Thanks Becky. Green shoots always come. I appreciate the point of acknowledgment, sometimes we are so focussed on covering up, surviving and may feel immense shame to just take stock and acknowledge where we are at. If we acknowledge where we are at we can also intentionally draw a line, establish a foundation from which we can step onwards and upwards and genuinely emerge into a new season, new chapter. Thanks for sharing. Always hope x
Thank you for your comment Melissa - it's so true. Acknowledgement takes real courage and finding the right support network that doesn't add to your shame and fear. But it is - in my experience - the first step to more freedom. Bringing 'darker things' into the light is not at all easy - but it is the start of a pathway to more freedom. Thank you again - sending love and blessings! xx
I am so sorry you have arachnoiditis too - it is an absolutely AWFUL condition to live with that is made so much worse by the lack of understanding in the medical profession. That's a big reason why I have started this channel - education about the condition and helping people to know how to live with it!
I was having a mentally hard day not long ago and decided I needed to get out of my bed (After a blind blood patch my leak symptoms are returning so the longer in bed the 'better' I feel). Staring at the ceiling was driving me mad. I went in the garden to lie on my back (of course) on an old lounger and looked up at the sky. It was all grey like yours is there with layers upon layers of deep rolling clouds getting darker by the minute. I was thinking about my faith and how I had faith that things will get better, but also how the depression felt like the dark clouds and how it would rain soon whether I liked it or not. As a thought in my mind, I said to God, 'you know, you could make a blue sky any second you felt like it and I have faith that whenever its needed, blue sky will be there.' Then within 10 seconds a tiny jagged hole started to appear..I kept watching as this tiny patch started to turn a lighter grey than the surrounding clouds, then it turned white and within seconds it was BRIGHT BLUE. This teeny, small 'hole' (I've never seen anything like it, was like a tunnel) had appeared and pierced straight through every layer of cloud to the blue sky! I stared in shock and then started giggling uncontrollably and said out loud 'ok! Ok! I see the blue!!!' It was magical. Within another few seconds it closed completely and you couldn't even see where it had been. I had faith the blue sky would appear and it did and with it, my depression too disappeared. Leaving me giggling and giddy with joy.😁 Things will get better and I'm blessed to be given such signs of his glory whenever I feel down. Things you just can't explain. It really is so cool! EDIT. I paused the video when you were in the field and wrote this comment. Just unpaused, watched longer and now youre describing the blue above the clouds?! Brilliant!
Thank you for sharing your wonderful story of hope. Hope is both so very powerful but also so very delicate. Hold on - it sure is a tough road - full of many ups & downs. But I have found God so faithful, gracious & loving within it all. Even when at times I too found it hard to find him amidst all the darkness & pain. Xx
I've been diagnosed with arachnoiditis...have had serve pain after a spiral block....now my bowels aren't working without major meds and bag fleets....I don't know what's to come next...waiting to see a Nero surgeon the 13th...stomach Dr on Monday...needs answers
I am so sorry to hear that / it’s awful... I really hope that you find a way forward!! It’s a awful condition that is made SO much worse by the lack of knowledge in the medical profession. I hope you find the right doctors to help you!
Thank you Becky 🙏
Thanks Becky. Green shoots always come. I appreciate the point of acknowledgment, sometimes we are so focussed on covering up, surviving and may feel immense shame to just take stock and acknowledge where we are at. If we acknowledge where we are at we can also intentionally draw a line, establish a foundation from which we can step onwards and upwards and genuinely emerge into a new season, new chapter. Thanks for sharing. Always hope x
Thank you for your comment Melissa - it's so true. Acknowledgement takes real courage and finding the right support network that doesn't add to your shame and fear. But it is - in my experience - the first step to more freedom. Bringing 'darker things' into the light is not at all easy - but it is the start of a pathway to more freedom. Thank you again - sending love and blessings! xx
Thank you for your videos. I also have Arachnoiditis and the lack of education in the medical field is so frustrating. Thanks again.
I am so sorry you have arachnoiditis too - it is an absolutely AWFUL condition to live with that is made so much worse by the lack of understanding in the medical profession. That's a big reason why I have started this channel - education about the condition and helping people to know how to live with it!
I was having a mentally hard day not long ago and decided I needed to get out of my bed (After a blind blood patch my leak symptoms are returning so the longer in bed the 'better' I feel). Staring at the ceiling was driving me mad. I went in the garden to lie on my back (of course) on an old lounger and looked up at the sky. It was all grey like yours is there with layers upon layers of deep rolling clouds getting darker by the minute. I was thinking about my faith and how I had faith that things will get better, but also how the depression felt like the dark clouds and how it would rain soon whether I liked it or not. As a thought in my mind, I said to God, 'you know, you could make a blue sky any second you felt like it and I have faith that whenever its needed, blue sky will be there.' Then within 10 seconds a tiny jagged hole started to appear..I kept watching as this tiny patch started to turn a lighter grey than the surrounding clouds, then it turned white and within seconds it was BRIGHT BLUE. This teeny, small 'hole' (I've never seen anything like it, was like a tunnel) had appeared and pierced straight through every layer of cloud to the blue sky! I stared in shock and then started giggling uncontrollably and said out loud 'ok! Ok! I see the blue!!!' It was magical. Within another few seconds it closed completely and you couldn't even see where it had been. I had faith the blue sky would appear and it did and with it, my depression too disappeared. Leaving me giggling and giddy with joy.😁
Things will get better and I'm blessed to be given such signs of his glory whenever I feel down. Things you just can't explain. It really is so cool!
EDIT. I paused the video when you were in the field and wrote this comment. Just unpaused, watched longer and now youre describing the blue above the clouds?! Brilliant!
Thank you for sharing your wonderful story of hope. Hope is both so very powerful but also so very delicate. Hold on - it sure is a tough road - full of many ups & downs. But I have found God so faithful, gracious & loving within it all. Even when at times I too found it hard to find him amidst all the darkness & pain. Xx
I've been diagnosed with arachnoiditis...have had serve pain after a spiral block....now my bowels aren't working without major meds and bag fleets....I don't know what's to come next...waiting to see a Nero surgeon the 13th...stomach Dr on Monday...needs answers
I am so sorry to hear that / it’s awful... I really hope that you find a way forward!! It’s a awful condition that is made SO much worse by the lack of knowledge in the medical profession. I hope you find the right doctors to help you!
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