I guess we finally figured out why he has a mental breakdown every vacation. His mind is so far gone after streaming for his entire adult life that he needs chat for constant validation and confrontation.
On one hand, I don't understand why we all have such an intense parasocial fascination with the personal life of a married man. On the other, I really appreciate all of your work doing these highlight videos because he's incredibly entertaining.
This poor man once he hits an age where he can no longer stream and won't have a captive audience to riff off of and yap at for 5+ hours. Wait staff in shambles in 30 years.
"The remedy is super simple. There's a streamer called Northernlion and his inner turmoil harkens to the universality of the modern thirty year old in 2024. Listen to him for a couple of hours and it'll set you right up." "But Docteur, I'm Northernlion"
@@PierrickUke it's somewhere in the first couple hours of the Best of March 2024 vid on the Squeex Hairline channel. Just skimmed through and i think it's around the "pookie bear" chapter.
@@touchpadnm1 SO true THANK YOU for verbalizing this, I went to the Balatro OST comment section for validation and found none, just a bunch of people talking about THE GAME ITSELF like that matters
28:03 the wombo combo is insane, baits cashier to start off with English, make them switch to Korean with your perfect Korean, then finish em off with the "yeah I can't actually speak Korean, go back to English"
When I went to Japan I wanted to try Kobe beef with my partner. I know very broken Japanese and when in doubt just say “Hai” (Yes) in Japanese because it usually works out (I.e. do you want a bag? Do you want the English menu?) At the restaurant the chief asked me a bunch of questions to which I said yes to all of them. Suddenly, the chief puts a giant flag and and toy cow on my table that reads “MUSLIM FRIENDLY” as it appears I said “yes, I am in fact Muslim and would like the halal menu” He was very proud and I paid an extra $40 for blessed meat.
Ego birth bit imo was just NLs internal stress being confronted with people in Japan enjoying fairly trivial matters when he's in no condition to offload his own problems. That's just life, sometimes other people grate us through no fault of our own or their own.
The roses don't look so fun to stop and appreciate when you have nonstop stress lmao. I swear it gets amplified in a foreign country where you can't properly communicate with the locals too.
Man, hearing K8's side of the story made it seem SO much worse than how NL was telling it himself. I really hope it doesn't stick with him too long and he gets his groove back. That was honestly pretty worrying to hear parts of. But at the same time it's NL so we all know he can handle it and all we gotta do is feed him some +2's and he'll be a happy camper in no time
At the same time I feel like saying “We all know he can handle it” is a little much. The reason I watch NL is that he seems like a real guy with real takes, if he actually is developing some kind of chat dependency he should get help and not just get fed by our perception of his capability.
@@mrpseudonym893 Yes, absolutely agree. I just felt myself getting a little "too real" but even then he himself has always shown himself as being confident enough to at least provide for his family, no matter ups and downs. Like just look at how many times he's gotten sick the past few years, for example. He's a fucking champion. BUT yes at the end of the day he's a normal person like any one of us and if these "withdrawals" are recurring and rough (as it sounds) he might benefit from seeking help. But if he's fine without it then that's great too. I just wanna see egg and his family and friends happy, at the end of the day.
ik he said this happened in Korea but truly the number of times me and my bf were in Tokyo looking for a specific business in a big ass multi-story building only for the business to be defunct or just two people with 2 tables in a 400 square foot space was insane LMAO.
Hes not emotionally dependent on chat LOL its just really exhausting and alienating to spend weeks in a place where you can't communicate with anybody. I've done it and even though i speak the local language far better than NL does, i still know what he means. Everyone is just enjoying conversation without you all the time and you feel stupid & unwanted for not being able to follow along. You also regularly experience some actual discrimination which just makes it even more of a downer.
love these two but, not crazy about how kate talks about his crisis. especially after really relating to some of the stuff he said but i’m sure there’s more to it
Same, I felt as if maybe I wouldn’t want this aired out. It was similar, but not quite the same way he put it. It made me think he should talk about it with a therapist, whereas I wasn’t thinking about that when he was recounting it.
