Our powers of memory, our ability to recall accurately past events is faulty at best and downright misleading quite often. This is why in criminal trials, witness testimony is the least valued type of evidence and witnesses are commonly regarded by lawyers as being notoriously unreliable. The OCD bully uses this fact to try to bully us into thinking we're bad people when the whole reason we got into this mess in the first place is because we are good people with a conscience.
My ocd voice likes to just remind me of shit I did that I am ashamed of even though I don't have any ritual or questioning or compulsion attached, you know, because I did that thing, that little thing, thirty five years ago. Thanks ocd voice, I'm going to go back to washing this dish now. On another note, back when my ocd was full throttle in the 1980's, Steve Phillipson was crashing through new territory a ten minute walk from my house. Had I known.
Chrissie, you are an absolute gem in the OCD community. I found your channel around 2 years ago when I was at my lowest, and was convinced that I was some sort of monster. Whilst I still have my bad days, you have helped me IMMENSELY in feeling like I'm not alone. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. - A random 20-year-old lass from the U.K
Things have been hard. Everyday I feel like something was real and I'm horrible for it. People have been telling me none of what put me here is real. And because of that, I've been able to deal with it. But in reality, I really didn't want to deal with any of it in the first place...
I have the fear of even just looking up anything related to that and ending up in prison for the rest of my life. I asked my psychiatrist to block my browsers just because of that. I am being told I am not a danger and that evidence shows I don't even want that but again it feels so real and it's so so scary
How do u freaking appear talking about themes that i exactly have at that moment?! i have recently developed a severe guilt OCD about when i was a kid and how i treated my bro😢
I guess my mind does that a lot since I have HOCD. It's Looking for "proves" of the memories of my past that might "be a lesbian and i was ever into girls and to my friends - all female" - i always discovered myself as a straight woman, even if the boys never wanted me, I am virgin and never dated actually. Now my lack of experience really in romantic and sex terms - even if I always masturbated having in front of me pictures of the men I like and have really that need to be part of the life of the men i loved - really start to trigger me and after I got accused of being a lesbian because I got rejected by men I loved hocd start popped in my head 😢😢😢
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being so open & honest & in detail. Everything you say i can absolutely relate to & struggle with so much.
One of my most debilitating theme connected to one of my past deed years ago. It gave me a really hard time, because you know... I really committed that deed. But even if the core of the fear is real, the conclusion ocd draws from it is still a lie.
You always know exactly how my OCD works 😂 I’ve just had a lovely hot bath whilst listening to the real talk you give us Chrissie. ❤ thanks so much for being here!
What about if i have memories about things i did that support my intrusive thoughts like more than one thing like a lot of things, i did a lot of things when i was 6-14 that could support hocd like watching same sex porn or wanting to kiss same sex friend when i was 11 for some reason or making the same sex date in a video game but i never had crushes or feelings for the same sex and would never do that now but im just wondering since its multiple if that changes it :( even though throughout those whole times i was only genuinely attracted to the opposite sex and have been my whole life
I have the same thing ! Very similar experience but ultimately I know I have been diagnosed with ocd and have suffered with other themes as well so I can recognise the cycle of obsession and rumination. Also I think the human mind is so complex and these things don’t necessarily determine our sexuality. I think it’s quite common for lots of girls to do this at any age. Whatever the ‘truth’ is the thing that’s important is the recognition that constant rumination and obsession over it isn’t normal ( for someone without ocd) X
@@amandataylor949 I’ve had ocd symptoms since childhood (diagnosed with anxiety) but the only reason i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd is because my religious parents say its just demons lol so they dont care to help, when you were getting over hocd do you feel like you became lgbtq?
I don’t think you can ‘become lgbt’. I still haven’t got over it I still ruminate a lot but I know that im attracted to guys and have had crushes on them my whlole life. Ive aceepred thay im bi-curious because i personallt feel that way and am open. if you are constantelt ruminating seeking reassurance then u have ocd and need to seek therapy, you can talk to your parents if you want but if u think they wont understand you can do it without then through the nhs x
What I mean by that is that no one ever knows the truth about anything there’s a chance that anyone could be bi straight or whatever, but most people don’t worry about it how we are they kinda just know and that’s it or they figure it out. The way I started worrying less was just saying ‘maybe’ ( Chrissie talks about this in her video) because this helps us deal with uncertainty which is the way to get over ocd x
I have been struggling really badly since last Aug and before medication has always helped me but I got taken off fleuxatine because it stopped working, got put on sertraline and worked for a bit and then stopped, got taken off that to be put on Citalopram and didn't work, to be put back onto fleuxatine and I feel nothings working when meds have worked before. Why isn't anything working for me anymore 😞 why does my doctor keep using same meds.
Our powers of memory, our ability to recall accurately past events is faulty at best and downright misleading quite often. This is why in criminal trials, witness testimony is the least valued type of evidence and witnesses are commonly regarded by lawyers as being notoriously unreliable. The OCD bully uses this fact to try to bully us into thinking we're bad people when the whole reason we got into this mess in the first place is because we are good people with a conscience.
