Ok I started bawling the second you did!!! Our fur babies hold a significantly special place in our hearts. I have cried since my dog was a puppy over the mere idea of living without him. Meryl is an Angel, and I hope she meows over our screens for years to come. Thank you for sharing her with us!! And you have every right to be emotional about it. Sending you lots of love ❤️
It breaks my heart to hear the news about sweet Meryl, she is one of my favourite internet cats. I hope the vets can work out a solution and she can live many more years of her happy life with you. Sending lots of love to all of you ❤
Your tears are so valid, don't be sorry for showing them when they really represent the love you feel for your pet! I lost my two kitties to kidney failure a few years ago within a year of each other and it was one of the hardest things to experience, they truly are family and it's no different than losing a loved one. Switching to a vet-brand urinary diet wet food is good for as long as they have an appetite (and eventually trialling any food type including just treats if they aren't eating enough or become picky), mixing water in with their food, antinauseant meds, and learning to give them at-home fluid injections will greatly improve how long they can live with kidney failure. Sending all the love and light to you and little Meryl 💜🐾
Excellent advice and tips. I lost 2 of my fur babies to kidney failure also. And Sub-Q fluids were so supportive. Unfortunately for my babies I couldn’t switch up their diet as they had very sensitive tummies.💞🦋🦋💞
I am a cat mom too (4 adopted cats) I am sending Meryl a lot of prayers to live a long long long life. But Allana remember that adopting her was a real gift for her. You literally saved her life . Much love for you both 😻😻😻
Please don’t feel ANY kind of way about being upset about Meryl. We feel gratitude in you keeping up in the loop, if nothing else. She’s your sweet baby angel and you’re well within your right to be devastated when receiving any kind of bad news regarding her health. Go smooch and cuddle your baby 💓
Oh Allana, I'm so sorry and there is no need to apologize for the sadness or the tears. Meryl has always been the sweetest -- and the most vocal kitty 💖Sending you both big hugs ❤
Awww Allana I’m so so sorry. This is so sad and so terrible to go through. It’s so sad to see you upset. No one can prepare you for the amount of love you can have for your pets, especially for the potential loss of them! Sending you lots of love 🤍
I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but losing a pet is not made any easier by the fact that you may have experienced it before. I thought maybe I would be more prepared with my next animal, but I wasn’t. I had three kitty babies, they were siblings and were the last three left in the litter so I of course thought I needed to take all of them. They gave me the most incredible 19 years that I could have ever asked for and I lost them all within 6 months of each other. The last one I had to say goodbye to only a couple of months ago. Now, it’s just me in a house by myself and I am still hardly even able to believe that it’s real that they are gone. But the one thing I did want to make sure to tell you is that all three of them were diagnosed with stage 2 kidney disease when they were 13 years old. They lived to be 19 and not one of them actually passed from Kidney failure. I worked as a vet tech for many years and saw many many cats with kidney disease that lived into their 20s even. I just want you to know how truly possible it is that you will have your precious girl for a good many years still, but I do know how difficult it is to get a diagnosis like that. Sending you guys lots of love and prayers and will keep precious little Meryl in my prayers as well. 😻😻😻
Hearing the diagnosis and feeling devastated. Overthinking what we did wrong. Wondering If they are in pain. Wishing they live forever and ever. Those are all indications of what a great fur mom you are ❤ Sending tons of love to Meryl, you and Dan. 💕
I’m so sorry 😔 Please never apologise for crying or being sad. It’s horrible news and you’re allowed to be upset. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing with us all ❤ Sending all the love to you and the angel baby!!! 🐈⬛ xx
I’m so sorry Allana, you are not being dramatic at all. Meryl is a family member and if anything the one you have the purest form of love with because of the deep connection created with a creature that doesn’t communicate with words like us. I had a beautiful kitty who was ill when I adopted her but like you never fathomed that she would ever leave us, and she would be my kids’ big sister, and be with us forever. She has sadly passed but she was the happiest kitty ever, as is Meryl now because of all the love you give her! 🩵🩵🩵🩵 we love Meryl toooooo! May we see her be a grumpy old lady 😂
I’m so sorry. ❤ I’ll pray for you and sweet sweet Meryl. My best angel baby had kidney failure as well. You don’t have to apologize for loving your baby.
Oh Allana im so so sorry that you’re going through this with your sweet Meryl. I completely understand how you feel and I have been through this with my kitties. It’s completely ok to cry about this and it’s a sign of how much you love Meryl and she’s so lucky to have you. Sending you lots of love ❤
I just wanted to say thank you so much for being brave and vulnerable with us, every video of yours has been a little piece of my life over the past few years so it's been so special to see this different and more raw side of you, I'm sorry for what you are going through but I'm happy to see the different shades of your life and here for you on your journey xxx
sending you so much love, pets are so special to us and such a huge part of our lives ❤ I’m the same way with my cat wishing he could live forever 😢 I know you guys are such good parents to her and she’s so lucky to have you! ❤
Aw I’m so sad to hear that about Meryl. I have lost pets in the past - my most recent being my beautiful cat Luna who had kidney disease. I had to make the difficult choice to put her down but it was the best decision despite how hard it was. She had no quality of life left and it was so sad to see. 😢 The only thing we can do is love our pets unconditionally every single day for as long as they live. ❤
My husband , who couldn’t care less about makeup, knows Meryl…listen to her purr… she’ s your little love. We have had two kitties in our 41 years together and it physically hurts when they hurt. So don’t apologize at all, feel all the feels, and sadness and love Meryl to the moon and back. We got you, Allana , we got you…❤
Please never feel you have to say sorry for feeling your emotions . Our animals are our family , our love for them is so special and precious. My sweet boy is 15 and I think about losing him all the time and do everything to keep him well , terrified at every wee change or when he's under the weather. Meryl is so loved , you love her and do the best for her and that's all we can do ❤
Crying along with you Lan - pets are family and it’s so confronting to think of losing them. Thank you for the honesty and vulnerability ❤ sending love and health to you all xx
Allana I’m so sorry bless your heart. Sending all my love, I’ve experienced this and it’s so hard. Meryl is the most beautiful little girl. Take care and try not stress over Lanmas. ♥️
