Oink Oink.. All I ever want is YOU to be near me.. close to Me so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to Know How your Heart feels.. I want to know.. and Hear the sounding.. I want to hear the beating of Your.. I am sitting on this Cliff.. with these Flowers.. These flowers so not belong to me.. but it belongs to someone else.. it belongs To you.. Holding UP.. I am looking at Your Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Like these SUN FLOWERS in the basket.. YOU are so beautiful.. and YOU are so Lovely.. but what More can I do.. I feel so useless and worthless because all I can do is tell YOU.. I love YOU.. but that is the only thing I can say to YOU.. I grab the Bottle in my hand.. Open my Mouth wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. And put the Bottle down.. When will this be Over.. when will I stop missing YOU.. I want to be bold.. I want to have courage to say.. and to tell YOU.. how much I love YOU.. I want to hold YOUR hand.. Hold it tight and Kiss Your Lip in the moon light.. and I want to wrap my arms around YOU and letting YOU get close.. I want to hear your heart beat pounding and beating for me.. just the way YOU are able to feel and hear mine.. I want to hold your hand.. letting you know that Once I grab hold on.. I will never let YOU go.. I will let YOU know that YOU will always be Mine and that I be yours.. and jump over the Moon.. But I am sitting here.. Looking at your picture.. wiping my tears because only thing that I feel is missing YOU.. I miss YOU.. If I am unable to do then please tell me.. HOW DO I win Your Heart.. How can I win your Love.. if my way is Not working for me.. then YOU needs to let me know.. then WHAT AM I suppose to DO.. How do I make YOU MINE.. I want to know the answers.. But you are not telling me anything.. then.. AM I wrong for trying.. AM I doing it all wrong.. because I want to know.. I want to Win your heart.. so that I can love YOU.. Open your heart for me.. open it so that I can Love you.. I am not asking YOU to love me.. But I want to love YOU.. because it is killing me inside not knowing.. IF what I am doing is all wrong or if this is the right way.. I love you.. and Only thing that MY Heart feels is that to LOVE YOU.. I want to love you.. the show me How.. the way so I can keep on loving YOU more.. I am looking at the Bottle.. I grab it.. Open me mouth Wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. and place the bottle down.. I can't help it.. but to Love YOU.. I can't help it but to tell YOU I love you.. I can't help it even though I tell My heart to stop.. HE does not want to listen to me.. I tell MY heart to stop.. Stop Stop Stop.. Loving YOU.. But.. my hand grabs the picture.. I take a Look.. I can feel my heart burns.. and it feels so painful.. I ache inside because.. I just want to Love You.. How is it that One peek at the picture.. it burns and Hurts MY heart.. my Heart screams inside.. telling me.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I lose my mind.. can't control my emotions.. My heart says it is ON fire for YOU.. to Love YOU more.. Wait.. But to Love you more and more.. I hit.. My hands hit the chest to tell MY Heart to stop.. He screams.. Screams OUT loud.. and I am sitting here Weeping.. Sobbing because I want to love YOU more.. I just want to love YOU.. but you won't let me to Love me.. tell me how so that I can keep on loving you more and more.. I want to tell YOU.. I love you.. I do not want to stop loving YOU.. because Loving YOU means the Everything to Me.. because YOU are My everything.. My hand grabs the Bottle.. I need YOU.. I need YOU and I want YOU.. Only to tell YOU I love you.. I want you.. because I want to tell YOU I love you.. is it wrong to tell YOU that I love you.. is it wrong for me to keep on loving YOU like this. I Open my Mouth wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. Put the bottle Down.. Looking at the Moon.. WILL you tell her.. Can you tell her.. I have a basket.. DO you not see that on the side.. there is a Basket.. it has a Dozen of Flowers.. Sun Flowers.. I want to ask YOU.. CAN you tell her for me.. because I am unable to go to her right now.. at least YOU can tell her for me that I want to give her this Basket.. if YOU tell her for me.. maybe the Glass window will open.. OR.. She is.. YOU are able to come to the Window Glass.. so that I can show YOU.. tell YOU and give you this basket.. I am here on the Other side.. I just can't walk through the Window Glass.. it has a Lock.. but MOON.. if you can tell her.. She may hear YOU.. and WILL know that I be waiting by the Window Glass.. I can show her if she Comes closer.. Since I can say Anything.. She.. YOU WILL know I be waiting on the other side to give you something.. The Sun Flowers.. Each One wants to tell YOU and whisper to your Ears.. I love YOU.. I love you.. I love you.. I can't stop but to say to YOUR I love you.. I love you so much that I be waiting here.. Just come closer so that I can look at you.. I want to see you smile because I love you.. I hold your Picture in the Other hand.. I look at your Picture.. YOU are so beautiful.. YOU take my breathe away.. leaving me truly Breathless.. YOU are so Beautiful that even though I am drinking.. I just can't get drunk.. Only drunk for You because I love you.. YOU are the Most Beautiful Flower in the world and I want to say.. I love you... I miss YOU.. Bo Guh Ship Po YO.. I feel the aching Of My Heart.. the Other hand.. I am holding a Picture.. Looking at Your eyes.. YOU are so So Beautiful.. I wish that YOU can be here.. Sitting next to Me so that I can tell YOU How Beautiful YOU really Are.. I look Up the Sky.. Like the Stars.. LOOKS so Bright and Shines.. Even More Beautiful than the Stars shining in the sky.. Even the Stars would whisper to one another.. WHO is She.. IS she One of Us.. let us Tell her to COME and Join Us.. together we can really Shine.. and Spark through the Night.. I grab the Second Bottle.. and Pours INTO my Mouth... CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG... I really Really Miss YOU.. I can truly feel It in my heart.. What is wrong with me.. What is wrong With My Heart.. Am I bleeding Inside.. IS my Heart so Bad.. SO aching that NOW it starts to Bleed deep within Me.. Looking at the Picture.. I want to Cry... I want to cry because I miss YOU... I miss Your smiles.. I miss YOUR eyes.. I am sure.. YOU be more Beautiful than this Picture I am holding.. I grab me Bottle.. and Pour Into my Mouth... CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG... Placing it down.. ME hand Hits MY chest.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU so Much that Even this Bottle just can't help me at this Point.. What If I start to get sick.. If I get ill that I am going to die... My hands are shaking.. I want to hold YOU... can I at least do that.. to hold you tight and tell YOU I will never Let YOU go.. and whisper in your ears.. That you are Mine.. If you know how much I miss YOU.. if you know how much I love you.. why do you have to leave me like this.. WHY Do you hurt me if YOU know I love you.. DO you not want MY Love.. I can love you.. I can always love you.. I can love you where you will find No regrets.. my eyes.. with Tears falls down.. and I start to cry..
I am sitting Down.. I can see the Trees all across me and watching the Leaves move as the wind blows across the Night.. I am looking at Your Picture.. I just wanted to come Out of my house.. In the Room.. I am always thinking of YOU.. and only wishing that YOU be here and near me.. when YOU are in a Small place.. giving YOU no room to Breathe.. and has No space.. just thinking of YOU is all that I would do.. My Chest Hurts.. because I need You.. My Chest keeps on hurting me.. Must be that My Heart is mad at Me.. always knocking telling me to Stop thinking of YOU.. But I will say to My Own Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to stop thinking of YOU.. but How.. Am I just losing my Mind and Heart at the same time.. what am I suppose to Do when YOU truly amaze me.. and Just in awe with YOUR BEAUTY.. I feel like the Beast.. I transform into a Mean Tiger.. when YOU seems to be Far away.. and I miss YOU.. Like I would look at things Hang on the wall and I would tear it all down.. When YOU seems to be so Far.. that it is so hard to reach for YOU.. my hands.. My hands wants to Hold YOU tight.. is it wrong for me to think that of YOU.. that My hands wants to touch your face.. wants to hold around your waist line.. and bring you closer.. ALL I want to do is to Feel you Close.. but also to Hear Your Heart.. if I speak the Word I love you into your ear.. Can I hear your Heart beat back.. if just thinking of the Word I love you.. my Heart cries inside of me.. He tells me WHY do you keep on doing that to Me.. Burns inside of me because MY HEART does Love you.. and I want to hold YOU.. and Just holding you close.. Hearing your Heart.. would your Heart start beating for Me.. WILL she let me hear.. I want to hear Your Heart and Listen with my Ear your Heart Beat.. I want to know.. can YOUR heart ever love me too.. will YOUR Heart love.. I want to know.. I want to know if Your heart can love.. so that I can at least try so that One day.. I want to hear YOUR HEART BEATING for me.. I don't want to be with YOU if you don't love me.. it will hurt me even harder.. it would hurt me where I want YOU to bring a Knife and Just plunge that Knife into my Heart.. I rather want to see My Heart bleed if YOU don't love me.. that is why I want to Know.. WILL you ever Love me.. is there a chance for Your Heart.. can YOUR HEART make a ROOM.. a Space so that Love can Grow inside of YOU.. Can you please make a room.. Can you please make a Space for your Room so that I want to see if YOUR HEART can love too.. I want to know because I want to love YOU.. I want to love you where YOU BE like.. let that love come to Me.. here is a room and a Space.. bring that Heart of Love over so I can see.. I want to know.. as I am sitting Down.. I am thinking back where I was alone in the room.. thinking about all these things to say and to tell YOU.. and in that room.. I felt stuffy.. I felt like I couldn't breathe.. Why can't I breathe.. It is because in a small place with such a little space.. I needed a room to think More about you and How to love YOU.. I am wearing a Jacket.. It is freezing cold Out here.. I am looking at the logs and woods.. they are set on fire.. I am watching the Fire grow.. and I am looking at Your Picture.. Why.. I don't want to miss YOU.. If I can't take a Peek at Your Picture.. I think I will go crazy.. so I would at least look at Your Picture.. I am looking UP at the sky.. I wonder what YOU are doing right Now.. Do you know that I am thinking of YOU at this point.. of course when YOU receive it.. I still be thinking of YOU even though the time will pass of this written.. But YOU will always know My Heart because it has never changed.. I have been loving YOU.. I have now lost count.. Before it use to be fun counting the Days.. but as the time goes On.. My Love started to grow More.. so Now.. counting does Not matter.. as much as YOU Know this.. and as Much as YOU receive this.. I love you no matter how many numbers of times I counted because MY Heart always remained the same.. I would look and look at your Picture.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. WHY do I miss YOU so much.. I miss YOU that even the times I would cry.. because of feeling sorrow and being sad of being away from YOU.. without Your presence.. I feel like something is missing.. I wonder in times do I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you ever miss me.. Do you even miss me as much as I miss YOU or.. do YOU even love me at all.. I know that I love you.. How much.. I guess try to count the numbers.. from 1 to.. eventually you will too lost count because NUMBER is not the reason WHY I Love you.. I just love you because YOU are all that the Best.. I love you because YOU are the Number One.. I love you because YOU are so Smart.. I love you because YOU are so Strong and Independent.. I think more like Me HUH.. Like a Tiger.. I love me a Tiger baby Bear.. I love you because YOU are so Beautiful.. there is no words I can say to express why I love you because.. I think YOU just know why.. As I am looking at Your Picture.. I want to hold Your Hand.. and Only if YOU are able to be here with me at this Night.. and we can sit here holding hands and watch this Camp fire.. I can feel the wind blowing and the leaves would move across this Wood.. but.. YOU don't even have to say a word to Me.. as long as I know that YOUR HEART loves me.. and Just you being here.. and as your head can lean on my shoulder blade and we can just watch this Fire grow.. even though it is pretty Chilly out here.. there is a warmth in Fire and also Love.. as long as YOU know that I got Your back and that YOU know How much I love you.. and knowing that I love your Heart.. YOU should not worry much.. all I need is Your Presence.. because there are times when I am missing YOU the Most in my life.. there are times when I want Your Heart in a Glass jar to be Near YOU.. but times when I sit alone and just be thinking about YOU A LOT.. lately I have been thinking of YOU.. I don't know why.. is it because the season is started to change to be colder.. Not Sure.. But My Heart Cries.. Wakes me UP in the middle of the Night.. MY Heart Cries.. bumps his Head and I can hear My Chest Hitting.. like Me be Hitting against the wall.. and makes me wants to fall apart.. My hand hits My Chest.. telling my Heart.. WHY are you so Sad.. WHY are you waking me UP in the middle of the Night.. I want to sleep.. but My Heart.. I can hear his wailing.. WEEPING inside.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU.. because I love YOU.. WHY can't I be close TO YOU and Stops.. It hurts me because this is what has been happening lately.. and I can't sleep.. Nights when I am sitting on the bed.. Looking at the window and wondering where YOU are.. laying down.. trying to close both eyes.. I am rolling around the bed.. Holding my Pillow.. arms are squeezing.. WHY I MISS YOU.. can you please tell me WHY.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. STOP Crying.. I want to just cry a loud for YOU.. I want to hold YOU close and just cry on your Shoulder because I love you so Much.. can't help this Pain inside.. is it just too much.. and As I am sitting and looking at the Camp Fire.. I have me the Bottle next to Me.. I also brought the Shot Glass.. Such a night.. very quiet at this time around.. I open the top of the Lid.. and hold the bottle.. and I pour into the Shot Glass.. I put the Bottle on the ground.. picking up the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth and pour into my mouth.. Placing the shot glass down.. I can feel my Chest be burning.. Bitter and sour taste but I want to lose YOU off my Mind.. but I just can't.. what is wrong with my Mind.. if I can be a mindless person.. Don't need to feel this kind of pain.. as I grab your Picture.. and I look at YOU.. Only if YOU are able to talk through this Picture.. I wonder How I would feel.. if YOU are able to receive and hear the words speaking directly to YOU through this Picture.. I wonder what kind of respond I would get.. Would you still be quiet.. Would you say something back through this Picture.. if YOU are able to hear me out from this Picture I have picked Out and would you say something back.. SO I would know that YOU are hearing all of my words and are not being wasted on the ground.. and I would be able to tell you much more of what My Heart wants to say.. as I look at Your Picture.. I see YOU be smiling.. I love when YOU smile.. It shocks me.. Like waves entering into my Heart.. YOU look the most Prettiest..
