The Fading Beautiful Mind of William Utermohlen
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The name of William Utermohlen is often not well known within or outside the art world, but for those are familiar with his work, most often they will instantly think of the many self portraits he created towards the end of his life, that detail quite a heartbreaking aspect of life that many of us experience firsthand at some stage. Utermohlen embarked on a remarkable artistic journey that offered a profound glimpse into the depths of the human mind and the relentless grip of Alzheimer's disease. As the disease gradually eroded his cognitive abilities, Utermohlen turned to his art, specifically self-portraits, to chronicler his deteriorating self-perception and the disintegration of his identity.
To this day, Utermohlen's self-portraits stand as a poignant testament to the human spirit's resilience in the face of devastating adversity. His paintings, spanning from the early stages of his diagnosis in 1995 to his final works in the year 2000, offer a raw and intimate portrayal of the artist's struggle to maintain a sense of self as his cognitive abilities slipped away.
In his earlier self-portraits, Utermohlen's features remain recognizable, albeit imbued with a sense of growing anxiety and confusion. But over time, his brushstrokes become increasingly fragmented, reflecting the fragmentation of his own perception. By the end, his self-portraits had transformed into abstract expressions of fear, isolation, and despair.
In this video, we will be taking that same journey together, to see how Utermohlen’s final self-portraits transcend the realm of mere artistic expression and how they serve as a powerful visual narrative of the human experience within the confines of Alzheimer's disease.
This is the story of the final self portraits of William Utermohlen.
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One of the most difficult parts of my grandmother's experience with Alzheimer's was the fleeting awareness she seemed to have of how bad things were getting. We would spend time with her at the nursing home and she would be in a generally pleasant mood but conversations would stop and repeat and her attention would come and go. Most of the time, she wouldn't seem to notice that her thoughts weren't complete or the conversations weren't entirely following a logical path, but one of the times she wanted to tell us something and couldn't remember what it was, her facial expression suddenly became strained, as if she had been studying something for hours. She closed her eyes and repeated quietly but urgently to herself "It will come back. It will come back. It will come back." as if she was trying to reassure herself. The moment passed and she eventually reverted back to her content yet absent-minded state.
This man essentially showed the entire world what cannot be expressed at all, and he did it all through his impecable art. I believe that William is one of the greatest artists of all time, due simply to this project.
I actually saw these paintings at a Utermohlen exhibit at the Chicago Cultural Center back in 2008. I met his wife Pat and she signed my program book. I still have it. The full breadth of his work was amazing and to see the progression/regression from beginning to end was breathtaking and terrifying. What a profound expression. Thank you for bringing him to the attention of the viewership.
Thank You Blind Dweller for introducing this Artist and the struggle with Alheimers...my husband has been diagnosed with early on set dementia so it hits home with me.❤
“How do we fight back? By creating art.”- Terrance McKenna
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Not to be rude but Its spelled Alzheimer’s,not alheimers.😐
In Blue Skys, the back of the chair disappears into the wall, which is the same color. Its like he cant remember if it's there or not. Hes grasping the table and arching his back as if he feels he might fall backwards. Thats actually kind of terrifying. Feeling you'll fall when you're supposed to be just sitting on a chair, and not having any reference (decorations, etc) to orient you. The window isnt even familiar anymore. It doesn't look like it has a normal hinge. Its just a strange contraption. And like you said, the room has a warm color, or a sense of home/familiarity, but it's empty. He has a sense of what the space should be but he cant recognize it. I assume he had just heard some details about his prognosis and there was a lot of fear in his mind about how the more advanced stages of his disease would be. RIP, Utermohlen.
Very well spotted detail! I never considered that!
I have a presentation in school about mental health and art, he was one of the artists I used. I've worked for years with people with mental decline and it's heartbreaking to see it. Thank you for this video and helping his story get out to even more people.
That has to be the best one yet, I was incredibly moved. Maybe because my father is in the grips of dementia, but mostly, the incredibly in depth analysis of the pictures, thank you.
