Sorry you’re dealing with this, it’s about to be 3 years for me. It sucks so much but trying to do what I can to improve Appreciate you sharing your experience with us, really helps me feel less alone. Hopefully the next years will treat us better. Merry Christmas man!
Just came across your channel. Going on 3 full years into year 4 with my severe dpdr from maxing out on edibles. I couldn’t function, work or even have friends due to severe anxiety. Thought I was going crazy and that my mind was “broken “ I recently found dpdr from Shaun O’Connells channel and watch all of his interviews. They give me so much hope and really explain what’s going on in my brain so that I can better understand dpdr. The cure to anxiety is understanding it and from there it’s repetition to rewire our thoughts. I personally think dpdr is so different for everyone because it takes your trauma that you may have underlying and been living with throughout life and brings alll of that shiz to the surface. All of your fears and insecurities shoved in your face unavoidably. As im working through anxiety I’m feeling more of the numbness/hopelessness from dpdr too, but it’s still progress. I always ask myself when I start feeling a depressive episode come on “ what’s something I can do to help myself out of this“ and do it even if I don’t feel like it. Just keep pushing! Please be safe and don’t give up. Believe me I know there’s no words to explain how empty and dark having this disorder can be. But the further down into depression/hardships we go the more you can appreciate the good parts of life! In a way it’s a gift and we will be stronger wiser, more compassionate people after this experience. ❤️
@@rachelh4062 Yeah I’ve been through all those stages but like I say in the video it always ends it disappointment and I run out of steam. That’s what’s so frustrating, I get hope and push for months trying to think/do better then I crash. There’s some stuff that I don’t share much or at all on here that impacts me and it’s not mental health related which plays a part in keeping me stuck. Thank you 💙 What you’ve said is all true and I know it’ll help other people because it’s great info. You stay strong too and I wish you all the best!
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 just keep in mind that you’ve been thinking this way for YEARS. it takes your brain time to revert back to healthy thinking, but it will. Give yourself time and grace and try not to put a time frame on recovering❤️ you will recover and you’re doing so much better than you probably think you are. That’s obvious from seeing some of your first uploads
Im a year younger than you and ive been inside my room since end of 2022. No school, no work. I have 1 online friend. I'm alone all the time. I don't trust psychiatry meds anymore or therapists because all of it failed me and made me suffer more. Over Christmas my family told me I need to be a productive member of society. In other words, I currently provide no value to the world. It's made me feel pretty damn bad. I've got like no money as well so hopefully in January I can get a job somewhere. Probably going to be minimum wage retail because at the end of highschool I was directionless and unfortunately still am. It's so hard because with my anxiety issues I can just imagine my panic attacks and chest pains trying to do some kind of career that involves others. Plus going to college would take 2-4 years of my life and what if I pick the wrong thing!? Terrifying. My family scares me a lot by being so demanding i "get started in life" and how I need to earn enough money to be independent. Well, I'm praying.
Anxiety disorders are so treatable don’t give up hope no matter how bad it seems , I couldn’t even talk to McDonald’s workers at one point because I was so anxious and avoidant! Anxiety tells us to avoid things/people to keep us “ safe “ but the reality is that you are very safe in this world where we are all imperfect and wanting to be accepted. If you can remember that it’s so much easier and it’s the 100% truth. Everyone feels anxiety even if it’s not the at the same scale as a disorder. When these anxious thoughts come up literally make yourself stop thinking and don’t believe the “alarm” when it starts to go off. Tell yourself “ no this is just anxiety, I am safe and thinking this way is doing me more harm than good “ Start practicing just walking around your neighborhood. The more you give into anxiety and avoid avoid avoid the larger it grows until it takes over your life. You can face your fears one step at a time and you will be amazed by how much control you have over yourself and your life:) you can do this. I really recommend therapy specifically someone who specializes in anxiety disorders. People like us who have recovered usually dedicate their lives to helping others in similar situations
@@crunchybroll4731 that is a lot to deal with. The pressure of the unknown + your family is anxiety provoking. I hope things work out for you. Happy New Year
Over a year ago I started experiencing it severely and convinced that I'd be stuck with it forever. Now I basically don't notice it anymore/don't really care if it comes up. The main thing for me, which took persistence/time was to get comfortable with the idea that EVEN IF I was stuck with DP/DR and all the feelings that come with it, it wasn't the worst thing in the world and I could still do things to lead a decently enjoyable life. This also involved not avoiding situations that I was scared of e.g. going to work, dating, hanging with friends (you're doing this which is great!). I realised that even with discomfort that DP/DR brought, I could still enjoy little moments here and there, even if it was as small as a laugh with a friend. Over time, I cared less and less, convincing my brain that I could I could live life even with DP/DR, and then it became basically not noticable.
