No your someone, tho anyways, this reminded me a lot of my big and youngest brother, they both were very sickly, though I wasn’t very close to my big brother since I didn’t know him, or really remember him. But when she was talking about how she’d check if her grandmother was breathing, whenever she’d be sleeping, that how I was to my baby brother, I’d always make sure that he was breathing.
I'm really sorry that she passed away. She sounded like an amazing grandma, I hope you are doing well and we all support you. I also understand how you feel I've lost close family members before and its hard.
I'm really close to my mother. She's not even close to be dying of old age yet but I still gey paranoid. Sometimes when she's asleep (i normally sleep in the room next to hers) She'll go quiet (she also snores a lot) and i panic, run up to her, and watch if she's still breathing. Of course she is and it relieves me. I don't know what I'm gonna do when she's gone...
ManiFlare get you dude, it’s scary and it’s gna be one of the hardest things that we’ll have to eventually face 💔 all we can do is treasure the time we have
Aw she sounds so wonderful I miss my grandma but at least I can call her She lives about an hour away so we dont get to see her that much but it's always nice when we go over every few months I think just knowing that we cant see her makes it worse Ive had had my dog die about 5 or 6 months ago but ive come to terms with his death Ive also had 2 great grandmothers die but I wasnt close to them so as teerible as it seems I dont want to bring them back I'm not very religious so skip if you're gonna get triggered As I view it god or gods or a higher power might exist or might not so I might as well do what I want because even if we get reincarnated I wont remeber this life so I just hope theyve had a good life Of course I want my dog back but it wont happen and thats okay So have a good day/night 😊 (Ignore my possible spelling/grammar mistakes)
I hope you and your family have healed well and I'm sorry for her passing ❤️ I'm glad you shared good memories with her. I also had difficult times with my family and me being part of the LGBT+ community. I got expelled from my school for being gay and I had to convince my parents that I was just confused in order to not get kicked out onto the streets. It's not like I publicly kissed the same gender or boasted about it. In fact, I kept it to myself because I have social anxiety and constant worry about my image. I struggle with accepting myself more after that incident because I value religious beliefs, but I don't want to give up on who I am. I'm happy you got through yours. : )
@@legendarypinkmilk3092 I felt the exact same way. I wanted to tell them after I graduated college and moved out, but someone at my school found out and told my principal. I got kicked out and my parents found out through that. If your family is homophobic, I advise to stay in the closet. It's stressful, but it's better than having your own family members hate you for who you are.
@@yu.oldacc you are right. I am not doing it anytime soon. I am a med student. And have a long way to go before getting independent and I need my family's support. I feel like my mom kinda knows about me but thinks that it is just a phase or something.
The people who disliked this are either emotionless or have no soul. I cried a lot while watching this video. It's very brave to talk about such a personal topic 💖💕💖I love your videos 💛❤️
This reminded me of my grandmother too. I remember, when she was still here, I always admired and loved her. My mother has a lot of sibling (around 7) and since my mom’s dad passed, her mom took care of them. I was always amazed by her power of being able to cope with all those people herself. And when the day came, I wasn’t feeling anything. Literally nothing. I was looking at the coffin with an emotionless face. But it all hit me when we got back home. I was crying my eyes out. I refused to eat for a few days, and I was about 9 at the time, so that was a pretty big deal for a young child. Even while I’m typing these, I’m still crying. I miss her so much. I understand your pain.
I have this relationship with my grandma and even deeper, she took care of my family financially because my father doesn't work, i love her to the moon and back, i can't imagine a day without her, she always protect my back and believe in me, i feel so guilty because i can't help her with anything, i am a very awkward introvert woman, with a weak physique i can't do much for her, i xish if i wasn't like that, even i can't keep with my education, what i want is very hard to reach, she s an old woman who feed 5mouths, its hard for her, but i fail everytime i want to help, i love her even if i didn't prove it much, i hope i can make her happy.
The end truly broke my heart, because I know how it is to lose loved ones, so I started crying during this, I’m so sorry for your loss, but I hope your family can get adjusted, and that you’re never alone
This left me in tears... This feels so similar to my dadi. She is in her 80s now. My dad's parents live with us. And she is very close to my mom. 7:47 felt so real... My mom does that as she is super scared to lose dadi. I don't know when I developed that habit as well. I relate to that special ointment 😅😅 and the sucky relatives as well. Now I have moved to another city for my studies, I miss her. Her health is deteriorating. Mom takes care of her. And I just wanna go home now and coax and hug her. I don't know why me and my brother treat her like she is our girlfriend. But it is fun 😂
I understand exactly how you feel. My grandma died in August of 2020 and she slowly wore down over time. She was bedridden and we had to wash her, feed her, help her use the toilet, etc. The main difference here is thay she had a stroke and died months later from complications. She died in her sleep. I remember talking to her for the last time and her telling me in small mumbles what i though was "everything will be okay." The next day she died. I went to the nursing home she was at (we couldn't care for her anymore.) and I saw her body in her bed. It was so painful to see her laying there. I held her hand and hugged her. She was so cold... I even sang one of her favorite Elvis songs that night to her body. One might see that as odd, but it was almost spiritual for me, because I would play that song for her on the violin and sing it with her so much since she raised me on Elvis. She was always there for me since I was little, and she took care of me when my parents were at work. She was almost like a third parent, but so much more. She was my best friend ever since I was born. She took many of my secrets to the urn, because I trusted her the most out of anyone in the world. My family keeps her urn on a shelf in our living room along with other things that belonged to her, and we have a large photo of her on our wall. Even though she died last year, sometimes I still dream about her and cry when I think about her. She was the best. She was short, feisty, sweet, and ultra protective over all of us. Sometimes I miss hearing her bicker with my grandpa, and I know he misses it too... It's just so hard living without her, but we have to just move along. I miss you, grandma. I miss you, Mimi.