Oh beauty! 🥺❤ May sweet Meryl live many many more years and may you make many more memories with her! You are such a great cat mama! sending you much love and a warm hug 💕
You broke my heart, animals are just such perfect little babies ❤️balling my eyes out😭😭😭 ❤️❤️❤️ It’s absolutely insane because this is the exact same situation as my kitty, he was extremely abused and we have had for over 15 years but we are also unsure of his age. He experienced the exact same symptoms and was diagnosed with the start of kidney failure, to which I also had a full on breakdown down about but they put him on medication and he has been doing so well for over a year now.🤞❤️🤞❤️ I hope this brings some hope ❤️
Hi Allana, so sorry to hear the news you received about Merryl. It is normal to be sad when you reveice news like that. We (my brother and i) grew up with kitties, cats, little pumas... i remember my brother's cat (Snoopy) who had some sort of cancer and the vet told him he did'nt knew how long she would live...well, she lived a very active outdoorsy country life and lived untill she was 19 years old.! I am faithfull that Merryl will do the same if not better. I send you and Merryl a lot of love and i 'am sure your sweet little angel will have a long life. for sure she is super happy with you and Dan as her parents. ❤🩹😘
I am so very sorry to hear about Meryl! My heart is breaking for you! I have been here for a long time and there was a period of time in my life where I wasn't able to have fur babies and I always loved and still love watching you with her. She is such a wonderful girl! I have experienced pet loss before and many times it is unexpected, so because you don't know how quickly it will progress try your hardest to enjoy your time with her making the best memories possible. That ultimately benefits both of you. You are her entire life and she definitely doesn't want you to be sad, not right now, not while she is still here. Those memories that you make will be yours forever and she will live forever in your heart and mind. I truly believe that someday we will be united with our fur babies that we have lost on the other side of the rainbow bridge! But until then, continue to love her with all of your heart, because we all know she is forever grateful to you for giving her a safe and loving home and she most definitely loves you with her entire heart! ❤ Give her extra love and snuggles from all of your TH-cam family! ❤
Oh man. Tearing up watching this 🥺 I lost my dog son biscuit a couple years ago and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever been through. He was with me for 18 years but it was his time. He gave me all the emotional support for as long as he could and it was time for him to gain his angel wings. I am sure Meryl has many more years with you ❤ please enjoy them! pets are just the best things to happen to us
We had my sweet baby girl Bassett hound. Same diagnosis of kidney failure - she lived 3-4 more years after. We changed her diet. Gave her broth for a while, she ended up passing on normal terms .. no kidney issues. I’ve read it can be helped with the diet… best of luck . My basset was 13 years(human years) when she passed . It’s been 20 years. I still miss her.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. I'm also a realist and knew the day would come when I would lose my doggy and then the day came without much notice and it was the worst time of my life, and I went through a lot so that says a lot. We love them and do the best we can and you can bet we are never prepared to say goodbye and we also feel guilty no matter what. Tell her you love her, she knows
🐈⬛ love your video ❤️you don’t have to excuse…you are a human with human sorrows and that makes you lovely. Wish all the best for your cute family 👩🏻👨🏻🐈⬛
First of all, I am so sorry to hear about Meryl's illness... I hope she still has many many years ahead of her. Don't apologize for feeling emotional. It's only human to feel this way when you've been sharing so many years and memories with sweet Meryl. I rescued a cat 8 years ago and I would be devastated too if something happened to her. She's been with me through all the ups and downs: house move, my illness, a breakup, a career change, she's been a constant companion through it all. Our sweet furry babies are such a big part of our everyday lives. I sincerely hope you find a new diet that suits her and that she keeps on meowing for years to come 🖤
I am so sorry to hear this about about sweet Meowryl! I empathize with your frustration with vets and their inconclusive/differing findings, but I suppose it's harder to diagnose animals. We did a random blood panel on our dog when he was already old (didn't do regular testing, our bad) to find out in SHOCK that he was in end stage kidney failure. He had absolutely no symptoms, so honestly I was skeptical, but we did a repeat blood test and it indeed showed terrible values. The vet was equally in shock because he was in such great shape for a 15 yr old big dog. We did eventually have to say goodbye because he let us know at 16 that it was time (we all saw it coming as he grew old, it was still devastating, oh my, besides the point). Anyway I guess what I'm trying to say is as long as Meryl is not in pain/has great quality of life, there is hope that she will live just as she has been, to an elegant old age. Sending all my prayers that it will be so! P.S. her little meows and chirps and purring is so precious I can't
I am so sorry Allana, I just lost my cat Delilah a month ago, she was 11 and the little love of my life. The love for a pet is the cruelest love. It’s deeper and more pure than anything but is only ours for such a short time. Just love on her for as long as you can, she has a wonderful life and is lucky that you are her mom and will do whatever you can to give her the best rest of her life. 💙
Ohh damn its 5:00 am here in south of Brasil , and crying a lot kkkkkkkk our little angels without wings , i think god Made them live such a short time for us to trully understand what uncunditional Love means, and apreciate and not take for granted any second with them, i have my beautiful border collie ARIEL (because she is a princess) ❤❤❤❤
Oh Allana, I’m so sorry about those terrible news. I have lost a few pets in my lifetime the last ones being my sweet baby kitty Gunther from heart failure and shortly after my little chihuahua of 16 years Belle. That was a couple years ago but still think of them every day. It’s one of the hardest things we have to experience but still worth the pain. The memories I have from having them in my life are priceless and bring me so much joy so just enjoy little Meryl and cuddle her as much as possible 💕💕💕
I am so sorry to hear about sweet baby Meryl🥺 I’m currently going through something similar. I was told just a few months ago that my 15 year old cat’s kidney function has declined. He’s been on thyroid medication as well for about 4yrs but the news and management of his kidneys has been tough. He’s on kidney food and I always make sure he has fresh water cause hydration is important. But I wanted to say, that you’re a great cat mom - you’ve done all that you can with what has been provided to you for Meryl, and that’s what counts. She’s such a tough lil gal ❤ All the best!