12:56 NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place. Corn was being popped, a man spoke Sugoi under his breath NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place. Instead, he found the opposite of egodeath.
this whole story is SO relatable. anxiety/sensory overwhelm/logistics stress/other people/all work no play = breakdown, people asking what’s wrong with you, lol. anyway hopefully soonish Luna gets old enough that they can enjoy some museums together or other activities that are mutually age appropriate; I know my dad was into a bunch of obscure shit that was super interesting once I had half an attention span lol
I'm glad I wasnt the only one a little put off by that. I try not to go psychoanalysis on strangers but like, if someone talked about my mental health crisis with that attitude like that in public I wouldn't be happy.
yeah thanks for commenting this, I felt like I was taking crazy pills. Just felt like I heard something that I shouldn't have heard and should never have been said
what in the hell is bro cooking up in the first rant about how he wants people to be rude to him lol edit: NL responding to a native Japanese speaker with "Sorry, I speak Japanese." has had me *squealing* for several minutes straight.
I feel so bad for Ryan, i empathise with his internal crisis so much, i get just like that when im not able to do my normal social activities. That must have been really hard.
I do find it really weird that he feels like a bad person for not knowing or attempting to learn the native language of a country he is visiting for 2 weeks. Ive worked in tourism in New Zealand. So many people dont speak english, its fine, they are just visiting. Having people attempt to speak english is cool even if they suck at it and if even its like the 20th time that day someone hasnt spoken english to me. I dont think anybody actually expects tourists to be able to speak the language of every country they visit. The language barrier is part of travel
As a non stream viewer I’ve been thinking the last couple weeks had been some of the least I’d been searching out NL vids. Turns out there just wasn’t new content on my recommended feed because of his travels and I had forgotten. Thanks Librarian for showing me I’m more addicted to egg than I thought.
I wholeheartedly adore how much the role of a modern interweb jester has encased and cocooned him that mere weeks of going outside is enough to trigger a Paul Atreides-Lisan Al Gaib level of Ascension that generates wisdoms aplenty that he bottles up and release to guide the Stilgar in all of us, while we look up the sun set as pepe via twitch emote and being :aware:
Hm, seems a bit unfair, and that's a big "to say the least", that after hearing how many times and how hard this man has pushed through all sorts of situations, especially the health issues, and still do his best to do his parenting and husband duties, he goes through a negative mental period and his wife only sounds dismissive and mocking, both afterwards and as it was happening. nvm empathy, he barely seemed to get simpathy from her whilst and after going through a major mental struggle, breakdown, wtv. Im gonna leave it at that, but feels kinda sad to watch
It’s been a month without pogs. I have gone on a pog cleanse. Now the pogs are back. And I am going to slurp up the refined librarian farmed pogs. I am having a pog OD and I am loving every minute of it Jerry.
Man am I insane but isn't like K8 going raw in NL in the bit? Maybe I feel sorry for the egg from listening to an uninterrupted hour of his misery while travelling but it did hurt, damn
Man. Knew NL was coming back around this time and on my commute home from work I typed ‘Library of Letourneau’ in the TH-cam search bar. When this video showed up, a surge of dopamine and wave of relief went through me.
Ryan’s unwavering commitment to keeping interactions with strangers, he’ll never see again, copasetic instead of trying to make his anniversary a pleasant experience is disheartening.
I mean it sounds like he went through an existential crises during his trip.. He mentions "ego death" and it's possible to have something like that without taking drugs. His therapist gonna be on OT the next month
I had this feeling for a while, so much so that every time librarian adds a bunch of K8s streams i have to skip, does she even like ryan? like most of the time they talk about their life is usually something like, " ryan does something mildly awkward or funny and k8 responses with either insult or demeaning responses* like she recognizes that her attitude of never laughing at his attempts to be funny kinda hurt his self esteem, am I crazy? my wife genuinely likes to see me happy and has noted that sometimes she'll laugh just to see me be happy to.
I imagine NL getting pulled into a streamer specialized hospital/ER with the doctors and nurses going: This man is suffering from critically low levels of POG! He needs three major injections of +2's STAT! Prepare the Balatro soundtrack and some trashy reality tv show for his recovery room so it's ready after the procedure!