I remembered my grandpa who passed in 3rd of May 2020 due to old aging. I was relieved he passed due to that cause he had intestines cancer stage 4, heart attack and a lot more sicknesses. He was struggling for at least a year. He used to be over weight but once he got all these sicknesses, he became very i weight. Some point in December 2019, we all thought this was it. He did a surgery and the chance of survival was 39%. But if he didn’t do the surgery, he would die. Miracle happened and he survived. But in February, he became extremely fragile and weak.He could not eat so we had to feed him in a tube. He couldn’t even speak to us. I remember one of the last words he told me was “when I die, remember to kneel down beside me and hold my hands”. On the day he was announced dead, I didn’t really feel any sadness, I was happy he is no longer suffering. But when we were about of send his body away to burn him to ash, I started to cry and I regretted not spending enough time with him.
I'm sorry for your loss, as someone who lost a grandparent to Alzheimer's I can understand how you feel. How depressing it can be to watch someone you love dearly go downhill. I wish the best for your family and hopefully you can all slowly heal and get stronger! :')
This reminds me of how my great grandmother passed away [My grandma passed away on her little sister's birthday who also passed away]. So I find this helpful.
It is amazing when you have that kind of connection with your grandparents especially when your parents don't understand who you are or why you are that way.
Its not often where a youtube video makes me cry but even I had a hard time while watching this. This reminds me of when my great great aunt and when my mother's boyfriend died. This really hit me.
It reminds me of my uncle...we lived together and well we were close. I missed it when he sang to the trees in our nursery and his catch phrase. About 3 years ago I suddenly felt sad for some unknown reason but soon found out when I got home. I didn't want to believe it when I saw my aunt that never talks to us at the house. So of course I cleaned because I assumed more guest were arriving....some time later my mom came in the house soaking wet from rain crying her eyes out. It was sad hearing my uncle had passed...when we got back from Texas the trees grew sad. It's as if they knew he wouldn't come sing to them, it's good remembering those you hold dear
I feel you. I’ve met all four of my great grandparents, but only remember three. The last one I knew for a lot longer. My grandma worked her butt off to care for my great-grandmother. It was hard to process my great grandmothers death because I knew how my mom and my grandma felt. I didn’t have the mental strength to be in the room during the funeral because I knew I’d be a sobbing mess. I don’t like reminding myself of the dead in my life. I am super close to my grandparents and my parents and this past few weeks my grandma’s health got a little worse and it’s making her depressed. So glad you have good dreams where you can talk to her. Sorry if this comment is a mess, I’m pulling an all-nighter and it’s currently 5 am
Thia remembered me of my grandma, she is staying with my grandpa in our house bc of quarantine. She has dementia and sometime she doesn't remember my name or calls me my mother's name. I'm her favorite grandchild too, and as you whenever she sleeps nearby y stare at her chest to see if she is breathing. She also is the person who understands me more and I'm so scared of losing her. She was the one who encouraged me to cosplay and is actually very chill about LGBTQ+ people. She usually jokes about dying and we all know that she doesn't have much too... This video made me cry and hug my grandma a lot.
Beautiful video! I cried so hard. I'm Cuban, I was raised by my grandmother, my parents divorced when I was 11 months old and my mom worked all the time, I recalled my childhood to be very similar to yours. I'm still devastated about my grandma's passing away and it will be 9 years already next month. 💔😥
This is the sweetest thing ever my uncle died last year and he didn’t live near us so we almost never saw he died in a motorbike accident I have a photo of him holding up the peace sine when we came to visit him it makes me smile. Never forget the ones you love even when they are gone
Whoever disliked this beautiful video really has no heart It takes real strength to take care of a dying family member, the emotional pain and physical. It really is a thing to admire, giving comfort in the time of need
I understand how you feel. I had a really special relationship with my grandfather.. he died about 5-7 years ago but his death still hurts.. he was the grandparent i was closest to. Every time i see him in a photo, i break down crying. At the time, i had no idea what was going on. I was young and i had never really paid attention at funerals. But when my parents sat me and my sisters down on the couch to tell us he was gone, mt heart shattered. My grandmother from the other side of the family was there to comfort us, but i was crying so much and so badly that my mom had to keep switching me between crying on my grandmother to crying on her multiple times. I bawled for hours.. i think i actually cried more at his funeral than my now widowed grandmother did. Ever since his death, ive struggled with letting my emotions out and letting myself cry. At this point, my body just won't let me do it unless something triggers my PTSD in just the right way. While my mom and widowed grandmother tried explaining that it was better for him to be gone because of all the health problems he had and how much pain he was in. But to this day i still cant accept that he's gone. I hope youre coping better than i am even though my loved one's death was longer ago. I love your channel and youre very strong. I appriciate you so much and i want to thank you for all the laughs youve given me. Thank you Josh.
A weird thing my brain does when I feel sad is reminding me of all the terrible and sad thing that have happened to me in my life So this video made. Me. Ball. My eyes out ;-; I'm gonna go eat rice now Rice makes me feel better...
On March 1st 2019, I lost my own grandmother (Dad’s mom). She and I had a special bond as well because I was the only granddaughter from her two sons. So she spoiled me and pay special attention to me a lot. But she always kept me humble. Parkinson’s disease is what took her and she slowly got worse and worse as time went on... She passed away before I even graduated high school. I was destroyed when I found out she passed away. I was actually on my way to school when my dad called my mom and told us the news. As much as I would love for her to still be here, I know she’d be miserable. So in a way, I was also relieved that she was at peace. It’s great that you had such a love for your own grandma, and I know it feels like the world ends whenever you realize they’re gone. But they’re still watching, so it’s hard to be completely sad. You’ll see them again one day, in the mean time though, all you need to worry about is making the rest of your life as fun and fulfilling as possible.