My dog who's 13 years old has been unwell too these last couple of weeks and it is the worst feeling... My heart goes out to you and your sweet little Meryl. She's a toughie and she's got wonderful parents so I'm sure she'll get through it and will still have some happy years in front of her ❤ ❤ ❤
Aw man, Allana, I am not a cryer but I really started welling up through that. Meryl is clearly the most happy, loved cat and I’m sure you’ll both continue to give her the best possible life and care hopefully for a very long time to come. A horrible shock for you guys but at least now you know what’s wrong and can manage her condition in the best possible way. Sending love ❤️
My hairdresser told me that it’s more effective to first wash the hair and then follow up with mask and conditioner at the end. The shampoo not only cleanses the hair but also opens up the cuticles of the hair a little so that the mask can sink in better. (Don’t know if that’s true) To Meryl: I feel your pain, my little baby will be 11 in March. She’s always been a little sensitive with her stomach and Diet. Turns out she has a pancreatic hypofunction, the thing is, I did all the things they recommended to me, but she’s not really better. Still all of the symptoms. Expect they feel a little less. She’s still there but I have the biggest fear of losing her. It’s the worst thing that could happen. She’s been my family for the last 10 year. I can’t image a world without her and I deeply feel with you. I wish you and meryl all the best and many many more years together without any pain for her. 🐈⬛❤️
Sending so much love to you guys and sweet baby Meryl. 💕 Hoping she has many more years of yapping ahead of her! Omg, the end clip of the purring & butthole 😂😭 Ded. When I said goodbye to my 21yr old kitty a while back (also kidney failure) I had an incredibly sweet doctor came to my apartment, and he was able to cross the rainbow bridge in my arms at home- it was so peaceful and something I highly recommend looking into whenever the time may come.
So sorry to hear this Allana. We love Meryl. We have a cat and can totally relate. Sending you prayers. Like you said, she could still live many years of a full life. ❤
I broke down when you did. Our pets are our family. I lost my dog, my soul dog 7 weeks ago and the loss is so painful. But it’s ok to grieve before something’s even happened. I did. But with all that said - fingers crossed that the vets and you can help her so she’ll have many more years!
My kitty had kidney failure and we learned how to give him an injection of fluids to help flush his kidneys at home. I should say my mom did most of it because I was a kid but I know he lived more than 5 yrs longer than what they predicted. Because I was younger I don’t remember what stage his kidney failure was but yes there are definitely ways to help their little kidneys just as humans and can live many years longer. Thinking of you so much. Loosing a pet is the hardest thing. I’ve had to go through 2 kitties, 2 dogs and a floppy eared house bunny. I’ve had all them cremated and have all their little boxes of ashes. They are no different than our human loved ones so please do not be sorry for being emotional. Sending you a big hug❤
Never be sorry for the way you feel and if you need a break honey take it. We will certainly all understand. I wish I could hug you. I lost my beautiful Smudge at age 6 to Heart Failure. I spent months crying and anticipating the end. Instead of enjoying our time together. Give Meryl all the love you can and try to cross that bridge when you come to it. I absolutely adore Meryl and I wish her all the best.
Allana I’m so sorry, I know exactly how you feel. It was heartbreaking when my kittie died, she was just 5 years old and had cancer. I have a friend that has the same situation and he got another cat so he wouldn’t be as sad once his sick cat passed away. Turns out that kitty brought his cat so much joy and energy that she is ouliving her diagnostic by 5 years at this point. I wish I would have done that. Hang in there Allana, just remember the good times you spent with Meryl.
It’s perfectly normal to be this upset about the health of a beloved pet. They’re just as a part of a family as any human being. My husband and I have to cats (two beautiful black sisters) and one had a liver infection that almost took her from us last year. We were inconsolable for more than a month, while parallel getting her all the treatments and medicines to get her better. I cried almost every day. Thankfully she’s okay now, as I know that Meryl will be too since I know how good care you take of her. Only people who have never had a beloved pet won’t understand feeling this way. And to them I say: get a pet! You need to feel this type of love in life.
I can only relate, I have a dog and can't avoid thinking that he's not gonna be there one day and feel so terribly sad about it. We know that it is bound to happen when having a pet and that it will be difficult losing them. The best we can do is enjoy our time with them and give them the best life possible.
Oh Allana I’m so sorry, ❤️ losing a pet/ dealing with their mortality is so harsh and strange. Hits like a sucker punch to the gut. Sending love to you all ❤️❤️
I'm so sorry Allana. I lost a kitty to medical issues before and it's absolutely heartbreaking. Praying Meryl has many more years of love with you both 🫶
Dear Allana, i‘m so sorry to hear these news about Meryl. 😢 My old 17 year kitty man has the same problem with the pucking. It helps him when I give him smaller portions of food but way more often. We thought 3 years ago that it my be it and we would have to let him go but I swear training him to eat more often, giving him the treats he asks for and just saying everyday how much I love him somehow made him stop pucking (from 3-6 times a day to maybe 1 time a week). Don‘t worry about her weight or anything else - because whats the other option? Sadly our pet babys wonˋt live forever, so just cherish everyday with Meryl as it would the last one. My perspective changed with that mindset because everyday is a blessing and everyday I say i love you so much my little old kitty man and I think it brings us both peace. Much love from Berlin, Germany
No need to apologize for the tears! Thank you for the update, but please do not feel like you need to work through this news for us. Sending so much love your way ❤
Oh nooo, I’m so sorry 🥺 I’m sure she has many more years with you with all the love and care you give her ❤ it’s absolutely fine to post sadness from time to time, we all love seeing your true self and give you support when you need you! your videos give us all kind of emotions and support us on our bad days, so we’re here for you ❤
My childhood cat was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney failure and she lived another few years after. When she passed it was devastating but it was a speed that in the end I felt peace and closure. It is so hard right now but I promise eventually you will feel acceptance with her diagnosis, and when the time comes, her passing. Sending so much love and support from me and my 2 kitties
Hi Allana, I had a similar situation recently with my baby dog last year and this year with my cat... and it yes, the more you love them the more you suffer 😢 sending you good energy and enjoy your baby until the last moment ❤
Oh my, may the sweet angel Meowril live long and happy years. 😭❤️ I am not particularly an animal lover, but my family has a lab with ibs and heart disease and I am certain my mom will be a wreck when he will someday pass. Special diet for ibs, moderate walks and somebody staying home for most of the time has worked well. Once saw a video about a man, whose cat lived until 30-something-years, many of his cats lived over 20yo and he gave a very weak coffe with cream to his cats. I wouldn’t take the coffee claim at face value, but it seemed very interesting. Anyway, the vet probably knows better.
