Telling You the Truth
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 12 ต.ค. 2023
- I wanted to finally open up about what my life has really been like.
Please note: there's flashing candlelight from 13:54 to 14:27.
Mental health looks different for everyone, so these are just my experiences and what I have learned along the way.
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Some of my favourite mental health-related books, podcasts, videos (not affiliated):
Podcasts & Videos:
-Gathering Gold podcast with Sheryl Lisa Finn
-Holistic Life Navigation podcast with Luis Mojica
-Therapist Uncensored podcast with Sue Marriott, LCSW, CGP & Ann Kelley, PhD
-@heidipriebe1 on TH-cam (for videos on attachment theory)
Books:
-The Wisdom of Anxiety by Sheryl Lisa Finn (née Paul)
-Attached by Amir Levine and Rachel S. F. Helle
-The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.
-Hold Me Tight by Sue Johnson
-The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine Aron
I am not a doctor and none of this is medical advice. If you are in emotional distress, please contact your doctor, emergency services, or 988lifeline.org/ - บันเทิง
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I wanted to finally open up about what my life has really been like ❤
Please note: there's flashing candlelight from 13:54 to 14:27.
Mental health looks different for everyone, so these are just my experiences and what I have learned along the way.
Also, I am not a doctor and none of this is medical advice. If you are in emotional distress, please contact your doctor, emergency services, or 988lifeline.org/
Thinking of you Vasi ❤ and sending you love. Thankyou for your videos, because of you I made my first 1850s skirt completely from scratch, and I'm registered blind, so this was no mean feat but you made it so easy I managed to do it 😊 thankyou for everything ❤
Wow , thank you for your beautiful comment@@welcometotheravensnest
Congrats on the 1850s skirt! I hope you enjoy wearing it for many years to come 😊
Thank you for sharing this. I have PTSD along with several chronic physical illnesses so life is rarely easy and I take joy in all the bright moments. Sending you love always forever.
I see you ❤ everything that you have just so perfectly addressed has plagued myself since I was but a small child.
Wishing you peace & joy and that you always gain the strength to grow day by day. Sending love ❤.
@@VBirchwood Have you ever considered collaborating with (or at least looking up) the TH-camrs Paige Layle and "I'm Autistic, Now What"?
I'm on the Autism Spectrum (diagnosed PDD-NOS when I was 3), and hearing you talk about having to muster enough energy to actually do stuff was all too relatable.
I don't think any creator should feel obligated to do a "day in my life" video. That said, your struggles with mental health issues resonate for me and I'm grateful for your vulnerability and openness. CPTSD is a real pain, right? I'm glad you've come to a better place with yourself. We all deserve to experience a life of joy and safety. ❤
And the cinematography in this video is just gorgeous.
I agree 😊 Thank you so much! So glad you enjoyed the video ❤
@@VBirchwood I think that video with "day in my life" invade to much creator private live. You share with us your passion and pov on life. That should be enough
@@VBirchwood even though you don't owe us this, I really love that you thought enough about us that you wanted to make this video. Thank you very much, I think you're an awesome person! I also wanted to say that I appreciate your validation of therapy, I started therapy last fall myself, and your positivity about it is encouraging too!
I randomly found this video. I really needed it. I cried through a lot of it because it made me feel less alone in my suffering and my own C-PTSD. I have been doing EMDR for my trauma as well. It’s taking a long time but it’s slowly working healing miracles in my life. I’m so sorry for your hurt and suffering. ❤️Thank you so much for this video. It was very touching and helpful for me. ❤️
Thank you so much for your beautiful comment. Wishing you continued healing, peace, and joy 💕
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I am sooo happy you are doing better and finding more joy in your life. It is so hard to find contentment whith PTSD/c-PTSD. Your hard work is paying off and I am grateful you feel safe enough to share this with us.❤
Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
The borderline between private and public is very blurred on TH-cam and you tread it with courage and delicacy, which is having (even just from the comments) a positive impact on so many people.
But don’t ever feel you’ll lose your audience if you step back away from the personal. Your content very much speaks for itself - every carefully planned, beautifully filmed and meticulously edited shot says as much about joy/gratitude/quiet living as anything you tell us about your experiences. Such is the nature of the very best paradoxical relationships.
