew up what I thought I knew about music / the perception I had of what it means to be "indie" music. there is so much good music out there!! getting to know indie labels is like having friends with incredible music taste and breadth in different genres. best of luck to you in your pursuits!
OMG - I always used to sing around my boyfriend - I just sing when I'm happy. Interestingly, towards the end of our relationship, he said it me, "you never sing anymore..." I hadn't even realized it - it was an indication of where I was in our relationship. Anyway - SING IN THE SHOWER!!!
Wow, that’s powerful. And I have been! My partner Jon said it meant a lot to him that I’ve finally started getting comfortable singing around him. It’s uncomfortable for me sometimes but he’s so supportive and complimentary, it makes me feel better
@@StateofKait I'm glad you are. Just let it be an expression of your joy and the pure fun of singing rather than worrying about key, transitions and hitting the hard notes!
1. 41. Hospice nurse 11 years now. Pisces ♓️. I feel this time my CORE. I have this feeling if needing to travel and not be in one spot. 2. Considering a TH-cam channel a out death and end of life issues and stuff. 3. I want to learn the violin. Always wanted to learn.
@@StateofKait I’m jealous!!! The violin 🎻 just so stunning! It sounds like you are so driven to fulfill what your passion/calling is!!! Which truly is courageous!!!
I'm a major electronic music fan. MAJOR. Excited to see Bayonne here in Chicago next month. He's a one-man band in the dreamy electronic space and I absolutely love him. He's at the Rickshaw in SF on 6/3. Check him out. For creativity, I've been a kitchenwares product designer for decades but looking for it to end (someday). I've been pursuing pottery (wheel and hand building) for about 7 years now and it continues to feed me, give me a no pressure outlet and a place to explore.
@@StateofKait btw, I was a chef for 25yrs (five yrs culinary school also) & although I was good at it, it was unfulfilling. I totally applaud you for taking a chance on what you're passionate about. That is so inspiring & beautiful 🫶
I share your frustration at work even though i'm not in Sales. I have more experience than the others in my team and i'm never "allowed" to use it. It's painful watching people blag it, fk it up but somehow receive praise for it. Lovely background and lovely, real content as always. Keep being you
Hi Kait, always enjoy your videos. Pardon my ignorance but if you are commissioned based, why would they lay you off? it doesn't cost them anything to keep you on. Thank you for sharing with us.
Oh they won't lay me off, I'm not worried about that. There are layoffs happening at our company and across the industry, which makes it difficult to drive sales since everyone is extra slammed and short staffed, and budgets are shifting like crazy. But my job is very secure, and I'm super grateful for that! And I do earn a salary as well, but commission is a huge portion of my income.
I can relate to so much of what you said about needing creative fulfillment from music. I taught myself to play guitar from watching TH-cam videos. You may want to look into a nylon string guitar. I believe they are easier to play.
As a Santa Barbaran, we think of Ojai as a hippie enclave - however, it does have a lot of eclectic offerings. Happy house hunting in this neck of the woods And come to the “big city” now and then (hahaha - although Santa Barbara is technically a city, it really is a small town)
Don’t have any music desires but had let fear stop me from going full throttle with modeling. I work in tech and love it. It’s what I went to school for but have truly felt my heart pounding for the desire to fulfill my passion. I’ve found other creative outlets like digital drawing and candle making which definitely is an amazing outlet but still want to fulfill that dream. I live in Texas but I’m from the Bay Area so it’s something I’m still figuring it out. I’m also 5”10 so I know the adolescent struggle of accepting my height, and everything else
I am so…glad? I don’t know the right word here but I am so…positive affirmation that you are trying with your mom. I remember when you wrote her the letter and wanted to go no-contact and it’s honestly so great that you both are meeting somewhere in some middle ❤❤❤
It was ok! Kind of awkward, but we were able to reach a compromise. I still don't feel respected but it's ok, you won't get along with everyone you work with.
Your hair has been looking so nice lately, bouncy or maybe. Did you get a different haircut or have you been styling it differently? I have the same hair textures you, and I have no idea how you get it to look so damn good.
I did try a new cut! Usually I get a blunt cut which helps with it looking fuller, but we did a blunt cut on the ends with some layers throughout to make it a little more shaggy
My brother is the most amazing guitar teacher!!! He started teaching over Zoom during the lockdown so my son started taking lessons! Let me know if you want to connect with him!!!! Good luck with the radio station gig!!! Let’s us know when you are on the air so we can listen! I’m going to share your Spotify with my husband. He literally knows almost every band out there and is a musician himself!
You love your dog so much so I think you should work with animals! Most singers can play guitar so be different - learn to play a ukulele. I did and it’s tons of fun. Then again, you are beautiful and know makeup so well that people should see you. Read these great books by Dr. Sonja Friedman “Smart Cookies Don’t Crumble” and/or “On a Clear Day You Can See Yourself”.
Oh my Gosh Kait I cannot stand when a superior does that to one of their employees. I have been dealing with that type of people in my workspace as well and unfortunately I did lose my job since this new management after being with the company for 10 years. It is just sad to see how a superior and/or company treats their employees, just because you report to them. I am sorry you are going through this type of stress. Hope the meeting went well. 🥰
Luckily I don’t report to her! We work together on a team, she’s just higher up than I am. We were able to find a compromise, but I don’t like having to constantly justify my opinion.
