you have captivated us all with your energy and excitement and engrained yourself on our hearts and because of that I felt every ounce of emotion along with you there. as well a Rens emotion, i had to prepare myself to see these 3 all together and to see your reaction to them all together, brave man, well done ,I do think this was a great way to do the reaction, even if very emotional. sending out huge hugs to you and anyone who needs one 🤗🥰
If you see this I wanted to make sure you’re ok. I’m so sorry. As hard as that was it’s why Ren is resonating so much. It’s not just his musical genius. It’s that his vulnerability makes it ok for us to be vulnerable. It’s cathartic in a way, and like you, so many of us need that. I felt it when you said you had to put on your game face every day. I always have mine ready when I need it but it’s not easy. Please know that your heartfelt wise words will also touch people and that’s the kindest thing we can do ❤
This is well said, we all need to express emotions at times. Only one more add, if anyone can watch and listen to Ren, knowing even part of his story and not have emotions, are the people to feel sorry for and probably worry about for many reasons. Keep on moving forward, you are helping Ren with his path. All good for all of us.
This hit so hard... ❤The alg0r1thm brought us for the music, we stayed because of you. All of You. Your courage, your insight, vulnerability, atmosphere, your humanity... However, please don't burn yourself out. When you leave the desk and put down your headset, leave the heavy thoughts there to rest too. You are so dear to so many people from all around the world. We got you! For anyone else going through it, believe me... truly believe when I tell you that you are so much stronger than you are consciously aware of right now. These song hit hard but from a... confronting perspective, personally. Nobody around me knows, but seeing everything from Joe's perspective... It all came flooding back. There is a detail in the articles that completely wrecked me and I tear up every time I hear his name. Don't read if you're not in a great headspace. I hope he is with peace, witnessing the celebration his legacy is, forever immortalised. A selfless Freckled Angel, with a great big smile. ❤️ You matter, and are most definitely loved. Hugs for everyone: 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂❣️
I was bawling my eyes out right there with you... Life is fucking unfair, you are right, I lost my 25 year old son to cancer last year... He has taught me so much, while he was here and now from another realm. You remind me of him in some way, he loved music, music was his life. I am pretty sure he would have loved Ren. Take care... Big hug ❤
i am sat in bed, its the early hours of the morning, i lost my 17 year old daughter Aleisha suddenly, i keep my tears locked inside as i feel if i cry i will never stop, but tonight they are running freely, thank you for sharing your vulnerability which helped me release some of the pain. i don't know you but i am very proud of you my friend
You did it, proud of you 💜😭 Your reactions are beautiful, perfect, fun I like them because as an over thinker who overthinks my overthinking, I feel like I can just experience the emotions with you without needing to worry/think which is a welcome relief sometimes, a nice little break from my internal world that is often times more chaotic than peaceful🥴 BUT WATCHING YOU CRY MAKES MY HEART HURT so let’s not do anymore of that anytime soon ok?…break time…recalibrate 🥲 Hang in there, you’re great! I propose Love Music pt 1-3 for next up, essentially just dance parties with no tears in sight!!
"Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is love with no place to go." 🖤
There are a lot of complete strangers that want to hug you right now. I hope you feel the love. Vulnerability is strength. Showing vulnerability takes courage, strength you offer to others who are feeling weak. That is heroic and selfless…
Just want to say I respect and admire your courage, not only doing this in front of a camera, but also opting to upload it after. It takes FAR more strength as a man to show your empathy and compassion than suppress them as we're taught. The world needs more people like yourself with the strength to be emotionally honest and to stand as a positive affirmation of our humanity. Thank you for doing this like you have, man. I hope you understand that you're amongst a strong, healing community that appreciates you. ❤
Dude we all got you 😍, we come back to your channel because of your honest heartfelt reactions, that is why your channel is growing and although I'm on the other side of the world its a privilege to be on the other side of a screen as your 'audience'! sending you a huge hug and keep being you 😍 Ren just blows my mind daily 😍
What to type...ok first of all I don't think I have seen any other reactors try to do all three of these in one go. You have balls of steel. Second I know the internet can feel like a cold place at times but the Ren crew is one big family of beautiful souls that support each other. Ren even has a discord server for the community for that reason. This is a tough one to sit through, for me as well, but its cathartic for folks that are brave enough to do it. I will leave out the sappy stuff since you have been through enough today. Just know that your reactions always seem from the heart and I feel honored to be on the journey with you experiencing this art because it is truly special.
A 65 yr old geezer in Ohio just matched you tear for tear,lol. So many of us dealing with loss and illness have been fascinated by the raw humanity of REN’s work. Your honest reactions are cathartic to so many of us. Coping seems easier when we don’t feel so alone with our struggles. Great reactions. Peace.
I know the pain these songs bring because I've lost 6 close people and 11 total to this subject. The weird thing is Ren talks about distance being his plaster cast at the same time he is busting ours wide open. I ran from these songs too at first but I'm glad I found the courage and I'm also glad you did. It hurts to feel sometimes, but we need to sit in the uncomfortable to really understand ourselves. Take care, man. ❤️
I am 64 years old and I love your reactions there is one thing I have learn from life it's a bitch it's chews you up and spits you out.I hope you are ok sending you healing love 😢
Mad respect Ben! Thank you for your honest reaction. You did so well and am so grateful for you and your channel. The more people who post honest reactions, the more it teaches others that it's okay to release genuine emotions. You are fantastic for doing this. Sending you a virtual hug. Please look after yourself today. Drink water and practice some self care xx
Sometimes the body needs to weep. The soul needs a cleansing to keep on shining. Pain allows for empathy... And it's our empathy that leads us all to love, acceptance, compassion, and humanity. So count your pain along with your blessings, for it's that which makes us human that makes us all more humane. Sending love and positive vibes. Take care, luv 🥰🙏🏽❤️
Ren man, he keeps making us cry because it's so raw and real and those who know know. Ren is therapy, he's been a positive influence since I've found him months ago, I'm so grateful.
A good honest reaction. Suicide hits hard. The final poem has made me question the intensity of my own anger towards my Suicidal best friend. His songs help one remember the person more than his final act.
Im so sorry for your loss 🖤 im glad youre here to share and be apart of such a wonderful community. Thank you for your support, and thank you for being human
I tried to kill myself after kicking my fiancé out of my house. She left with my work truck. My game console. All of my money left me her burdens. I tried to take my wrist off. Which isnt even the most fucked up part. I woke up in a psych ward and found out that my little sister was the one who found me. It took me a long, long time to watch suicide. In fact, if it wasn't for another reactor that had the same hard time as me. I wouldn't have ever watched it. I watched for joe first. Which i thank god for. Because, if i was left with the end of suicide. Idk where I'd be right now. I can't believe i did that to my little sister. Or my mom. Or my dogs. Im sorry. I haven't told anyone this. I thought you should be the first to hear it. I love you, man... im sorry
Never be sorry for sharing who you are and where you came from. Youre here. And thats all that will ever matter now. The fact that you just commented, means the world to me, and many others that have had the same feelings. much love to you, and im glad youre here brother. Thank you for sharing YOUR vulnerability with me, allowing me to continue to be courageous myself.
@@xRAGECXRCUSxof course man. This is the first time I have heard freckled Angels. I was hyperventilating and fucked up the whole time. Got soaked into the lyrics and then looked up and you were right where I was..... God damn this fucking dude ren. Therapy never sounded so good
Ah my dear brother from across the pond. Sending you some love and hugs from the UK. That's is why Ren is so great. He gives us the therapy we didn't know we needed until we feel it, see it, release it, heal a little bit more for it. Together we have the opportunity to light up each others lives just a little bit more than we did yesterday. Surround yourself with people who support you. You are a survivor of 100% of your worst days. I always try to find compassion for those who are suffering in whatever form as we know not their story that took them there. Have a good cry buddy, fully sob your heart out, it's how we heal. ❤️
Appreciate the time you put into this and your heartfelt reaction. I came to your channel with your first Ren reaction but stayed because of you. A big virtual hug to you, peace friend.
The love between Ren and Joe lives on. It will help people stay. And help people live with being left behind. The legacy of their friendship is full of so much love that it spills out into the rest of us. The fundraiser Ren launched ahead of this song raised 21k for the RNLI, the lifeboat service that searched for Joe and supported his friends and family as their hope of recovering him dwindled. Their legacy will literally save people from going under. ❤ Sending you a hug from the UK.
Man I've never seen anyone even attempt to do all 3 in one sitting - I know I couldn't. Watching Suicide on a numerous occasion still leaves me with tears rololing down my cheek. We are so privileged that Ren allows us to see and hear and feel his emotions relating to something so deeply personal to him and it is something none of us should take for granted. My one big takeaway was that I feel that For Joe was ultimately a song of hope and looking ahead to a brighter future. I certainly feel that Ren has laid a few ghosts to rest with his trip back home to the UK recently and meeting with Joe's parents. Ren talked about leaving there with a lighter heart so you sort of feel there is the beginnings of some closure for him.