I also have C-PTSD, and had an odd feeling that was where you were going with this. Sending love & healing your way. 🌈
Thank you!! Sending lots of love and healing your way also. It's incredible how many of us that experience c-PTSD share similarities with our stories (whilst of course many differences too).
Also, this was incredibly brave of you ❤
Thank you ❤
I'm very glad you're here.
I knew my tears would start welling up soon ❤ Thank you so much!
@@VBirchwood you are welcome, and I am very proud of you.
I have PTSD and ADD and the “doing the simplest of things each day has been a challenge for me” really resonated. Getting into a routine, sticking with it and not just floating through life unaware is such a hard thing to overcome, especially when you would rather not be present/have the memories flood in. ❤ you’re one of my favorite people online. Thank you for this glimpse into your life.
Filling the cup to the brim and taking in the first sips to avoid spilling when picking up the cup might be the most relatable moment I've seen on a TH-cam video
Thank you for opening up. It took me years (close to two decades) to finally get the help I needed. It's not that there weren't any health professionals around, but that I tried so desperately to "have" what they diagnosed me with. Certainly, three years ago, the landlord canceled my lease, my boss cut my hours, than Covid and I got let go from my job while in a psychiatric hospital. And finally, I met the woman who changed my life, my therapist. It was tough going, I went through the motions but now I have a new job, finally the lessons learnt are not mere intellectual ideas but have real life use. And I look around and am carefully joyful. Sometimes I am scared that it will be snatched away, this hope, finally having MY space in society.
Thank you for having the strength to tell your story. People talk how they survived cancer and we, who have survived "ourselves" (I have tried to be gone several times), feel almost ashamed of talking about our remarkable journey.
Stay safe, stay content, stay connected. Much love from Germany!
It's so important not to be defined by what we may be struggling with. I have many diagnoses, one of which is anorexia, and I remind myself constantly not to say "I have anorexia" or "I am anorexic."
You have every right to keep your life as private or public as you want. But I am truly grateful for what you shared in this video, this is exactly what I needed to hear today; I teared up many times throughout it. I am struggling with my mental health, but am unable to do anything about it at present. Thank you for being vulnerable. You didn't have to be, but because you were, I don't feel so alone anymore.
As someone on their own complex mental health journey, thank you for sharing your story. Therapy really should be fully accessible to everyone any any country that doesn't permit this is doing their citizens a major disservice and costing themselves (or their citizens, depending on whether they have universal health care or not), far more money down the line in medical bills.
brave! you're amazing, keep going and best of luck with the mental/physical health going forwards
Thank you very much 😊
I'm so proud of you, you really have moved mountains to be where you are now! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate you sooo much 🥰
This is an extremely brave and bold video. Thank you so much for your openness, and I hope that you continue to be well from now on. Massive hugs to you 🤗🤗🤗
"The Body Keeps Score" was the book that helped me start freling safe in my body with CPTSD. It is wonderful and healing to see comraderie and solidarity expressed in your video and the comments. We are not alone. ❤ Im very proud of everyone here for doing their best to take care of themselves when they can. We deserve it.
It's a wonderful book! I'm so glad you're feeling safer in your body too 🥰 I'm so proud of everyone here as well, we are all so deserving of lives filled with love and joy (and to really feel safe in that joy) ❤️
Thank you for your courage to tell your story. It helps those of us who aren't ready to tell our own yet.
I can relate; my depression began at age 11, too. I eventually learned I'm autistic, years too late for any help in childhood, and that helped a bit, just knowing. But I still struggle, and am watching this video with wide eyes and even renewed hope. I really admire your bravery and spirit, and see SUCH an old soul when I look at you. I can tell you've been through a lot, yet here you are, being present every moment. I wish you all the good luck and happy surprises in the world.
Seeing you in this light gives me hope that my c-ptsd won't always keep me from enjoying life. Miigwetch (thank you) for being here and for sharing your experience.
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ADHD and depression here, the depression being caused by undiagnosed ADHD. During my worst times of depression, I stayed in a darkened room all day and couldn't do anything. That lasted for about 2 years. I still feel that this time of my life was just... lost. I didn't really live it, it simply passed me by while I was standing still. So I get what you mean. I find it incredibly courageous that you opened up in this manner and talked about it so openly, because this is really, really hard. And I'm so happy for you that you're feeling better. But please know that you don't have to do that again just because you did it once. Everyone needs at least the privacy of their own head.
