2 and half years ago I was diagnosed as with Bi-polar 1 , Adhd, interpersonally sensitive with high intelligence and PTSD with explosive anger in addition to hypervigilance. The insane thing is I didn't even know what all things diagnoses were or even ment. I am also an addict in recovery. The Mental health facility is also an outpatient clinic. I instantly started meeting with the psychiatrist also MSW. Learning about all of these insane diagnoses I have. I wasn't sure is I was fixable. I went there because I was having anxiety and I couldn't walk into a grocery store. A friend of gave me a half of zanix. All of a sudden I was able to walk into Walmart with no worries. Low and behold it turns out how I felt like I am living in a world that I don't belong in. I have like since I was a child I didn't belong anywhere. When I would get high on coke or meth with alcohol and weed and this cocktail I felt like I could survive in this world another day. Many of appts. With Dr. Therapists group therapy. A total of almost 2 years worth except 2 month run in which the first meds I was put on threw me into a bi polar depression and I did the only thing I learn to cope this is I got high in which elevated me into hypo Manic to manic. I came back on the end of a 2 month relapse and got back on meds I put myself in inpatient treatment which local so I could go to the Mental Health Clinic in the evenings for my mental health. Since it has been a journey if discovery in who I am and what I am. Last July my Clinic offered me a job as a Receptionist and in 6 months I would start practicing as a C.A.D.C.R. AS OF last week I am no longer a Receptionist but I am a Clinician with my own office. It still blows me away I get to work for the same place that has helped me and made me feel like I wasn't crazy or actually showed me everyone is crazy we just have different levels of crazy and it's subject to change with anyone.
Just looking through mental illness, I have complex PTSD and MDD . You are very brave to speak out, about your problem. Many people think that we with PTSD are ready to take up a gun and kill. My PTSD is from seeing innocent folks killed or severely injured. The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt someone.They are in my thoughts and dreams. I can’t get them out of my head.
Hey Hanna , I just want to tell that that watching your videos have really helped me in several different ways. And I want to thank u. Since my bipolar 2 diagnosis 4 yrs ago I have w put up all my walls and was scared to death to make any new friendships. Your videos let me start a new friendship and soon afterwards shared the fact I have bipolar disorder . It was scary but freeing and thank goodness she has accepted me and being able to b vulnerable has deepened friendship even more. It’s a step in right direction! You courage has washed over me and I just don’t feel ashamed like I did for so long. Pls don’t ever stop telling your story.. you are so so inspiring. 💫
Hi Cassie! This means so much to me. I am inspired by this beautiful community with brave individuals like yourself. You are amazing just as you are. Thank you! -Hannah
Hi Hannah, I love you and your videos, thank you for all you do. 💕 Just a side note I’m a rapid cycler, I can be different in the same day, it usually about every 4 or 5 days though. (The way you described is much more common.) Rapid cycling is so frustrating, makes it really hard to plan or accomplish things, you can fall apart at any second even when you think you are doing fine that day or that morning. I feel like I’m the only one, but I was actually relieved by my diagnosis. After searching for 14 years with no success of any treatments or meds working, I was at the point of giving up on life. My diagnosis gave me HUGE relief because I was not functional at the time. Finding out there might be other treatments/meds, gave me hope. Knowing what was going on with me made me feel like there was a reason I couldn’t stop it or make it go away with my own willpower. I always felt it was all my fault, I did everything humanly possible to help myself and nothing worked. I’m doing much better and more functional, since finding out. (I know my story is not the norm, just wanted to share.) 😊
Hi! We all have different stories and it's important to share them. I appreciate you sharing part of your experience as well. We can all relate to one another. Thank you! -Hannah
My name is John and I was diagnosed as bi-polar 2 years ago. 42 years of my life I didn't know what was wrong with me. I have been learning to cope it and channel my energy to do good things. Is this platform where people talk. I would love to have more understand to what bi-polar is
I wanted to share something hurtful that happened to me. I came out to my parents as queer, and they were homophobic, so I stopped going home. During that transition period of when I stopped going to their house, one of my sisters said "are you acting this way because of your bipolar disorder?" Now, what I'd actually said to her about my mental health was that I was really struggling with depression because of everything falling apart in my life. I was experiencing trauma, and that made me want to look into medication again, and apparently I was too open about that, because it led my sister to misunderstand the whole situation. She said it out of ignorance. But no matter how many times I tried to explain to my family members what it means to have bipolar disorder, they did not retain the information and would always say hurtful and wrong and accusatory things to me.
I have suffered with depression for over 20 years and after doing research I believe I may have bipolar disorder. Your videos are helpful thank you. I'm looking for answers.
