I know something is broken, but i've grown so used to this that i don't even want to get better. Its weird, but its fine. Getting better wouldn't change a thing.
I’m sad because I’m so jealous of Bakugo. His mom can understand his jokes. He jokes around a lot even though it seems like he’s always mad. He has a huge group of friends, I wish I had that. I have 2 friends and they don’t like each other. He lives on campus so he doesn’t have to see his parents. I wish I had that. He has a close childhood friend he would sacrifice anything for. I wish I had that. He sees his friends every day. I wish I had that. He has good grades. I wish I had that. He’s so strong and powerful, he has pretty much no fears. I wish I had that. Bakugo wants to live, he doesn’t do self harm. And he ends up dying anyways. I wish I had that… I know he’s an anime character but I would trade lives with him. I hate seeing him yet he’s my comfort character. I relate to quite a few people in MHA. People genuinely love him. I wish I had that… He’s so physically different from me, I can’t even get up from bed some days. My mental health is getting worse. No one can tell even with how obvious it is. I stay up until 4, wake up at 12. Most days I don’t leave my bed. I have scissors in my room. I barely ever get dressed. I don’t eat a lot of food, like some days I don’t eat until 6 and most days I only eat 1 meal and a few snacks. I have scratches on my arms and tons of bumps from picking at them out of stress. I cry myself to sleep every night. I bet Bakugo hasn’t gone through that. I’m mad at the world. It’s my fault, but I’m angry. I like to joke around as well but lots of people don’t get my jokes and I end up getting in trouble. I’ve been like this since I was SEVEN. I would rather be a dead Bakugo than an alive me. People cry over him.
Haha.. it’s not even funny when you can relate to it I might be laughing from the outside but I’m dying from the inside every one says your going to be “fine” am I going to be fine?! Or are you just telling me that because I’m more worthless then a dead plant! And no trauma doesn’t go away and it will never go away even how hard you try that’s the society/world we live in a messed up one (stay safe)
Yeah..I get that..I've been broken..I hate to say it MULTIPLE TIMES..and am starting to get sick of it..I might..I MIGHT..! Everything has gone so wrong this year to the point this might be the worst year of my life but that's okay cause I got my bestie Delilah my closest friend and online friend
I just want someone to realize how much I need someone to just listen for once. The moment I start talking, it circles back to them, so i just end up listening to their problems over and over and over. I just want someone to listen once. they don't have to do it again. Just once.
im tired..Im tired of always smiling..im tired of wearing the mask..but if i take it off..they’ll get mad. They’ll get disappointed. Im seen as weak, an attention seeker, and just overecting. Am I overeacting? Am I depressed? Maybe it’s normal to always think you’re a failure. Maybe it’s normal to never be able to act like yourself. Maybe I should just suck it up. Maybe Im just a broken freak. My body is on autopilot. I’ll smile, I’ll laugh, I’ll cry, but I don’t feel anything anymore. Nothing’s in me.
im tired..Im tired of always smiling..im tired of wearing the mask..but if i take it off..they’ll get mad. They’ll get disappointed. Im seen as weak, an attention seeker, and just overecting. Am I overeacting? Am I depressed? Maybe it’s normal to always think you’re a failure. Maybe it’s normal to never be able to act like yourself. Maybe I should just suck it up. Maybe Im just a broken freak. My body is on autopilot. I’ll smile, I’ll laugh, I’ll cry, but I don’t feel anything anymore. Nothing’s in me. Now i get scared of good things, cause i feel like im worthless. a sensitive freak.
I feel you deku. I keep having mental breakdowns. And I noticed that a part of me is broken
I know something is broken, but i've grown so used to this that i don't even want to get better.
Its weird, but its fine.
Getting better wouldn't change a thing.
I’m sad because I’m so jealous of Bakugo. His mom can understand his jokes. He jokes around a lot even though it seems like he’s always mad. He has a huge group of friends, I wish I had that. I have 2 friends and they don’t like each other. He lives on campus so he doesn’t have to see his parents. I wish I had that. He has a close childhood friend he would sacrifice anything for. I wish I had that. He sees his friends every day. I wish I had that. He has good grades. I wish I had that. He’s so strong and powerful, he has pretty much no fears. I wish I had that. Bakugo wants to live, he doesn’t do self harm. And he ends up dying anyways. I wish I had that… I know he’s an anime character but I would trade lives with him. I hate seeing him yet he’s my comfort character. I relate to quite a few people in MHA. People genuinely love him. I wish I had that… He’s so physically different from me, I can’t even get up from bed some days. My mental health is getting worse. No one can tell even with how obvious it is. I stay up until 4, wake up at 12. Most days I don’t leave my bed. I have scissors in my room. I barely ever get dressed. I don’t eat a lot of food, like some days I don’t eat until 6 and most days I only eat 1 meal and a few snacks. I have scratches on my arms and tons of bumps from picking at them out of stress. I cry myself to sleep every night. I bet Bakugo hasn’t gone through that. I’m mad at the world. It’s my fault, but I’m angry. I like to joke around as well but lots of people don’t get my jokes and I end up getting in trouble. I’ve been like this since I was SEVEN. I would rather be a dead Bakugo than an alive me. People cry over him.
Haha.. it’s not even funny when you can relate to it I might be laughing from the outside but I’m dying from the inside every one says your going to be “fine” am I going to be fine?! Or are you just telling me that because I’m more worthless then a dead plant! And no trauma doesn’t go away and it will never go away even how hard you try that’s the society/world we live in a messed up one (stay safe)
I relate ml i went through this too and still a little andi was forced to stop $h 💗💗
Yeah..I get that..I've been broken..I hate to say it MULTIPLE TIMES..and am starting to get sick of it..I might..I MIGHT..! Everything has gone so wrong this year to the point this might be the worst year of my life but that's okay cause I got my bestie Delilah my closest friend and online friend
I just want someone to realize how much I need someone to just listen for once. The moment I start talking, it circles back to them, so i just end up listening to their problems over and over and over. I just want someone to listen once. they don't have to do it again. Just once.
I hope u find someone to listen to u
i want to be able to watch the rest of ur videos but i have to put my ID in but i dont know where it is 😭😭😭😭😭
im tired..Im tired of always smiling..im tired of wearing the mask..but if i take it off..they’ll get mad. They’ll get disappointed. Im seen as weak, an attention seeker, and just overecting. Am I overeacting? Am I depressed? Maybe it’s normal to always think you’re a failure. Maybe it’s normal to never be able to act like yourself. Maybe I should just suck it up. Maybe Im just a broken freak. My body is on autopilot. I’ll smile, I’ll laugh, I’ll cry, but I don’t feel anything anymore. Nothing’s in me.
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im tired..Im tired of always smiling..im tired of wearing the mask..but if i take it off..they’ll get mad. They’ll get disappointed. Im seen as weak, an attention seeker, and just overecting. Am I overeacting? Am I depressed? Maybe it’s normal to always think you’re a failure. Maybe it’s normal to never be able to act like yourself. Maybe I should just suck it up. Maybe Im just a broken freak. My body is on autopilot. I’ll smile, I’ll laugh, I’ll cry, but I don’t feel anything anymore. Nothing’s in me. Now i get scared of good things, cause i feel like im worthless. a sensitive freak.