Helpless.. WHY is Your Heart keep on crying.. tell the Heart to stop crying because I am not the one who did anything.. I did not Kidnap this Heart.. I only asked and it was my Friend who brought the Heart to me.. If I have done something wrong.. Please forgive me and if YOU need this Heart to stay with YOU.. then I will give you Your Heart back because she Belongs to YOU.. Please.. Open the Door.. My hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. as I stand by the door.. I turn around.. I see the Stars out.. I see the Moon.. and it looks so nice out here.. because I am not here alone.. As I look Up.. at least I know that YOU are on the Other side.. just a door a way from Me.. and I look at the Moon.. Do you know how many nights I came out here.. I would be by my house.. I would look UP.. looking at the same stars and Looking at the Moon.. I felt so Alone.. because YOU were so far.. YOU were miles and miles away from Me.. and Only thing that was in my mind and Heart.. I would miss YOU.. I would put my hand on my Chest and I would look at the stars.. Look at the Moon and would say.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU so Bad that my Heart starts to cry from the Inside.. I can hear HIM crying.. I miss YOU.. I want to see YOU.. but I miss YOU.. and I would be so sad looking up at the Moon.. But on this very night.. it feels so Different because I am here.. Looking at you from the Big Window.. I put my hand on my chest.. I did not hear My Heart be crying.. I was smiling looking at YOU.. of course I saw the Heart.. YOUR HEART be crying but Not Mine.. looking at YOU close up made me realize.. How far I was from my House.. I was miles and miles away.. but on this very night.. looking at YOU close UP.. and Now I am standing by the Door.. I am so close TO YOU.. I have turned away from the Door.. I am looking at this Moon.. I see the stars.. but this very night.. I feel like I can truly enjoy looking at this Moon.. WILL you please Open the door.. would you like to join me looking at the Moon.. we can look at the Moon together.. this TIME I will not miss YOU but I will say to YOU.. I love you.. YOU are the only Joy.. the One who brings everything to Me.. I call YOU my Darling my Love.. Please.. Open the door.. we can both see the stars and the Moon together.. Join me.. and show me that this Heart belongs to YOU so that I can say to this Heart.. I love YOU.. I missed YOU but I still love You.. because I really Do love YOU.. I have been waiting for Your Heart.. But the next thing is.. How can I love Your Heart.. what Am I suppose to do.. I can't touch Your Heart.. of course I would like too.. only if there is a way for my hands to get inside.. I want to grab and Hold your heart with both Hands.. and I will draw Your Heart closer to my Lips.. and I will ask.. How do I love YOU.. will you help me to find the answers.. I see that from Point A to B took awhile.. here is the Point C.. But.. How am I suppose to Love YOU.. is it your Heart.. I know that this Giant Teddy Bear can't help me either.. I want to Love YOU.. I want to love you where it only be Me who can love YOU.. that NO ONE Else can come close to YOU.. but Only my Love can remain inside of Your Heart.. I want to know.. I want to love YOU.. can I love YOU.. will you let me to Love YOU.. I want to love Your Heart.. tell me How.. Please show me How I can love Your Heart.. will you let me know because I really really needs to love YOU.. really loves YOU because I love YOU.. YOU.. Crazy thinking.. It drives me very crazy because I want Your Love.. I want to receive Your Love too.. I want that Heart so that I can receive your Love.. so Please let me have that Heart.. I want to HOLD YOUR HEART.. I want to love Your Heart because I too want Your Love.. Give me.. Give me that Heart because That Heart is not YOURS anymore.. that Heart is Mine.. Belongs to Me.. so Please come back.. Let me have That Heart.. why are you being so Difficult.. Why are you being so Hard on Me.. WHY do you make so hard on me to Love You.. do YOU not want my Love.. I begin to wave the Teddy Bear around.. My Hand Hits the Glass Wall.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your heart.. SHE IS NOT YOURS anymore.. Give it to me.. I want it.. I want it.. I want that heart.. GIVE ME YOUR HEART.. My hand Hits the Glass wall.. and I walk over to the Door.. hand rolls and Hits.. DOK DOK DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want You Back.. Please.. I am asking YOU if you can open the Door.. I hear something.. and the Door Opens.. OH WOW WOW.. and I would step back.. DID not even expect this either.. I am looking at your hands.. HUH.. where is Your Heart.. Can I have your Heart.. I want It.. Please.. give me Your Heart.. Can I speak to Your Heart and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and I am frozen by your Beauty.. but.. YOU are so Beautiful.. More beautiful than ever.. in Person you are so much prettier pretty pretty.. I see your hands.. and I know.. YES.. I came here to give YOU this Teddy Bear.. and I lifted and your hands grab the Bear.. the Door closed.. HUH.. How about the Heart.. WAIT.. How about Your Heart.. I did not just come to give.. But also.. I want Your Heart.. why did you close the Door and Not give me YOUR HEART and I would walk to see the Glass wall.. CHAM.. I see the Heart in the Glass Jar.. crying and crying.. the Bear is next to the Heart but YOU are gone.. CHAM.. LOOK what you have done to Me.. why do you do this to Me.. I never can have YOU.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to love me.. Love Me.. Please Love me too.. I begin to JUMP UP and DOWN.. LOVE me.. I need Love as Much as YOU do.. so Please love me and I stop jumping.. Love me.. so I can Love YOU GOOD.. I just can't believe that Your Heart is here.. In the Room.. Now I can breathe.. Now I can feel like I can live again.. but I can only see myself tossing and turning.. I just needs to sleep to get my rest on but WHY.. I sit on the Bed.. just looking at the Desk.. It must be those pictures.. I can't get YOU off my Mind.. My Heart is crying.. telling my head.. Wake UP.. don't sleep.. and even In my Mind.. my eyes be closed.. I see YOU.. YOU are haunting me even in my rest.. I want to sleep.. I sit UP and lay back down.. tossing and turning.. my Arms.. these arms wants to hold YOU.. Hold YOU close and say.. YOU are Mine.. are YOU truly Mine.. will YOU be Mine forever.. can I please tell YOU that I love YOU and are YOU sure you want to spend the rest of YOUR life with me.. because I know I am happy loving YOU.. Even with the far distance apart.. WHEN I don't see your Presence.. even you can be so Far away.. I can still love YOU even though YOU are far.. I wonder then what would happen if YOU are close by.. and my arms are able to reach and touch and Hold YOU close.. Would you let me cry on your Shoulders.. Because I have loved you since my eyes laid on you.. the first time.. the Next time and the last time.. YOU are the only One.. I would try to get YOU off my mind.. sitting on the Bed did nothing at all.. because my eyes would look at the desk.. wanting to see Your Pictures again.. my arms stretch toward the desk.. I want to see YOU.. will you be alright If I am able to see Your Pictures.. I don't want you to think that I am a creep because I am not.. I just want to love YOU.. that is all that is in me and my Heart.. I just want to love YOU.. is that okay.. alright for YOU.. because I am not a stalker or a Creep.. but a man who loves YOU.. a MAN who only wants your heart.. as my arms stretching and reaching for the Desk.. I told myself I just can't and lay back on the bed.. my eyes would close.. But I see YOU still.. your Eyes.. your Lips.. your Nose.. and Your smile.. but my arms wants to hold YOU.. it hurts that I just can't hold YOU.. I want to hold you and tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. but I love YOU.. I see your smile.. flashes of YOUR smile.. and my
I am sitting Down.. Holding the Glass Jar.. My tears starts to run down.. DRIP DRIP DRIP DRIP.. hits and goes inside the Glass Jar.. My tears are telling me that I am missing YOU.. that I love YOU and I only want YOU.. I need you and I want Your Heart.. WHY did you have to leave.. bring such and the Door Opens.. The doctor looks at the Empty Glass jar.. and sees My tear drops.. I am aching Inside.. I just can't take it anymore.. and I am hurting right Now.. I want to be with Her.. and you can see that I am sick.. dying inside.. Can you please give me some Pills.. maybe these Pills can help me to calm me down.. feels like a storm inside of me.. waves crashes into my Own Heart.. The Doctor walks closer and stops.. I am so sorry that I am showing this side of me.. I have been loving her for a Long Time.. I have been waiting and waiting but I hear no answers.. I do not hear any words but is it just me.. am I going crazy.. am I going nuts.. I am wondering what is wrong with me.. WHAT IS wrong with my Heart.. why is my Heart Acting up like this.. I came here to get me a treatment.. so that I can heal from this pain.. pain of loving for a Long time.. HOW long.. How Long do I must Love.. How long do I must wait.. Tell me doctor.. How long does it last for Love to Stop.. Can YOU do something.. can you help my Heart to stop the beatings inside of me.. as long as My heart keeps on beating.. I know I be still loving her.. I love YOU my Love.. I love You.. I want her to know.. even through all this time.. I don't give up that easily.. I just don't give up.. I won't give up because I want her heart.. But doctor.. DO you see this Glass Jar.. Look through this Glass.. I don't see a Heart.. I came here so that I can put Her heart inside.. so that I can take this Glass jar home.. so that I can start loving Her Heart.. can you show me where I can get Her Heart.. Help me to put her Heart inside her.. Even if she is Not with me.. but her Heart.. at least that I know that she will come close.. so Doctor.. Help me to find her Heart.. Help me to find her heart.. where are YOU My Love.. Where are YOU.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your heart.. so there is a step closer for you to come near me.. the Doctor sits next to Me.. and I look down the Glass Jar.. I see a heart.. Now I am very very confused.. I am wondering whose heart is this.. is this Your Heart.. I am holding.. and there is a heart.. I turn to look at the doctor.. Whose heart is this.. Is this Your Heart.. or is it my Heart.. I don't want to hold My Heart.. I want to hold Your Heart.. but whose heart is this.. tell Me.. is this Your Heart.. I lift UP the Glass jar.. Whose Heart are YOU.. did YOU come from me or is it YOU.. I turn to look at the doctor.. I just can't believe.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. Is it really YOU.. tell me that this is a Dream comes True.. can I tell YOU this.. I love YOU.. How can YOU be a doctor.. OH YEAH.. I am the One with the problem.. the Problem is that I want Your heart.. SO did you come to tell me that YOU are giving me Your heart.. then whose Heart am I holding right Now.. I want your heart.. I need Your Heart.. I love your Heart.. I look at Your.. who is sitting next to me.. If this is my Heart inside this Glass Jar.. will YOU take it with YOU.. can we switch.. Can YOU Give me your heart.. I want YOU.. but I want Your Heart too.. I want everything about YOU.. I want YOU as whole.. as the One who I love.. I want to tell YOU that YOU are the best has happened to me.. why did you take so long to show Up now.. WHY did you not come closer before.. why couldn't I tell YOU these words of Mine from the heart.. that I love YOU.. why did YOU take so Long.. I been through a lot just to wait for YOU to get to me now.. I been waiting.. I have been waiting over and over.. Been waiting time and time again for this day.. WHY am I holding this Glass Jar with a heart.. YOU did not answer my question.. WHOSE Heart is this.. Whose heart.. Am I holding My Heart.. there is NO need for me to be doing that.. I am sick and tired of holding my heart.. Please give me Your heart.. Give me your heart.. SO that I can take Your Heart with me and I can love Your heart.. I will speak to your heart.. I will even sing To your heart.. I will kiss.. and keep on kissing your heart and tell Your Heart.. I love You.. I love YOU.. I love you.. I will never stop loving YOU but keep on loving YOU.. even you can get sick and tired of me telling your heart.. I love you.. but I will say I love you over and over again.. I look.. two hands holds the Glass Jar.. and I see YOU holding the glass jar with the heart.. my tears starts to fall down from my eyes.. Is this real.. are you holding My Heart.. are you accepting my heart.. are you receiving my Love.. can I keep on loving YOU and tell YOU how Much I love you.. will YOU not get tired of me keep telling YOU that I love you.. but I do truly love YOU.. as I look.. YOU grab a Glass jar.. Inside is a heart.. has Bow on the top.. and YOU put it into my lap.. and my arms wrap around it.. I can't breathe.. I can't even speak.. leaving me speechless.. are you sure you want to do this.. are you really giving me this Heart.. is this Your Heart.. am I holding Your heart.. tell me that this is real and that this is true.. I look down.. I smile.. and I say.. I love YOU.. looking down.. I look at your heart.. I say.. I love YOU.. I love your heart.. so beautiful.. can I touch Your heart.. How about the Bow on top.. can I touch Your heart.. can I feel how Your heart Feels.. why do I love Your Heart.. why do YOU keep On making me to Love Your heart.. so beautiful.. WHY are you so beautiful.. so beautiful that Word get clutter from my lips.. I am wondering if this is Only an Imagination.. is it only me who is dreaming or wishing because I want this dreams.. this wish to come true.. I want Your Heart.. it can have a tiny bow too.. be so cute and lovely but no matter what.. I will Love Your heart.. keep On loving YOUR HEART whatever you put.. as long as it is YOUR HEART.. I will love YOU.. I will love your heart and will never stop but keep on loving you.. I see you.. the Doctor get UP.. holding the glass jar and walking off.. Opens the Door and disappears.. I am sitting down.. my two eyes looks down.. next to me is the basket with full Flowers.. the Sun Flowers.. I am looking down.. the Glass jar is empty.. I see NO heart.. I just want You here.. All I want is Your Heart.. give me Your heart because I want it.. I am walking.. And I stop.. Start to walk again.. Holding a basket.. Walking and I stop.. One hand is A Flower.. Looking at the Flower.. My Lip slides to smile.. I put the Flower into the basket.. Other hand is holding.. I look and I am thinking Of YOU.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. Now with many flowers inside the Basket.. I am looking at the Dozen of Flowers in the Basket.. I want to give you this basket.. Full of Flowers.. It is Me Sunflowers.. I want to see YOU smile.. I want to tell YOU.. when I look at these Flowers.. Picking them in the Field.. One by One as I pick up to put into the basket.. It is because I want to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and that I am so Sorry for Loving YOU.. WHY am I so Sorry.. Before the Sun Flowers get to YOU.. WHO knows where I would Be.. I want to tell YOU.. without YOU.. I feel my heart falling apart.. I feel like I cannot go without YOU.. I need YOU.. I want you.. But I want YOU to Love Me.. When WILL you love Me.. Will you ever Love Me.. I am wondering.. Pondering as I stop.. Looking down.. I see a Sun Flower.. I look at the Sun Flower looking at me.. and I whisper.. TELL Her.. Tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and I be missing YOU just too much.. As I would walk with the basket in my hands.. and I stop.. There is a Window Glass in front of me.. and I look.. at the distance I see YOU.. My heart.. WILL you stop Pounding Hard inside.. WILL you please Stop Beating.. Will you Stop.. I put one hand in my Chest.. WHAT is going inside of me Chest.. I feel my Heart.. it would Not stop beating.. it keeps ON beating.. I ask.. MY hand taps lightly to Stop.. But my eyes keeps ON looking at you from the distance.. I am losing my breathe.. I can't stop looking.. My eyes would not Stop.. It hurts inside so much.. I am aching in my Heart.. WHY am I hurting so Bad.. WHY can't my Heart just stop.. I try to control myself.. But my Heart just keeps On beating.. YOU take My Breathe Away.. YOU take My Breathe away.. I can't breathe.. I want my Heart to Stop beating.. Because it just hurts looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. I wish that I can have YOU because.. YOU be looking so Good.. If I can't have you.. I rather want My Heart to stop Beating.. at least I do not need to breathe.. If I lose my breathe.. then there is NO life in me.. No more suffering in this pain.. this pain attack of wanting YOU so Bad.. wanting to Love YOU.. I want my heart to crack.. to Stop.. TO stop beating.. to stop moving so that I do not have to suffer loving YOU for too long.
Heart.. that is the Most important to Me.. I want to listen to Your Heart.. every beat.. I want to say.. I love YOU.. another Beat.. I miss YOU and Another beat.. I love YOU.. a Beat.. WILL you love me too.. I be asking YOU.. WILL you let me love YOU.. then Please.. Open Your Heart.. and Let me In.. Please Open Your Heart for me.. let me peek into Your Heart.. so that I can speak to Your Heart.. How much my Heart loves YOU.. Open your Heart so that I can say my Name.. let Your Heart remember the One who Loves YOU.. the One who will say His Name and say.. this is My Name.. can I tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I love you by my Name.. so that YOUR HEART will remember the Person of the name who loves you the Most.. as I get UP.. I would walk down the Beach.. just thinking about YOU.. and heading back Home.. Now IN the ROOM.. I am Holding the Giant Head of this Teddy Bear.. LOOKING at my Heart showing me The Tears.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to show YOU My Heart How much it Hurts to Love YOU.. HOW MUCH IT HURTS to miss YOU over and over again.. WHEN can I be close to YOU.. when Can I show you my Heart.. WHEN WILL you Open Your Heart to me so that I can show YOU and tell YOU.. I want to tell YOUR HEART.. I never stopped loving YOU.. my arms would squeeze the Giant Head of the Teddy Bear.. as I feel the tears in my eyes.. and I can feel the tear drops coming down.. holding.. I want it to Be YOU.. holding it tight.. I want it to be YOU.. why do you have to be so far.. making me to cry for missing YOU.. I would turn to look at the Window.. I can see rain falling down hitting on the window glass.. If I was still Out on the Beach.. that Rain would of got me soaked and wet.. could not go home.. but I came before the Storm.. but I am missing YOU Right Now.. I am missing YOU crazy right Now.. where are YOU.. Come Home to Me.. Come Home to me where I am waiting for YOU.. I am missing you because I love YOU.. I need YOU.. I need you right Now.. I need YOU so that I can love YOU and Not miss YOU.. Please Come Home.. this is the place YOU belong.. with me.. with My Arms holding YOU and I tell Your Heart.. I missed YOU but I love YOU.. YOU are my everything.. YOU are My forever Love.. YOU are my Love.. my darling.. I love you.. I am by the Door.. My hand knocks on the DOK DOK DOK DOK. Will you please Open this Door.. I know that YOU are inside this House.. my hand Knocks.. DOK DOK DOk DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want to see YOU.. I have your Heart in this Square Box.. I am wondering if YOU can take a Look at this Heart.. see if this Heart belongs to YOU.. and I would walk over to the Big Window.. and I see you standing there.. Only YOU can open this Door.. because I came here just to see YOU.. I have been knocking.. DO you not hear me Knocking on this Door.. I want to ask YOU something.. A friend of Mine gave me the Address and It has taken me to this Location.. I am sure the Number on the Door is correct because I have the Piece of paper.. He wrote me the Address and it has taken me to this House.. to Your Door.. Why can't YOU Open the Door.. My friend told me.. this is the same House.. the same Door.. he says a Beautiful Lady has given him the Square Glass Box and It has a Heart inside.. I have been waiting for this Heart.. But I am here because I am wondering.. Can YOU Please tell me if I am the right Person.. is it I who you are giving this Square Glass Box.. I don't want to be the Wrong person.. if I am the Right person.. I am knocking on that Door.. but why don't you answer it.. why don't you open the Door.. please come OUT and examine to see if this Heart belongs to YOU.. I want to know.. can you please tell me.. I am not begging YOU.. but just asking YOU.. This Heart did not Move at first.. when the Heart saw Me.. She started to Cry.. I got scared and I jumped back because this Heart started to cry.. I don't want to see a Beautiful Heart cry.. I feel so bad because I am wondering.. WHAT HAVE I done that was wrong.. I have not said a Word to this Heart.. I only wanted to Share my Heart and tell Your Heart.. this Heart.. I love YOU.. is it the wrong words I have chosen to say.. But.. It is My Heart wishes to say TO THIS HEART.. YOUR HEART.. I love you.. what have I done.. did I say something wrong.. is it really wrong for me to say the three little Words that I love YOU.. then WHY can't I love YOU.. explain to me please.. WHY can't I love your Heart.. why can't I say those words to this Heart.. I am not trying to be Mean.. I only wanted to express my Heart.. what I truly feel inside.. I was looking at your Picture.. as I was looking.. I