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I will forever listen to yall. I love seeing this man grow. However, now I need someone to make me feel like killing myself again. That music is ironically what helps keep going. BUT LET THIS MAN COME OUT OF THE HOLE! hes kept me alive since I was in syria, a cheating fiance, a suicidal bender and the loss of a friend, I hope his deep pain is over 🖤
Can yall let Benjamin know his music, solo and with lost dog, made a difference for me, I listened to them throughout my recovery from suicide attempts
I’ve just found your music and man it’s been a week straight of replaying your songs over and over!!!! I actually write myself, I work swing shift and have a lot of long nights to sit and think to myself
Unfortunately my son list his battle with the bottle. He sure loved this mans music. I listen all the time. His songs were sung at Jacobs memorial. RIP my boy.
I am so sorry for you loss mama, your boy ain't gone just the flesh is. Tune into the sounds in the air, they are there sometimes we just tune out. Love to you and your family, you have a guardian angel until you get to hug him again ❤️❤️❤️
I'm so sorry for that I send you my condolences. I suffered a similar pain coming from an ex drug addict I wish that on nobody ever. I love you keep pushing
@@erichenson1113 I don't remember who, but there's a quote that says something along the lines that good music should comfort disturbed people and disturb comfortable people.
Benjamin Todd and his music has played a HUGE part in me being alive. 1 month 3 days sober today with a new job in a new state with the love of my life . Thank you Benjamin. Thank you.
I wouldn't say being alive is a universal pain. I know many people who have had eveything handed to them with no worry of struggling. As for us, the ones who are struggling, we understand bens music on a different level. It calms the demons inside of us.
Everybody has their own struggle and their own demons, brother. I definitely see what you’re saying, but you never know what’s eating those others alive.
@@daltonbrennan8242 Bill Gates with all of his billions said the worse day of his life was when his mother died. I think the poorest to the richest, ugliest to the most attractive (as society would judge), most sick to the least sick all experience pain by the existence of setbacks, failures, and losses. Sure, addicts have their fair share of demons, but so does everyone else.
You can definitely hear the pain. Hes one of my favorite artists because there is no bullshit in his voice. What he says and sings, thats him, noone else.
After a fifth and a half of whisky my girl friend said I couldn't ride my Harley. Well in those days that was just like waving a red flag at the bull. Somehow I got the bike out of the garage and down to the street at full revs without dumping it. About five miles later she shows up and finds me on the side of the road with my leg pinned under the bike and the motor was hot by then. While my leg is burning all she says is I told you so! I told her eventually somebody is going to come along and get this bike off of me and you better not be here when they do. Mean and onery I was in those days. It took another five years of putting the bottle to my head and pulling the trigger to end it! The last three drunks came close to killing me! The last morning when I woke up I knew I would never be drunk again! And I haven't been drunk for 36 years now! Almost seems like another life now. Erwin the day will come down the road that you won't even want to get drunk. It will be the last thing on your mind!
Hope you’re doing well! Don’t just be a “recovering alcoholic” though! Recovery just means you’re waiting on your next relapse. Be a person who just doesn’t drink! Best of luck! God bless!
@Brian Holmes I don't know if I've read a better description of what his music does. For me, every movie always lays out the foundation of how to use our past pain and personal battles for growth and really just being a good person. Thanks for this Brian, don't tell me you can sing too! Lol
@@newfoundaquatics5093 I understand 100% I too am guilty of it. I have a great family, HAD great friends, and have/do push them away. Depression is the problem in my case. I'm no therapist, but I can relate. If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you amigo.
Thanks. I been reminded by many lately i am one hell of a woman. After all that's failed to get to me, i sure as hell dont have mercy on myself. I needed to see your comment. It put me back a little, into myself that loves me. Thanks darlin.
I spent many nights drinking and listening to Ben's music and becoming an absolute wreck by the 2nd or 3rd song. Its almost as if I was compelled to gratify my sorrow by drowning the raucous voices bouncing around in my head with booze, and the cycle would just repeat. I'm happy that I can say it has been a year and a week since I finally let go, and though I was first acquainted with these songs while I was completely lost, they have beautiful new meanings to me. Your work means a lot to me Ben. Thank you brother.
@@sonnyjones4399 I wish you all the best and I honestly hope that you can kick any and all things in your life that drag you down. Leave those burdens behind you and rest your bones. You deserve it. And you CAN do it if you want to... Once the fog clears away you'll question why you waited so long. I'll be hitting my 2 year anniversary in about 3 weeks, and I used to drink every day, all damn day. You got this.
"Sorry For The Things" And I've been thinking about the highway again I know you're dreamin' bout that blue flower dress Oh, but you know, we can't afford things like that Not quite yet. Don't hold your breath And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes I'm fightin' off my demons, but they're not quite dead With a single barrel shotgun and johnny walker red But when the bottle is empty, Oh the gun is to my head And I regret, Oh every step And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes And I've been flippin' through the sketches you drew Some of them are shining and some of them are blue Because one day I'm a sweetheart and the next I'm a brute I'm so confused, Oh what's the use And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes
My 32 yo Son just sent me this Link. I am completely blown away that he even has any kind of awareness of the unbearable pain he has caused me. Thank you so much for helping him to speak to me in the only way he is capable of. ❤ AgingHotie
And I've been thinking about the highway again. I know you're dreamin' bout that blue flower dress. Oh, but you know, we can't afford things like that, Not quite yet. Don't hold your breath. And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes. I'm fightin' off my demons, but they're not quite dead With a single barrel shotgun and johnny walker red. But when the bottle is empty, Oh the gun is to my head. And I regret, Oh every step. And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes. And I've been flippin' through the sketches you drew, Some of them are shining and some of them are blue Because one day I'm a sweetheart and the next I'm a brute I'm so confused, Oh what's the use. And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes.