sweet sweet Meryl!! I'm SO GRATEFUL that you two found each other and she's had such a wonderful, safe, loving home, and I hope she has many many years left on earth 💛i lost my first kitty love, mr. dale (hence the username!) unexpectedly to kidney disease in 2016, and it was honestly one of the hardest moments of my life, i just don't know how to love a creature so so much and not be devastated when they pass. which is to say, i think it's ok to feel like shit, and actually i think it's important to let ourselves feel it and move through it instead of stuffing it down, but we can also feel so grateful for the time together. and the heaviness of grief does pass with time. (adopting more cats helps...) i also didn't have a great experience with my vet, and alternated between blaming myself and them for not giving dale a few more years here - i say this because i've found that whenever a pet passes, i wonder what i could have done differently, how i could've prolonged their life or been a better parent - so if you do start to blame yourself, remember that you did everything you could, you did your best, Meryl is having an A+ earth experience, you're amazing, and it's totally normal to try and assign a "reason" when the sad truth is that pets don't live forever. please do feel like you can take some space if you need it, like lanmas is obvs the most wonderful time of the year, but not as important as your emotional and mental wellness if being on camera feels like too much. sending so much love to you and Meryl ❤❤
I'm sorry you amd Meryl are going through this. If this helps you have faith, we had two brother cats both diagnosed with kidney disease at age 12 or so. We changed their diet to all wet prescription kidney food, and they lived happily until they were 18.5 years old. One of them even had his teeth removed too (feline oral resorptive lesions) years prior, too. ❤
Dear Allana, I received similar news about my 15 yr old cat this year. After being similarly barfy her entire life and also getting no bad results back when taking her to the vet for many years, it was finally determined she had kidney disease. (I find it notable that my vet called it Stage 2-3 DISEASE and not failure) (I’m also sorry your vet didn’t call, that was a courtesy mine gave me). My vet took the time to explain what it all meant, and like you were saying it’s like hard to tell and you just have to try to mitigate the progression and symptoms and kind of hope for the best. (I was also giving my cat a high protein kibble and since changed it to the Hills Prescription Diet k/d Kidney Care formula-have had positive results). I hope that info can help a little bit, and also to inject a little hope that all is not lost, perhaps with a change in diet you can manage the symptoms for years to come. Wishing you and Dejan and Meryl the best xoxoxo 💗💗💗💗
Dear sweet Meryl. Sometimes I wonder why we do this to ourselves. We bring these beautiful animals into our lives knowing that we will out live them and it’s so painful when they leave us but Meryl is the most loved cat and she knows it. She adores you and will do so until the end of time ❤
I’ve been so emotional this week especially Thursday and Friday and I so relate to you and this made me break down! 😭 I work at a vet clinic and all my cats are rescues/strays and I love my babies so much. I love Meryl so much. The renal diet from Royal Canin is great. For more progressive stages there is Varenzin (liquid medication for anemia related to CKD). I fear my Charlie who is almost 11 yr old kitty is in the same boat as I recently took her in for lack of appetite and constipation. Her bloodwork was fine but still I’m worried. I send you all my love and prayers. ❤
Oh my god! So sorry! It’s so painful when you get bad news about our babies 🥺 she’s gonna be ok. Just give her lots of love and maybe a new vet. What idiots! Having a vet you trust makes such a difference. Hopefully you can find one. Lots of love for the three of you
Hi Allana- I lost my soulmate kitty to kidney disease in July and just wanted to share a bit of my experience. She lived many years past her stage 2 diagnosis and did not present symptoms until the very last month of her life. I was also given the news in an impersonal manner and had the same emotional response as you- the initial shock is so painful. If you are open to advice, all I would say is to prioritize quality of life over all else. Vets and the internet will advise you to take drastic measures to extend life for unknown amounts of time. We did our best with the kidney diet but we also just fed her things she liked to keep her weight healthy. She was too anxious for fluid IVs so we didn't do them. There is no perfect way to go about it. Sending all my love to you and all my prayers for many more happy years with Meryl
We had a vet tell us nothing was wrong 3 times in 6 months until we went to a different place and my big kitty man had cancer and a dental disease. It was horrible and I still struggle with thoughts about what we could have done better and question everything regarding the health of my pets. Even though it progressed very fast and he would have been sick anyways. I hope sweet Merryl has many years of screaming and cuddles left❤️❤️
Ok I started bawling the second you did!!! Our fur babies hold a significantly special place in our hearts. I have cried since my dog was a puppy over the mere idea of living without him. Meryl is an Angel, and I hope she meows over our screens for years to come. Thank you for sharing her with us!! And you have every right to be emotional about it. Sending you lots of love ❤️
It breaks my heart to hear the news about sweet Meryl, she is one of my favourite internet cats. I hope the vets can work out a solution and she can live many more years of her happy life with you. Sending lots of love to all of you ❤
Your tears are so valid, don't be sorry for showing them when they really represent the love you feel for your pet! I lost my two kitties to kidney failure a few years ago within a year of each other and it was one of the hardest things to experience, they truly are family and it's no different than losing a loved one.
Switching to a vet-brand urinary diet wet food is good for as long as they have an appetite (and eventually trialling any food type including just treats if they aren't eating enough or become picky), mixing water in with their food, antinauseant meds, and learning to give them at-home fluid injections will greatly improve how long they can live with kidney failure.
Sending all the love and light to you and little Meryl 💜🐾
Excellent advice and tips. I lost 2 of my fur babies to kidney failure also. And Sub-Q fluids were so supportive. Unfortunately for my babies I couldn’t switch up their diet as they had very sensitive tummies.💞🦋🦋💞
I am a cat mom too (4 adopted cats)
I am sending Meryl a lot of prayers to live a long long long life. But Allana remember that adopting her was a real gift for her. You literally saved her life . Much love for you both 😻😻😻
sending you and meryl all the love and hugs!