Those last two paintings really are something else. Haunting. Especially the erased self-portrait. I had to pause for a moment to take that one in, especially with the narration. Beautiful introduction to this artist's story...
This reminds me of "Everywhere at the End of Time", which is basically an experimental music piece based around the same condition. It's very good, but obviously deals with a difficult topic. Like this, it's both beautiful and tragic
It’s a great music project
Speaking of which, how about a video on Ivan Seal, Mr. Dweller? 😉
I was heartbroken when you described his head painting,the truth is whilst he was painting All this,his dementia was too,not by completing it like a normal artist,but instead using his brain as a mear canvas,filling it with plague and then erase every experience he ever had. Being born,turning 1,walking and talking for the first time,learning how to ride a bike,making permanent friendships,finding his soulmate,graduating,getting married,finding his love for painting,becoming famous,vanquished within an instant. Before taking away his dignity completely and making him untape the mirror,notifying him that he was nothing more than a husk now,that thing in the painting is what was left of William,a ghost who couldn’t do anything about the fact that HE was the dementia now ,that HE did all this work for nothing but them to get taken away,that he had just experienced a fate worse then a fate worse than death,that HE couldn’t cry or scream or fight back or even accept his fate,HE HAD FORGOTTEN HOW TO FORGET. So when you finally touch the axe in 8-4 and defeat bowser you didn’t just save the mushroom kingdom,you tricked him by remembering what the levels had in store cuase if you were bitten by a piranha plant and killed,you would just loose a life and start over and the next time you would see him,you’d know that he was a stage hazard and jump over him, and that led up to this all because,YOU REMEMBERED WHAT TO DO.
One sad bit is, Utermohlen could still draw perfectly well even at the very end. The technique can be readily seen. He just didn't have a concept of "my face" that could be put to paper anymore.
i accidentally stumbled into his exhibit at loyola university and i was mind blown. esp cos i was obsessed with his self portraits for so long. crazy coincidence? serendipity.
This was soooo amazing...beautiful and necessary...thanks so much for again, enlightening us with some incredibly moving work.
Extremely interesting! I think Alzheimer is the closest we have to real and true horror! The idea of mental decay is really terrifying. There is a swedish movie about Alzheimers called "A song for Martin". Is about a great composer that becomes afflicted by Alzheimer. The most horrifying movie i have ever seen..
No fictional horror can ever match that..
It is in Swedish but can be seen with subtitles.
I'll have to give that a watch sometime. Thanks for tuning in Port, hope you're well 😊
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Nothing scares me more. So many people have fears of burning, drowning and other painful yet untimely quick deaths but it's the things we often don't consider that are the true horrors!
Plus the movie the scared me the most is Jonny Got His Gun (free on TH-cam.) Also not a horror movie.
I found Mr Utermohlen's work relatable. Not in the ability to create the art, but in the knowing that YOU are disappearing into something else, something unrecognizable, even to yourself. And there is nothing to be done to stop the process. I thank you for showing his work and his story.
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Very sad story of this artist but such beautiful art!! I have not heard of him before and I love learning from your channel. And i love your interpretation of his work too.
Thanks for making the video, much appreciated ❤
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How bravely he continued to use his skills to express himself.
Journey on creative spirit. Journey on.
That last image truly shows the power of great art. It can transcend the intellect.
Remarkable work. I wonder if his later work was a direct inspiration and influence upon The Caretaker's Everywhere at the End of Time.
No wonder you have 250k subs 😊👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏 It a very sad story…but….real life is sometimes horrific…like William experienced in his later life. It shows the graphically and terrifying insights of that satanic curse of Alzheimer’s disease 😔
i was literally thinking about this artist a few days ago,, thank you for posting this
A heart-excavating production. Thank you for this experience. ❤
William is an artist I really admire, despite having alzheimer's his will to to keep doing art til he could not has led me to really respect him.
Excellent video! I am glad that you covered this artist. His work is both inspirational and tragically horrfiying.
Another amazing video!
So glad I found your channel. I'm obsessed!
Great video!
