+Joseph Somerville I'm addicted to being depressed. After feeling this way for so long, it seems as if this is the new me. This is how I'm going to live out the rest of my life. Music I can relate to helps me cope with my sadness and suicidal thoughts because it helps me believe that others feel as I do but they are fighting and not giving up. Music is my support. It's not the best thing out there but it's all I can get my hands on right now.
hymn 1 - 00:00 God sent an angel of mercy to me to forgive me for being so mean He told me 'do not fear the darkness my son for the sun will rise again' He took this ailing body from me for He knew it was causing me pain He won't give me a new one cause i had my chance but He forgives me, He forgives me xxxxxxx - 1:02 xxxxxxx i have no longterm plans for this body i want to be part of you while i still can xxxxxxx my mouth filled up with blood let me be part of you while i still can when am i coming to your school you know that i should see you soon before something takes me out of here or before he takes you away again (i woke up in the library and someone was whispering your name directly into my ear i looked around but i couldn't find them and when i went outside the sun was out but soon the sky turned black and it started to rain; my friends blame ghosts for everything) xxxxxxx i worry far too much and i know that it will ruin us just like it ruined so many things before let me be part of you while i still can when am i coming to your school you know that i should see you soon cause soon i won't be able to if things keep going on like this i stare at myself in the mirror i make my body bleed sometimes i don't even dream anymore because my dreams are coming true i could die in your red hair hymn 2 4:50 in your backyard you dig a hole i know you will put me inside the heat has been off now for so many days and the sun doesn't rise in the sky as a child i never blamed you at all i knew that you had a plan but i can't keep my food down at night anymore do you forgive me? do you forgive me? untitled-oct7 - 05:45 when you came home i wrote a song i never showed anyone i still remember the hook it went 'i'm getting clean for you' because i wanted to get clean again and i knew that if i did we could be happy we did it once before i thought we could do it again i wanted to say i'm sorry i never got clean for you like i wanted to do so badly and everything i knew i forgot i will shed this stupid body i will grow tall and be someone new when i do you can come find me but until then i'll be missing for a while -------------------- hymns. a eulogy. a thank you to everybody. i (sam) wrote and recorded all of these songs. caroline sang 'hymn 2' hymn 1 was recorded in the dark hymn 2 was recorded in the woods released November 25, 2012
If anyone is looking for music similar you should listen to Julia Brown, Ricky Eat Acid, and Starry Cat. They're all by the like dude who made teen suicide
My friend went on February 22nd of this year, we've been friends for about 8 years. And I knew all of his passwords and shit, got onto his gmail today. Found this shit on his google drive. If I had logged into his Facebook three years ago, I would've known he was depressed. I didn't know he was depressed til the day it happened. It sucks having to think if we were friends or not. Did I even help him at all by being with him? It's fucking bullshit. Fuck me.
I have a lot of memories associated with this project. Similar to a lot of you, it’s of a really intense and toxic relationship, with the second song showcasing the obsession felt during the relationship and as it spiraled, and the last one being about the regrets associated with not being able to change in time to save the relationship. Years later, I still feel it in my soul. Happy to say that I’m a different person today than I was then, and in a far healthier mental state. I pray that everyone who can relate to this project will be able to grow and flourish, and that this project will just be a painful memory, not a lasting legacy.
When I'm happy and I feel anything can make me blue I start hearing teen suicide and others. Then dead dreams, bad memories, melancholy and sense of lonliness come to me
what happens after everything.. after this? im scared of the unknown but it also feels like a relief. or something. these tracks hits so hard. too hard. memories overflows my mind and i cant make decide wether i should do it or not. things are hard sometimes
Xxxxxxx reminds me of my girlfriend because she's so normal and I'm not so "I have no long term plans for this body so let me be part of you while I still can" sounds like something I would say and "when I come into your school know that I should see you soon" is pretty much the fact that I see her in school and I never get to see her outside of school so when I see her in school I treat it like it's the last time I'll ever see her
God sent an angel of mercy to me to forgive me for being so mean He told me do not fear the darkness, my son for the sun will rise again He took this ailing body from me for he knew it was causing me pain He won't give me a new one cause I had my chance but he forgives me, he forgives me 2.10.21 RIP Dad
(i woke up in the library and someone was whispering your name directly into my ear i looked around but i couldn't find them and when i went outside the sun was out but soon the sky turned black and it started to rain; my friends blame ghosts for everything) this sounds like the julia brown library song was inspired by it. I really wish I could meet Sam.
@@Ren-F-E ah i dont know the difference really, thank you for telling me tho. and yea i agree. i really love this vibe. it sends chills down my spine and i always come back to listen during those painful late nights
@@starrycat127 I guess it's the most lo-fi thing they ever put in their discography, the tape recording noises, the piano, the bad quality of the mic, all are perfect material to lay down on an empty road of the middle of the night. my favorite releases after DC snuff film (2012 EP)
My group of friends are slowly splitting apart and i'm trying to keep them together because they're the only true family i got. I spent an hour in the bathroom crying, because if they split, i wont know what to do. fuck.