@@Philistori123 I get that, I’m used to it now in that I don’t notice it since it’s my new ‘normal’ but I still feel empty and depressed on the daily due to not feeling the positives or truly calm. After 5 years, the depressive episodes are getting bad and more frequent. There’s a physical issue that messes with me and impacts my ability to go out and meet people often which also plays a part in keeping the dpdr going as I’m lonely. I’m seeing specialists but they can’t seem to help much.
Have you tried different medications? Abilify and ssris are supposed to help. Not that medication is the answer but it can help I have it now so bad I can’t feel anxiety or any emotions , nothing feels familiar to me , I can’t feel love for my son even though I no I love him but can’t feel it it’s a horrible condition it literally is a symptom of anxiety but it’s so scary! Been 4 months of just numbness’ But there is hope and I hope you recover very soon!
There's not much I can do or say that will help you, but I wish you a happy new year. Always remind yourself that it is possible to find happiness, even if you have to deal with a mental disorder. 👍
I am using mirtazapine 15 mg since 2 years, when I am trying to leave so I can’t sleep all the night, when using so better sleep. So I don’t know for how long can we use this medication? Anyone knows that? If I will use for my life time so how it will be? And also I started low sex drive. I am too much worried about my life, how long can we use this medication please need help
I’ve been on Mirtazapine for 3 years, most of which has been at 30mg. I haven’t had any real bad side effects so plan to stay on for the foreseeable. From my research this med seems to be safe long term so I’m not worried about staying on it for 10+ years.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 Thanks a lot dear for your quick response, I was really worried about mirtazapine , I thought how long I will use? But you cleared that. Sometimes I thought that finish myself cox how long I will use this? But you gave me courage.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 Dear tell me one thing, that how you left mirtazapine? Did you sleep well after stopping mirtazapine? Cox which night if I not take mirta so can’t sleep
@ homie I still take Mirtazapine, I’ve never stopped it. Not sure if I’d be able to sleep or eat or stay stable without it. Not sure if the translation is getting us mixed up. Good luck with everything my friend 🙏🏻
Sorry you’re dealing with this, it’s about to be 3 years for me. It sucks so much but trying to do what I can to improve
Appreciate you sharing your experience with us, really helps me feel less alone. Hopefully the next years will treat us better. Merry Christmas man!
Hoping things get better for us all 🙏🏻 Merry Christmas, stay strong 💙
Just came across your channel. Going on 3 full years into year 4 with my severe dpdr from maxing out on edibles. I couldn’t function, work or even have friends due to severe anxiety. Thought I was going crazy and that my mind was “broken “
I recently found dpdr from Shaun O’Connells channel and watch all of his interviews. They give me so much hope and really explain what’s going on in my brain so that I can better understand dpdr.
The cure to anxiety is understanding it and from there it’s repetition to rewire our thoughts. I personally think dpdr is so different for everyone because it takes your trauma that you may have underlying and been living with throughout life and brings alll of that shiz to the surface. All of your fears and insecurities shoved in your face unavoidably. As im working through anxiety I’m feeling more of the numbness/hopelessness from dpdr too, but it’s still progress. I always ask myself when I start feeling a depressive episode come on “ what’s something I can do to help myself out of this“ and do it even if I don’t feel like it. Just keep pushing! Please be safe and don’t give up. Believe me I know there’s
no words to explain how empty and dark having this disorder can be. But the further down into depression/hardships we go the more you can appreciate the good parts of life! In a way it’s a gift and we will be stronger wiser, more compassionate people after this experience. ❤️
@@rachelh4062 Yeah I’ve been through all those stages but like I say in the video it always ends it disappointment and I run out of steam. That’s what’s so frustrating, I get hope and push for months trying to think/do better then I crash.
There’s some stuff that I don’t share much or at all on here that impacts me and it’s not mental health related which plays a part in keeping me stuck.
Thank you 💙 What you’ve said is all true and I know it’ll help other people because it’s great info. You stay strong too and I wish you all the best!
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 just keep in mind that you’ve been thinking this way for YEARS. it takes your brain time to revert back to healthy thinking, but it will. Give yourself time and grace and try not to put a time frame on recovering❤️ you will recover and you’re doing so much better than you probably think you are. That’s obvious from seeing some of your first uploads
Im a year younger than you and ive been inside my room since end of 2022. No school, no work. I have 1 online friend. I'm alone all the time. I don't trust psychiatry meds anymore or therapists because all of it failed me and made me suffer more. Over Christmas my family told me I need to be a productive member of society. In other words, I currently provide no value to the world. It's made me feel pretty damn bad. I've got like no money as well so hopefully in January I can get a job somewhere. Probably going to be minimum wage retail because at the end of highschool I was directionless and unfortunately still am. It's so hard because with my anxiety issues I can just imagine my panic attacks and chest pains trying to do some kind of career that involves others. Plus going to college would take 2-4 years of my life and what if I pick the wrong thing!? Terrifying. My family scares me a lot by being so demanding i "get started in life" and how I need to earn enough money to be independent. Well, I'm praying.