Please don’t feel ANY kind of way about being upset about Meryl. We feel gratitude in you keeping up in the loop, if nothing else. She’s your sweet baby angel and you’re well within your right to be devastated when receiving any kind of bad news regarding her health. Go smooch and cuddle your baby 💓
Oh Allana, I'm so sorry and there is no need to apologize for the sadness or the tears. Meryl has always been the sweetest -- and the most vocal kitty 💖Sending you both big hugs ❤
It’s ok to take a couple days off to love your kitty. We’ll all still be here when you’re ready to continue Lanmas ❤
Awww Allana I’m so so sorry. This is so sad and so terrible to go through. It’s so sad to see you upset. No one can prepare you for the amount of love you can have for your pets, especially for the potential loss of them! Sending you lots of love 🤍
Oh Allana I’m so so sorry to hear about your sweet Meryl. Sending you all the love & hugs. 💔
I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but losing a pet is not made any easier by the fact that you may have experienced it before. I thought maybe I would be more prepared with my next animal, but I wasn’t. I had three kitty babies, they were siblings and were the last three left in the litter so I of course thought I needed to take all of them. They gave me the most incredible 19 years that I could have ever asked for and I lost them all within 6 months of each other. The last one I had to say goodbye to only a couple of months ago. Now, it’s just me in a house by myself and I am still hardly even able to believe that it’s real that they are gone. But the one thing I did want to make sure to tell you is that all three of them were diagnosed with stage 2 kidney disease when they were 13 years old. They lived to be 19 and not one of them actually passed from Kidney failure. I worked as a vet tech for many years and saw many many cats with kidney disease that lived into their 20s even. I just want you to know how truly possible it is that you will have your precious girl for a good many years still, but I do know how difficult it is to get a diagnosis like that. Sending you guys lots of love and prayers and will keep precious little Meryl in my prayers as well. 😻😻😻
Hearing the diagnosis and feeling devastated. Overthinking what we did wrong. Wondering If they are in pain. Wishing they live forever and ever. Those are all indications of what a great fur mom you are ❤
Sending tons of love to Meryl, you and Dan. 💕
I’m so sorry 😔 Please never apologise for crying or being sad. It’s horrible news and you’re allowed to be upset. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing with us all ❤ Sending all the love to you and the angel baby!!! 🐈⬛ xx
I’m so sorry Allana, you are not being dramatic at all. Meryl is a family member and if anything the one you have the purest form of love with because of the deep connection created with a creature that doesn’t communicate with words like us. I had a beautiful kitty who was ill when I adopted her but like you never fathomed that she would ever leave us, and she would be my kids’ big sister, and be with us forever. She has sadly passed but she was the happiest kitty ever, as is Meryl now because of all the love you give her! 🩵🩵🩵🩵 we love Meryl toooooo! May we see her be a grumpy old lady 😂
I’m so sorry. ❤ I’ll pray for you and sweet sweet Meryl. My best angel baby had kidney failure as well. You don’t have to apologize for loving your baby.
I’m so sorry Lan 😞 we love Meryl so much ♥️ please take all the time you need!!
Oh Allana im so so sorry that you’re going through this with your sweet Meryl. I completely understand how you feel and I have been through this with my kitties. It’s completely ok to cry about this and it’s a sign of how much you love Meryl and she’s so lucky to have you. Sending you lots of love ❤
I just wanted to say thank you so much for being brave and vulnerable with us, every video of yours has been a little piece of my life over the past few years so it's been so special to see this different and more raw side of you, I'm sorry for what you are going through but I'm happy to see the different shades of your life and here for you on your journey xxx
Nothing can prepare you for losing a pet and you don’t have to apologize for feeling your feelings. Sending all the hugs 🤍
Oh sweet fur angel 💓 I can say with my full chest I loved my dog just as much as my human child, they are so special - sending love to Meryl
oh Meryl 😢 I can only imagine how you feel. Sending lots of love ❤
sending you so much love, pets are so special to us and such a huge part of our lives ❤ I’m the same way with my cat wishing he could live forever 😢 I know you guys are such good parents to her and she’s so lucky to have you! ❤
OMG why am I crying? 😭 I am so sorry that you have to experience it but remember that she have an amazing life with you
Love to you and Meryl
Aw I’m so sad to hear that about Meryl. I have lost pets in the past - my most recent being my beautiful cat Luna who had kidney disease. I had to make the difficult choice to put her down but it was the best decision despite how hard it was. She had no quality of life left and it was so sad to see. 😢 The only thing we can do is love our pets unconditionally every single day for as long as they live. ❤
My husband , who couldn’t care less about makeup, knows Meryl…listen to her purr… she’ s your little love. We have had two kitties in our 41 years together and it physically hurts when they hurt. So don’t apologize at all, feel all the feels, and sadness and love Meryl to the moon and back. We got you, Allana , we got you…❤
Please never feel you have to say sorry for feeling your emotions . Our animals are our family , our love for them is so special and precious. My sweet boy is 15 and I think about losing him all the time and do everything to keep him well , terrified at every wee change or when he's under the weather. Meryl is so loved , you love her and do the best for her and that's all we can do ❤
Crying along with you Lan - pets are family and it’s so confronting to think of losing them. Thank you for the honesty and vulnerability ❤ sending love and health to you all xx
Allana I’m so sorry bless your heart. Sending all my love, I’ve experienced this and it’s so hard. Meryl is the most beautiful little girl. Take care and try not stress over Lanmas. ♥️
Oh beauty! 🥺❤ May sweet Meryl live many many more years and may you make many more memories with her! You are such a great cat mama! sending you much love and a warm hug 💕
You broke my heart, animals are just such perfect little babies ❤️balling my eyes out😭😭😭 ❤️❤️❤️
It’s absolutely insane because this is the exact same situation as my kitty, he was extremely abused and we have had for over 15 years but we are also unsure of his age. He experienced the exact same symptoms and was diagnosed with the start of kidney failure, to which I also had a full on breakdown down about but they put him on medication and he has been doing so well for over a year now.🤞❤️🤞❤️ I hope this brings some hope ❤️
Hi Allana, so sorry to hear the news you received about Merryl. It is normal to be sad when you reveice news like that. We (my brother and i) grew up with kitties, cats, little pumas... i remember my brother's cat (Snoopy) who had some sort of cancer and the vet told him he did'nt knew how long she would live...well, she lived a very active outdoorsy country life and lived untill she was 19 years old.! I am faithfull that Merryl will do the same if not better. I send you and Merryl a lot of love and i 'am sure your sweet little angel will have a long life. for sure she is super happy with you and Dan as her parents. ❤🩹😘
I am so very sorry to hear about Meryl! My heart is breaking for you! I have been here for a long time and there was a period of time in my life where I wasn't able to have fur babies and I always loved and still love watching you with her. She is such a wonderful girl! I have experienced pet loss before and many times it is unexpected, so because you don't know how quickly it will progress try your hardest to enjoy your time with her making the best memories possible. That ultimately benefits both of you. You are her entire life and she definitely doesn't want you to be sad, not right now, not while she is still here. Those memories that you make will be yours forever and she will live forever in your heart and mind. I truly believe that someday we will be united with our fur babies that we have lost on the other side of the rainbow bridge! But until then, continue to love her with all of your heart, because we all know she is forever grateful to you for giving her a safe and loving home and she most definitely loves you with her entire heart! ❤ Give her extra love and snuggles from all of your TH-cam family! ❤
Oh man. Tearing up watching this 🥺 I lost my dog son biscuit a couple years ago and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever been through. He was with me for 18 years but it was his time. He gave me all the emotional support for as long as he could and it was time for him to gain his angel wings. I am sure Meryl has many more years with you ❤ please enjoy them! pets are just the best things to happen to us
I’m not crying you’re 😢
Sending love to you guys and Meryl 💖
I'm so sorry Allana ❤ sending you and Dan and Meryl much love and well wishes. Thank you for showing the lighthearted and deephearted things in life.