Every time I listen to Benjamin Todd I think about my Dad and even more now. His music is helping me cope with losing him. R.I.P Charles Dan Barnhill (10-17-2020)
Me too. My brother shot himself in September in a drunken rage. I look back at all of our fights and scuffles, truly sorry for the things I ever said. Rest in peace to you father, Charles. May our lord have mercy on his soul.
This song had me looking down a barrel at bad time in my life. Still love going back listening to it after yr n half of being sober theres things always get better!!!
I just passed 7 years sober, if my daughter didn't give me the strength and introduced me to this eargasm of phenomenal music I probably would have the lost "the fight inside of me"
This makes my heart heavy for those who can't articulate their pain through the art of music but I rejoice in the healing power of shared experiences and for those who can bring us all together through the gift of song.
He wasn't even singing for 10 seconds and I'm bawling. My love is still alive but he's battling his demons hard. We aren't living together right now and I miss him so terribly but I make sure he knows how much he means to me and how selflessly I love him every single day. Today is our six month anniversary
Saw Ben with Lost Dog in August in Minneapolis, He and Ashley speak to me on a different level than any music I have ever heard, I feel as though I am close to tears every-time I hear a song, yet I urge for that feeling, I don't know why, Ben has tons of talent along with the rest of Lost Dog, keep doing your thing Ben! I wish you and your wife nothing but the best.
I was at the Minneapolis show also. Right out of treatment, and this music had helped me get through. Seriously one of my favorite artists ever. This was the first show I ever went to alone, and I was like whatever because I needed to be there
My boyfriend Josh and I have been together for 13 years. Some of it was hard, some of it was intolerable. I've felt so lost at times. Lately we have been a lot better, working on ourselves and really connecting. He played this song to me a few nights ago. It broke me. It's always been so confusing living with someone who one day is a sweetheart and the next day he's a brute. We listened, we cried and I felt seen. Thank you guy. 🖤🖤🖤🖤
I found Ben after my 24 year relationship ended, my brother introduced me to his music, thank God he did, I absolutely love Ben, and his music saved my life as I wanted it to end so badly ❤❤❤
My best friend died cause of things i showed him. Ive spent years blaming myself for it. Led me to a misery i wouldnt wish on anybody. Its the songs that make it easier to let him go. Thanks to everyone singin em
I've struggled with all heroin and meth for years. Your music is so uplifting and truthful. I've struggled with suicide attempts and have countlessly tried to condemn my self. Your music touches a part of me that I thought never existed. I want to thank you for your understanding, and uncanny ability to connect with the listener.
A little over 1 year sober from opiates and stims for me man it gets better but it gets worse before it gets better! I discovered Benjamin when I was dope sick living in a tent and he pushed me through the sickness and sorrow and I ain't never going back much love brother you got this
@@elizabethsokolowski2021 I'm actually doing great! I just celebrated another birthday in recovery, I have got my family and support system back. I'm not looking back, I never want to use again. I'm over that feeling. I don't even think about it anymore. Thank you for replying. Much love
Im also angry and hateful, but man, i gotta say, theres nothing tough about that. You might be physically tough, but to live hateful and angry is a weak way to live. We, the hateful and angry, are weak men. Theres nothing strong or tough about this kind of life.
If I didn’t have your music I would’ve ended it a long time ago. You’ve given me a way to release some of the pain through your music and I can’t thank you enough.
The last two songs have been very reminiscent of my own life. The caravan in this video also reminds me of the one I lived in on my granddads drive after fighting my mothers boyfriend who had told me that my grandfather was not blood. Something I was never meant to know. Benjamin's music really addresses issues that I think a lot of people who feel left behind in the world can relate to. Excited for the new album.
Thank you Benjamin Todd, I know you will never see this, but thank you for giving me hope. I'm pretty drunk right now.. but I really appreciate every sliver of music you produce, and every bit of it is relatable and gives me comfort, you're definitely one of my favorite artists. You bring me happiness on drives and give me comfort at home.i don't think ill ever stop listening. Thank you for making music I can relate to and for making music that brings me comfort in where I stand in life. Please never stop. You are always a go to and I plan to listen to your hurt for a very long time. Thank you for bringing comfort when I needed it. Youre an amazing artist and I couldn't be happier to of found you. Thank you a million times over. You make life a little more enjoyable. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I didn't think I'd find an artist that would make as much of an impact on me as Ben. I'd like to sit down with Ben sometime. He knows me. Keep making music, brother. You've brought me a long way! I wake up every day and listen to "war inside of me." And I listen to it every night.
I recently found Benjamin Tod and his music and lyrics speak to me as if it was written from my own mind. His raw emotion is nothing short of perfection in my mind.
What this guys dose for me emotionally I could never pay back honestly! This music healed me in a way that has changed me for life! Thanks Ben and all the others that see the beauty in this music and someone I met who showed me Ben back when I moved to Austin TX thanks Devin!
