Where have I been? Here is some of my story.
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 8 มิ.ย. 2022
- A lot has been going on for me for a while now and I am so sorry for being a ghost. Most of you know I struggle with mental health but these last few months broke me. I am recovering and trying to heal.
Normally I don't this type of personal things on here or really anywhere, I typically hold a lot in but idk, for some reason I felt like I just need to speak up about it. I apologize for it being kind of a weird recording. I actually started to tell my story on tictok because it just felt easier at the time. So the videos are just stitched together.
I am so sorry for being absent and letting yall down. I hope to keep focusing on healing, finish school, (pack, move and unpack for a temporary move, different story), and then hopefully come back here by the Fall.
I have created 2 fundraisers, one on Facebook and one on Ko-Fi for anyone that wants to help get me through these next few months. I also accept donations through PayPal and Venmo. Please do not feel obligated to donate anything, I do not want to burden anyone. Just your patience and cheer support means a lot to me.
I love you all from the bottom to the top of my heart. Thank you for being there and just being being the amazing people you are.
-Scarlet
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hang in there Scarlet
youre tough and youll power through
ya not gonna lose me
Lots a Love to you
I missed you so much I was so worried about you 🥺
sending virtual hugs, you got this
I remember talking to you before on here. Telling you that I understand is pointless. Telling you that it will be okay is pointless. Telling you not to be angry and that time heals all things is not only stupid but a lie. You and I have alot in common. That is what I will say. More than I care to admit. I have written very long...VERY long things on my self harming days, my former drug use, my criminal arrests, and complete spiral down into the abyss, for so many years. Why? Because of grief over death and abuse and alot of other things. The only thing that I will say to you here is that I promise you from the depths of my soul...You are not EVER alone. The creator of everything does love us. That took me years to accept, personally. I have so much that I want to say to you but you are going through enough. Just know...In the interwebs theres many people who you will find and experience, however briefly, but this time you found a very real person who comprehends being in a very deep well and you can see the sunlight at the top, you can see the way out but guess what? Yep, the sides are all lined with the sharpest razorblades in the world. All I can say is... Remember who you really are, and you might just find you have wings. I love you so much, even if we dont know each other. I honor your existence. You are going to touch so many people's lives. I pray you know that in your heart. Hugs hugs hugs.
I've been where you are, if you ever need to talk PLEASE find me. I know exactly where you are coming from I have night terrors, nightmare flashbacks, I also have muscular dystrophy, spinal scoliosis anxiety and depression with a touch of bipolar with lots of self-hate and self-harming tendencies. Now I understand why I have always been drawn to your spirit, we are sisters struggling the same dark path. Together we can get through this. Prayers and Blessings 🙏💖 Blessed Be. I am following you on TikTok.
EMDR worked for me. Eye Movement Disassociate Reprocessing. Therapists use it for veterans suffering from flashbacks.
I hope for the absolute best for you going on! There will be better days ahead
Want to say one more thing. You have a healing gift. You may either not know or just dont tell anyone. Just want to tell you never let this world tell you what is possible You are way more than the limits of this planet. I love you.
I don't get it
Well, that's a you problem.