> Emerging through the midnight gateway, you feel a sensation in your spine cutting upwards towards your neck. A flood of contempt and anger swerving with a velocity of unbearable degree; crawling through your eyes as you push another hour deeper into the night. > > But just as soon as it arrives it departs. Free from an eternal pain that died in its final crescendo. That which had been waiting for nothing, wanting to be free. Released from the sad numb feeling of twilight. Let go after an eon of sparring with the submissive contract of sadness. > > Within the ash a new persona blooms. An angel of saturation in delay, love in anger. Lifting you through yourself and into another body. The mind a shell, a clearing, a limitless void. And within that vessel of being and creation you undertake end without moderation, sympathy without abundance. > > You accelerate onto a myriad of empty expressways; the velocity you once were prison to now your constant catalyst. A utopia of urgency. A carved out memory of hearts in endless and artificial refinement. Cold crystal waves driving over a synthetic shore. > > The numbness of fragility now shattered within a new erudite heaven. With no horns, no fangs, no spirit. Just a silence within itself waiting for nothing and wanting to be free. > Chroma Velocity ▋
This is a whole another level of creativity. Not even music, but also the art and even the names of songs really uplift your mind. City Girl is that type of music you want to share with everyone but in the inside you feel like you should keep it to yourself.
I recently went through major depression after a heartbreak and I haven't kept up with your music... but upon the first minute, I knew that this was going to get me through a lot, both in my writing and my artwork. Thank you again for another dope album. Keep giving the world a piece of you, we need it. Love from Cali
Your music is probably my favorite right now. Like everything about it is amazing... even the album art and song titles! I’m on the edge of my seat waiting for the next album💖
I did a work out to this album, lazer focus and felt that rhythm. Amazing. Gorgeous cover. Everything about this is stellar. I have no clue why you dont have more subs, but they will come. Keep going. Buying this digitally for support. Really want the art work too haha shout outs to that artist too. Thanks for your hardwork.
Just wanted to let you know that you’ve totally been what I’ve been looking for in the chill genre. Nostalgic, creative, aesthetic, and just awesome! Other chill songs tend to be very repetitive, and I love how you make them like actual songs
Oh my god can't believe this popped up in my recommended made my break at work a looooot better, now I can't wait to get off so I can check out the rest of your music!!
Just brought the CD and sticker from your bandcamp and left a ^-^ face. I'd have given you even more for it, but shipping to the UK is expensive xD Love it. Take care
Every feat you do with Tiffi are awesome ! This album is so cool and detonates of the others but staying in the same league ! I don't know if it's clear but i LOVE IT
i dont want u to disappear never and ever i wanna hear more songs u keep my soul alivee OH MY GOD YOUR SONGS ARE AMAZING i can listen to ur songs every f minute
I thought nothing could top Neon Impasse, but this is just so insanely my aesthetic just from the first few minutes, guess I'm buying this one in physical form as well!
I know that city girl is probably not gonna see this but I just wanna say: your music is my saving grace. I’m an emotional person, but I usually try to keep my feelings to myself. I’m just so sick of people watching me cry only to make a huge deal about it. I’m sick of people watching me rage only to sit back with a judgmental look on their face. But, when I listen to your music, I feel like I can cry or rant without getting a raised eyebrow aimed at me. I feel comforted in a way I can’t really explain. Nobody ever understands when a quiet, awkward girl like me expresses my feelings, but the melodies of your albums do.