Career wise- high value fundraising/revenue development is one area of nonprofit work that can actually pay quite well. If you decide to look for a non-youtube job, good salespeople are desperately needed in arts organizations. Same problems as everywhere else, in terms of other roles not understanding revenue generation, but nicer environments & cause driven. It could be a way to get involved in 🎶 and use your highly valuable skills. A lot of arts groups would let you be the money maker and have a role in teaching or performing music. It's not a glamorous career but nonprofit fundraising is pretty great most of the time, vs what other people do all day.
Omg this is embarrassingly long, but you did prompt your artist subs to share, so here goes: I also have an MT past and can really relate to what you said about the toxicity, lack of stability, and even just singing in the shower-which is (in my case) so unwarranted bc my hubs is really supportive. I have a career as a documentary filmmaker now and a successful production company. Most of my time is spent consulting for bigger companies or being subcontracted cause that’s where the stability is. The most frequent compliment I get from folks after watching my work is about my music choices. (I’m also mid 30s and in that weird don’t want kids yet, wait but me space.) I love filmmaking and tolerate the consulting. It’s creative work, but I don’t sing or perform anymore. If I’m honest, I’m totally terrified to sing in front of an audience now, which is crazy bc I did for years and years. All that to give context to this-please don’t close the door on anything that makes your soul sing bc of age. My friend that I did several shows with just passed away, and he started singing again in his 50s and did over 100 shows before he died. I was sitting at his memorial service in this room of musicians and artists who were so greatly impacted by his joy and freedom that he got and gave through singing. You’re so proactive and have so much gumption, I bet you could take a masterclass, compose tracks in whatever genre is moving you at the time, and sell music on sites like artlist.io or even score something eventually or music supervise! When I pick tracks for a project, the only deciding factor is what’s coming through those speakers, the mix, the fit. Never have I ever looked at how old someone was or cared what they looked like, cause ya know- sound is queen. Just some food for thought. Congratulations on starting this transition and saying f*
Personally I don't look for fulfillment from my job. I get my salary from my work (which like well enough and find reasonably satisfying) and my creative outlet is my hobby, which is garment sewing. People are always saying I should sell my clothes and try to monetise it, but i have zero interest in doing that. I know for me that once I HAVE to do something I don't want to do it anymore, and if I had to rely on it for my income it would heap up the pressure and suck out all of the joy. My advice would be: pay the bills with a job you don't hate, and fill your own time with things that excite and engage you without sullying them with financial pressures.
I know, I didn't mean you were proposing to do that, I was just putting that perspective out there. My advice to the young people in general 😄 There is such a culture these days that monetary gain is the only metric that proves that a past time is of value; that something has to be worth money to be worthwhile. I hate that.
@@kathleenm.5086 I hate everything about the Bay: the people, the weather, the rent prices, the homogenous fashion, the culture (or lack thereof.) I find it has two communities: 1. OG bay area people who act like snobby hippies. 2. Boring tech people. Everyone in the Bay acts all woke, with 'black lives matter' signs in their windows, but those are the same people who have called the cops just because a black guy (who lives with us) was just innocently standing in our yard. It's just not the place for me. When I lived in Berkeley during the pandemic it was the most depressed I'd ever been. But to be clear - that's just my experience. I know you can't generalize a whole population. I hear that it used to be incredible before tech moved in and pushed all the artists out!
Hi Kait, long time subscriber here. was hoping to give a bit of feedback as I can see your video format is changing a bit. I miss the chatty (like this vid) videos or the ones where you were up close to the camera and were scrupulously reviewing a lip serum lol. I love the videos that were more personality forward and less quick review of many products style. Nowadays, when you talk about a product, you sometimes switch into "commercial-face" mode-it doesn't feel like you're all in it. All the other beauty TH-camrs showcase an endless amount of products and what I like about this channel is that it is more personality-forward. I miss that and hope you can incorporate more of those videos going forward. No hate, I absolutely love watching your videos and watch each one!
Thanks for the feedback! These are my favorites to film as well, they just don’t get good views so it feels like a waste of time. Feedback like this is helpful to know some people appreciate that content! Have you subscribed to my new personal channel? I’m posting life updates and chatty videos there ❤
@@marya4340 thanks! Truthfully, my audience on state of Kait doesn’t feel like a safe space for me. Even this video got a few negative comments and I’m just not apathetic enough to not let them bother me. That’s why I’ve done less personal videos here. I know for a fact that some people subscribe to me here and on Instagram just to hate-watch me, but they don’t do it on my personal channel
I'm in nonprofit marketing, and 💯 same. I have a "that girl" too, super knowledgeable in her area of expertise, but has wacky, incorrect, pie in the sky, assumptions about promotion & revenue development. But even my fave colleagues forget that I have specialized knowledge and experience. I have a similar degree to theirs (I'm in historic preservation & tourism), but bitches, I have 20 years experience actually making money. I can make them loads of money to do the things they want, but they keep thinking that their brainstorms are gold and they do not even remotely understand ROI. Omg lol, sorry, I have a lot of pent up frustration, these bitches won't listen (if you all somehow see this, you know I love u anyway lol) or they give my input the same weight as everyone else's. I defer to them on aesthetics and all sorts of things, they get so much dignity & respect thru my marketing program, but they will not admit that I know how to make money better than they do. Even tho they are so happy that our events always get people and they get loads of positive attention cuz I get them on TV and in the paper constantly, they don't always quite get that I'm not just lucky lol.
I've been on a big Muna and boygenius kick since you talked about them in your Coachella video, thank you! Your theater teacher was a bitch. No mincing words. Is State of Kait a bad radio show name? I really know nothing about them. Would you ever consider sharing your music with people?