felt something down deep within me.. and the Words just came Out.. and yes.. as I was looking at your Picture.. I was also looking at the Square Glass Box.. and my Words.. looking at your Picture.. it just came Out from me.. but how is this so Bad.. what am I saying to make this Heart to cry.. I don't want to see this Heart crying.. I feel like I have done something Wrong.. something terrible and I would just stand there.. can't really say a word.. I mean leaving me speech Less.. Here is a Heart.. inside the Square Glass Box.. The Heart crying inside.. I wanted to pull This Heart out and say.. don't be scared.. don't be shy.. And I showed this Heart.. I turn where the Picture of YOU is facing.. The Heart looks at the Picture.. it is YOU.. I am not showing some other lady's face.. But it is picture of YOU.. and I was pointing.. telling the Heart.. I love YOU.. and to this Picture.. WHY CRY.. YOU are going to make My Heart cry with YOU.. why are you showing me Tears.. if I have done something wrong.. Please tell me so that I won't make the same mistake.. if I have done something wrong.. Please tell me that What I said is False because it is Not.. only words that can COME out of my Heart looking at Your Picture is the word I love You.. what am I suppose to do if I do love YOU.. if I want Your Heart.. tell me what Am I suppose to do.. that I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to hold YOU CLOSE.. and Only way that can happen is when a man loves your Heart.. WHY CAN'T I love you.. is there a good reason I can't because I will.. I will keep on loving YOU.. as long as I can.. I will.. and I am looking at the Big Window.. YOU are still there.. just standing there.. I am not sure.. but I needs to ask YOU.. Please Open the Door.. I am not going to come into your House.. BUT I have brought this Heart.. Your Heart with me.. Please.. tell me that It belongs to YOU so that I can go.. before I go.. Please Open the door and tell me that It is right.. as I am looking at the Big Window.. YOU are so Beautiful.. can I bring a Camera.. I want to take a Picture of YOU.. because YOU look much more prettier in person.. maybe the Picture I have is an old one.. But Now.. I need a new Picture.. and yes.. can I bring a Camera next time.. so that I can take a picture of YOU close up.. I can love you more.. YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Tell me why are YOU so Beautiful.. I just want to ask YOU.. WHO are you looking good for.. WHO are you trying to look beautiful For.. but I am by the Door.. Please Open the Door.. I do not have much time because it is getting late.. I can see the SUN is going down.. as I am seeing the stars and the Moon appear.. Please.. Open the door for me.. and I turn and I walk away from the Big Window and I am standing by the Door.. my hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Can you hear the Door knocking.. it is me by your door who is knocking.. Can YOU Please open the Door.. I want to show YOU the heart.. Your Heart is still crying.. I think only YOU can make this Heart to stop crying.. My hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want to see YOU.. and the crying Heart wants to see you too.. My hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. and I would wait by the Door.. I can hear the Foot steps walking and Stops by the Door.. my hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. is that YOU.. I heard the foot steps walking and just stopping.. I know that it is YOU.. I know that YOU are standing by the same door I am standing.. it is YOU who can Open this Door for me.. Please Open the Door so that I can see Your Beautiful Face and also to show you the Crying Heart.. I feel so bad.. because
All I want is to give you love.. and wants YOU to know How much I want this love and How much Love I can give.. Please don't go.. and come to me.. That my Eyes tells me.. I want to cry.. The most beautiful Flower.. the Most beautiful I ever seen.. The most beautiful that there will be no one who is as Beautiful as Your Are.. And Now.. I want to see YOU again.. I am still looking at the door.. Please come back.. Holding UP the Empty Glass jar.. can you not see that I have prepared this for You.. I have been waiting.. It use to be a flower Jar.. a Flower use to grow in this Glass Jar.. a Sun Flower.. I put a soil and the seed.. water day and night.. put it out in the sun.. and suddenly it became a Flower.. a Sun Flower because I would be thinking of YOU.. I wanted to grow it for myself to see if it can really happen.. so that When it becomes a full bloom Sun Flower.. I can take it to YOU and tell YOU.. It started out as a seed.. wanted to see it to be a SUN FLOWER.. I wanted to give it to YOU.. the Hard work of years of putting.. and just to show YOU.. you will be the first to take a Look and I wanted to give it as a present to show YOU.. I cared and loved as it is YOU.. I loved my Sun Flower just as much as I love you and wanted to tell YOU.. I love you like this Flower.. But.. YOU have broken my heart.. my heart shattered because I could not see YOU.. For a long time I have been waiting for YOU to come Out.. as I would be waiting by this Door.. the Door never opened.. My Heart started to cry and asked me.. How Long.. How Long Must I be weeping for YOU.. How long must the wait be.. Sitting on this holding the Glass Jar with the Sun Flower.. I would be knocking at the door to give you the first.. I saw seasons come and seasons go.. I would be sitting at the same spot.. And I looked at the Sun Flower.. I asked.. maybe YOU don't love me.. Maybe You will never come Out.. never come UP.. One night.. I started to see the light rain falling from the sky.. Holding the Glass jar with the Sun flower.. I started to cry.. my tears ran down.. and I asked.. I wanted your Love.. I only wanted to see Your Face.. and All I wanted to give you is my Love through this Sun Flower.. as I sat down.. the light rain started to pour down hard.. I would be mourning Loud as the thunder roared and I looked at the Sun Flower.. I am so sorry that YOU don't love me.. I am so sorry for YOU to be waiting like this with me.. and looking at the Sun Flower I saw it crying too.. No one likes to be rejected and Hurt.. No one wants to feel this pain aching.. ALL I wanted is Your to Love me back.. ALL I wanted is for YOU TO at least notice me.. and I yelled Out loud.. and Screamed from my Lungs to the Sun Flower.. I am so Sorry.. I am so Sorry to make you feel this way.. I am so sorry.. My hand grab the stem of the Sun Flower.. I pulled it Out and I started to cry More.. as the Rain flood down on me.. I threw the Sun Flower on the ground.. My hand touch my Chest.. I saw YOU raised UP.. I saw YOU from the seed and Saw you grow up.. My hand hit the chest.. few times.. And I looked Up the sky.. and Screamed OUT Loud of More.. Only thing I wanted is YOU to know how much I love YOU.. I wanted to show you My Heart that this is the way I love you.. to give you a Sun Flower who came from birth and like a SON to me.. I wanted to give you This Flower.. I saw few boys running through the rain.. started to step on the Sun Flower.. and I did not see that Sun Flower any more.. I am looking at this Empty Glass jar.. I just can't believe.. Only if I could of waited few more days.. Only If I had the patient.. I could at least show you this Flower.. ME Sun Flower.. I came back with this Glass jar.. Now Empty and Without the Sun Flower.. But I have a Basket Full of Flowers.. they are the Sun Flowers but I picked them from the field.. I turn to look at the door.. Such a memory of Pain in my heart.. I just could not believe the door finally opened.. DID NOT expect to see YOU.. My heart was robbed.. WHEN YOU came out.. My heart came from sleeping.. and started to Beat On my Chest.. a Heart beat.. Running through my Body.. through my Chest. My Heart started to beat again.. started to beat faster when I saw the door opened and saw YOU stood.. I remember pinching myself to see if it hurts.. am I dreaming.. am I seeing a vision.. What was happening inside my Chest.. WHY was my Heart beating faster and faster.. as you stood There.. I felt the tears of Joy.. Waiting and waiting.. Going to the same spot to sit on this bench.. the same spot for a long time.. just waiting for YOU to open that door.. I saw you walking.. I wanted to drop my Empty Glass jar.. A jump in my heart.. leaping out of nowhere.. and There you were.. the Most beautiful Flower.. the Greatest but the Most Prettiest my eyes ever saw.. I just couldn't breathe.. I felt something got stuck.. When you sat next to me.. I wanted to just fall and faint right in front of you.. I looked at the Empty Glass Jar.. my Heart grew so sad.. If I just waited few more days.. I could given you the SON.. the Sun Flower who came from the seed.. from the birth and could told you.. I have kept this Flower for a long time.. and wanted to give to the right person.. This Sun Flower belongs to YOU because it was all just for YOU.. and wanted to tell YOU by giving this Glass Jar.. I love you.. I was thinking of YOU as I planted.. I was thinking of YOU as I put bowl of waters into the soil.. I was thinking of you as I walked this Out in the front.. watching the SUN and the heat.. I saw the peek of its head.. I saw the stem.. and after few months.. I saw the Sun Flower raised UP.. I was truly thinking of YOU because I was touched by Love.. I wanted to give you this as My Love.. and Only wanted You to notice How much I love you.. AS you sat next to me.. I wanted to cry because It was an Empty Glass jar.. I had dreams and visions of giving as a present.. giving you as my Heart.. whole heart was put into it.. I saw you so Beautiful.. Like this Sun Flower.. as beautiful as You are.. I am sitting and I turn to Look out the Window.. I see drops falling down.. And I can hear the waters hitting the glass of the window.. I turn to Look at the Picture on the corner of the side.. It is you.. You are so Beautiful.. So beautiful why I keep on looking at your picture.. I do not want to see the picture because of the Memories of You.. I can hear the raindrops hitting and hitting.. I wish that YOU were right Here next to me.. I am not asking for anything else.. But just your presence.. even if the room can be in silence.. as Long as it is You.. I be okay.. I be alright.. I can look at your face.. Your eyes and even your Smile.. even for the whole through the Night.. You do not even have to say a word to me because.. You know my Heart.. YOU know How I feel In my Heart.. YOU know what is in my thoughts.. my mind and even the feelings of My Heart.. I turn to look at the corner..
Oink Oink.. I am sitting down by the shores.. Looking at the Waters coming In.. On a big rock.. I am sitting and just thinking about You.. I am looking at two Empty Bottles.. for some reason.. I started to drink.. the More I think of YOU.. the More I miss YOU.. on this Night.. why do I feel the aching in my Heart.. I wish that I did Not look at your Picture.. I received a Letter from YOU.. and YOU are telling me YOU are going some where so far.. and telling me that It is going to take YOU a while and after hearing these words after I read the Letter you wrote me.. I just could Not take it any more.. I could Not stay inside the House.. so Leaving the House.. and so I wrote YOU a Letter back.. But.. I am wondering at this Point.. what am I suppose to do with the Letter that is In my Hand.. if I am unable to reach YOU.. YOU have Not tell me where YOU are going.. and how long will it take for YOU to come back.. I would look at your Picture.. and looking at the Letter.. I am feeling so much hurt right Now.. it is because I am missing YOU so Much.. All I ever asked for is Your Heart.. I would ask if I can Have your Heart.. is it just too much of asking YOU for It.. because I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. without Your Heart.. there is Nothing that I can do.. then please tell Me.. How do I win YOU over.. How am I suppose to make YOU mine.. what is the secret so that I can take action.. and also tell YOU because I am Not sure what to do at this Point.. So I have decided to come to the Place.. this Rock has been here ever since I first came.. I would sit on the Top of this Rock.. when I want to see you the Most.. I brought with me a Shot Glass.. of course I did not bring YOU picture with me this time.. because I know if I do.. I would be taking a Look.. which it can make my eyes pop out whenever I see Your Picture.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. why can't you see through.. why can't you understand me.. or relate with me what I am going through right Now.. I have bought three bottles of Rice wine.. so far.. I have finished two Bottles.. I am taking a Look at the third.. the last One.. I don't feel drunk at All.. but I need to wash away what is in my Mind.. what is inside my Head.. I am trying to wash YOU away.. trying to forget.. or to erase YOU off but the More I try.. the More I just can't.. so Please Help me for once.. Help me How to win YOU over.. I am still trying over and over.. but I am asking YOU now.. if you know the answers.. if you know the secrets of How to Make YOU Mine.. I feel like I am dying inside right Now.. I feel like I am ready to die instead because I want to have Your Heart.. if only YOU can show me Your Heart and I be able to hold Your Heart in my arms.. and to able to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me tell YOU something.. will you let me speak to Your Heart.. because that is the Only One thing I want.. what I truly need.. to have your Heart and to tell Your Heart.. I have a Heart too.. and My Heart just loves YOU.. How can I transfer this Message to reach Out to YOU.. How can I tell you that I love YOU.. YOU are so far away.. there is this distance between Us.. and I would like to get close to YOU.. How can I get close to YOU.. to your Heart.. Please tell me and let me Know.. as I am looking at the last Bottle.. my hand grabs.. twist the TOP and open it.. holding the Glass shot in the Other hand.. the One with the Bottle.. my hand pours into the Shot Glass.. what if I get sick.. so sick that I rather die instead.. I feel so sick in my stomach because I need to see YOU.. I need to hold YOU Near in my hands.. in my arms and I would say to YOU.. will you please show me Your Heart.. How can I see your Heart.. Please.. let me see your Heart and Please hear these words of Mine.. that I been here.. always waiting for YOU.. just to Love YOU.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. that is why I need your Heart.. I need to know so that I can tell YOU.. but when YOU tell me that YOU are going to take a Long time and YOU are leaving going somewhere very far.. How can I tell YOU.. that is why I been asking YOU.. at least Leave Your Heart with Me.. let your Heart be close to me so that I will not feel like I can't do nothing.. as I am looking at the Shot Glass in my Hand.. I would open my Mouth wide and slam the Shot Glass with rice wine into my mouth.. since I did Not bring your Picture with me.. Now I am dying to see YOU.. I am starting to miss YOU because all I see is the waters coming IN and going Out.. I just can't stop.. but why can't I stop.. I would tell myself to stop.. but How can I stop.. it is because I love YOU.. How can YOU stop someone who loves YOU so much.. that is why I need to hear words from YOU.. If you can tell me to stop Loving YOU.. I know that I can finally rest in Peace.. but.. I still be missing YOU.. still be looking at your Picture and just wondering.. what If something can happen.. How would it be Like if YOU were here with Me.. and I be able to hold YOU in my arms.. and tell YOU.. looking at Your Heart.. even though the Time flies and many weeks and months has passed By.. I still Love YOU.. and If you are asking me.. why do I love YOU so Much.. how is it possible to love YOU this Much.. and if you are asking me and wondering on the Other side.. I would look at the One I am holding the Bottle of rice wine.. Looking at the Other hand holding the Shot Glass.. I would be pouring the Bottle of the rice wine Into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. I would be looking at the waters.. I open my mouth wide and pour.. slam the rice wine into my Mouth with the Shot Glass.. and I would close both eyes.. Just thinking about YOU.. I be thinking of YOU.. as I am going back.. I am standing inside the House.. and I hear the Knock On the door.. and I know that YOU are coming over.. after receiving the Message.. the text Message from YOU.. I open the front door.. and I see YOU standing there.. I receive the Letter YOU gave me.. and I wanted to ask if YOU wanted to come inside.. but.. YOU tell me that YOU needs to go.. and I watch YOU turn the other way and YOU start to walk.. where I stop seeing YOU.. as I close the Door.. I would unfold the Letter.. and a Picture falls Out from the folded Paper.. as I go down.. and I pick Up the Picture.. I look at You.. and YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are so Beautiful.. especially in that White Dress.. But this is Not just an ordinary Dress.. It seems like something is going to happen soon.. It looks like a Wedding Dress to me.. and On the Letter YOU are telling me that YOU are going to get married.. and YOU have invited me to come to see YOU at your Wedding.. I am wondering.. with who are you getting Married too.. because I don't want to receive this from YOU.. why are you telling me to come if I am Not the One who is going to stand next to YOU to make YOU my wife.. If I am invited for the wrong reason.. I do not want to come.. I don't want to watch YOU leave my Life and go with another.. It should be Me who should stand next to YOU.. the One who can put the ring on your Finger.. But why did YOU write me this kind of letter.. It really hurts Me if YOU are telling me to sit and watch the One you love to be taken away from Me.. and I just can't believe you are telling me this.. so I would rip the Letter into pieces.. I just can't take this from YOU.. I don't want to receive this from YOU because YOU are Only hurting me More.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of News.. why hurt me when YOU know my true intentions.. My true Motives.. I know that if I stand next to YOU through Thin and through Thick.. through the good times and the Bad times.. I know that after a certain time.. YOU can Love Me.. why can't YOU give me a chance to proof that I can love YOU more.. and YOU will know.. you will see that YOU too can Love me back too.. YOU just don't know until you give me a chance.. give me a shot too so that YOU be loved.. I can love you more.. and Over and over again.. YOU will know how much I love YOU and can feel that love comes from me to YOU.. but telling me this and breaking my Heart.. and tearing it away is Not going to be good for YOU.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. NO matter How much YOU hurt me.. How much YOU tear down my Heart into pieces.. I can still Love YOU.. I will even love YOU more.. and more stronger with time.. but YOU have to give me that chance.. why can't you give me this shot.. I know that YOU will love me.. I know that I will love YOU but the most importantly.. YOU be loving me back too.. YOU are wondering How do I know for sure this can happen.. Because I love you first.. and ever since I told YOU that I love YOU.. I am still here loving YOU more.. that is the prove that I can share and show YOU that It is real.. My Heart is real
