There's nothing easy about giving up! - Natsuki Subaru's words - self hatred and giving up | Re:Zero
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- anime: re:zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu , season 1 , ep 18
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I wonder if this ain't a proof that all humans are essentially the same, I feel like everyone could relate to this in some form, everyone in this planet hates themselves more than anything, everyone I showed this clip agreed that they felt the same, so why the hell is this world still so hard? People are the same, we all just pretend to have individuality but we all just ignore what we don't want to hear, maybe if everyone just listened a little more, if everyone was a little more sincere like Subaru, the world wouldn't be such a terrible place that everyone keep saying it's worth living in, when it's not...
I am sorry I kinda need a hug... Interestingly enough I feel personally engaged by Subaru story cause just like him, I was suddenly in a new world different but very similar to my old place, but everyone in my family, and people that talked to me and I thought cared about me, just abandoned me and forgot about me, I tried so many times to reach out but it's just lonely, all the people Just carried on and I was just left behind... Don't get me wrong, I still have strength in me left even tho life is so damn hard, I still wake up get up and do my hardest every day to make a difference, but it's so damn hard, I am so tired, maybe next week when I have my first psychiatrist scheduled things will change, I hope the medicine helps me and don't just make me ignore the world around me, I don't want to stop thinking and have deep philosophical inner conversations, I just want to be able to carry this weight that feels so heavy but I know every single person in this world probably carries a similar weight if not bigger... I just want to be normal but I don't want to loose my best and only friend that stuck with me for all this time, myself
You guys wouldn't believe how good is to have a full argument with yourself being able to be more than one person at the same time xD ha I need friends...
Anyway I am sorry, I didn't want to turn this commentary into a vent but frick it, I feel like trash and just wanted to put some steam out in some way, I am really sorry if this is too depressing or if I am giving suicidal vibes, I don't plan or encourage self harm or suicide, I am looking for professional and medical help for myself and if anyone feels too much like me then I would recommend too :3 everyone needs to have their mental health checked and helped when needed, I may be a defective member of society thanks to abusive and traumatic background but I was said that I am only into a 1-1000000 case so I feel better that most people didn't go through what I did, but at the same time I feel everyone could understand me if they wanted
Dang I started rambling again sorry, ahhh ok I am gonna go now so thanks if you read this and be safe and I am sorry again. Oh btw I am Brazilian
I find myself in subaru as well . It's not like I was born into another world but I suddenly find myself existing in this world where I have to struggle work hard fight society , try to convince myself that life is worth it , fight suicidal thoughts, try to grab even the slightest happiness that I could reach .I might not be in a situation as bad as yours but there are certainly others who got it worse . I really understand your feelings just by reading what you wrote maybe if I wasn't someone who reads fiction a lot I wouldn't understand you. But thanks to fiction ( especially japanese) authors show us characters that we can relate to, tell us things that are not told in our fake society that hides everything and blames everyone. I think the world might get better if everyone shares his problems in this world so we know that we're not the only ones suffering in this world. Thank you for sharing your problems😄
*hugs you*, I also find myself in Subaru, hehe. This episode really touched me, it's the reason why Re:Zero became my favorite anime btw. You're right, at least I think so, the world would prolly be a better place if everybody stopped pretending to have it all figured out or to be okay when in reality, I think we are all broken in one way or another. Everyone has problems, everybody struggles, but we all wake up every morning prolly practice how to smile and we fake to be okay.
Don't worry, its okay to open up, the scary thing is that, sometimes when you do, you find someone that makes you wish you never did in the first place, so you start to keep stuff to yourself and little by little, it becomes this huge burden you can no longer carry alone, and there's really no one to hear you because you never let anyone in and now you're alone. I am honestly blessed to have found a few persons that are actually worth it, I wouldn't be alive without them.
Don't worry about being defective, we all are hehe, and, maybe it's just me but, I like to hang around broken people, because, they understand me. We are all broken af so, it feels good to understand others and to be understood by someone, it feels good to be able to help someone, to show someone they're worth it, specially, when you don't believe you're worth it yourself.
So, please take care of yourself, you're pretty amazing even if you don't believe it, and, when you feel you're going to give up, please listen or read something that makes you feel loved, trust me, it helps a lot. Music and anime have helped me a lot tbh, and I know it's hard but, please don't take your life away, please don't do it. I can promise you one day you'll find someone that needs you, and if I'm being honest, that changes everything. Nowadays people are afrad of opening up, I understand it, I'm also afraid to do so, but sometimes, you find people that stay with you forever hehe, it's beautiful tbh, you need them and they need you so you support each other. So until you find those persons, please don't give up okay? I might be just a stranger on the internet but if you want to, you can talk to me hehe, please take care of yourself, bye.
You got this man!
