Right now my life is full of uncertainty. I'm getting my leg amputated in less than two weeks from now. I got very ill and lost the ability to walk. My mother died and my wife left me because I couldn't work. I've lost everything... Hopefully when they amputate my leg I'll be able to walk again. I want what everyone takes for granted back. I'm homeless, alone and scared. I was a champion swimmer at one point. I had a GREAT job and plenty of money. Now I'm sleeping at a friend's house until I get through rehab. The cold is coming. Extremely intense pain is coming. I'm more alone than I've ever been. All my friends decided it was too much effort to hang out with a disabled person. I still have hope! I don't want to leave this earth like this. I have so much to learn. These videos reflect my mood lately. This one really hit home. I feel like I'm in one of those buildings and everyone has left me to expire alone in the cold. I'm just hibernating. I'll be back stronger than ever. When I get back on my feet I'll be unstoppable. I have something to show this cold, hate filled, greedy world. The light from the center of my heart... It's bright. Nothing can dim it. Not even death.
Your comment is heart breaking and so hopeful at the same time. I will be thinking of you Luke and sending you thoughts of healing, peace of mind and friendship in your future. You sure as he!! have a long road ahead of you but your attitude is incredible. There are organizations that can help you. I would suggest finding a soup kitchen and asking for the person who is in charge - many times they can give you names and organizations that can help. There are many programs for those who are homeless. In my state it is called BRAP. It is hard to ask for help but please Luke ...ASK!!! Many local churches are good sources of information as well. I wish you the very best and believe you will get through this. We are strangers but that doesn't matter. I have your name written down in a book with many others. Each night and every morning I send thoughts of love to them. I call it a collective consciousness of love. Many others will think of you as well - YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Thinking of you...
you have nothing to show to anyone my friend hatred and vengeance shouldn't be your motive and motivation in your life. everybody is just living their own different perspectives of life and having the feeling to prove something to others will only deprive you of your happiness. Your end goal and motivation at the end of the day is to become a better person and live with an open heart even if there is pain.
Exactly, whilst I know it's a really horrible time of year for many (and despite having had an anti-climactic, inclement summer here in Northern Europe) I will never understand the people who look forward to and enjoy the insane, lingering periods of heat and scorching radioactive sun we get now that passes for summer. At least in winter you can *try* to get warm if you're cold, in a summer hotspot the only time you can get moderately cool is if you have good shade or an ocean breeze (and that's only really a source of relief in the early morning or late evening). Go forbid if you're landlocked... In short, I don't get people in general!!
@@End-Resulti can agree with you on so much of that. It's why I moved from the middle of Oklahoma to the southern rockies in New Mexico. The higher elevation makes the weather so much colder (around 20 degrees F colder in the summer) and there is much less people to be bothered by. I don't understand why people love summer. If you're cold, you can put on another set of clothes over you, or add a blanket. If you're warm, there's a limit to how much you can remove, especially if you're outside.
@TheCheeseDoingThingsYT Currently in Oklahoma(OKC) I've had hayfever 10+ times this year so pollen has been on steroids or something, while it hasn't been as hot as last few years, it's been a pretty shitty summer, so glad autumn is coming, I like the winter too.
Me too man I LOVE cold and I’m from Cleveland and I’m glad I live in a place that is cold, gets both 4 seasons, above sea level, no natural disaster (mostly), it’s by a lake and it borders our northern neighbor, Canada, so I’m glad I live in place that snows and I love the perception like rain and of course snow
@@siegodertriumphalertod She's Brazilian... Edit: Coming from a fellow Carvalho (Portuguese last name.) who knows about how bad air pollution and wildfires has been in Brazil.
I have a vivid memory of one morning when I was a kid. I was staying at a hotel in Örebro, Sweden in the dead of winter. I woke up around 4:30 am and my family was still asleep. I crept to the window overlooking the city street below and looked outside… snow was falling and there was a thick white blanket of it over everything, perfectly untouched. It was very quiet. A woman holding an umbrella walked by below, the first person to leave a mark in the snow. I continued watching as the light began to change and the city slowly came to life outside the window. I felt warm and safe.
recently my nursing class has been getting harder. i never truly wanted to be a nurse, i really want to be an artist. id rather pick up a paint brush instead of a needle, but this is how it all turned out. my family is relying on me to become rich, and in order to marry the loml, her parents need to approve of me. they all want me to be a doctor. i will be one. but deep down, i just want to be happy. i wont let anyone know except this youtube comment section, so if you're seeing this then i love you and never stop doing what you want. do what you love and not what anyone else says. dont make my mistake. believe
every day the decision of whether to find a career in something practical like tech or business vs something artistic that fulfills me gets more difficult, this comment really resonated with me
Same here. I'm studying to become a software engineer, but I truly want to be a musician. I've thought about this topic a lot, and I've made a conclusion: If what we love, painting, arts, or music, isn't worth living on the streets for, all we can do is keep it as a hobby that's close to our hearts. My favorite guitarist Dave Mustaine said that if you're willing to live on the streets without food on a daily basis, do that, and keep pursuing your dreams as an artist. But if you want to have a stable income to be able to afford your hobby and yourself, keep the arts as a hobby, so you hopefully one day, can make it into a career. He also said that if he could've done that, he would. What I'm trying to get at is: It's not over for us. Every day is a new opportunity, and I truly believe that God put our dreams in us for a reason. You got this, I believe in you. Hope this helped you or anyone else in a similar situation. Love
Well....I'm preparing for a medical exam to become a doctor....if not that then a nurse...but I don't really have a passion to follow. Been thinking about research lately but there's not much earning prospective there....idk man.
Shig is that you? But seriously, I get that feeling, even if in my case it wasn't a path of a doctor. To be fair, I never really knew where to go to, so it's no surprise i'm still stranded on some undefined path (acctually they call path "unemployment"). I felt incredibly stressed about the whole future career thing. What choice to make. I imagined a perfect life as simply having a stable job that pays well enough. But I never learned any skill or preference... I was also really insuecure about my self image. Often afraid of talking about what i want to do or where i did work. I didn't wanted to be looked down on, yet couldn't strive for something better. I focus on art lately, not as a career, just for fun and to express myself with it (Procrastination is my second name). But hope dies last. It's ain't over till it's over. There's some plans I have, it's just that I take them slowly, one at a time. Eventually I'll figure things out and if not, I'll die trying ...or procrastinating. Such is life. But you, you have goals and ambition. If there's anyone who can make it, then it's gotta be you. Good luck and take care.
this reminds me of that feeling when youre staying the night somewhere unfamiliar that isnt a hotel. usually its a family members house, baby sitter, or trusted friend of a friends house. usually involves a guest bedroom or couch that they break out the extra pillows and comforters for. the unfamiliarity invites a sense of loneliness, and a heightened sense of wonder. For example, staring at the texture of the ceiling, popcorn ceilings were the best, the shades of color on the walls now that the lights were turned out, porcelain dolls were the worst lol, what the silent ambiance of their house sounded like, ac units, ceiling fans, cuckoo or grandfather clocks, but overall just the feeling of lucid liminality right as youre ab to fall asleep and even more so after you wake up before everyone else wakes up. or was that just me?
так удивительно читать про то, как люди скучают по холоду и зиме.. я из Сибири, и я ненавижу зиму и холод, за столько лет так и не приспособилась с к ним. С наступлением зимы я всегда начинаю чувствовать себя плохо, и мысли о том, что совсем скоро мир вокруг снова на 6 месяцев поглотит холод, снег и серость, вгоняют в тоску
я сам с сибири, часто выезжаю в лес за 150 км от города, там есть старая но очень крепкая хижина. Остаюсь на неделю другую. Это одиночество угнетает и одновременно дает тебе ощущение сильнейшего спокойствия, приехав туда ты забываешь о всех своих проблемах, словно перерождаешься в этом месте.
Я даже особо никогда и не задумывалась, что мне могут понравиться такие тревожные мелодии, а читать под них вообще прикольно, ещё и атмосфера такая необычная.
I thank the cold for bringing me safety and comfort when I needed it most. When my tears wouldn't dry themselves, the cold did it for me. When I needed a hug, the cold did it for me. When I needed someone to talk to, the cold would listen. I don't think the cold knows how much I miss it in the months it's gone. I don't think it realizes I love it.