Wrote that before your reaction and now having seen it, I'm pretty sure we share the same empathy gene. In my humble opinion, the tragedy of Joe's passing saved Ren's life and the song Suicide will save thousands of lives. That is Joe's legacy and it will resonate forever thanks to Ren.
It's so sad that we should feel so lonely in our struggles and our pain because we all suffer. One way or the other. People like Ren brings us together and that is the most beautiful thing. ❤
I found Ren the same month my Grandma died earlier this year. Then, one month later, my Grandpa died. Then, one month later, a good friend from church whom I was in leadership with died from cancer. Ren and I have spent a lot of time in the truck alone together. My family is quite small, so we went from not losing anyone for 30 years to losing 10% of our family in two months. We're all here with Ren and we're all here for each other. I think that's why Ren fans are so genuinely wholesome. Because we've all had something we've had to deal with, and we want to be sure to appreciate that everyone else has too.
A brilliant idea to do it in one go but also a very brave one. I think no one that I have seen at least did it that way. I cried with you. This is a journey that when it ends will have forever changed you for the better.
Prepare for another long comment. Imagine your best friend since you were 8 years old, the type of friend that would come to your house and stay for weeks at a time and vice versa, the one that's always making jokes, but had sort of a dark humor. One night he tells you that he's going to go jump off a bridge as he's leaving the bar that you and all your friends are enjoying your evening at. You laugh it off because it's not the first time he's said something like that and you tell him you'll see him tomorrow then go back to your group of friends, finish your drinks and go home. It's now the middle of the night and you've laid down to sleep but are awakened by a phone call from a mutual friends telling you that she was just on the phone with your other friend and he's literally on the bridge about to jump. This bridge goes over the Menai Straight, which is a river that runs between Wales and the larger section of the UK that places like London are on. This stretch of water is what they call "The Swellies" named as such because the strong tidal flow creates small whirlpools that come and go constantly and it makes it difficult to navigate even by boat and is often completely closed to for any water travel. You're 10 minutes from the bridge and you can run there in 5. So you get dressed, you start calling your friends phone and it keeps going to voicemail. You pick up your pace and you keep calling as you're making your way to the bridge. You can literally see the bridge in the distance. You call once more and there's no longer a signal, the phone is out of service. You run the last bit of the way as fast as you're able but even though you can see the bridge it's still much farther than it looks. You get there and there's no sign of your friend. There's never any sign of him, ever again. This is the pain Ren has been living with since December 2010. He talks about forgiving ones self but it's very clear it's something that's he's unable to to forgive himself for, even though he's not to blame. That sort of pain just doesn't go away because you tell yourself to think positive. But the thing about Ren is that he's able to weave emotion into his music and then evolve it from somber to something more inspiring. So while all these songs are very sad, they're also inspirational and a celebration of Joe's life and Ren changing his life and surviving through his own despair through channeling it into his music. That's powerful and it's one of the many reasons so many people connect with Ren's songs. Also a fun fact, there's a restaurant started by a mutual friend of Joe and Ren located at the Menai Bridge that Joe jumped from, called Freckled Angel and named after Ren's song. There's a wall mural of an angel on the inside and Ren recently got to sign his name over the angel's heart. "Bangor-born chef-owner Mike Jones wanted to remember a dear friend who passed away he decided to dedicate his restaurant to him, naming it after Ren Gill’s song and album Freckled Angels."
Hi Ben, it was great to catch you online and watch your journey through these songs. Also to watch you open your emotions and thoughts up like a flower blooming and facing the bright sunlight. Like attracts like and the compassionate and humble are grouping together in support of each other through Ren and his magical talent. Take care, keep heading for the sun, it’s bright and warm in that direction. ❤️🇬🇧x
The entire world cried the day we heard these, for Joe, Joe's family, Ren, and for the ones we have lost in our own lives. The "RENegade RENAISSANCE" is all about showing love and being there for each other. I've lost my fiance like this, and I still hurt. This was therapeutic for us all. It was for me personally. I also have experienced both sides. No truer words have ever been spoken when you said - no one prepares us for loss, for real - break your spirit pain, or tells you/ rather warns us that some of our hearts just feel more deeply. We are more sensitive, we are the givers, the care takers, and usually that results in being taken advantage of, or being let down and hurt that other people don't or can't reciprocate that level of thoughtfulness. I relate so much to everything you've spoken on. Deeply. I believe this is why I went into psychology, and work with at risk/troubled youth. Incase no one's told you yet today - your channel matters. It's bringing people together and allowing us to begin friendships through shared experiences. YOU matter, if it wasn't for you, and all of your experiences you may not be here in this moment now, sharing this incredibly important moment - incredibly important message with many that needed to hear it. I can promise you , with the thousands that watched this, connecting through this just saved them. Be proud of what you're doing! I'm just getting to know you , hopefully as a friend at some point but know that IM even proud of what you're doing. Your friends, your girl, your fam, must be so proud! You're an awesome human being and I hope you know that you aren't alone in any of your thoughts, or the way you feel. Sending love and positivity your way ❤.
Ren has a way of crawling into your heart and giving you permission to feel these things in a cathartic way. We all love you, and look forward to your reactions, so just know that 💜💜
I came across your reaction of chinchilla doing fingers live. That caused me to go into a rabbit hole of watching all your Ren/chinchilla/big push reactions. Right down to hi Ren. Then right before I was about to close up TH-cam to go to bed, this video popped up. This is my favorite reaction of yours. You have a new fan in me. Thank you for being willing to be so open and vulnerable. We need each other. And this helps us as much as it helps you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for not being too scared and backing out of posting this. My heart is with you. I appreciate the energy you bring to your videos. Thank you.
I wish more people, especially men, would show their beautiful, caring, hearts like you did through this reaction. The strength it takes to be vulnerable is WAY harder then it takes to act tough. Thank you for showing us your huge ❤
My story: I grew up in a very volatile childhood. I was physically, emotionally and mentally abused to the point I could no longer take it. I was 12. My little brother & I were playing and he accidently got hurt, he got a bloody nose. His father took it as I gave him that bloody nose, and he beat to to a bloody mess in a bathtub cuz I fell in it. I ran away a couple days later, I was done. I went to my best friend Aaron's house and threw rocks at his window. Got his attention and I told him goodbye. He knew something was wrong so he ran out and chased. I had already had the rope tied up, and he tracked me down by my footsteps in the snow and found me hanging. He found a rock and used a rough edge of it to fray the rope enough that I dropped and he gave me cpr. Brought me back. I ended up going to live with my grandparents and things got so much better, So even at your lowest lows, there is and always will be better days ahead. They aren't all perfect, most times they're shit. But, we get 1 chance at this thing called life! Ben, I know we've messaged a few times back n forth. You ever need anything brother by all means hit me up. My socials are in the banner on my channel here. While you're at it peep some of the music I've made! Appreciate you bro!
Im glad youre here, im glad youre healing, and im glad youre able to process your pain through your craft. I still have to check out a tune of yours! Will sub now!
I know this is an odd one way relationship. I drop into this part of your world you show us almost voyeuristically. Each day you add a few minutes of joy to a life that’s got its challenges. I too have been and continue this struggle at both ends. I too can never fully relax in case that ideation tries to take hold. It’s been a life battle, I accept it will always be there and I know it’s voice and know it won’t win. Your words at the end were said well. I think you’d be amazed at how many people you help with such honesty. People need to know it’s a: ok to be sad, to cry, to feel pain and be vulnerable. And B: know that they are not the only ones who struggle, they are not the odd ones but often the majority. We just mask so well we hide ourselves from those who may need us. I commend you on sitting through all three in one sitting. No one else has done that. The intertwining messages through all three are best seen together and ending with the message of hope of ‘makes me stronger, wiser’ shows there is a path through the darkness. Know that we all rode this with you regardless of how often we have seen/listened to these tunes. We all still ride those same emotions with each listen. I can see your strength and your humanity. Thank you for sharing a little of you with us. Know that there are others who have hearts a little too big for their own good sometimes and we struggle at the inhumanity we see daily. It’s like being constantly knocked from one casual cruelty to another and it hurts to not try and right wrongs. Again, I know this is a one sided relationship (and a very long comment) but take it from this ‘older brother’ and don’t let that slightly too big heart get diminished. We need all the heart we can get in this world. Glynn Melbourne Australia
You are an amazing person and my favorite reactor ❤ It is so important for people to start being genuine and not be embarrassed of their vournobilty and Ren is inspiring all of us to wake up and talk about our feelings and struggles. Together we will break the loneliness of our minds and the darkest thought brought to lite is no longer scary and looses it's power over us🙏 Keep doing what you are doing, I can see you in near future as one of the most viewed reactors ❤
Let's take a moment and recognize he is almost at 5k. You have become one of my favorite reactors. I look for your notifications every day. Keep in it brother. I appreciate what you have been doing. Just don't let us break you. We will still be here when you need some time to yourself. Stay true. Stay strong.