I may not have had a harder time compared to you, however I hate myself as well, I started hating myself after I've realized that No one in this world likes you because of who you are but what you are. I hate everything myself, society, even the world. Everything's just so dam tiring, it hurts to try because no matter how or what you try people will only look at the one's who succeed successfully while ignoring the one's who lose and trying again over and over while the one's born with everything look down on the people who was born with nothing calling them Losers or Trash just because they had a happier life. I hate myself because I gave in to the ideology of sacrificing my own self for the people born with everything, while being treated as nothing but a mob to the girls I liked who only had eyes for the talented resulting in countless rejections. Well this is all I can say
Man, I could relate too. When I was 18, I broke my arm and lost my whole future as a competitive athlete. Apart from that, I was stupid asf, had constant arguments with my parents, spent money on crap, didn't give a damn about a university, hence had lots of problems with that too. And, on top of the cake, opened that the girl I cared about so much didn't give a flick about me and my feelings. Just used as a wallet, napkin or joker. It wasn't as hard as in some cases, but life at that moment felt completely fcked up. Now I'm 28 and life changed a lot, surprisingly to a good side. What helped me were 2 things - religion and philosophy. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some kinda fanatic, who's gonna sell you a pile of crap. I tried to find practical philosophy and practical religion which I could apply to my daily life. Originally, as a Russian, I was orthodox. Though Christianity has a very wise and deep philosophy, I couldn't apply it to my daily routine. Long story short, after years of reading books starting from the Bible and finishing with works of Daniel Dennet, I became a buddhist. Practices and mindset this philosophy creates are the most useful ones, in my opinion. And, most importantly, doesn't contradict reality. I would recommend listening to this book: th-cam.com/video/0GTh5L44HF4/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=ne1 . It has lots of great ideas and could mess a bit with your perspective. You'd probably look at life differently, after finishing it. Though I would recommend remembering these words from an ancient zen monk: "Don't be addicted to life, don't be addicted to death". I hope they will help you walk not only through this book but through life too. Because it's so easy to be both.
Wish you all the best, man. Don't give up on yourself. Eventually, everything will change.
"I have no character."
Says the guy with more character than most characters
that is self hate, touma kamijou has the same problem
you can call that fake character as well lol since its heavily inspired or rather copied from his father
Yeah that was the only flawed thing in his sentences. Its impossible to have no character and hate yourself at the same time. Because if you have no character and you actually are an empty shell, then what are you hating. People that have completely and fully lost their sense of self aren’t capable of hating themselves for that reason. The only thing you can hate at that point is life because you dont enjoy suffering.
@@thepudge6953 I wouldn't necessarily call it flawed, as it is very much realistic...
When you end up spiraling in self doubt, you almost inevitably start to think about how you, yourself, the way you've been acting and the personality you created for yourself is even real, you tend to forget all the development you had that made you that way, thinking that you just adapted lies into yourself to please others.... When in most cases no, your actual personality is closer to those "lies" you think about than you would care to admit.
Having seen people have mental breakdowns to the point of doubting themselves I really have to say this is one of the most realistic characters I've seen in .... Ever ?
ngl he has more personality than 97% of other isekai MCs
As child: we want to be Naruto
As adult: we realize that we are Subaru
Life is not daijobu
Except most adults never come to this realization like he did. They will keep being lazy and procrastinate without feeling ashamed and I'm probably going to end up as one of those adults too
@@lionelronaldo7156 because we give up. It just never ends
I've been like Subaru almost my whole life, but unlike him, when I was young nobody cared about me. Because I was quiet, because I was ugly, because I was small. I don't even deserve to live, yet I have the audacity to be entitled and prideful, despite doing nothing to earn it. Even when I was little, I hated myself, everyone taught me to hate myself, but I'd ask myself "why?". Why couldn't I have genuine connections, why am I such a worthless piece of trash, why does nobody care about me, why was I even born? The truth is I never deserved any of that to begin with, that I was evil to my core, that deep down I was a selfish egotistical sociopath just like my brother and parents. I was just too ignorant to realize it, yet here I am living like nothing is wrong, laughing and smiling with my friends like I deserve it. I don't even know I'm still alive, but dear god, every day I wish I wasn't
At least he's honest.
1:56
"I did nothing"
Every depression person feel that line...
hahahahahhahahhahahaha that's so true I may be depressed but this show made me feel so many feelings but the main thing was to never give up and to be confident.
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@@TheOGFazbear I repeated over and over, and it never worked on me
@@jeremygrandison1040 hmm well I don't know what to tell you
@@jeremygrandison1040 Keep on fighting! 😊♥️💪
Thb, every time Subaru loses his cool and snaps at people, his words, soaked in self-hatred and desperation, really sting. Even Garfiel recoiled when Subaru's mask came off that one time. Emilia and Rem didn't.
And given what he has to go through every time, I don't blame him for snapping.
Lol what? Emilia told him to get a clue and leave her alone.
@@EmperorPylades I'm not talking about his little ego burst. Episode 17 Subaru came to Emilia with a semi-coherent rant addressed mostly to himself.
@@user-li5cr6wv5b what, so it only counts when it suits? The time he kept the mask slip and showed the true ugliness underneath doesn't suit your version of events so you'll ignore it?
@@EmperorPylades no, it doesn't fit. Because, were you not here simply to argue, you'd notice that the phrase "words, soaked in self-hatred and desperation" in the opening post refer to specific scenes, not including the ones where Subaru is simply being a di.ck to people.