It's both unsettling and comforting to watch these. Not quite like dying, but having a glimpse of the afterlife. You know it's going to be fine afterwards, or at least with no problems, but you don't want to go
The paradox or irony of life. I find myself loving all these drone ambient music.No words, most are not tradition "music" but they invoke certain feelings i cant really explain its raw but calming at the same time. Almost like unraveling the mind, accepting the dark yet fighting to live. Neverr played silent hill but ive listened to all their soundtracks and my goodness terrying and some of the most calming songs ever Akira Yamaoka is a genius truly.So is Trent reznor and Atticus ross.May we all find peace in the cruel dark world and live through the day no matter what comes.
Cold is an embodiment of my country. I can't say I like winter a lot, but it's the season that feels like home to me. Dark morning without any ray of sunlight, endless cloudy days, when the horizon merges with the earth, harsh snowstorms - all of these became part of me, took a special place on my heart. Thank you for this playlist, it's beautiful
Did anyone notice that watching this video feels like you are backrooms security, out of this world, where cameras appear randomly in this endless space with different levels, and you are just watching the video from the cameras scattered all over the space? Unexplainably weird and cool feeling.
Hang in there! Remember to breathe and take time to check in with yourself ("Am I hungry? Tired? Feeling okay?" etc.), and grab any downtime you can get. This won't last forever, and it's gonna be worth it.
Reminds me of when I was a kid alone and trudging through the snowy woods to and from my friend's house the next town over. I did this almost daily, day and night, often high. It was lonely and most times it hurt in the beginning but I really learned how to be alone in time, to not count on or rely on anybody, that the world and nature are cold silent places - and that those are not bad things, unless you fight it. Nowadays I can do almost anything by myself and I prefer it that way most times, because I always think back to when I was totally physically and mentally absorbed in the moments I was totally and completely by myself in the middle of nowhere. Had I gone missing, nobody would have come looking nor would I have wanted them to, I doubt many people would have really cared past the first week of me being gone and good riddance; people are animals. I'm an animal too and I always have been, I'm just a whole lot better at it than most people now.
I miss the days of true winters decades past A thick fog eclipsing buildings and streets A frosty chill on every surface Slopes of thick snow up to your waist
@@62hwvgvekaihvevevj yeah i used to live in canada where it would be like that, until late 2019 now i live in the uk, not really as much of a chance of snow here honestly i would want to move back to canada just for it
I just heard the word "coldcore" in my head, and I can already feel this is my vibe and what I need right now. I need winter in Vietnam so bad, it's autumn yet still humid and 27 degrees.
Yk, I’ve lived in Florida (Most southern US state) my whole life and we don’t get snow here. One of my biggest dreams is just to wake up to snowfall, sip on a warm drink, and maybe throw a snowball or two. Something that’s so simple for many, but something that I’ve never experienced. It feels like I’m missing a core element of my childhood that so many others had. One would think that Florida is a sunny paradise, but if it’s not winter, it’s a flaming hellscape full of tourists and old people. Anyways, just had to get that off of my chest.
God, I’m on the Texas coastline and I feel this. Ever since early childhood I’ve loved snow, just been fascinated by it. I’ve seen it a few times, but only in a very fleeting way that left me mostly anxious and once with a deep freeze that killed our power for 3 days and led us needing to rebuild part of the house. I actually don’t resent that time, somehow, so much of my life shifted in those few months into a really nice rhythm, but I still wish. I still long for the deep snow. I miss a childhood I couldn’t have, going out late at night to the cradling silence of blank ice crystallized to fall in such a perfectly whimsical way. I still remember studying every branch of the snowflakes that landed on my sleeves. They felt so alive somehow.
@@vid8323 I totally get it bro. Thanks for sharing. I'm starting to realize that I'm not alone in my experiences with(out) snow. Also, that was so well written, you need to be a poet 😭
Ahahaha, how funny that is. I'm from Russia, and I just hate snow. I live in the European part, relatively close to Moscow, and even though snow falls only in winter, I don't like it very much. Either constant slush, or on the contrary, huge snowdrifts, and it's just uncomfortable to walk around. I would very much like to live in a region like Florida (mainly because of normal American institutions and laws, but also because of the climate 😄).
The cold is one of the only few places that give me warmth. There’s something so beautiful about how peaceful and still it gets when there’s heavy snowfall and it lays on the ground, absorbing the sounds of the world and leaving only a serene silence and a chilly breeze that can blow any and all thoughts. A cold emptiness that brings peace to mind, body and soul.
You should do a playlist based around that feeling you had as a child, when you get lost at the mall and your family is nowhere in sight, or when your at school after-hours and everything is dark and empty. Could make a cool aesthetic 👍
@@WeAreStillLaughingone time i got away from my parents in a mall (which is now a parking lot) and i went up to what i can only describe as a doorway to the backrooms. It was a gray metal door that was being held open by a hitch on the wall. I wanted to go in there but i couldnt go all the way in, and also my parents found me and i asked them what was back there and they just wouldnt tell me.
when that crispness of the fall air fades ,the early mornings light dimmer, replaced by a biting chill I feel a nostalgia that I cant explain for a time of joy and being merry that perhaps I have never known
Just want to say that I’ve been struggling with depression almost my whole life, and when I allow myself to be with it and feel it, it feels so much better than trying to ignore it. And music like this makes it easier to process those emotions
I just left Western, NC after the massive flooding this year. I worked 72 hours straight trying to find people and i didn’t want to leave. This is calming me more than anything.
Im trying to keep optimistic but it’s harder and harder each day I’m as lonely as now. I don’t have any friends. I don’t wanna be in a relationship, I just want a friend, but my social skills are worse and worse each day. Sometimes, I’m just unable to go to school. My body just stops reacting to my brain and I’m unable to convince myself that it’s worth it. I’m so ashamed of it. I feel like none of people I’m in contact with can relate to my problems. I feel like they became too big to even start doing something with them. The fact that I have no one to help me go through this shit is just killing me. And here I am, trying to convince myself to go to school tomorrow. There are days when I am scared that I won’t be able to control these feelings and will do something to hurt myself.
I have the same problem. I won't recommend you the already boring options of finding friends on the Internet and all that. I am more disappointed in people, I am afraid of them, because they are aggressive and cynical And by doing this they killed my desire to do anything, I don't leave the house and I deprive myself of the joys of life just because I'm afraid of people. So I think sometimes it's better to be alone, but at least in safe.
@Cheetah_OwO True i realised this year from a girl i used to kick it with that my dear friend been tryna smash they been hanging out etc i felt bad but the lunchlnne he said so really bad things about me. Mind you wereso close and he was my confidant, we shared similar dreams passions we both lost parents so was good to have someone my age, similar circumstance.someone who could understand me. Felt alone for a while after that, no trust in anyone.Recently, i started reconnecting with brother although i dont share everything with him he is the closest one to see my true face,my pain. Think and look in your life who could fill that gap. Trust is built so choose wisely...if all fails i suggest see a professional at least no risk of "leaks"and info to be used against you. Pick a hobby, get abit good you will find like minded people. heck join a club its a start.We all need starting points. I barely have any friends now but im keeping the ones close and making time for them Friendship are a two way street. Have you been a good friend? Truly...
You sound young (not to dismiss your feelings) i would say pause take a breather. Close your eyes and imagine what a better life would look like. Then start small (for me i always write stuff down so i can be accountable later on and also as a reminder). Get a routine foing (the usual make enjoyable breakfast, go for a walk or run which also checks the nature outdoor on my list, go to school, try connect over anything if not no problem get a book or do something that interests you drawing for me and music. Then when home see if you can soend tkme with family, or a pet if you have. My point is try small then build up while appreciating what you do have. Im assuming alot is ok e.g your environment,neighborhood, family etc. Back then i made a few friends some by talking about stuff they and i liked e.g met a girl just by talking about tv shows in class.i used to over hear uer so one day i said hi and asked do you watch the O.C? Rest is history my other two was just from playing chess and watchinv anime. Try dress better, look better, get a hobby going work on your passions the friends will come. For now work on yourself and be kind tk yourself. I used to hate myself i never said anything good to me inside.my thoughts were dark and grim....now not everyday but i try gove credit where its due. You are important even if you dont see it. Affirmations work but in the end you have to love yourself...we always take care of things we love....
Я сейчас живу до сих пор в Сибири, но уже дальше от полярного круга. Друзья скидывают фотки снега, как там всё замерзает, какая у них синева утром и вечером, а у нас просто слякоть, как в Москве. Очень скучаю по ранней зиме, когда в сентябре всё уже замело((. Со снегом всё становится легче, как во сне.