@Daniella Nanjari hey over there, it´s highly interesting for me to read your comment - i´m a papa and i have a 16 year old daughter - her mother died in 2011 so we had a hard time, but we managed well with a lot of talking and i am very proud of the both of us... i have often been criticized for my style of education/parenting, because i m not very strict - from when she was young i always waited a moment when something was wrong - you know, not just standing tall and saying: do this or do that! i´ve been told, i spoil her, which may be true to a certain degree - but until today, when something is wrong with her, i look if i can do something, but the very moment i see, she just wants to be left alone, i leave her alone - i always try to figure out, what could be wrong - sometimes it´s just the old bloody menstruation again, which causes her pain during the first two or three days - i´m ill since a few years, and i know how grumpy i can get myself, when i´m suffering of pain, so i´ll don´t take it personal should she rant at me, haha - as i said, i´m proud, because she trusts me so much, she talks frankly about her problems with me (i know she says not all, but that´s perfectly ok)... still i see that you seem to have a loving daddy either, don´t be too harsh with him, he still sounds like a nice person, no? tell him that you love him, and perhaps explain to him (in a quiet, relaxed moment), how he could handle it better - good? i hope, you understand, that i don´t want to brag about here, but only wish to thank you for your comment, that shows me, i´m on a good way... my daughter also plunges into music and dreams on for hours and she also reads books, just like her papa, haha (do you read? highly recommended, it can show you a lot of good things that can help you)... :-) whatever happens, always lift your head again, you go your way the way you go it and no one else! hugs from germany
@Dakoda Morris Bro, I'm fucking the same as you, I pretend being extrovert as hell, the unique person that I'm being myself is with my GF, and she didn't told anyone yet, with other people I'm extrovert, pervert, funny, and without emotions (when I say this, I want to say that if someone insults me I just take it the funny way... But I'm INCREDIBLY sentimental, when 2 or 3 people laugh about me I'm making my best to not crying, In primary school... I was like that, introvert, being myself, and I was comfortable with that... but I wanted much more friends and people, like that I met my GF in a party... My god... I lose my virginity that day LOL... I was truly happy once again in my life that day... but without changing the subjet... I didn't changed, I just... Act.
This is my favorite City Girl album by far. Used to listen to it on the way to work every day when I started my first job out of uni. One year later, and it's no longer just a great album, it feels like home.
This first track feels like it belongs in Cyberpunk 2077. Don't know if CDPR is looking for jams, but you should definitely shoot it over to them. Love your stuff :)
City Girl If not this album, maybe another one or just one song to give them a taste. I really dig guarenteed suicide & infinite void here. You never know until you try! Even a response saying they would consider it is a great sign!
@@CityGirlMusic You don't know unless you try. I thought some of my heroes would be unreachable, but I did a brief email correspondence with my favorite author, and later my favorite music artist drew me a custom image for her album that I got off of bandcamp. ^w^ Sometimes the world is smaller than it seems.
your music heals me. i have a condition called misophonia, where basically, some noises can trigger a fight-or-flight response in my brain. however the catch is they're just normal everyday sounds, but when i hear them, i feel the urge to run away, to stop the source of the noise or at least stop hearing it. my case is pretty bad which means i'm constantly triggered and anxious, for no real reason. that's where your music has helped me. i always have my earphones at reach, and i play your music in the background of my life like i breathe air. "relaxing" music never really made me any calmer, but something about your music does exactly that for me. your work is so unique and majestic, it takes me to another dimension, and i'm sure many can relate. i've never heard anything like it. as a musician i adore the unusual chord progressions you use and the whole production. along with the ethereal names of the songs and the breathtaking visual art, your albums are each a masterpiece. it's almost like your personality shines through your art, and it seems you are a sensitive, detail oriented person that tends to observe the world around them. i just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart, if you ever see this, for being you and sharing it with the world, you're making it a better place. okay phew i really wanted to say that for a while
I have mild misophonia, and I get insanely triggered when I hear some human made sounds, like eating. And reading your comment made me feel very grateful, because you have it a lot worse than me. I'm really sorry about your condition and wish you the best of luck on your endeavours! :)
thank you so much for reading my comment and for leaving this heartwarming message! 💗 i’m glad my words resonated with you and made you feel better in any kind of way. just for clarification: most people would find certain sounds annoying, especially chewing/drinking noises or maybe even whispering, a baby crying etc. the emotion they feel is annoyance and it fades once the sound is gone. with misophonia, in my experience, i may get triggered from completely every-day noises, and the emotional reaction is anxiety (mental and physical), a need to run away, and an overall fight/flight/freeze type of response in my nervous system that can sometimes linger even after the noise is gone, and usually requires some type of coping mechanism. this sensory overload feels like there’s electricity inside me, and also makes me feel like a burden since i can’t just tell people to stop doing completely normal things as that would make me seem rude. also had panic attacks several times when triggered and coped with s*lf h*rm (generally started because of depression, and now is just how i’m used to coping). i also get visually triggered from looking at triggers, even if i can’t hear the noise. it affects my daily function because i constantly have to get away from triggers and think about what kind of noises i’ll encounter when going anywhere and how i’ll cope, which makes entire environments feel very hostile. it’s not just being annoyed, it’s feeling unsafe, hyper-vigilant and traumatized. i’m not saying this to gain any pity points, i’m seeing an incredible psychologist and i’m working on myself a lot. misophonia sucks :(( i hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself!