I've gotten: drug addict; because our drugs could knock out a horse, keep eyes on spouse and children; because we have an out of control sex drive. clepto/steal money because of the symptoms they hear. 'schizo jr.' because they think bipolar is a mild form of schizophrenia. These are things I hear people say to each other at gatherings or on the street etc. And yet, people wonder why we don't tell (including myself) everyone about our diagnosis. If it wasn't almost criminal it would be laughable.
I have bipolar 2 disorder. The meth I don’t like hearing is “go to the park and walk.” I sort of understand older generation saying not taking meds is possible and it should be done. Mental illness wasn’t discussed like today. But it’s important for everyone to know that it is “an illness”. Our body is lacking the things everyone else have. This is a frustrating topic isn’t it Hannah?
Hi! It's interesting because I was just having this conversation with someone about this problem. It's very frustrating. I will do a video about this soon! Thank you! Do whatever works for you! -Hannah
Hi John! Thank you so much for bringing that to my attention. I will remember for next time I discuss this topic. I think it's the way 'mood swings' are portrayed in the media that's the problem. I really appreciate your comment. -Hannah
I'm bipolar type II and I can rapid cycle from time to time. It happens to most of us with BP, but it's not common for such rapid cycling as Hannah pointed out. I've also had several episodes of psychosis over the past couple decades. I even experience episodes of catatonia which usually align with psychosis. BP is different for everyone, or at least it is in my opinion.
Matthew Wilson from what I’ve read Bipolar is typically shifted a few times a year. To shift several times a day is called Ultra Ultra Rapid Cycling. I agree we are all different and that the definitions don’t always fit us perfectly. I wish you well with the added burdens you suffer from.
@@johnsari3515 Thank you. It's been the most difficult for me over the past 3 or 4 months than it's ever been in my life. Things have been extra stressful now more than ever with some life changes. I can't handle it all and I've been feeling hopeless. I'm still breathing though.
Matthew Wilson I’m so sorry but I can relate. I’m facing possible brain cancer and My BP brain is just going off the rails. You’ll be in my thoughts and I hope things get a little better for us both soon. Be well!
Hi! I understand. There are so many people living with bipolar that struggle to work and are on treatment. This is a very good point that I will remember next time I talk about treatment. Thank you for sharing! -Hannah
I hate it when people talk about the weather being "so bipolar" when it is unpredictable. And so many other little things like that. Just the assumption that if you have Bipolar disorder you are crazy and always overemotional even when the emotion is warranted for any individual, not just someone with bipolar. Like every fight in the family, any drama with friends, I get blamed for it. Always.
Hi! I totally understand where you are coming from. Those of us living with bipolar disorder are constantly used as a platform for blame. It's so important we remind ourselves every day that we are not what stigma tells us. Thank you for sharing! -Hannah
there are not only 2 types of bipolar disorder. bipolar disorder spectrum must be taken first of all. you have to evaluate bipolar disorder in a scale. I have not typical bipolar disorder! so?! i have bipolar disorder unspecified???
I'm crazy and nothing I say has much value unless I'm agreeing. Or because I have bipolar if anything goes wrong or I get I'm sad that people don't value my boundaries or if I don't like the way something happens it's all in my mind because what they're doing is perfectly okay. I've got it all wrong because I have a mental illness making their actions right. Even if I'm honest with people praying for me I'm thought of different
Idk your description sounds like me a bit but I cannot tell. My parents say I might be and i have looked it up and the descriptions sound like what I do but I’m not sure if anyone in my family has it, my Dad might have had it. Also too scared to talk to anyone cause I feel like I can’t describe it. But I just want to know if Bipolar disorder does not have to be passed down? Sorry about my english I’m germane.
Hannah, Are so on with myths, I know my bipolar, I am not a violation person, it so true. They did same to me when I had bipolar, because I have a cousin who has bipolar, both side of my family, more dad’s side family there a of history of mental health issues. There is no cure for bipolar, all can Hope that medication u are will last a long time .