Sending you and your family so much love ❤️❤️❤️
Sending lots of love to you and sweet Meryl ❤️
I'm so sorry. Sending you guys and Meryl my love. ❤
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Sending so much love! Pets bring us so much joy, you're doing your best for her and that's all that matters!
We had my sweet baby girl Bassett hound. Same diagnosis of kidney failure - she lived 3-4 more years after. We changed her diet. Gave her broth for a while, she ended up passing on normal terms .. no kidney issues. I’ve read it can be helped with the diet… best of luck . My basset was 13 years(human years) when she passed . It’s been 20 years. I still miss her.
Oh Merryl, I'm so sorry. I love her and her Meowing xxx
We love Meryl ❤ thanks for being open, Lan.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. I'm also a realist and knew the day would come when I would lose my doggy and then the day came without much notice and it was the worst time of my life, and I went through a lot so that says a lot. We love them and do the best we can and you can bet we are never prepared to say goodbye and we also feel guilty no matter what. Tell her you love her, she knows
🐈⬛ love your video ❤️you don’t have to excuse…you are a human with human sorrows and that makes you lovely. Wish all the best for your cute family 👩🏻👨🏻🐈⬛
First of all, I am so sorry to hear about Meryl's illness... I hope she still has many many years ahead of her. Don't apologize for feeling emotional. It's only human to feel this way when you've been sharing so many years and memories with sweet Meryl.
I rescued a cat 8 years ago and I would be devastated too if something happened to her. She's been with me through all the ups and downs: house move, my illness, a breakup, a career change, she's been a constant companion through it all. Our sweet furry babies are such a big part of our everyday lives.
I sincerely hope you find a new diet that suits her and that she keeps on meowing for years to come 🖤
Sending you and Meryl so many hugs! Long time viewer and I still remember when you first adopted her. Praying for her to live many more happy years.
Thank you for sharing this with us. I cried with you. Big hugs & lots of love to you & Meryl ❤
I am so sorry to hear this about about sweet Meowryl! I empathize with your frustration with vets and their inconclusive/differing findings, but I suppose it's harder to diagnose animals. We did a random blood panel on our dog when he was already old (didn't do regular testing, our bad) to find out in SHOCK that he was in end stage kidney failure. He had absolutely no symptoms, so honestly I was skeptical, but we did a repeat blood test and it indeed showed terrible values. The vet was equally in shock because he was in such great shape for a 15 yr old big dog. We did eventually have to say goodbye because he let us know at 16 that it was time (we all saw it coming as he grew old, it was still devastating, oh my, besides the point). Anyway I guess what I'm trying to say is as long as Meryl is not in pain/has great quality of life, there is hope that she will live just as she has been, to an elegant old age. Sending all my prayers that it will be so!
P.S. her little meows and chirps and purring is so precious I can't
I am so sorry Allana, I just lost my cat Delilah a month ago, she was 11 and the little love of my life. The love for a pet is the cruelest love. It’s deeper and more pure than anything but is only ours for such a short time. Just love on her for as long as you can, she has a wonderful life and is lucky that you are her mom and will do whatever you can to give her the best rest of her life. 💙
Ohh damn its 5:00 am here in south of Brasil , and crying a lot kkkkkkkk our little angels without wings , i think god Made them live such a short time for us to trully understand what uncunditional Love means, and apreciate and not take for granted any second with them, i have my beautiful border collie ARIEL (because she is a princess) ❤❤❤❤
Sending all the love to Meryl and you both ♥️
I hope things get worked out with your sweet Merril.. we love our pets so much. Thanks for taking such good care of her and thanks for sharing ❤
Oh Allana, I’m so sorry about those terrible news. I have lost a few pets in my lifetime the last ones being my sweet baby kitty Gunther from heart failure and shortly after my little chihuahua of 16 years Belle. That was a couple years ago but still think of them every day. It’s one of the hardest things we have to experience but still worth the pain. The memories I have from having them in my life are priceless and bring me so much joy so just enjoy little Meryl and cuddle her as much as possible 💕💕💕
Aww thank you for sharing and a big squeeze ❤!
I am so sorry to hear about sweet baby Meryl🥺 I’m currently going through something similar. I was told just a few months ago that my 15 year old cat’s kidney function has declined. He’s been on thyroid medication as well for about 4yrs but the news and management of his kidneys has been tough. He’s on kidney food and I always make sure he has fresh water cause hydration is important. But I wanted to say, that you’re a great cat mom - you’ve done all that you can with what has been provided to you for Meryl, and that’s what counts. She’s such a tough lil gal ❤ All the best!