Thank you for your bravery in sharing this, and I'm so glad you got the correct diagnosis. I, too, spent years in therapy with an incorrect set of diagnoses, plateauing after minimal progress. Two years ago, I started with a new therapist who recognized that I had C-PTSD in our first session. (I am grateful for her expertise, as the current psychiatric discourse recognizes that emotional abuse can also cause PTSD, even though the DSM has not yet caught up to acknowledge it, too.) My progress in that time has been astounding. I have cut contact with my abusers, grown in my Christian faith, am actively improving my relationships, and have so much hope from my decrease in symptoms. As you shared in your video, it truly is life-changing. ❤
You are incredibly courageous to open up as you have. I hope that responses will show that you are not alone! So many people, especially in recent years have become mentally unwell. I think that beautiful, sensitive souls suffer most, and it is not their fault, but the fault of a world that lacks empathy and compassion all too often. Your videos are beautiful and inspirational to so many! The world needs that, and the world needs you!
I'm glad you found the correct diagnosis! I'm a fellow c-PTSD sufferer. I'm impressed at all the things you did in this video, it's so very calming. I hope to find energy to do more cosy things like you did here 😊
Once again I'm so moved by a video of you 🖤 Being so vulnerable is truly admirable, I wish you all the best in your healing journey, so happy you're getting better!
Thank you so much 🥰
Thank you for sharing. My husband has CPTSD. You are right that healing is so dependent on the right therapist and environment. It is so lovely to hear you on the path to recovery.
Thank you 😊 wishing all the best to you and your husband as well!
I did EMDR for several years when I was in therapy. I was in therapy for 20 years. I too have CPTSD, PTSD, social anxiety and depression. I also self-diagnosed that I could be Low needs Autistic as well. For the record, I’m a 5 time SA survivor starting about the tender age of five or six. My life has been and still is difficult. I’m now 71 years young.
I wish you peace, calmness and contentment. Love your channel.
I can understand a little bit of what you are going through. I suffer from depression and PTSD. My life is very uneventful. My 8 kids are in school. I sleep until noon and force myself to get up and do some chores. My kids come home and I try to cook dinner and help them. My husband supports the family.
I am a devout Catholic, and most weeks the only time that I get out is Sunday morning Mass. I use TH-cam as a distraction from what bothers me. When I turn off the TH-cam, is when I struggle the most. It's just easier to keep the background noise so that I don't have to think about my life. I have gone through therapy before, but it doesn't actually help my situation. So, at this point, I would rather cope without it.
I'm unsure if I should "thank you" for this video; that sounds a bit... I don't know, I can't explain it. But I'm still going to say thank you. And thank you for not giving up. I lost my best friend from depression a couple of years ago, and since then (in only these two and a half years), I've felt there are so many new things, new ways to treat people, and new explanations for past diagnoses that I feel angry she didn't keep on going for a little bit longer. But I totally understand why she gave up; that's the scary and sad part. It also makes me even more grateful for everyone else who keeps on going, knowing (only secondhand, though) how hard it is to keep on going when it seems like not just the world but your whole body is working against you.
I also want to say thank you for your videos! They're so good and so different from others. I love the slow pace
I cried a little seeing your real smile ❤ So much of what you’ve shared echoes my own experiences, especially dissociation. I’m so glad to hear you have some excellent supports, and it’s helping. Thank you for your openness. I hope it feels healing 💕
This resonated so much with me. At 58 yrs old I have taken a back seat on the world. I just want to be able to get through each day as well as I can. I am happy in my existence, probably the happiest I have ever been. My crafts are my salvation and I am grateful for every day of peace. Hoping you continue to progress and Thankyou for sharing.
Well done, Angela!
I turn 58 this year, so I can relate on that level.
Happiness may be fleeting, but gratitude is much more long lasting.
Blessed Be Good Lady. You a joy, thank you for being you and I do feel your pain.