You’re grandma was a saint, may she rest in peace. I literally cried, and it is kinda hard to make me cry and this video has done it, I hope you’re doing okay. She’s at peace and is no longer in pain. She loves you and is watching over you. From what you said she was a kind woman. May she Rest In Peace.
You really made me remember my grand aunt. I usually feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her, and Christmas hasn’t been the same without her. But I always remind me that she’ll always be there, watching and taking care of us
Okay so I just loved how you talked about her, but when you went into depth of how you struggled with the acceptance of your family but Archie kept trying her best to pay for you educational/meal funds, I just broke down crying because I found that moment to be so heartwarming to know she tried to help, but heartbreaking that she is now gone. Overall, I have massive respect for you posting this video about Archie👍
Im sorry for your loss, your grandmother sounded like a wonderful person. When I was 7, I lost my grandmother who I was also super close too, but it’s sad because now I’m a teen and I can’t remember certain things about her. The main one being I can’t remember what her voice sounded like, and it kills me, I was so close to her yet that’s the one thing I dont remember. I remember how she smelled, exactly how her apartment looked, how she styled her hair, but I can’t remember her voice and it kills me. I’m sorry for rambling about my issues. I’m sincerely sorry for your loss. She’s in a good place now, know that.
Everybody here has it pure and sweet, it’s amazing to see how beautiful they have it with their grandmas compared to mine. As for me, i used my grandma’s(december 15th, 2015) and my great grandma’s(this year, february) passing to get what i wanted out of them. I got to skip class and got sympathy from people around, plus one of my friend in class knew i’m “sad” considering she was there with me when i heard the news from my cuz. Even 5 years later I’m still satisfied. I even skipped work because my manager back then was kind enough to be accepting my absence, i showed up but not came for work. I wasn’t in my grandma’s funeral and i deserved it, i got appendicitis in 17th of december and it doesn’t seem like a coincidence(i planned to cry few years back if it were her funeral). But with my great grandma, i cried in funeral because i didn’t want to be around a heavy air. You see, I intentionally but subconsciously did those actions. Because my feelings were almost non-existant despite feeling a little hurt. I used my frustrations to cry over my grandparents, except it was for myself. Everyone around me is doing okay as far as i know. I got told that my grandma got a peaceful smiling expression in her coffin too. I know and accept that fact ❤️❤️ I can only imagine how harder you guys have it, it is heavy but mourning the loss is not a big deal for me. i hope you guys are doing okay on your side tho 😃💖 I am different from beautiful you. Be grateful while your family are still around or even be happy you felt strong emotions from your loss. Because i have a hard time when it comes to my family with my indifference and depression 😃 There is reasons for me to say these but i have no bad intentions. I’m sure nobody have gone this far reading this nonsense 😆🤷🏻♀️
This reminded me of my mom's passing and how my dad's mother, my achchi amma struggled with Alzheimer's when my seeya passed away. Always take care of those who are precious to you. Because you'll never know when will be their time and the regret of not having enough time with them is almost unbearable.
I remember my great grandparents funerals. It was so sad. They were everything to me and my mom. They had 16 children. 200+ grandchildren 100+ great grandchildren. They created our family and I wished they were still alive but Ik they aren’t suffering anymore. RIP Amma & Apa
I really hope you are doing okay now. Believe me, I know losing a loved one is hard. During the video I did end up crying and I'm very sorry you had to go through all that. I hope you are still able to stay positive through all of this madness and even in the wake of her death. Much love to be sent your way.
My family and I went through something similar when I was younger. My grandmother has dementia and she doesn't remember anyone anymore. She mumbles a lot but surprisingly enough she still acts a little stubborn sometimes. I think it started to happen not long after my grandmother’s sister-in-law passed away. She was another person important to us and was my grandmother’s best friend. It hit my sister the most because she was extremely close to both of them. It took a long while for my sister to come to terms with it as well as the rest of our family. My grandmother is still alive and she has someone living with her to take care of her. I hope you and the rest of your family are doing better. It’s going to be hard but it will be easier. Take the time to reminisce and give your shoulder for your sisters if they need anything. Take care Josh 💛
I'm really sorry for you. I understand you! You know I didn't had the chance to know most of my grandparents... (Death and deases) But the only one I was close was my grandmother of my mother side. When I was born, my parent moved to a city and my grandmother moved to so like this she take care of my sister and I. I was really close to her she was my only grandmother. But then she went to hospital the first time... And at this second time she was diagnose with cancer... At this time I didn't know I was too young. The doctors couldn't do anything so she came back to his house and everything went back to normal. Until she went back to hospital and I never see her again. My parents and my grandmother didn't want my sister and I see go see her because they want we kept good memories from her. I never have the chance to say goodbye to her. And when the we went to the funeral god I cry... I cry so much because I realise I would never I have a grandmother again. I was 7 years old. So I send you all the love you need your grandmother was a really nice person! (sorry for mistakes English isn't my first language)
Something that sort of relates to the story is that, My grandpa‘s birthday and then my birthday and then my grandma’s birthday and then my great grandma‘s birthday are all in a Row exactly like that in the middle of the month (i’m not sharing my birthday for obvious reasons) And I also share my birthday with none other than Leonardo da Vinci
Hi jilli I’m sorry for your grandma but at least you had her for as long as you did I know how it feels I was the same with my grandpa and missing him every day 💖
My favourite memory of my moms dad is when I was young everyone said and still says I'm just like him but a memory that makes me break down is when he'd tell my mom "you can keep the other two (my sisters) but let me keep her" I love this bcz it makes me feel like the favourite for once and my mom always said if there weren't so many complications she would've sent me to live with him (Rest in peace Archie you will always be remembered)
I kinda know how you feel. I lost my grandfather last year. But because he lives in Laos and I live in America. I was never able to say goodbye. And the last time I ever saw him physically was when I was 3 I just turned 17 yesterday. You’re so strong being able to make this video. And I hope you and your family can heal.