This guy is more human than every anime character ever, showing that he can suffer, giving up, mentally breaking down, that's why I love Re:ZERO
It hit me in the feels
no shit, subaru is more human than some human ive met in my life
Damn I felt season 2 on the end dropped significantly
I watch the series over an over I love re zero gang 😂
Guts more human 🗿
subaru made me cry so many time because he is so realistic on so many point, sometimes i hates him, i hate his choices but i loves them too.
Honestly for me subaru is the best protagonist i ever see in my life.
That’s what I’m saying!!! Subaru my fav anime character so relatable. I made a vid on it if you wanna peep
@@subaru2x965 show me
It's pretty sad that half baked haters that were disgusted from him from the first few episodes keep claiming he was the most unrealistic, stupid and pathetic mc out there.
When he was absolutely the best at character development.
Well either way those people were probably just Betas that only wanted to see overly OP Isekai MCs waving hands and flattening nations.
And then he became a full on max power CHAD mode in Season 2 later on, however, there's more, and I'm pretty sure he's gonna suffer a whole lot more
Me too i love subarus character after that episode people hate on him but dont even consider what hes been through and what d they do in his position he keeps getting back up and he's relatable as well
This speech was so damn well written! Kuddos to the author!
I really loved this one and the one when gaf because gaf could have killed him but he didn't because he was too scared
Tappei Nagatsuki, for those who don't know.
It’s human. That voice acting doesn’t feel or sound like acting. It feels so real.
Where the japan version
@@Rhidayah it's Re;zero ep18
This speech is how I motivate myself to work out
I never changed, but it's definitely ok if I stay the same, the key word is "me"
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subaru: i hate myself !!
*me pushing to do better while doing 100 squats with tears running down my face*
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Seeing this image in a loop makes me realize how pale Subaru's skin is here. The flutter of the jacket, the perpetual fear in his face makes it look so haunting.
Yeah....
"I'll tell you what kind of man I really am
I have no strength but I want it all
I have no knowledge but all I do is dream
There's nothing I can do but struggle in vain like an idiot
I... I hate... I hate myself!!
All I do is talk a big game and make myself look like a big shot
when I can't do anything"
Damn, never thought I would feel so relatable to some words that came from someone who doesn't even exist
best quote in re:zero
I know right
He's facing reality for the first time in his Life.
Thanks for the comment! ♥️
@@E.M.Favour ♥️♥️
Jesus, every time I hear this I think of how good the dub VA did. He really captured the pain and depression Subaru felt.
In part, because I wasn’t acting when I said these words. I’ve genuinely felt this way before when trying to convince my wife I wasn’t worth spending her whole life with.
ACTING!
@@VAsonicmega Holy shit this wasn't a comment I was expecting. Just want to say you are an amazing fucking VA. I had to check if this was actually you because I was dumbfounded lmao. Can't wait for season 3 whenever that will come out XD.
@@tz_snowy1138 Thank you!
@@VAsonicmega Are you actually Sean chiplock... Man, if you are I just wanna say you did. phenomenal job voice acting Subaru. When I think of him, I picture your voice. truly a great voice actor... Everyone who dubbed re: zero did a great Job.
@@xxDriftyxx3 that's Sean Chiplock. I verified it. That is indeed him.
It’s crazy, how everything he just said. Applies to me in real life. I’ve just realized that me and Subaru, are literally the same person.
So you are the mc of this current world 🙂
Ik how u feel both of these quotes hit hard for me
Yeah man I'm the same 🙂
@@extra7. 😂😭
@@samfurci3511 I hope you get through whatever you're struggling with❤️
Damn this hurts it really does suck when you do this to yourself. It just digs a deeper hole making it harder to climb out of. And people make it seem so easy to care about things or find motivation or a passion. And getting scolded or frowned upon for trying your best makes you wonder why you even try sometimes.
Yeah it's hard to find passion and harder to live without it . When you don't have passion you pretty much give up on everything, people just don't care and tell you that you give up easily without knowing how it hurts to live without finding what to love.
@@fictionalwisdom829 well said, that’s true asf and some people go their whole lives never finding out what they wanted to do they just do whatever comes in their way.
Watching this anime never made me cry but reading the part about being scolded made tears drop from my eyes
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@@E.M.Favour 😊♥️♥️
Subaru's character arc is one of the greatest character arcs in fiction that I've ever seen.
True
The voice acting is just insane, I can feel the all the frustration the guilt. Haven't heard such good voice acting in dub for ages.
Natsuki Subaru the man who walks a hellscape of his own world a world that breaks him again and again kills him time after time yet he strives towards near impossible goals like it's all he can do trough persistence grit and support he achieves those goals
Well he was unable to give up
Oh he is able to that's exactly what sloth if story is
@@themidnightbanshee5927 well I meant in the return by death sense but I guess that’s true
" All I do is talk a big game and make myself look like a big shot "
We all hate his errors and actions because they are all realistic. In real life we don’t hate our choices because we are not observing ourselves in a third person pov. We won’t know if we hurt others through our speeches or make mistakes
I cant tell you enough how right you are. Reason why I loved Subaru's story is because it hit so close to home everytime he screwed up so when he actually does his best and succeeds, you feel truly happy for him.