NL having an existential meltdown by himself: played out, derivative, boring. NL having an existential meltdown with K8 laughing at him: inspired, tremendous, kino.
kuromi NL by hueg - x.com/huegDraws/status/1794237188718416036
also that delivery of sugoi was oscar worthy
I guess we finally figured out why he has a mental breakdown every vacation. His mind is so far gone after streaming for his entire adult life that he needs chat for constant validation and confrontation.
its so over, he needs us as much as we need him
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau Wake up honey, new symbiotic relationship just dropped
@@Phoenix0F8 i'm pretty sure the term is commensalism
@@CaptainHogmeat wouldn't it be mutualism?
@@ElPestino Let's ask a bio major.
On one hand, I don't understand why we all have such an intense parasocial fascination with the personal life of a married man. On the other, I really appreciate all of your work doing these highlight videos because he's incredibly entertaining.
The fact that he is married is even better. He's like a sitcom dad.
Because, unironically, he's a relatable Family Guy
@@Faircraft3 You're right, we're honestly so lucky there's a man who positively can do all the things that make us laugh and cry
@@HC-qc5rphe’s. a. family. guyyyyyyyyy 👍
@@Faircraft3 WE’RE FAMILY GUYS. OF COURSE WE CAN DO ALL THE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH AND CRY
I constantly thought about Kate saying that Ryan will never stop streaming cause he needs it. She knows him better than he does for sure😂
He truly is the Conan of Twitch
This poor man once he hits an age where he can no longer stream and won't have a captive audience to riff off of and yap at for 5+ hours. Wait staff in shambles in 30 years.
@@swirle13 He's gonna be the old man angry at everything in the neighborhood.
Sugoi Guy might be my favorite one-off character in the NL-verse
he dropped that story so early on i was in fucking tears
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau careful of your mascara bro
@@onezerotwo he finds that hot bro
Papaya man still the goat
@@TheLibraryofLetourneauThat is a moment that would give a life crisis for sure "what are we doing here?" It's also so fucking funny
he goes to asia for two weeks and becomes pagliacci the tragic egg
"The remedy is super simple. There's a streamer called Northernlion and his inner turmoil harkens to the universality of the modern thirty year old in 2024. Listen to him for a couple of hours and it'll set you right up."
"But Docteur, I'm Northernlion"
Peggliacci
Tamagocci. That's a clever Japanese pun btw
@@clementhossaert5234 +2
More like pogliacci
kate calling her husband ‘my bro’ is so funny
She's like a female Asian Spicoli from Fast Times at Ridgemount High
The librarian tweet about him finding inner peace was actually so prophetic, also seeing them both have a mental breakdown when separated lmao
guys i think it would be really funny if we were all really amicable to NL and never confront him about anything
Chat's not ready but that's a fantastic bit
emotionally abusive bit
squeex chat did it once. drove him insane.
@@lysolcoke2HD Would you happen to have a VOD link to that? Sounds hilarious!
@@PierrickUke it's somewhere in the first couple hours of the Best of March 2024 vid on the Squeex Hairline channel. Just skimmed through and i think it's around the "pookie bear" chapter.
Guy misses Splash Mountain so much he convinced his family to go all the way to Tokyo to ride it.
my man really spent an hour and a half not touching the game just to give us our much needed attention. We're so back.
Papa Ryan bless
He's a generous lover
found himself screaming in the hotel room
The evils of Lucy was all around him
He found himself screaming in a hotel roo- AAAHHAHHHHHHHHHHHH
found himself screaming in the hotel roo- HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP ME
Poor Ryan living out a off Joke Boat day for 2 whole weeks
He so clearly needed to yap after being gone for two weeks I didn’t even care he barely played Balatro
he just sat there on the menu for almost one and a half hours straight yapping
@@TheLibraryofLetourneaubrave streamer
The Balatro theme is the yapper leitmotif
@@touchpadnm1 SO true THANK YOU for verbalizing this, I went to the Balatro OST comment section for validation and found none, just a bunch of people talking about THE GAME ITSELF like that matters
Sugoi
sugoi...
the balatro music constantly playing really adds to the bits
It matches the vibe of his yapping shockingly well
Unhinged rants require balatro music, death-defying life experiences require Issac noises
28:03 the wombo combo is insane, baits cashier to start off with English, make them switch to Korean with your perfect Korean, then finish em off with the "yeah I can't actually speak Korean, go back to English"
Brain Destroyer irl
When I went to Japan I wanted to try Kobe beef with my partner. I know very broken Japanese and when in doubt just say “Hai” (Yes) in Japanese because it usually works out (I.e. do you want a bag? Do you want the English menu?)