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
if anyone ever gets here, hope you get better
thanks man 😭
How did you know? 😂😭
is it just me who enjoys this kinda music without being depressed
thank u
+Joseph Somerville I'm addicted to being depressed. After feeling this way for so long, it seems as if this is the new me. This is how I'm going to live out the rest of my life. Music I can relate to helps me cope with my sadness and suicidal thoughts because it helps me believe that others feel as I do but they are fighting and not giving up. Music is my support. It's not the best thing out there but it's all I can get my hands on right now.
hymn 1 - 00:00
God sent an angel of mercy to me
to forgive me for being so mean
He told me 'do not fear the darkness my son
for the sun will rise again'
He took this ailing body from me
for He knew it was causing me pain
He won't give me a new one cause i had my chance
but He forgives me, He forgives me
xxxxxxx - 1:02
xxxxxxx i have no longterm plans for this body
i want to be part of you while i still can
xxxxxxx my mouth filled up with blood
let me be part of you while i still can
when am i coming to your school
you know that i should see you soon
before something takes me out of here
or before he takes you away again
(i woke up in the library and someone was whispering
your name directly into my ear i looked around but
i couldn't find them and when i went outside the sun
was out but soon the sky turned black and it started
to rain; my friends blame ghosts for everything)
xxxxxxx i worry far too much and i know
that it will ruin us
just like it ruined so many things before
let me be part of you while i still can
when am i coming to your school
you know that i should see you soon
cause soon i won't be able to
if things keep going on like this
i stare at myself in the mirror
i make my body bleed sometimes
i don't even dream anymore
because my dreams are coming true
i could die in your red hair
hymn 2 4:50
in your backyard you dig a hole
i know you will put me inside
the heat has been off now for so many days
and the sun doesn't rise in the sky
as a child i never blamed you at all
i knew that you had a plan
but i can't keep my food down at night anymore
do you forgive me? do you forgive me?
untitled-oct7 - 05:45
when you came home i wrote a song
i never showed anyone
i still remember the hook it went
'i'm getting clean for you'
because i wanted to get clean again
and i knew that if i did we could be happy
we did it once before
i thought we could do it again
i wanted to say i'm sorry
i never got clean for you
like i wanted to do so badly
and everything i knew i forgot
i will shed this stupid body
i will grow tall and be someone new
when i do you can come find me
but until then i'll be missing for a while
--------------------
hymns. a eulogy. a thank you to everybody.
i (sam) wrote and recorded all of these songs.
caroline sang 'hymn 2'
hymn 1 was recorded in the dark
hymn 2 was recorded in the woods
released November 25, 2012
no problem sal
wow. the day after my birthday.
you really sam..
Teen suicide needs to come back. how do i request teen reincarnation
Jasmine N i wish they could put this on spotify and yes i hope they come back because they are so gooooooood
They're American Pleasure Club now! They just changed their name, but their music is the same genre.
theyre coming back for another album
everything you love & cherish lasts awhile
"let me be part of you while i still can" .. gets me every time
hymn 1 was recorded in the dark, hymn 2 was recorded in the woods
And both should have been recorded by the girl not the guy who can’t pronounce the words man
@@stephenbudgell7100 fuck you
@@fib1 lmao your a bit angry there bud. Haha😂
@@stephenbudgell7100 😘
@@fib1 make up your mind haha
This album is just absolutely haunting. Goosebumps everytime
If anyone is looking for music similar you should listen to Julia Brown, Ricky Eat Acid, and Starry Cat. They're all by the like dude who made teen suicide
heroin party too
and mad dads
and cute boy kissing booth
this is like daniel johnston
Hymn 1 and 2 are so Daniel Johnston :D
"Poor you, poor you. Noone understands you"
SummerOfGeorge if they are the boy person he should learn the words for hymn 1 and redo it
Most of the time I feel like I'm just floating by everything but this makes me feel grounded. Just for a moment.
My friend went on February 22nd of this year, we've been friends for about 8 years. And I knew all of his passwords and shit, got onto his gmail today. Found this shit on his google drive. If I had logged into his Facebook three years ago, I would've known he was depressed. I didn't know he was depressed til the day it happened. It sucks having to think if we were friends or not. Did I even help him at all by being with him? It's fucking bullshit.
Fuck me.
if it makes you feel any better, you probably helped him just by being his friend and caring abt him. sorry for what you had to go through, dude
you guys weren't friends, you guys are still friends. :)
I miss her so much
I miss her too
I have a lot of memories associated with this project. Similar to a lot of you, it’s of a really intense and toxic relationship, with the second song showcasing the obsession felt during the relationship and as it spiraled, and the last one being about the regrets associated with not being able to change in time to save the relationship. Years later, I still feel it in my soul. Happy to say that I’m a different person today than I was then, and in a far healthier mental state. I pray that everyone who can relate to this project will be able to grow and flourish, and that this project will just be a painful memory, not a lasting legacy.
i love you, bunny
i listen to this every october
Same :P
When I'm happy and I feel anything can make me blue I start hearing teen suicide and others. Then dead dreams, bad memories, melancholy and sense of lonliness come to me
Caroline White is such a good singer, she and Sam Ray are really good, this EP brings like a asleep mood...