My dog who's 13 years old has been unwell too these last couple of weeks and it is the worst feeling... My heart goes out to you and your sweet little Meryl. She's a toughie and she's got wonderful parents so I'm sure she'll get through it and will still have some happy years in front of her ❤ ❤ ❤
Aw man, Allana, I am not a cryer but I really started welling up through that. Meryl is clearly the most happy, loved cat and I’m sure you’ll both continue to give her the best possible life and care hopefully for a very long time to come. A horrible shock for you guys but at least now you know what’s wrong and can manage her condition in the best possible way. Sending love ❤️
My hairdresser told me that it’s more effective to first wash the hair and then follow up with mask and conditioner at the end. The shampoo not only cleanses the hair but also opens up the cuticles of the hair a little so that the mask can sink in better. (Don’t know if that’s true)
To Meryl:
I feel your pain, my little baby will be 11 in March. She’s always been a little sensitive with her stomach and Diet. Turns out she has a pancreatic hypofunction, the thing is, I did all the things they recommended to me, but she’s not really better. Still all of the symptoms. Expect they feel a little less. She’s still there but I have the biggest fear of losing her. It’s the worst thing that could happen. She’s been my family for the last 10 year. I can’t image a world without her and I deeply feel with you. I wish you and meryl all the best and many many more years together without any pain for her. 🐈⬛❤️
Sending so much love to you guys and sweet baby Meryl. 💕 Hoping she has many more years of yapping ahead of her! Omg, the end clip of the purring & butthole 😂😭 Ded.
When I said goodbye to my 21yr old kitty a while back (also kidney failure) I had an incredibly sweet doctor came to my apartment, and he was able to cross the rainbow bridge in my arms at home- it was so peaceful and something I highly recommend looking into whenever the time may come.
Sending Meryl all of the hugs 💞 squeezing my pup as I watch this
I am crying 😢 All the Love to You an Meryl ❤️ Sweet Baby kitty
So sorry to hear this Allana. We love Meryl. We have a cat and can totally relate. Sending you prayers. Like you said, she could still live many years of a full life. ❤
I broke down when you did. Our pets are our family. I lost my dog, my soul dog 7 weeks ago and the loss is so painful.
But it’s ok to grieve before something’s even happened. I did.
But with all that said - fingers crossed that the vets and you can help her so she’ll have many more years!
My kitty had kidney failure and we learned how to give him an injection of fluids to help flush his kidneys at home. I should say my mom did most of it because I was a kid but I know he lived more than 5 yrs longer than what they predicted. Because I was younger I don’t remember what stage his kidney failure was but yes there are definitely ways to help their little kidneys just as humans and can live many years longer. Thinking of you so much. Loosing a pet is the hardest thing. I’ve had to go through 2 kitties, 2 dogs and a floppy eared house bunny. I’ve had all them cremated and have all their little boxes of ashes. They are no different than our human loved ones so please do not be sorry for being emotional. Sending you a big hug❤
Never be sorry for the way you feel and if you need a break honey take it. We will certainly all understand. I wish I could hug you. I lost my beautiful Smudge at age 6 to Heart Failure. I spent months crying and anticipating the end. Instead of enjoying our time together. Give Meryl all the love you can and try to cross that bridge when you come to it. I absolutely adore Meryl and I wish her all the best.
Oh Allana, as a fellow middle-aged kitty mom I can completely relate. Sending lots of love to you and Meryl ❤
Allana I’m so sorry, I know exactly how you feel. It was heartbreaking when my kittie died, she was just 5 years old and had cancer. I have a friend that has the same situation and he got another cat so he wouldn’t be as sad once his sick cat passed away. Turns out that kitty brought his cat so much joy and energy that she is ouliving her diagnostic by 5 years at this point. I wish I would have done that.
Hang in there Allana, just remember the good times you spent with Meryl.
It’s perfectly normal to be this upset about the health of a beloved pet. They’re just as a part of a family as any human being.
My husband and I have to cats (two beautiful black sisters) and one had a liver infection that almost took her from us last year. We were inconsolable for more than a month, while parallel getting her all the treatments and medicines to get her better. I cried almost every day. Thankfully she’s okay now, as I know that Meryl will be too since I know how good care you take of her.
Only people who have never had a beloved pet won’t understand feeling this way. And to them I say: get a pet! You need to feel this type of love in life.
I can only relate, I have a dog and can't avoid thinking that he's not gonna be there one day and feel so terribly sad about it. We know that it is bound to happen when having a pet and that it will be difficult losing them. The best we can do is enjoy our time with them and give them the best life possible.
Oh Allana i am sending you lots of love and strength regarding Meryls sickness😞🩷
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ All the love to you and Meryl, she’s so wonderful. And don’t apologise for crying, I cried too😢 xxxxxx
Sending so much love to you ❤
Thank you for sharing this, feels like family news really. All will be swell ❤️
Sending you and Merly a hug and love.
Oh Allana I’m so sorry, ❤️ losing a pet/ dealing with their mortality is so harsh and strange. Hits like a sucker punch to the gut. Sending love to you all ❤️❤️
I'm so sorry Allana. I lost a kitty to medical issues before and it's absolutely heartbreaking. Praying Meryl has many more years of love with you both 🫶
Dear Allana, i‘m so sorry to hear these news about Meryl. 😢 My old 17 year kitty man has the same problem with the pucking. It helps him when I give him smaller portions of food but way more often. We thought 3 years ago that it my be it and we would have to let him go but I swear training him to eat more often, giving him the treats he asks for and just saying everyday how much I love him somehow made him stop pucking (from 3-6 times a day to maybe 1 time a week). Don‘t worry about her weight or anything else - because whats the other option? Sadly our pet babys wonˋt live forever, so just cherish everyday with Meryl as it would the last one. My perspective changed with that mindset because everyday is a blessing and everyday I say i love you so much my little old kitty man and I think it brings us both peace. Much love from Berlin, Germany
Allana keeping you n your family in my prayers.