I just want to say that both you and Ren sharing this is so healing. Helps me face some things I haven’t been facing myself, knowing that I’m not alone. Sending much love your way brother ❤
"I never realized how bad I needed this." I think that's how a lot of us feel when we listen to these songs. Ren is responsible for SO many cathartic tears. I feel honored that you know we are a safe space for your feelings, but please don't ever feel you HAVE TO react to something that makes you uncomfortable. That said, I really enjoy your videos, and appreciate all the work you put into them.
That was an amazing reaction man- you deserve more subs! You are the only person ive seen brave enough to do these 3 back to back- talk about emotional impact.
Wow Ben, that was a lot to put on yourself at one time. I really hadn't seen the three if them in sequence before. It really SHOWED the journey of his healing. Freckled Angels, is an early one. He said in the live performance video, it was probably the MOST important song he had ever written. It was played at a memorial for Joe. Suicide, an incredible song in two parts. The first, about the things that can lead to contemplate dark things. The second, HURT. It took me a bit to realize that it was a GIFT of perspective. There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. That they can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them. It was an intensely personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates. Yeah, it hurt. But, if it makes just ONE person take a moment to think about how their loss WOULD affect those around them. It was well WORTH the pain. For Joe, stunningly beautiful. He took a song about pain and turned into one of healing. You really should read what he wrote in the description. It's important. Watching this reaction, hurt my heart to feel your pain. By enduring all three in a row you put yourself in a place you didn't want to be. You did it for us, Ren and possibly yourself. I appreciate that. That all being said, there is a video that I recommend whenever anyone is hit really HARD by any of them (let alone all 3). Trick The Fox, The Mashup. It's a young Ren with his friend Charlie. It's incredibly FUN. They are both acting like goofs. It also shows just how good he was even then. I apologize for the long comment. This seemed too important. Look at it this way. As far as I know, the worst is over. Thank you Ben. I appreciate YOU.
Want to start off with thanking you for really taking on these 3 Behemoth to songs in a row🙏...and to show us the honesty and vulnerability of your feelings❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
"I never realized how deeply I needed this" Oh man, we all felt the same - and Ren lets us know that with a lot of his songs! Our way of letting us become aware of it - that makes us whole. Everyone finds their own way to do this. For me it's the message: tell your loved ones proudly how you feel - but also to those who aren't!!! Be proud young man, this was a reaction to these songs that couldn't have been more honest and warmhearted 👏👍🤝 with best wishes for you and your loved ones from Germany - Birgitt 🙋♀️❣️
Ren watches a lot of these reactions and I really hope he watches this one because this was truly beautiful. The vulnerability that you showed here is beautiful.
@@xRAGECXRCUSx You handled all 3 of these songs with respect, reverence, and empathy and that kind of vulnerability can take a toll. If you haven’t heard of Aurora, she’s another music alien a bit like Ren, a Norwegian artist who started songwriting at 9. She wrote this song at 9. She’s 27 now. Hopefully this can give you a little soul soothing after having it ripped open for the better part of an hour. th-cam.com/video/AmTiqR2_VAw/w-d-xo.html
You don’t realise how much we all need to express our emotions and let it out at times. Ren helps us to do that. A wonderful heartfelt reaction and doing the three on the bounce!!!! Your the first to do that.
I heard these songs one at a time. They're tough, singly. You were hella brave to do all 3 in one go. You're so right about how no one prepares us for loss and death and suicide. We don't have much in our culture to mark it at all. I cried (again) straight through with you. I'd rather cry with you than without you. Ren just makes us feel. The fact you had to psych up for these videos is a testament to his talent, eh? Thank you for mustering the courage to be vulnerable with us. It matters. (Treat yourself to a light-hearted one next -- Guns of Brixton by The Big Push, or 1990's, Right Here Right Now, Bittersweet Symphony....)
I think we've probably all been touched by suicide. Someone close to us. Talking about it, recognizing it happens, is so important. We can't be blind to it, ignore it.
What is so amazing about Ren is how I've seen so many reactors open up because he made it safe to. And this RENegade community so far at least is friendly and supportive. It's wonderful. Well said at the end.
Thank you so much for doing this.. I know how hard that was by your reaction ❤ we all hold each other up and we can get through it together never feel alone 🤗 it's tough but we can do this 💪❤️✌️
My step son chose to end his journey on the 7th of January, it's really hard to hear things like this, we are so used to shoving our emotions in a box, putting them on a shelf... try to deal with them some other time... in some situations, you don't have that option when your soul gets shaken out of your body😔 so sorry so many know this pain😢❤ thank you again.
Great reaction, man. You're clearly an empath, so tackling all three of these emotionally draining videos at once was pretty brave. Harlan Ellison has a book of short stories called "Deathbird Stories" and in the preface he warns, "DO NOT READ THIS ALL AT ONCE". I feel like that warning applies here too; Ren crafts the most honest, heartfelt music and taking in too much at once can be heartbreaking. I think his authenticity is why we all can connect with his music. Anyway, I've been enjoying your thoughtful and honest reactions, keep up the good work.
When you cry, you shouldn't be ashamed of your self. You should be proud because you know the real world. This happened to me once, you have to know that life isn't fair, and it isn't long. You have one life, use it wisley.
Tears help to cleanse the soul. As someone who has seen a lot of sorrow and loss personally and professionally (hospice nurse) the ability to cry is what helps make us human. Ren makes us feel and in his unique way brings us all closer no matter what our beliefs and individual stories are. He touches that which makes us all human.
The person that MADE me DECIDE to stay in this world after the loss of the love of my life to cancer after 15 years of the most beautiful happiness I've ever had in my life was my Mom. What I felt that made me not want to be here anymore was something so painful that I couldn't bear to inflict the same upon my family. Especially my Mom that gave everything she could in so many situations, so many small things through the years, that she didn't have to do, taking away from herself for me to be happy... and then for me to take all that away, in my mind it would show her how ungrateful I would be for everything she did for my life, if I took it away. People around us love and need us, for their own reasons. If we take us away from the people that love us, we are inflicting ONE pain that is our own onto many more people. One pain in one life, my own, is something I CAN and HAVE to bear so that I don't inflict it further onto people I love. This way of thinking I feel is more powerful in helping us stay here than the usual "you matter" or "life is worth living", because sometimes it really doesn't feel worth living... but the "you matter..." part is usually missing the person or the people you matter TO - which is the most powerful reason for me to stay.
This hurts, but you have shown such courage in reacting to these videos knowing how hard it would be. You have grown so much as a reactor and I'm so glad to be here for that. Thanks for this. You are awesome!!!!
23:25 “life really isn’t fair” …”they prepare you for a lot…but not this”…”how cold the world really can be” …just sittin there spittin facts for a couple minutes, amen 😣
Someone said today that Ren's aura was huge, encompassing all those near him. I think that goes beyond the physical distance. We are all energy and Spirit and therefore we are loved, and supported by all those we connect with emotionally. One big messy, vulnerable family here. I cried right along with you. Love this community Maybe the next song should be It's Alright..
Big gentle hug for you ❤ Its okey to cry. I loked my emotions up for years, but Ren unlocked Them in me. My brother died at 16 of an OD. Maybe on purpose, maybe an acident - i dont know. Its years ago but Ren made me feel the love again and the sorrow. And its okey. My brother deserves it ❤
Joe was definitely with Ren on "For Joe" To give Ren the courage to do this amazing tribute ( This is what Ren posted ) On Monday I would make the difficult journey home because of music and the fund raising efforts of my incredible following. We managed to raise an incredible £21,000 for the RNLI, an incredible team of volunteers, who risk their lives without pay to aid calls of distress from British shores. The night Joe went missing they were out on the choppy stretch of water between Anglesey and the Mainland, until 5am, looking for Joe, without pay, from the goodness of their hearts. They continued the search efforts for the entire following week until hope dwindled. They owed us nothing, and gave us everything. Yesterday I decided to pay a visit to Joe's mum and dad. I was asked to play them the new live session I recorded in Calgary. It was probably the most nervous I've been playing someone a video that I'd made. The topic isn't an easy one, especially for parents who have lost an incredible son. I nervously hit play, and the gravity of what I was showing sunk in and I began to cry. In the end we sat in silence, silently sobbing. Joes mum turned to me and smiled and we hugged, and I felt much lighter. It made me really realise I guess what I've always known. Music is far more than music. It's a channel of communication for the things that are impossible to say. It's a bridge between the living and the dead. It's a way to stay immortal. It's a way to resurrect the dead. It's a universal language. It cuts down barriers of the parts of you which are encapsulated in steel cast iron. It allows frozen rivers to thaw and become un-stagnant. I owe myself, my life, everything I am to music. Music is the closest thing to god I know. I am so grateful to be doing what I do and to tap into this mystic force. My life, my energy, myself, I eternally devote to it.