@@diamondust2054 I get angry over small noises more so than the average person, while it may not be misophonia, it still irks me to my core. I lash out by hitting things around me and swearing under my breath. Thank you for sharing your experience with me, it has been informative and thought provoking. I wish you have a safe and healthy life.
My huge package of art books arrived in the mail today - which happened because "Velvet Garden" inspired the cover illustration of that book. That illustration is the biggest pivot in my art career, and it's all because of your music. Thank you for sharing your beautiful work so illustrators like me can kill it in our industry.
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> Emerging through the midnight gateway, you feel a sensation in
your spine cutting upwards towards your neck. A flood of contempt and anger swerving with a velocity of unbearable degree; crawling through your eyes as you push another hour deeper into the night.
>
> But just as soon as it arrives it departs. Free from an eternal pain that died in its final crescendo. That which had been waiting for nothing, wanting to be free. Released from the sad numb feeling of twilight. Let go after an eon of sparring with the submissive contract of sadness.
>
> Within the ash a new persona blooms. An angel of saturation in delay, love in anger. Lifting you through yourself and into another body.
The mind a shell, a clearing, a limitless void. And within that vessel of being and creation you undertake end without moderation, sympathy without abundance.
>
> You accelerate onto a myriad of empty expressways; the velocity you once were prison to now your constant catalyst. A utopia of urgency. A carved out memory of hearts in endless and artificial refinement. Cold crystal waves driving over a synthetic shore.
>
> The numbness of fragility now shattered within a new erudite heaven. With no horns, no fangs, no spirit. Just a silence within itself waiting for nothing and wanting to be free.
> Chroma Velocity ▋
God I love your vignettes. They're always so vivid and immersive.
This album is beautiful
i feel like a formless being reading this
are you adding this album to your sound cloud?
@@vickisigh2674 like a lil jellyfishhhhhhh //`~~~~~~~~~`//
This is a whole another level of creativity. Not even music, but also the art and even the names of songs really uplift your mind. City Girl is that type of music you want to share with everyone but in the inside you feel like you should keep it to yourself.
I agree. This music is more personal.
The last time I shared my favorite music, my friends looked at me funny.
Where do I cosign?
totally agree
I just found out about this artist recently, but by the gods this could not have been said better.
Love the coding feels while there is some good music in the background
Thank you for creating wonderful music!
Are you wearing your coding socks?
@@spyroisrad4668 knee-highs actually.
That's true :3
This was my 1st City Girl Experience. These last few days have been an anniversary/birthday of sorts.
Oof this album is such a bop; some cross between lofi, hip-hop, trance, dnb; some of my favorite chill genres.
this isn't an album. it is an experience.
Amazing as always!
Sadly this was posted when I was asleep but im listening to it the moment I woke up!
I recently went through major depression after a heartbreak and I haven't kept up with your music... but upon the first minute, I knew that this was going to get me through a lot, both in my writing and my artwork. Thank you again for another dope album. Keep giving the world a piece of you, we need it. Love from Cali
Your music is probably my favorite right now. Like everything about it is amazing... even the album art and song titles! I’m on the edge of my seat waiting for the next album💖
Can we just sit down and talk about how beautiful the cover art is?! The artist outdid themselves on this one!
Aaaww, thank you! The first track already sounds wonderful😍✨✨
This album put my creativity into overdrive and pushed me past writer's block. Thank you City Girl .
Still my fave album
This continues to be my favorite album. Love you, City Girl ❤️
I could listen to this all day!!! LOVE YOU City Girl!!!!
I love this album so much, it's beautiful
i’m always like: there’s no way they can top this album, and then you go ahead and blow my expectations out of the water again.
i love this.
One year on and this album is still one of my all-time favourites. Keep up the amazing work :)
Yaaaay! I'm so so pleased you have a new album out, your music is just lovely ^_^
I did a work out to this album, lazer focus and felt that rhythm. Amazing. Gorgeous cover. Everything about this is stellar. I have no clue why you dont have more subs, but they will come. Keep going. Buying this digitally for support. Really want the art work too haha shout outs to that artist too. Thanks for your hardwork.
This album just hits different, the first song is a bop setting the mood
This album on repeat is my day-to-day. So awesome
once i heard the beat drop of Ellipsis i was like woahhhh this is fire! Great job
This is the sort of music that does something special to you when listened to at 3 AM.