Respectfully , these playlist make my days calmer . At school, promotion is coming up next year is hard . Its always repeating, go home, don't eat, do hw, and sleep . My life is like a complete loop. Sometimes i just want to disappear, but i know i cant . Being the third wheeler sucks, i feel like im losing everything, my girlfriend always has something to do, it turns out shes w/ someone else . At the hospital it feels worst,i feel like my life is slowly ending, but ill still face it . Either im not in reality, or i just messed up .
@@sploda9886 😆 Greetings from Germany! It was a warm day, but the first leaves are turning yellow. Fall ist about to start. Long nights and rain will follow. What a cosy time!
@@3142shara I promise you that you don’t want to It’s not the good kind of summer, it’s the 90% humidity kind where you sweat 1 step out the door and you can’t spend longer than a minute outside because it’ll actually give you skin cancer and heat exhaustion We’re talking ~100+ degress Fahrenheit every single day for a month with no rain
There's a certain vibe of this that definitely hits home in myself that no playlist could quite capture - it quells the unnecessary thoughts in my mind.
I still don't like the cold, but I've come to appreciate how sobering it can be. I walk dogs for work and this past winter was especially difficult getting up at the coldest part of the morning before the sun starts to rise.
I absolutely love when it snows, although it doesn't often where I am, and winter is just a cold, constant dullness. But this makes me remember the times when the cold was actually inviting and even a little exciting
as i listened to the first song i immediatly wanted to go to my mom, tell her i wont just stop trying forever, and that i wont leave her behind, i want my loved ones to know i love them and see through the depressive and irritable disposition i can have sometimes, they are the most important people in the world, they should know that
right now that I’m watching this, I’m in indescribable pain which leaves passing away my only hope. but somehow I’m still fighting my way through this sickness. this autumn is cruel. I hope I get better when the winter arrives.
@@btwitsrovnan I hope by the time winter comes around, it finds you in less pain and a better place. Sending you the best of wishes, please hang in there.
man, how i love the cold. the snow that fell out of the sky, the warm hot chocolate my beloved ones made me, the snowy forests.. everything. coldcore is my favourite aesthetic, because it makes me remember of my childhood, when i used to be happy. things will never be the same.
The depression and emptiness of modern society are one of the great drawbacks, but I think it's a great blessing to be able to share it and understand each other. We are very far away from each other, but on this playlist, we share our lives with each other.
It took me until I was fourteen to realise I was trapped, and until eighteen to realise that the trap was the root of my problems. Sometimes it feels hopeless; that I'll be stuck in the same place forever. Stuck here. But all of my dreams, and my refusal to shake them off, show that I still have hope for my future. I want freedom. I want to be far away from here. I want cold, dark winters, to walk through snow under a black sky when I come home from work. To live in Canada. I don't know if I'll ever be capable of doing anything on my own, but I'm getting there. Step by tiny step.
I like listening to these tracks and I keep reading the comments. That makes me feel good. It's good to hear such different opinions and stories. This is uplifting to me.
i have bpd so i try to listen to slower calmer songs when im manic and more upbeat and hyper songs when im in a depressive state, just to try balance my moods which works sometimes. this is working for me, thank you:)
While some people dream of snow, it's already snowing outside my window for the second day. In my region, winter lasts 5 months a year, and the air temperature drops not to minus 10 degrees, but to -20 or even -30, and sometimes even lower. Having been born in the Urals, we quickly get used to such conditions and can no longer imagine our life without snow drifts, snowmen and blizzards.
Мне это напоминает детство. Я вырос в небольшом военном городке в Приморье и кто там жил, знает какие там зимы и какие там ночи зимой. В общем, от дома до школы ~2,5 километра и зимой приходилось идти в кромешной темноте по глубокому снегу мимо кладбища, морга, болота возне насосной станции, мимо замусоренной старицы, по мосту без перил через овраг и всё это в -35. Соответственно, одеваться мне приходилось как в арктическую экспедицию.
How strange...I've been thinking and playing out a RP scenario ofn my 'character' is dying in the cold. This playlist popped up and it really encapsulates the feeling. The universe knows...they know...I've been getting way too many 'coincedences' lately.
I’m living in the desert now, and with a heatwave coming in late September I’m pining for a Midwest winter. The heaviest snowfall in mainland America is just two hours away from me, but I’ll get trapped in the mountains if I try to go when the fires burn out and it starts to change season. I’ll watch them from the valley and pretend I’m there.
@@demonicinspirer751 viruses, which most colds are a result of, typically multiply better in lower temperatures, hence why your body temperature raises (fever) and makes you shiver (to produce more warmth from muscles working) in the respone to an infection, it's an evolutionary defense mechanism. Making yourself cold is an exact opposite of what your body wants you to do to in order to survive.
Так интересно. Раньше думала, что на 100% ненавижу зиму, теперь понимаю, что это намного сложнее. Она угнетает, пугает, завораживает, поглощает. Я хочу написать об этом, и сделаю это, когда подберу нужные слова.
WOO NEW PLAYLIST DROPPED, i didn't really have time today to see it, in romania, 8th graders(14 yrs old) have a really important exam that places you in high school (if you get a bad grade - which is very easy, the scores you need to get are very high- your whole life is lowkey over.I studied a lot in the summer break but now in school everything's a little harder. Today, monady, i have after classes in romanian and math. its 8pm when i finish everything and finally get home. In our schools, there is an assigned teacher (i think you can call it homeroon). Baisically this teacher represents us as a class. She had a parent-teacher meeting with all of the class parents. i'm the 2nd best in class and my deskmate is 1st. Our parents and we think that the schedule is really bad put, i wont go into details. Today, out homeroon teacher humiliated both of us in front of the whole class. After that she made me answer, i was physically unable to speak, im not getting along with people in my class due to all of them being mean, but now they have another reason to be shitty. In a month we have planned a trip and im scared she(my homeroon) will make me feel shitty again. I wish i could go to the principal, but the principal is really shitty and my homeroon might get another reason to defavorize me. My homeroon always hated me since 5th grade, she's always giving me grades lower than i do and i really hope ill get a better homeroon in high school. I'm just really shocked how shitty she could be to some literal children. Even if she wanted to take ot her anger, you don't humiliate kids (who you clearly know don't get along with the class) in front of the class. I know she's gonna make this year miserable now but i cant really do anything. All i have to focus now is the damn exam, because both i and my parents want me to get in a really good school so i can have many options.
You're very strong:) And yeah, sounds like ur homeroon teacher sucks, but dont let her make you think youre unworthy. You will shine, the glimmer is already within.
Not in Romania but in the USA. We have standardized testing every year and it sort of does the same thing but I feel you when you say you don’t get home till 8 pm. A school district about 60 miles from me doesn’t get home until 10 pm. Biggest city in my state just horrible people running the schools.
Hei, ma bucur cand gasesc romani in locuri neasteptate :)) Nu merita sa te stresezi foarte mult cu examenul, deoarece si controlarea emotiilor contribuie foarte mult la succes. E foarte important sa te odihnesti bine inainte de examen. Baga-ti ceva in ea de anxietate, ca nu e buna de nimic, si pune capul pe perna. Evaluarea nationala e mult mai usoara decat crezi. In clasa a 8-a mai mult am frecat menta, dar faptul ca m-am odihnit inainte de examen si mi-am gestionat emotiile in timp ce rezolvam exercitiile m-a ajutat enorm. Am luat 8 si ceva la ambele materii si acum sunt la un liceu teoretic bunicel. Sfatul meu este sa inveti, dar si sa-ti faci timp sa creezi amintiri placute in aceasta perioada. Fii puternic/a si indura momentan aceste experiente negative, caci ele sunt trecatoare. Iti urez mult succes si spor la invatat! :)
Эти мелодии сопровождают меня на протяжении всей жизни. Я родился в Мурманской области, прожил там значительную часть своего существования. Для меня картины и пейзажи холода, заснеженных лесов, зашарпанных панелек, темноты и пустоты как родные, становится так спокойно на душе. Даже не взирая на малочисленность людей или их отсутствие, всё-равно ощущаю положительные эмоции, без какого-либо негатива. И после переезда на юг для меня эта эстетика остаётся близкой. Наверное, это навсегда :)
Does anyone ever notice how beautiful and mesmerizing water is? If I had a choice, I would live in the water. It’s tempting, like crystal caves shining against the luminous light of their own reflections. I could drown in that beauty.