Babe❤ just have a TV in multiple spaces for a a start😅 my partner and I are so cushy cushy and comfortable together at 22 yrs😮 that we now just end up yelling 'Love You'!! from different rooms😂 while he's watching Anime and I'm watching ..well you tube tbh 😊 You must have me time ❤ he would like it as much most likely 😊
@@julielongmakeup I don’t shy away from growth just because someone is hard! I’d get nothing accomplished if I shied away from things that are difficult.
❤Kait❤ I enjoy your makeup videos and product reviews etc. Just my opinion but I wouldn't be so quick to bemoan the fact that you're not in some facet of the high powered music industry. I wonder if you're aware of the very bad things that go on in the shadows. Things that are covered up but that are now being disclosed. Many lives are damaged or even lost from being associated with the dark side that comes from the commercial music or entertainment industry. The glitz and glam is only the attractive outer cover-up. It's gone on for far too long and thankfully brave whistleblowers are coming forward to expose all the injustices and yes criminal behavior. Hopefully justice will follow and responsible parties will be held accountable to the full extent of the law. Music is one thing but the horrors occurring within that industry are quite another. I wish you could acquire some nice land and become an organic farmer or at least gardener. People love eating locally grown food and it's much healthier. Oh and the window view is a very nice touch. Maybe you can ask the Lord to help make your decisions for you. 🙏 Thanks if you read this comment. 🌷❤😄
@@StateofKait I know people who've been in the business and left. I also have seen plenty of video and picture proof -- interviews of children that you cannot unsee or unhear. It's sad that you're not aware because unlike me you're healthy and young enough to be able to help. Whether you think it's true or not --- does not change facts.
@@StateofKait Yes that's true I'm not arguing that. Maybe you'll do that and be fortunate and unscathed and protected by God. And I hope you also at least get a few chickens for your land. You're fortunate, I've never had that opportunity. 🐥🐤🐣🐔 I wish you the best, and didn't mean to dash your dreams. Only saying that maybe you were till now kept away for a reason we don't know? It is possible . . that's all I was saying. 🌷
@@blackdiamond5507 I’ve encountered darkness in every industry I’ve worked in, and I’ve come to learn that living your life based on fear really isn’t living at all. I have no desire to become a gardener or own chickens lol, that is not me.
I think I’m totally missing the point here, but I love love love boygenius so I absolutely relate to you on that point 😂 If you ever want to make videos about them I’ll be down for it 🫣😭
"Beauty doesn't fulfill me in the way that music does." I love this idea, and I am proud of you for saying this on a beauty channel.
Thank you!
I’m so proud of you! I’m a preschool teacher and I love it. No children of my own, so I get my fill. Beauty & makeup has always been my true passion. I’m 40& I don’t feel as if things are too late, but proud of you for doing your part in following your heart! Thinking all good vibes for you! ❤
Kait, thanks so much for sharing you story and your life path. I was a music major in conservatory too. My studio teacher at the time told me “I would be best in a typical 9-5 role.” As someone who also deals with sensitivity in my abilities, that has always stayed with me. Today, I'm in my mid-twenties. I incorporate music into all aspects of my life, but I’m not a full-time performer.
I also came from an upbringing of living in poverty, and I have the same confrontation with financial stability. I work a minimum of 65 hours a week in my full time arts administration job, teaching music, and my part time gig in the arts, performing in several ensembles nights and weekends, but it’s not that full time career in the performing arts that I imagined for myself.
Right now, I’m also considering “blowing my life up,” to actually have time to pursue what I know deep down I’m capable of. It was encouraging and uplifting to hear another story that is similar to mine, thanks for sharing-pursue what your gut is telling you! I’ll be right there with you.
You can do it!
Thank you for sharing your diagnosis. My best friend has EDS and I have psoriatic arthritis, OA, and RA as well as a bunch of other crap. Living life with chronic illnesses is difficult, and it is so great to see you doing so many things and not letting your EDS limit you! Loved you before, love you more now!♥️♥️
Thanks, Kathy. I have a big video about the impacts of chronic illness on my channel, you might find that validating! Sending gentle hugs.
Hi everyone, happy Sunday! I got a few questions about the makeup I wore in my anti-haul video, so this is the full look for ya!
I’m a huge supporter of space in relationships! My partner and I both have quality time as a big love language but we’re also both pretty independent people. Since we don’t live together, we have a lot of time apart but it makes us really treasure time we have together. We also enjoy just doing our own thing even when together - separate hobbies, interests, etc. I’ll read outside, he’ll be on his laptop inside. That way we don’t have to limit ourselves to only what the other person feels up to doing at that moment
I love that!
I reckon State of Kait for your radio show is a great name! Then it all links together
That could work!
I like seeing the little bit of darkness because we are in all kinds of light at all times.
I know you meant the actual physical lighting, but this deeply affected me in a metaphorical way :)
I really truly hope the radio thing goes spectacularly! I’m so happy you’re following your passions. No matter how things pan out, you’re pointing your feet and taking steps in the direction of your North Star. Also, I think both backgrounds are lovely. A little shadow never hurt anybody 😁
Thank you!
Totally hear you on the alone time especially regarding not watching what you want to watch or listen to when they’re in the room. It’s been rough since covid working from home together and I have found that since spending more time in office or away from each other a little, it’s actually really nice in the evening to REconnect since we aren’t “connected” all day long.
Totally agree
Sending you lots of love, it takes so much courage to actually follow your passion for music and your creative side despite having a full-time corporate career. And please don’t ever stop doing TH-cam, I love both your personal and beauty channel so much, and I think most people watching your videos would agree with me that you’ve created something very special here, a beauty community that is more critical and strives away from massive consumerism, and also a community with people suffering from invisible disabilities. ❤️
Hope that your radio thing works out, that’d be super exciting!