Decided to buy the album after the first 30 seconds! Simple as that!! Thanks for the great work
Tysm for the new album. I liked how you added your poetry into the start of the video, it's a neat touch!
Thank you so much for this, what an amazing new sound
City Girl, you enrich my life! xoxo
No joke, the first song inspired me to start a new novel about a space girl banished to live on Earth.
once covid is over you have to tour sometime!!!!! this would be such a good show!!!
I love every álbum of City Girl. So creative, aesthetic, beautiful and inspiring to me. Thanks from a spanish fan. ❤🔥
this is the only album that can make me feel anything. Thank you
wow. just amazing. there’s literally no words to describe how amazing this is💓
Yes, finally more good music to put when i work, thanks for all your songs, You are the best
JUST TURNED ON NOTIFICATIONS FOR YA! I'VE BEEN LISTENING SINCE YESTERDAY! I AM ADDICTED!!! Love ya, City Girl!
Just wanted to let you know that you’ve totally been what I’ve been looking for in the chill genre. Nostalgic, creative, aesthetic, and just awesome! Other chill songs tend to be very repetitive, and I love how you make them like actual songs
Just found this today and I am already a huge fan! I look forward to looking through the rest of your stuff!
welcome to the channel! thank you
Love the way those organ keys got held for a bit around 6:20
I am binge hearing all of your albums ♥
I've been listening to this on repeat since you released it! Thanks so much for sharing your love for music with us!
This music always feels fresh. It’s like bathing in the sounds. I’m happy I follow your work.
Oh my god can't believe this popped up in my recommended made my break at work a looooot better, now I can't wait to get off so I can check out the rest of your music!!
YOU HAVE BLESSED US WITH THESE SOUNDS OF JOY!
Woohoo! Was waiting for a long time!
I'm three years late, but what a mix. I'm adding this to my playlist
Happy birthday Chroma Velocity.
This is honestly some of your best work yet. I reeealy reeealy love the shift to synthwave I feel like you pulled it off wonderfully
this popped up on my home page. so glad I clicked!
it doesn't feel like this was two years ago 😅 wow time passes quickly
Just brought the CD and sticker from your bandcamp and left a ^-^ face. I'd have given you even more for it, but shipping to the UK is expensive xD Love it. Take care
thanks for the love!
Every feat you do with Tiffi are awesome ! This album is so cool and detonates of the others but staying in the same league ! I don't know if it's clear but i LOVE IT
aww thank you! a lovely comment :)
@@CityGirlMusic My pleasure :)
진짜 너무 좋아요 하루에 한번씩은 풀앨범 꼭 듣고감 히히
This is the first thing that popped up so I clicked and am so happy I did!
Endless and Artificial is also Perfect.
stressing bout a test. needed this
What an awesome artistic direction. Especially the intro, beautiful
Awesome for studying and writing papers🤗
thank you 💜
It's so different and so good
muy bueno el tema Endless and Artificial
Wont you wait is my favorite
This album was so amazing and unexpected. I love it! Will it be going on soundcloud?
i will upload one song from it to soundcloud but not the whole thing!
i dont want u to disappear never and ever i wanna hear more songs u keep my soul alivee OH MY GOD YOUR SONGS ARE AMAZING i can listen to ur songs every f minute
I thought nothing could top Neon Impasse, but this is just so insanely my aesthetic just from the first few minutes, guess I'm buying this one in physical form as well!
haha im glad i could surprise you ! thanks for the love
Perfect OST for Midnight Gospel
This is still my favorite of your albums, though C-girl still comes close
This is incredible. Thank you.
Fantastic work per usual.
I love this album so much
Thank you youtube algorithm! Sometimes you really do give us gems!
I just really love your songs. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Still my favourite album 😌
I see that cyberpunk/synthwave is experiencing a revolution.
great work as always
how lovely
epic synthwave music
This is so freaking amazing 💕
This is beyond gorgeous! Thank you so much I Love this so much :)
🎶Happy birthday Chroma Velocity, Happy birthday tooooooooo you🎶🎁
TWELVE SECONDS IN AND I'VE NEVER LOVED ANYTHING MORE
Love it, you've given me so much inspiration for my next track ❤️
This album is so good, like usual :D. What program did u use to make the old school typing at the beginning?
I’m so sad that I couldn’t watch it right away because I was in class!! I already love this album❤️🥰👌
Love you city girl!!
awesome! thanks for the wonderful music!
You spoil us with these full album videos!! Fantastic as always!!