The 14-minute and 53-second video felt more like a powerful TED talk on self-love, self-care, and inner peace than a typical "day in my life" TH-cam video. Although I may not personally relate to the struggles mentioned, I truly appreciate the determination and strength it takes to share such intimate details. This kind of content is rare and valuable on TH-cam these days. Thank you again for the beautifully made video and content. ~ Your new subscriber.
we are on the same journey, it seems. Somatic, overintellectualized, dissociated and isolated. I really feel that I'm attracted to your videos because that work of connecting to the indigenous roots of our ancestors, to the lessons they taught that we never had the chance to learn, whether in sewing, cooking, tending the land, tending our bodies- this is the same work as somatic healing. We are all slowly reforesting the place that our soul lives. Reforesting our own selves, and ending the reign of terror from which we all feel as generational scars.
best wishes, may your bowl never be empty
Thank you so much for showing this kind of courage. I have been in some kind of psycho - /body therapy since I was 24 - now I am 64. Some Years ago I learned about the terms: C PTSD and Developmental Trauma - and it is changing my life. It is first and foremost focusing on the whole person and on different ways to work with trauma and not just speech therapy. I have also paid most of the therapy myself - could probably have bought a new house for the money. For me it has been a question of life or no life at all. I am now starting on the last path of my pilgrim road working with Internal Family System to sort some deeply traumatic issues out. thank you again for your honesty.
As a fellow cptsd survivor, thank you for sharing this part of yourself. ❤
So glad you have an excellent therapist and that you're getting into a better place. Also braiding sweetgrass is an amazing book.
You have the same dishes as my grandmother. She was also a Buddhist, though she came to it later in life.
I was diagnosed with PTSD as a teenager. I'm still here, mostly out of sheer stubbornness.
Thank you for your honest, hopeful video.
As someone who has been on a long path of healing myself, I’m so proud of you for keeping the light of hope alive in your heart. 💕
You're so amazing!! I've been through a very similar journey as you and found a lot of peace and comfort in sewing and creating clothing based on historical techniques. For me, this helped me to get into my body, to slow down and take space to be more intentionally and this helped me to not only create distance from some of the habits and cultural stuff that was hurting me, but to also reflect on who I wanted to be and how I wanted to live. It's been such a rare privilege to be able to witness your journey.
Thank you for this! I never expect you or anyone else to share personal information or feelings they aren't comfortable sharing. Sometimes it is a truth we need to share, even though it is also difficult to be so vulnerable, and those stories are very valuable!
It can be very disheartening to constantly be faced with doubt and ignorance when you try to reach out for support and use your voice to gain some understanding, so I find it immensely valuable to have these shared experiences with others who do understand - and to find different perspectives on similar experiences. I have self-diagnosed myself (as it isn't even a formal diagnosis yet) with cPTSD which is strongly interlinked with growing up as an undiagnosed autistic ADHDer with (still undiagnosed) somatic issues. The only times I've felt better and like I might recover somewhat from chronic burnout/fatigue and depression has been when I have taken measures to treat the trauma.
Unfortunately, I don't have access to appropriate therapy right now, so I have to treat it the best I can on my own. But having some sense of community is a vital part of healing, I think. Especially when attachment is wounded.
Thank you for sharing your truth. ❤
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I'm 60. I've been working on my issues for four decades. I've had many diagnosis. Sometimes they help. I've learned to keep trying different things when the current one stops being useful. Please keep at it. I have experienced wonderful progress in my healing and my overall health. I have even found muscles in my face that I never felt before when my body relaxed enough to let me really smile. The improvement in your life is truly worth the effort. It's very important to share your journey, for you and for others. Thank you for sharing.
This video truly spoke to my soul, and to my experience dealing with my own mental health. I too have been diagnosed with OCD (pure O) and adhd. I cannot even being to express how grateful I am for the creation of such a wise, compassionate and inspiring video. Several moments lead me to bawl from feeling recognized and seeing as to how I am still not alone, no matter how long or complex my journey. Your words about the body doing the best it can to protect itself opened up the floodgates for addressing the frustration I often feel with myself for presenting symptoms. I held myself while I wept, asking myself for forgiveness for being so hard on me, and recognizing every part of me is doing the best it can. This is truly a piece of art I will be referencing in the future. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
How deeply personal and brave was this video!! I have also struggled with depression and other areas most of my life. Last November I started up with therapy and am feeling amazingly different now.
So, our stories are obviously different but maybe the experience of longing to be free and happy is the same!