I love her voice
Joey Duran then u should check out her other acts such as high bloom and infinity crush
what happens after everything.. after this? im scared of the unknown but it also feels like a relief. or something. these tracks hits so hard. too hard. memories overflows my mind and i cant make decide wether i should do it or not.
things are hard sometimes
Samuel Thelin are you alright friend?
Xxxxxxx reminds me of my girlfriend because she's so normal and I'm not so "I have no long term plans for this body so let me be part of you while I still can" sounds like something I would say and "when I come into your school know that I should see you soon" is pretty much the fact that I see her in school and I never get to see her outside of school so when I see her in school I treat it like it's the last time I'll ever see her
Literally the saddest songs I’ve ever heard
Awkward Gabe I’ve been looking for hymn 2 for 4 to 5 years now didn’t save it before so glad I found it
so artistic i'm exploding inside
i love you, bunny.
God sent an angel of mercy to me
to forgive me for being so mean
He told me do not fear the darkness, my son
for the sun will rise again
He took this ailing body from me
for he knew it was causing me pain
He won't give me a new one cause I had my chance
but he forgives me, he forgives me
2.10.21 RIP Dad
I like it here.
let me be part of you while i still can.
yeah thats the line that sticks out to me as well
this music is gonna make me cry
did you cry
@@fib1 ya dude I cried
merry christmas
This freaks me out because me and my ex's nicknames for each other were "bunny".
Sad me
i want to feel better
me too man me too
you will soon
always come back here
(i woke up in the library and someone was whispering
your name directly into my ear i looked around but
i couldn't find them and when i went outside the sun
was out but soon the sky turned black and it started
to rain; my friends blame ghosts for everything)
this sounds like the julia brown library song was inspired by it. I really wish I could meet Sam.
this album, tho so short.. especially gets me for some reason.
well it's EP, not album
tho I'm agree sam should ad 2 pr 3 more songs into this, I love it sm
@@Ren-F-E ah i dont know the difference really, thank you for telling me tho. and yea i agree. i really love this vibe. it sends chills down my spine and i always come back to listen during those painful late nights
@@starrycat127 I guess it's the most lo-fi thing they ever put in their discography, the tape recording noises, the piano, the bad quality of the mic, all are perfect material to lay down on an empty road of the middle of the night.
my favorite releases after DC snuff film (2012 EP)
"i could die in your red hair..."
shit.
He said, do not fear, the darkness my son
I love this album
Vaya noche melancólica...
Aún estas vivo amigo? :((
beautiful
i'm sad sad
My group of friends are slowly splitting apart and i'm trying to keep them together because they're the only true family i got. I spent an hour in the bathroom crying, because if they split, i wont know what to do.
fuck.
toshurii stay strong💛i'm sure things will eventually end up how they should
Joseph Somerville yes ok im really sorry
2019..
Yes bro, hablas español?
@@colgame7848 yo hablo ruso, ucraniano
col game hola mis amigos, yo hablo un poco de español y ruso
@@accountinitial5434 Hola, yo español, eres de Rusia?
col game soy estadounidense, de Virginia!
Big inspiration
i was sitting at the chair next to my desk and
crying a lot of hours. Thats was happend 1year ago and i wasnt listen this song since february 2019.
sry 4my grammar but im polish
listening on march 26th 2022
Why is the girls part not longer
because the song isnt longer....
I'm not real..
I see your comment, so you must be real :)
I'm pretend
can someone please help me im dying
wow
Why ads
Some one post lyrics
¿Habrá cambiado algo en un año?
Who's on the vocals in hymn 2?
If someone is reading this, i'll be dead soon.
i hope ur okay
i am
Please
Risking my life for Janie.
if you are reading this, i am dead already
actually?
i hope u r not and everything is okay...
i think im gonna join you soon
@@rhinoboi8816 no you are not i couldnt stop ian but ill try to stop you
@@rhinoboi8816 whats wrong
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
I hope you're not dead, and I hope things are somewhat better at least.
Fuck, this kill me 4 inside...
Can someone explain to me what does ''bunny'' mean?
I am not a native English speaker, that's the reason.
Bunny is another name for a rabbit, but in this context it is being used as a pet name for someone. Such as "baby", or "sweetie", or "honey.
Thanks. I thought it was a name for the devil..
Alessandra Colacci hahaha that's cute
Why :(
:((
Las lagrimas :´( jajaja
I Cry amigo
DidBonesFixHisSpaceBarYet?
Riku OfCourseNot
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
I hope im not late and you are okay and alive...
I know this isn’t any of ya’ll concern and all but honestly am about to kill myself ive been trying very hard to do things which make me happy but it doesn’t really help. The same thoughts come flooding back in me and it hurts both mentally and emotionally. Hope u get better.
please be okay
im ten months late but please dont do it lets be friends dont do that