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bow.. I am pulling the strings of the Bow.. wondering if I can shoot this arrow correctly.. How can I protect YOU.. How can I defend YOU and fight the Battles.. the UP coming Battles if I cannot shoot these arrows correctly.. as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would put the Bow down after pulling the strings.. My hands grabs the Art sketch paper.. and I would LOOK at You.. LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. MAH MAH.. and I would Lower.. both on knees.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would LOOK across.. the Board.. the Target that is ON the Middle of the Tree.. I have been trying.. trying to shoot these arrows.. I would pull on the strings of this Bow.. that is LAYING on the Ground.. I been in this forest.. inside the forest are these trees.. which I would come at Night.. and I would look at the Target.. I would pull on the strings of this One Bow.. and my Father made this Bow for Me.. He has made the arrows.. and would give it to me.. and I would grab these Arrows and walk for few Miles.. It becomes Dark when I arrive to this Forest.. Having your Picture.. the Art sketch paper with me always.. On my Side.. On my Chest.. I think of YOU.. and I would say.. One Day I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I will see you One Day.. I will meet YOU some Day.. just wait and see.. and I would always Unfold this Art Sketch Paper.. and I would look at YOU.. the Drawing of YOU and I would say.. WHY does my Heart hurt so Bad.. is it because I am missing YOU right Now.. and I would put the arrows on the ground.. and My Father would tell me.. first I needs to warm It UP.. PULLING on the strings of this BOW.. and I would PULL the strings till my hands.. my arms would hurt.. I would keep on pulling and Pulling it many times before I would shoot the arrows.. I remember I pulled it too many times that the Bow.. the strings would break the Bow into halves.. and I would sit.. standing in silence wondering what do I do Next.. I would always think of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I want to protect YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. to defend Your nation.. But LOOK at How small and weak I am at this Point.. I can't even shoot these arrows right and say to YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. I want to protect YOU.. the Horses are going to look at me and laugh at me for saying this to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. DO you not know how much My Heart be hurting because I can't do anything right.. so Only thing I know that I must do is shoot these arrows.. as far and right into the Middle of the Target.. after I would pull.. my Father would walk by.. watching me cry as I am looking at the Broken Bow laying on the ground.. He shows me there is Another One.. smiles and looks at me and hands me another New Bow.. I would look at the new Bow.. Pulling on the strings.. as I would think of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be thinking of YOU late into the Night.. I lift UP to see the MOON appear before my eyes.. grabbing the arrow on the ground.. I would say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. this is for YOU.. so that when the Enemies comes at your gate and I am ready.. I will be on the front Line ready to shoot the arrows for YOU.. even though I may die in the land I love.. it is for YOU.. and I would put the end of the arrow and PULLS the strings back.. I would aim.. and my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. I see the Arrow flies Out and It hits.. I just can't believe It.. I would look at the arrow.. and I would cry because It hit the Middle.. it has taken me more than one hundred arrows of shooting.. many flies to the left or to the right.. some would not even shoot so far.. I would be yelling and screaming because I can't shoot right.. and I would fall on the ground of many hours I would put into trying shooting the arrows.. but this One Night.. even though I would say.. it is going to go to the Left.. or to the right.. But before I picked UP the Bow of strings and the arrow.. I do remember I would unfold the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU and I would look at YOU.. I would say to the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing of You.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO you know that I am doing this for YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. It is only for YOU.. I have truly Nothing to Lose.. but just my Life if living means that it has any worth.. But YOU know that as Long as I have life to Live.. I want to fight and to protect YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. by protecting and defending the Nation you are ready to Build.. and I would look at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and My lips kisses the paper.. and I would say looking at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I love YOU.. I have been loving you since the day my eyes first saw YOU.. and still can't let YOU go because I still love YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please help me.. and I would put the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU and I put on the ground picking up the Bow.. and I would be pulling the strings of the Bow.. and I would look for the arrow on the ground.. grabbing the One.. I would put the end of the arrow.. and Pulls back with the strings of the Bow.. and I would be aiming the arrow.. looking at the Target.. and I would pull back harder and Let my hand go of the strings of the Bow.. watching the arrow shoot out and flies.. it hit.. finally at the Middle of the Target.. I stood there.. my hands are bleeding.. my arms are hurting.. but looking at the Arrow finally hitting right into the Middle of the target hanging on the trees.. I fell on two knees.. started to cry.. wailing louder and louder.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Only if YOU were here.. Only if YOU be able to watch what My eyes are seeing at this Point.. I think you would of at least gave me a smile.. Crown Princess.. If YOU are truly on my side.. at least please give me Your Smile.. and I just can't believe what my eyes are seeing.. I would grab another arrow on the ground.. the end of the arrow.. pulling the strings of the Bow back.. aiming the arrow at the target on the middle.. PULL harder and My Hand lets go and the Arrow shoots out and flies and hits right in the middle again next to the first arrow.. I would hear a clap behind me.. and My Father was watching from the distance.. and I turn around to look at the shadows and His figure disappears into the Night.. I stood there.. and I knew that my father saw everything.. I would look at the ground.. with the seven friends Behind Me.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. it is the drawing of YOU.. the same Art sketch Paper I had when I was at the forest.. when I was YOUNG.. when I was practicing shooting the arrows.. and I see YOU sitting on the Horse.. and I see you getting Out of the Horse.. the Servants who came with YOU.. came at your side to help YOU down.. and I would unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as YOU walk with the few servants behind YOU.. and YOU stop.. I am on two knees.. My hands unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. and I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. YOU stood before Me.. and my eyes are filled in tears.. without this.. I know that I could Not go on.. without this Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. How can I dream of anything.. YOU gave me a meaning.. a reason to dream Big.. without this Paper.. the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How can I come this Far.. YOU gave me a meaning a reason to live and to go On.. without this.. I would of Never though of coming to Your Presence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't need this Art Sketch paper any more because Now I am beside YOU.. I am close to YOU.. I am right by your side.. what am I going to do with the paper.. when I see YOU as the Person.. as the Crown Princess for the Nation.. I don't need this and I was ready to ripe the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. YOU held your hand high and I stop.. and I see you wanted to take a LOOK at it.. as your hands grabs the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. YOU see the scars in my hands from the strings.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. as I show you both hands because YOU wanted to look at my hands.. these are the scars of pulling the strings.. trying to shoot the arrows.. trying to hit the Middle of the target when I was young.. when My father was with me.. He was the One who saw all these things before he passed away.. but He told me
MAH MAH.. Sketch paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. the Picture.. the Only One I had for a long time.. I Just could Not go.. but Now.. I can let that Art Sketch paper go.. go with YOU because it belongs to YOU.. as I see you LOOK at it and YOU LOOK at me.. and YOU gave it back to Me.. I am confused.. I am Now here with YOU.. I see YOU.. the WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. But.. I see you held Your right Hand High.. letting me know.. THAT IS IT.. and I see you turn and walk away.. going back to the Horse.. Now.. I hear horses foot steps coming.. and I turn to LOOK the Other way.. where the ten Men are sitting on their Horses.. who was shooting their Arrows UP far.. I see Six Horses.. and I see the Six Princes and they have their Armor On too.. as I look toward the Gate.. I see the Gate being Opened.. and I knew.. It is TIME.. and I would Shout.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven Men behind Me shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout LOUDER MORE.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and all of the Military Men shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would see you get ON your Horse and YOU raise UP your Right hand and I say NO.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. NO.. and the Gates would Open WIDE.. and I would get UP.. two legs.. NO CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. PLEASE.. consider.. reconsider.. I see YOU hit the Horse and it starts to take Off towards the Open Gate.. NO.. MAH MAH.. NO.. MAH MAH.. and I pull out the sword.. and I would look at the Open gates and I would run after YOU..CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider.. I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out there.. I have been waiting for this Battle.. for a Long time.. I been practicing for so long because I knew that one day this day was to come.. I promised YOU that I wanted to always protect YOU.. when I was young.. just before YOU came riding on the Horse.. I was sitting here.. I thought about when I was YOUNG boy.. I sat on the Horse and I saw YOU on the practice training ground.. Of course YOU did not see me.. but I came with my Father.. the Day when YOU grabbed the two Arrows.. YOU took my Breathe away Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU.. Three Chief Generals.. and two Commanders stood behind YOU.. my Father told me the reason why took me on this day.. the Crown Princess was to pick two Arrows and going to start shooting to hit the Target Board.. I wanted me to see the Heart of the Crown Princess for the Nation.. and I remember Your Teacher.. the Chief General by the Target.. with the white Flag.. and I saw you grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU
I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest
MAH MAH.. Eyes and see How much I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you ever Know.. I want it to be known.. will you know It.. I would fold the Art Sketch Paper into Half and Put it on the Ground.. and I would say.. I love YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I would grab the Bow in my Hands.. if the Only thing I can do is protect.. If the Only thing I can do is Shoot these arrows off the Bow with Arrows.. if the Only thing is holding a sword and use to fight Off the Enemies which comes across the Lines.. if this is the Only Way.. the Only will I can help and to Protect YOU.. I know as long as It comes from my Heart.. maybe you will see my Heart.. My Love of being next to YOU and close to YOU.. Just be standing in a distance and to love YOU.. I will offer as it is.. my tears would fall from both eyes.. But I love YOU.. Do you not know.. can't you feel this Heart of Mine which I have never stopped Loving YOU.. as tear drops hit the ground.. I grab the Arrow.. putting the end of the Arrow of the String and pulling it back.. I wish that I can give More.. or I can do More for YOU.. but I am limited right Now.. that is why My Heart breaks so easily.. I want to give YOU so much More.. give YOU more and more of my Love.. but.. there is NOT much I can do to show YOU what I can do.. I am aiming the Arrows.. hand pulling back the String and hand lets go the string and the arrow shoots.. but it goes far off.. Missing the target.. It Breaks.. It hits and I hit my own Chest.. I missed the Target.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly and I would stand there.. MOON comes UP into the Night.. and I am crying.. balling with tears and weeping.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly.. and I would say.. I want to protect YOU.. I want to protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. my arms are so weak to pull back the strings of this Bow.. and It just can't go far.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking UP at the MOON.. How am I suppose to protect YOU.. I want to protect to show YOU that this is all I can do because I love YOU.. but I can't even shoot and aim the arrows.. I have tried five arrows.. but ALL of them I missed.. my arms are in pain right Now.. just killing me deep within Me.. I have to get this One Right.. and I would pull out another Arrow.. now My arms.. I can feel of too much pulling far.. It aches Now.. but I have promised and Made a promised to YOU.. that right Now.. I may be very weak.. can't give YOU anything.. can't do anything right.. can't even pick UP the wooden stick.. can't even grab the arrow and shoot.. PULLING the strings of the Bow.. can't even pull far.. but I have made a Promise.. that promise is to accomplish this so that I can go to YOU and that I get to meet YOU soon.. as a Warrior.. I want to show YOU that I be Your Man.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am always coming out to this WOOD.. full of trees.. and I would stand at the same Spot.. grabbing the Bow.. pulling the strings.. and grabbing More arrows to shoot and trying to Hit the Target.. My Father is always there.. and He sees Me as he stands Behind.. giving a space and distance watching Me.. before I would start to Use the Bow.. I would always unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. I would stare at your Picture.. Into the Night I would LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. I would first thing about the TIME.. I would smile and say.. I want to be there soon.. I would like to join YOU soon.. I am Not sure when that TIME would be but I know that TIME will come SOON.. I wish that It can be Now.. I wish I can go to YOU NOW.. but.. I know that right NOW there is Nothing I can do.. Nothing I can give to YOU.. I feel useless and I feel so Little and so Weak.. I don't want to show UP when YOU see me at my Lowest.. but when I become a real MAN for YOU who can say.. I can Love you Now.. I can use and be helpful to YOU.. to support Your Kingdom.. your Nation and to be part of Your Team so that YOU can launch Out to go further.. I want to see YOU at the Highest Level.. at the Best stage of Your Life.. at your Strongest.. and I would look at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. as I would take a Look.. my hand touch my Chest.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. do YOU know that I am touching my Chest.. where I can feel my Heart beating inside when I think of YOU.. when I call your Name.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I will ask the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. can YOU hear my voice.. Can YOU hear me Now.. I am looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU and I am asking YOU.. DO you hear my voice.. can YOU hear my Words because right NOW I am speaking.. but I know that I can't hear YOU.. NO Matter How many times I say and call Out your Name.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU.. or DO YOU HEAR me Now.. I wish that YOU can tell me that YOU do and YOU can hear me.. but ALL I hear on this side is silent.. But I want to hear YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to hear YOU say something back to Me.. when there are NO words of exchange or I don't hear anything.. I feel so Sad.. like YOU are ignoring me for some reason even though YOU are Not.. and I would be looking at the Picture drawing of YOU.. I would hear the foot steps and My Father stops next to Me.. He has his Bow.. and He would always stop by to show Me How to shoot.. PULLING back the strings of the Bow.. grabbing the Arrow.. the End of the arrow and PULLS back the strings of the Bow.. ARROW aims.. and HE lets go of the strings of the Bow.. I stand next to HIM.. the Arrow hits the Target and hits on the spot.. BULLS EYE and shows me the Mistakes I am making.. and I grab the Bow.. my arms are so weak.. and it is hurting because of too much pulling back of the strings of the Bow.. But I must over come and endure this suffering and this Pain.. to let my Arms be strong.. and I would be thinking of Your Picture.. I would be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. My Heart.. I know that I must.. so that I can go to YOU.. I must win.. I must conqueror the Pain.. I must because this is WHY I am here to Love YOU over and Over again.. it is because I love YOU.. as I am Kneeling.. on two knees.. behind me are the Seven Friends and they are all on the two knees.. arms forward and head looking on the ground.. YOU are on the Horse.. and the Horse raises up two legs.. but I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Hear my Words.. Please.. hear the Plea that is coming Out of my voice.. I just can't see YOU out on the Battlefield.. YOU know that I would rather choose to DIE if I see you Out there.. Please consider and reconsider.. I can't let YOU go out there.. I just can not see the One who I love.. going on the battle and putting death first.. I am asking YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider and think about the future of Your Kingdom.. I do not want any one to see YOU fighting.. I am Not going Out to that Battle if YOU go Out there.. YOU are telling me that to put a SWORD INTO MY CHEST first before I use the sword to fight against Your enemies.. who is going to let their Ruler.. their leader to go OUT when YOU have many men behind Your Back.. You have plenty of soldiers and warriors.. chief Generals and Commanders who are willing to fight ON your behalf.. WHY do you break My Heart and Our Hearts.. Please consider and reconsider.. and ALL the Voices of Men would raise and say.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and do Your Nation the favor.. and ALL the MEN ON two knees.. Heads looks ground.. arms forward.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider for YOUR MIGHTY MEN OF WAR..I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the
MAH MAH.. Hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young Boy too.. but when YOU first stopped and saw me at the garden.. I fall on two knees before YOU and told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that One day I will love YOU and One DAY I will come just to be by your side to protect YOU.. at least you could of told me about this war that is going to break.. there was NO reason for YOU to hide this from Me.. why would you hide this.. what would of happened if I did Not come to YOU.. few days ago.. there was something heavy in my Heart.. it was few days of riding this Horse.. Me and the seven friends.. if I just stayed by the ocean of waters.. I would of Not known this.. I would of missed Out this great war.. if YOU told me this sooner.. I would not even go to the Ocean waters but been practicing and training to prepare for this War.. I come with the seven friends and Now I am hearing about this News that I never knew in the first place.. if I did not come.. I know that YOU have great fighters and great warriors.. they have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me to wait.. but.. I know that it is time.. I needs to GO and handle some business here.. I look at the closest friend and I tell HIM.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. be with you.. and.. I see the Other Six Men.. they all get on the back of the Horses and holding the swords in their hands.. I am looking toward the Fortress and my Heart.. it is Hurting me More.. when I am thinking about this More and More.. my Heart keeps on hurting.. why didn't WANGSEJABI MAH MAH did Not tell me anything about this situation.. I know I may not be much.. but I know that I will fight for YOU.. I will do anything for YOU.. even I know that I can die for YOU.. I am sure I can bring some enemies die with this Sword.. but why is My Heart keeps on hurting me.. this is NO JOKE because this is a War.. and I would turn to look back.. and I am looking at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. DO you not know how much I love YOU.. and I am grabbing the strings of the Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there
언냐 진짜 넘 이뻐서 ,, 영상 정주행중이야 ,, 앞으로도 쭉 이쁜 날만 있길 응원할게요 ⚘♥️
와 드디어 메이크업 영상ㅠㅠ!! 사진 볼때마다 항상 궁금했어요 너무 예뻐서ㅠ❤️🤍❤️ 화장 전,후 상관없이 너무 예뻐요!ㅠㅠㅠ😍😭
우아아아 다음엔 제대로 겟레디윗미 찍어볼게용😋💕
연수 공쥬님 ㅠㅠㅠ 이 영상 왤캐 예뻐요.... 이날 진짜 너무 리즈... 물론 매일매일이 리즈시지만•• 이영상 너모너모 예뻐서 매일 봐요••🖤
오잉??? 그런가용???ㅎㅎ 예전영상까지 사랑해주고 예뻐해주는 당시능!!! 진정한 옥슈슈🥰🌽💚
혜미 언니 립 뭔지 궁금해요 ! 연수님이 주신 틴트바르기 전에 뭐 바르셧는지 너무 궁금해요 !! ㅠㅠ
언니 너무 이뻐요ㅠㅠ 큐앤에이 영상도 찍어주세요ㅠㅠ
10만 기념때 하려고 아껴놓고 있어요 그때 질문 많이 해주세요😌💜
내가 사랑하는 연수언니의 겟레디윗미🖤
언니 이때 너무 귀여운 거 아니에요..? 앞머리 지금도 귀여운데
이때는 뭔가 더 큐트해보여요...>
혜미언니랑 언니 채널 하나 더 파세요ㅠㅠ 케미 장난아니야~!!
이날 너무 예뻐서 계속 돌려보고 있어요 ,,💛 반묶음에 리본 찰떡 ,,, 앞에서 봤을 때 보이고 약간 기울어진 모습이라 너무 러블리해요💖 핀 하는 방법이랑 뒷모습도 궁금한데 헤어 악세서리 소개랑 스타일링 영상 보고 싶어요🙋♀️💙
자기 전에 언니 영상들 다시 보는거 너무 재미써요,,♥
너무 고마와요 옥수수❤️따랑해요
벌써 4만명을 향해 달려가고 있어요😆
언니 진짜 열씨미 응원하고 있어요❤️
제 구독자수에 관심 가져주셔서 너무 고마워요❤️
이거 정말이지 제 마약영상이에요 ., ♡ 열번도 넘게 본 것 같아요 기분좋아지는영상 성격도 미모도 주변사람들도 다 ,, , 🤍
그냥 너무 이쁘다 𐂃 밖에 안나와요❤️외모도 열일이네 ,,,샤넬 목걸이 넘 이뻐요 ㅠㅠ 매장에서 사신건가용?ˀ?ˀ 모델이 이뻐서 더 이뻐 보이는건가,,𐨛 𐨛 언니 큐엔에이도 넘 보고 싶어용 !! 샌언니 큐엔에이 보는데 넘 재밌어서 언니것도 안나왔지만 기대돼요❤️
재리재리님 매번 좋은 댓글 달아주셔서 너무 고마워요>_
입으신 가디건 어디껀지 궁금해요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ넘예
영상 마지막에 헤이미라구 나와요
딩동댕동 헤이미 꺼예요:)☺️
연수님.. 이영상너무너무예뻐요 ...ㅠㅠㅠ 연수님 얼굴 감상핟다고 18분이 그냥 지나가버렸어요....너무예뻐
에이..설마요❤️고마워요 해피설날>ㅁ
언니,,, 앞머리...미쳐써여!!!! 새은언니 영상에서도 언니 넘 이뻐서 깜짝 놀랐는데 겟레디윗미라뇨,,, 자꾸 예뻐지셔,,,❤
우아아아아!!!!!! 안녕하새은 수수연수 많이 사랑해주세요💖
ㄹㅇ 공쥬들 흐엉 ㅠㅜ
수수연수님이 유별하게 혜이미님 조아하고 따르는게 영상으로도 보이는 느낌이에영~~
넘 조은 친목👍😍
고마워요🤍헤헿 데헿!!!!!!좋은 하루 되세용!!
리본 핀 정보 궁금해용 넘 예뿌세요😳🥺🥺
언니 영상 정주행 하고 있었는데 4분전!!!!!!ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅜㅠㅠ너무 예뻐요😍😍영상 잘 보고 있고 너무 재미써요🤤
공주님들의 모임 체고에여😭😭😭😭😭
고마워요!💖
언니ㅠㅠ 혹시 렌즈는 안끼신건가요? ?
끼신거묜 어떤 제품인지 알려주실 수 있나요?ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
렌즈 티 안나는걸로 착용했고 렌즈컨텐츠 들어가시면 확인하실 수 있어요😊
진짜 세상 이쁘시당.. 영상에서 낀 렌즈 궁그매여!!!!!!!💗
렌즈 컨텐츠에 다 나와있어용,,🥺🙏🏻
완죠니 청순여신,, 언니 사라해요 오늘두 잘 볼게요>
나두 사랑해용 뿅
평소에도 바닐라코 좋아하는 브랜드였는데 이번에 나온 신상들이 너무 예쁘네요!!! 예쁘고 좋은 제품 알려주셔서 감사합니다~~
진짜 언니들 너무 공주 아니냐구여..
헤헤 고마워요~~~~유우님도 공주님😊
헤이미 언니 너무 예쁘다😍😍😍😍
울언니 예쁘죠?😋
@@seoyeonsu 네 너무 예쁘다.😍😍
ㅠㅠ진짜 우정뽀에버하세요 예뻐요ㅠㅠ진짜너무너무
네 저희 우정 뽀에보할께요 고마워요💜
샤넬 목걸이 정보좀 듀세여 💜
몇년전에 도쿄 샤넬 빈티지샵에서 구매했어요:)☺️
와 이영상 보고 구독하고갑니다! 너무 이쁘세요☺️
와 반묶음 진짜 공주님같아용 존예세요🥰🥰
꺄아 고마워여,,❤️잘자요
샤넬 목걸이 정보 알수있을까욤!!?