I feel the same. I watched this yesterday, drove around listening and singing. Burst into tears a couple times. Eh it is what it is, one day at a time right?
I'm a 51 year drug addict. I'm homeless I'm miserable man. Yet I will always be who I am and do what I do. I have 100% of my free will God gave to me. Life may be gray skies everyday even when they are blue yet my destiny continues everyday I'm above ground. Life is just a hiway of hell.
You're not alone old timer, I'm 33 and and living a similar destructive lifestyle. You still have worth to this world, and from one stranger to another, you're self aware and I hope nothing but the best for your recovery and self worth
God bless everybody, God bless your families. I always like to be a drug adding. I know what's like to be a drunk. I turned 56 tomorrow on June 25th. God bless everybody Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season. No one's going to come to your head
Me and my best friend saw them in LA on the last tour. I have never felt a room with such love and kinship through music. A dog can't be lost if its got a pack. Thanks for the music guys, see y'all on the next train
Ben saved my life, absolutely no doubt,Ben saved my life,Thank you my dear friend,if we never meet to shake hands,I will see you in the gloryland,your a Hero,keep it up brother
I miss you all. best summer of my life spit shine busking in Ashland Oregon. You guys played a personal concert for my family in my little shack. My mom, daughter and I will never forget ya’ll. I’m glad you are doing well. R.I.P. Nick!
Music is so powerful. Art is powerful. As an artist, you have hundreds of hearts in your hands. I'm so happy to hear the lost dog say that he respects this responsibility. That's rare to hear. Don't know about yall, but I need a little hope and a lot of truth. The world is mean and nasty to a kind heart. Art that connects can bring peace to a troubled soul, and honest hope. Part of that hope for me is that one can live honestly, while being honest with oneself. But how come that honest living comes with such pain? My hope is that it doesn't have to, and I craft my life to reflect that hope now. And if you follow, that's what I hear when Ben sings. It's that hope, and that overcoming of the bad to bring us some good. (And some damn fine tunes.)
I’ve listened to Benjamin Todd for a few years. You continue to be an inspiration during my own personal struggle with alcoholism. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
Personally, Ben and his wife's music has helped get me through about the hardest part of life I've ever been though. His ability to dig and show true vulnerable emotion and sing it has helped me find a better level of honesty with in mu self. Been, you truly cant know how much of an impact you've made on this point of life.
Thank you so much Ben. This was the most powerful piece of art I have experienced. I lost my best friend to suicide, it was probably the hardest thing to go through. I just didn’t know why. I was lost and felt I would never get those answers. I don’t need them, you are correct that words can change the world. Much love to you and yours. RIP Reuben, I miss you dude.
Put those devils on a treadmill and exercise them demons 😉 a bad day, month, or year doesn’t equal a bad life. The older I grow, the more I understand how important it is to stay humble, selfless, loving, and kind. And Make sure you remind your loved ones how special they are.. that is all, thank you 💜
The "weight of music". I couldn't have said it more eloquently myself. The weight of music is simply incredible, we listen to it when we're down, when we're happy, to relax. We celebrate everything in life with song, including birthdays, weddings, Christmas. It's used to unite an entire nation with our anthems, to celebrate victories at the games, or in hard times of war, or, communities through religious gospel songs, and even as an individual, showing our love for someone special. We use songs to find the words to say goodbye to our loved ones, or as a medium, to say the things we wish had said when they we're still with us. It can even bring back old memories both fond and some no so good. Some songs are like the gravel under your feet. They have no real value but help pass the time, fill the airwaves and will be forgotten in due time. Others will be like diamonds to you. So precious to you, that you'll hear them as a child, they'll have such an impact on you, that you will carry them an entire life time, and even pass them on to your children. The "weight of music" is heavy in our hearts, weather we know it or not. ❤
This hurts to listen too but gives the inspiration to not sink down to the bottles level. You are on the same level of Kid cudi for me. Singing about addiction and depression a lot of people shy from but you hit it on all levels on such a beautiful level! Thank you!
Life has really been beating my ass lately and honestly TH-cam my only escape, you all really make a bigger difference than you will ever truly know, Thank you from my bottom of my still beating heart.
At 43 as of Dec. 20, 2020. I witnessed and was right in the middle of 1990-1996. That’s when the opioid epidemic began for me. Lost my best friend in 1998. He was 23. We made tons of music together. It hurts till this day. North East Tennessee ...Johnson City.
Not sure why Ben didn't think this made the cut. The best songs are often the most brutally honest. Having been through a 20 year addiction it's amazing how much you can lose and how much of yourself you're willing to compromise for the addiction. 4 years sober in November and I can honestly say songs like these help me remember the bad times and the reasons why I stopped. Thanks for finally recording this for us.
I know how it is to lose close friends, it leaves a terrible hole in your heart that can't be replaced. Your music has helped me through some real tough times, and I thank you for what you do Much love Tod
"I'm fighting off my demons but there not quite dead, with a single barreled shotgun and Johnny Walker Red but when the bottle is empty your the guns to my head and I regret" this hits home and so unbelievably hard I get emotional every time I hear it. I unfortunately can relate and interpret the single barreled shotgun as a metaphor for a rig for heroin and obviously Johnny Walker Red needs no explanation. Benjamin has always been open about his struggles with addiction and this part of the song and infact the whole song brings me to tears 9 out of 10 times I listen to it because I think back to a girl and a relationship that meant the world to me but unfortunately was based around drugs and getting high. So let the waterworks commence, because as I still am struggling even when I get clean she will still be in the back of my mind always, "The guns to my head" I guess you could say.😔😔
Ben's music always hits me like a ton of bricks. I'll have a year clean from methamphetamine addiction, the end of this month. It's been a struggle like no other. His music got me through so many hard times.