Just off that intro ALONE.... YOU. ARE. A. GODDESS!!!! I'm SO geeked to listen to this now! EVEN MORE THAN WHEN I PRESSED PLAY!!!!
📀tracklist for mobile:
Endless and Artificial - 0:00
Saturation in Delay, Love in Anger (feat. tiffi) - 3:52
Leave You (feat. rui ying) - 8:12
Empty Expressways - 12:17
Ellipsis (feat. tiffi) - 16:05
Contour (feat. Christina Shin) - 20:02
Opulent (feat. tiffi) - 22:29
Guaranteed Suicide (feat. rui ying) - 25:26
The Limitless Void - 29:25
Human Related Accident - 34:38
Won't You Wait? (feat. rui ying) - 37:12
Chroma Velocity - 40:57
Thank you so much for this
THANKS!!!!
Thank you! ♡
you are the best
Thanks for thinking of us ^^
Never heard of you before but the TH-cam algorithm was generous today. Great album.
thanks Jonathan! welcome to the channel ^w^
I feel that bro!
@@CityGirlMusic same I forgot how I found you but I'm pretty sure it was just the algorithm
After 2 years… I keep coming back to this. Endless and artificial is one of my favorite songs
same bro
To this day
Same.
same here, truly a great playlist
Me too!
mmmmmmmm
sike
mmmmmmmm
new album ?
Mmmmmmm
Mmmmmmmm
Your synths cured my depression, cleared my skin, and won me the lottery. Thank you City Girl. 💖💞
I know that city girl is probably not gonna see this but I just wanna say:
your music is my saving grace.
I’m an emotional person, but I usually try to keep my feelings to myself. I’m just so sick of people watching me cry only to make a huge deal about it. I’m sick of people watching me rage only to sit back with a judgmental look on their face. But, when I listen to your music, I feel like I can cry or rant without getting a raised eyebrow aimed at me. I feel comforted in a way I can’t really explain. Nobody ever understands when a quiet, awkward girl like me expresses my feelings, but the melodies of your albums do.
@Daniella Nanjari hey over there, it´s highly interesting for me to read your comment - i´m a papa and i have a 16 year old daughter - her mother died in 2011 so we had a hard time, but we managed well with a lot of talking and i am very proud of the both of us...
i have often been criticized for my style of education/parenting, because i m not very strict - from when she was young i always waited a moment when something was wrong - you know, not just standing tall and saying: do this or do that!
i´ve been told, i spoil her, which may be true to a certain degree - but until today, when something is wrong with her, i look if i can do something, but the very moment i see, she just wants to be left alone, i leave her alone - i always try to figure out, what could be wrong - sometimes it´s just the old bloody menstruation again, which causes her pain during the first two or three days - i´m ill since a few years, and i know how grumpy i can get myself, when i´m suffering of pain, so i´ll don´t take it personal should she rant at me, haha - as i said, i´m proud, because she trusts me so much, she talks frankly about her problems with me (i know she says not all, but that´s perfectly ok)...
still i see that you seem to have a loving daddy either, don´t be too harsh with him, he still sounds like a nice person, no? tell him that you love him, and perhaps explain to him (in a quiet, relaxed moment), how he could handle it better - good?
i hope, you understand, that i don´t want to brag about here, but only wish to thank you for your comment, that shows me, i´m on a good way...
my daughter also plunges into music and dreams on for hours and she also reads books, just like her papa, haha (do you read? highly recommended, it can show you a lot of good things that can help you)... :-)
whatever happens, always lift your head again, you go your way the way you go it and no one else! hugs from germany
I felt this comment so deeply
@Dakoda Morris Bro, I'm fucking the same as you, I pretend being extrovert as hell, the unique person that I'm being myself is with my GF, and she didn't told anyone yet, with other people I'm extrovert, pervert, funny, and without emotions (when I say this, I want to say that if someone insults me I just take it the funny way... But I'm INCREDIBLY sentimental, when 2 or 3 people laugh about me I'm making my best to not crying, In primary school... I was like that, introvert, being myself, and I was comfortable with that... but I wanted much more friends and people, like that I met my GF in a party... My god... I lose my virginity that day LOL... I was truly happy once again in my life that day... but without changing the subjet... I didn't changed, I just... Act.
yet another skinwalker trying to appear human smh
This is my favorite City Girl album by far. Used to listen to it on the way to work every day when I started my first job out of uni. One year later, and it's no longer just a great album, it feels like home.