I feel numb. Every day looks the exact same, slow, boring, and lonely. I've always felt lonely, and this feeling seems to persist somehow. My dad said I do this to myself, that I am selfish and a fake person for it, but what can I do other than pretending to live happily? I've been thinking a lot about unaliving myself all the time. I'm going through my last year of school, I have one of the most important tests of my life in 25 days that will basically decide my future, and I feel completely unprepared for it. I don't know if I'm someone who was born to live, to feel genuine happiness, maybe I shouldn't have been born at all. Songs like this always remind me of myself, the sound of reality when I used to be off my meds. It was cold but truthful. It was me, the sad, unstable, and self-destructive me. I feel guilty for missing this old me...
having been through periods of life that sound like what youre describing, I promise you that it gets better, at least in waves. some days better, some days still bad. the world is densely full of both beauty and pain and I truly hope that you find something that compels you to keep trying
how nice it is to listen to this, even though I’m freezing now without heating. Alas, every year it gets worse, and I become more and more vulnerable. I'd give anything for a heater
I've been suffering a lot from delusions and paranoia and this playlist gave me a sense of comfort, it likes when your young again and someone tells you 'Everything will be okay'
Coldcore has me missing a good cold michigan winter night after it snowed and its quiet and youre alone and staring out at the lake. Thank you for this. :)
People talk about quiet, empty towns being unnatural and creepy If you think about it, most of the world is that way. It's human noise that's unnatural Next time you're out there, alone, surrounded by nothing but deafening silence... Think about how you've finally returned to the natural state of things
Ive never really experienced a true winter because ive lived in florida all my life but the two times ive been far enough north for it to snow really were something else. I miss the specific kind of hurt that the snow brings if you're not prepared, when the air is sharp and chilling but still damp. Im sure I'd get sick of it if i had to deal with it every year but i remember the feeling of the wind and ice fondly and this playlist is a perfect soundtrack for those memories.
A lot of the past years, namely during the years of heavy snowfalls, Id often take the screen out of my window and sit there leaning out into the silent and heavy world . How the air is a freezing bite, but moves nowhere , how often i sat there alone with Her, with nature. Before it was changed, the air outside used to be orange. The way it used to reflect off of everything, every falling snowflake by the thousands, by the millions each second right there in front of my eyes, the beauty of falling snow is forever in my eyes. It brings me sense, a feeling, of peace I've never felt otherwise or anywhere else. Then the light was taken down, replaced with a smaller blue light, and the snow hasnt been the same since. Its a funny thing, nostalgia, how it can happen for something that still seems so recent. Those orange lights used to be my "nightlight', that was the color of the world, and i wish it could go back to that, it was more serene back then.
This is so comforting. it is a collection of pieces made to inspire, to ignite feelings of dread, reluctant acceptance and even twisted comfort. It is as if the collective feeling these invoke are "Everything has fallen apart, because of me, again. But atleast i have you, for now." This is so melancholic and beautiful... I love it.
Listening to this while it's raining and my aquarium filter is going may really be peak. Coldcore is melancholic, as we are losing most of the ice on our Planet due to human-induced global warming. I think that we all must value our remaining coldscapes and spread awareness on how every action has consequences and why we don't need everything we want or already have already got.
i can`t wait for winter. i hate the excessive heat of summer, i hate the shortest nights, right now it`s cold outside and it feels so good. i can finally drink hot coffee and tea, make myself some hot chocolate, i can wear all of my favorite clothes. it`s just so nice... it`s funny how trees outside are still green, yet it`s gloomy, cold and everyone are wearing puff jackets. i pull out my overcoat from my closet, i get my boots laced, i go out to get to college and it feels good. i love to snuggle up in my bed at night, wearing a hoodie and hugging my cat. it`s just so good. the world outside is dark and cold, yet i can still go home and warm my hands against the fur of my dog. it`s dark outside when i get home, but the sunsets are incredible when i go out of the college building. i cant wait to see how will they look near an airport where our college is now set. can`t wait for our old panel houses to look even greyer and doomed than usual. can`t wait for that excitement when the sky will become clear for once and to see that exact shade of blue. or to look outside at night and see stars instead of those lead-heavy clouds. can`t wait to meet up with my friends during the new year holiday week and go out on light-up streets of moscow, with those gigantic christmas trees and all of those little decorations, little shops and markets the world is on fire. yet those little moments let me remember how good life can (and actually should) be.
Ive heard this genre before but this stands as a freezing tint of ambience and endless winters outside fall weather. It happened a while back...and this is just how I feel...
Images et musique d’une beauté indescriptible. Merci Nobody pour cette magnifique playlist. Où je vis, l’hiver dure au moins 7 mois, beaucoup de neige et il fait souvent très froid. Ma saison préférée❤
You ever get that feeling of being cold? Not like, cold as in below temperature, not cold as in dark or edgy or whatever, but cold as in... a state of mind? I don't know. That's the feeling I get from this.
Right now my life is full of uncertainty. I'm getting my leg amputated in less than two weeks from now. I got very ill and lost the ability to walk. My mother died and my wife left me because I couldn't work. I've lost everything... Hopefully when they amputate my leg I'll be able to walk again. I want what everyone takes for granted back. I'm homeless, alone and scared. I was a champion swimmer at one point. I had a GREAT job and plenty of money. Now I'm sleeping at a friend's house until I get through rehab. The cold is coming. Extremely intense pain is coming. I'm more alone than I've ever been. All my friends decided it was too much effort to hang out with a disabled person. I still have hope! I don't want to leave this earth like this. I have so much to learn. These videos reflect my mood lately. This one really hit home. I feel like I'm in one of those buildings and everyone has left me to expire alone in the cold. I'm just hibernating. I'll be back stronger than ever. When I get back on my feet I'll be unstoppable. I have something to show this cold, hate filled, greedy world. The light from the center of my heart... It's bright. Nothing can dim it. Not even death.
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Your comment is heart breaking and so hopeful at the same time. I will be thinking of you Luke and sending you thoughts of healing, peace of mind and friendship in your future. You sure as he!! have a long road ahead of you but your attitude is incredible. There are organizations that can help you. I would suggest finding a soup kitchen and asking for the person who is in charge - many times they can give you names and organizations that can help. There are many programs for those who are homeless. In my state it is called BRAP. It is hard to ask for help but please Luke ...ASK!!! Many local churches are good sources of information as well. I wish you the very best and believe you will get through this. We are strangers but that doesn't matter. I have your name written down in a book with many others. Each night and every morning I send thoughts of love to them. I call it a collective consciousness of love. Many others will think of you as well - YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Thinking of you...
i am sending light to u 🤍 you should be really proud of yourself!
you have nothing to show to anyone my friend hatred and vengeance shouldn't be your motive and motivation in your life. everybody is just living their own different perspectives of life and having the feeling to prove something to others will only deprive you of your happiness. Your end goal and motivation at the end of the day is to become a better person and live with an open heart even if there is pain.
Coldcore is an excellent description of how most of my microwave meals turn out.
Hahaha!
Thanks Jeffrey - You gave me the giggles - you know wit and a good sense of humor is a sign of higher intelligence!
thats actually so funny
lol
And it's always the lasagnas 😭
Can't wait for winter. There's something eerily calming about the emptiness of it
Exactly, whilst I know it's a really horrible time of year for many (and despite having had an anti-climactic, inclement summer here in Northern Europe) I will never understand the people who look forward to and enjoy the insane, lingering periods of heat and scorching radioactive sun we get now that passes for summer. At least in winter you can *try* to get warm if you're cold, in a summer hotspot the only time you can get moderately cool is if you have good shade or an ocean breeze (and that's only really a source of relief in the early morning or late evening). Go forbid if you're landlocked... In short, I don't get people in general!!
@@End-Resulti can agree with you on so much of that. It's why I moved from the middle of Oklahoma to the southern rockies in New Mexico. The higher elevation makes the weather so much colder (around 20 degrees F colder in the summer) and there is much less people to be bothered by. I don't understand why people love summer. If you're cold, you can put on another set of clothes over you, or add a blanket. If you're warm, there's a limit to how much you can remove, especially if you're outside.
it hasn't snowed for 10+ years 🥲
@@cserialen time to move to Svalbard
@TheCheeseDoingThingsYT Currently in Oklahoma(OKC) I've had hayfever 10+ times this year so pollen has been on steroids or something, while it hasn't been as hot as last few years, it's been a pretty shitty summer, so glad autumn is coming, I like the winter too.
that 1st pic is so relatable though nothing is colder than getting outta the bed on a school morning
Agree. Work isnt better and boredome worse. Maybe getting out of bed is a mistake in general.
try going from a hot shower and then going outside
wait until you have to go to the job.
@@lmeza1983 long time till that happens buddy
Fr though. No, but my room is so damn cold in the morning…I hate getting out of bed
This feels like home, I love cold.