You are not alone. The love you have for your grandmother radiates throughout this entire video, Josh. I'm positive she continues to watch over you ♥️ I remember when my grandmother passed. It was the day after Christmas and i was twelve.
I’m not crying, you- no wait I am... My birthday landed right in between my grandparents on my dads side. (10th, 11th, 12th of January) I don’t get to see them often since they live in another country, but when I do I’m always worried it might be the last.
Aw.. at least you’re grandma is now resting peacefully up in heaven ❤️ This video reminded me of my aunt. She always wanted a daughter but she got 2 sons.. she still loved them but was sad that she didn’t get to have a daughter. But luckily me and my sister would visit her often and we were like her daughters. She was super funny and gentle.... but then something happened to her brain and she just wasn’t the same anymore.. she couldn’t do anything on her own.. she couldn’t speak properly... but one time I went to visit her and she grabbed my hand and smiled at me... so softly yet sweetly... then.. a few years later, she passed. I broke down in tears but I knew she wouldn’t be suffering anymore 💖
Today my grandma would've been 106. We were very close. It's been ten years since she passed. I have so many good, happy memories with her. Sometimes I still feel sad that she's not here, especially because my son never got to meet her. Grandmas are so special. My grandma had dementia as well, that is so hard. I'm totally crying, but this is a beautiful story of love.
This is such a heartwarming video. I was really close with my grandmother before she passed away when I was in my early teens so I could relate to a lot of the things in this. She took care of me and my little sister a lot as kids and it was always the best seeing her. Archie sounded like an amazing woman and is super proud of you for all the stuff you’ve done. Sending love and support from all the fans.
Your grandma sounded like a wonderful woman she was there while no one else was. She was the one who taught you how to read and write. Your mom should’ve been grateful that she had her mom to help with you and your sister. Your grandma was the one you made you who you are today.
Your grandma reminds me of my grandpa, though i never got to see him when was healthy, he loved his grandkids and always wanted to spend time with us, even when he was crippled and couldn't do much. this video makes me feel like i should have paid him more attention.
Gosh this hit so close to home. I'm my grandmas favourite too, she also call me her tail and her baby chick. She suffer from a type of cancer and if she pass 5 years shed be good. 3 more to go and she's still strong. Hope your Archie rest in peace
I feel you, it's hard to talk about these things. At least for me. We are so glad you talked about this because we need to know how death works, how we can recover from grief, and know that we can see these moments with loved one's as reminders to what makes us equal. We all come and go.
your grandma almost like my grandpa my sweet grandpa passed away from 2 months ago my grandpa is like my other father to me i missed my grandpa dearly i feel your pain but both my grandpa and your grandma are very proud who we are i wish both of them rest in peace.
I understand that fear, I had that same fear with my mother. When I was little and found out about death I would cry and cry saying mom please don’t leave me. My mom would hug me and smile saying I’m not going anywhere. And while at present we’ve had our disagreements and we’ve drifted apart, I silently still fear that dreadful day when I will have to say goodbye.
uh, i feel bad.... i love my grandma so much i wouldn't know how to act if she wasn't here..... God bless her she's my true friend. i haven't watched the video yet and i am crying just thinking of this..... rest in peace to your grandma
I’m not crying!
*someone is cutting onions*
It's me
And I'm crying too T-T
Same
same 😭😭😭😢😥
Yea hahah- those damn onions- lolol hey when did this pool show up?
@@cineraria5532 me too T^T
I’m sorry, but why is that thumbnail so adorable?
That’s show her big love for her grandmother
R a v e n _ Y o o n __ sir lemme correct you ‘him’
Mad Queen lover Andrea 123 honestly I couldn’t tell if there pronouns wear she or he so I went with they
@@madqueenloverandrea1233 They actually go with They/Them and they consider themselves as Asexual too. Watch their Q&A video
This made me think about my grandparents
Me to .. I wish I could give my grandma everything she treats me more then a 👵😭😍
No your someone, tho anyways, this reminded me a lot of my big and youngest brother, they both were very sickly, though I wasn’t very close to my big brother since I didn’t know him, or really remember him. But when she was talking about how she’d check if her grandmother was breathing, whenever she’d be sleeping, that how I was to my baby brother, I’d always make sure that he was breathing.
Same. It made me miss my grandparent from my dad's side even more.
I want to know who is this 1 disrespectful people who hit a dislike??!!
Assholes
Sakshi Verma now there is four of them ... dammit
Le cri
10. It’s just assholes and haters. They don’t actually watch it and just dislike.
Can I commit arson ?
I'm really sorry that she passed away. She sounded like an amazing grandma, I hope you are doing well and we all support you. I also understand how you feel I've lost close family members before and its hard.
Bruh, the 4 people who disliked the video are just heartless.
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I'm really close to my mother. She's not even close to be dying of old age yet but I still gey paranoid. Sometimes when she's asleep (i normally sleep in the room next to hers) She'll go quiet (she also snores a lot) and i panic, run up to her, and watch if she's still breathing. Of course she is and it relieves me. I don't know what I'm gonna do when she's gone...