That means so much to me. I freaking LOVE my community here and I wish I could meet all of you in person. I definitely won't stop posting on my channels, I just might not be able to post as frequently.
Singing literally massages your own heart❤
no wonder it feels so good!
As an introvert, your experience with loving/being burned by theatre is very similar to mine.
I'm sorry you relate :/ It's such a bummer
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I hope the call went well. Be true to your heart….your heart knows.
Loved to hear your thoughts, Kait.
And loved all the lip option swatches, too 😘
Hi Kait, I think the background looks good, very cozy. Love your content. ❤
Thank you so much!
Lots of radio stations let you on the air if you test well AND *sell x amount of ads each month.* You can probably become a DJ more easily than you realize, if you move to a bigger market. Great idea doing an apprenticeship, but do not underestimate the value of a successful background in sales. You've already got a Golden Ticket, don't be afraid to leverage it.
Thanks!
AAAAAH this video was the push that I needed!
Yay! You can do it!!!
Really enjoyed this video!! I love that you are growing in confidence, and really getting to know your true self, and facing your fears. Hoping this meeting went well, but I'm sure it did!!
I'm so excited for you! My partner is a lifelong hip hop musician, but he got his start in radio similar to you, volunteering at a small local station. From there he was able to get an overnight gig at one of the biggest stations up here (kexp) and now has a daily show and a management position. It's been great for him because it has kept music in his life every day and supported a lot of his music career as he gets older and can't do the traditional tour life like he used to (we're in our forties). Best of luck on your journey!
Thank you! KEXP is the dream! It's so cool that your partner has been able to pursue two different music careers, that's really inspiring.
i was mesmerized by your earrings the whole time!! you’re inspiring me to blow my life up a little bit too and not let fear control my life so i really appreciate hearing your pov (:
They're from Ana Luisa but they don't make them anymore I don't think :/
And thank you! You can do it!
Really happy for you Kait, and this was really inspiring! Thanks for sharing. And I hope your work meeting went really well 💓💓
Thanks, Sarah!
I've had a similar situation myself. I dove into academia after my bachelor's at the urge of my peers because I did well but fell into anxiety-depression when COVID hit. After getting out of academia, went down the corporate path for a few years and just left around my 30th birthday. Corporate life isn't just for me. Medicine has always been at the back of my mind because I need that personal interaction and fulfilment. Just started volunteering at a few places to build up my resume for further schooling in healthcare.
Wishing you all the best in your creative passions!
That’s amazing, good for you!
I’m about ten years older than you are, and you are such an inspiration to me. The vulnerability you share, the work you’ve been doing on yourself, the way you advocate for your health, your honesty in product reviews-everything.
I’m blowing up my life right now too, but I’m leaving my marriage and starting over to have the space to be myself. Thank you for sharing your journey so openly 🩷
You're amazing, proud of you for doing the hard thing to put yourself first
OMG Yessss you got the Brown Fig!!! 🎉
IT IS SO GOOD
Hey! I hope the work meeting went well! You’re appreciated here, that’s for sure!
Such a great video. I love and respect the hell out of your honesty. And I’ve been watching you for about a year I think ? And this is my absolute fave look from you - you look STUNNING!!!! Rapid fire: this background is much better imo, huge congrats on your revelations! , I loooooove your second channel, I feel most creative putting makeup on! It’s awesome starting the day just making all these colourful fabulous choices as I like to wear many types of looks depending on my mood. My quirkish fashion also makes me feel creative and I love to watercolour paint when I have time which is typically only in the summer (mom and teacher here). Sorry to blab on but you inspire me. All the good vibes to you!💛💛
Loved this! ❤
Wondering if ukulele could help you get started into guitar a little easier! If you want one that sounds more like a guitar, you could get a baritone ukulele, I have one and it’s great! I also have a soprano and alto. They’re much lighter, smaller, and a little easier to play. I don’t have any trouble with fine motor skills, but I feel like ukulele could help you ease yourself into guitar. Obviously if you want to do guitar do that!!! I’m just throwing out ideas☺️ Sending you love and prayers🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
Good for you!!! I had a bad habit in relationships of compromising too much of the me stuff. It wasn't like they demanded it, I just had to find a better balance for myself. :)
Totally, I fall into the same traps. Jon fully encourages me to have alone time, but I always want to spend time with him so I have to force myself to do my own thing sometimes!
Hi Kait, it is unbelievable how much we have in common :) I am also in my mid thirties, in a committed relationship, not ready to mother anyone yet, crazy about music (as I studied Jazz singing when I was a late teen) never really pursued it as a career, instead I chose a stable job in advertising and I am also a beauty TH-camr (for about 8 years). There are some differences - I live in a capital of tiny European country and create my videos in my native language, which might be a slight disadvantage, but on the other hand I am quite fortunate in health and family department. Watching your videos makes me appreciate it even more. Some people might find you overconfident, but I think that your strength and confidence is very inspiring :)
Thanks!
Holy moly Kait this was an amazing video in such unexpectable ways! (Bear with me here as my enthusiasm is overflowing.) Despite us having very different lives, I found some specific aspects of your experiences super relatable. I share with you a love for music since a very young age. I've been playing guitar for more than 10 years, also write music occasionally and enjoy it, but am hesitant to share it online when I compare my work to other artists, and also due to my lack of knowledge in recording and production.