Me and my fellow Barbatos worshippers, on our way to catch those Dragonspine vibes
(Now we're suffering from severe depression) ((It was worth it)).
Me too man I LOVE cold and I’m from Cleveland and I’m glad I live in a place that is cold, gets both 4 seasons, above sea level, no natural disaster (mostly), it’s by a lake and it borders our northern neighbor, Canada, so I’m glad I live in place that snows and I love the perception like rain and of course snow
bro same
I live in two places. one is warm and a nightmare (cali) and the other (bosnia) is cold but the city im from has the worst air pollution
@@ViviWindblume516 you re welkome
I wish I could experience more of it over here. I swear, man... Heat‑wave after heat‑wave, it's about to make me mad.
Honestly, so many heatwaves, forest fires and droughts. It's been a while since we had a normal winter and I miss it.
wat are u talking about man its summer
@@siegodertriumphalertod It's been this way for years.
@@LordVader1094 you considered to move to a normal region of the world, not like mean states
@@siegodertriumphalertod She's Brazilian... Edit: Coming from a fellow Carvalho (Portuguese last name.) who knows about how bad air pollution and wildfires has been in Brazil.
I never experience winter
I have a vivid memory of one morning when I was a kid. I was staying at a hotel in Örebro, Sweden in the dead of winter. I woke up around 4:30 am and my family was still asleep. I crept to the window overlooking the city street below and looked outside… snow was falling and there was a thick white blanket of it over everything, perfectly untouched. It was very quiet. A woman holding an umbrella walked by below, the first person to leave a mark in the snow. I continued watching as the light began to change and the city slowly came to life outside the window. I felt warm and safe.
recently my nursing class has been getting harder. i never truly wanted to be a nurse, i really want to be an artist. id rather pick up a paint brush instead of a needle, but this is how it all turned out. my family is relying on me to become rich, and in order to marry the loml, her parents need to approve of me. they all want me to be a doctor. i will be one. but deep down, i just want to be happy. i wont let anyone know except this youtube comment section, so if you're seeing this then i love you and never stop doing what you want. do what you love and not what anyone else says. dont make my mistake. believe
every day the decision of whether to find a career in something practical like tech or business vs something artistic that fulfills me gets more difficult, this comment really resonated with me
Same here. I'm studying to become a software engineer, but I truly want to be a musician. I've thought about this topic a lot, and I've made a conclusion: If what we love, painting, arts, or music, isn't worth living on the streets for, all we can do is keep it as a hobby that's close to our hearts. My favorite guitarist Dave Mustaine said that if you're willing to live on the streets without food on a daily basis, do that, and keep pursuing your dreams as an artist. But if you want to have a stable income to be able to afford your hobby and yourself, keep the arts as a hobby, so you hopefully one day, can make it into a career. He also said that if he could've done that, he would.
What I'm trying to get at is: It's not over for us. Every day is a new opportunity, and I truly believe that God put our dreams in us for a reason. You got this, I believe in you. Hope this helped you or anyone else in a similar situation. Love
Well....I'm preparing for a medical exam to become a doctor....if not that then a nurse...but I don't really have a passion to follow. Been thinking about research lately but there's not much earning prospective there....idk man.
Shig is that you?
But seriously, I get that feeling, even if in my case it wasn't a path of a doctor.
To be fair, I never really knew where to go to, so it's no surprise i'm still stranded on some undefined path (acctually they call path "unemployment").
I felt incredibly stressed about the whole future career thing. What choice to make. I imagined a perfect life as simply having a stable job that pays well enough. But I never learned any skill or preference...
I was also really insuecure about my self image. Often afraid of talking about what i want to do or where i did work. I didn't wanted to be looked down on, yet couldn't strive for something better.
I focus on art lately, not as a career, just for fun and to express myself with it (Procrastination is my second name).
But hope dies last. It's ain't over till it's over. There's some plans I have, it's just that I take them slowly, one at a time. Eventually I'll figure things out and if not, I'll die trying
...or procrastinating. Such is life.
But you, you have goals and ambition. If there's anyone who can make it, then it's gotta be you. Good luck and take care.
Maybe both are possible? Making money and making art
this reminds me of that feeling when youre staying the night somewhere unfamiliar that isnt a hotel. usually its a family members house, baby sitter, or trusted friend of a friends house. usually involves a guest bedroom or couch that they break out the extra pillows and comforters for.
the unfamiliarity invites a sense of loneliness, and a heightened sense of wonder. For example, staring at the texture of the ceiling, popcorn ceilings were the best, the shades of color on the walls now that the lights were turned out, porcelain dolls were the worst lol, what the silent ambiance of their house sounded like, ac units, ceiling fans, cuckoo or grandfather clocks, but overall just the feeling of lucid liminality right as youre ab to fall asleep and even more so after you wake up before everyone else wakes up. or was that just me?
Definitely not just you. ☺
Lucid liminality means what?
Bro... You freaking nailed it.
thats describing my grandparents house🥰
Funny how a feeling/memory like that can be universal for many. 🤍
babe wake up, the chilly autumn just dropped
Love you
@@Wrellothere53904 No I love you
Don’t have a babe to wake up. I’ll get there at some point. Believe in me brothers
@@shup6969 I believe in ya man.
In russia there is snow from the start of the autumn, so i dont think theres autumn in this year for us... But the winter is good too.
так удивительно читать про то, как люди скучают по холоду и зиме.. я из Сибири, и я ненавижу зиму и холод, за столько лет так и не приспособилась с к ним. С наступлением зимы я всегда начинаю чувствовать себя плохо, и мысли о том, что совсем скоро мир вокруг снова на 6 месяцев поглотит холод, снег и серость, вгоняют в тоску
@@МарияС-п7г во время бесконечной тьмы и сырости в ноябре только о зиме и мечтать
Скажите, откуда именно Вы? Я тоже из Сибири и Вы правы: зима - время тоски, но разве в этом нет чего-то притягательного?
Каждую осень я праздную день рождения и готовлюсь к холоду, темноте и куче снега, который над убирать. Не очень люблю зиму, грустно всегда
я сам с сибири, часто выезжаю в лес за 150 км от города, там есть старая но очень крепкая хижина. Остаюсь на неделю другую. Это одиночество угнетает и одновременно дает тебе ощущение сильнейшего спокойствия, приехав туда ты забываешь о всех своих проблемах, словно перерождаешься в этом месте.
where from?
Я даже особо никогда и не задумывалась, что мне могут понравиться такие тревожные мелодии, а читать под них вообще прикольно, ещё и атмосфера такая необычная.
I thank the cold for bringing me safety and comfort when I needed it most. When my tears wouldn't dry themselves, the cold did it for me. When I needed a hug, the cold did it for me. When I needed someone to talk to, the cold would listen. I don't think the cold knows how much I miss it in the months it's gone. I don't think it realizes I love it.
It's both unsettling and comforting to watch these. Not quite like dying, but having a glimpse of the afterlife. You know it's going to be fine afterwards, or at least with no problems, but you don't want to go
exactly what I feel too. I hope the feeling of death is similar to this that its not something painful
The paradox or irony of life. I find myself loving all these drone ambient music.No words, most are not tradition "music" but they invoke certain feelings i cant really explain its raw but calming at the same time. Almost like unraveling the mind, accepting the dark yet fighting to live. Neverr played silent hill but ive listened to all their soundtracks and my goodness terrying and some of the most calming songs ever Akira Yamaoka is a genius truly.So is Trent reznor and Atticus ross.May we all find peace in the cruel dark world and live through the day no matter what comes.
It makes me so FUCKING happy
This is my type of aesthetic
Mine too❤
Yes, same.
yeah mine too
Cold is an embodiment of my country. I can't say I like winter a lot, but it's the season that feels like home to me. Dark morning without any ray of sunlight, endless cloudy days, when the horizon merges with the earth, harsh snowstorms - all of these became part of me, took a special place on my heart. Thank you for this playlist, it's beautiful
I wish I could go to your counrty, mine is too hot that we barely feel some wind in the winter.
These visuals.. man . They are so laden with the exact vibe of this playlist it's incredible
@@FuelAirSparkTime totally agree
Yeah the pictures are actually great. I had to go through them all lol
Did anyone notice that watching this video feels like you are backrooms security, out of this world, where cameras appear randomly in this endless space with different levels, and you are just watching the video from the cameras scattered all over the space?
Unexplainably weird and cool feeling.
College has been overwhelming. I really needed this.