ManiFlare get you dude, it’s scary and it’s gna be one of the hardest things that we’ll have to eventually face 💔 all we can do is treasure the time we have
Me too dude `(*∩_∩*)′
Aw she sounds so wonderful
I miss my grandma but at least I can call her
She lives about an hour away so we dont get to see her that much but it's always nice when we go over every few months
I think just knowing that we cant see her makes it worse
Ive had had my dog die about 5 or 6 months ago but ive come to terms with his death
Ive also had 2 great grandmothers die but I wasnt close to them so as teerible as it seems I dont want to bring them back
I'm not very religious so skip if you're gonna get triggered
As I view it god or gods or a higher power might exist or might not so I might as well do what I want because even if we get reincarnated I wont remeber this life so I just hope theyve had a good life
Of course I want my dog back but it wont happen and thats okay
So have a good day/night 😊
(Ignore my possible spelling/grammar mistakes)
I stopped watching the last episode from the fourth season of Haikyuu for this
I hope you and your family have healed well and I'm sorry for her passing ❤️ I'm glad you shared good memories with her. I also had difficult times with my family and me being part of the LGBT+ community. I got expelled from my school for being gay and I had to convince my parents that I was just confused in order to not get kicked out onto the streets. It's not like I publicly kissed the same gender or boasted about it. In fact, I kept it to myself because I have social anxiety and constant worry about my image. I struggle with accepting myself more after that incident because I value religious beliefs, but I don't want to give up on who I am. I'm happy you got through yours. : )
【A K I O】 wow that must of been difficult I’m straight but I have friends who are LGBT+ and I can’t imagine living through that your very brave ❤️
Georgianna Keasler Aw, thank you so much just for that kind reply.
This is what scares me to come out to my family. I have questioned my gender and sexuality. I am not doing it while I am still a student.
@@legendarypinkmilk3092 I felt the exact same way. I wanted to tell them after I graduated college and moved out, but someone at my school found out and told my principal. I got kicked out and my parents found out through that. If your family is homophobic, I advise to stay in the closet. It's stressful, but it's better than having your own family members hate you for who you are.
@@yu.oldacc you are right. I am not doing it anytime soon. I am a med student. And have a long way to go before getting independent and I need my family's support. I feel like my mom kinda knows about me but thinks that it is just a phase or something.
Be Honest......
*We are all grandma's favorite* 💖💝
my sister is my grandmas favorite 😅❤
Nah, too gay to be the favourite
I’m not crying am just cosplaying as a waterfall🙂💔
It’s nice that you’re talking about something so personal 💛
Edit: wow that's alot of likes(￣ヘ￣;)
They litterly talk abt their pancakes
@@limittime3493 stop.
The people who disliked this are either emotionless or have no soul.
I cried a lot while watching this video. It's very brave to talk about such a personal topic 💖💕💖I love your videos 💛❤️
This reminded me of my grandmother too.
I remember, when she was still here, I always admired and loved her. My mother has a lot of sibling (around 7) and since my mom’s dad passed, her mom took care of them. I was always amazed by her power of being able to cope with all those people herself.
And when the day came, I wasn’t feeling anything. Literally nothing. I was looking at the coffin with an emotionless face.
But it all hit me when we got back home.
I was crying my eyes out. I refused to eat for a few days, and I was about 9 at the time, so that was a pretty big deal for a young child. Even while I’m typing these, I’m still crying. I miss her so much. I understand your pain.
You know your the best child when your grandma’s favorite
I love how he is finding a way to still be happy about something so heartbreaking. I wish I could do that if something like that happened to me. :D
It's a she
No,he's FtM
They actually go by they/them pronouns
I have this relationship with my grandma and even deeper, she took care of my family financially because my father doesn't work, i love her to the moon and back, i can't imagine a day without her, she always protect my back and believe in me, i feel so guilty because i can't help her with anything, i am a very awkward introvert woman, with a weak physique i can't do much for her, i xish if i wasn't like that, even i can't keep with my education, what i want is very hard to reach, she s an old woman who feed 5mouths, its hard for her, but i fail everytime i want to help, i love her even if i didn't prove it much, i hope i can make her happy.
You gave her a good last meal
The end truly broke my heart, because I know how it is to lose loved ones, so I started crying during this, I’m so sorry for your loss, but I hope your family can get adjusted, and that you’re never alone
This left me in tears...
This feels so similar to my dadi. She is in her 80s now. My dad's parents live with us. And she is very close to my mom. 7:47 felt so real... My mom does that as she is super scared to lose dadi. I don't know when I developed that habit as well.
I relate to that special ointment 😅😅 and the sucky relatives as well.
Now I have moved to another city for my studies, I miss her. Her health is deteriorating. Mom takes care of her. And I just wanna go home now and coax and hug her. I don't know why me and my brother treat her like she is our girlfriend. But it is fun 😂
I cant imagine losing someone that close. rip
I understand exactly how you feel.
My grandma died in August of 2020 and she slowly wore down over time. She was bedridden and we had to wash her, feed her, help her use the toilet, etc.
The main difference here is thay she had a stroke and died months later from complications. She died in her sleep.
I remember talking to her for the last time and her telling me in small mumbles what i though was "everything will be okay."
The next day she died. I went to the nursing home she was at (we couldn't care for her anymore.) and I saw her body in her bed.
It was so painful to see her laying there. I held her hand and hugged her. She was so cold...
I even sang one of her favorite Elvis songs that night to her body.
One might see that as odd, but it was almost spiritual for me, because I would play that song for her on the violin and sing it with her so much since she raised me on Elvis.
She was always there for me since I was little, and she took care of me when my parents were at work. She was almost like a third parent, but so much more. She was my best friend ever since I was born. She took many of my secrets to the urn, because I trusted her the most out of anyone in the world.
My family keeps her urn on a shelf in our living room along with other things that belonged to her, and we have a large photo of her on our wall.
Even though she died last year, sometimes I still dream about her and cry when I think about her. She was the best. She was short, feisty, sweet, and ultra protective over all of us. Sometimes I miss hearing her bicker with my grandpa, and I know he misses it too...
It's just so hard living without her, but we have to just move along.
I miss you, grandma. I miss you, Mimi.