Hits way too close to home
@@xervislane770 😊♥️♥️
@@animatoraoi3672 😊♥️❣️
I think the worst of all is that we could’ve chosen the same ways and thinking if we were really in that situation. It’s not only realistic, it is something that everyone of could’ve experienced in that situation
"SuBaRu'S cHaRaCtEr DoN't FeElS rEaL"
Meanwhile Subaru's speech getting more and more relatable 👁️👄👁️
Subaru is a good person , as knowing
One's own weakness and correcting them is different from said then done.
And admitting them is difficult.
Absolutely. It's dumb how some people say that Subaru is a bad person or something. Or those certain types of people that call him an "incel." Doesn't even make sense.
Dying many times does that to ya
That's the best writing I've ever seen from an author; so much humane emotions in a character that even makes me think some real life people aren't real compared to Subaru.
Props to Nagatsuki Tappei for this amazing piece of work
Yes!!
Props to this English voice acting 👏 for Subaru
After reading arc 6 I can confidently say Subaru is one of if not the best writing character in all of animanga
Now you got me excited. I'm about to start arc 6. I already think he's the best written character in all of animanga and I haven't even gotten to what you mentioned. Can't wait to read it
arc 6 is like a cake that make you want to cry when you eat it , it so good yet so painful to eat it because of how god dam good it is.
Arc 6 is amazing!
@@PotatoPL- So how's the Arc 6 ?
@@applel2.043 we need review boi
Subaru is the kind of guy that you just want tk hug and say that its ok
Agreed!
I really hope that, by the end of the series, Subaru is finally able to talk freely about RBD with his friends. Not just for the release of him being completely honest and open about what he's been through with people who actually care about him, but also, what I can only imagine, his friends just having the mother of bombshells dropped on them with the realization of how much Subaru has suffered and arguably often times for their sake more than his own
That “I hate myself” hits deep
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Greatest isekai mc
if someone ever says "its really easy to give up" im sending them this.
I think that every single person struggling with depression can relate to this words...
This was a wake up call for a lot of people.
Indeed, it was...
This shit is everything i feel about myself. I absolutely fucking despise who i am.
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So I wrote down everything he said. Yall welcome.
"There's nothing easy about giving up, nothing !
You think I'm just doing nothing thinking about nothing, cutting myself off from everything, throwing my entire life away, leaving every last thing I know and care about behind and that's all it took for me to call it quit ?! That's a lie ! It was never that easy for me ! It was so much easier for me to go on thinking that there was something I could do to make a real difference but I know now, that there's nothing I can do. There's no way out ! Understand ?! The only path everything leads to is giving up ! If I could do something then I'd do it... I swear that I would...
You don't know what you're talking about, I have given up. Carrying it all was impossible from the very start. My hand was so small that it all slipped through my fingers, leaving nothing behind...
Bullshit ! What do you know ?! What the hell do you actually know about me ?! Nothing ! I'll tell you what kind of man I really am. I have no strength but I want it all. I have no knowledge but all I do is dream. There's nothing I can do but struggle in vain like an idiot. I... I hate... I hate myself ! All I do is talk a big game and make myself look like a big shot when I can't do anything ! I never do anything yet I complain with the best of them like it's my job or something. Who the hell do I think I am ?! I'm a fraud... It's amazing that I can live like this and not feel ashamed. You know I'm right ! I'm an empty shell, there's nothing inside me at all ! I know there isn't... Guess that's obvious... Anybody could see that...
Before I cam to this place, before I got in this sitation that led me to all of you, do you have any idea, what I did with my life ? I did nothing, that's what... I've never done a single thing worth mentioning. I had all that time and freedom but I just squandered it away on nothing. I could have done anything with my life but I never did a damn thing ! And what you're looking at now is the result ! This cowardly week worthless crybaby ! All of my powerlessness, all of my inconfidence, is the product of my rotten and pathetic character, wanting to accomplish something important when I've never did anything to earn it goes way beyond the limitations of arrogance ! The cost of my lifetime of laziness and all the wasteful habits I forged along the way, just ends up killing both you and me.
That's right... I have no character... Even when I though I could go on living here nothing changed about who I really am. The old man back at the manor saw that part of me perfectly, didn't he ?
I wasn't trying to get stronger, or trying to make things better. That was a lie ! I was just striking an obvious pose to justify myself ! To say that I was trying my best, that it wasn't like I wasn't doing anything, to appear to be doing everything I could. I wanted to say I couldn't help it ! To be told that it couldn't be helped ! I was only pretending to push my body to the limits so that all of those excuses would be possible ! Even when I had you help me study, I was just posing to cover up how embarassed I felt to be such an incompetent idiot ! Deep down inside, at the core of my heart, I'm just a small cowardly, filthy piece of trash, who's always worried about how others see me, how they will accept or judge me and nothing... Nothing about me has changed !
I've known it since the very beginning. Everything that was happening was my fault. I'm the lowest of the low. I absolutely hate myself..."
thx
thx so much bro? i love u
The thing is..... i spent 18 episodes hating this guy for this very exact reason. But hearing him say this, its like an eye opener. As true as it is that some of his decisions makes me want to strangle him, in many ways, if i put myself in his shoes, i would probably be even more lost than him...