My ocd voice likes to just remind me of shit I did that I am ashamed of even though I don't have any ritual or questioning or compulsion attached, you know, because I did that thing, that little thing, thirty five years ago. Thanks ocd voice, I'm going to go back to washing this dish now. On another note, back when my ocd was full throttle in the 1980's, Steve Phillipson was crashing through new territory a ten minute walk from my house. Had I known.
Chrissie, you are an absolute gem in the OCD community. I found your channel around 2 years ago when I was at my lowest, and was convinced that I was some sort of monster. Whilst I still have my bad days, you have helped me IMMENSELY in feeling like I'm not alone. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. - A random 20-year-old lass from the U.K
Things have been hard. Everyday I feel like something was real and I'm horrible for it. People have been telling me none of what put me here is real. And because of that, I've been able to deal with it. But in reality, I really didn't want to deal with any of it in the first place...
I have the fear of even just looking up anything related to that and ending up in prison for the rest of my life. I asked my psychiatrist to block my browsers just because of that. I am being told I am not a danger and that evidence shows I don't even want that but again it feels so real and it's so so scary
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The horrible memories for me are like a record of a song that I dont like with a jumping needle. Thank you for Videos Chrissie.
How do u freaking appear talking about themes that i exactly have at that moment?! i have recently developed a severe guilt OCD about when i was a kid and how i treated my bro😢
I guess my mind does that a lot since I have HOCD. It's Looking for "proves" of the memories of my past that might "be a lesbian and i was ever into girls and to my friends - all female" - i always discovered myself as a straight woman, even if the boys never wanted me, I am virgin and never dated actually.
Now my lack of experience really in romantic and sex terms - even if I always masturbated having in front of me pictures of the men I like and have really that need to be part of the life of the men i loved - really start to trigger me and after I got accused of being a lesbian because I got rejected by men I loved hocd start popped in my head 😢😢😢
You are truly a gift.
JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF !!!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being so open & honest & in detail. Everything you say i can absolutely relate to & struggle with so much.
One of my most debilitating theme connected to one of my past deed years ago. It gave me a really hard time, because you know... I really committed that deed. But even if the core of the fear is real, the conclusion ocd draws from it is still a lie.
Thank you for all you do! You are a blessing
Thank you Chrissie! Very interesting topic, hits home quite a bit. Thank you for your content!
This is like you readed my brain good video Chrissie!
You are amazing and have a gift of communicating clearly what we all deal with❤
Thank you so so much for posting this it’s life changing and you are such an angel. Please never stop making these
You always know exactly how my OCD works 😂
I’ve just had a lovely hot bath whilst listening to the real talk you give us Chrissie. ❤ thanks so much for being here!
You hit me! :) Thank you Chrissie Your a saviour you saves me :) :D
Lovely Chrissie Hodges.
this video could not have come at a better time
wow! its like you are actually in my head ! wow!
Watch OCD stories Brain voice vs Gatekeepers voice Dr Stephen Phillipson very helpful and game changer for me
What about if i have memories about things i did that support my intrusive thoughts like more than one thing like a lot of things, i did a lot of things when i was 6-14 that could support hocd like watching same sex porn or wanting to kiss same sex friend when i was 11 for some reason or making the same sex date in a video game but i never had crushes or feelings for the same sex and would never do that now but im just wondering since its multiple if that changes it :( even though throughout those whole times i was only genuinely attracted to the opposite sex and have been my whole life
I have the same thing ! Very similar experience but ultimately I know I have been diagnosed with ocd and have suffered with other themes as well so I can recognise the cycle of obsession and rumination. Also I think the human mind is so complex and these things don’t necessarily determine our sexuality. I think it’s quite common for lots of girls to do this at any age. Whatever the ‘truth’ is the thing that’s important is the recognition that constant rumination and obsession over it isn’t normal ( for someone without ocd) X
@@amandataylor949 I’ve had ocd symptoms since childhood (diagnosed with anxiety) but the only reason i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd is because my religious parents say its just demons lol so they dont care to help, when you were getting over hocd do you feel like you became lgbtq?
@@amandataylor949when you say “truth” have you had those experiences and your lgbtq?
I don’t think you can ‘become lgbt’. I still haven’t got over it I still ruminate a lot but I know that im attracted to guys and have had crushes on them my whlole life. Ive aceepred thay im bi-curious because i personallt feel that way and am open. if you are constantelt ruminating seeking reassurance then u have ocd and need to seek therapy, you can talk to your parents if you want but if u think they wont understand you can do it without then through the nhs x
What I mean by that is that no one ever knows the truth about anything there’s a chance that anyone could be bi straight or whatever, but most people don’t worry about it how we are they kinda just know and that’s it or they figure it out. The way I started worrying less was just saying ‘maybe’ ( Chrissie talks about this in her video) because this helps us deal with uncertainty which is the way to get over ocd x
Very good chrissie
Omg ..you are brilliant
I have been struggling really badly since last Aug and before medication has always helped me but I got taken off fleuxatine because it stopped working, got put on sertraline and worked for a bit and then stopped, got taken off that to be put on Citalopram and didn't work, to be put back onto fleuxatine and I feel nothings working when meds have worked before. Why isn't anything working for me anymore 😞 why does my doctor keep using same meds.
olanzapine has helped with my ocd. it helps with the intrusive thoughts and helps to resist compulsions