I love your reaction to these creations from our boi Ren. You are so on point with what you say and what you feel. Ren does this, he allows us to feel what we need to feel, even if we don't know we need it, he pulls it out of us with his truth in a way that only he can. I hope you're ok ❤ and just know that we all love you and need you! ❤
Thank you for doing all 3, that’s tough to do in 1 sitting. Ren has definitely opened my eyes, and the amount of love I can give to others around me to make their day better. Much love, hope you have a great day!
Beautiful reaction and just proves you're human. I only discovered you a few days ago and have watched most of your reactions to Ren and each one is pure and honest. It's great to see the look on your face as you react. I cried with you watching this reaction, as did many more people. If anyone isn't touched by these songs there is something wrong with them. They resonate with so many people. Keep doing what you're doing. One of my new favourite reactors. ❤
Absolutely in awe of you and your courage and huge heart. You are my favourite reactor. Thank you for being so honest and real -you and Ren are setting the rest of us important/vital examples which we can now grow into. I have never cried as much as I have since Ren came along. It’s impossible to grow without being challenged, and without facing the darkness and vulnerability in ourselves and others. This is all good, we are cracking open another level of consciousness and divinity within ourselves, and as a collective. Go really easy on yourself. You are a beautiful, special soul, and very much treasured, like Ren. Sending you a big big hug and so much love. You’re making a difference in people’s lives, we need you here. ❤️
Ren can really take you on a rollercoaster with life and an emotional ride too..he can make you laugh make you cry he make you dance he can make you believe he can inspire and mostly he shows his love for everyone including the haters ..never be ashamed to cry it takes a real man to show his emotional side ..stay strong brother and keep on doing what you do ..nice reaction liked and subbed
Love you brother. Know its easy to say words on a comment video, but if life intersects our paths for even a brief moment ill make sure i tell you. Keep going. 👋
I lost both my brother in law (he was almost 24) and my father to su!cide... All these years later and it still hurts. I cried like a baby during all these songs and all the subsequent reactions to them. The fact that social media and esp YT try to restrict his message I'm happy so many are still listening to this message. It's important to talk about.
Ren has an otherworldly ability to pull out what we've stuffed. I think I cried about 3 solid weeks when I first discovered Ren, and it took even longer to figure out what was actually going on. What a gift. I'm so honored to be a tiny part of this beautiful community that understands we need to feel it to heal it and embraces humanity in all its forms. Sending hugs.
Please take care of yourself. Vulnerability is a show of strength in my humble opinion. Takes a lot of courage to do what you did and say what you said, for the betterment of your viewers. Thank you bud.
First. Your videos have made a difference in my life. Ren has also made a difference as well. Secondly, I'm proud of you for facing this. It is a healing process. Packing things away may help at first, but we have to face it eventually. Love you brother!!!!
This was actually my first listen to the full Freckled Angels song. I'd been avoiding that one in particular for some reason as well. Thank you for braving these difficult songs all at once and sharing your thoughts. It sucks to feel all of that stuff again but it also definitely can help heal. You need "Ren - 1990s (Official Lyric Video)" after this. Trust me
❤I’m so proud of you for sharing your vulnerability with us. The fact that Ren has created such unity and inspiration to have compassion for others is astounding. I’m so happy that you have found Ren, he is truly a gift that we all cherish. ❤❤
I feel you...u r not alone❤ I enjoy your content n honest reactions. Thk you n Ren for opening your hearts n baring your pain to us. It IS a community he has built...n we shall gain strength n hope for a brighter future. What a tribute to Joe..his spirit lives on n unite us.❤
Thanks! Thankyou for continuing to wake up everyday and being an inspiration on your channel and be vulnerable with your audience. When you said that 'they don't teach or prepare you for a world where other people aren't as kind as you are' . I immediately thought of my fiance....how I fear so much for him. No matter how awful that people treat him he keeps on being kind. I'm just afraid that soon there will come a day that 'All the kings men wont be able to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.' .. It terrifies me to think of the void he would leave. Some days are so hard for him. I wish so bad I could take his pain
3.4K views as of this moment in time. Those of us who came by the way of Ren are grateful for you Ben. I believe souls always connect, at the perfect time and place to fulfill an emotional, mental, or even spiritual bond. Thank you for bringing us all together to ease some of our loneliness.
Hey there, Ren is the therapy so many of us didn’t know we needed, and the healing so many of us need. Anyone and everyone has some battle within their mind and almost no one understands enough to even touch the emotions it brings up. Hang in there brother. The whole army of RENegades got your back.
No one has done all three of these in a row. So powerful. Your honesty is also so meaningful! Sometimes we just need to feel it Thank you for your vulnerability. We nee d to be able to talk about things.❤
Oh sweetie. I hope you're ok. These songs of Rens are some of the toughest. I think that's why they are so profound. It started with Hi Ren for me. My heart hasn't been the same. Like you, I don't go to these places. I don't like to feel these emotions. Listening to these songs over and over, crying through each time...i have found peace. From HI REN, I always keep the last sentence close to my heart. These are the things that separates us from Angels, from Demons and from God's. I must not forget, WE must not forget that we are human beings. Although we all don't know one another...You are our brother. You are loved. You are precious to us. We are glad you are here and you would be missed. I hope peace finds you soon. Peace and love always until there is no more!❤
Finished. Took several breaks but I’m there with you, moving through them. They’ve become my favourite purging of late .. it’s one of the ways I’m grieving the loss of my husband. I watch people react to Suicide or For Joe when I need to break down and let the bad out. It really helps lighten my heart and keep me soft enough to be a loving mother to our two smallish children. I thank you for sharing your pain release journey for a moment. I imagine that would be difficult and also exhilarating in the way all authentic expression is, especially when appreciated, as you are. Sending loving support your way. As a fellow griever, I’m proud of you, Ben.
We got your back. I’ve cried countless times to Ren the last six months, and I’ll probably do it continuously. Another real strong one is “Crutch” feat Bibi. At least it makes my cry every time. And for the record, I’m a 51yo man…❤
Oh boy. When Su!cide came out I watched the premier and I really didn't know what to expect. One of my best friends also took his own life when we were both 19. I'm 45 now and I had never really dealt with it. I blanked it out. If ever I was getting close to really thinking about it I'd do anything else to distract myself. That song hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried my eyes out for ages afterwards and didn't go online again for 4 days. I didn't watch any reactions, I didn't watch the video again. But, now in hindsight, it really, really helped me remember my friend again and all the good stuff, what a great guy he was.... and that was beautiful.
A beautiful & pure reaction my friend. Just know you are not alone. I’m 57 years old & I’m a serviver of the “S” word, thankfully. No artist in my life has had the impact that Ren has and trust me I grew up listening to the greats. We all know his ability as a musician, composer & lyricist but beyond that he has brought people together. Real, people. Beautiful & pure souls who are like minded. Imagine a world full of Rens. What a wonderful world it would be. Thank you for sharing your soul. Peace and love to you and all the Renegades ❤️🙏
I so admire your courage to listen to these three songs together. When listened to like this it becomes a three act play. Moving through the stages of grief until finally “I know your going to be okay”. I heard your words. Thank you. ❤️
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you have captivated us all with your energy and excitement and engrained yourself on our hearts and because of that I felt every ounce of emotion along with you there. as well a Rens emotion, i had to prepare myself to see these 3 all together and to see your reaction to them all together, brave man, well done ,I do think this was a great way to do the reaction, even if very emotional. sending out huge hugs to you and anyone who needs one 🤗🥰
If you see this I wanted to make sure you’re ok. I’m so sorry. As hard as that was it’s why Ren is resonating so much. It’s not just his musical genius. It’s that his vulnerability makes it ok for us to be vulnerable. It’s cathartic in a way, and like you, so many of us need that. I felt it when you said you had to put on your game face every day. I always have mine ready when I need it but it’s not easy. Please know that your heartfelt wise words will also touch people and that’s the kindest thing we can do ❤
Pretty close to what I wanted to say. So I won't repeat it. ❤
@@JohnFnLopez Even though we don’t all know each other, some of these reaction channels become a community nonetheless. I feel like this one has.
Wonderfully put ❤
@@carladicarlo3255me too. It's a very cozy channel.
This is well said, we all need to express emotions at times. Only one more add, if anyone can watch and listen to Ren, knowing even part of his story and not have emotions, are the people to feel sorry for and probably worry about for many reasons.
Keep on moving forward, you are helping Ren with his path. All good for all of us.
This hit so hard... ❤The alg0r1thm brought us for the music, we stayed because of you. All of You.
Your courage, your insight, vulnerability, atmosphere, your humanity...
However, please don't burn yourself out. When you leave the desk and put down your headset, leave the heavy thoughts there to rest too.
