This got recommended to me randomly by TH-cam. I'm a 22 year old guy, I've spent the past few years trying to understand my mental illness, get properly medicated for it, and avoid homelessness. I was just barely getting back on my feet at a trade school program called Job Corps, I was training to become a carpenter, got my drivers license, my high school diploma (I dropped out originally and got a GED) I met a girl right before going to Job Corps. Towards the end of my enrollment, I started talking to her again, went on vacation or "leave days" to see her, we stayed in a hotel, it felt magical. I completed Job Corps early and abandoned a career as a union carpenter to stay with her and her family. I tried my hardest for the first few months to find a job and keep pursuing my future, despite being lured by her trance and falling back into drugs and alcohol with her. I wanted to not let my family down anymore. She wanted to live like it was her last day on earth. Somewhere in all of it, I was also supposed to be the knight in shining armor that would sweep her off her feet, get the glorious carpentry job, and take care of her so her family wouldn't have to anymore. Months went by, I had given up. I couldn't get a job, I felt like a failure and her family let me know that fact very well. Her Mom gave her a hand-me-down car and told us to leave their house and live in it. For 4-6 months we lived in the car, wasting any money that didn't go to gas on alcohol or drugs. We made horrible decisions. I experienced the worst moments of my life. We both felt like all hope was lost and we were just floating along through the end of our lives. We made pit stops here and there for showers and whatnot at her parents and my Dad's place. The beginning of this year, she went back to live with her parents and me with my Dad. But I was still lured in her trance. At the beginning of March, her parents decided to book her plane tickets to live with family in another state so she could go to rehab. She wanted one last chance to be with me, and so did I. But the months prior, every time we saw eachother it would end with drinking excessively, verbal fights, and her slapping me around. This time, we got drunk, had a verbal match, and I wouldn't put up with it, so I slapped her back. I was unfortunate that nobody had saw everything prior, but someone happened to see this, and I got arrested for domestic violence. I'm still dealing with the legal issues. She has been out of my life since then, for good. And I don't miss her. But one thing the cop told me was that it was lust, not love, and fueled the relationship. Unhealthy relationships are doomed to fail. Thank you for this video. I know my comment goes way out there, and I'm weird for going into such personal detail. But seeing this helped me. It has been hell. I don't miss her. I miss the lust. Lust is a poisonous drug.
Yes, I also have through this tormenting period of fighting with lust but Jesus has made me free from this sin. Yes it will not happen in a snap but behold Lord Jesus is lot more powerful than our temptation.
Amen 🙏 very truee!! Psalms 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.
Brother is preaching 🙏
I needed this this reached a dark place in me
This got recommended to me randomly by TH-cam.
I'm a 22 year old guy, I've spent the past few years trying to understand my mental illness, get properly medicated for it, and avoid homelessness. I was just barely getting back on my feet at a trade school program called Job Corps, I was training to become a carpenter, got my drivers license, my high school diploma (I dropped out originally and got a GED)
I met a girl right before going to Job Corps. Towards the end of my enrollment, I started talking to her again, went on vacation or "leave days" to see her, we stayed in a hotel, it felt magical.
I completed Job Corps early and abandoned a career as a union carpenter to stay with her and her family. I tried my hardest for the first few months to find a job and keep pursuing my future, despite being lured by her trance and falling back into drugs and alcohol with her. I wanted to not let my family down anymore. She wanted to live like it was her last day on earth. Somewhere in all of it, I was also supposed to be the knight in shining armor that would sweep her off her feet, get the glorious carpentry job, and take care of her so her family wouldn't have to anymore.
Months went by, I had given up. I couldn't get a job, I felt like a failure and her family let me know that fact very well. Her Mom gave her a hand-me-down car and told us to leave their house and live in it.
For 4-6 months we lived in the car, wasting any money that didn't go to gas on alcohol or drugs. We made horrible decisions. I experienced the worst moments of my life. We both felt like all hope was lost and we were just floating along through the end of our lives. We made pit stops here and there for showers and whatnot at her parents and my Dad's place.
The beginning of this year, she went back to live with her parents and me with my Dad. But I was still lured in her trance. At the beginning of March, her parents decided to book her plane tickets to live with family in another state so she could go to rehab. She wanted one last chance to be with me, and so did I. But the months prior, every time we saw eachother it would end with drinking excessively, verbal fights, and her slapping me around. This time, we got drunk, had a verbal match, and I wouldn't put up with it, so I slapped her back. I was unfortunate that nobody had saw everything prior, but someone happened to see this, and I got arrested for domestic violence.
I'm still dealing with the legal issues. She has been out of my life since then, for good. And I don't miss her. But one thing the cop told me was that it was lust, not love, and fueled the relationship. Unhealthy relationships are doomed to fail.
Thank you for this video. I know my comment goes way out there, and I'm weird for going into such personal detail. But seeing this helped me. It has been hell. I don't miss her. I miss the lust. Lust is a poisonous drug.
Amen 🙏
Thankyou
So good Garrett!
Thank you my brother I am going to meditate on this video daily
Yes, I also have through this tormenting period of fighting with lust but Jesus has made me free from this sin.
Yes it will not happen in a snap but behold Lord Jesus is lot more powerful than our temptation.
Amen