I’m so sorry ❤ sending you guys all the love ❤️
Sending you & Meryl alot of love 💕 💕💕
No need to apologize for the tears! Thank you for the update, but please do not feel like you need to work through this news for us. Sending so much love your way ❤
Oh nooo, I’m so sorry 🥺 I’m sure she has many more years with you with all the love and care you give her ❤ it’s absolutely fine to post sadness from time to time, we all love seeing your true self and give you support when you need you! your videos give us all kind of emotions and support us on our bad days, so we’re here for you ❤
She’s the best. I’m not a cat person, but I love watching her.
I‘am so sorry, sending you all the love 💕 I also had a very special cat so totally feel you.
My childhood cat was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney failure and she lived another few years after. When she passed it was devastating but it was a speed that in the end I felt peace and closure. It is so hard right now but I promise eventually you will feel acceptance with her diagnosis, and when the time comes, her passing. Sending so much love and support from me and my 2 kitties
Hi Allana, I had a similar situation recently with my baby dog last year and this year with my cat... and it yes, the more you love them the more you suffer 😢 sending you good energy and enjoy your baby until the last moment ❤
Ohhhh Meryl 🥺 We love you both oh so much! 💛
Oh my, may the sweet angel Meowril live long and happy years. 😭❤️ I am not particularly an animal lover, but my family has a lab with ibs and heart disease and I am certain my mom will be a wreck when he will someday pass. Special diet for ibs, moderate walks and somebody staying home for most of the time has worked well.
Once saw a video about a man, whose cat lived until 30-something-years, many of his cats lived over 20yo and he gave a very weak coffe with cream to his cats. I wouldn’t take the coffee claim at face value, but it seemed very interesting. Anyway, the vet probably knows better.
sweet sweet Meryl!! I'm SO GRATEFUL that you two found each other and she's had such a wonderful, safe, loving home, and I hope she has many many years left on earth 💛i lost my first kitty love, mr. dale (hence the username!) unexpectedly to kidney disease in 2016, and it was honestly one of the hardest moments of my life, i just don't know how to love a creature so so much and not be devastated when they pass. which is to say, i think it's ok to feel like shit, and actually i think it's important to let ourselves feel it and move through it instead of stuffing it down, but we can also feel so grateful for the time together. and the heaviness of grief does pass with time. (adopting more cats helps...) i also didn't have a great experience with my vet, and alternated between blaming myself and them for not giving dale a few more years here - i say this because i've found that whenever a pet passes, i wonder what i could have done differently, how i could've prolonged their life or been a better parent - so if you do start to blame yourself, remember that you did everything you could, you did your best, Meryl is having an A+ earth experience, you're amazing, and it's totally normal to try and assign a "reason" when the sad truth is that pets don't live forever. please do feel like you can take some space if you need it, like lanmas is obvs the most wonderful time of the year, but not as important as your emotional and mental wellness if being on camera feels like too much. sending so much love to you and Meryl ❤❤
I'm sorry you amd Meryl are going through this. If this helps you have faith, we had two brother cats both diagnosed with kidney disease at age 12 or so. We changed their diet to all wet prescription kidney food, and they lived happily until they were 18.5 years old. One of them even had his teeth removed too (feline oral resorptive lesions) years prior, too. ❤
Dear Allana, I received similar news about my 15 yr old cat this year. After being similarly barfy her entire life and also getting no bad results back when taking her to the vet for many years, it was finally determined she had kidney disease. (I find it notable that my vet called it Stage 2-3 DISEASE and not failure) (I’m also sorry your vet didn’t call, that was a courtesy mine gave me). My vet took the time to explain what it all meant, and like you were saying it’s like hard to tell and you just have to try to mitigate the progression and symptoms and kind of hope for the best. (I was also giving my cat a high protein kibble and since changed it to the Hills Prescription Diet k/d Kidney Care formula-have had positive results).
I hope that info can help a little bit, and also to inject a little hope that all is not lost, perhaps with a change in diet you can manage the symptoms for years to come.
Wishing you and Dejan and Meryl the best xoxoxo 💗💗💗💗
Dear sweet Meryl. Sometimes I wonder why we do this to ourselves. We bring these beautiful animals into our lives knowing that we will out live them and it’s so painful when they leave us but Meryl is the most loved cat and she knows it. She adores you and will do so until the end of time ❤
I’ve been so emotional this week especially Thursday and Friday and I so relate to you and this made me break down! 😭 I work at a vet clinic and all my cats are rescues/strays and I love my babies so much. I love Meryl so much. The renal diet from Royal Canin is great. For more progressive stages there is Varenzin (liquid medication for anemia related to CKD). I fear my Charlie who is almost 11 yr old kitty is in the same boat as I recently took her in for lack of appetite and constipation. Her bloodwork was fine but still I’m worried. I send you all my love and prayers. ❤
Oh my god! So sorry! It’s so painful when you get bad news about our babies 🥺 she’s gonna be ok. Just give her lots of love and maybe a new vet. What idiots! Having a vet you trust makes such a difference. Hopefully you can find one. Lots of love for the three of you
Love you Meryl!!!
Hi Allana- I lost my soulmate kitty to kidney disease in July and just wanted to share a bit of my experience. She lived many years past her stage 2 diagnosis and did not present symptoms until the very last month of her life. I was also given the news in an impersonal manner and had the same emotional response as you- the initial shock is so painful. If you are open to advice, all I would say is to prioritize quality of life over all else. Vets and the internet will advise you to take drastic measures to extend life for unknown amounts of time. We did our best with the kidney diet but we also just fed her things she liked to keep her weight healthy. She was too anxious for fluid IVs so we didn't do them. There is no perfect way to go about it. Sending all my love to you and all my prayers for many more happy years with Meryl
We had a vet tell us nothing was wrong 3 times in 6 months until we went to a different place and my big kitty man had cancer and a dental disease. It was horrible and I still struggle with thoughts about what we could have done better and question everything regarding the health of my pets. Even though it progressed very fast and he would have been sick anyways. I hope sweet Merryl has many years of screaming and cuddles left❤️❤️
Meryl is your soul angel❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing with us. 💐💐💐💐
Aw I’m so sorry about Meryl😢😢❤️