I just got the notification and I clicked as fast as I could! ^^
You and me both I got the notification from Google then from Bandcamp I clicked both as quickly as humanly possible...
For real lol
This first track feels like it belongs in Cyberpunk 2077. Don't know if CDPR is looking for jams, but you should definitely shoot it over to them. Love your stuff :)
lol in my dreams maybe. im sure they get enough emails haha
I agree 100% definitely get in contact with them! I know they have an ingame radio system, imagine how amazing it would be if you got on there!!
City Girl If not this album, maybe another one or just one song to give them a taste. I really dig guarenteed suicide & infinite void here. You never know until you try! Even a response saying they would consider it is a great sign!
LOL I was literally just thinking to myself that this album will be perfect to play Cyberpunk2077 to.
@@CityGirlMusic You don't know unless you try. I thought some of my heroes would be unreachable, but I did a brief email correspondence with my favorite author, and later my favorite music artist drew me a custom image for her album that I got off of bandcamp. ^w^
Sometimes the world is smaller than it seems.
God this aesthetic is everything 💖
Pancakes are cool and everything but why the name?
@@greatpower6063 what
Chill -> Synth? Not that i am complaining. Pretty much otherwise :)
Sounds amazing.
your music heals me.
i have a condition called misophonia, where basically, some noises can trigger a fight-or-flight response in my brain. however the catch is they're just normal everyday sounds, but when i hear them, i feel the urge to run away, to stop the source of the noise or at least stop hearing it. my case is pretty bad which means i'm constantly triggered and anxious, for no real reason.
that's where your music has helped me. i always have my earphones at reach, and i play your music in the background of my life like i breathe air. "relaxing" music never really made me any calmer, but something about your music does exactly that for me.
your work is so unique and majestic, it takes me to another dimension, and i'm sure many can relate. i've never heard anything like it. as a musician i adore the unusual chord progressions you use and the whole production. along with the ethereal names of the songs and the breathtaking visual art, your albums are each a masterpiece.
it's almost like your personality shines through your art, and it seems you are a sensitive, detail oriented person that tends to observe the world around them.
i just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart, if you ever see this, for being you and sharing it with the world, you're making it a better place.
okay phew i really wanted to say that for a while
wow this is beautiful! thank you so much for sharing. I am so thankful and honored to be apart of your life in such a positive way
I am crying ; - ; that was a beautiful message...
I have mild misophonia, and I get insanely triggered when I hear some human made sounds, like eating. And reading your comment made me feel very grateful, because you have it a lot worse than me. I'm really sorry about your condition and wish you the best of luck on your endeavours! :)
thank you so much for reading my comment and for leaving this heartwarming message! 💗 i’m glad my words resonated with you and made you feel better in any kind of way. just for clarification:
most people would find certain sounds annoying, especially chewing/drinking noises or maybe even whispering, a baby crying etc. the emotion they feel is annoyance and it fades once the sound is gone. with misophonia, in my experience, i may get triggered from completely every-day noises, and the emotional reaction is anxiety (mental and physical), a need to run away, and an overall fight/flight/freeze type of response in my nervous system that can sometimes linger even after the noise is gone, and usually requires some type of coping mechanism. this sensory overload feels like there’s electricity inside me, and also makes me feel like a burden since i can’t just tell people to stop doing completely normal things as that would make me seem rude. also had panic attacks several times when triggered and coped with s*lf h*rm (generally started because of depression, and now is just how i’m used to coping). i also get visually triggered from looking at triggers, even if i can’t hear the noise. it affects my daily function because i constantly have to get away from triggers and think about what kind of noises i’ll encounter when going anywhere and how i’ll cope, which makes entire environments feel very hostile. it’s not just being annoyed, it’s feeling unsafe, hyper-vigilant and traumatized.
i’m not saying this to gain any pity points, i’m seeing an incredible psychologist and i’m working on myself a lot. misophonia sucks :(( i hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself!
@@diamondust2054 I get angry over small noises more so than the average person, while it may not be misophonia, it still irks me to my core. I lash out by hitting things around me and swearing under my breath.
Thank you for sharing your experience with me, it has been informative and thought provoking. I wish you have a safe and healthy life.
My huge package of art books arrived in the mail today - which happened because "Velvet Garden" inspired the cover illustration of that book. That illustration is the biggest pivot in my art career, and it's all because of your music.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful work so illustrators like me can kill it in our industry.