And then there is lovely sewing that many people enjoy, or other fiber crafts which quietly soothe our savage souls...along with some tea and coffee!
I count it a privilege to know you and appreciate your enriching content!
I tried living like a healthy person, ignoring my disability, and of course it wasnt working, therapy, meds and learning about my disability helped a little bit, the accomodations I could make for myself, but it wasnt enough. Today I talked with my psychiatrist about getting official disability status, he said with my ADHD and long lasting Depression and anxienty I will probably get it. This would also help me find a job that I can manage. And I also am the type of person who tries to help others especially if they have simmilar things going yet I very often forget to help myself.
I have a similar story, many therapist tried but failed, some made things worse. It was actually a boyfriend that helped me understand life events that happened to me was causing my sense of detachment and pain.
If you ever want to talk, just know this internet stranger is always here. Thank you for being your beautiful self
I’m so glad you’re feeling safe and happier! A slow life is SO GOOD for our mental health!
I'm so glad that you're getting better. Having mental health issues can be very difficult, as I can attest to myself. In my case, medication has helped a lot, but it's mainly just to help me not sink down too low. I think having a good support system is the best thing anyone could have, and I don't know where I would be without mine.
I'm also glad that you acknowledged that not every therapist is for everyone - you definitely have to click with the person you're going to. (Mine talked a lot, which wasn't very helpful, so I stopped going to see them.)
I hope you have the space to be yourself, to feel, and to really experience your life. Good luck with your mental health journey!
Thank you for sharing this part of your experience. As someone with c-ptsd who only started enjoying life to a noticeable degree about two years ago, this video was extremely comforting and relatable to watch. I am as deeply sorry you had to struggle for so long as I am happy to know things are finally getting significantly better for you. Something you mentioned that hit home in particular for me was feeling not only better in your own body, but like you can be present in it at all, and at peace with that. This feeling is in part what helps me recognize how much happier I am and how much better I'm healing now. Things still get really tough sometimes of course, but now they don't feel so much like they're deciding factors in whether or not I can make it another day. For anyone else struggling with these things: It does get worse, at first. But then it gets so, so, so, SO much better. Trust me.
Sad to hear about your struggles, but I'm so happy that you're doing better now. I wish you a life full of peace, health and happiness. You deserve it.
Aw this is beautifully written. I'm also in a better place on my journey with mental illnesses. I'll have them forever, but the effort I put in daily toward feeling functional and finding happiness has been so worth it. I'm saving this video because it resonates deeply. I carry a lot of guilt and grief over the years I lost to mental illness, but I know now my body and mind were doing the best they could as I fought to exist. I can hear how hard you've worked - you must have a great therapist, because I can hear them through your words. We are worth the effort it takes to feel happy, to exist in peace 🫶 all the best to you and your journey
I love who you are; it took a lot of guts to make this video. I have been very fortunate in life, but have seen these things up close and personal for people that I care for immensely.
I think that you are beautiful, clear and trustworthy as a person.
Best wishes - and you are very brave.
You are a very brave and lovely young lady, I have had some real problems in the past and sometimes they come back, listening to you has helped me no end. I wish you all the very best. Oh, I love your videos, thank you.
From another who struggles with mental health; I see you, and I appreciate you.
Thank you for your candor Vasi.
Thank you for listening ❤
We approach life from differing theological views (Christianity vs Buddhism) but even within those there are similar truths that echo. I know you will have hard days ahead still - times when it feels like circumstance has taken a side road and the strength you built up has abandoned you. I pray you continue to trust what you have learned, what your body has learned, and the support you have surrounding you and know that you will come through! Praying for peace and continued healing in your life! You are a beautiful person inside and out, and you deserve to hear that every day.