언니♥ 피부관리 어떻게 하세요 블랙헤드 관리두요
메이크업 자연스럽게예뻐서 넘궁금했어요❣
진짜 이영상 레전드다...세상 예쁘다...언니 뭐먹으면 그렇게 예뻐요..?
엥..? 이 날 얼굴 못생겨서 넘 힘들었어요 진짜ㅜㅜ
좋은 말 고마워요💖
아니 언니 무슨일이야 왜 요즘 더 예뻐졌어??? 뭘한거야 진짜 아니 너무예쁘다 공주다 진짜
렌즈 뭐쓰세요???
이번 영상두 잘 봤숩니다🖤🖤
언니이~혹시목걸이정보줄수있어요~?🤍
몇년전에 도쿄 샤넬 빈티지매장에서 구매했어용😌
와.....연수님은 진짜 제가 본 메이크업 하시는 분들 중에 제일 이뻐요 ❤️❤️❤️💖💖
떡볶이 맛있게따........... 연뚜는 공쥬내 공쥬💕🥰
언니 늘 내 유투브 봐줘서 너무 고마워💖
정말 감동이야
You should get english subtitles. You have english fans too
연수님 옆모습에서 배우 이민정님 느낌 나용!!! 진짜 예쁘신거 같네요💗
에이..과찬이십니다 너무 고마워요😊💕
언니 리본 핀 구매처 궁금해용
아이 뭐야 하이틴 여주같잖아 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
미니겟레디윗미 좋아요!!!!
우와 하이틴여주라니💜 고마워요 좋아해줘서
렌즈정보궁금해요 ㅠㅠ
나의 핸드폰 기뻐하고 있다ㅋㅋㅋ
화면이 좋기 때문에🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
ㅋㅋㅋ고맙습니다🙂🙏🏻
이 영상에 낀 렌즈 이름 모에용?
떡볶이 어디 건지 궁금해요오 ㅜ. ㅜ
떡볶이...배떡에서 로제떡볶이요🤫
항상 이쁜 연수님
아름다운 아가씨 🥺❤️🇧🇷
아 언니너무 예뻐요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
아이구 너무 감사합니다아😝💖
언니 얼굴이 나라에요 킹갓 너무 사랑해오ㅜ
와우 킹갓 요즘 말인가요..🤫💜
@@seoyeonsu 이런 누추한 곳에 답글을 남겨주시다니요ㅜㅜㅜ 언니 항상 코로나 조심하시구 사랑합니다🤍
드디어 💖💖
03:54 이건 못참지!~
안녕하세요 영상 잘보고갑니다~ 메이크업 정말 이쁘게 잘하세요~
앞머리 내린것도 예뻐요~
엉상에는 유료광고포함이라는 표기가 없네요~~
바닐라코 모델이신줄은 몰랐어요!!
너무 이쁘시네요~~~~^^
안녕하세요. 영상 5분마다도 유료광고 포함이라고 다 표기했구요.유투브내에서도 공지했구요.
걱정하시는 일은 없을 것같습니다:)
맨 처음 16초부터 유료광고포함이라고 정확하게 표시 되어있어요:)
다시 한번 확인해주세요 감사합니다🙏🏻
저는이 샤넬을 놓친 적이없고,이 채널이 정말 좋아요😍
So pretty 😍😍
미니 ㅋㅋㅋ겟레디윗미 넘 귀여워요
영상에 나오는 떡볶이 아시는분~~~~~
언닝 떡볶이 어디꺼에여ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
배떡이요!
이쁘당~ 잘보고갑니당
언니ㅠㅠ머리하는법 알려주세여ㅠㅠ
머리삔 꽂는거용?🙂
고데기인가요 펌인가여??
seni çok seviyorum 🌸💫
앞머리있는게 진짜 졸예쁘다
나는 알제리에서 왔고 당신을 많이 사랑합니다♥️♥️
Thank you for ur love☺️
종종 혜미언ㄴㅣ랑 같이 나오는 컨텐츠 해주세요~~위드Hyemi?
배우 진세연님닮았다 이뻐요!
바닐라코는 보는눈이 있어....
헤헿....정말 감사합니다💜🥺💜
かわいいし美人でいいなあ！！🥰
I love you🖤🖇
구독자 4만명❤️
옥수수 누구예요!!!!! 아이디가 옥수수라니 사랑해요❤️
이태임 이랑 너무 닮으셨어요,,우와,,
립 존예
개이뿌덩
짱고마워요☺️🤍☺️
Love ur videos from 🇬🇧 ❤️ wish there was subtitles 😭
팔레트2개ㆍ틴트ㆍ치크ㆍ로제팩트2
지름신♡♧♡♧♡♧♡♧♡♧♡
조어오오오오오오오온예
고오오오오오마우어요 진짜아아아🥺💜
I love you
umarım birgün nasip olurda koreye gelirim
かわいい😍
I love you❤️
Thank u for ur love!!💕
아니 이때도 미모 열 일 했네 연수누나는,,
かわいい！きれい！だいすき！😭🥺🤍
태리님이랑 말투가 똑같네요,, 친한 사람들끼리 비슷해지는건가
Hello Susu :) I'm Hadid from LA
Substitle indonesia pleasee
Hii I am in India 💜
可愛いい
삔정보알려주세요ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅡ리본핀
L love you you are cute
차오루 닮았어요
Please add sub Arabic 💜🥰
日本語字幕つけて欲しいです💖🙏
온니 팔자관리어케하세여어
팔자 관리 저도 하고싶어요 알려주세요ㅜㅜ
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Oink Oink.. All I ever want is YOU to be near me.. close to Me so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to Know How your Heart feels.. I want to know.. and Hear the sounding.. I want to hear the beating of Your.. I am sitting on this Cliff.. with these Flowers.. These flowers so not belong to me.. but it belongs to someone else.. it belongs To you.. Holding UP.. I am looking at Your Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Like these SUN FLOWERS in the basket.. YOU are so beautiful.. and YOU are so Lovely.. but what More can I do.. I feel so useless and worthless because all I can do is tell YOU.. I love YOU.. but that is the only thing I can say to YOU.. I grab the Bottle in my hand.. Open my Mouth wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. And put the Bottle down.. When will this be Over.. when will I stop missing YOU.. I want to be bold.. I want to have courage to say.. and to tell YOU.. how much I love YOU.. I want to hold YOUR hand.. Hold it tight and Kiss Your Lip in the moon light.. and I want to wrap my arms around YOU and letting YOU get close.. I want to hear your heart beat pounding and beating for me.. just the way YOU are able to feel and hear mine.. I want to hold your hand.. letting you know that Once I grab hold on.. I will never let YOU go.. I will let YOU know that YOU will always be Mine and that I be yours.. and jump over the Moon.. But I am sitting here.. Looking at your picture.. wiping my tears because only thing that I feel is missing YOU.. I miss YOU.. If I am unable to do then please tell me.. HOW DO I win Your Heart.. How can I win your Love.. if my way is Not working for me.. then YOU needs to let me know.. then WHAT AM I suppose to DO.. How do I make YOU MINE.. I want to know the answers.. But you are not telling me anything.. then.. AM I wrong for trying.. AM I doing it all wrong.. because I want to know.. I want to Win your heart.. so that I can love YOU.. Open your heart for me.. open it so that I can Love you.. I am not asking YOU to love me.. But I want to love YOU.. because it is killing me inside not knowing.. IF what I am doing is all wrong or if this is the right way.. I love you.. and Only thing that MY Heart feels is that to LOVE YOU.. I want to love you.. the show me How.. the way so I can keep on loving YOU more.. I am looking at the Bottle.. I grab it.. Open me mouth Wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. and place the bottle down.. I can't help it.. but to Love YOU.. I can't help it but to tell YOU I love you.. I can't help it even though I tell My heart to stop.. HE does not want to listen to me.. I tell MY heart to stop.. Stop Stop Stop.. Loving YOU.. But.. my hand grabs the picture.. I take a Look.. I can feel my heart burns.. and it feels so painful.. I ache inside because.. I just want to Love You.. How is it that One peek at the picture.. it burns and Hurts MY heart.. my Heart screams inside.. telling me.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I lose my mind.. can't control my emotions.. My heart says it is ON fire for YOU.. to Love YOU more.. Wait.. But to Love you more and more.. I hit.. My hands hit the chest to tell MY Heart to stop.. He screams.. Screams OUT loud.. and I am sitting here Weeping.. Sobbing because I want to love YOU more.. I just want to love YOU.. but you won't let me to Love me.. tell me how so that I can keep on loving you more and more.. I want to tell YOU.. I love you.. I do not want to stop loving YOU.. because Loving YOU means the Everything to Me.. because YOU are My everything.. My hand grabs the Bottle.. I need YOU.. I need YOU and I want YOU.. Only to tell YOU I love you.. I want you.. because I want to tell YOU I love you.. is it wrong to tell YOU that I love you.. is it wrong for me to keep on loving YOU like this. I Open my Mouth wide.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. Put the bottle Down.. Looking at the Moon.. WILL you tell her.. Can you tell her.. I have a basket.. DO you not see that on the side.. there is a Basket.. it has a Dozen of Flowers.. Sun Flowers.. I want to ask YOU.. CAN you tell her for me.. because I am unable to go to her right now.. at least YOU can tell her for me that I want to give her this Basket.. if YOU tell her for me.. maybe the Glass window will open.. OR.. She is.. YOU are able to come to the Window Glass.. so that I can show YOU.. tell YOU and give you this basket.. I am here on the Other side.. I just can't walk through the Window Glass.. it has a Lock.. but MOON.. if you can tell her.. She may hear YOU.. and WILL know that I be waiting by the Window Glass.. I can show her if she Comes closer.. Since I can say Anything.. She.. YOU WILL know I be waiting on the other side to give you something.. The Sun Flowers.. Each One wants to tell YOU and whisper to your Ears.. I love YOU.. I love you.. I love you.. I can't stop but to say to YOUR I love you.. I love you so much that I be waiting here.. Just come closer so that I can look at you.. I want to see you smile because I love you.. I hold your Picture in the Other hand.. I look at your Picture.. YOU are so beautiful.. YOU take my breathe away.. leaving me truly Breathless.. YOU are so Beautiful that even though I am drinking.. I just can't get drunk.. Only drunk for You because I love you.. YOU are the Most Beautiful Flower in the world and I want to say.. I love you... I miss YOU.. Bo Guh Ship Po YO.. I feel the aching Of My Heart.. the Other hand.. I am holding a Picture.. Looking at Your eyes.. YOU are so So Beautiful.. I wish that YOU can be here.. Sitting next to Me so that I can tell YOU How Beautiful YOU really Are.. I look Up the Sky.. Like the Stars.. LOOKS so Bright and Shines.. Even More Beautiful than the Stars shining in the sky.. Even the Stars would whisper to one another.. WHO is She.. IS she One of Us.. let us Tell her to COME and Join Us.. together we can really Shine.. and Spark through the Night.. I grab the Second Bottle.. and Pours INTO my Mouth... CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG... I really Really Miss YOU.. I can truly feel It in my heart.. What is wrong with me.. What is wrong With My Heart.. Am I bleeding Inside.. IS my Heart so Bad.. SO aching that NOW it starts to Bleed deep within Me.. Looking at the Picture.. I want to Cry... I want to cry because I miss YOU... I miss Your smiles.. I miss YOUR eyes.. I am sure.. YOU be more Beautiful than this Picture I am holding.. I grab me Bottle.. and Pour Into my Mouth... CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG... Placing it down.. ME hand Hits MY chest.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU so Much that Even this Bottle just can't help me at this Point.. What If I start to get sick.. If I get ill that I am going to die... My hands are shaking.. I want to hold YOU... can I at least do that.. to hold you tight and tell YOU I will never Let YOU go.. and whisper in your ears.. That you are Mine.. If you know how much I miss YOU.. if you know how much I love you.. why do you have to leave me like this.. WHY Do you hurt me if YOU know I love you.. DO you not want MY Love.. I can love you.. I can always love you.. I can love you where you will find No regrets.. my eyes.. with Tears falls down.. and I start to cry..
I am sitting Down.. I can see the Trees all across me and watching the Leaves move as the wind blows across the Night.. I am looking at Your Picture.. I just wanted to come Out of my house.. In the Room.. I am always thinking of YOU.. and only wishing that YOU be here and near me.. when YOU are in a Small place.. giving YOU no room to Breathe.. and has No space.. just thinking of YOU is all that I would do.. My Chest Hurts.. because I need You.. My Chest keeps on hurting me.. Must be that My Heart is mad at Me.. always knocking telling me to Stop thinking of YOU.. But I will say to My Own Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to stop thinking of YOU.. but How.. Am I just losing my Mind and Heart at the same time.. what am I suppose to Do when YOU truly amaze me.. and Just in awe with YOUR BEAUTY.. I feel like the Beast.. I transform into a Mean Tiger.. when YOU seems to be Far away.. and I miss YOU.. Like I would look at things Hang on the wall and I would tear it all down.. When YOU seems to be so Far.. that it is so hard to reach for YOU.. my hands.. My hands wants to Hold YOU tight.. is it wrong for me to think that of YOU.. that My hands wants to touch your face.. wants to hold around your waist line.. and bring you closer.. ALL I want to do is to Feel you Close.. but also to Hear Your Heart.. if I speak the Word I love you into your ear.. Can I hear your Heart beat back.. if just thinking of the Word I love you.. my Heart cries inside of me.. He tells me WHY do you keep on doing that to Me.. Burns inside of me because MY HEART does Love you.. and I want to hold YOU.. and Just holding you close.. Hearing your Heart.. would your Heart start beating for Me.. WILL she let me hear.. I want to hear Your Heart and Listen with my Ear your Heart Beat.. I want to know.. can YOUR heart ever love me too.. will YOUR Heart love.. I want to know.. I want to know if Your heart can love.. so that I can at least try so that One day.. I want to hear YOUR HEART BEATING for me.. I don't want to be with YOU if you don't love me.. it will hurt me even harder.. it would hurt me where I want YOU to bring a Knife and Just plunge that Knife into my Heart.. I rather want to see My Heart bleed if YOU don't love me.. that is why I want to Know.. WILL you ever Love me.. is there a chance for Your Heart.. can YOUR HEART make a ROOM.. a Space so that Love can Grow inside of YOU.. Can you please make a room.. Can you please make a Space for your Room so that I want to see if YOUR HEART can love too.. I want to know because I want to love YOU.. I want to love you where YOU BE like.. let that love come to Me.. here is a room and a Space.. bring that Heart of Love over so I can see.. I want to know.. as I am sitting Down.. I am thinking back where I was alone in the room.. thinking about all these things to say and to tell YOU.. and in that room.. I felt stuffy.. I felt like I couldn't breathe.. Why can't I breathe.. It is because in a small place with such a little space.. I needed a room to think More about you and How to love YOU.. I am wearing a Jacket.. It is freezing cold Out here.. I am looking at the logs and woods.. they are set on fire.. I am watching the Fire grow.. and I am looking at Your Picture.. Why.. I don't want to miss YOU.. If I can't take a Peek at Your Picture.. I think I will go crazy.. so I would at least look at Your Picture.. I am looking UP at the sky.. I wonder what YOU are doing right Now.. Do you know that I am thinking of YOU at this point.. of course when YOU receive it.. I still be thinking of YOU even though the time will pass of this written.. But YOU will always know My Heart because it has never changed.. I have been loving YOU.. I have now lost count.. Before it use to be fun counting the Days.. but as the time goes On.. My Love started to grow More.. so Now.. counting does Not matter.. as much as YOU Know this.. and as Much as YOU receive this.. I love you no matter how many numbers of times I counted because MY Heart always remained the same.. I would look and look at your Picture.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. WHY do I miss YOU so much.. I miss YOU that even the times I would cry.. because of feeling sorrow and being sad of being away from YOU.. without Your presence.. I feel like something is missing.. I wonder in times do I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you ever miss me.. Do you even miss me as much as I miss YOU or.. do YOU even love me at all.. I know that I love you.. How much.. I guess try to count the numbers.. from 1 to.. eventually you will too lost count because NUMBER is not the reason WHY I Love you.. I just love you because YOU are all that the Best.. I love you because YOU are the Number One.. I love you because YOU are so Smart.. I love you because YOU are so Strong and Independent.. I think more like Me HUH.. Like a Tiger.. I love me a Tiger baby Bear.. I love you because YOU are so Beautiful.. there is no words I can say to express why I love you because.. I think YOU just know why.. As I am looking at Your Picture.. I want to hold Your Hand.. and Only if YOU are able to be here with me at this Night.. and we can sit here holding hands and watch this Camp fire.. I can feel the wind blowing and the leaves would move across this Wood.. but.. YOU don't even have to say a word to Me.. as long as I know that YOUR HEART loves me.. and Just you being here.. and as your head can lean on my shoulder blade and we can just watch this Fire grow.. even though it is pretty Chilly out here.. there is a warmth in Fire and also Love.. as long as YOU know that I got Your back and that YOU know How much I love you.. and knowing that I love your Heart.. YOU should not worry much.. all I need is Your Presence.. because there are times when I am missing YOU the Most in my life.. there are times when I want Your Heart in a Glass jar to be Near YOU.. but times when I sit alone and just be thinking about YOU A LOT.. lately I have been thinking of YOU.. I don't know why.. is it because the season is started to change to be colder.. Not Sure.. But My Heart Cries.. Wakes me UP in the middle of the Night.. MY Heart Cries.. bumps his Head and I can hear My Chest Hitting.. like Me be Hitting against the wall.. and makes me wants to fall apart.. My hand hits My Chest.. telling my Heart.. WHY are you so Sad.. WHY are you waking me UP in the middle of the Night.. I want to sleep.. but My Heart.. I can hear his wailing.. WEEPING inside.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU.. because I love YOU.. WHY can't I be close TO YOU and Stops.. It hurts me because this is what has been happening lately.. and I can't sleep.. Nights when I am sitting on the bed.. Looking at the window and wondering where YOU are.. laying down.. trying to close both eyes.. I am rolling around the bed.. Holding my Pillow.. arms are squeezing.. WHY I MISS YOU.. can you please tell me WHY.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. STOP Crying.. I want to just cry a loud for YOU.. I want to hold YOU close and just cry on your Shoulder because I love you so Much.. can't help this Pain inside.. is it just too much.. and As I am sitting and looking at the Camp Fire.. I have me the Bottle next to Me.. I also brought the Shot Glass.. Such a night.. very quiet at this time around.. I open the top of the Lid.. and hold the bottle.. and I pour into the Shot Glass.. I put the Bottle on the ground.. picking up the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth and pour into my mouth.. Placing the shot glass down.. I can feel my Chest be burning.. Bitter and sour taste but I want to lose YOU off my Mind.. but I just can't.. what is wrong with my Mind.. if I can be a mindless person.. Don't need to feel this kind of pain.. as I grab your Picture.. and I look at YOU.. Only if YOU are able to talk through this Picture.. I wonder How I would feel.. if YOU are able to receive and hear the words speaking directly to YOU through this Picture.. I wonder what kind of respond I would get.. Would you still be quiet.. Would you say something back through this Picture.. if YOU are able to hear me out from this Picture I have picked Out and would you say something back.. SO I would know that YOU are hearing all of my words and are not being wasted on the ground.. and I would be able to tell you much more of what My Heart wants to say.. as I look at Your Picture.. I see YOU be smiling.. I love when YOU smile.. It shocks me.. Like waves entering into my Heart.. YOU look the most Prettiest..