You are so dear to so many people from all around the world.
We got you!
For anyone else going through it, believe me... truly believe when I tell you that you are so much stronger than you are consciously aware of right now.
These song hit hard but from a... confronting perspective, personally. Nobody around me knows, but seeing everything from Joe's perspective... It all came flooding back.
There is a detail in the articles that completely wrecked me and I tear up every time I hear his name. Don't read if you're not in a great headspace. I hope he is with peace, witnessing the celebration his legacy is, forever immortalised. A selfless Freckled Angel, with a great big smile. ❤️
You matter, and are most definitely loved.
Hugs for everyone:
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This floored me. Nothing but love to you 🖤
I was bawling my eyes out right there with you... Life is fucking unfair, you are right, I lost my 25 year old son to cancer last year... He has taught me so much, while he was here and now from another realm. You remind me of him in some way, he loved music, music was his life. I am pretty sure he would have loved Ren. Take care... Big hug ❤
Forever sorry for your loss 🖤
i am sat in bed, its the early hours of the morning, i lost my 17 year old daughter Aleisha suddenly, i keep my tears locked inside as i feel if i cry i will never stop, but tonight they are running freely, thank you for sharing your vulnerability which helped me release some of the pain. i don't know you but i am very proud of you my friend
You did it, proud of you 💜😭
Your reactions are beautiful, perfect, fun
I like them because as an over thinker who overthinks my overthinking, I feel like I can just experience the emotions with you without needing to worry/think which is a welcome relief sometimes, a nice little break from my internal world that is often times more chaotic than peaceful🥴
BUT WATCHING YOU CRY MAKES MY HEART HURT so let’s not do anymore of that anytime soon ok?…break time…recalibrate 🥲
Hang in there, you’re great!
I propose Love Music pt 1-3 for next up, essentially just dance parties with no tears in sight!!
"Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest.
Grief is love with no place to go." 🖤
That is so beautifully put and said. ♥️
You figured it out! Thank you.
Ren said it best - 🎶🎵So I know you’re gonna be okay🎵🎶
There are a lot of complete strangers that want to hug you right now. I hope you feel the love. Vulnerability is strength. Showing vulnerability takes courage, strength you offer to others who are feeling weak. That is heroic and selfless…
Just want to say I respect and admire your courage, not only doing this in front of a camera, but also opting to upload it after. It takes FAR more strength as a man to show your empathy and compassion than suppress them as we're taught. The world needs more people like yourself with the strength to be emotionally honest and to stand as a positive affirmation of our humanity.
Thank you for doing this like you have, man. I hope you understand that you're amongst a strong, healing community that appreciates you. ❤
Dude we all got you 😍, we come back to your channel because of your honest heartfelt reactions, that is why your channel is growing and although I'm on the other side of the world its a privilege to be on the other side of a screen as your 'audience'! sending you a huge hug and keep being you 😍 Ren just blows my mind daily 😍
What to type...ok first of all I don't think I have seen any other reactors try to do all three of these in one go. You have balls of steel. Second I know the internet can feel like a cold place at times but the Ren crew is one big family of beautiful souls that support each other. Ren even has a discord server for the community for that reason. This is a tough one to sit through, for me as well, but its cathartic for folks that are brave enough to do it. I will leave out the sappy stuff since you have been through enough today. Just know that your reactions always seem from the heart and I feel honored to be on the journey with you experiencing this art because it is truly special.
A 65 yr old geezer in Ohio just matched you tear for tear,lol. So many of us dealing with loss and illness have been fascinated by the raw humanity of REN’s work. Your honest reactions are cathartic to so many of us. Coping seems easier when we don’t feel so alone with our struggles. Great reactions. Peace.
I know the pain these songs bring because I've lost 6 close people and 11 total to this subject. The weird thing is Ren talks about distance being his plaster cast at the same time he is busting ours wide open. I ran from these songs too at first but I'm glad I found the courage and I'm also glad you did. It hurts to feel sometimes, but we need to sit in the uncomfortable to really understand ourselves. Take care, man. ❤️
I am 64 years old and I love your reactions there is one thing I have learn from life it's a bitch it's chews you up and spits you out.I hope you are ok sending you healing love 😢
Mad respect Ben! Thank you for your honest reaction. You did so well and am so grateful for you and your channel. The more people who post honest reactions, the more it teaches others that it's okay to release genuine emotions. You are fantastic for doing this. Sending you a virtual hug. Please look after yourself today. Drink water and practice some self care xx
Sometimes the body needs to weep. The soul needs a cleansing to keep on shining. Pain allows for empathy... And it's our empathy that leads us all to love, acceptance, compassion, and humanity. So count your pain along with your blessings, for it's that which makes us human that makes us all more humane. Sending love and positive vibes. Take care, luv 🥰🙏🏽❤️
Ren man, he keeps making us cry because it's so raw and real and those who know know. Ren is therapy, he's been a positive influence since I've found him months ago, I'm so grateful.
A good honest reaction. Suicide hits hard. The final poem has made me question the intensity of my own anger towards my Suicidal best friend. His songs help one remember the person more than his final act.
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Bless you son. I've lost my first born son when he was 24 and my last one too. Little brother was so tender and never got over losing his big brother.
Im so sorry for your loss 🖤 im glad youre here to share and be apart of such a wonderful community. Thank you for your support, and thank you for being human
@@xRAGECXRCUSx Absolutely
I tried to kill myself after kicking my fiancé out of my house. She left with my work truck. My game console. All of my money left me her burdens.
I tried to take my wrist off.
Which isnt even the most fucked up part. I woke up in a psych ward and found out that my little sister was the one who found me.
It took me a long, long time to watch suicide. In fact, if it wasn't for another reactor that had the same hard time as me. I wouldn't have ever watched it. I watched for joe first.
Which i thank god for. Because, if i was left with the end of suicide. Idk where I'd be right now.
I can't believe i did that to my little sister. Or my mom. Or my dogs.
Im sorry.
I haven't told anyone this. I thought you should be the first to hear it.
I love you, man... im sorry
Never be sorry for sharing who you are and where you came from. Youre here. And thats all that will ever matter now. The fact that you just commented, means the world to me, and many others that have had the same feelings. much love to you, and im glad youre here brother. Thank you for sharing YOUR vulnerability with me, allowing me to continue to be courageous myself.
@@xRAGECXRCUSxof course man. This is the first time I have heard freckled Angels. I was hyperventilating and fucked up the whole time.
Got soaked into the lyrics and then looked up and you were right where I was.....
God damn this fucking dude ren.
Therapy never sounded so good
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Ah my dear brother from across the pond. Sending you some love and hugs from the UK. That's is why Ren is so great. He gives us the therapy we didn't know we needed until we feel it, see it, release it, heal a little bit more for it. Together we have the opportunity to light up each others lives just a little bit more than we did yesterday.
Surround yourself with people who support you. You are a survivor of 100% of your worst days. I always try to find compassion for those who are suffering in whatever form as we know not their story that took them there. Have a good cry buddy, fully sob your heart out, it's how we heal. ❤️
Appreciate the time you put into this and your heartfelt reaction. I came to your channel with your first Ren reaction but stayed because of you. A big virtual hug to you, peace friend.
The love between Ren and Joe lives on. It will help people stay. And help people live with being left behind. The legacy of their friendship is full of so much love that it spills out into the rest of us.
The fundraiser Ren launched ahead of this song raised 21k for the RNLI, the lifeboat service that searched for Joe and supported his friends and family as their hope of recovering him dwindled. Their legacy will literally save people from going under. ❤
Sending you a hug from the UK.
Man I've never seen anyone even attempt to do all 3 in one sitting - I know I couldn't. Watching Suicide on a numerous occasion still leaves me with tears rololing down my cheek.
We are so privileged that Ren allows us to see and hear and feel his emotions relating to something so deeply personal to him and it is something none of us should take for granted.
My one big takeaway was that I feel that For Joe was ultimately a song of hope and looking ahead to a brighter future. I certainly feel that Ren has laid a few ghosts to rest with his trip back home to the UK recently and meeting with Joe's parents.
Ren talked about leaving there with a lighter heart so you sort of feel there is the beginnings of some closure for him.
Wrote that before your reaction and now having seen it, I'm pretty sure we share the same empathy gene.
In my humble opinion, the tragedy of Joe's passing saved Ren's life and the song Suicide will save thousands of lives.
That is Joe's legacy and it will resonate forever thanks to Ren.
It's so sad that we should feel so lonely in our struggles and our pain because we all suffer. One way or the other. People like Ren brings us together and that is the most beautiful thing. ❤
Let's all crying together and celebrate life 💓
I found Ren the same month my Grandma died earlier this year. Then, one month later, my Grandpa died. Then, one month later, a good friend from church whom I was in leadership with died from cancer. Ren and I have spent a lot of time in the truck alone together. My family is quite small, so we went from not losing anyone for 30 years to losing 10% of our family in two months. We're all here with Ren and we're all here for each other. I think that's why Ren fans are so genuinely wholesome. Because we've all had something we've had to deal with, and we want to be sure to appreciate that everyone else has too.