Thank you for being so open, i relate to this so much as someone who also has adhd and suspected cptsd, i learned a lot from the youtube channel crappy childhood fairy (she has cptsd herself) i highly recommend watching her- she's great. Im so happy for you getting good treatment, I'd love to try emdr I've heard many good things. I am inspired by your ability to share such private things about yourself and how hard you've worked to live this life- i can relate to a lot of what you have described and it gives me hope to see someone i can relate to living in a way i didn't think possible. Wishing you well ❤
What a great Statement! You are doing wonderful Work. And from my own experience, i can ashure you ist's getting better and better. Mantras helped a lot,aswell ss Dancing, knitting, sewing,crochetting. And Long walks outside! 30 years after the Same diagnosis treated at first traditionel i learned the Body needs more. Maybe a glance at the four Wind school of Dr. Villoldo may bring another piece of Feeling whole and Safe. Be blessed
Thank you very much for this. yes we need to share our experiences with mental health more, and, idk, bleach out the stigma still associated with it. Again, thank you. I felt I learned, re-learned and remembered many important things listening and watching. I also had learned that depersonalisation creeping in again is the warning sign for me that reads "that´s it, you´re not ok, take a break, or we are going back to the dreary place". I am happy for you that you are feeling better, and I am amazed by what you built for yourself, I really am. It seems a beautiful place. I think we have a similar style of cooking.
I wish you all the best for your journey into the sun.
Firstly, thank you so very much for sharing your very personal life with us all. I know full well the challenges of Complex PTSD as a result of childhood trauma. I've strugled with depression since I was 16, and began counseling at 27. I've been on antidepressants for going on 30yrs now.
Secondly, I'm very relieved to hear you've found effective and compassionate counseling. From personal experience, I can honestly say that a good counselor is truly a lifesaver.
Thirdly, I also deal with OCD, but mildly so. It rarely manifests itself; usually evident as anxiety triggered by childhood trauma experiences.
Fourthly, a rewarding spiritual life/practice is absolutely essential in dealing with mental illness/trauma. Speaking of which, I applaud your openness about mental illness awareness, and your intentions for increased access to care.
Lastly, do what makes you truly happy. I can say that I greatly appreciate your including us in this. Remember, also, that your private life is yours alone, and is no business of mine or anyone else's.
Take care of yourself first always!
😭 you’re so amazing! I’m older than you and no where close to being as intelligent and achieved as you are so def should be proud of yourself.
Hear, hear. Thank you for endorsing the help that mental health practitioners can give. I've gotten real help and support dealing with my bi-polar diagnosis. I try to support the rollback of mental health stigma. I enjoyed this video and a glimpse into your life. BTW, yummy looking soup!
Thank you for sharing such a personal side of your life. It can be hard to share something so personal. I see such an amazing person and feel previledged to be able to have this peek into your journey. Wishing you continued growth and prosperity and I look forwards to seeing all that you are willing to share with us.
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I feel that so much. Thank you for putting it so beautifully.
What a ray of sunshine you are c:
This is a video many people needed, me included
I can really relate to the story of misdiagnosis. Someone very close to me had been in therapy for about 20 years without anything really fundamentally changing the cycle of depressive episodes and anxiety until they finally found the right combination of therapists who attempted yet a new diagnosis and treatment and it finally worked and they have been happier and healthier in the last years than I ever saw them before. They also never gave up in seeking support and ultimately it worked. It's still very hard to live with trauma, but now there is hope of a somewhat peaceful life not dominated by fear. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so glad you found the right path for you and I wish that you continue to heal and grow!
ah to feel joy again. it's basically my life goal at this point and once I can feel true joy again I want to enjoy life as much as I can. I don't really care about anything else when it comes to me, anything else I do is for the people I love and their future, otherwise I probably would be somewhere else rn. I call it learning to live again and I'm fortunate enough to live in a country that gives me chance after chance to do that.
This was such a beautiful, touching, and relatable video. I've personally found IFS (Internal Family Systems) therapy ideas similarly helpful, though I'm still on my own path. For me I found that IFS's non-pathologizing parts work has paired well somatic and EMDR work. And yes, I *really* related to how you mentioned that you've just consumed many books and podcasts on different therapy modalities and information as a way of intellectualizing. I think personally IFS offered me a way to actually look inside my mind and physically feel my personal protective structures, how they've tried to help me even when they've hurt me, and the life experiences that created them. It's so incredibly valuable to be able to find a way back to your body and to find new peace within. This was very moving. I'm happy for you and I wish you all the best ❤
This video was visually and emotionally beautiful, thank you for sharing with us ❤
as someone who also suffered severe trauma their entire life until the past 4-5 years, I really appreciated this video. cptsd is so hard and I feel like a lot of people don't understand it, because in a lot of ways, we ourselves don't even know how to put our feelings into words (at least for me.)