I always thought Ben reminded me of Elliott Smith - it's the same humility in the lyrics. Then he goes and references Johnny Walker Red, just like Elliott. Damn. Haha
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I will forever listen to yall. I love seeing this man grow. However, now I need someone to make me feel like killing myself again. That music is ironically what helps keep going. BUT LET THIS MAN COME OUT OF THE HOLE! hes kept me alive since I was in syria, a cheating fiance, a suicidal bender and the loss of a friend, I hope his deep pain is over 🖤
Can yall let Benjamin know his music, solo and with lost dog, made a difference for me, I listened to them throughout my recovery from suicide attempts
I’ve just found your music and man it’s been a week straight of replaying your songs over and over!!!!
I actually write myself, I work swing shift and have a lot of long nights to sit and think to myself
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Unfortunately my son list his battle with the bottle. He sure loved this mans music. I listen all the time. His songs were sung at Jacobs memorial. RIP my boy.
I am so sorry for you loss mama, your boy ain't gone just the flesh is. Tune into the sounds in the air, they are there sometimes we just tune out. Love to you and your family, you have a guardian angel until you get to hug him again ❤️❤️❤️
I’m so sorry. May his soul Rest In Peace.
I'm so sorry for that I send you my condolences. I suffered a similar pain coming from an ex drug addict I wish that on nobody ever. I love you keep pushing
My condolences mam. Lost my brother 3 yrs ago
I'm sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. I love you, friend
The amazing part is, Ben has no idea how many lives he's saved.
You nailed 100%....
Casey Buentello He is a true poet for the broken ones
@@erichenson1113 I don't remember who, but there's a quote that says something along the lines that good music should comfort disturbed people and disturb comfortable people.
I can see that for sure
@@caseybuentello Woody Guthrie said that
He’s mastered the art of making pain more tolerable through music
So true
If you think that listen to useing again
Sick pfp fam
@@dotChrollo WEEEEEE HAAAAAAAATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU
heavy album
Bro you nailed it on the head!!!!
Benjamin Todd and his music has played a HUGE part in me being alive. 1 month 3 days sober today with a new job in a new state with the love of my life . Thank you Benjamin. Thank you.
Right on brother
You keep it up man.
I’m 2 months sober and a lifetime to go. I’m proud of you. Keep strong buddy.
Joe Grindle GOOD SHIT HOMIE 👏🏻💯❤️
Chamuca13 FUCK YA 💪🏻❤️
The universal pain of being alive can be heard in Ben's voice. It makes me feel not alone in my suffering.
I wouldn't say being alive is a universal pain. I know many people who have had eveything handed to them with no worry of struggling. As for us, the ones who are struggling, we understand bens music on a different level. It calms the demons inside of us.
@@daltonbrennan8242 well said
Everybody has their own struggle and their own demons, brother. I definitely see what you’re saying, but you never know what’s eating those others alive.
@@daltonbrennan8242 Bill Gates with all of his billions said the worse day of his life was when his mother died. I think the poorest to the richest, ugliest to the most attractive (as society would judge), most sick to the least sick all experience pain by the existence of setbacks, failures, and losses. Sure, addicts have their fair share of demons, but so does everyone else.
You can definitely hear the pain. Hes one of my favorite artists because there is no bullshit in his voice. What he says and sings, thats him, noone else.
"Fighting off my demons but they're not quite dead"...man that hit me. I know that feeling
same!
I hear ya and Ben sings it. He's amazing
Been fighting a heroin addiction for 14 yrs. 137 days clean and this rings true...
Jared Myers. That's fucking awesome man. Keep it up brother
Every day is a fight.stay strong.
Ben's songs and stories singlehandedly motivated me to kick my addiction to alcohol and cigarettes. Six months sober now and I ain't lookin' back
Hope you’re doing well bud.
🤙🤙
shit i just said i needed to kick drinking and cigs on bens other song lol hope your doing well man
After a fifth and a half of whisky my girl friend said I couldn't ride my Harley. Well in those days that was just like waving a red flag at the bull. Somehow I got the bike out of the garage and down to the street at full revs without dumping it. About five miles later she shows up and finds me on the side of the road with my leg pinned under the bike and the motor was hot by then. While my leg is burning all she says is I told you so! I told her eventually somebody is going to come along and get this bike off of me and you better not be here when they do. Mean and onery I was in those days. It took another five years of putting the bottle to my head and pulling the trigger to end it! The last three drunks came close to killing me! The last morning when I woke up I knew I would never be drunk again! And I haven't been drunk for 36 years now! Almost seems like another life now. Erwin the day will come down the road that you won't even want to get drunk. It will be the last thing on your mind!
Hope you’re doing well! Don’t just be a “recovering alcoholic” though! Recovery just means you’re waiting on your next relapse. Be a person who just doesn’t drink! Best of luck! God bless!