A brilliant idea to do it in one go but also a very brave one. I think no one that I have seen at least did it that way.
I cried with you.
This is a journey that when it ends will have forever changed you for the better.
@@domkifor Also true for sure. Did not want to fault them for doing it on release obviously.
Prepare for another long comment. Imagine your best friend since you were 8 years old, the type of friend that would come to your house and stay for weeks at a time and vice versa, the one that's always making jokes, but had sort of a dark humor. One night he tells you that he's going to go jump off a bridge as he's leaving the bar that you and all your friends are enjoying your evening at. You laugh it off because it's not the first time he's said something like that and you tell him you'll see him tomorrow then go back to your group of friends, finish your drinks and go home. It's now the middle of the night and you've laid down to sleep but are awakened by a phone call from a mutual friends telling you that she was just on the phone with your other friend and he's literally on the bridge about to jump. This bridge goes over the Menai Straight, which is a river that runs between Wales and the larger section of the UK that places like London are on. This stretch of water is what they call "The Swellies" named as such because the strong tidal flow creates small whirlpools that come and go constantly and it makes it difficult to navigate even by boat and is often completely closed to for any water travel. You're 10 minutes from the bridge and you can run there in 5. So you get dressed, you start calling your friends phone and it keeps going to voicemail. You pick up your pace and you keep calling as you're making your way to the bridge. You can literally see the bridge in the distance. You call once more and there's no longer a signal, the phone is out of service. You run the last bit of the way as fast as you're able but even though you can see the bridge it's still much farther than it looks. You get there and there's no sign of your friend. There's never any sign of him, ever again. This is the pain Ren has been living with since December 2010. He talks about forgiving ones self but it's very clear it's something that's he's unable to to forgive himself for, even though he's not to blame. That sort of pain just doesn't go away because you tell yourself to think positive. But the thing about Ren is that he's able to weave emotion into his music and then evolve it from somber to something more inspiring. So while all these songs are very sad, they're also inspirational and a celebration of Joe's life and Ren changing his life and surviving through his own despair through channeling it into his music. That's powerful and it's one of the many reasons so many people connect with Ren's songs. Also a fun fact, there's a restaurant started by a mutual friend of Joe and Ren located at the Menai Bridge that Joe jumped from, called Freckled Angel and named after Ren's song. There's a wall mural of an angel on the inside and Ren recently got to sign his name over the angel's heart. "Bangor-born chef-owner Mike Jones wanted to remember a dear friend who passed away he decided to dedicate his restaurant to him, naming it after Ren Gill’s song and album Freckled Angels."
Hi Ben, it was great to catch you online and watch your journey through these songs. Also to watch you open your emotions and thoughts up like a flower blooming and facing the bright sunlight. Like attracts like and the compassionate and humble are grouping together in support of each other through Ren and his magical talent. Take care, keep heading for the sun, it’s bright and warm in that direction. ❤️🇬🇧x
Ren teaching the world it’s okay to cry again.
The entire world cried the day we heard these, for Joe, Joe's family, Ren, and for the ones we have lost in our own lives. The "RENegade RENAISSANCE" is all about showing love and being there for each other. I've lost my fiance like this, and I still hurt. This was therapeutic for us all. It was for me personally. I also have experienced both sides.
No truer words have ever been spoken when you said - no one prepares us for loss, for real - break your spirit pain, or tells you/ rather warns us that some of our hearts just feel more deeply. We are more sensitive, we are the givers, the care takers, and usually that results in being taken advantage of, or being let down and hurt that other people don't or can't reciprocate that level of thoughtfulness.
I relate so much to everything you've spoken on. Deeply. I believe this is why I went into psychology, and work with at risk/troubled youth.
Incase no one's told you yet today - your channel matters. It's bringing people together and allowing us to begin friendships through shared experiences. YOU matter, if it wasn't for you, and all of your experiences you may not be here in this moment now, sharing this incredibly important moment - incredibly important message with many that needed to hear it.
I can promise you , with the thousands that watched this, connecting through this just saved them.
Be proud of what you're doing! I'm just getting to know you , hopefully as a friend at some point but know that IM even proud of what you're doing. Your friends, your girl, your fam, must be so proud! You're an awesome human being and I hope you know that you aren't alone in any of your thoughts, or the way you feel.
Sending love and positivity your way ❤.
Ren has a way of crawling into your heart and giving you permission to feel these things in a cathartic way. We all love you, and look forward to your reactions, so just know that 💜💜
I came across your reaction of chinchilla doing fingers live. That caused me to go into a rabbit hole of watching all your Ren/chinchilla/big push reactions. Right down to hi Ren. Then right before I was about to close up TH-cam to go to bed, this video popped up. This is my favorite reaction of yours. You have a new fan in me. Thank you for being willing to be so open and vulnerable. We need each other. And this helps us as much as it helps you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for not being too scared and backing out of posting this. My heart is with you. I appreciate the energy you bring to your videos. Thank you.
I wish more people, especially men, would show their beautiful, caring, hearts like you did through this reaction. The strength it takes to be vulnerable is WAY harder then it takes to act tough. Thank you for showing us your huge ❤
My story: I grew up in a very volatile childhood. I was physically, emotionally and mentally abused to the point I could no longer take it. I was 12. My little brother & I were playing and he accidently got hurt, he got a bloody nose. His father took it as I gave him that bloody nose, and he beat to to a bloody mess in a bathtub cuz I fell in it. I ran away a couple days later, I was done. I went to my best friend Aaron's house and threw rocks at his window. Got his attention and I told him goodbye. He knew something was wrong so he ran out and chased. I had already had the rope tied up, and he tracked me down by my footsteps in the snow and found me hanging. He found a rock and used a rough edge of it to fray the rope enough that I dropped and he gave me cpr. Brought me back. I ended up going to live with my grandparents and things got so much better, So even at your lowest lows, there is and always will be better days ahead. They aren't all perfect, most times they're shit. But, we get 1 chance at this thing called life!
Ben, I know we've messaged a few times back n forth. You ever need anything brother by all means hit me up. My socials are in the banner on my channel here. While you're at it peep some of the music I've made! Appreciate you bro!
Im glad youre here, im glad youre healing, and im glad youre able to process your pain through your craft. I still have to check out a tune of yours! Will sub now!
@@xRAGECXRCUSx thank you bro, means a lot!
I know this is an odd one way relationship. I drop into this part of your world you show us almost voyeuristically. Each day you add a few minutes of joy to a life that’s got its challenges.
I too have been and continue this struggle at both ends. I too can never fully relax in case that ideation tries to take hold. It’s been a life battle, I accept it will always be there and I know it’s voice and know it won’t win.
Your words at the end were said well. I think you’d be amazed at how many people you help with such honesty. People need to know it’s a: ok to be sad, to cry, to feel pain and be vulnerable. And B: know that they are not the only ones who struggle, they are not the odd ones but often the majority.
We just mask so well we hide ourselves from those who may need us.
I commend you on sitting through all three in one sitting. No one else has done that.
The intertwining messages through all three are best seen together and ending with the message of hope of ‘makes me stronger, wiser’ shows there is a path through the darkness.
Know that we all rode this with you regardless of how often we have seen/listened to these tunes. We all still ride those same emotions with each listen.
I can see your strength and your humanity. Thank you for sharing a little of you with us.
Know that there are others who have hearts a little too big for their own good sometimes and we struggle at the inhumanity we see daily. It’s like being constantly knocked from one casual cruelty to another and it hurts to not try and right wrongs.
Again, I know this is a one sided relationship (and a very long comment) but take it from this ‘older brother’ and don’t let that slightly too big heart get diminished. We need all the heart we can get in this world.
Glynn
Melbourne
Australia
You are an amazing person and my favorite reactor ❤ It is so important for people to start being genuine and not be embarrassed of their vournobilty and Ren is inspiring all of us to wake up and talk about our feelings and struggles.
Together we will break the loneliness of our minds and the darkest thought brought to lite is no longer scary and looses it's power over us🙏
Keep doing what you are doing, I can see you in near future as one of the most viewed reactors ❤
Let's take a moment and recognize he is almost at 5k. You have become one of my favorite reactors. I look for your notifications every day. Keep in it brother. I appreciate what you have been doing. Just don't let us break you. We will still be here when you need some time to yourself. Stay true. Stay strong.
Just hit 5k as we speak! Thank you for the kindest words, I appreciate it! Glad to have you here!
@@xRAGECXRCUSx I'm not going anywhere. I'm just glad in the ocean that is TH-cam that I stumbled upon your channel
I just want to say that both you and Ren sharing this is so healing. Helps me face some things I haven’t been facing myself, knowing that I’m not alone. Sending much love your way brother ❤
"I never realized how bad I needed this."