Your honesty is greatly appreciated. I’ve had to experience much of that myself- from my perspective, I can relate.
Alot of things has kept me frustrated n lost about myself I'm glad n grateful to have come across your channel...I deal with major depression, ocd, and PTSD ...I just want u to know watching this today was more helpful than u will ever know😊❤ thank u so much
I've been watching and enjoying your videos a lot, and this one particularly spoke to me, as someone who has also a history of struggling with mental health. I'm really so glad that you found such a great therapist and that you feel so much better
I am glad that you found some measure of peace. It took me years before I was even ready for therapy to treat what was ultimately diagnoses as chronic and complex combat related PTSD from my multiple tours in the early years in Iraq. So, do I get a cookie for the Three Cs? Meh, jokes aside, I do like your content and I'm glad I found it today. I needed something uplifting, and your week of medieval food video delivered!
Thank you for sharing this. I'm appreciating it as fellow cptsd sufferer. It's only for a good, I'm sure you are helping someone with sharing your story ❤
Thank you. Inspired by your words, I did some important selfcare today (that I tend to push off). I'm glad you're doing well and able to create fun content. Take care.
That soup looks so delicious - full of most of my favorite ingredients! Gotta give these parsnips a bit of a tryout. I think I'll give this a go next week as we're heading into chilly weather and I need to increase my store of quick and easy recipes. Thank you ...
This comment is very late, but I just wanted to applaud your bravery and willingness to be vulnerable and share this part of yourself. Thank you.
Thank you for vulnerably and so articulately sharing your experience with mental health issues and in therapy. I’m so grateful that you are improving after so many years of suffering. ❤ As a therapist with similar mental health issues, I can relate to your experience. Thank you for growing awareness of CPTSD. Although it’s not a DSM diagnosis yet, continuing raising awareness might help change that. There are some professionals that have knowledge and training in treating it, but not as many as we need. There’s a huge gap between those seeking mental health treatment and therapists being able to treat them with more than short-term treatments. Thank you for adding to the effort to destigmatize long-term and pervasive mental health issues. I wish you continued healing, joy, and perseverance to live life in your body to its fullest.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Your so encouraging, and give me so much hope for my future self.
Thank you! I’m wishing you all the best, you’ve got this 🥰
A truly touching, beautiful and brave piece, I'm so glad you took the path you are now on ❤🙏ॐ मणि पद्मे हूँ 🙏❤
You've had a rough life. Houselessness is incredibly traumatic, and I'm sorry that was your life for a year.
It can be so hard for any of us with C-PTSD and PTSD to even reckon with our lives. The right therapist is like a small miracle happening. Thank you for showing a part of your life (and please please please please PLEASE share some of your recipes. Your food looks amazing.)
Labels and diagnoses are simply tools, and getting a diagnosis is only the beginning of a healing process, not the end goal. Remember that the bravest thing you can do if you’re struggling is to ask for help. You have been incredibly brave, Vasi, and you still are. You’ve found your way, and are still finding your way, through a world that isn’t always built for how your brain works, and doing the best you can to make your stay in it a good one.
Agreed 😊 Asking for help and support is so vital.
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I’m so glad to see you settle into your current situation and becoming content and joyful in it.
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@@ragnkja just read the rest of your comment. Thank you so so much!! I’m always so grateful for your support 🥰
I only just found your channel today, and I'm so happy I did! This video especially really resonated with me. Your mental and physical health journey sounds very similar to mine, and hearing you speaking about it made me feel seen and less alone
Hi V, I only came across your channel the other day (love the content about historical clothing btw) so I wasn't expecting one of the videos to be like this. I am struggling with some similar mental health issues, and have been most my life, so I would just like to say thank you for this video. It's been hard for me recently and this touched me in a way that little else has in recent memory, and given me a glimmer of hope I've really been needing. Right place and right time. You seem like such a wonderful soul, and the empathy you show here is so sincere and powerful. I hope I can emulate at least some of what you've demonstrated - thanks for giving this hopeless soul a small spark of a better tomorrow
You are already helping others as I think this video will really help someone out there who needs it. I wish you the very best going forward. And that smile you how now seem so pretty and genuine. I look forward to seeing it more often.