I too have a corporate job, which engages me but has been somewhat exhausting recently. To pivot towards a more fulfilling career (unrelated to music, though), I'm pursuing an online part-time Master's degree, which has been equally if not more exhausting, but my husband is extremely supportive and that has helped so much.
To me, the beauty of music lies in its omnipresence and infinite potential. I once dreamed of being a performer and songwriter, but the fear of falling out of love with it or failing held me back. Now, with a more manageable lifestyle post-college, I'm delving into music theory at my own pace. My progress over the last few years may be slow, but it's deeply rewarding since I'm still feeling artistic growth and fulfillment. I guess your playlist has been the same way to you this whole time you've been working on it. The way you talk about music is truly special and precious, and I honestly believe you're meant for something bigger in this industry.
Your bravery to fully commit to your passion is truly inspiring, and your approach is honestly really smart and commendable. Best of luck with your KMUD project and your house-hunting journey. I look forward to staying updated on your journey, as long as you're willing to share :)
You’re amazing, thank you!
Sending good vibes your way for all this endeavoring! Radio internship is rad as hell, go girl go!
Thank you!
I’ve commented a couple times…but I just recently discovered you and I’ve binge-watched a lot of your videos. I love your personality. I’m really similar in a lot of ways and I feel like we’d be friends IRL haha. I just wanted to say I went through a VERY similar situation to what you describe, but with dance instead of musical theater. I have a different career too, but I still am a serious dancer! I hope you’re still making space to pursue your love of music, Kait!!
When I was 16, a psychological coach asked me what I wanted to be later in my life, and I replied "I want to sing and dance", to which he reacted somewhat angrily telling me to give a serious answer to his serious question. I couldn't come up with anything else, but it made me put off my dreams for more than 20 years. Fast forward: decades later I am in the music business now, not the way I had planned in my teens, but still. What I want to say is: if music is your passion, age is not going to extinguish that fire. You have every reason to be confident. 😘
So cool you're in the music business! I'm glad I finally realized that age does not extinguish passion. Very true.
Oh my gosh I was in biz dev sales for almost 4 years and I totally get it. I left the job to learn a new sphere that hopefully can be my passion job as sales job was so overwhelming and draining for me. Unfortunately the war started (I’m from Ukraine) and my plans were moved so I’m learning new skills only now so yeah… Anyway, thank you for sharing your experience and your thoughts. It’s amazing to follow your passions I hope everything will work out for you ❤
P.S I also shut in loud environments I think now after years of therapy it’s not the case, also just want to support the teen you that had to experience all that unpleasant stuff with people around you at that time.
We have so much in common! Also Slava Ukraini ❤️
I love music and love music writing, but there’s virtually no way to do it as a paying job (I primarily write in Italian and that’s the case for that at least). I also come from an academic background and the lack of job security has scarred me for life lol. I’ve since changed jobs and have stuck to writing for a small webzine - it’s an unpaid gig but a very lovely community of people you can geek out with, who are open to suggestions and let me write what I want and when I want it. I wish you the best!
That’s awesome!
I hope you continue to sing and I hope some day you would be willing to share your beautiful voice with us
I'm looking for your spotify playlist, girl! Thanks for sharing, as always, i love your content!
Here's the link! open.spotify.com/playlist/3OIaQsnoLUG6fFXRUIbIDe?si=17b3f9024784413b
Kait, I can wholeheartedly relate to your thoughts on sales/bus dev. Tactic A might work for me but not for others. Tactic B might work for other but it for me. I can name all night long. It’s very stressful as is, however, when there’s someone like your supervisor, you might as well just leave that place🤯 I’m rooting for your new journey!!
I love the window view but I also prefer more of the plant side, I easily get distracted so that’s my main reasoning. Love the video though and thanks for sharing your struggles, especially career choice. I myself have struggled to find my passion and how to get a job that fits those goals. ❤
I can switch it up occasionally!
Kait, I would love to hear you sing. So much of what you're saying resonates with my own life and how I feel. I went to school for vocal performance (opera and jazz). I ended up leaving it behind because of two profs that made me feel that if I wasn't music theory genius (TERRIBLE at math) that I could never have a true career as a performer. So F those profs and F your music theatre teacher! Of course I know now that that was absolute bullshit, but my 22 year old self lost her confidence. I miss music in my life so much. Like you, I don't like singing in front of my partner (husband) and it's almost like a part of my life that I hide away and it makes me sad. I truly hope that you find your creativity, spark and joy again. I'm also looking for mine.
Side note: I am also tall and lost out on parts in musicals when I was teenager because of my height. #TallGirlMusicTheatreProblems
I soooooo relate!
My brother teaches guitar! He's not in CA but could do it online!
In Aug 2019 I travelled to LA to see one of my best friends. Just a 4 day getaway, and we spent 2 of them in Ojai. He wanted to take me to Carmel - he travels there a couple times a year by himself to have a getaway - but I just didn't have enough time. Ojai was a perfect alternative. We stopped a few times on the drive so my friend to could take photographs - so much agriculture as you said, but also on such a different scale from what I am used to (I live in Cleveland, OH). We walked around a lot, perused thrift stores, trespassed on someone's estate to enjoy a great view of the valley...visited a place that purports to have the best strawberry shortcake. Sorry to go on and on, but I hold my memories of that time very close to my heart. I hope your Ojai dreams come true!
I’m so glad you love Ojai too!
I would recommend perhaps working for a record label! I interned at a label called topshelf records a while back and it totally blew up what I thought I knew about music / the perception I had of what it means to be "indie" music. there is so much good music out there!! getting to know indie labels is like having friends with incredible music taste and breadth in different genres. best of luck to you in your pursuits!