Helpless.. WHY is Your Heart keep on crying.. tell the Heart to stop crying because I am not the one who did anything.. I did not Kidnap this Heart.. I only asked and it was my Friend who brought the Heart to me.. If I have done something wrong.. Please forgive me and if YOU need this Heart to stay with YOU.. then I will give you Your Heart back because she Belongs to YOU.. Please.. Open the Door.. My hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. as I stand by the door.. I turn around.. I see the Stars out.. I see the Moon.. and it looks so nice out here.. because I am not here alone.. As I look Up.. at least I know that YOU are on the Other side.. just a door a way from Me.. and I look at the Moon.. Do you know how many nights I came out here.. I would be by my house.. I would look UP.. looking at the same stars and Looking at the Moon.. I felt so Alone.. because YOU were so far.. YOU were miles and miles away from Me.. and Only thing that was in my mind and Heart.. I would miss YOU.. I would put my hand on my Chest and I would look at the stars.. Look at the Moon and would say.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU so Bad that my Heart starts to cry from the Inside.. I can hear HIM crying.. I miss YOU.. I want to see YOU.. but I miss YOU.. and I would be so sad looking up at the Moon.. But on this very night.. it feels so Different because I am here.. Looking at you from the Big Window.. I put my hand on my chest.. I did not hear My Heart be crying.. I was smiling looking at YOU.. of course I saw the Heart.. YOUR HEART be crying but Not Mine.. looking at YOU close up made me realize.. How far I was from my House.. I was miles and miles away.. but on this very night.. looking at YOU close UP.. and Now I am standing by the Door.. I am so close TO YOU.. I have turned away from the Door.. I am looking at this Moon.. I see the stars.. but this very night.. I feel like I can truly enjoy looking at this Moon.. WILL you please Open the door.. would you like to join me looking at the Moon.. we can look at the Moon together.. this TIME I will not miss YOU but I will say to YOU.. I love you.. YOU are the only Joy.. the One who brings everything to Me.. I call YOU my Darling my Love.. Please.. Open the door.. we can both see the stars and the Moon together.. Join me.. and show me that this Heart belongs to YOU so that I can say to this Heart.. I love YOU.. I missed YOU but I still love You.. because I really Do love YOU.. I have been waiting for Your Heart.. But the next thing is.. How can I love Your Heart.. what Am I suppose to do.. I can't touch Your Heart.. of course I would like too.. only if there is a way for my hands to get inside.. I want to grab and Hold your heart with both Hands.. and I will draw Your Heart closer to my Lips.. and I will ask.. How do I love YOU.. will you help me to find the answers.. I see that from Point A to B took awhile.. here is the Point C.. But.. How am I suppose to Love YOU.. is it your Heart.. I know that this Giant Teddy Bear can't help me either.. I want to Love YOU.. I want to love you where it only be Me who can love YOU.. that NO ONE Else can come close to YOU.. but Only my Love can remain inside of Your Heart.. I want to know.. I want to love YOU.. can I love YOU.. will you let me to Love YOU.. I want to love Your Heart.. tell me How.. Please show me How I can love Your Heart.. will you let me know because I really really needs to love YOU.. really loves YOU because I love YOU.. YOU.. Crazy thinking.. It drives me very crazy because I want Your Love.. I want to receive Your Love too.. I want that Heart so that I can receive your Love.. so Please let me have that Heart.. I want to HOLD YOUR HEART.. I want to love Your Heart because I too want Your Love.. Give me.. Give me that Heart because That Heart is not YOURS anymore.. that Heart is Mine.. Belongs to Me.. so Please come back.. Let me have That Heart.. why are you being so Difficult.. Why are you being so Hard on Me.. WHY do you make so hard on me to Love You.. do YOU not want my Love.. I begin to wave the Teddy Bear around.. My Hand Hits the Glass Wall.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your heart.. SHE IS NOT YOURS anymore.. Give it to me.. I want it.. I want it.. I want that heart.. GIVE ME YOUR HEART.. My hand Hits the Glass wall.. and I walk over to the Door.. hand rolls and Hits.. DOK DOK DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want You Back.. Please.. I am asking YOU if you can open the Door.. I hear something.. and the Door Opens.. OH WOW WOW.. and I would step back.. DID not even expect this either.. I am looking at your hands.. HUH.. where is Your Heart.. Can I have your Heart.. I want It.. Please.. give me Your Heart.. Can I speak to Your Heart and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and I am frozen by your Beauty.. but.. YOU are so Beautiful.. More beautiful than ever.. in Person you are so much prettier pretty pretty.. I see your hands.. and I know.. YES.. I came here to give YOU this Teddy Bear.. and I lifted and your hands grab the Bear.. the Door closed.. HUH.. How about the Heart.. WAIT.. How about Your Heart.. I did not just come to give.. But also.. I want Your Heart.. why did you close the Door and Not give me YOUR HEART and I would walk to see the Glass wall.. CHAM.. I see the Heart in the Glass Jar.. crying and crying.. the Bear is next to the Heart but YOU are gone.. CHAM.. LOOK what you have done to Me.. why do you do this to Me.. I never can have YOU.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to love me.. Love Me.. Please Love me too.. I begin to JUMP UP and DOWN.. LOVE me.. I need Love as Much as YOU do.. so Please love me and I stop jumping.. Love me.. so I can Love YOU GOOD.. I just can't believe that Your Heart is here.. In the Room.. Now I can breathe.. Now I can feel like I can live again.. but I can only see myself tossing and turning.. I just needs to sleep to get my rest on but WHY.. I sit on the Bed.. just looking at the Desk.. It must be those pictures.. I can't get YOU off my Mind.. My Heart is crying.. telling my head.. Wake UP.. don't sleep.. and even In my Mind.. my eyes be closed.. I see YOU.. YOU are haunting me even in my rest.. I want to sleep.. I sit UP and lay back down.. tossing and turning.. my Arms.. these arms wants to hold YOU.. Hold YOU close and say.. YOU are Mine.. are YOU truly Mine.. will YOU be Mine forever.. can I please tell YOU that I love YOU and are YOU sure you want to spend the rest of YOUR life with me.. because I know I am happy loving YOU.. Even with the far distance apart.. WHEN I don't see your Presence.. even you can be so Far away.. I can still love YOU even though YOU are far.. I wonder then what would happen if YOU are close by.. and my arms are able to reach and touch and Hold YOU close.. Would you let me cry on your Shoulders.. Because I have loved you since my eyes laid on you.. the first time.. the Next time and the last time.. YOU are the only One.. I would try to get YOU off my mind.. sitting on the Bed did nothing at all.. because my eyes would look at the desk.. wanting to see Your Pictures again.. my arms stretch toward the desk.. I want to see YOU.. will you be alright If I am able to see Your Pictures.. I don't want you to think that I am a creep because I am not.. I just want to love YOU.. that is all that is in me and my Heart.. I just want to love YOU.. is that okay.. alright for YOU.. because I am not a stalker or a Creep.. but a man who loves YOU.. a MAN who only wants your heart.. as my arms stretching and reaching for the Desk.. I told myself I just can't and lay back on the bed.. my eyes would close.. But I see YOU still.. your Eyes.. your Lips.. your Nose.. and Your smile.. but my arms wants to hold YOU.. it hurts that I just can't hold YOU.. I want to hold you and tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. but I love YOU.. I see your smile.. flashes of YOUR smile.. and my
I am sitting Down.. Holding the Glass Jar.. My tears starts to run down.. DRIP DRIP DRIP DRIP.. hits and goes inside the Glass Jar.. My tears are telling me that I am missing YOU.. that I love YOU and I only want YOU.. I need you and I want Your Heart.. WHY did you have to leave.. bring such and the Door Opens.. The doctor looks at the Empty Glass jar.. and sees My tear drops.. I am aching Inside.. I just can't take it anymore.. and I am hurting right Now.. I want to be with Her.. and you can see that I am sick.. dying inside.. Can you please give me some Pills.. maybe these Pills can help me to calm me down.. feels like a storm inside of me.. waves crashes into my Own Heart.. The Doctor walks closer and stops.. I am so sorry that I am showing this side of me.. I have been loving her for a Long Time.. I have been waiting and waiting but I hear no answers.. I do not hear any words but is it just me.. am I going crazy.. am I going nuts.. I am wondering what is wrong with me.. WHAT IS wrong with my Heart.. why is my Heart Acting up like this.. I came here to get me a treatment.. so that I can heal from this pain.. pain of loving for a Long time.. HOW long.. How Long do I must Love.. How long do I must wait.. Tell me doctor.. How long does it last for Love to Stop.. Can YOU do something.. can you help my Heart to stop the beatings inside of me.. as long as My heart keeps on beating.. I know I be still loving her.. I love YOU my Love.. I love You.. I want her to know.. even through all this time.. I don't give up that easily.. I just don't give up.. I won't give up because I want her heart.. But doctor.. DO you see this Glass Jar.. Look through this Glass.. I don't see a Heart.. I came here so that I can put Her heart inside.. so that I can take this Glass jar home.. so that I can start loving Her Heart.. can you show me where I can get Her Heart.. Help me to put her Heart inside her.. Even if she is Not with me.. but her Heart.. at least that I know that she will come close.. so Doctor.. Help me to find her Heart.. Help me to find her heart.. where are YOU My Love.. Where are YOU.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your heart.. so there is a step closer for you to come near me.. the Doctor sits next to Me.. and I look down the Glass Jar.. I see a heart.. Now I am very very confused.. I am wondering whose heart is this.. is this Your Heart.. I am holding.. and there is a heart.. I turn to look at the doctor.. Whose heart is this.. Is this Your Heart.. or is it my Heart.. I don't want to hold My Heart.. I want to hold Your Heart.. but whose heart is this.. tell Me.. is this Your Heart.. I lift UP the Glass jar.. Whose Heart are YOU.. did YOU come from me or is it YOU.. I turn to look at the doctor.. I just can't believe.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. Is it really YOU.. tell me that this is a Dream comes True.. can I tell YOU this.. I love YOU.. How can YOU be a doctor.. OH YEAH.. I am the One with the problem.. the Problem is that I want Your heart.. SO did you come to tell me that YOU are giving me Your heart.. then whose Heart am I holding right Now.. I want your heart.. I need Your Heart.. I love your Heart.. I look at Your.. who is sitting next to me.. If this is my Heart inside this Glass Jar.. will YOU take it with YOU.. can we switch.. Can YOU Give me your heart.. I want YOU.. but I want Your Heart too.. I want everything about YOU.. I want YOU as whole.. as the One who I love.. I want to tell YOU that YOU are the best has happened to me.. why did you take so long to show Up now.. WHY did you not come closer before.. why couldn't I tell YOU these words of Mine from the heart.. that I love YOU.. why did YOU take so Long.. I been through a lot just to wait for YOU to get to me now.. I been waiting.. I have been waiting over and over.. Been waiting time and time again for this day.. WHY am I holding this Glass Jar with a heart.. YOU did not answer my question.. WHOSE Heart is this.. Whose heart.. Am I holding My Heart.. there is NO need for me to be doing that.. I am sick and tired of holding my heart.. Please give me Your heart.. Give me your heart.. SO that I can take Your Heart with me and I can love Your heart.. I will speak to your heart.. I will even sing To your heart.. I will kiss.. and keep on kissing your heart and tell Your Heart.. I love You.. I love YOU.. I love you.. I will never stop loving YOU but keep on loving YOU.. even you can get sick and tired of me telling your heart.. I love you.. but I will say I love you over and over again.. I look.. two hands holds the Glass Jar.. and I see YOU holding the glass jar with the heart.. my tears starts to fall down from my eyes.. Is this real.. are you holding My Heart.. are you accepting my heart.. are you receiving my Love.. can I keep on loving YOU and tell YOU how Much I love you.. will YOU not get tired of me keep telling YOU that I love you.. but I do truly love YOU.. as I look.. YOU grab a Glass jar.. Inside is a heart.. has Bow on the top.. and YOU put it into my lap.. and my arms wrap around it.. I can't breathe.. I can't even speak.. leaving me speechless.. are you sure you want to do this.. are you really giving me this Heart.. is this Your Heart.. am I holding Your heart.. tell me that this is real and that this is true.. I look down.. I smile.. and I say.. I love YOU.. looking down.. I look at your heart.. I say.. I love YOU.. I love your heart.. so beautiful.. can I touch Your heart.. How about the Bow on top.. can I touch Your heart.. can I feel how Your heart Feels.. why do I love Your Heart.. why do YOU keep On making me to Love Your heart.. so beautiful.. WHY are you so beautiful.. so beautiful that Word get clutter from my lips.. I am wondering if this is Only an Imagination.. is it only me who is dreaming or wishing because I want this dreams.. this wish to come true.. I want Your Heart.. it can have a tiny bow too.. be so cute and lovely but no matter what.. I will Love Your heart.. keep On loving YOUR HEART whatever you put.. as long as it is YOUR HEART.. I will love YOU.. I will love your heart and will never stop but keep on loving you.. I see you.. the Doctor get UP.. holding the glass jar and walking off.. Opens the Door and disappears.. I am sitting down.. my two eyes looks down.. next to me is the basket with full Flowers.. the Sun Flowers.. I am looking down.. the Glass jar is empty.. I see NO heart.. I just want You here.. All I want is Your Heart.. give me Your heart because I want it.. I am walking.. And I stop.. Start to walk again.. Holding a basket.. Walking and I stop.. One hand is A Flower.. Looking at the Flower.. My Lip slides to smile.. I put the Flower into the basket.. Other hand is holding.. I look and I am thinking Of YOU.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. Now with many flowers inside the Basket.. I am looking at the Dozen of Flowers in the Basket.. I want to give you this basket.. Full of Flowers.. It is Me Sunflowers.. I want to see YOU smile.. I want to tell YOU.. when I look at these Flowers.. Picking them in the Field.. One by One as I pick up to put into the basket.. It is because I want to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and that I am so Sorry for Loving YOU.. WHY am I so Sorry.. Before the Sun Flowers get to YOU.. WHO knows where I would Be.. I want to tell YOU.. without YOU.. I feel my heart falling apart.. I feel like I cannot go without YOU.. I need YOU.. I want you.. But I want YOU to Love Me.. When WILL you love Me.. Will you ever Love Me.. I am wondering.. Pondering as I stop.. Looking down.. I see a Sun Flower.. I look at the Sun Flower looking at me.. and I whisper.. TELL Her.. Tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and I be missing YOU just too much.. As I would walk with the basket in my hands.. and I stop.. There is a Window Glass in front of me.. and I look.. at the distance I see YOU.. My heart.. WILL you stop Pounding Hard inside.. WILL you please Stop Beating.. Will you Stop.. I put one hand in my Chest.. WHAT is going inside of me Chest.. I feel my Heart.. it would Not stop beating.. it keeps ON beating.. I ask.. MY hand taps lightly to Stop.. But my eyes keeps ON looking at you from the distance.. I am losing my breathe.. I can't stop looking.. My eyes would not Stop.. It hurts inside so much.. I am aching in my Heart.. WHY am I hurting so Bad.. WHY can't my Heart just stop.. I try to control myself.. But my Heart just keeps On beating.. YOU take My Breathe Away.. YOU take My Breathe away.. I can't breathe.. I want my Heart to Stop beating.. Because it just hurts looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. I wish that I can have YOU because.. YOU be looking so Good.. If I can't have you.. I rather want My Heart to stop Beating.. at least I do not need to breathe.. If I lose my breathe.. then there is NO life in me.. No more suffering in this pain.. this pain attack of wanting YOU so Bad.. wanting to Love YOU.. I want my heart to crack.. to Stop.. TO stop beating.. to stop moving so that I do not have to suffer loving YOU for too long.