I didn't notice I was already in tears halfway
I remembered my grandpa who passed in 3rd of May 2020 due to old aging. I was relieved he passed due to that cause he had intestines cancer stage 4, heart attack and a lot more sicknesses. He was struggling for at least a year. He used to be over weight but once he got all these sicknesses, he became very i weight. Some point in December 2019, we all thought this was it. He did a surgery and the chance of survival was 39%. But if he didn’t do the surgery, he would die. Miracle happened and he survived. But in February, he became extremely fragile and weak.He could not eat so we had to feed him in a tube. He couldn’t even speak to us. I remember one of the last words he told me was “when I die, remember to kneel down beside me and hold my hands”. On the day he was announced dead, I didn’t really feel any sadness, I was happy he is no longer suffering. But when we were about of send his body away to burn him to ash, I started to cry and I regretted not spending enough time with him.
As someone who has no more contact with my nan I'm happy for you that you had such an amazing relationship!
I'm sorry for your loss, as someone who lost a grandparent to Alzheimer's I can understand how you feel. How depressing it can be to watch someone you love dearly go downhill. I wish the best for your family and hopefully you can all slowly heal and get stronger! :')
R.I.P 😢💗😓😭
This reminds me of me dead grandfather
I didn't now him for long
This reminds me of how my great grandmother passed away [My grandma passed away on her little sister's birthday who also passed away].
So I find this helpful.
It is amazing when you have that kind of connection with your grandparents especially when your parents don't understand who you are or why you are that way.
That’s kind of sweet that *you* (the closest person to her) gave her her last meal :)
Its not often where a youtube video makes me cry but even I had a hard time while watching this. This reminds me of when my great great aunt and when my mother's boyfriend died. This really hit me.
It reminds me of my uncle...we lived together and well we were close. I missed it when he sang to the trees in our nursery and his catch phrase. About 3 years ago I suddenly felt sad for some unknown reason but soon found out when I got home. I didn't want to believe it when I saw my aunt that never talks to us at the house. So of course I cleaned because I assumed more guest were arriving....some time later my mom came in the house soaking wet from rain crying her eyes out. It was sad hearing my uncle had passed...when we got back from Texas the trees grew sad. It's as if they knew he wouldn't come sing to them, it's good remembering those you hold dear
I feel you. I’ve met all four of my great grandparents, but only remember three. The last one I knew for a lot longer. My grandma worked her butt off to care for my great-grandmother. It was hard to process my great grandmothers death because I knew how my mom and my grandma felt. I didn’t have the mental strength to be in the room during the funeral because I knew I’d be a sobbing mess. I don’t like reminding myself of the dead in my life. I am super close to my grandparents and my parents and this past few weeks my grandma’s health got a little worse and it’s making her depressed. So glad you have good dreams where you can talk to her.
Sorry if this comment is a mess, I’m pulling an all-nighter and it’s currently 5 am
She reminds me of my Grandma 👵
She'd take care of me
She was Firm (scary firm) But Kind and nurturing too 😭
Bless your grandmother for being so kind and accepting. I hope the best for you and your family, Josh. 💕💕
Thia remembered me of my grandma, she is staying with my grandpa in our house bc of quarantine. She has dementia and sometime she doesn't remember my name or calls me my mother's name. I'm her favorite grandchild too, and as you whenever she sleeps nearby y stare at her chest to see if she is breathing. She also is the person who understands me more and I'm so scared of losing her. She was the one who encouraged me to cosplay and is actually very chill about LGBTQ+ people. She usually jokes about dying and we all know that she doesn't have much too... This video made me cry and hug my grandma a lot.
Beautiful video! I cried so hard. I'm Cuban, I was raised by my grandmother, my parents divorced when I was 11 months old and my mom worked all the time, I recalled my childhood to be very similar to yours. I'm still devastated about my grandma's passing away and it will be 9 years already next month. 💔😥
This is the sweetest thing ever my uncle died last year and he didn’t live near us so we almost never saw he died in a motorbike accident I have a photo of him holding up the peace sine when we came to visit him it makes me smile. Never forget the ones you love even when they are gone
Whoever disliked this beautiful video really has no heart
It takes real strength to take care of a dying family member, the emotional pain and physical.
It really is a thing to admire, giving comfort in the time of need
Now i want to see my grandma but i know she is in my heart
when u say u didn’t cry and instead u were relived, it’s an okay thing because u watched her suffer and now she’s at peace
Your Granda's so sweet it made me cry
She lived a very happy long life. That’s what’s important.
I understand how you feel. I had a really special relationship with my grandfather.. he died about 5-7 years ago but his death still hurts.. he was the grandparent i was closest to. Every time i see him in a photo, i break down crying. At the time, i had no idea what was going on. I was young and i had never really paid attention at funerals. But when my parents sat me and my sisters down on the couch to tell us he was gone, mt heart shattered. My grandmother from the other side of the family was there to comfort us, but i was crying so much and so badly that my mom had to keep switching me between crying on my grandmother to crying on her multiple times. I bawled for hours.. i think i actually cried more at his funeral than my now widowed grandmother did. Ever since his death, ive struggled with letting my emotions out and letting myself cry. At this point, my body just won't let me do it unless something triggers my PTSD in just the right way. While my mom and widowed grandmother tried explaining that it was better for him to be gone because of all the health problems he had and how much pain he was in. But to this day i still cant accept that he's gone. I hope youre coping better than i am even though my loved one's death was longer ago. I love your channel and youre very strong. I appriciate you so much and i want to thank you for all the laughs youve given me. Thank you Josh.
Your grandmother sounds like a wonderful person, I hope you will heal! Lots of love .
A weird thing my brain does when I feel sad is reminding me of all the terrible and sad thing that have happened to me in my life
So this video made. Me. Ball. My eyes out ;-;
I'm gonna go eat rice now
Rice makes me feel better...