Good luck with everything :] starting sem1 of 2nd Yr today myself
Hang in there! Remember to breathe and take time to check in with yourself ("Am I hungry? Tired? Feeling okay?" etc.), and grab any downtime you can get. This won't last forever, and it's gonna be worth it.
I wish i could go to college but economic difficulties made me a farmer
@@bill5742 sorry to hear that, hope you get to do what you want soon.
same brother
Reminds me of when I was a kid alone and trudging through the snowy woods to and from my friend's house the next town over. I did this almost daily, day and night, often high. It was lonely and most times it hurt in the beginning but I really learned how to be alone in time, to not count on or rely on anybody, that the world and nature are cold silent places - and that those are not bad things, unless you fight it.
Nowadays I can do almost anything by myself and I prefer it that way most times, because I always think back to when I was totally physically and mentally absorbed in the moments I was totally and completely by myself in the middle of nowhere. Had I gone missing, nobody would have come looking nor would I have wanted them to, I doubt many people would have really cared past the first week of me being gone and good riddance; people are animals. I'm an animal too and I always have been, I'm just a whole lot better at it than most people now.
You can rely on Jesus, Casper
I miss the days of true winters decades past
A thick fog eclipsing buildings and streets
A frosty chill on every surface
Slopes of thick snow up to your waist
Where I live it still happens, a third of the year is like that and I love it.
@@62hwvgvekaihvevevj yeah i used to live in canada where it would be like that, until late 2019 now i live in the uk, not really as much of a chance of snow here
honestly i would want to move back to canada just for it
Global warming is a bitch
I just heard the word "coldcore" in my head, and I can already feel this is my vibe and what I need right now. I need winter in Vietnam so bad, it's autumn yet still humid and 27 degrees.
Yk, I’ve lived in Florida (Most southern US state) my whole life and we don’t get snow here. One of my biggest dreams is just to wake up to snowfall, sip on a warm drink, and maybe throw a snowball or two. Something that’s so simple for many, but something that I’ve never experienced. It feels like I’m missing a core element of my childhood that so many others had. One would think that Florida is a sunny paradise, but if it’s not winter, it’s a flaming hellscape full of tourists and old people. Anyways, just had to get that off of my chest.
God, I’m on the Texas coastline and I feel this. Ever since early childhood I’ve loved snow, just been fascinated by it. I’ve seen it a few times, but only in a very fleeting way that left me mostly anxious and once with a deep freeze that killed our power for 3 days and led us needing to rebuild part of the house. I actually don’t resent that time, somehow, so much of my life shifted in those few months into a really nice rhythm, but I still wish. I still long for the deep snow. I miss a childhood I couldn’t have, going out late at night to the cradling silence of blank ice crystallized to fall in such a perfectly whimsical way.
I still remember studying every branch of the snowflakes that landed on my sleeves. They felt so alive somehow.
@@vid8323 I totally get it bro. Thanks for sharing. I'm starting to realize that I'm not alone in my experiences with(out) snow. Also, that was so well written, you need to be a poet 😭
Agreed. The people who say FL weather is perfect are tourists, period.
@@judgmentallemon2771 It’s 100% true
Ahahaha, how funny that is. I'm from Russia, and I just hate snow. I live in the European part, relatively close to Moscow, and even though snow falls only in winter, I don't like it very much. Either constant slush, or on the contrary, huge snowdrifts, and it's just uncomfortable to walk around. I would very much like to live in a region like Florida (mainly because of normal American institutions and laws, but also because of the climate 😄).
The cold is one of the only few places that give me warmth. There’s something so beautiful about how peaceful and still it gets when there’s heavy snowfall and it lays on the ground, absorbing the sounds of the world and leaving only a serene silence and a chilly breeze that can blow any and all thoughts. A cold emptiness that brings peace to mind, body and soul.
You should do a playlist based around that feeling you had as a child, when you get lost at the mall and your family is nowhere in sight, or when your at school after-hours and everything is dark and empty. Could make a cool aesthetic 👍
Dreamcore?
@@gustavsgulbis7356 Dreamcore seems more nostalgic and comforting. I'm thinking more towards uncertainty and that vauge feeling of danger.
Lostcore
@@WeAreStillLaughingone time i got away from my parents in a mall (which is now a parking lot) and i went up to what i can only describe as a doorway to the backrooms. It was a gray metal door that was being held open by a hitch on the wall. I wanted to go in there but i couldnt go all the way in, and also my parents found me and i asked them what was back there and they just wouldnt tell me.
childlostinamallwithnofamilyinsightcore
i love the cold winter so much, I want it back
when that crispness of the fall air fades ,the early mornings light dimmer, replaced by a biting chill I feel a nostalgia that I cant explain for a time of joy and being merry that perhaps I have never known
Maybe you'd enjoy some of Thomas Ligottis works. Winter is the holiest place he once said.
Just want to say that I’ve been struggling with depression almost my whole life, and when I allow myself to be with it and feel it, it feels so much better than trying to ignore it. And music like this makes it easier to process those emotions
@@softvelvet05 I think I understand you
I just left Western, NC after the massive flooding this year. I worked 72 hours straight trying to find people and i didn’t want to leave. This is calming me more than anything.
Why is this so good yet unsettling ?
Eerie
Im trying to keep optimistic but it’s harder and harder each day I’m as lonely as now. I don’t have any friends. I don’t wanna be in a relationship, I just want a friend, but my social skills are worse and worse each day. Sometimes, I’m just unable to go to school. My body just stops reacting to my brain and I’m unable to convince myself that it’s worth it. I’m so ashamed of it. I feel like none of people I’m in contact with can relate to my problems. I feel like they became too big to even start doing something with them. The fact that I have no one to help me go through this shit is just killing me. And here I am, trying to convince myself to go to school tomorrow. There are days when I am scared that I won’t be able to control these feelings and will do something to hurt myself.
Don't give up
@@paszczar3352 Hey, I'm no psychiatrist, but that sounds like executive dysfunction to me.
I have the same problem. I won't recommend you the already boring options of finding friends on the Internet and all that. I am more disappointed in people, I am afraid of them, because they are aggressive and cynical And by doing this they killed my desire to do anything, I don't leave the house and I deprive myself of the joys of life just because I'm afraid of people. So I think sometimes it's better to be alone, but at least in safe.
@Cheetah_OwO True i realised this year from a girl i used to kick it with that my dear friend been tryna smash they been hanging out etc i felt bad but the lunchlnne he said so really bad things about me. Mind you wereso close and he was my confidant, we shared similar dreams passions we both lost parents so was good to have someone my age, similar circumstance.someone who could understand me. Felt alone for a while after that, no trust in anyone.Recently, i started reconnecting with brother although i dont share everything with him he is the closest one to see my true face,my pain. Think and look in your life who could fill that gap. Trust is built so choose wisely...if all fails i suggest see a professional at least no risk of "leaks"and info to be used against you. Pick a hobby, get abit good you will find like minded people. heck join a club its a start.We all need starting points. I barely have any friends now but im keeping the ones close and making time for them Friendship are a two way street. Have you been a good friend? Truly...
You sound young (not to dismiss your feelings) i would say pause take a breather. Close your eyes and imagine what a better life would look like. Then start small (for me i always write stuff down so i can be accountable later on and also as a reminder). Get a routine foing (the usual make enjoyable breakfast, go for a walk or run which also checks the nature outdoor on my list, go to school, try connect over anything if not no problem get a book or do something that interests you drawing for me and music. Then when home see if you can soend tkme with family, or a pet if you have. My point is try small then build up while appreciating what you do have. Im assuming alot is ok e.g your environment,neighborhood, family etc. Back then i made a few friends some by talking about stuff they and i liked e.g met a girl just by talking about tv shows in class.i used to over hear uer so one day i said hi and asked do you watch the O.C? Rest is history my other two was just from playing chess and watchinv anime. Try dress better, look better, get a hobby going work on your passions the friends will come. For now work on yourself and be kind tk yourself. I used to hate myself i never said anything good to me inside.my thoughts were dark and grim....now not everyday but i try gove credit where its due. You are important even if you dont see it. Affirmations work but in the end you have to love yourself...we always take care of things we love....
sitting at the window as cold rain drops hit my face and the whole city is covered in fog. this is an experience fr
I desire the cool breezes of Autumn and the dim sun of Winter. Its been an awfully long, hot Summer and I'm ready for the change. 🍂🍁🍂
I love cold, it feels comfortable and comforting for some reason
Я сейчас живу до сих пор в Сибири, но уже дальше от полярного круга. Друзья скидывают фотки снега, как там всё замерзает, какая у них синева утром и вечером, а у нас просто слякоть, как в Москве. Очень скучаю по ранней зиме, когда в сентябре всё уже замело((. Со снегом всё становится легче, как во сне.
cold and cozy....feels like home
8:24 Counting down to winter. That cold, empty silence hits different-almost like it’s where I’m supposed to be.