Listening to Ben sing is like watching a movie in your head. Just insane writing skills. With a voice to deliver it.
You aren't from Wichita are you? Sorry I know a Brian Holmes here lol
Aaron Hahn haha i’m not.
You don’t happen to be from central Pennsylvania do you?
Brian Holmes you don't happen to be from mars do ya?
@Brian Holmes I don't know if I've read a better description of what his music does. For me, every movie always lays out the foundation of how to use our past pain and personal battles for growth and really just being a good person. Thanks for this Brian, don't tell me you can sing too! Lol
I love Ben and his music so much. I hope everyone reading this is has a full belly and is surrounded by loved ones..or at least happy :)
Thank you friend, I appreciate you!
I have these things....just can't seem to see any light through it all :( I seem to push it all away
@@newfoundaquatics5093
I understand 100%
I too am guilty of it. I have a great family, HAD great friends, and have/do push them away. Depression is the problem in my case.
I'm no therapist, but I can relate. If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you amigo.
A damn fine wish, friend.....here's to hope
Thanks Florida Man, got food, friends and family where I am.
Still working on getting happy, but it's fine it's up there on the bucket list.
My uncle passed 3 hours ago.. your music helps me so much man thank you so much..
- Sincerely some Kentucky boy
Sorry brother, and sorry that I'm the only one to say sorry on here. Keep your head up country boy. Much love from Charleston SC.
Here’s to the strong women, helping great men become great men.
Absolutely, a good woman makes a man want to be a better man every day..
Yes, Bell, like the wife I have been married to for almost 50 yrs.
Thanks. I been reminded by many lately i am one hell of a woman. After all that's failed to get to me, i sure as hell dont have mercy on myself. I needed to see your comment. It put me back a little, into myself that loves me. Thanks darlin.
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Here's to my wife...
Lost out here, but I always feel like I'm home when I hear him sing.
Because it hits pretty f-ing close to home.
Enzo Scrève yep.
Same, friend.
The man has much respect for the human condition. That means the world to a lot of people.
Man, I’m so glad I found Ben when I did. Buddy, you don’t even begin to understand how many lives you’ve saved. Mine included.
Oh you're so right. I really hope that he has some idea of how important his music has become.
Mine too mate......❤
I spent many nights drinking and listening to Ben's music and becoming an absolute wreck by the 2nd or 3rd song. Its almost as if I was compelled to gratify my sorrow by drowning the raucous voices bouncing around in my head with booze, and the cycle would just repeat. I'm happy that I can say it has been a year and a week since I finally let go, and though I was first acquainted with these songs while I was completely lost, they have beautiful new meanings to me. Your work means a lot to me Ben. Thank you brother.
I hope you're doing well
I'm struggling with booze. For 8 years. But I loved your message.
@@sonnyjones4399 I wish you all the best and I honestly hope that you can kick any and all things in your life that drag you down. Leave those burdens behind you and rest your bones. You deserve it. And you CAN do it if you want to... Once the fog clears away you'll question why you waited so long. I'll be hitting my 2 year anniversary in about 3 weeks, and I used to drink every day, all damn day. You got this.
@@24hoursofwin My 2 year anniversary of abstinence from alcohol is in a few weeks! Thank you for your kind words.
@@chrisg1621 Great to hear you are doing well Chris. Best of luck to you in the future.
"Sorry For The Things"
And I've been thinking about the highway again
I know you're dreamin' bout that blue flower dress
Oh, but you know, we can't afford things like that
Not quite yet. Don't hold your breath
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes
I'm fightin' off my demons, but they're not quite dead
With a single barrel shotgun and johnny walker red
But when the bottle is empty, Oh the gun is to my head
And I regret, Oh every step
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes
And I've been flippin' through the sketches you drew
Some of them are shining and some of them are blue
Because one day I'm a sweetheart and the next I'm a brute
I'm so confused, Oh what's the use
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes
My 32 yo Son just sent me this Link. I am completely blown away that he even has any kind of awareness of the unbearable pain he has caused me.
Thank you so much for helping him to speak to me in the only way he is capable of. ❤
AgingHotie
And I've been thinking about the highway again.
I know you're dreamin' bout that blue flower dress.
Oh, but you know, we can't afford things like that,
Not quite yet. Don't hold your breath.
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes.
I'm fightin' off my demons, but they're not quite dead
With a single barrel shotgun and johnny walker red.
But when the bottle is empty, Oh the gun is to my head.
And I regret, Oh every step.
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes.
And I've been flippin' through the sketches you drew,
Some of them are shining and some of them are blue
Because one day I'm a sweetheart and the next I'm a brute
I'm so confused, Oh what's the use.
And I'm sorry for the things that I said when I was drunk
I didn't mean 'em then, and I hope you lied
When you whispered goodbye, through teary eyes.
Thank you
Every time I listen to Benjamin Todd I think about my Dad and even more now. His music is helping me cope with losing him. R.I.P Charles Dan Barnhill (10-17-2020)
Me too. My brother shot himself in September in a drunken rage. I look back at all of our fights and scuffles, truly sorry for the things I ever said.
Rest in peace to you father, Charles.
May our lord have mercy on his soul.
This song had me looking down a barrel at bad time in my life. Still love going back listening to it after yr n half of being sober theres things always get better!!!