This hit me hard when I first saw this. I could relate to every single word and feeling behind this speech. I know exactly how it feels. Feelings of worthlessness, shame, and genuine self hatred are just so terrible to live with, and it's so hard to carry yourself out of that hole when you're already so deep within it. I'm thankfully in a much better state now, both physically and mentally, but every time I come back to this it hits me all over again.
We can all change. We're all deserving of love and happiness. Keep going, believe that there's something worth living for and working towards, and I guarantee you, you'll find it.
It's easy to give up... but it doesn't suit us.
Well said. El Psy Kongroo.
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You know what, I read an entire webnovel of re:zero just because of subaru and I didn't regret it in fact I love him even more than I should be. Natsuki Subaru is a masterpiece of a character, the most realist of the real, I absolutely love him, He is my Number 1. Male character in anime.
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It’s honestly a miracle he’s still a sane human being.
@Shinigami'sCreation if i have that power i will use it to win every lottery lol
This will always be my favorite scene in the entire anime. It made me actually sympathize with subaru.
Also Rem wasn't necissarily confessing her love to Subaru, she knew he loved Emilia deeply and was just reassuring to Subaru that despite him reaching his breaking point, he is actually a good person and has a lot of amazing qualities.
Another thing this could say: no matter what you do, being human is in of itself suffering
Stop hating yourself Subaru , you are special x🌹
Fuck man this hit me harder than it should have
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Man lived my whole life bar for bar
You could even say "baru for baru"...
Ba dum tss.
@@sasy11110 "Get off the stage!"
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My favorite part is that this absolute king comes back from these feelings to help the important people in his life. Re: Zero is so good
Yes!
This is why Subaru is my favorite protagonist, and why Re:Zero is my favorite anime
Agreed!
Since some people want to know:
The series is Rezero.
The episode is Season 1 episode 18.
Just pitting this for those who don't know.
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I find myself rewatching this scene....more and more... especially when I'm at my lowest points
If...not to find the words to sum up my situation....to remind myself...its not just me with these thoughts...to remember... I'm not truly alone
You know what's the worst about being like this?
You do nothing, you know it's bad, you know how bad it gets, you know that you can change it, you know that you can turn things around but no.
Instead of doing what you should, you just lay there, almost as if unable to move, then it gets worse and worse and worse and worse.
Until it's too late, it's too late to fix things, it's too late to do anything about your situation, it destroys both your past and your future.
Then you have no one to blame but yourself, that intense feeling of guilt, hatred and pent up anger, but after doing it for a while, you don't feel anything.
Do you know how I feel now that I don't do anything? I feel nothing, no guilt, no hatred, no anger. I only feel indifferent, as if it didn't matter if I won or lost, if I died or lived, why? Because I knew this would happen, I know myself well enough to know that I won't do any steps forward, I'll just stand here waiting for time to rot me away, just because I was too hesitant to take any steps, because it's hard and because I don't want to go through with it any more.
And then there's the excuses, you know that if you keep lying to yourself over and over and over again it will finally perceive the lie as truth?
I did that to myself.
I liked to pretend as if the problem is around me, not me myself.
I'm not happy? It has to be the people around me that make me like this.
I didn't do well at the test? It had to be because I kept getting distracted by others around me.
I have no money? Well it has to be because getting jobs is so scarce lately and money doesn't grow on trees.
It's not me, it can never be my fault.
Somebody asked me the other day, "if life's so hard then why won't you just kill yourself already?" When I was talking about my laziness.
That was a genuine question that haunted me for such a long time, but hearing it out loud was so much more impactful.
It's actually pretty funny, when you can't even die right. Guess it's true, tragedy is long distance comedy.
When you can't even pull the trigger, it just comes to show how low you really are, hates life but won't kill himself because he's too afraid to pull the trigger. As if there's something I could do to escape this.
Why am I writing this? I don't know, I don't know why I am here in the first place, guess I felt so bad about myself that I thought it'd be nice to hear my words come out of somebody else's mouth for once.
I, truly, hate myself.
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Yeah I understand how you feel you feel like you can never move forward that you say in that one spot your whole life yeah you're right it is hard to move forward but I can't it doesn't matter to me how hard it is I will never give up on myself or the people around me I'll keep my head straight and never give up even though it's super hard whenever you think I want to do it I want to change that's your starting line and when you decide to lift your head up again and move forward nobody has the right to stop you sometimes I be feeling like to give up I just can't no matter how hard things are I will never give up So please don't hate yourself everyone have the potential to be somebody really awesome
100% felt the way. All that he said is exactly my thoughts and actions. 20 yrs old yet achieved nothing. I want to have everything but i do nothing for it.
Then go do something
The only way to live without regret is to give everything you have
I wish someone could read this by chance ,and tell me how could I heal from this feeling. It’s been years since I’ve watched it for the first time and I always come back between time to time feeling the same way.
VA definitely cried during this
As a kid we all wanted to act big and strong like Luffy, Ichigo, Naruto-- all of them. . . in the end, we were nothing more than Subaru. Smh
Damn I can relate to him in so many ways. It's like a cycle of believing in your self thinking your doing the right thing and getting closer to your goals. Only to realise history is repeating itself you say to yourself I am different things won't turn out the same way. Only to realise you haven't moved forward at all and you start to think why did I think I had a chance I really am stupid. To think I blindly did the same actions again that caused my failure. Time passes and the blaming of other people and other things stop and you suddenly realise that you yourself are the only one to blame. I hope subaru in the anime breaks this cycle. I myself am trying and to anyone who might be trying as well I wish you luck.