Respectfully , these playlist make my days calmer . At school, promotion is coming up next year is hard . Its always repeating, go home, don't eat, do hw, and sleep . My life is like a complete loop. Sometimes i just want to disappear, but i know i cant . Being the third wheeler sucks, i feel like im losing everything, my girlfriend always has something to do, it turns out shes w/ someone else . At the hospital it feels worst,i feel like my life is slowly ending, but ill still face it . Either im not in reality, or i just messed up .
I don't understand the need to say "respectfully" at the beginning of your sentence, as if you were about to say something offensive
Man, I wish cold weather was real.
(I live in Texas, we have two seasons. Summer, and Summerer)
@@sploda9886 😆
Greetings from Germany! It was a warm day, but the first leaves are turning yellow.
Fall ist about to start. Long nights and rain will follow. What a cosy time!
Feel you man. I’m here in Florida. Why are Florida and Texas the 3rd and 2nd most populated states respectively? It’s so hot :/
Can I move to Texas pls?
@@3142shara I promise you that you don’t want to
It’s not the good kind of summer, it’s the 90% humidity kind where you sweat 1 step out the door and you can’t spend longer than a minute outside because it’ll actually give you skin cancer and heat exhaustion
We’re talking ~100+ degress Fahrenheit every single day for a month with no rain
@@sploda9886 I dunno, I hate fall and winter, so I'd really consider, if I were American
There's a certain vibe of this that definitely hits home in myself that no playlist could quite capture - it quells the unnecessary thoughts in my mind.
I still don't like the cold, but I've come to appreciate how sobering it can be. I walk dogs for work and this past winter was especially difficult getting up at the coldest part of the morning before the sun starts to rise.
Well nobody, you’re somebody to me with how good these playlists are
I absolutely love when it snows, although it doesn't often where I am, and winter is just a cold, constant dullness. But this makes me remember the times when the cold was actually inviting and even a little exciting
Тем не менее, меня эти мелодии успокаивают. За зимой придет весна, а холод и пустота временны. Все будет хорошо.
Hey nobody! I just wanted to say a thank you for everything you do, and i hope you know how many peoples lives you have impacted :)
you're welcome
as i listened to the first song i immediatly wanted to go to my mom, tell her i wont just stop trying forever, and that i wont leave her behind, i want my loved ones to know i love them and see through the depressive and irritable disposition i can have sometimes, they are the most important people in the world, they should know that
right now that I’m watching this, I’m in indescribable pain which leaves passing away my only hope. but somehow I’m still fighting my way through this sickness. this autumn is cruel. I hope I get better when the winter arrives.
no. you dont hope anything at all, do you. be honest my dude. hope hurts the worst, dosent it? its gonna be alright. sleep now.
@@crucifyrobinhoodwhy..?
@@btwitsrovnan I hope by the time winter comes around, it finds you in less pain and a better place. Sending you the best of wishes, please hang in there.
man, how i love the cold. the snow that fell out of the sky, the warm hot chocolate my beloved ones made me, the snowy forests.. everything. coldcore is my favourite aesthetic, because it makes me remember of my childhood, when i used to be happy. things will never be the same.
" in my restless dreams , I see that man , nobody "
One more month broski, can't wait
Same here. It’s been sooooo long
I see her in my dreams all the time. We were just never meant to be no matter how hard I tried.
I wish it could be winter forever
Yeah but getting out of the warm blanket would be a TASKKKK
summer is overrated
The depression and emptiness of modern society are one of the great drawbacks, but I think it's a great blessing to be able to share it and understand each other. We are very far away from each other, but on this playlist, we share our lives with each other.
It took me until I was fourteen to realise I was trapped, and until eighteen to realise that the trap was the root of my problems. Sometimes it feels hopeless; that I'll be stuck in the same place forever. Stuck here. But all of my dreams, and my refusal to shake them off, show that I still have hope for my future. I want freedom. I want to be far away from here. I want cold, dark winters, to walk through snow under a black sky when I come home from work. To live in Canada. I don't know if I'll ever be capable of doing anything on my own, but I'm getting there. Step by tiny step.
this feels like home
literally
I like listening to these tracks and I keep reading the comments.
That makes me feel good.
It's good to hear such different opinions and stories.
This is uplifting to me.
it's bright outside, but there is no warmth found in the light
Its still in the high 70s here in Minnesota. Its September. Maybe listening to this will make the cold come faster.
I'm in KS and it's 87 out... I just want fall weather please...
same, but i'm in ND. I want it to cool off soon..
62 in Kentucky all day today sometimes getting up to 65
Hey your wish came true !!
i have bpd so i try to listen to slower calmer songs when im manic and more upbeat and hyper songs when im in a depressive state, just to try balance my moods which works sometimes. this is working for me, thank you:)
While some people dream of snow, it's already snowing outside my window for the second day. In my region, winter lasts 5 months a year, and the air temperature drops not to minus 10 degrees, but to -20 or even -30, and sometimes even lower. Having been born in the Urals, we quickly get used to such conditions and can no longer imagine our life without snow drifts, snowmen and blizzards.
Мне это напоминает детство. Я вырос в небольшом военном городке в Приморье и кто там жил, знает какие там зимы и какие там ночи зимой. В общем, от дома до школы ~2,5 километра и зимой приходилось идти в кромешной темноте по глубокому снегу мимо кладбища, морга, болота возне насосной станции, мимо замусоренной старицы, по мосту без перил через овраг и всё это в -35. Соответственно, одеваться мне приходилось как в арктическую экспедицию.
Perhaps one day, that field of snow will show itself once more. A chilling and ephemeral landscape.
I vibe with this aesthetic. As someone who finds comfort in the cold. I enjoy this.
How strange...I've been thinking and playing out a RP scenario ofn my 'character' is dying in the cold. This playlist popped up and it really encapsulates the feeling. The universe knows...they know...I've been getting way too many 'coincedences' lately.
Don't think that way. Unless your taking about a in game simulation character.
I’m living in the desert now, and with a heatwave coming in late September I’m pining for a Midwest winter. The heaviest snowfall in mainland America is just two hours away from me, but I’ll get trapped in the mountains if I try to go when the fires burn out and it starts to change season. I’ll watch them from the valley and pretend I’m there.
the endless city's image really brings me an insurmountable amount of comfort
I’m really sick so I went to sleep in a dark cold room with a fan blowing on me and I listened to this and it felt so nice
self sabotage much...
@syph100 ? Cold doesn't make you sick. Now, liquids like rain or seawater or something like snow can but not actual temperature.
@@demonicinspirer751 viruses, which most colds are a result of, typically multiply better in lower temperatures, hence why your body temperature raises (fever) and makes you shiver (to produce more warmth from muscles working) in the respone to an infection, it's an evolutionary defense mechanism. Making yourself cold is an exact opposite of what your body wants you to do to in order to survive.
wow perfect timing I literally have cold rn
We all just want someone to hold....to cuddle....to embrace...to cherish....to love...
Winter is coming...
Good 🥰
Thank God
Так интересно. Раньше думала, что на 100% ненавижу зиму, теперь понимаю, что это намного сложнее. Она угнетает, пугает, завораживает, поглощает. Я хочу написать об этом, и сделаю это, когда подберу нужные слова.
WOO NEW PLAYLIST DROPPED, i didn't really have time today to see it, in romania, 8th graders(14 yrs old) have a really important exam that places you in high school (if you get a bad grade - which is very easy, the scores you need to get are very high- your whole life is lowkey over.I studied a lot in the summer break but now in school everything's a little harder. Today, monady, i have after classes in romanian and math. its 8pm when i finish everything and finally get home. In our schools, there is an assigned teacher (i think you can call it homeroon). Baisically this teacher represents us as a class. She had a parent-teacher meeting with all of the class parents. i'm the 2nd best in class and my deskmate is 1st. Our parents and we think that the schedule is really bad put, i wont go into details. Today, out homeroon teacher humiliated both of us in front of the whole class. After that she made me answer, i was physically unable to speak, im not getting along with people in my class due to all of them being mean, but now they have another reason to be shitty. In a month we have planned a trip and im scared she(my homeroon) will make me feel shitty again. I wish i could go to the principal, but the principal is really shitty and my homeroon might get another reason to defavorize me. My homeroon always hated me since 5th grade, she's always giving me grades lower than i do and i really hope ill get a better homeroon in high school. I'm just really shocked how shitty she could be to some literal children. Even if she wanted to take ot her anger, you don't humiliate kids (who you clearly know don't get along with the class) in front of the class. I know she's gonna make this year miserable now but i cant really do anything. All i have to focus now is the damn exam, because both i and my parents want me to get in a really good school so i can have many options.