Thanks!
OMG - I always used to sing around my boyfriend - I just sing when I'm happy. Interestingly, towards the end of our relationship, he said it me, "you never sing anymore..." I hadn't even realized it - it was an indication of where I was in our relationship. Anyway - SING IN THE SHOWER!!!
Wow, that’s powerful. And I have been! My partner Jon said it meant a lot to him that I’ve finally started getting comfortable singing around him. It’s uncomfortable for me sometimes but he’s so supportive and complimentary, it makes me feel better
@@StateofKait I'm glad you are. Just let it be an expression of your joy and the pure fun of singing rather than worrying about key, transitions and hitting the hard notes!
1. 41. Hospice nurse 11 years now. Pisces ♓️. I feel this time my CORE. I have this feeling if needing to travel and not be in one spot. 2. Considering a TH-cam channel a out death and end of life issues and stuff. 3. I want to learn the violin. Always wanted to learn.
Also, I’ve been waiting to see this blush! I have it and haven’t tried yet!!!
Ooooooo a channel about death would be REALLY cool. I played violin when I was really young and I loved it. I think those are great ideas!
@@StateofKait I’m jealous!!! The violin 🎻 just so stunning! It sounds like you are so driven to fulfill what your passion/calling is!!! Which truly is courageous!!!
I'm a major electronic music fan. MAJOR. Excited to see Bayonne here in Chicago next month. He's a one-man band in the dreamy electronic space and I absolutely love him. He's at the Rickshaw in SF on 6/3. Check him out. For creativity, I've been a kitchenwares product designer for decades but looking for it to end (someday). I've been pursuing pottery (wheel and hand building) for about 7 years now and it continues to feed me, give me a no pressure outlet and a place to explore.
I actually really love the angle with the window. 🫶
Thanks! Same
@@StateofKait btw, I was a chef for 25yrs (five yrs culinary school also) & although I was good at it, it was unfulfilling. I totally applaud you for taking a chance on what you're passionate about. That is so inspiring & beautiful 🫶
I share your frustration at work even though i'm not in Sales. I have more experience than the others in my team and i'm never "allowed" to use it. It's painful watching people blag it, fk it up but somehow receive praise for it. Lovely background and lovely, real content as always. Keep being you
Thank you! I so relate to that struggle. Your experience deserves to be respected!
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Hi Kait, always enjoy your videos. Pardon my ignorance but if you are commissioned based, why would they lay you off? it doesn't cost them anything to keep you on. Thank you for sharing with us.
Oh they won't lay me off, I'm not worried about that. There are layoffs happening at our company and across the industry, which makes it difficult to drive sales since everyone is extra slammed and short staffed, and budgets are shifting like crazy. But my job is very secure, and I'm super grateful for that! And I do earn a salary as well, but commission is a huge portion of my income.
Do you like Scarlet Pleasure “What A Life”? My favourite at the moment 🎉🎉
That's a bop!
I can relate to so much of what you said about needing creative fulfillment from music. I taught myself to play guitar from watching TH-cam videos. You may want to look into a nylon string guitar. I believe they are easier to play.
Thanks so much
Do you like, Parcels? They are an indie funk electronica ish band
ooooo never heard of them, looking them up now, thanks!
@@StateofKait You'll have to let me know what you think. I ❤ their album, Live: Volume 1
@@mollymeehl3015 ooooooo they’re great, thanks for the rec
As a Santa Barbaran, we think of Ojai as a hippie enclave - however, it does have a lot of eclectic offerings. Happy house hunting in this neck of the woods And come to the “big city” now and then (hahaha - although Santa Barbara is technically a city, it really is a small town)
Thanks!
Alsooooo - downtown Ventura specifically Main Street has some interesting and fun shops and restaurants.
Well, worth an evening stroll
Don’t have any music desires but had let fear stop me from going full throttle with modeling. I work in tech and love it. It’s what I went to school for but have truly felt my heart pounding for the desire to fulfill my passion.
I’ve found other creative outlets like digital drawing and candle making which definitely is an amazing outlet but still want to fulfill that dream. I live in Texas but I’m from the Bay Area so it’s something I’m still figuring it out.
I’m also 5”10 so I know the adolescent struggle of accepting my height, and everything else
Good for you for acknowledging your passion while also working a full time job and exploring multiple creative outlets! Well done
I like the other background better. It’s a little more simple and allows you to be the focus!
Also screw that comment. I think your confidence is a big reason you are such a good TH-camr!!
I am so…glad? I don’t know the right word here but I am so…positive affirmation that you are trying with your mom. I remember when you wrote her the letter and wanted to go no-contact and it’s honestly so great that you both are meeting somewhere in some middle ❤❤❤
We are definitely not meeting in the middle lol, that would be nice. She's trying a *little* bit. But it's too little. We'll see.
How did your meeting go? Sending love!
It was ok! Kind of awkward, but we were able to reach a compromise. I still don't feel respected but it's ok, you won't get along with everyone you work with.
Your hair has been looking so nice lately, bouncy or maybe. Did you get a different haircut or have you been styling it differently? I have the same hair textures you, and I have no idea how you get it to look so damn good.
I did try a new cut! Usually I get a blunt cut which helps with it looking fuller, but we did a blunt cut on the ends with some layers throughout to make it a little more shaggy
My brother is the most amazing guitar teacher!!! He started teaching over Zoom during the lockdown so my son started taking lessons! Let me know if you want to connect with him!!!!
Good luck with the radio station gig!!! Let’s us know when you are on the air so we can listen!