I think that's how a lot of us feel when we listen to these songs. Ren is responsible for SO many cathartic tears.
I feel honored that you know we are a safe space for your feelings, but please don't ever feel you HAVE TO react to something that makes you uncomfortable. That said, I really enjoy your videos, and appreciate all the work you put into them.
That was an amazing reaction man- you deserve more subs! You are the only person ive seen brave enough to do these 3 back to back- talk about emotional impact.
Wow Ben, that was a lot to put on yourself at one time.
I really hadn't seen the three if them in sequence before.
It really SHOWED the journey of his healing.
Freckled Angels, is an early one.
He said in the live performance video, it was probably the MOST important song he had ever written.
It was played at a memorial for Joe.
Suicide, an incredible song in two parts.
The first, about the things that can lead to contemplate dark things.
The second, HURT.
It took me a bit to realize that it was a GIFT of perspective.
There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. That they can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them.
It was an intensely personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates.
Yeah, it hurt.
But, if it makes just ONE person take a moment to think about how their loss WOULD affect those around them.
It was well WORTH the pain.
For Joe, stunningly beautiful.
He took a song about pain and turned into one of healing.
You really should read what he wrote in the description.
It's important.
Watching this reaction, hurt my heart to feel your pain.
By enduring all three in a row you put yourself in a place you didn't want to be.
You did it for us, Ren and possibly yourself.
I appreciate that.
That all being said, there is a video that I recommend whenever anyone is hit really HARD by any of them (let alone all 3).
Trick The Fox, The Mashup.
It's a young Ren with his friend Charlie.
It's incredibly FUN.
They are both acting like goofs.
It also shows just how good he was even then.
I apologize for the long comment.
This seemed too important.
Look at it this way.
As far as I know, the worst is over.
Thank you Ben.
I appreciate YOU.
❤ wonderful comment. You said it all so well. Thanks for speaking up.
Catharsis is what I get from this. For ypu, Ren and the rest of us. Proud of you.
Want to start off with thanking you for really taking on these 3 Behemoth to songs in a row🙏...and to show us the honesty and vulnerability of your feelings❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
"I never realized how deeply I needed this"
Oh man, we all felt the same - and Ren lets us know that with a lot of his songs!
Our way of letting us become aware of it - that makes us whole.
Everyone finds their own way to do this. For me it's the message: tell your loved ones proudly how you feel - but also to those who aren't!!!
Be proud young man, this was a reaction to these songs that couldn't have been more honest and warmhearted 👏👍🤝
with best wishes for you and your loved ones from Germany - Birgitt 🙋♀️❣️
Ren watches a lot of these reactions and I really hope he watches this one because this was truly beautiful. The vulnerability that you showed here is beautiful.
Out of the vast ocean of people, I'd be honored. He's really a once in a life time entity.
@@xRAGECXRCUSx You handled all 3 of these songs with respect, reverence, and empathy and that kind of vulnerability can take a toll. If you haven’t heard of Aurora, she’s another music alien a bit like Ren, a Norwegian artist who started songwriting at 9. She wrote this song at 9. She’s 27 now. Hopefully this can give you a little soul soothing after having it ripped open for the better part of an hour.
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RENagades are here for you ❤
We sure are!!!! ❤
I lost my best friend Reece to suicide when we were in High School. Ren explains exactly how I feel. ❤ 😇
You don’t realise how much we all need to express our emotions and let it out at times. Ren helps us to do that.
A wonderful heartfelt reaction and doing the three on the bounce!!!! Your the first to do that.
I heard these songs one at a time. They're tough, singly. You were hella brave to do all 3 in one go.
You're so right about how no one prepares us for loss and death and suicide. We don't have much in our culture to mark it at all.
I cried (again) straight through with you. I'd rather cry with you than without you.
Ren just makes us feel. The fact you had to psych up for these videos is a testament to his talent, eh?
Thank you for mustering the courage to be vulnerable with us. It matters.
(Treat yourself to a light-hearted one next -- Guns of Brixton by The Big Push, or 1990's, Right Here Right Now, Bittersweet Symphony....)
I think we've probably all been touched by suicide. Someone close to us. Talking about it, recognizing it happens, is so important. We can't be blind to it, ignore it.
What is so amazing about Ren is how I've seen so many reactors open up because he made it safe to. And this RENegade community so far at least is friendly and supportive. It's wonderful.
Well said at the end.
Never reacted to a video before... But really like your channel and wish you all the best..🤘🤘
Thank you so much for the support!!
Thank you so much for doing this.. I know how hard that was by your reaction ❤ we all hold each other up and we can get through it together never feel alone 🤗 it's tough but we can do this 💪❤️✌️
My step son chose to end his journey on the 7th of January, it's really hard to hear things like this, we are so used to shoving our emotions in a box, putting them on a shelf... try to deal with them some other time... in some situations, you don't have that option when your soul gets shaken out of your body😔 so sorry so many know this pain😢❤ thank you again.
Im sorry for your loss, and sending you strength and healing during this time 🖤 were with you
@thelonerager13 ❤️😔 thank you.
Great reaction, man. You're clearly an empath, so tackling all three of these emotionally draining videos at once was pretty brave. Harlan Ellison has a book of short stories called "Deathbird Stories" and in the preface he warns, "DO NOT READ THIS ALL AT ONCE". I feel like that warning applies here too; Ren crafts the most honest, heartfelt music and taking in too much at once can be heartbreaking. I think his authenticity is why we all can connect with his music. Anyway, I've been enjoying your thoughtful and honest reactions, keep up the good work.
When you cry, you shouldn't be ashamed of your self. You should be proud because you know the real world. This happened to me once, you have to know that life isn't fair, and it isn't long. You have one life, use it wisley.
This is one of the best reactions to these songs I have seen. Thank you. I, too, have been on both sides. Keep fighting ❤. You have a beautiful soul.
This was a very heartfelt reaction. Hope you are okay. 🫶🏼
Tears help to cleanse the soul. As someone who has seen a lot of sorrow and loss personally and professionally (hospice nurse) the ability to cry is what helps make us human. Ren makes us feel and in his unique way brings us all closer no matter what our beliefs and individual stories are. He touches that which makes us all human.
The person that MADE me DECIDE to stay in this world after the loss of the love of my life to cancer after 15 years of the most beautiful happiness I've ever had in my life was my Mom. What I felt that made me not want to be here anymore was something so painful that I couldn't bear to inflict the same upon my family. Especially my Mom that gave everything she could in so many situations, so many small things through the years, that she didn't have to do, taking away from herself for me to be happy... and then for me to take all that away, in my mind it would show her how ungrateful I would be for everything she did for my life, if I took it away. People around us love and need us, for their own reasons. If we take us away from the people that love us, we are inflicting ONE pain that is our own onto many more people. One pain in one life, my own, is something I CAN and HAVE to bear so that I don't inflict it further onto people I love. This way of thinking I feel is more powerful in helping us stay here than the usual "you matter" or "life is worth living", because sometimes it really doesn't feel worth living... but the "you matter..." part is usually missing the person or the people you matter TO - which is the most powerful reason for me to stay.
This hurts, but you have shown such courage in reacting to these videos knowing how hard it would be. You have grown so much as a reactor and I'm so glad to be here for that. Thanks for this. You are awesome!!!!
23:25 “life really isn’t fair” …”they prepare you for a lot…but not this”…”how cold the world really can be” …just sittin there spittin facts for a couple minutes, amen 😣
Someone said today that Ren's aura was huge, encompassing all those near him. I think that goes beyond the physical distance. We are all energy and Spirit and therefore we are loved, and supported by all those we connect with emotionally. One big messy, vulnerable family here. I cried right along with you. Love this community
Maybe the next song should be It's Alright..
Big gentle hug for you ❤ Its okey to cry.
I loked my emotions up for years, but Ren unlocked Them in me. My brother died at 16 of an OD. Maybe on purpose, maybe an acident - i dont know. Its years ago but Ren made me feel the love again and the sorrow. And its okey. My brother deserves it ❤
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Joe was definitely with Ren on "For Joe" To give Ren the courage to do this amazing tribute ( This is what Ren posted )
On Monday I would make the difficult journey home because of music and the fund raising efforts of my incredible following. We managed to raise an incredible £21,000 for the RNLI, an incredible team of volunteers, who risk their lives without pay to aid calls of distress from British shores. The night Joe went missing they were out on the choppy stretch of water between Anglesey and the Mainland, until 5am, looking for Joe, without pay, from the goodness of their hearts. They continued the search efforts for the entire following week until hope dwindled. They owed us nothing, and gave us everything.
Yesterday I decided to pay a visit to Joe's mum and dad. I was asked to play them the new live session I recorded in Calgary. It was probably the most nervous I've been playing someone a video that I'd made. The topic isn't an easy one, especially for parents who have lost an incredible son. I nervously hit play, and the gravity of what I was showing sunk in and I began to cry. In the end we sat in silence, silently sobbing. Joes mum turned to me and smiled and we hugged, and I felt much lighter.