I don’t have Bipolar(at least not diagnosed) but I’m pretty emotional unstable. But anyway I’m only “violent” towards my phone😂😂😂. I tend to throw it around when angry
2 and half years ago I was diagnosed as with Bi-polar 1 , Adhd, interpersonally sensitive with high intelligence and PTSD with explosive anger in addition to hypervigilance. The insane thing is I didn't even know what all things diagnoses were or even ment. I am also an addict in recovery. The Mental health facility is also an outpatient clinic. I instantly started meeting with the psychiatrist also MSW. Learning about all of these insane diagnoses I have. I wasn't sure is I was fixable. I went there because I was having anxiety and I couldn't walk into a grocery store. A friend of gave me a half of zanix. All of a sudden I was able to walk into Walmart with no worries. Low and behold it turns out how I felt like I am living in a world that I don't belong in. I have like since I was a child I didn't belong anywhere. When I would get high on coke or meth with alcohol and weed and this cocktail I felt like I could survive in this world another day. Many of appts. With Dr. Therapists group therapy. A total of almost 2 years worth except 2 month run in which the first meds I was put on threw me into a bi polar depression and I did the only thing I learn to cope this is I got high in which elevated me into hypo Manic to manic. I came back on the end of a 2 month relapse and got back on meds I put myself in inpatient treatment which local so I could go to the Mental Health Clinic in the evenings for my mental health. Since it has been a journey if discovery in who I am and what I am. Last July my Clinic offered me a job as a Receptionist and in 6 months I would start practicing as a C.A.D.C.R. AS OF last week I am no longer a Receptionist but I am a Clinician with my own office. It still blows me away I get to work for the same place that has helped me and made me feel like I wasn't crazy or actually showed me everyone is crazy we just have different levels of crazy and it's subject to change with anyone.
Glory to the Lord
Just looking through mental illness, I have complex PTSD and MDD . You are very brave to speak out, about your problem. Many people think that we with PTSD are ready to take up a gun and kill. My PTSD is from seeing innocent folks killed or severely injured. The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt someone.They are in my thoughts and dreams. I can’t get them out of my head.
My parents and friends think it's a myth that I even have bipolar disorder.
Hey Hanna , I just want to tell that that watching your videos have really helped me in several different ways.
And I want to thank u. Since my bipolar 2 diagnosis 4 yrs ago I have w put up all my walls and was scared to death to make any new friendships. Your videos let me start a new friendship and soon afterwards shared the fact I have bipolar disorder . It was scary but freeing and thank goodness she has accepted me and being able to b vulnerable has deepened friendship even more. It’s a step in right direction!
You courage has washed over me and I just don’t feel ashamed like I did for so long. Pls don’t ever stop telling your story.. you are so so inspiring. 💫
Hi Cassie! This means so much to me. I am inspired by this beautiful community with brave individuals like yourself. You are amazing just as you are. Thank you! -Hannah
Hi Hannah, I love you and your videos, thank you for all you do. 💕 Just a side note I’m a rapid cycler, I can be different in the same day, it usually about every 4 or 5 days though. (The way you described is much more common.) Rapid cycling is so frustrating, makes it really hard to plan or accomplish things, you can fall apart at any second even when you think you are doing fine that day or that morning.
I feel like I’m the only one, but I was actually relieved by my diagnosis. After searching for 14 years with no success of any treatments or meds working, I was at the point of giving up on life. My diagnosis gave me HUGE relief because I was not functional at the time. Finding out there might be other treatments/meds, gave me hope. Knowing what was going on with me made me feel like there was a reason I couldn’t stop it or make it go away with my own willpower. I always felt it was all my fault, I did everything humanly possible to help myself and nothing worked. I’m doing much better and more functional, since finding out. (I know my story is not the norm, just wanted to share.) 😊
Hi! We all have different stories and it's important to share them. I appreciate you sharing part of your experience as well. We can all relate to one another. Thank you! -Hannah
My name is John and I was diagnosed as bi-polar 2 years ago. 42 years of my life I didn't know what was wrong with me. I have been learning to cope it and channel my energy to do good things. Is this platform where people talk. I would love to have more understand to what bi-polar is
I wanted to share something hurtful that happened to me.
I came out to my parents as queer, and they were homophobic, so I stopped going home.
During that transition period of when I stopped going to their house, one of my sisters said "are you acting this way because of your bipolar disorder?" Now, what I'd actually said to her about my mental health was that I was really struggling with depression because of everything falling apart in my life. I was experiencing trauma, and that made me want to look into medication again, and apparently I was too open about that, because it led my sister to misunderstand the whole situation.
She said it out of ignorance. But no matter how many times I tried to explain to my family members what it means to have bipolar disorder, they did not retain the information and would always say hurtful and wrong and accusatory things to me.
I have suffered with depression for over 20 years and after doing research I believe I may have bipolar disorder. Your videos are helpful thank you. I'm looking for answers.
Alex here! I enjoyed your video!
When someone thinks its a mindset and its all in our head to use as an excuse.
Most of my lows are caused by triggers. Triggers that I try hard to avoid
I've gotten: drug addict; because our drugs could knock out a horse, keep eyes on spouse and children; because we have an out of control sex drive. clepto/steal money because of the symptoms they hear. 'schizo jr.' because they think bipolar is a mild form of schizophrenia. These are things I hear people say to each other at gatherings or on the street etc. And yet, people wonder why we don't tell (including myself) everyone about our diagnosis. If it wasn't almost criminal it would be laughable.