I’m glad to hear you’re doing better! And I hope you have a great year my friend. Stay strong. God bless you
When you hit the thumbs up button before the fist note was played.
🙌🙌🙌🙌 Every fkn time!!
Everytime on this channel!
Absolutely! How anyone could not like this is beyond me, but most people nowadays have no soul.....
Same I just know I'm going to love it!
He started talking in the dodge driving, I stopped it and copy pasted immediately sent it to a buddy
I just passed 7 years sober, if my daughter didn't give me the strength and introduced me to this eargasm of phenomenal music I probably would have the lost "the fight inside of me"
This makes my heart heavy for those who can't articulate their pain through the art of music but I rejoice in the healing power of shared experiences and for those who can bring us all together through the gift of song.
He wasn't even singing for 10 seconds and I'm bawling. My love is still alive but he's battling his demons hard. We aren't living together right now and I miss him so terribly but I make sure he knows how much he means to me and how selflessly I love him every single day. Today is our six month anniversary
What happened or are you still in the middle of what is happening?
He's the reason I started listening to country.
Dont lump him into country
Folk *
Lost Dog is Country….no one else is anymore!!!!!!
The tears are flowing rn I used to be exactly like the song says, so glad I've changed my ways.
Saw Ben with Lost Dog in August in Minneapolis, He and Ashley speak to me on a different level than any music I have ever heard, I feel as though I am close to tears every-time I hear a song, yet I urge for that feeling, I don't know why, Ben has tons of talent along with the rest of Lost Dog, keep doing your thing Ben! I wish you and your wife nothing but the best.
I was at the Minneapolis show also. Right out of treatment, and this music had helped me get through. Seriously one of my favorite artists ever. This was the first show I ever went to alone, and I was like whatever because I needed to be there
anthony...hes a great guy to write a album with
They were here in Minneapolis?!?! Damnit I missed it!
"He and Ashley speak to me on a different level than any music I have ever heard"
This.
Invokes joy or sorrow in your heart and stays just long enough that you wish it returned, so as to have something to feel.
Real. Music.
I cannot stop playing this song! Ben's voice is just so pure and the emotion is so raw.
Lets appreciate this man right now while we have him. Things this pure tend to be lost way to early.
I don’t have to be on a downer to listen to Benjamin’s songs it actually lifts me. Thank you for your music all the best
My boyfriend Josh and I have been together for 13 years. Some of it was hard, some of it was intolerable. I've felt so lost at times. Lately we have been a lot better, working on ourselves and really connecting. He played this song to me a few nights ago. It broke me. It's always been so confusing living with someone who one day is a sweetheart and the next day he's a brute. We listened, we cried and I felt seen. Thank you guy. 🖤🖤🖤🖤
I found Ben after my 24 year relationship ended, my brother introduced me to his music, thank God he did, I absolutely love Ben, and his music saved my life as I wanted it to end so badly ❤❤❤
My best friend died cause of things i showed him. Ive spent years blaming myself for it. Led me to a misery i wouldnt wish on anybody. Its the songs that make it easier to let him go. Thanks to everyone singin em
God you weild the music like a switch blade. Cuts every time but worth the pain… thank you for the passion
I've struggled with all heroin and meth for years. Your music is so uplifting and truthful. I've struggled with suicide attempts and have countlessly tried to condemn my self. Your music touches a part of me that I thought never existed. I want to thank you for your understanding, and uncanny ability to connect with the listener.
A little over 1 year sober from opiates and stims for me man it gets better but it gets worse before it gets better! I discovered Benjamin when I was dope sick living in a tent and he pushed me through the sickness and sorrow and I ain't never going back much love brother you got this
Reading this a year later . I hope you are ok and good
@@elizabethsokolowski2021 I'm actually doing great! I just celebrated another birthday in recovery, I have got my family and support system back. I'm not looking back, I never want to use again. I'm over that feeling. I don't even think about it anymore. Thank you for replying. Much love
I love this song!! My brother past away in 2007 he took his life on our front porch and my brothers name was Nick too. This song speaks volumes.
This still makes me cry💙
Your beautiful 👀👀💃💃💃🏵🌼♥️🌼🌼♥️🌼♥️
I'm a tough angry man. Ben breaks me every time and keeps me living through reality instead of consumed by hate.
Im also angry and hateful, but man, i gotta say, theres nothing tough about that. You might be physically tough, but to live hateful and angry is a weak way to live. We, the hateful and angry, are weak men. Theres nothing strong or tough about this kind of life.
Mate I hear you and have same issues.
May god heal us all
Good song to a start off a cold Tuesday morning
Still hot here in vegas
Jacob Lyman Canada. Come here. Get froze bruh
If I didn’t have your music I would’ve ended it a long time ago. You’ve given me a way to release some of the pain through your music and I can’t thank you enough.
The last two songs have been very reminiscent of my own life. The caravan in this video also reminds me of the one I lived in on my granddads drive after fighting my mothers boyfriend who had told me that my grandfather was not blood. Something I was never meant to know. Benjamin's music really addresses issues that I think a lot of people who feel left behind in the world can relate to. Excited for the new album.