At the restaurant the chief asked me a bunch of questions to which I said yes to all of them. Suddenly, the chief puts a giant flag and and toy cow on my table that reads “MUSLIM FRIENDLY” as it appears I said “yes, I am in fact Muslim and would like the halal menu”
He was very proud and I paid an extra $40 for blessed meat.
+22
Ego birth bit imo was just NLs internal stress being confronted with people in Japan enjoying fairly trivial matters when he's in no condition to offload his own problems. That's just life, sometimes other people grate us through no fault of our own or their own.
yeah just seems a number of external factors and unlucky timing really got his experience warped
hope he feels better
The roses don't look so fun to stop and appreciate when you have nonstop stress lmao. I swear it gets amplified in a foreign country where you can't properly communicate with the locals too.
Goddam bro was going through it. Also the popcorn machine story killed me lmao.
the way he said sugoi is peak NL right there
K8 talking about Ryab not eating sounds like a concerned pet owner
the off-screen water drinking makes it look like he has a hamster bottle next to his desk
I will never be able to unsee this and the trajectory of my life has been changed forever
YES! I’ve said this exact thing
That lady at the hair salon was going through her own Splash Mountain.
+2
I really hope that gets linked to him in case kate undersold it at the moment. I would be riding on those compliments like he rides the peloton
+2
+2
Man, hearing K8's side of the story made it seem SO much worse than how NL was telling it himself. I really hope it doesn't stick with him too long and he gets his groove back. That was honestly pretty worrying to hear parts of. But at the same time it's NL so we all know he can handle it and all we gotta do is feed him some +2's and he'll be a happy camper in no time
Is there a place I can see k8's side? Am I missing another library?? ty!
EDIT: Just watched the rest of the video, oops 💀👍
At the same time I feel like saying “We all know he can handle it” is a little much. The reason I watch NL is that he seems like a real guy with real takes, if he actually is developing some kind of chat dependency he should get help and not just get fed by our perception of his capability.
@@mrpseudonym893 Yes, absolutely agree. I just felt myself getting a little "too real" but even then he himself has always shown himself as being confident enough to at least provide for his family, no matter ups and downs. Like just look at how many times he's gotten sick the past few years, for example. He's a fucking champion. BUT yes at the end of the day he's a normal person like any one of us and if these "withdrawals" are recurring and rough (as it sounds) he might benefit from seeking help. But if he's fine without it then that's great too. I just wanna see egg and his family and friends happy, at the end of the day.
travelling while neurodivergent is truly an insane experience and he articulated it so well here
Man inventing solipsism at Sanrio Puro land is so funny
35:40 "japan is wakanda for white people" is probably one of the chat messages of all time
+2 chatter, +2
NL meeting up with Arex, the only (bald) man in Japan that could have possibly understood his struggles.
The first rain after a season of drought is the most refreshing
Man so thirsty they forgot to type LMAO
ik he said this happened in Korea but truly the number of times me and my bf were in Tokyo looking for a specific business in a big ass multi-story building only for the business to be defunct or just two people with 2 tables in a 400 square foot space was insane LMAO.
Hes not emotionally dependent on chat LOL its just really exhausting and alienating to spend weeks in a place where you can't communicate with anybody. I've done it and even though i speak the local language far better than NL does, i still know what he means. Everyone is just enjoying conversation without you all the time and you feel stupid & unwanted for not being able to follow along. You also regularly experience some actual discrimination which just makes it even more of a downer.
holy the opening monologue was just him outlining in a single anecdote what I've spent months in therapy realizing about myself
That's Neo in the matrix moment outside of the matrix moment.
His neurosis is so Costanza-coded.
He’s like if Jerry and Costanza were one person.
The real question is if we would still love him as a worm in another country
Ryan Returneau (to canada)
love these two but, not crazy about how kate talks about his crisis. especially after really relating to some of the stuff he said but i’m sure there’s more to it
Same, I felt as if maybe I wouldn’t want this aired out. It was similar, but not quite the same way he put it. It made me think he should talk about it with a therapist, whereas I wasn’t thinking about that when he was recounting it.
all these time we thought we are parasocial, but turns our favorite streamer is the parasocial one
Gosh this started off as "ha ha" funny and quickly became uncomfortable, downright depressing by the Kate part.