I have bipolar 2 disorder. The meth I don’t like hearing is “go to the park and walk.” I sort of understand older generation saying not taking meds is possible and it should be done. Mental illness wasn’t discussed like today. But it’s important for everyone to know that it is “an illness”. Our body is lacking the things everyone else have. This is a frustrating topic isn’t it Hannah?
Hi! It's interesting because I was just having this conversation with someone about this problem. It's very frustrating. I will do a video about this soon! Thank you! Do whatever works for you! -Hannah
I have not heard any new videos this week. Are you ok?
Hannah, I am BP1 Rapid Cycling and can shift moods more than once in one day. Just an FYI
Hi John! Thank you so much for bringing that to my attention. I will remember for next time I discuss this topic. I think it's the way 'mood swings' are portrayed in the media that's the problem. I really appreciate your comment. -Hannah
I'm bipolar type II and I can rapid cycle from time to time. It happens to most of us with BP, but it's not common for such rapid cycling as Hannah pointed out. I've also had several episodes of psychosis over the past couple decades. I even experience episodes of catatonia which usually align with psychosis. BP is different for everyone, or at least it is in my opinion.
Matthew Wilson from what I’ve read Bipolar is typically shifted a few times a year. To shift several times a day is called Ultra Ultra Rapid Cycling. I agree we are all different and that the definitions don’t always fit us perfectly. I wish you well with the added burdens you suffer from.
@@johnsari3515 Thank you. It's been the most difficult for me over the past 3 or 4 months than it's ever been in my life. Things have been extra stressful now more than ever with some life changes. I can't handle it all and I've been feeling hopeless. I'm still breathing though.
Matthew Wilson I’m so sorry but I can relate. I’m facing possible brain cancer and My BP brain is just going off the rails. You’ll be in my thoughts and I hope things get a little better for us both soon. Be well!
I’m fully treated but am unable to work a job but I do the Mr mom at home. I’m bp1
Hi! I understand. There are so many people living with bipolar that struggle to work and are on treatment. This is a very good point that I will remember next time I talk about treatment. Thank you for sharing! -Hannah
HealthyPlace Mental Health your so caring and thoughtful. You go
Way beyond to help others. God bless you.
Love your vids!
Hi! Thank you so much! -Hannah
I hate it when people talk about the weather being "so bipolar" when it is unpredictable. And so many other little things like that. Just the assumption that if you have Bipolar disorder you are crazy and always overemotional even when the emotion is warranted for any individual, not just someone with bipolar. Like every fight in the family, any drama with friends, I get blamed for it. Always.
Hi! I totally understand where you are coming from. Those of us living with bipolar disorder are constantly used as a platform for blame. It's so important we remind ourselves every day that we are not what stigma tells us. Thank you for sharing! -Hannah
Thank you for this
there are not only 2 types of bipolar disorder. bipolar disorder spectrum must be taken first of all. you have to evaluate bipolar disorder in a scale. I have not typical bipolar disorder! so?!
i have bipolar disorder unspecified???
Hi! Thank you for sharing your perspective. -Hannah
I'm crazy and nothing I say has much value unless I'm agreeing. Or because I have bipolar if anything goes wrong or I get I'm sad that people don't value my boundaries or if I don't like the way something happens it's all in my mind because what they're doing is perfectly okay. I've got it all wrong because I have a mental illness making their actions right. Even if I'm honest with people praying for me I'm thought of different
Idk your description sounds like me a bit but I cannot tell. My parents say I might be and i have looked it up and the descriptions sound like what I do but I’m not sure if anyone in my family has it, my Dad might have had it. Also too scared to talk to anyone cause I feel like I can’t describe it. But I just want to know if Bipolar disorder does not have to be passed down?
Sorry about my english I’m germane.
Hannah, Are so on with myths, I know my bipolar, I am not a violation person, it so true. They did same to me when I had bipolar, because I have a cousin who has bipolar, both side of my family, more dad’s side family there a of history of mental health issues. There is no cure for bipolar, all can Hope that medication u are will last a long time .
Hi Jamie! I agree with you--I am not violent and it's a common and hurtful misconception. Thank you for sharing part of your story with me! -Hannah
Thanks 🌺
Hi Natalia! Thank you for watching! -Hannah
Thank you
I don’t have Bipolar(at least not diagnosed) but I’m pretty emotional unstable. But anyway I’m only “violent” towards my phone😂😂😂. I tend to throw it around when angry
Hi! I think everyone is violent towards their phone! Thanks for commenting. Love your sense of humor! -Hannah
thanks for uploading the video by the way u look beautiful in this costume
thank you....green is your colour