My soul has been touched
Thank you Benjamin Todd, I know you will never see this, but thank you for giving me hope. I'm pretty drunk right now.. but I really appreciate every sliver of music you produce, and every bit of it is relatable and gives me comfort, you're definitely one of my favorite artists. You bring me happiness on drives and give me comfort at home.i don't think ill ever stop listening. Thank you for making music I can relate to and for making music that brings me comfort in where I stand in life. Please never stop. You are always a go to and I plan to listen to your hurt for a very long time. Thank you for bringing comfort when I needed it. Youre an amazing artist and I couldn't be happier to of found you. Thank you a million times over. You make life a little more enjoyable. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I'm drinking under a bridge in New York came to see my son can't wait to see what kind of person he becomes hopefully nothing like me
This is definitely one of my favorite songs I listen to it so many times each day! Thanks for the updated version!
Isaac Olmsted definitely gems
Benjamin you are a blessing to the world my brother.
I didn't think I'd find an artist that would make as much of an impact on me as Ben. I'd like to sit down with Ben sometime. He knows me. Keep making music, brother. You've brought me a long way! I wake up every day and listen to "war inside of me." And I listen to it every night.
I'm a black man from the East Side of Charleston, SC. I didn't expect this video to impact me so powerfully. Much respect from the Holy City.
I recently found Benjamin Tod and his music and lyrics speak to me as if it was written from my own mind. His raw emotion is nothing short of perfection in my mind.
What this guys dose for me emotionally I could never pay back honestly! This music healed me in a way that has changed me for life! Thanks Ben and all the others that see the beauty in this music and someone I met who showed me Ben back when I moved to Austin TX thanks Devin!
Cannot wait for the whole new album. I've been so impatient.
pretty sure ben knows the lives he has saved
this is heart felt great music
Benjamin tod you’re a savior, your music helped me realize I have so much to live for, thank you for existing.✌️🖤😊
I always feel moved when I hear Ben’s music. This song pulls me in many directions.
Benjamin Tod you are a master song writer. You did it again. Eyes swelling up as we speak. Bravo sir
I feel like I've lived every song he sings
Are you okay?
@@joeygilbert3558 yeah, today......
Same, man
I feel the same. I watched this yesterday, drove around listening and singing. Burst into tears a couple times. Eh it is what it is, one day at a time right?
@@codyburnett1192 it gets easier every day.
Always such a lovely experience listening to Benjamin ❤️ makes my soul happy
Glad I found this my misses an kids are my world and I'm trying real to give it up went for 10 a day to 4 every couple days
I'm a 51 year drug addict. I'm homeless I'm miserable man. Yet I will always be who I am and do what I do. I have 100% of my free will God gave to me. Life may be gray skies everyday even when they are blue yet my destiny continues everyday I'm above ground. Life is just a hiway of hell.
Yes. As we go Brother
You're not alone old timer, I'm 33 and and living a similar destructive lifestyle. You still have worth to this world, and from one stranger to another, you're self aware and I hope nothing but the best for your recovery and self worth
stay strong bro 💪
God bless everybody, God bless your families. I always like to be a drug adding. I know what's like to be a drunk. I turned 56 tomorrow on June 25th. God bless everybody Jesus. Jesus is the reason for the season. No one's going to come to your head
How are you doing? I hope you are doing well stranger..
Dammmn, im in tears right now, i listen to this song and everytime i remember her...
when I drink a lot this is nice. When Im sober it is still good. 10/10
Oh, The Teardrop Trio saved me so many nights, am so very grateful to see this in the light once again.
Me and my best friend saw them in LA on the last tour. I have never felt a room with such love and kinship through music. A dog can't be lost if its got a pack. Thanks for the music guys, see y'all on the next train
Ben saved my life, absolutely no doubt,Ben saved my life,Thank you my dear friend,if we never meet to shake hands,I will see you in the gloryland,your a Hero,keep it up brother
Thanks for the songs. They soothe the soul of this road weary traveler.
I miss you all. best summer of my life spit shine busking in Ashland Oregon. You guys played a personal concert for my family in my little shack. My mom, daughter and I will never forget ya’ll. I’m glad you are doing well. R.I.P. Nick!
Music is so powerful. Art is powerful. As an artist, you have hundreds of hearts in your hands. I'm so happy to hear the lost dog say that he respects this responsibility. That's rare to hear. Don't know about yall, but I need a little hope and a lot of truth. The world is mean and nasty to a kind heart. Art that connects can bring peace to a troubled soul, and honest hope. Part of that hope for me is that one can live honestly, while being honest with oneself. But how come that honest living comes with such pain? My hope is that it doesn't have to, and I craft my life to reflect that hope now. And if you follow, that's what I hear when Ben sings. It's that hope, and that overcoming of the bad to bring us some good. (And some damn fine tunes.)
Dejah Thoris beautifully said
I’ve listened to Benjamin Todd for a few years. You continue to be an inspiration during my own personal struggle with alcoholism. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
Personally, Ben and his wife's music has helped get me through about the hardest part of life I've ever been though. His ability to dig and show true vulnerable emotion and sing it has helped me find a better level of honesty with in mu self. Been, you truly cant know how much of an impact you've made on this point of life.
I love peoples music ten times more when I feel like I relate to them. Proud of you Ben, thanks for everything!
Thank you so much Ben. This was the most powerful piece of art I have experienced. I lost my best friend to suicide, it was probably the hardest thing to go through. I just didn’t know why. I was lost and felt I would never get those answers. I don’t need them, you are correct that words can change the world. Much love to you and yours. RIP Reuben, I miss you dude.