I’m going to share your Spotify with my husband. He literally knows almost every band out there and is a musician himself!
Oh cool, sure! Feel free to send his info my way, thanks so much
I'm just so happy for you that you are pursuing your true desires!! Fuck the fear!! 💥
Wahooooo!
You might really like The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. :) It's a book about creativity and recovering the creative self.
You love your dog so much so I think you should work with animals! Most singers can play guitar so be different - learn to play a ukulele. I did and it’s tons of fun. Then again, you are beautiful and know makeup so well that people should see you. Read these great books by Dr. Sonja Friedman “Smart Cookies Don’t Crumble” and/or “On a Clear Day You Can See Yourself”.
Not a helpful opinion but I like both lol.
Oh my Gosh Kait I cannot stand when a superior does that to one of their employees. I have been dealing with that type of people in my workspace as well and unfortunately I did lose my job since this new management after being with the company for 10 years. It is just sad to see how a superior and/or company treats their employees, just because you report to them. I am sorry you are going through this type of stress. Hope the meeting went well. 🥰
Luckily I don’t report to her! We work together on a team, she’s just higher up than I am. We were able to find a compromise, but I don’t like having to constantly justify my opinion.
@@StateofKait I totally understand how you feel. Happy to hear you found a compromise. 🤗
Looking forward to all of your content :) You seem very genuine so I'd be interested in what you have to say ✌🏻
Thank you! Check out my personal channel if you haven’t, the content over there is much deeper
Career wise- high value fundraising/revenue development is one area of nonprofit work that can actually pay quite well. If you decide to look for a non-youtube job, good salespeople are desperately needed in arts organizations. Same problems as everywhere else, in terms of other roles not understanding revenue generation, but nicer environments & cause driven. It could be a way to get involved in 🎶 and use your highly valuable skills. A lot of arts groups would let you be the money maker and have a role in teaching or performing music. It's not a glamorous career but nonprofit fundraising is pretty great most of the time, vs what other people do all day.
That’s really cool! Thanks for the info
Omg this is embarrassingly long, but you did prompt your artist subs to share, so here goes:
I also have an MT past and can really relate to what you said about the toxicity, lack of stability, and even just singing in the shower-which is (in my case) so unwarranted bc my hubs is really supportive. I have a career as a documentary filmmaker now and a successful production company. Most of my time is spent consulting for bigger companies or being subcontracted cause that’s where the stability is. The most frequent compliment I get from folks after watching my work is about my music choices. (I’m also mid 30s and in that weird don’t want kids yet, wait but me space.) I love filmmaking and tolerate the consulting. It’s creative work, but I don’t sing or perform anymore. If I’m honest, I’m totally terrified to sing in front of an audience now, which is crazy bc I did for years and years.
All that to give context to this-please don’t close the door on anything that makes your soul sing bc of age. My friend that I did several shows with just passed away, and he started singing again in his 50s and did over 100 shows before he died. I was sitting at his memorial service in this room of musicians and artists who were so greatly impacted by his joy and freedom that he got and gave through singing. You’re so proactive and have so much gumption, I bet you could take a masterclass, compose tracks in whatever genre is moving you at the time, and sell music on sites like artlist.io or even score something eventually or music supervise! When I pick tracks for a project, the only deciding factor is what’s coming through those speakers, the mix, the fit. Never have I ever looked at how old someone was or cared what they looked like, cause ya know- sound is queen.
Just some food for thought. Congratulations on starting this transition and saying f*
You’re awesome, and I’m so sorry for your loss
Come a little east of LA! Claremont, La Verne, Azusa. Be my friend 😂
Personally I don't look for fulfillment from my job. I get my salary from my work (which like well enough and find reasonably satisfying) and my creative outlet is my hobby, which is garment sewing.
People are always saying I should sell my clothes and try to monetise it, but i have zero interest in doing that. I know for me that once I HAVE to do something I don't want to do it anymore, and if I had to rely on it for my income it would heap up the pressure and suck out all of the joy. My advice would be: pay the bills with a job you don't hate, and fill your own time with things that excite and engage you without sullying them with financial pressures.
That’s exactly what I’m doing! Not quitting my job anytime soon, it gives me the stability I need.
I know, I didn't mean you were proposing to do that, I was just putting that perspective out there. My advice to the young people in general 😄
There is such a culture these days that monetary gain is the only metric that proves that a past time is of value; that something has to be worth money to be worthwhile. I hate that.
Isn't Berkeley an option? I love your videos, pls keep on going.
I hate berkeley lol, the entire bay area makes me incredibly depressed.
And thank you :)
Aww, I was wondering that too! Why does it make you depressed?
@@kathleenm.5086 I hate everything about the Bay: the people, the weather, the rent prices, the homogenous fashion, the culture (or lack thereof.) I find it has two communities: 1. OG bay area people who act like snobby hippies. 2. Boring tech people.
Everyone in the Bay acts all woke, with 'black lives matter' signs in their windows, but those are the same people who have called the cops just because a black guy (who lives with us) was just innocently standing in our yard. It's just not the place for me. When I lived in Berkeley during the pandemic it was the most depressed I'd ever been.
But to be clear - that's just my experience. I know you can't generalize a whole population. I hear that it used to be incredible before tech moved in and pushed all the artists out!