12:56
NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place.
Corn was being popped, a man spoke Sugoi under his breath
NL was searching for meaning in the least meaningful place.
Instead, he found the opposite of egodeath.
holy +2
**stoner voice** "wow, i know JUST what this guy needs"
And he just sounds like a normal guy and he's a fucking nerd that smokes weed.
5:00 wow this guy is literally just jerma for employed people
I cant be the only one whose primary streamer became NL after Jerma got sentenced to the old folks home
Depression is bad but it’s a huge buff to internality holleeeee
this whole story is SO relatable. anxiety/sensory overwhelm/logistics stress/other people/all work no play = breakdown, people asking what’s wrong with you, lol. anyway hopefully soonish Luna gets old enough that they can enjoy some museums together or other activities that are mutually age appropriate; I know my dad was into a bunch of obscure shit that was super interesting once I had half an attention span lol
It’s a little funny how nobody in chat could relate to the Sanrio breakdown because they’re all the type of person he’s describing.
If my wife talked about me being a weak man for having anxiety on our vacation to like 500 random twitch viewers I think I might end it all
I was wondering if I was the only one feeling very weirded out hearing the second half
I'm glad I wasnt the only one a little put off by that. I try not to go psychoanalysis on strangers but like, if someone talked about my mental health crisis with that attitude like that in public I wouldn't be happy.
yeah thanks for commenting this, I felt like I was taking crazy pills. Just felt like I heard something that I shouldn't have heard and should never have been said
what in the hell is bro cooking up in the first rant about how he wants people to be rude to him lol
edit: NL responding to a native Japanese speaker with "Sorry, I speak Japanese." has had me *squealing* for several minutes straight.
I feel so bad for Ryan, i empathise with his internal crisis so much, i get just like that when im not able to do my normal social activities. That must have been really hard.
Wow I didn't know K8 was trilingual. Every new fact about her has me more impressed.
she started taking spanish classes recently cause they plan on going to spain next year, its truly aspirational
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau WOOOW! That's crazy. K8's officially my new role model.
I do find it really weird that he feels like a bad person for not knowing or attempting to learn the native language of a country he is visiting for 2 weeks.
Ive worked in tourism in New Zealand. So many people dont speak english, its fine, they are just visiting. Having people attempt to speak english is cool even if they suck at it and if even its like the 20th time that day someone hasnt spoken english to me.
I dont think anybody actually expects tourists to be able to speak the language of every country they visit.
The language barrier is part of travel
we’re so back….
NL on a Dr K stream would go hard.
The ego birth bit is how it feels to work in retail
The salon bit followed up by Pretty Fly For A White Guy was smooth, keep it up Librarian.
Mans going through it looking at the fishes
As a non stream viewer I’ve been thinking the last couple weeks had been some of the least I’d been searching out NL vids. Turns out there just wasn’t new content on my recommended feed because of his travels and I had forgotten. Thanks Librarian for showing me I’m more addicted to egg than I thought.
so true, I felt like youtube was kinda empty, no good content...
he was actually the parasocial one the whole time goddamn
I wholeheartedly adore how much the role of a modern interweb jester has encased and cocooned him that mere weeks of going outside is enough to trigger a Paul Atreides-Lisan Al Gaib level of Ascension that generates wisdoms aplenty that he bottles up and release to guide the Stilgar in all of us, while we look up the sun set as pepe via twitch emote and being :aware:
So true brother, so true
+2
the puroland rant was just hilarious
...sugoi
Describing himself as a dostoevsky character was too good
Hm, seems a bit unfair, and that's a big "to say the least", that after hearing how many times and how hard this man has pushed through all sorts of situations, especially the health issues, and still do his best to do his parenting and husband duties, he goes through a negative mental period and his wife only sounds dismissive and mocking, both afterwards and as it was happening. nvm empathy, he barely seemed to get simpathy from her whilst and after going through a major mental struggle, breakdown, wtv. Im gonna leave it at that, but feels kinda sad to watch
45:23 splash mountain got NL turmoiled up like when Eren kissed Historia's hand
It’s been a month without pogs. I have gone on a pog cleanse. Now the pogs are back. And I am going to slurp up the refined librarian farmed pogs. I am having a pog OD and I am loving every minute of it Jerry.