Anxiety disorders are so treatable don’t give up hope no matter how bad it seems , I couldn’t even talk to McDonald’s workers at one point because I was so anxious and avoidant! Anxiety tells us to avoid things/people to keep us “ safe “ but the reality is that you are very safe in this world where we are all imperfect and wanting to be accepted. If you can remember that it’s so much easier and it’s the 100% truth. Everyone feels anxiety even if it’s not the at the same scale as a disorder. When these anxious thoughts come up literally make yourself stop thinking and don’t believe the “alarm” when it starts to go off. Tell yourself “ no this is just anxiety, I am safe and thinking this way is doing me more harm than good “ Start practicing just walking around your neighborhood. The more you give into anxiety and avoid avoid avoid the larger it grows until it takes over your life. You can face your fears one step at a time and you will be amazed by how much control you have over yourself and your life:) you can do this. I really recommend therapy specifically someone who specializes in anxiety disorders. People like us who have recovered usually dedicate their lives to helping others in similar situations
@@crunchybroll4731 that is a lot to deal with. The pressure of the unknown + your family is anxiety provoking.
I hope things work out for you. Happy New Year
Over a year ago I started experiencing it severely and convinced that I'd be stuck with it forever. Now I basically don't notice it anymore/don't really care if it comes up. The main thing for me, which took persistence/time was to get comfortable with the idea that EVEN IF I was stuck with DP/DR and all the feelings that come with it, it wasn't the worst thing in the world and I could still do things to lead a decently enjoyable life. This also involved not avoiding situations that I was scared of e.g. going to work, dating, hanging with friends (you're doing this which is great!). I realised that even with discomfort that DP/DR brought, I could still enjoy little moments here and there, even if it was as small as a laugh with a friend. Over time, I cared less and less, convincing my brain that I could I could live life even with DP/DR, and then it became basically not noticable.
@@Philistori123 I get that, I’m used to it now in that I don’t notice it since it’s my new ‘normal’ but I still feel empty and depressed on the daily due to not feeling the positives or truly calm. After 5 years, the depressive episodes are getting bad and more frequent.
There’s a physical issue that messes with me and impacts my ability to go out and meet people often which also plays a part in keeping the dpdr going as I’m lonely. I’m seeing specialists but they can’t seem to help much.
Have you tried different medications? Abilify and ssris are supposed to help. Not that medication is the answer but it can help
I have it now so bad I can’t feel anxiety or any emotions , nothing feels familiar to me , I can’t feel love for my son even though I no I love him but can’t feel it it’s a horrible condition it literally is a symptom of anxiety but it’s so scary! Been 4 months of just numbness’
But there is hope and I hope you recover very soon!
There's not much I can do or say that will help you, but I wish you a happy new year. Always remind yourself that it is possible to find happiness, even if you have to deal with a mental disorder. 👍
@@Koltkaze Happy New Year mate, all the best 👊🏻
Have you tried micro dosing mushrooms for it?
I am using mirtazapine 15 mg since 2 years, when I am trying to leave so I can’t sleep all the night, when using so better sleep. So I don’t know for how long can we use this medication? Anyone knows that? If I will use for my life time so how it will be? And also I started low sex drive. I am too much worried about my life, how long can we use this medication please need help
I’ve been on Mirtazapine for 3 years, most of which has been at 30mg. I haven’t had any real bad side effects so plan to stay on for the foreseeable.
From my research this med seems to be safe long term so I’m not worried about staying on it for 10+ years.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521
Thanks a lot dear for your quick response, I was really worried about mirtazapine , I thought how long I will use? But you cleared that. Sometimes I thought that finish myself cox how long I will use this? But you gave me courage.
When using mirtazapine so sleep better. But I worried for my whole life
@@rhysmentalhealth2521
Dear tell me one thing, that how you left mirtazapine? Did you sleep well after stopping mirtazapine? Cox which night if I not take mirta so can’t sleep
@ homie I still take Mirtazapine, I’ve never stopped it. Not sure if I’d be able to sleep or eat or stay stable without it.
Not sure if the translation is getting us mixed up. Good luck with everything my friend 🙏🏻