It's always interesting to watch videos and learn about this man. His artwork, both before and after his diagnosis, give a really interesting insight into his world.
Thank you for making this video btw, I really enjoyed it.
Hello Mr.Dweller.. I find it amazing William was able too do some of the works he did that far into his diagnois of alheimers disease.. As i mention everytime your narrations are one of a kind.. I also find your devotion too the art world something too commend. I mean giving back regarding artists corner and how you give these artists a chance too shine.. I just think its a real cool! Thanks for your time n efforts on this video.. Happy Holidays Mr.Dweller!
You have given us a truly touching video. Thank you.
haunting! great video. ❤
Heartbreaking, but glorious all at once. Thank you for this essay.
I was hoping you'd make a video on this man, because I knew that out of anyone on youtube, you would do it right. And you did. 🖤
He went through this process at an early stage and suffered I'm sure. But! These honest works of art are tremendous. Please don't forget that they are profound, beautiful sublime. An artist's life well lived. And shared. I am personally just entering this dementia phase. This video helps. Thanks
Highly interesting Thank You *Blind Dweller* ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ & the music score is perfect
If I ever got dementia, I’d probably end myself. Being an artist, art regression has been my worst nightmare. And so has Alzheimer’s.
Amazing
Sad eyes & he knew what was happening to him for awhile until that was gone too. Hunted & stalked & haunted by a horrific disease & no cure ... yet. Maybe some day a cure
Good one.
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Oh wow thank you grape! I sent you a message on Patreon by the way 😁 great to have you in the Dweller family!
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You should look into The dark paintings of Dr Seuss , he had a dark side a lot of people don’t know about
I have to say I didn't know Dr. Seuss did dark paintings! Will definitely have to look into that, thanks for the suggestion!
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please do a video about charles bronson such a unique art style and mind
I love your videos, you should do one on Brian froud.
Any chance of a link to the intro/outro music used in this brilliant video? It sounds a bit like Coldplay mixed in with some John Carpenter, and I’d like to hear more of it.
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May i suggest you cover Ralph Steadman one of these days
One thing you didn't really touch on at 9:30 is that the painting looks as if it's depicting his brain leaking out of his ear. It's as if he's aware that his mind is slowly leaking out of him
You should do a video on Otto dix
your narration is always so beautifully worded. i am always here not only for the art but for your essays as well. thank you for your hard work!
I love your work, blind dweller ❤ I’d love to collab if you’re up for it
Hi mate! Thanks so much, and yeah absolutely I'm always down for working with a fellow TH-camr, love the theme of your channel by the way 😁 (currently watching your Godzilla suit video!)
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I didn't know that he stopped using mirrors during his last portraits. I read that he was but over time couldn't recognize his own face
My friends, notice how when the dying man turns inward, towards himself, he cannot muster the motivation to save himself? We cannot escape our death. We will die. Therefore, turn your thoughts from thyself and thy death to the transcendent, turn your thoughts to the divine.
When he looked at himself, he saw only despair, but had he looked at the transcendent, had he pierced the veil of death and seen the Divine, his last paintings would have held the beauty remaining to him, and not the constant reminders of our inevitable deaths. We must die. To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure, because the Lord has promised to remember us. And thats all it takes.
If the Lord chooses to remember you, you shall live again. If he believed that, he paintings would have been beautiful.
Sad
Could you cover the german artist Sascha Schneider? He is one of my favourites artists of all time!
Hello, would you like to make a video about Madge Gill?
Are the suppositions about the artist's reactions to his own work, are those drawn from somewhere or are they your own?
We need to find a cure already!
19:39 ...def scorn vibes there
some of it a bit like Bacon, but his was a conscious distortion.
Can't help but to compare his work to Bacon. Interesting. But then, I already knew Francis was demented. Utermohlen was a treasure. His curse was a blessing. What a life.
I think a person can have an intellect or imagination and not a strong sense of self.
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Im really interested in the artist, but the script is terrible, its super rambling and repetitive.
You should do a video on Kim Jakobsson's art. It's unbelievable. Very similar to Francis Bacon