You're very strong:) And yeah, sounds like ur homeroon teacher sucks, but dont let her make you think youre unworthy. You will shine, the glimmer is already within.
Not in Romania but in the USA. We have standardized testing every year and it sort of does the same thing but I feel you when you say you don’t get home till 8 pm. A school district about 60 miles from me doesn’t get home until 10 pm. Biggest city in my state just horrible people running the schools.
Hei, ma bucur cand gasesc romani in locuri neasteptate :)) Nu merita sa te stresezi foarte mult cu examenul, deoarece si controlarea emotiilor contribuie foarte mult la succes. E foarte important sa te odihnesti bine inainte de examen. Baga-ti ceva in ea de anxietate, ca nu e buna de nimic, si pune capul pe perna. Evaluarea nationala e mult mai usoara decat crezi. In clasa a 8-a mai mult am frecat menta, dar faptul ca m-am odihnit inainte de examen si mi-am gestionat emotiile in timp ce rezolvam exercitiile m-a ajutat enorm. Am luat 8 si ceva la ambele materii si acum sunt la un liceu teoretic bunicel. Sfatul meu este sa inveti, dar si sa-ti faci timp sa creezi amintiri placute in aceasta perioada. Fii puternic/a si indura momentan aceste experiente negative, caci ele sunt trecatoare. Iti urez mult succes si spor la invatat! :)
Good luck with that all
Эти мелодии сопровождают меня на протяжении всей жизни. Я родился в Мурманской области, прожил там значительную часть своего существования. Для меня картины и пейзажи холода, заснеженных лесов, зашарпанных панелек, темноты и пустоты как родные, становится так спокойно на душе. Даже не взирая на малочисленность людей или их отсутствие, всё-равно ощущаю положительные эмоции, без какого-либо негатива.
И после переезда на юг для меня эта эстетика остаётся близкой. Наверное, это навсегда :)
Does anyone ever notice how beautiful and mesmerizing water is? If I had a choice, I would live in the water. It’s tempting, like crystal caves shining against the luminous light of their own reflections. I could drown in that beauty.
This is literally exactly what I was looking for. The algorithm is scary
I miss the cold
So do i. How have you be doing?
7:24 this is incredibly sad when you know why the angel's over that grave :,< it represents a Gardien Angel failing to do its job of protecting...
I feel numb. Every day looks the exact same, slow, boring, and lonely. I've always felt lonely, and this feeling seems to persist somehow. My dad said I do this to myself, that I am selfish and a fake person for it, but what can I do other than pretending to live happily? I've been thinking a lot about unaliving myself all the time. I'm going through my last year of school, I have one of the most important tests of my life in 25 days that will basically decide my future, and I feel completely unprepared for it. I don't know if I'm someone who was born to live, to feel genuine happiness, maybe I shouldn't have been born at all. Songs like this always remind me of myself, the sound of reality when I used to be off my meds. It was cold but truthful. It was me, the sad, unstable, and self-destructive me. I feel guilty for missing this old me...
having been through periods of life that sound like what youre describing, I promise you that it gets better, at least in waves. some days better, some days still bad. the world is densely full of both beauty and pain and I truly hope that you find something that compels you to keep trying
how nice it is to listen to this, even though I’m freezing now without heating. Alas, every year it gets worse, and I become more and more vulnerable. I'd give anything for a heater
I've been looking for this genre my whole life 🤍
I've been suffering a lot from delusions and paranoia and this playlist gave me a sense of comfort, it likes when your young again and someone tells you 'Everything will be okay'
this whole comment section is just so wonderful to read, i hope everyone achieves what they want in life
Coldcore has me missing a good cold michigan winter night after it snowed and its quiet and youre alone and staring out at the lake. Thank you for this. :)
People talk about quiet, empty towns being unnatural and creepy
If you think about it, most of the world is that way. It's human noise that's unnatural
Next time you're out there, alone, surrounded by nothing but deafening silence... Think about how you've finally returned to the natural state of things
Ive never really experienced a true winter because ive lived in florida all my life but the two times ive been far enough north for it to snow really were something else. I miss the specific kind of hurt that the snow brings if you're not prepared, when the air is sharp and chilling but still damp. Im sure I'd get sick of it if i had to deal with it every year but i remember the feeling of the wind and ice fondly and this playlist is a perfect soundtrack for those memories.
i've lived most of my life in a country without winter, so my first time seeing snow abroad was magical
A lot of the past years, namely during the years of heavy snowfalls, Id often take the screen out of my window and sit there leaning out into the silent and heavy world .
How the air is a freezing bite, but moves nowhere , how often i sat there alone with Her, with nature.
Before it was changed, the air outside used to be orange. The way it used to reflect off of everything, every falling snowflake by the thousands, by the millions each second right there in front of my eyes, the beauty of falling snow is forever in my eyes.
It brings me sense, a feeling, of peace I've never felt otherwise or anywhere else.
Then the light was taken down, replaced with a smaller blue light, and the snow hasnt been the same since.
Its a funny thing, nostalgia, how it can happen for something that still seems so recent.
Those orange lights used to be my "nightlight', that was the color of the world, and i wish it could go back to that, it was more serene back then.
and here we are in spring already, damn
lol what part of the world do you live? its ab to be fall here in NC, USA
@@jdc_2000 the south hemisphere lol more specifically, Chile :D
This is so comforting. it is a collection of pieces made to inspire, to ignite feelings of dread, reluctant acceptance and even twisted comfort. It is as if the collective feeling these invoke are "Everything has fallen apart, because of me, again. But atleast i have you, for now."
This is so melancholic and beautiful... I love it.
Listening to this while it's raining and my aquarium filter is going may really be peak.
Coldcore is melancholic, as we are losing most of the ice on our Planet due to human-induced global warming. I think that we all must value our remaining coldscapes and spread awareness on how every action has consequences and why we don't need everything we want or already have already got.
Fries my brain real good, thanks. Head empty, happy.
i can`t wait for winter.
i hate the excessive heat of summer, i hate the shortest nights, right now it`s cold outside and it feels so good. i can finally drink hot coffee and tea, make myself some hot chocolate, i can wear all of my favorite clothes. it`s just so nice... it`s funny how trees outside are still green, yet it`s gloomy, cold and everyone are wearing puff jackets. i pull out my overcoat from my closet, i get my boots laced, i go out to get to college and it feels good. i love to snuggle up in my bed at night, wearing a hoodie and hugging my cat.
it`s just so good. the world outside is dark and cold, yet i can still go home and warm my hands against the fur of my dog. it`s dark outside when i get home, but the sunsets are incredible when i go out of the college building. i cant wait to see how will they look near an airport where our college is now set. can`t wait for our old panel houses to look even greyer and doomed than usual. can`t wait for that excitement when the sky will become clear for once and to see that exact shade of blue. or to look outside at night and see stars instead of those lead-heavy clouds. can`t wait to meet up with my friends during the new year holiday week and go out on light-up streets of moscow, with those gigantic christmas trees and all of those little decorations, little shops and markets
the world is on fire. yet those little moments let me remember how good life can (and actually should) be.
I wish I knew how to make stuff like this. Really touches me in a way.
Ive heard this genre before but this stands as a freezing tint of ambience and endless winters outside fall weather. It happened a while back...and this is just how I feel...
Born in December, obsessed with the cold. This is great
Coldcore is a great naming for this sad compilation of songs that I'm listening on such cold night. 26:47 this song feels pleasant and really sad.
i feel like my brain works best when i am suffering emotionally, its like when im happy my reasoning and creativity is complacent
Images et musique d’une beauté indescriptible. Merci Nobody pour cette magnifique playlist. Où je vis, l’hiver dure au moins 7 mois, beaucoup de neige et il fait souvent très froid. Ma saison préférée❤
opium bird theme is the coldest coldcore🥶🥶
it's cold here 🥶
You ever get that feeling of being cold? Not like, cold as in below temperature, not cold as in dark or edgy or whatever, but cold as in... a state of mind? I don't know. That's the feeling I get from this.
Man ive been down here for longer than I have been up there, i miss the snow
It's starting to warm up where i live and i hate it. The summer was way hotter and the autumn feels shorter and less cold.