Heart.. that is the Most important to Me.. I want to listen to Your Heart.. every beat.. I want to say.. I love YOU.. another Beat.. I miss YOU and Another beat.. I love YOU.. a Beat.. WILL you love me too.. I be asking YOU.. WILL you let me love YOU.. then Please.. Open Your Heart.. and Let me In.. Please Open Your Heart for me.. let me peek into Your Heart.. so that I can speak to Your Heart.. How much my Heart loves YOU.. Open your Heart so that I can say my Name.. let Your Heart remember the One who Loves YOU.. the One who will say His Name and say.. this is My Name.. can I tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I love you by my Name.. so that YOUR HEART will remember the Person of the name who loves you the Most.. as I get UP.. I would walk down the Beach.. just thinking about YOU.. and heading back Home.. Now IN the ROOM.. I am Holding the Giant Head of this Teddy Bear.. LOOKING at my Heart showing me The Tears.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to show YOU My Heart How much it Hurts to Love YOU.. HOW MUCH IT HURTS to miss YOU over and over again.. WHEN can I be close to YOU.. when Can I show you my Heart.. WHEN WILL you Open Your Heart to me so that I can show YOU and tell YOU.. I want to tell YOUR HEART.. I never stopped loving YOU.. my arms would squeeze the Giant Head of the Teddy Bear.. as I feel the tears in my eyes.. and I can feel the tear drops coming down.. holding.. I want it to Be YOU.. holding it tight.. I want it to be YOU.. why do you have to be so far.. making me to cry for missing YOU.. I would turn to look at the Window.. I can see rain falling down hitting on the window glass.. If I was still Out on the Beach.. that Rain would of got me soaked and wet.. could not go home.. but I came before the Storm.. but I am missing YOU Right Now.. I am missing YOU crazy right Now.. where are YOU.. Come Home to Me.. Come Home to me where I am waiting for YOU.. I am missing you because I love YOU.. I need YOU.. I need you right Now.. I need YOU so that I can love YOU and Not miss YOU.. Please Come Home.. this is the place YOU belong.. with me.. with My Arms holding YOU and I tell Your Heart.. I missed YOU but I love YOU.. YOU are my everything.. YOU are My forever Love.. YOU are my Love.. my darling.. I love you.. I am by the Door.. My hand knocks on the DOK DOK DOK DOK. Will you please Open this Door.. I know that YOU are inside this House.. my hand Knocks.. DOK DOK DOk DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want to see YOU.. I have your Heart in this Square Box.. I am wondering if YOU can take a Look at this Heart.. see if this Heart belongs to YOU.. and I would walk over to the Big Window.. and I see you standing there.. Only YOU can open this Door.. because I came here just to see YOU.. I have been knocking.. DO you not hear me Knocking on this Door.. I want to ask YOU something.. A friend of Mine gave me the Address and It has taken me to this Location.. I am sure the Number on the Door is correct because I have the Piece of paper.. He wrote me the Address and it has taken me to this House.. to Your Door.. Why can't YOU Open the Door.. My friend told me.. this is the same House.. the same Door.. he says a Beautiful Lady has given him the Square Glass Box and It has a Heart inside.. I have been waiting for this Heart.. But I am here because I am wondering.. Can YOU Please tell me if I am the right Person.. is it I who you are giving this Square Glass Box.. I don't want to be the Wrong person.. if I am the Right person.. I am knocking on that Door.. but why don't you answer it.. why don't you open the Door.. please come OUT and examine to see if this Heart belongs to YOU.. I want to know.. can you please tell me.. I am not begging YOU.. but just asking YOU.. This Heart did not Move at first.. when the Heart saw Me.. She started to Cry.. I got scared and I jumped back because this Heart started to cry.. I don't want to see a Beautiful Heart cry.. I feel so bad because I am wondering.. WHAT HAVE I done that was wrong.. I have not said a Word to this Heart.. I only wanted to Share my Heart and tell Your Heart.. this Heart.. I love YOU.. is it the wrong words I have chosen to say.. But.. It is My Heart wishes to say TO THIS HEART.. YOUR HEART.. I love you.. what have I done.. did I say something wrong.. is it really wrong for me to say the three little Words that I love YOU.. then WHY can't I love YOU.. explain to me please.. WHY can't I love your Heart.. why can't I say those words to this Heart.. I am not trying to be Mean.. I only wanted to express my Heart.. what I truly feel inside.. I was looking at your Picture.. as I was looking.. I felt something down deep within me.. and the Words just came Out.. and yes.. as I was looking at your Picture.. I was also looking at the Square Glass Box.. and my Words.. looking at your Picture.. it just came Out from me.. but how is this so Bad.. what am I saying to make this Heart to cry.. I don't want to see this Heart crying.. I feel like I have done something Wrong.. something terrible and I would just stand there.. can't really say a word.. I mean leaving me speech Less.. Here is a Heart.. inside the Square Glass Box.. The Heart crying inside.. I wanted to pull This Heart out and say.. don't be scared.. don't be shy.. And I showed this Heart.. I turn where the Picture of YOU is facing.. The Heart looks at the Picture.. it is YOU.. I am not showing some other lady's face.. But it is picture of YOU.. and I was pointing.. telling the Heart.. I love YOU.. and to this Picture.. WHY CRY.. YOU are going to make My Heart cry with YOU.. why are you showing me Tears.. if I have done something wrong.. Please tell me so that I won't make the same mistake.. if I have done something wrong.. Please tell me that What I said is False because it is Not.. only words that can COME out of my Heart looking at Your Picture is the word I love You.. what am I suppose to do if I do love YOU.. if I want Your Heart.. tell me what Am I suppose to do.. that I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to hold YOU CLOSE.. and Only way that can happen is when a man loves your Heart.. WHY CAN'T I love you.. is there a good reason I can't because I will.. I will keep on loving YOU.. as long as I can.. I will.. and I am looking at the Big Window.. YOU are still there.. just standing there.. I am not sure.. but I needs to ask YOU.. Please Open the Door.. I am not going to come into your House.. BUT I have brought this Heart.. Your Heart with me.. Please.. tell me that It belongs to YOU so that I can go.. before I go.. Please Open the door and tell me that It is right.. as I am looking at the Big Window.. YOU are so Beautiful.. can I bring a Camera.. I want to take a Picture of YOU.. because YOU look much more prettier in person.. maybe the Picture I have is an old one.. But Now.. I need a new Picture.. and yes.. can I bring a Camera next time.. so that I can take a picture of YOU close up.. I can love you more.. YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Tell me why are YOU so Beautiful.. I just want to ask YOU.. WHO are you looking good for.. WHO are you trying to look beautiful For.. but I am by the Door.. Please Open the Door.. I do not have much time because it is getting late.. I can see the SUN is going down.. as I am seeing the stars and the Moon appear.. Please.. Open the door for me.. and I turn and I walk away from the Big Window and I am standing by the Door.. my hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Can you hear the Door knocking.. it is me by your door who is knocking.. Can YOU Please open the Door.. I want to show YOU the heart.. Your Heart is still crying.. I think only YOU can make this Heart to stop crying.. My hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Please Open this Door.. I want to see YOU.. and the crying Heart wants to see you too.. My hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. and I would wait by the Door.. I can hear the Foot steps walking and Stops by the Door.. my hand hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. is that YOU.. I heard the foot steps walking and just stopping.. I know that it is YOU.. I know that YOU are standing by the same door I am standing.. it is YOU who can Open this Door for me.. Please Open the Door so that I can see Your Beautiful Face and also to show you the Crying Heart.. I feel so bad.. because
All I want is to give you love.. and wants YOU to know How much I want this love and How much Love I can give.. Please don't go.. and come to me.. That my Eyes tells me.. I want to cry.. The most beautiful Flower.. the Most beautiful I ever seen.. The most beautiful that there will be no one who is as Beautiful as Your Are.. And Now.. I want to see YOU again.. I am still looking at the door.. Please come back.. Holding UP the Empty Glass jar.. can you not see that I have prepared this for You.. I have been waiting.. It use to be a flower Jar.. a Flower use to grow in this Glass Jar.. a Sun Flower.. I put a soil and the seed.. water day and night.. put it out in the sun.. and suddenly it became a Flower.. a Sun Flower because I would be thinking of YOU.. I wanted to grow it for myself to see if it can really happen.. so that When it becomes a full bloom Sun Flower.. I can take it to YOU and tell YOU.. It started out as a seed.. wanted to see it to be a SUN FLOWER.. I wanted to give it to YOU.. the Hard work of years of putting.. and just to show YOU.. you will be the first to take a Look and I wanted to give it as a present to show YOU.. I cared and loved as it is YOU.. I loved my Sun Flower just as much as I love you and wanted to tell YOU.. I love you like this Flower.. But.. YOU have broken my heart.. my heart shattered because I could not see YOU.. For a long time I have been waiting for YOU to come Out.. as I would be waiting by this Door.. the Door never opened.. My Heart started to cry and asked me.. How Long.. How Long Must I be weeping for YOU.. How long must the wait be.. Sitting on this holding the Glass Jar with the Sun Flower.. I would be knocking at the door to give you the first.. I saw seasons come and seasons go.. I would be sitting at the same spot.. And I looked at the Sun Flower.. I asked.. maybe YOU don't love me.. Maybe You will never come Out.. never come UP.. One night.. I started to see the light rain falling from the sky.. Holding the Glass jar with the Sun flower.. I started to cry.. my tears ran down.. and I asked.. I wanted your Love.. I only wanted to see Your Face.. and All I wanted to give you is my Love through this Sun Flower.. as I sat down.. the light rain started to pour down hard.. I would be mourning Loud as the thunder roared and I looked at the Sun Flower.. I am so sorry that YOU don't love me.. I am so sorry for YOU to be waiting like this with me.. and looking at the Sun Flower I saw it crying too.. No one likes to be rejected and Hurt.. No one wants to feel this pain aching.. ALL I wanted is Your to Love me back.. ALL I wanted is for YOU TO at least notice me.. and I yelled Out loud.. and Screamed from my Lungs to the Sun Flower.. I am so Sorry.. I am so Sorry to make you feel this way.. I am so sorry.. My hand grab the stem of the Sun Flower.. I pulled it Out and I started to cry More.. as the Rain flood down on me.. I threw the Sun Flower on the ground.. My hand touch my Chest.. I saw YOU raised UP.. I saw YOU from the seed and Saw you grow up.. My hand hit the chest.. few times.. And I looked Up the sky.. and Screamed OUT Loud of More.. Only thing I wanted is YOU to know how much I love YOU.. I wanted to show you My Heart that this is the way I love you.. to give you a Sun Flower who came from birth and like a SON to me.. I wanted to give you This Flower.. I saw few boys running through the rain.. started to step on the Sun Flower.. and I did not see that Sun Flower any more.. I am looking at this Empty Glass jar.. I just can't believe.. Only if I could of waited few more days.. Only If I had the patient.. I could at least show you this Flower.. ME Sun Flower.. I came back with this Glass jar.. Now Empty and Without the Sun Flower.. But I have a Basket Full of Flowers.. they are the Sun Flowers but I picked them from the field.. I turn to look at the door.. Such a memory of Pain in my heart.. I just could not believe the door finally opened.. DID NOT expect to see YOU.. My heart was robbed.. WHEN YOU came out.. My heart came from sleeping.. and started to Beat On my Chest.. a Heart beat.. Running through my Body.. through my Chest. My Heart started to beat again.. started to beat faster when I saw the door opened and saw YOU stood.. I remember pinching myself to see if it hurts.. am I dreaming.. am I seeing a vision.. What was happening inside my Chest.. WHY was my Heart beating faster and faster.. as you stood There.. I felt the tears of Joy.. Waiting and waiting.. Going to the same spot to sit on this bench.. the same spot for a long time.. just waiting for YOU to open that door.. I saw you walking.. I wanted to drop my Empty Glass jar.. A jump in my heart.. leaping out of nowhere.. and There you were.. the Most beautiful Flower.. the Greatest but the Most Prettiest my eyes ever saw.. I just couldn't breathe.. I felt something got stuck.. When you sat next to me.. I wanted to just fall and faint right in front of you.. I looked at the Empty Glass Jar.. my Heart grew so sad.. If I just waited few more days.. I could given you the SON.. the Sun Flower who came from the seed.. from the birth and could told you.. I have kept this Flower for a long time.. and wanted to give to the right person.. This Sun Flower belongs to YOU because it was all just for YOU.. and wanted to tell YOU by giving this Glass Jar.. I love you.. I was thinking of YOU as I planted.. I was thinking of YOU as I put bowl of waters into the soil.. I was thinking of you as I walked this Out in the front.. watching the SUN and the heat.. I saw the peek of its head.. I saw the stem.. and after few months.. I saw the Sun Flower raised UP.. I was truly thinking of YOU because I was touched by Love.. I wanted to give you this as My Love.. and Only wanted You to notice How much I love you.. AS you sat next to me.. I wanted to cry because It was an Empty Glass jar.. I had dreams and visions of giving as a present.. giving you as my Heart.. whole heart was put into it.. I saw you so Beautiful.. Like this Sun Flower.. as beautiful as You are.. I am sitting and I turn to Look out the Window.. I see drops falling down.. And I can hear the waters hitting the glass of the window.. I turn to Look at the Picture on the corner of the side.. It is you.. You are so Beautiful.. So beautiful why I keep on looking at your picture.. I do not want to see the picture because of the Memories of You.. I can hear the raindrops hitting and hitting.. I wish that YOU were right Here next to me.. I am not asking for anything else.. But just your presence.. even if the room can be in silence.. as Long as it is You.. I be okay.. I be alright.. I can look at your face.. Your eyes and even your Smile.. even for the whole through the Night.. You do not even have to say a word to me because.. You know my Heart.. YOU know How I feel In my Heart.. YOU know what is in my thoughts.. my mind and even the feelings of My Heart.. I turn to look at the corner..
Oink Oink.. I am sitting down by the shores.. Looking at the Waters coming In.. On a big rock.. I am sitting and just thinking about You.. I am looking at two Empty Bottles.. for some reason.. I started to drink.. the More I think of YOU.. the More I miss YOU.. on this Night.. why do I feel the aching in my Heart.. I wish that I did Not look at your Picture.. I received a Letter from YOU.. and YOU are telling me YOU are going some where so far.. and telling me that It is going to take YOU a while and after hearing these words after I read the Letter you wrote me.. I just could Not take it any more.. I could Not stay inside the House.. so Leaving the House.. and so I wrote YOU a Letter back.. But.. I am wondering at this Point.. what am I suppose to do with the Letter that is In my Hand.. if I am unable to reach YOU.. YOU have Not tell me where YOU are going.. and how long will it take for YOU to come back.. I would look at your Picture.. and looking at the Letter.. I am feeling so much hurt right Now.. it is because I am missing YOU so Much.. All I ever asked for is Your Heart.. I would ask if I can Have your Heart.. is it just too much of asking YOU for It.. because I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. without Your Heart.. there is Nothing that I can do.. then please tell Me.. How do I win YOU over.. How am I suppose to make YOU mine.. what is the secret so that I can take action.. and also tell YOU because I am Not sure what to do at this Point.. So I have decided to come to the Place.. this Rock has been here ever since I first came.. I would sit on the Top of this Rock.. when I want to see you the Most.. I brought with me a Shot Glass.. of course I did not bring YOU picture with me this time.. because I know if I do.. I would be taking a Look.. which it can make my eyes pop out whenever I see Your Picture.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. why can't you see through.. why can't you understand me.. or relate with me what I am going through right Now.. I have bought three bottles of Rice wine.. so far.. I have finished two Bottles.. I am taking a Look at the third.. the last One.. I don't feel drunk at All.. but I need to wash away what is in my Mind.. what is inside my Head.. I am trying to wash YOU away.. trying to forget.. or to erase YOU off but the More I try.. the More I just can't.. so Please Help me for once.. Help me How to win YOU over.. I am still trying over and over.. but I am asking YOU now.. if you know the answers.. if you know the secrets of How to Make YOU Mine.. I feel like I am dying inside right Now.. I feel like I am ready to die instead because I want to have Your Heart.. if only YOU can show me Your Heart and I be able to hold Your Heart in my arms.. and to able to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me tell YOU something.. will you let me speak to Your Heart.. because that is the Only One thing I want.. what I truly need.. to have your Heart and to tell Your Heart.. I have a Heart too.. and My Heart just loves YOU.. How can I transfer this Message to reach Out to YOU.. How can I tell you that I love YOU.. YOU are so far away.. there is this distance between Us.. and I would like to get close to YOU.. How can I get close to YOU.. to your Heart.. Please tell me and let me Know.. as I am looking at the last Bottle.. my hand grabs.. twist the TOP and open it.. holding the Glass shot in the Other hand.. the One with the Bottle.. my hand pours into the Shot Glass.. what if I get sick.. so sick that I rather die instead.. I feel so sick in my stomach because I need to see YOU.. I need to hold YOU Near in my hands.. in my arms and I would say to YOU.. will you please show me Your Heart.. How can I see your Heart.. Please.. let me see your Heart and Please hear these words of Mine.. that I been here.. always waiting for YOU.. just to Love YOU.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. that is why I need your Heart.. I need to know so that I can tell YOU.. but when YOU tell me that YOU are going to take a Long time and YOU are leaving going somewhere very far.. How can I tell YOU.. that is why I been asking YOU.. at least Leave Your Heart with Me.. let your Heart be close to me so that I will not feel like I can't do nothing.. as I am looking at the Shot Glass in my Hand.. I would open my Mouth wide and slam the Shot Glass with rice wine into my mouth.. since I did Not bring your Picture with me.. Now I am dying to see YOU.. I am starting to miss YOU because all I see is the waters coming IN and going Out.. I just can't stop.. but why can't I stop.. I would tell myself to stop.. but How can I stop.. it is because I love YOU.. How can YOU stop someone who loves YOU so much.. that is why I need to hear words from YOU.. If you can tell me to stop Loving YOU.. I know that I can finally rest in Peace.. but.. I still be missing YOU.. still be looking at your Picture and just wondering.. what If something can happen.. How would it be Like if YOU were here with Me.. and I be able to hold YOU in my arms.. and tell YOU.. looking at Your Heart.. even though the Time flies and many weeks and months has passed By.. I still Love YOU.. and If you are asking me.. why do I love YOU so Much.. how is it possible to love YOU this Much.. and if you are asking me and wondering on the Other side.. I would look at the One I am holding the Bottle of rice wine.. Looking at the Other hand holding the Shot Glass.. I would be pouring the Bottle of the rice wine Into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. I would be looking at the waters.. I open my mouth wide and pour.. slam the rice wine into my Mouth with the Shot Glass.. and I would close both eyes.. Just thinking about YOU.. I be thinking of YOU.. as I am going back.. I am standing inside the House.. and I hear the Knock On the door.. and I know that YOU are coming over.. after receiving the Message.. the text Message from YOU.. I open the front door.. and I see YOU standing there.. I receive the Letter YOU gave me.. and I wanted to ask if YOU wanted to come inside.. but.. YOU tell me that YOU needs to go.. and I watch YOU turn the other way and YOU start to walk.. where I stop seeing YOU.. as I close the Door.. I would unfold the Letter.. and a Picture falls Out from the folded Paper.. as I go down.. and I pick Up the Picture.. I look at You.. and YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are so Beautiful.. especially in that White Dress.. But this is Not just an ordinary Dress.. It seems like something is going to happen soon.. It looks like a Wedding Dress to me.. and On the Letter YOU are telling me that YOU are going to get married.. and YOU have invited me to come to see YOU at your Wedding.. I am wondering.. with who are you getting Married too.. because I don't want to receive this from YOU.. why are you telling me to come if I am Not the One who is going to stand next to YOU to make YOU my wife.. If I am invited for the wrong reason.. I do not want to come.. I don't want to watch YOU leave my Life and go with another.. It should be Me who should stand next to YOU.. the One who can put the ring on your Finger.. But why did YOU write me this kind of letter.. It really hurts Me if YOU are telling me to sit and watch the One you love to be taken away from Me.. and I just can't believe you are telling me this.. so I would rip the Letter into pieces.. I just can't take this from YOU.. I don't want to receive this from YOU because YOU are Only hurting me More.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of News.. why hurt me when YOU know my true intentions.. My true Motives.. I know that if I stand next to YOU through Thin and through Thick.. through the good times and the Bad times.. I know that after a certain time.. YOU can Love Me.. why can't YOU give me a chance to proof that I can love YOU more.. and YOU will know.. you will see that YOU too can Love me back too.. YOU just don't know until you give me a chance.. give me a shot too so that YOU be loved.. I can love you more.. and Over and over again.. YOU will know how much I love YOU and can feel that love comes from me to YOU.. but telling me this and breaking my Heart.. and tearing it away is Not going to be good for YOU.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. NO matter How much YOU hurt me.. How much YOU tear down my Heart into pieces.. I can still Love YOU.. I will even love YOU more.. and more stronger with time.. but YOU have to give me that chance.. why can't you give me this shot.. I know that YOU will love me.. I know that I will love YOU but the most importantly.. YOU be loving me back too.. YOU are wondering How do I know for sure this can happen.. Because I love you first.. and ever since I told YOU that I love YOU.. I am still here loving YOU more.. that is the prove that I can share and show YOU that It is real.. My Heart is real