It made me really realise I guess what I've always known. Music is far more than music. It's a channel of communication for the things that are impossible to say. It's a bridge between the living and the dead. It's a way to stay immortal. It's a way to resurrect the dead. It's a universal language. It cuts down barriers of the parts of you which are encapsulated in steel cast iron. It allows frozen rivers to thaw and become un-stagnant. I owe myself, my life, everything I am to music. Music is the closest thing to god I know. I am so grateful to be doing what I do and to tap into this mystic force. My life, my energy, myself, I eternally devote to it.
I love your reaction to these creations from our boi Ren. You are so on point with what you say and what you feel. Ren does this, he allows us to feel what we need to feel, even if we don't know we need it, he pulls it out of us with his truth in a way that only he can. I hope you're ok ❤ and just know that we all love you and need you! ❤
The Doc just cried along with you. Facts. (I’m not crying, you’re crying! - Knox)
Thank you for doing all 3, that’s tough to do in 1 sitting. Ren has definitely opened my eyes, and the amount of love I can give to others around me to make their day better. Much love, hope you have a great day!
Beautiful reaction and just proves you're human.
I only discovered you a few days ago and have watched most of your reactions to Ren and each one is pure and honest. It's great to see the look on your face as you react.
I cried with you watching this reaction, as did many more people. If anyone isn't touched by these songs there is something wrong with them. They resonate with so many people.
Keep doing what you're doing. One of my new favourite reactors. ❤
Absolutely in awe of you and your courage and huge heart. You are my favourite reactor. Thank you for being so honest and real -you and Ren are setting the rest of us important/vital examples which we can now grow into. I have never cried as much as I have since Ren came along. It’s impossible to grow without being challenged, and without facing the darkness and vulnerability in ourselves and others. This is all good, we are cracking open another level of consciousness and divinity within ourselves, and as a collective.
Go really easy on yourself. You are a beautiful, special soul, and very much treasured, like Ren. Sending you a big big hug and so much love. You’re making a difference in people’s lives, we need you here. ❤️
Ren can really take you on a rollercoaster with life and an emotional ride too..he can make you laugh make you cry he make you dance he can make you believe he can inspire and mostly he shows his love for everyone including the haters ..never be ashamed to cry it takes a real man to show his emotional side ..stay strong brother and keep on doing what you do ..nice reaction liked and subbed
Love you brother. Know its easy to say words on a comment video, but if life intersects our paths for even a brief moment ill make sure i tell you. Keep going. 👋
Damn man you went ALL IN doing the 3 parts. You're a brave dude. Great reaction.
Thank you 🖤 Hope you're doing ok. Big love.
Ren: healing the world one reactor at a time ! 🖤
Just wish I could personally thank him. But then again, I'd probably cry again. Lol
@@xRAGECXRCUSx crying is good for the soul.
I lost both my brother in law (he was almost 24) and my father to su!cide... All these years later and it still hurts. I cried like a baby during all these songs and all the subsequent reactions to them. The fact that social media and esp YT try to restrict his message I'm happy so many are still listening to this message. It's important to talk about.
New subsciber. I cried with you, These songs hit hard
Ren has an otherworldly ability to pull out what we've stuffed. I think I cried about 3 solid weeks when I first discovered Ren, and it took even longer to figure out what was actually going on. What a gift. I'm so honored to be a tiny part of this beautiful community that understands we need to feel it to heal it and embraces humanity in all its forms. Sending hugs.
Please take care of yourself. Vulnerability is a show of strength in my humble opinion. Takes a lot of courage to do what you did and say what you said, for the betterment of your viewers. Thank you bud.
First. Your videos have made a difference in my life. Ren has also made a difference as well. Secondly, I'm proud of you for facing this. It is a healing process. Packing things away may help at first, but we have to face it eventually. Love you brother!!!!
This was actually my first listen to the full Freckled Angels song. I'd been avoiding that one in particular for some reason as well.
Thank you for braving these difficult songs all at once and sharing your thoughts. It sucks to feel all of that stuff again but it also definitely can help heal.
You need "Ren - 1990s (Official Lyric Video)" after this. Trust me
Crying does not make us weaker it makes us human. It is important to have our feelings be so touched by music.
❤I’m so proud of you for sharing your vulnerability with us. The fact that Ren has created such unity and inspiration to have compassion for others is astounding. I’m so happy that you have found Ren, he is truly a gift that we all cherish. ❤❤
You are an amazing young man! Beautiful video. We appreciate what you do and as always; Ren is incredible! ❤❤❤❤❤
I feel you...u r not alone❤
I enjoy your content n honest reactions.
Thk you n Ren for opening your hearts n baring your pain to us. It IS a community he has built...n we shall gain strength n hope for a brighter future. What a tribute to Joe..his spirit lives on n unite us.❤
Thanks! Thankyou for continuing to wake up everyday and being an inspiration on your channel and be vulnerable with your audience. When you said that 'they don't teach or prepare you for a world where other people aren't as kind as you are' . I immediately thought of my fiance....how I fear so much for him. No matter how awful that people treat him he keeps on being kind. I'm just afraid that soon there will come a day that 'All the kings men wont be able to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.' .. It terrifies me to think of the void he would leave. Some days are so hard for him. I wish so bad I could take his pain
Thank you so much for everything 🖤
3.4K views as of this moment in time. Those of us who came by the way of Ren are grateful for you Ben. I believe souls always connect, at the perfect time and place to fulfill an emotional, mental, or even spiritual bond. Thank you for bringing us all together to ease some of our loneliness.
Hey there,
Ren is the therapy so many of us didn’t know we needed, and the healing so many of us need. Anyone and everyone has some battle within their mind and almost no one understands enough to even touch the emotions it brings up. Hang in there brother. The whole army of RENegades got your back.
No one has done all three of these in a row. So powerful. Your honesty is also so meaningful! Sometimes we just need to feel it Thank you for your vulnerability. We nee d to be able to talk about things.❤
It's ok bro, I heard that songs more than 50 times, still cry a river each time. thank you for sharing, and be strong
Oh sweetie. I hope you're ok.
These songs of Rens are some of the toughest. I think that's why they are so profound. It started with Hi Ren for me. My heart hasn't been the same. Like you, I don't go to these places. I don't like to feel these emotions. Listening to these songs over and over, crying through each time...i have found peace.
From HI REN, I always keep the last sentence close to my heart. These are the things that separates us from Angels, from Demons and from God's. I must not forget, WE must not forget that we are human beings.
Although we all don't know one another...You are our brother. You are loved. You are precious to us. We are glad you are here and you would be missed.
I hope peace finds you soon.
Peace and love always until there is no more!❤
Finished. Took several breaks but I’m there with you, moving through them. They’ve become my favourite purging of late .. it’s one of the ways I’m grieving the loss of my husband. I watch people react to Suicide or For Joe when I need to break down and let the bad out. It really helps lighten my heart and keep me soft enough to be a loving mother to our two smallish children. I thank you for sharing your pain release journey for a moment. I imagine that would be difficult and also exhilarating in the way all authentic expression is, especially when appreciated, as you are. Sending loving support your way. As a fellow griever, I’m proud of you, Ben.
Ren's emotional power could move a mountain...such an Unique talent. Lovely reaction , in a deep heartfelt way.
Well done Ben and bless you for your caring heart. Hugs x
We got your back. I’ve cried countless times to Ren the last six months, and I’ll probably do it continuously. Another real strong one is “Crutch” feat Bibi. At least it makes my cry every time. And for the record, I’m a 51yo man…❤
Oh boy. When Su!cide came out I watched the premier and I really didn't know what to expect. One of my best friends also took his own life when we were both 19. I'm 45 now and I had never really dealt with it. I blanked it out. If ever I was getting close to really thinking about it I'd do anything else to distract myself. That song hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried my eyes out for ages afterwards and didn't go online again for 4 days. I didn't watch any reactions, I didn't watch the video again. But, now in hindsight, it really, really helped me remember my friend again and all the good stuff, what a great guy he was.... and that was beautiful.
A beautiful & pure reaction my friend. Just know you are not alone. I’m 57 years old & I’m a serviver of the “S” word, thankfully.
No artist in my life has had the impact that Ren has and trust me I grew up listening to the greats.
We all know his ability as a musician, composer & lyricist but beyond that he has brought people together. Real, people. Beautiful & pure souls who are like minded.
Imagine a world full of Rens. What a wonderful world it would be.
Thank you for sharing your soul.
Peace and love to you and all the Renegades ❤️🙏
Reciprocated ❤️
I so admire your courage to listen to these three songs together. When listened to like this it becomes a three act play. Moving through the stages of grief until finally “I know your going to be okay”. I heard your words. Thank you. ❤️