This made me cry. I miss my grandma too
When you said you broke down, I was shaking and cried. I’m emotional 😭
God bless your Archtie
I've never met her but she reminds me of my grandmother
On March 1st 2019, I lost my own grandmother (Dad’s mom). She and I had a special bond as well because I was the only granddaughter from her two sons. So she spoiled me and pay special attention to me a lot. But she always kept me humble.
Parkinson’s disease is what took her and she slowly got worse and worse as time went on... She passed away before I even graduated high school. I was destroyed when I found out she passed away. I was actually on my way to school when my dad called my mom and told us the news.
As much as I would love for her to still be here, I know she’d be miserable. So in a way, I was also relieved that she was at peace.
It’s great that you had such a love for your own grandma, and I know it feels like the world ends whenever you realize they’re gone. But they’re still watching, so it’s hard to be completely sad. You’ll see them again one day, in the mean time though, all you need to worry about is making the rest of your life as fun and fulfilling as possible.
You’re grandma was a saint, may she rest in peace. I literally cried, and it is kinda hard to make me cry and this video has done it, I hope you’re doing okay. She’s at peace and is no longer in pain. She loves you and is watching over you. From what you said she was a kind woman. May she Rest In Peace.
You really made me remember my grand aunt. I usually feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her, and Christmas hasn’t been the same without her. But I always remind me that she’ll always be there, watching and taking care of us
Okay so I just loved how you talked about her, but when you went into depth of how you struggled with the acceptance of your family but Archie kept trying her best to pay for you educational/meal funds, I just broke down crying because I found that moment to be so heartwarming to know she tried to help, but heartbreaking that she is now gone. Overall, I have massive respect for you posting this video about Archie👍
Im sorry for your loss, your grandmother sounded like a wonderful person. When I was 7, I lost my grandmother who I was also super close too, but it’s sad because now I’m a teen and I can’t remember certain things about her. The main one being I can’t remember what her voice sounded like, and it kills me, I was so close to her yet that’s the one thing I dont remember. I remember how she smelled, exactly how her apartment looked, how she styled her hair, but I can’t remember her voice and it kills me. I’m sorry for rambling about my issues. I’m sincerely sorry for your loss. She’s in a good place now, know that.
Glad at least your grandmother left you with pleasant memories.
aw i love your relationship with your grandma
Everybody here has it pure and sweet, it’s amazing to see how beautiful they have it with their grandmas compared to mine.
As for me, i used my grandma’s(december 15th, 2015) and my great grandma’s(this year, february) passing to get what i wanted out of them.
I got to skip class and got sympathy from people around, plus one of my friend in class knew i’m “sad” considering she was there with me when i heard the news from my cuz. Even 5 years later I’m still satisfied.
I even skipped work because my manager back then was kind enough to be accepting my absence, i showed up but not came for work. I wasn’t in my grandma’s funeral and i deserved it, i got appendicitis in 17th of december and it doesn’t seem like a coincidence(i planned to cry few years back if it were her funeral). But with my great grandma, i cried in funeral because i didn’t want to be around a heavy air.
You see, I intentionally but subconsciously did those actions. Because my feelings were almost non-existant despite feeling a little hurt. I used my frustrations to cry over my grandparents, except it was for myself. Everyone around me is doing okay as far as i know. I got told that my grandma got a peaceful smiling expression in her coffin too. I know and accept that fact ❤️❤️
I can only imagine how harder you guys have it, it is heavy but mourning the loss is not a big deal for me. i hope you guys are doing okay on your side tho 😃💖 I am different from beautiful you. Be grateful while your family are still around or even be happy you felt strong emotions from your loss. Because i have a hard time when it comes to my family with my indifference and depression 😃 There is reasons for me to say these but i have no bad intentions. I’m sure nobody have gone this far reading this nonsense 😆🤷🏻♀️
This reminded me of my mom's passing and how my dad's mother, my achchi amma struggled with Alzheimer's when my seeya passed away. Always take care of those who are precious to you. Because you'll never know when will be their time and the regret of not having enough time with them is almost unbearable.
I remember my great grandparents funerals. It was so sad. They were everything to me and my mom. They had 16 children. 200+ grandchildren 100+ great grandchildren. They created our family and I wished they were still alive but Ik they aren’t suffering anymore. RIP Amma & Apa
I am so sorry Jellie, she sounds so lovely.
My grandad ain't that well... and I understand the fear you had.
I really hope you are doing okay now. Believe me, I know losing a loved one is hard. During the video I did end up crying and I'm very sorry you had to go through all that. I hope you are still able to stay positive through all of this madness and even in the wake of her death. Much love to be sent your way.
My family and I went through something similar when I was younger. My grandmother has dementia and she doesn't remember anyone anymore. She mumbles a lot but surprisingly enough she still acts a little stubborn sometimes.
I think it started to happen not long after my grandmother’s sister-in-law passed away. She was another person important to us and was my grandmother’s best friend. It hit my sister the most because she was extremely close to both of them. It took a long while for my sister to come to terms with it as well as the rest of our family. My grandmother is still alive and she has someone living with her to take care of her.
I hope you and the rest of your family are doing better. It’s going to be hard but it will be easier. Take the time to reminisce and give your shoulder for your sisters if they need anything. Take care Josh 💛
I didn’t have grandmother and I far from my family *I means emotional* it’s nice to have that feeling . I am sorry for your loss 💔
I'm really sorry for you. I understand you! You know I didn't had the chance to know most of my grandparents... (Death and deases) But the only one I was close was my grandmother of my mother side. When I was born, my parent moved to a city and my grandmother moved to so like this she take care of my sister and I. I was really close to her she was my only grandmother. But then she went to hospital the first time... And at this second time she was diagnose with cancer... At this time I didn't know I was too young. The doctors couldn't do anything so she came back to his house and everything went back to normal. Until she went back to hospital and I never see her again. My parents and my grandmother didn't want my sister and I see go see her because they want we kept good memories from her. I never have the chance to say goodbye to her. And when the we went to the funeral god I cry... I cry so much because I realise I would never I have a grandmother again. I was 7 years old. So I send you all the love you need your grandmother was a really nice person! (sorry for mistakes English isn't my first language)
Something that sort of relates to the story is that, My grandpa‘s birthday and then my birthday and then my grandma’s birthday and then my great grandma‘s birthday are all in a Row exactly like that in the middle of the month (i’m not sharing my birthday for obvious reasons) And I also share my birthday with none other than Leonardo da Vinci
This video almost moved me to tears. I know she's watching you from above and is proud your doing something you love.