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bow.. I am pulling the strings of the Bow.. wondering if I can shoot this arrow correctly.. How can I protect YOU.. How can I defend YOU and fight the Battles.. the UP coming Battles if I cannot shoot these arrows correctly.. as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would put the Bow down after pulling the strings.. My hands grabs the Art sketch paper.. and I would LOOK at You.. LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. MAH MAH.. and I would Lower.. both on knees.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would LOOK across.. the Board.. the Target that is ON the Middle of the Tree.. I have been trying.. trying to shoot these arrows.. I would pull on the strings of this Bow.. that is LAYING on the Ground.. I been in this forest.. inside the forest are these trees.. which I would come at Night.. and I would look at the Target.. I would pull on the strings of this One Bow.. and my Father made this Bow for Me.. He has made the arrows.. and would give it to me.. and I would grab these Arrows and walk for few Miles.. It becomes Dark when I arrive to this Forest.. Having your Picture.. the Art sketch paper with me always.. On my Side.. On my Chest.. I think of YOU.. and I would say.. One Day I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I will see you One Day.. I will meet YOU some Day.. just wait and see.. and I would always Unfold this Art Sketch Paper.. and I would look at YOU.. the Drawing of YOU and I would say.. WHY does my Heart hurt so Bad.. is it because I am missing YOU right Now.. and I would put the arrows on the ground.. and My Father would tell me.. first I needs to warm It UP.. PULLING on the strings of this BOW.. and I would PULL the strings till my hands.. my arms would hurt.. I would keep on pulling and Pulling it many times before I would shoot the arrows.. I remember I pulled it too many times that the Bow.. the strings would break the Bow into halves.. and I would sit.. standing in silence wondering what do I do Next.. I would always think of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I want to protect YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. to defend Your nation.. But LOOK at How small and weak I am at this Point.. I can't even shoot these arrows right and say to YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. I want to protect YOU.. the Horses are going to look at me and laugh at me for saying this to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. DO you not know how much My Heart be hurting because I can't do anything right.. so Only thing I know that I must do is shoot these arrows.. as far and right into the Middle of the Target.. after I would pull.. my Father would walk by.. watching me cry as I am looking at the Broken Bow laying on the ground.. He shows me there is Another One.. smiles and looks at me and hands me another New Bow.. I would look at the new Bow.. Pulling on the strings.. as I would think of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be thinking of YOU late into the Night.. I lift UP to see the MOON appear before my eyes.. grabbing the arrow on the ground.. I would say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. this is for YOU.. so that when the Enemies comes at your gate and I am ready.. I will be on the front Line ready to shoot the arrows for YOU.. even though I may die in the land I love.. it is for YOU.. and I would put the end of the arrow and PULLS the strings back.. I would aim.. and my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. I see the Arrow flies Out and It hits.. I just can't believe It.. I would look at the arrow.. and I would cry because It hit the Middle.. it has taken me more than one hundred arrows of shooting.. many flies to the left or to the right.. some would not even shoot so far.. I would be yelling and screaming because I can't shoot right.. and I would fall on the ground of many hours I would put into trying shooting the arrows.. but this One Night.. even though I would say.. it is going to go to the Left.. or to the right.. But before I picked UP the Bow of strings and the arrow.. I do remember I would unfold the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU and I would look at YOU.. I would say to the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing of You.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO you know that I am doing this for YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. It is only for YOU.. I have truly Nothing to Lose.. but just my Life if living means that it has any worth.. But YOU know that as Long as I have life to Live.. I want to fight and to protect YOU.. I want to Love YOU.. by protecting and defending the Nation you are ready to Build.. and I would look at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and My lips kisses the paper.. and I would say looking at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I love YOU.. I have been loving you since the day my eyes first saw YOU.. and still can't let YOU go because I still love YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please help me.. and I would put the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU and I put on the ground picking up the Bow.. and I would be pulling the strings of the Bow.. and I would look for the arrow on the ground.. grabbing the One.. I would put the end of the arrow.. and Pulls back with the strings of the Bow.. and I would be aiming the arrow.. looking at the Target.. and I would pull back harder and Let my hand go of the strings of the Bow.. watching the arrow shoot out and flies.. it hit.. finally at the Middle of the Target.. I stood there.. my hands are bleeding.. my arms are hurting.. but looking at the Arrow finally hitting right into the Middle of the target hanging on the trees.. I fell on two knees.. started to cry.. wailing louder and louder.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Only if YOU were here.. Only if YOU be able to watch what My eyes are seeing at this Point.. I think you would of at least gave me a smile.. Crown Princess.. If YOU are truly on my side.. at least please give me Your Smile.. and I just can't believe what my eyes are seeing.. I would grab another arrow on the ground.. the end of the arrow.. pulling the strings of the Bow back.. aiming the arrow at the target on the middle.. PULL harder and My Hand lets go and the Arrow shoots out and flies and hits right in the middle again next to the first arrow.. I would hear a clap behind me.. and My Father was watching from the distance.. and I turn around to look at the shadows and His figure disappears into the Night.. I stood there.. and I knew that my father saw everything.. I would look at the ground.. with the seven friends Behind Me.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. it is the drawing of YOU.. the same Art sketch Paper I had when I was at the forest.. when I was YOUNG.. when I was practicing shooting the arrows.. and I see YOU sitting on the Horse.. and I see you getting Out of the Horse.. the Servants who came with YOU.. came at your side to help YOU down.. and I would unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as YOU walk with the few servants behind YOU.. and YOU stop.. I am on two knees.. My hands unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. and I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. YOU stood before Me.. and my eyes are filled in tears.. without this.. I know that I could Not go on.. without this Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. How can I dream of anything.. YOU gave me a meaning.. a reason to dream Big.. without this Paper.. the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How can I come this Far.. YOU gave me a meaning a reason to live and to go On.. without this.. I would of Never though of coming to Your Presence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't need this Art Sketch paper any more because Now I am beside YOU.. I am close to YOU.. I am right by your side.. what am I going to do with the paper.. when I see YOU as the Person.. as the Crown Princess for the Nation.. I don't need this and I was ready to ripe the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. YOU held your hand high and I stop.. and I see you wanted to take a LOOK at it.. as your hands grabs the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. YOU see the scars in my hands from the strings.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. as I show you both hands because YOU wanted to look at my hands.. these are the scars of pulling the strings.. trying to shoot the arrows.. trying to hit the Middle of the target when I was young.. when My father was with me.. He was the One who saw all these things before he passed away.. but He told me
MAH MAH.. Sketch paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. the Picture.. the Only One I had for a long time.. I Just could Not go.. but Now.. I can let that Art Sketch paper go.. go with YOU because it belongs to YOU.. as I see you LOOK at it and YOU LOOK at me.. and YOU gave it back to Me.. I am confused.. I am Now here with YOU.. I see YOU.. the WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. But.. I see you held Your right Hand High.. letting me know.. THAT IS IT.. and I see you turn and walk away.. going back to the Horse.. Now.. I hear horses foot steps coming.. and I turn to LOOK the Other way.. where the ten Men are sitting on their Horses.. who was shooting their Arrows UP far.. I see Six Horses.. and I see the Six Princes and they have their Armor On too.. as I look toward the Gate.. I see the Gate being Opened.. and I knew.. It is TIME.. and I would Shout.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven Men behind Me shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout LOUDER MORE.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and all of the Military Men shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would see you get ON your Horse and YOU raise UP your Right hand and I say NO.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. NO.. and the Gates would Open WIDE.. and I would get UP.. two legs.. NO CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. PLEASE.. consider.. reconsider.. I see YOU hit the Horse and it starts to take Off towards the Open Gate.. NO.. MAH MAH.. NO.. MAH MAH.. and I pull out the sword.. and I would look at the Open gates and I would run after YOU..CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider.. I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out there.. I have been waiting for this Battle.. for a Long time.. I been practicing for so long because I knew that one day this day was to come.. I promised YOU that I wanted to always protect YOU.. when I was young.. just before YOU came riding on the Horse.. I was sitting here.. I thought about when I was YOUNG boy.. I sat on the Horse and I saw YOU on the practice training ground.. Of course YOU did not see me.. but I came with my Father.. the Day when YOU grabbed the two Arrows.. YOU took my Breathe away Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU.. Three Chief Generals.. and two Commanders stood behind YOU.. my Father told me the reason why took me on this day.. the Crown Princess was to pick two Arrows and going to start shooting to hit the Target Board.. I wanted me to see the Heart of the Crown Princess for the Nation.. and I remember Your Teacher.. the Chief General by the Target.. with the white Flag.. and I saw you grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU
I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest
MAH MAH.. Eyes and see How much I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you ever Know.. I want it to be known.. will you know It.. I would fold the Art Sketch Paper into Half and Put it on the Ground.. and I would say.. I love YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I would grab the Bow in my Hands.. if the Only thing I can do is protect.. If the Only thing I can do is Shoot these arrows off the Bow with Arrows.. if the Only thing is holding a sword and use to fight Off the Enemies which comes across the Lines.. if this is the Only Way.. the Only will I can help and to Protect YOU.. I know as long as It comes from my Heart.. maybe you will see my Heart.. My Love of being next to YOU and close to YOU.. Just be standing in a distance and to love YOU.. I will offer as it is.. my tears would fall from both eyes.. But I love YOU.. Do you not know.. can't you feel this Heart of Mine which I have never stopped Loving YOU.. as tear drops hit the ground.. I grab the Arrow.. putting the end of the Arrow of the String and pulling it back.. I wish that I can give More.. or I can do More for YOU.. but I am limited right Now.. that is why My Heart breaks so easily.. I want to give YOU so much More.. give YOU more and more of my Love.. but.. there is NOT much I can do to show YOU what I can do.. I am aiming the Arrows.. hand pulling back the String and hand lets go the string and the arrow shoots.. but it goes far off.. Missing the target.. It Breaks.. It hits and I hit my own Chest.. I missed the Target.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly and I would stand there.. MOON comes UP into the Night.. and I am crying.. balling with tears and weeping.. I can't even shoot the arrow correctly.. and I would say.. I want to protect YOU.. I want to protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. my arms are so weak to pull back the strings of this Bow.. and It just can't go far.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking UP at the MOON.. How am I suppose to protect YOU.. I want to protect to show YOU that this is all I can do because I love YOU.. but I can't even shoot and aim the arrows.. I have tried five arrows.. but ALL of them I missed.. my arms are in pain right Now.. just killing me deep within Me.. I have to get this One Right.. and I would pull out another Arrow.. now My arms.. I can feel of too much pulling far.. It aches Now.. but I have promised and Made a promised to YOU.. that right Now.. I may be very weak.. can't give YOU anything.. can't do anything right.. can't even pick UP the wooden stick.. can't even grab the arrow and shoot.. PULLING the strings of the Bow.. can't even pull far.. but I have made a Promise.. that promise is to accomplish this so that I can go to YOU and that I get to meet YOU soon.. as a Warrior.. I want to show YOU that I be Your Man.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am always coming out to this WOOD.. full of trees.. and I would stand at the same Spot.. grabbing the Bow.. pulling the strings.. and grabbing More arrows to shoot and trying to Hit the Target.. My Father is always there.. and He sees Me as he stands Behind.. giving a space and distance watching Me.. before I would start to Use the Bow.. I would always unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. I would stare at your Picture.. Into the Night I would LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. I would first thing about the TIME.. I would smile and say.. I want to be there soon.. I would like to join YOU soon.. I am Not sure when that TIME would be but I know that TIME will come SOON.. I wish that It can be Now.. I wish I can go to YOU NOW.. but.. I know that right NOW there is Nothing I can do.. Nothing I can give to YOU.. I feel useless and I feel so Little and so Weak.. I don't want to show UP when YOU see me at my Lowest.. but when I become a real MAN for YOU who can say.. I can Love you Now.. I can use and be helpful to YOU.. to support Your Kingdom.. your Nation and to be part of Your Team so that YOU can launch Out to go further.. I want to see YOU at the Highest Level.. at the Best stage of Your Life.. at your Strongest.. and I would look at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. as I would take a Look.. my hand touch my Chest.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. do YOU know that I am touching my Chest.. where I can feel my Heart beating inside when I think of YOU.. when I call your Name.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I will ask the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. the drawing of YOU.. can YOU hear my voice.. Can YOU hear me Now.. I am looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU and I am asking YOU.. DO you hear my voice.. can YOU hear my Words because right NOW I am speaking.. but I know that I can't hear YOU.. NO Matter How many times I say and call Out your Name.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU.. or DO YOU HEAR me Now.. I wish that YOU can tell me that YOU do and YOU can hear me.. but ALL I hear on this side is silent.. But I want to hear YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to hear YOU say something back to Me.. when there are NO words of exchange or I don't hear anything.. I feel so Sad.. like YOU are ignoring me for some reason even though YOU are Not.. and I would be looking at the Picture drawing of YOU.. I would hear the foot steps and My Father stops next to Me.. He has his Bow.. and He would always stop by to show Me How to shoot.. PULLING back the strings of the Bow.. grabbing the Arrow.. the End of the arrow and PULLS back the strings of the Bow.. ARROW aims.. and HE lets go of the strings of the Bow.. I stand next to HIM.. the Arrow hits the Target and hits on the spot.. BULLS EYE and shows me the Mistakes I am making.. and I grab the Bow.. my arms are so weak.. and it is hurting because of too much pulling back of the strings of the Bow.. But I must over come and endure this suffering and this Pain.. to let my Arms be strong.. and I would be thinking of Your Picture.. I would be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. the Picture of YOU.. My Heart.. I know that I must.. so that I can go to YOU.. I must win.. I must conqueror the Pain.. I must because this is WHY I am here to Love YOU over and Over again.. it is because I love YOU.. as I am Kneeling.. on two knees.. behind me are the Seven Friends and they are all on the two knees.. arms forward and head looking on the ground.. YOU are on the Horse.. and the Horse raises up two legs.. but I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Hear my Words.. Please.. hear the Plea that is coming Out of my voice.. I just can't see YOU out on the Battlefield.. YOU know that I would rather choose to DIE if I see you Out there.. Please consider and reconsider.. I can't let YOU go out there.. I just can not see the One who I love.. going on the battle and putting death first.. I am asking YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider and think about the future of Your Kingdom.. I do not want any one to see YOU fighting.. I am Not going Out to that Battle if YOU go Out there.. YOU are telling me that to put a SWORD INTO MY CHEST first before I use the sword to fight against Your enemies.. who is going to let their Ruler.. their leader to go OUT when YOU have many men behind Your Back.. You have plenty of soldiers and warriors.. chief Generals and Commanders who are willing to fight ON your behalf.. WHY do you break My Heart and Our Hearts.. Please consider and reconsider.. and ALL the Voices of Men would raise and say.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and do Your Nation the favor.. and ALL the MEN ON two knees.. Heads looks ground.. arms forward.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider for YOUR MIGHTY MEN OF WAR..I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the
MAH MAH.. Hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young Boy too.. but when YOU first stopped and saw me at the garden.. I fall on two knees before YOU and told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that One day I will love YOU and One DAY I will come just to be by your side to protect YOU.. at least you could of told me about this war that is going to break.. there was NO reason for YOU to hide this from Me.. why would you hide this.. what would of happened if I did Not come to YOU.. few days ago.. there was something heavy in my Heart.. it was few days of riding this Horse.. Me and the seven friends.. if I just stayed by the ocean of waters.. I would of Not known this.. I would of missed Out this great war.. if YOU told me this sooner.. I would not even go to the Ocean waters but been practicing and training to prepare for this War.. I come with the seven friends and Now I am hearing about this News that I never knew in the first place.. if I did not come.. I know that YOU have great fighters and great warriors.. they have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me to wait.. but.. I know that it is time.. I needs to GO and handle some business here.. I look at the closest friend and I tell HIM.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. be with you.. and.. I see the Other Six Men.. they all get on the back of the Horses and holding the swords in their hands.. I am looking toward the Fortress and my Heart.. it is Hurting me More.. when I am thinking about this More and More.. my Heart keeps on hurting.. why didn't WANGSEJABI MAH MAH did Not tell me anything about this situation.. I know I may not be much.. but I know that I will fight for YOU.. I will do anything for YOU.. even I know that I can die for YOU.. I am sure I can bring some enemies die with this Sword.. but why is My Heart keeps on hurting me.. this is NO JOKE because this is a War.. and I would turn to look back.. and I am looking at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. DO you not know how much I love YOU.. and I am grabbing the strings of the Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there
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