C-ptsd sucks, thank you for sharing ❤
I'm so glad to hear that you have been able to get a diagnosis that is correct for you & that you have gotten better help for your mental health. ❤❤❤
I struggle with mental health. It most often have felt like my brain is attacking itself for no reason, because I am and have been fortunate through my life. A cancer of the mind perhaps.
A correct diagnosis is in my experience vital, I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome in 2019 and the sheer relif and understanding that gave me about my life was immense. It also allowed the medical professionals to distinguish what was and was not 'damage' better, to understand me better.
Thank you for sharing your art and being such a great inspiration. Watching your videos has often helped me in my darker hours, with all their soothing beauty.
To me, learning about your struggles adds just another layer to your art and how the greatest appreciation for life sometimes comes from a place of great suffering.
Thank you for being here
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❤ thank you for sharing yourself with us. I am so glad you are in a happier place with your health. It can take so much hard work.
I started watching your channel because I enjoy history and found your take on it with your historical fashion quite interesting, and have enjoyed many of your videos. This one however deeply connects with me on so many levels. Kudo's to you for keeping on keeping on. I know from personal experience how difficult that may be to do. escapism and disassociation becoming the norm instead of the exception. I find that statements such as what you just did help me and encourage me to do the same, proof that there are others who know the struggle and understand and are also successful in remaining. So... Thank you. I also realized that this video is 9 months old and you will likely not see this but I am typing this as it is the only way I know to express the gratitude I currently feel.
Thank for this wonderful video. I have been nearly completely unable to form connections with others for most of my adult life. Diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, social anxiety, and probably c-PTSD, my high effort attempts to improve on this have been marginal for over a decade, even with therapy, medication, and meditation. Lately I have been on the fence with throwing in the towel on attemptting to create human connections, finding a way to accept I am unwanted, and how live a unfulfilling life, completely isolated sithout anyone else. Your video gave me a lot to think about, and I’m going to keep at it a bit while longer, with a few more approaches to consider.
❤Love❤ I agree so strongly about the importance of access to mental health care.
Happy for you ❤
Dear Vasi, I stumbled across your channel only a month or so ago and I have thoroughly enjoyed watching all your videos as I sew. Your words and gentleness and your dedication to research and sewing really resonates and inspires me. I had wrongly assumed that your life was without its troubles as I think we're prone to do with the snippets we get of people's lives online and I suppose it also acts as an excuse personally as to why I can't have the beautiful and ease-filled Iife I assume you have. This video made me aware of my own faults but also made me all the more endeared to you. So much of what tou described reflects in my own life and its always uncanny to think how much more connected we all are (even from on the other side of the globe!) than we are different. Anyway, thank you for being you and for your honesty. It was a humbling experience 🌼
Thank you for sharing. It helps more than you might know. Bless you.
I'm so happy for you that you are doing better, overcoming past trauma, and getting good help. I sympathize deeply. I have felt numb and depressed for years after a bad car accident, so nothing to compare with trauma, but bad enough. You are a beautiful wonderful person inside and out, you deserve love and happiness.
Hi....Randomly, one evening whilst skimming through youtube videos to alleviate my insomnia, "the algorithm" saw fit to include one of your uploads on my dashboard...I have been a avid follower and subscriber ever since. Your content is both insightful and soothing to me, akin to a bedtime story. I'm a chef and musician living and working in London, UK. I just finished watching this video on your past mental state and wanted to let you know that your content has and continues to be a joy and major help to my mental state...I feel like my whole day is 200mph and then I watch your videos and the brakes are gently applied....Please know that I appreciate what you do and its absolutely key my present happiness and wellbeing....Thank you
Thank you so much for your kind words! I really appreciate it!
Thank you so much for sharing this. I was happy to see Luis Mojica's podcast in your list of recommendations; his course, membership and teachings in general have been HUGE for me in understanding and (most importantly) relating to trauma.
Thank you so much for watching!
Luis Mojica’s work has been huge for my healing as well, so that’s lovely to hear you’ve been so impacted by it as well ❤️
Thank you for sharing this beautiful video. I think often the hardest part of dealing with mental health struggles is the exhaustion and (due to stigma) isolation which can come up when trying to even figure out which supports to ask for.
Yes.