Hi Kait, long time subscriber here. was hoping to give a bit of feedback as I can see your video format is changing a bit. I miss the chatty (like this vid) videos or the ones where you were up close to the camera and were scrupulously reviewing a lip serum lol. I love the videos that were more personality forward and less quick review of many products style. Nowadays, when you talk about a product, you sometimes switch into "commercial-face" mode-it doesn't feel like you're all in it. All the other beauty TH-camrs showcase an endless amount of products and what I like about this channel is that it is more personality-forward. I miss that and hope you can incorporate more of those videos going forward. No hate, I absolutely love watching your videos and watch each one!
Thanks for the feedback! These are my favorites to film as well, they just don’t get good views so it feels like a waste of time. Feedback like this is helpful to know some people appreciate that content!
Have you subscribed to my new personal channel? I’m posting life updates and chatty videos there ❤
@@StateofKait I was one of the first subscribers on your personal channel and really enjoy the honest content there!
@@marya4340 thanks! Truthfully, my audience on state of Kait doesn’t feel like a safe space for me. Even this video got a few negative comments and I’m just not apathetic enough to not let them bother me. That’s why I’ve done less personal videos here. I know for a fact that some people subscribe to me here and on Instagram just to hate-watch me, but they don’t do it on my personal channel
I'm in nonprofit marketing, and 💯 same. I have a "that girl" too, super knowledgeable in her area of expertise, but has wacky, incorrect, pie in the sky, assumptions about promotion & revenue development. But even my fave colleagues forget that I have specialized knowledge and experience. I have a similar degree to theirs (I'm in historic preservation & tourism), but bitches, I have 20 years experience actually making money. I can make them loads of money to do the things they want, but they keep thinking that their brainstorms are gold and they do not even remotely understand ROI. Omg lol, sorry, I have a lot of pent up frustration, these bitches won't listen (if you all somehow see this, you know I love u anyway lol) or they give my input the same weight as everyone else's. I defer to them on aesthetics and all sorts of things, they get so much dignity & respect thru my marketing program, but they will not admit that I know how to make money better than they do. Even tho they are so happy that our events always get people and they get loads of positive attention cuz I get them on TV and in the paper constantly, they don't always quite get that I'm not just lucky lol.
I FEEL YOU
I've been on a big Muna and boygenius kick since you talked about them in your Coachella video, thank you! Your theater teacher was a bitch. No mincing words. Is State of Kait a bad radio show name? I really know nothing about them. Would you ever consider sharing your music with people?
Honestly state of kait could work!
@@StateofKait I always thought it was a great channel name, so if you don't come up with something you like better, it's always a backup!
Babe❤ just have a TV in multiple spaces for a a start😅 my partner and I are so cushy cushy and comfortable together at 22 yrs😮 that we now just end up yelling 'Love You'!! from different rooms😂 while he's watching Anime and I'm watching ..well you tube tbh 😊 You must have me time ❤ he would like it as much most likely 😊
We have lots of TVs! It’s not about that love
Oh go for it. Learn guitar. Write some songs. I think you can do it.
Im sending you good positive vibes for your future. Don’t do multiple therapy!
Why not?
You said it was too hard on you
@@julielongmakeup I don’t shy away from growth just because someone is hard! I’d get nothing accomplished if I shied away from things that are difficult.
❤Kait❤ I enjoy your makeup videos and product reviews etc.
Just my opinion but I wouldn't be so quick to bemoan the fact that you're not in some facet of the high powered music industry. I wonder if you're aware of the very bad things that go on in the shadows. Things that are covered up but that are now being disclosed.
Many lives are damaged or even lost from being associated with the dark side that comes from the commercial music or entertainment industry.
The glitz and glam is only the attractive outer cover-up.
It's gone on for far too long and thankfully brave whistleblowers are coming forward to expose all the injustices and yes criminal behavior.
Hopefully justice will follow and responsible parties will be held accountable to the full extent of the law. Music is one thing but the horrors occurring within that industry are quite another.
I wish you could acquire some nice land and become an organic farmer or at least gardener. People love eating locally grown food and it's much healthier.
Oh and the window view is a very nice touch.
Maybe you can ask the Lord to help make your decisions for you. 🙏
Thanks if you read this comment. 🌷❤😄
Sounds like you’re gettin’ some info from QAnon
@@StateofKait I know people who've been in the business and left. I also have seen plenty of video and picture proof -- interviews of children that you cannot unsee or unhear. It's sad that you're not aware because unlike me you're healthy and young enough to be able to help.
Whether you think it's true or not --- does not change facts.
@@blackdiamond5507 My friend, there is darkness in every industry. That doesn't mean you shouldn't pursue your dreams because of it.
@@StateofKait Yes that's true I'm not arguing that. Maybe you'll do that and be fortunate and unscathed and protected by God. And I hope you also at least get a few chickens for your land. You're fortunate, I've never had that opportunity. 🐥🐤🐣🐔 I wish you the best, and didn't mean to dash your dreams. Only saying that maybe you were till now kept away for a reason we don't know? It is possible . . that's all I was saying. 🌷
@@blackdiamond5507 I’ve encountered darkness in every industry I’ve worked in, and I’ve come to learn that living your life based on fear really isn’t living at all. I have no desire to become a gardener or own chickens lol, that is not me.
Sorry, why are you keep calling your co-worker a 'girl'?
She’s my age and I call myself a girl. It’s not deep
@@StateofKait nope, it is not.
I would start with one night and see how it goes. Resentment is a real thing in a relationship. Men can be babies.
Jon is not like that at all, not all men are babies.
I think I’m totally missing the point here, but I love love love boygenius so I absolutely relate to you on that point 😂 If you ever want to make videos about them I’ll be down for it 🫣😭
Definitely going to include a lot of Boygenius in my radio show! I’ve thought of doing album reviews on my personal channel too