Love the words..
The melody makes me think of when I was a kid .
Listening to my mom sang then old southern church songs
So much talent, words cannot describe
Your amazing Ben.....Wordsmith.
Benjamin, just has a way with real life issues 👌
Just connects with a lot of people, well done Mr.Tod
Put those devils on a treadmill and exercise them demons 😉 a bad day, month, or year doesn’t equal a bad life. The older I grow, the more I understand how important it is to stay humble, selfless, loving, and kind. And Make sure you remind your loved ones how special they are.. that is all, thank you 💜
The "weight of music". I couldn't have said it more eloquently myself. The weight of music is simply incredible, we listen to it when we're down, when we're happy, to relax. We celebrate everything in life with song, including birthdays, weddings, Christmas. It's used to unite an entire nation with our anthems, to celebrate victories at the games, or in hard times of war, or, communities through religious gospel songs, and even as an individual, showing our love for someone special. We use songs to find the words to say goodbye to our loved ones, or as a medium, to say the things we wish had said when they we're still with us. It can even bring back old memories both fond and some no so good. Some songs are like the gravel under your feet. They have no real value but help pass the time, fill the airwaves and will be forgotten in due time. Others will be like diamonds to you. So precious to you, that you'll hear them as a child, they'll have such an impact on you, that you will carry them an entire life time, and even pass them on to your children. The "weight of music" is heavy in our hearts, weather we know it or not. ❤
That's what I'm talkin' bout Tony... and Tim... loved seeing your reflection in the truck's glass. very Velazques-esque.
Thanks Ben, met you in Little 5 Points in Atlanta 4 years ago. Still remember what we talked about. Blessings my brother
This hurts to listen too but gives the inspiration to not sink down to the bottles level. You are on the same level of Kid cudi for me. Singing about addiction and depression a lot of people shy from but you hit it on all levels on such a beautiful level! Thank you!
Some days Ben's music is one of the few things that keeps me going.
Life has really been beating my ass lately and honestly TH-cam my only escape, you all really make a bigger difference than you will ever truly know, Thank you from my bottom of my still beating heart.
It'll get better, bub. Just hang in there.
Don't give up. You will get through this. Cheers
At 43 as of Dec. 20, 2020. I witnessed and was right in the middle of 1990-1996. That’s when the opioid epidemic began for me. Lost my best friend in 1998. He was 23. We made tons of music together. It hurts till this day.
North East Tennessee ...Johnson City.
I wish I knew his name. I’m raising a glass to your friend. Not sure how suitable that is but it’s nothing but love to you and yours.
@@callumcomrie Thank You.
I think you have already done more good than you know my friend keep changing the world
Ben your the best live performance artist. In a leauge of your own. One of the best songs Ive ever heard. Powerful
Another fantastic Ben/Gems colab. Really looking forward to the new album, I’ll take as many of these little tastes as you can give us
It is beautiful the way he speaks to my soul with his music.
Not sure why Ben didn't think this made the cut. The best songs are often the most brutally honest. Having been through a 20 year addiction it's amazing how much you can lose and how much of yourself you're willing to compromise for the addiction. 4 years sober in November and I can honestly say songs like these help me remember the bad times and the reasons why I stopped. Thanks for finally recording this for us.
I know how it is to lose close friends, it leaves a terrible hole in your heart that can't be replaced.
Your music has helped me through some real tough times, and I thank you for what you do
Much love Tod
I love the way Ben looks up when he sings, like he's sending up a prayer
Me too !!!!! Love it !!!!
I love Benjamin Tod, his music really holds a great place in my heart
"I'm fighting off my demons but there not quite dead, with a single barreled shotgun and Johnny Walker Red but when the bottle is empty your the guns to my head and I regret" this hits home and so unbelievably hard I get emotional every time I hear it. I unfortunately can relate and interpret the single barreled shotgun as a metaphor for a rig for heroin and obviously Johnny Walker Red needs no explanation. Benjamin has always been open about his struggles with addiction and this part of the song and infact the whole song brings me to tears 9 out of 10 times I listen to it because I think back to a girl and a relationship that meant the world to me but unfortunately was based around drugs and getting high. So let the waterworks commence, because as I still am struggling even when I get clean she will still be in the back of my mind always, "The guns to my head" I guess you could say.😔😔
Still before 1000 wait till the world catches up with Ben what a world 🌎 of talent 👏💙
Your music gets me through the tough days. Cant wait for the new album.
Definitely one of the best songwriters of his generation! An old soul,deep,sad,wise,wonderful!!!
This song saved my life tonight. . .
Ben's music always hits me like a ton of bricks. I'll have a year clean from methamphetamine addiction, the end of this month. It's been a struggle like no other. His music got me through so many hard times.
I always thought Ben reminded me of Elliott Smith - it's the same humility in the lyrics.
Then he goes and references Johnny Walker Red, just like Elliott. Damn. Haha
Drink up baby.
I was thinking the same, the music is very different but he reminds me a lot of Elliott in his spirit. Let's hope we never lose this guy.
Ben definitely hits the same places that Elliott's music has hit in me for years and years. The tortured souls of genius no doubt
100% agree. Just like Elliot, I go on Benjamin binges.
Unreal how you can take a part of learning to love and words and make a song as simple as this that speaks volumes.