Hi jilli I’m sorry for your grandma but at least you had her for as long as you did I know how it feels I was the same with my grandpa and missing him every day 💖
My favourite memory of my moms dad is when I was young everyone said and still says I'm just like him but a memory that makes me break down is when he'd tell my mom "you can keep the other two (my sisters) but let me keep her" I love this bcz it makes me feel like the favourite for once and my mom always said if there weren't so many complications she would've sent me to live with him
(Rest in peace Archie you will always be remembered)
Your grandmother sounded like a amazing person... Rest In Peace❤️
I thought I was the only one who watched Pengu
I am no longer alone :,)
I almost just cried over a person i dont know 😃
I kinda know how you feel. I lost my grandfather last year. But because he lives in Laos and I live in America. I was never able to say goodbye. And the last time I ever saw him physically was when I was 3 I just turned 17 yesterday. You’re so strong being able to make this video. And I hope you and your family can heal.
It was so brave of you to do this! Continue going, you can do it!
Love to you and your family. I ended up crying.
You are not alone. The love you have for your grandmother radiates throughout this entire video, Josh. I'm positive she continues to watch over you ♥️
I remember when my grandmother passed. It was the day after Christmas and i was twelve.
I’m not crying, you- no wait I am... My birthday landed right in between my grandparents on my dads side. (10th, 11th, 12th of January)
I don’t get to see them often since they live in another country, but when I do I’m always worried it might be the last.
I have nothing but respect in my heart for your grandma.
The dislikes are understandable because people can't see when they cry.
Aw.. at least you’re grandma is now resting peacefully up in heaven ❤️
This video reminded me of my aunt. She always wanted a daughter but she got 2 sons.. she still loved them but was sad that she didn’t get to have a daughter. But luckily me and my sister would visit her often and we were like her daughters. She was super funny and gentle.... but then something happened to her brain and she just wasn’t the same anymore.. she couldn’t do anything on her own.. she couldn’t speak properly... but one time I went to visit her and she grabbed my hand and smiled at me... so softly yet sweetly... then.. a few years later, she passed. I broke down in tears but I knew she wouldn’t be suffering anymore 💖
Today my grandma would've been 106. We were very close. It's been ten years since she passed. I have so many good, happy memories with her. Sometimes I still feel sad that she's not here, especially because my son never got to meet her. Grandmas are so special. My grandma had dementia as well, that is so hard. I'm totally crying, but this is a beautiful story of love.
This is sad but family is is a wonderful thing 🖤
I cried like 4 times, I know how it feels loosing a family member that you were very close to. "This video is not sad" you said
This is such a heartwarming video. I was really close with my grandmother before she passed away when I was in my early teens so I could relate to a lot of the things in this. She took care of me and my little sister a lot as kids and it was always the best seeing her. Archie sounded like an amazing woman and is super proud of you for all the stuff you’ve done. Sending love and support from all the fans.
Your grandma sounded like a wonderful woman she was there while no one else was. She was the one who taught you how to read and write. Your mom should’ve been grateful that she had her mom to help with you and your sister. Your grandma was the one you made you who you are today.
im crying i littarly have the same relationship with my grandma
Your grandma reminds me of my grandpa, though i never got to see him when was healthy, he loved his grandkids and always wanted to spend time with us, even when he was crippled and couldn't do much.
this video makes me feel like i should have paid him more attention.
Gosh this hit so close to home. I'm my grandmas favourite too, she also call me her tail and her baby chick. She suffer from a type of cancer and if she pass 5 years shed be good. 3 more to go and she's still strong. Hope your Archie rest in peace
This reminded me of my grandma, I was also extremely close to her. I was probably closer to her than my own parents.
I feel you, it's hard to talk about these things. At least for me. We are so glad you talked about this because we need to know how death works, how we can recover from grief, and know that we can see these moments with loved one's as reminders to what makes us equal. We all come and go.
I’m not crying
Sike im flooding the house
You are so sweet with your grandma
I’m so proud of you🥺🥺🥺🥺
I didn’t know a TH-cam video can make me cry so much
at least your grandmother made it to your college graduation. mine is in her 80's and i am still in highschool
Am I the only one who was happy he trusted us to tell us something personal but also sad as he talked.....
I can totally relate to you. I’m proud that you can talk about this, cause I can’t even think about my grandma without crying.❤️
You are not alone, Josh...I lost my grandmother too not too long ago 😔😔
your grandma almost like my grandpa my sweet grandpa passed away from 2 months ago my grandpa is like my other father to me i missed my grandpa dearly i feel your pain but both my grandpa and your grandma are very proud who we are i wish both of them rest in peace.
I understand that fear, I had that same fear with my mother. When I was little and found out about death I would cry and cry saying mom please don’t leave me. My mom would hug me and smile saying I’m not going anywhere. And while at present we’ve had our disagreements and we’ve drifted apart, I silently still fear that dreadful day when I will have to say goodbye.
uh, i feel bad.... i love my grandma so much i wouldn't know how to act if she wasn't here..... God bless her she's my true friend.
i haven't watched the video yet and i am crying just thinking of this.....
rest in peace to your grandma
Aww Archie...
Rest and piece Archie.
I hope she is well in the after life. F