Man am I insane but isn't like K8 going raw in NL in the bit? Maybe I feel sorry for the egg from listening to an uninterrupted hour of his misery while travelling but it did hurt, damn
I'm ngl 3 suitcases of vintage clothes that haven't been worn since 1995 sounds amazing
I think by far my favorite NL content is when he’s just ranting & bantering while Balatro idles in the background.
S C O R N
Man. Knew NL was coming back around this time and on my commute home from work I typed ‘Library of Letourneau’ in the TH-cam search bar. When this video showed up, a surge of dopamine and wave of relief went through me.
At around 26 mins NL is describing every leading woman’s outfit in romantic K-Dramas
the real vacation was the existential dread we felt along the way
The stylist hitting on Ryan (to K8) transitioning into 'Pretty Fly for a White Guy' karaoke was inspired
I would rather my wife cheated on me than tell me she laughs at 50% of my jokes
cus 50 percent is too high or too low thats an impressive ratio
Did he actually do like an hour of standup with the Balatro music in the background?
yes and none of this would go to his own channel lmao
@@TheLibraryofLetourneau Thank you for delivering the NL content the people truly want hahaha 🙏
Art isnt made for everyone but hooolllyyy is this good
Ryan’s unwavering commitment to keeping interactions with strangers, he’ll never see again, copasetic instead of trying to make his anniversary a pleasant experience is disheartening.
Dude went hard on Jafar.
This sequel to A Supposedly Fun Thing I'll Never Do Again is fire!
Omg he admit it
Also that ego birth story is hilarious.
Glad I can listen to his rambling while I work again lmao
He's 100% right about puroland but it's still lit!
k8 really hit him with the "don't worry, Ryan. You'll die first!" 💀
this was so needed
Finally the return thanks for the upload lib
I mean it sounds like he went through an existential crises during his trip.. He mentions "ego death" and it's possible to have something like that without taking drugs. His therapist gonna be on OT the next month
The Jerma Scorn cut killed me lol
I had this feeling for a while, so much so that every time librarian adds a bunch of K8s streams i have to skip, does she even like ryan? like most of the time they talk about their life is usually something like, " ryan does something mildly awkward or funny and k8 responses with either insult or demeaning responses* like she recognizes that her attitude of never laughing at his attempts to be funny kinda hurt his self esteem, am I crazy? my wife genuinely likes to see me happy and has noted that sometimes she'll laugh just to see me be happy to.
😢
Damn no wonder he's Lost in Translation's strongest soldier.
7:27 +2 for the yapanese comment lmao
NL all the girlies are going through it rn I get it
The hooves bit fucking killed me
I relate with NL getting super anxious in Korea, the exact same happened to me, it's suffocating
Kate is so mean to him lmao, if my gf was half as mean as she was, I would have mental breakdowns everyday.
I imagine NL getting pulled into a streamer specialized hospital/ER with the doctors and nurses going: This man is suffering from critically low levels of POG!
He needs three major injections of +2's STAT! Prepare the Balatro soundtrack and some trashy reality tv show for his recovery room so it's ready after the procedure!
Lmaooo
We're ER guys, of course we make niche refrences at the expense of our patients 💪
Is the 'pretending to be normal' arc finally over?
Bro had red dots all over his HUD at sanrioland
Scorn bit was +2 librarian. Feels good to reminisce once in a while after his passing 🕊️ 🪦
After hearing Kate’s elaboration… this guy was straight up depressed bro whatdahell
NLs timeskip arc apparently: Fish = me
What's it called when two parasitic organisms need each other to survive? That's how I feel with Northernlion and chat
NL having an existential meltdown by himself: played out, derivative, boring.
NL having an existential meltdown with K8 laughing at him: inspired, tremendous, kino.
“Without the +2s, he was breaking down” 😭
I went to Japan in 2019 and I also had a small life/identity crisis when I came back
43:57 me when the resonance cascade accident
we should have gotten him a card