You're not alone
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@@iiitrifle9895 I know, stay strong
@@iiitrifle9895 But my flaws remained the same
Elite voice acting
Every single word that he said is the epitome of me as a human being every single word that he said was like daggers piercing through my heart me and him are one of the same I never thought I would connect with a protagonist sooo simliar to me.
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Literally took the words out of my mouth, i prob won't be alive in a few years
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Lol I cried in this episode 🖤🖤
What episode was that?
I want to watch again
Me too
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@@viki8994 of season 1
I cried every episode
This is one of the best speeches Ive heard I can’t lie, it cuts so incredibly deep
Most relatable quote ever
Yep!
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I've began this series I've been sucked in since the start I could never survive what Return by Death does to your mental psyche overtime
I always argue with those ignorant morons in comments that critizise Subaru for not using his return for savescumming. I had an accident 12 years ago, I was speeding on my bike through a narrow road that doesnt have a lot of traffic and ended up running into a car. Thankfully, the guy stopped on time just as I fell of my bike. My face actualy landed 3 inches away the cars tire. I was shaking for the whole day and to this day I remember how scared I was. So aint no way anyone can go through that shit willingly.
Amazingly, there are still tons of people arrogant enough to criticize Subaru for not utilizing RBD and think they could do better.
Just straight up delusional!
This is the very first anime I ever cried, and this moment did justice to my experience
Man when you can relate, right in the feels.
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It's amazing how much I can relate to a fictional character so deeply. Seeing this I can safely say I can die happy now. I've always wanted to see someone like me and now when I've found one I'm very satisfied. Subaru without a single doubt in my mind the best written character in the issekai genre.
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Ngl if we had this immortality time loop thing that Subaru had
We would’ve lost our sanity from constant deaths and to the point of even more serious mental issues here.
It’s understandable what hell Subaru went through and the level of mental strength to withstand it.
"and all the wasteful habits I forged along the way just end up killing both you and me"
This video I played on repeat and I realized I resonate with him deeply and today I've learn that a change in me needs to be made
You can do it! 💪😁❤️
go!! i believe in u!!
This is one of the heaviest animes I’ve ever seen.
Yeah.
I have never cried this much in my life, I felt as if he was describing my life
Dub voice actor and sub voice actor goes insane. The only isakai anime have best English dub
atleast he vented it out verbally, some people have to carry it with them for ever
Im such a fraud, acting like someone special when I'm nothing more than a worthless loser
You're not worthless :) ! 😊
They didnt notice you were crying
They did notice you were sad
They didn’t notice you were tired
They didn’t notice you were alone
They didn’t notice how attentive you were
They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are...
They didn’t notice how you actually try to make others smile
They did notice you failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all your mistakes
They did notice all you flaws
They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them.
But you stayed strong
You kept going on
You never gave up on hope
You never let then take you down
And you know they wasn’t good enough for you
And that’s what make you stronger
Stay safe everyone ❤(crd first writer)
@@samanfang5139 I don't think they meant that at all. As someone who struggles with severe depression, a lot of the time I feel very unattractive. This was not meant to be targeted at anyone specific. It was meant as a generalisation. There are so may people out there who feel unattractive all the time. I think it was just used because it is a form of negativity that more people experience than those who don't.
@@samanfang5139 me too my friend, me too
I did not stay strong
I stopped and made excuses
I gave up
I gave up
I gave up
I gave up
I gave up I gave up I gave I gave up IgaveupIgiveupIgiveup
@@mikedanielespeja6128then try again keep going when you get to the other side you will be stronger than most people on this earth trust me on that
Its a stupid copypasta just downvote and move on
One of the saddest yet true speeches in anime by one of the best main characters ever created followed up by the best speech by the best girls of one of the best animes ever, IMO.
i listened to this clip before watching the anime and it cuts really deep, however after having watched the anime it cuts even deeper
Thinking how better he is compared to even the most angelic characters like Emilia... Dude truly rejected by everyone since he come to that world and he could've easily destroyed that world. Don't take it lightly "Giving up isn't easy." Part since he just can't give up... And that's why RbD exist. Only Natsuki Subaru can make Return by death out of a witch factor. And with his inability to give up... He could easily destroyed the world or live without any rules.
But he made the worst and selfish choices... Good choices so he can laugh with people. That's what he gets.
He is the one who has madness surpasses any witch or arcbishop in that world but he is also the best human being in there... And that's why he suffers.
Worst and selfish?
@@whateverwhatever4476 There is pretty much no reason to save Rem or Ram... Or even saving Emilia who rejected him and lied to him(though we see in side story she is guilty to the point of tears in loop 1)
By worst decision I mean saving people that doesn't deserve but he does it anyway because he wants them in his life... He didn't save Ram and Rem because he find something logical in their actions or thought if they are evil or good... He only did it because they hold his hand when he was having nightmares and showed some sort of kindness in first loop in Arc 2... That's all. At the core it's pretty selfish and madness to decide something like that with that reasoning.
