I don't know how he is able to get inside my head and sing such a beautiful song describing exactly how I feel. I love this band so much. This is just one of their amazing songs.
This song was just made for me! I knew it almost 10 years ago, and it seems like in the first time. It is as if at some point his soul had been in my head. And those last words... "I want to belong, God, to someone, but maybe life is not for everyone"
This one is bittersweet for me. I have felt this way off and on most of my life. Then last February one of son’s lost his battle with anxiety and depression… alone… in his room. Never said a word to me that night about feeling so hopeless. No sign. Now he’s gone and again I feel this way, too. But I can’t, because I have other children I can’t do that to. My children have always been my reason for living. But half of my heart aches to die, while the other half lives for the rest of my kids.
So so sorry to here this.. my kids keep me where I don’t take it to my end… Blue October since 2006 with Hate Me and Into the Ocean helped me and some of my lowest times… Into the Ocean really meant something for me just because I’m a lover of the beach and one night got so bad depressed and just thoughts 100mph in my head it was dark I was trashed and I just ran out in it with no intentions of coming back. Then I thought of my daughter and son and what they would go through… so I came back in and just sat there pouring my eyes out. My husband and I never had a good marriage and he never understood the passion yet the anger and hurt and pain I had then and still have. I’m so grateful for These guys! So happy that Justin can pour out his heart and soul especially when it helps a bunch of us! I still always wonder if I will ever be truly happy but who knows🤷🏻♀️ it’s got to be hard to lose a child. I never want my children to pass before me!! But you said no one saw it coming? People hide stuff like that really well. And then others like myself seek help from someone and they turn it into a joke!! Mental illness isn’t a joke it’s real and people need to stop denying that! I just wanted to let you know many of us think about it but I pray not one will go through with it! Take care … God Bless 😊
@@shelleybrooks1156 Mental illness is never a joke. Joshua hid his illness status really well. We had times where he let me know he was feeling suicidal and in those times I was able to help him. But in the last year of his life he appeared happier than ever and seemed to have beat his depression, but he had just learned to hide it instead of talk about it. He got terribly drunk the night he died and just did it. He did reach out to his younger brother that was already asleep and his younger cousin who said he checked on Joshua and was told he was kidding and was fine. That time he didn’t reach out to me. We usually texted late at night bc he was living with my parents helping with my Dad. We’d text for an hour or so. He preferred text. God I miss my son so much. I’m not sure how your relationship is with your parents, Shelley, but I would never wish this pain on my worst enemy. My mother deserves to feel this way, bc she’s been a terrible mother. But I wouldn’t even wish it on her. My kids always keep me from the last move toward suicide. If it weren’t for them I’d been gone before I hit 30. I’ll be 50 this year. Honestly surprised I’ve made it this far. 💔
Hey me, your going to be coming back here in the future i can see it, so hello you-me-you 2021. life for you is okay x let me know if we achieve these things we are about to set upon
Glad to hear you have never felt this way...others have...a True Blue Fan understands what this songs about....please don't go trashing this band...your opinion makes want to fart!!
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Brings me to tears!
Yes, everytime I hear it.
I don't know how he is able to get inside my head and sing such a beautiful song describing exactly how I feel. I love this band so much. This is just one of their amazing songs.
Perfectly Said.
Amazing that he doesn't cry
Huge song
It moves me inside
He wrote it when he was 16
Wow ...someone understands ...these lyrics are so real ....amazing song
i hear u loud...very much so.
This song is so emotional, i used to feel this way, back in 2009
My soul screams this song
This song was just made for me! I knew it almost 10 years ago, and it seems like in the first time. It is as if at some point his soul had been in my head.
And those last words... "I want to belong, God, to someone, but maybe life is not for everyone"
This song breaks my heart every time. Thanks so much Justine for being honest about your suffering
Oh My God. Think this is one of my favorite versions. Amazing man. Thanks for sharing.
This one is bittersweet for me. I have felt this way off and on most of my life. Then last February one of son’s lost his battle with anxiety and depression… alone… in his room. Never said a word to me that night about feeling so hopeless. No sign. Now he’s gone and again I feel this way, too. But I can’t, because I have other children I can’t do that to. My children have always been my reason for living. But half of my heart aches to die, while the other half lives for the rest of my kids.
So so sorry to here this.. my kids keep me where I don’t take it to my end… Blue October since 2006 with Hate Me and Into the Ocean helped me and some of my lowest times… Into the Ocean really meant something for me just because I’m a lover of the beach and one night got so bad depressed and just thoughts 100mph in my head it was dark I was trashed and I just ran out in it with no intentions of coming back. Then I thought of my daughter and son and what they would go through… so I came back in and just sat there pouring my eyes out. My husband and I never had a good marriage and he never understood the passion yet the anger and hurt and pain I had then and still have. I’m so grateful for These guys! So happy that Justin can pour out his heart and soul especially when it helps a bunch of us! I still always wonder if I will ever be truly happy but who knows🤷🏻♀️ it’s got to be hard to lose a child. I never want my children to pass before me!! But you said no one saw it coming? People hide stuff like that really well. And then others like myself seek help from someone and they turn it into a joke!! Mental illness isn’t a joke it’s real and people need to stop denying that! I just wanted to let you know many of us think about it but I pray not one will go through with it! Take care … God Bless 😊
@@shelleybrooks1156 Mental illness is never a joke. Joshua hid his illness status really well. We had times where he let me know he was feeling suicidal and in those times I was able to help him. But in the last year of his life he appeared happier than ever and seemed to have beat his depression, but he had just learned to hide it instead of talk about it. He got terribly drunk the night he died and just did it. He did reach out to his younger brother that was already asleep and his younger cousin who said he checked on Joshua and was told he was kidding and was fine. That time he didn’t reach out to me. We usually texted late at night bc he was living with my parents helping with my Dad. We’d text for an hour or so. He preferred text. God I miss my son so much. I’m not sure how your relationship is with your parents, Shelley, but I would never wish this pain on my worst enemy. My mother deserves to feel this way, bc she’s been a terrible mother. But I wouldn’t even wish it on her. My kids always keep me from the last move toward suicide. If it weren’t for them I’d been gone before I hit 30. I’ll be 50 this year. Honestly surprised I’ve made it this far. 💔
Feeling this tonight😢😢😢
This song is so amazing
Thank you for uploading this. I’m glad Justin is better, but goodness he exudes such raw emotion here....
I lost my son this way… I feel this way now again myself.
Justin you are amazing 🙏
Wow i love it.
favorite blue october song. reminds me of the many times I have kicked heroin.
You will be happy
I'm here now 😢
Resonates.
💙💔💙
Amo
Hey me, your going to be coming back here in the future i can see it, so hello you-me-you 2021. life for you is okay x let me know if we achieve these things we are about to set upon
❤️
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They both died, right?
2:52 Joe Rogan😂. Srsly wtf was up with that look
The person desperately trying to start an off-beat clap is really distracting.
I agree.
Makes me want to fart
Glad to hear you have never felt this way...others have...a True Blue Fan understands what this songs about....please don't go trashing this band...your opinion makes want to fart!!
@@theresarichwine5282 Wow! True Blue fans are really, really hard to find!
Fart razors pls
@@rodney3076 Why?
So powerful.