I was so certain.....so certain that this quote was true....true for myself and others. But then I heard that first part again, and I realized something. The fact is: Yes, it is easier to just give up.
Admitting the evil, worthless, and grotesque nature that you see inside IS far from simple. And yet......and yet to stop there, to just fall into the pit and remain there wallowing in how unfair and tragic it is, how there was nothing that could be done, thinking you were always doomed: IS the easier path. When you are tired and spent, you just don't want to fight anymore.
But that is what it means to be difficult, it takes strength to do it. It takes strength to climb, even if you are absolutely certain that there is no way out. Because the funny thing is, we are human, we are small and stupid. We DO NOT know what the result will be until it is done, to claim that we do is just arrogance. So I will climb, because I've stopped assuming that it is useless just because I haven't managed it yet. I've become curious. Curious to see if this darkness can be escaped. And the fact is, I won't know until I either reach it, or am already gone. I've been to that bottom, and quite frankly I'm tired of being tired.
Ngl you're very wrong. And for someone who has been at the bottom of the bottom aswell, you're legit lying to yourself xd
@@kilfiction7322 are you agreeing with Subaru in this moment cause he’s wrong
@@kilfiction7322 in your point of view he is lying but as someone else who has been at the bottom in life. Its so easy to just give in and shut down and so hard to keep going with resolve. But when you get tired of being at the bottom you will claw your way out or you will destroy yourself. Either way you do whatever it takes to get out of that hell.
@@kilfiction7322 everyone has their own own way to process these feelings so they inherently can’t be wrong. As someone who has been at the bottom as well, thinking of just giving up was such an easy option and trying to strive to get out from the dark depths was the hard part.
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But the thing is that it hard to give up when you put effort to it. Imagine sacrifice your health for something you loved but failed because you not good enough to do it . It hard to give up because you literally dedicate your life to that goal , if it dont exist anymore than what would be left inside you ?
Why it's so relatable?? 🙃
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Ikr
I'm the lowest of the low.
I absolutely...
hate my self.
Natsuki Subaru 🐐
June 12, 2023
I really feel this right now. Been through a lot this year and finally ripped the band-aid off of who I thought I had to be… I put so much effort through the years to be “successful”, used my rage to propel me, and I look around and feel so empty and alone. So lost. Like a fraud, telling myself and everyone I did my journey for noble reasons, meanwhile that’s def not the case, I’ve always known deep inside, and can’t even accept good or bad in the end. Idk who I am. I’ve never known. I just used “success” as a distraction. And it’s tearing me apart right now. I have faith it will get better, but damn it hurts so much… and it’s all my fault.
hey, how are things going? just wanted to check up on you.
@@biolifeless150 I’m doing better man, thanks. Been a wild few weeks but feel the storm starting to pass and settle. Have to rebuild a lot of things but I guess that’s life.
Never watched this show and rarely get into TV these days - is it worth it?
Also, how you doing?
I can relate to every single word from it. Subaru is me but a lot better than me.
You can always improve! 😊♥️
@@iiitrifle9895 thanks bro 👍
@@thememeland1146 You're welcome bro! ♥️
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You can do the same thing Subaru did and better yourself you just need to put in the effort and try, good luck man. 😊
And people go on saying Subaru is a bad protagonist.
I think the reason they say that is because they would much rather have an ultra powerful protagonist(in a more conventional manner than Subaru) than face the reality of a weaker and far more vulnerable protagonist that resembles the audience. Because watching that characters shortcomings is akin to watching our own. That’s why so many people relate to this monologue, because we’ve all been there and understand how it feels. That’s why he’s an amazing protagonist, because he is relatable on the most basic level, he wants what most people want and fears what most people fear. His deaths aren’t quick and merciful, they are drawn out and show his agony. That’s why Re:zero is one of my favorite anime/manga of all time(it’s up there with fma brotherhood for me)
It's rough... Knowing how much i relate to Subarus pain.
Fucking hell I just want to hug him so tight
3:19 is the most human thing I've heard in an anime. The VA for the English dub is amazing but so is the original...I just didn't have to read the original 😂 I will however say that I love the Japanese actors screams of agony and tantrums.
I just hope , in the end people get to know about RBD and then finally understand what his words meant or at least people close to him
yup.
story of my life.
Has anyone ever lived through a moment in their life where they genuinely have no idea what to do with themselves? That's me right now, I have no goal, I lack motivation to do the stuff I was enthusiastic before, and now I don't see a point in my life. Don't get me wrong, I don't see a point in dying either, so don't worry about that. You could say I'm lost and that would be right. I don't fucking know what to do. Maybe I'm just bored with life, or maybe I'm depressed and I'm not even aware of it, if that's even possible. My only goal is get through school so I can become a programmer, but that's a shallow goal at best.
This breaks my heart cause I feel the same way
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Most relatable anime mc
Couple years ago,i watched half of the first episode and never gave it a try. i guess it seemed to me like more of the same other shows.
Came across half of this scene randomly this week on tick tock.
It stuck with me.
Two days ago i looked up for the whole scene, shared it with my brother, while he was watching and i was listening tearing up.
On my way back home i was listening to the whole thing.
Found myself crying for half an hour having my own break down.
I'm not alone with this, i could relate to everything he said without any context.
It hit hard.
I love anime, and emotional breakdowns do happen but in a different way.
I was surprised how emotional and deep this whole speech was.
I think it's the first time I've seen a character beating themselves up, admitting everything that i think about myself.
Still processing it.
And i started watching the show again 🙏
Thanks for uploading 😊
your write what subaru says about himself i relate to it re zero is my favorite anime because i like subaru character he his confidence and thinks that he can do anything but forget about his limits but still he do his best
I sure am having a day. Aren't I? To stumble across this huh... I'm not fine
This is truly a best piece of content out there online. I just want to salute to the writer who wrote this, it makes my very being to be present. It feels like I am not there alone, yet I have to rise and make something feels to burn. Truly a masterpiece.
"Did you just say what I thought you said... Don't give me that crap! There's nothing easy about giving up, nothing! You think I am just doing nothing, thinking about nothing, cutting myself off from everything, throwing my entire life away, leaving every last thing I know and care about behind, and that's all it took for me to call it quits?! That's a lie, it was never that easy for me! It was so much easier for me to go on thinking that there was something I could do to make a real difference, but I know now that there's nothing I can do. There's no way out, understand?! The only path everything leads to is giving up! If I could do something, then I'd do it. I swear that I would. You don't know what you're talking about, I have given up. Carring at all was impossible from the very start. My hands are so small that it all slipped through my fingers, leaving nothing behind. WHAT DO YOU KNOW?! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT ME?! HUH?! NOTHING?! I'll tell you what kind of man I really am! I have no strength but I want it all, I have no knowledge but all I do is dream. There's nothing I can do but struggle in vain like an idiot! I... I hate... I hate myself!! All I do is talk a big game and make myself look like a big shot when I can't do anything! I never do anything, yet I complain with the best of them like it's my job or something. Who the Hell do I think I am?? I'm a fraud, it's amazing that I can live like this and not feel ashamed. You know I'm right!! I'm an empty shell, there's nothing inside me at all! I know there isn't. Guess that's obvious... anybody could see that. Before I came to this place, before I got in this situation that led me to all of you, do you have any idea what I did with my life? I did nothing, that's what. I've never done a single thing worth mentioning. I had all that time and freedom, but I just squandered it away on nothing. I could have done anything with my life, but I never did a damn thing, and what you're looking at now is the result! This cowardly, weak, worthless, crybaby! All of my powerlessness, all of my inconfidence, is the product of my rotten and pathetic character. Wanting to accomplish something important, when I've never done anything to earn it goes way beyond the limitations of arrogance! The cost of my lifetime of laziness and all the wasteful habits I forged along the way just ends up kiling both you and me. That's right, I have no character. Even when I thought I could go on living here, nothing changed about who I really am. The old man at the manor saw that part of me perfectly, didn't he? I wasn't trying to get stronger, or trying to make things better, that was a lie! I was just striking an obvious pose to justify myself! To say that I was trying my best, that it wasn't like I wasn't doing anything, to be able to appear to be doing everything I could! I wanted to say "I couldn't help it", to be told that it couldn't be helped! I was only pretending to push my body to the limit so that all of those excuses would be possible! Even when I had you help me study, I was just posing to cover up how embarrassed I felt to be such an incompetent idiot! Deep down inside, at the core of my heart, I'm just a small, cowardly, filthy piece of trash who's always worried about how others see me, how they'll accept or judge me, and nothing... nothing about me has changed!! I've known it since the very beginning. Everything that was happening was my fault. I'm the lowest of the low. I absolutely... hate myself." -Suburu Natsuki
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Jeez... that hurt
May you all in this comment section, find peace in yourself, and in the people around you.
This whole thing felt like it came from the depths of my mind. I really hate myself, but unlike Subaru I can't change
Let's be real we can, and it is just that we are to weak at the moment to try again.
Yes you can, that's the point of the series everyone can change it just takes effort.
I hope you don't say that because the series at present still doesn't make clear how much of Subaru's old self isn't cured but he just adapts in a lot of ways, gets coping mechanisms which are also ultimately harmful and his progression will continue to be slow. Primarily because it's not about a bad person becoming a good person, Subaru doesn't deserve to hate himself this much and neither do you, and the ways other people see your flaws may not be anywhere near as harsh as how you do.
This still gives me goosebumps everytime
I think the same thing about myself I know how it feels
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When Subaru says that the only thing he ever cared about was what ppl thought of him and how he had no character. It made me think that if he has no character then what about me
This is exactly me word by word, letter by letter.
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Subaru is such a dynamic and realistic character. Every emotion found in Re:Zero is realistic. This breakdown relates to everyone. But damn, we all hate Subaru’s choices. But they’re all realistic as we make the same choice but we view the choices differently due to us being in first person.
This sums up my feelings and life in general these past years and I'm glad I've found this video so I can watch it over and over again as motivation to stop making excuses, to stop pretending, to work my ass off, to start making the impact I want to and to start living a life that's worthy.
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I feel this. Feel like I was forced into a corner and forced to give up and left to think I was a bitch. I kept moving