Pile 1. The blah feeling is because as good as things look like they're going I've learned to expect the rug to get pulled out from underneath me 😂 hopefully not. Trying to stay excited and optimistic. And the success isn't shared with anyone because people always show their true colours.
I'm pile 1 and it resonates completely. Happy birthday my fellow Virgo!!! 🎉🎉 So everyone says that I need to celebrate my victories and all I've accomplished (I'm finishing my 2nd degree this Dec, I'm set to graduate with Latin honors, I'm a TA for a college course, I'm doing grad courses in undergrad and getting all A's for all of my classes, im in prestigious honors societies, etc) and I've been feeling disenchanted with it all. I know I'm naturally smart, I know I'm intelligent, but I have no passion for my college work since I've fallen out of love with research (what I initially thought I wanted to do). I don't know what job im going to do for graduation either. I plan on going to grad school but I don't know where or for what major (currently a psych major with a minor in gender studies) also I work and people at work love me and they think I'm a great person as well as my classmates, they love me and find me to be funny and helpful but I feel like something is "missing" because I'm very like "school and work, that's it" and I want to go out more but I'm also a caretaker for my mom and our 3 pets so instead of operating as a woman in her late 20's I'm operating like a woman who is middle age and taking care of her kids and don't got time for anyone. As for the social media part, I started posting videos on social media basically to talk about mental health and my traumas and a bunch of other wacky parts of my life and people seem to like it and see themselves within my videos and some of them are pretty humorous and people love my stories and me. In regards to the letter D person, it's a guy who I have had a crush on for like a year? Maybe more? And he follows me on social media and he sees my videos and I'm hoping he will reach out more but I take that he is listening to the videos and not commenting to learn more about me instead of just talking to me directly on the phone or through texting and I won't reach out to him because I don't want to burden him with the obligations and responsibilities I have and even sometimes I tell myself I'm not what he is looking for so I shouldn't even try texting him first (he is 5-ish years younger than me so he is living his best life and I don't want to burden him with my "old lady" life) the craziest thing is i always think guys think I'm "the homie" when honestly a lot of guys do want to get to know me but I push them away because right now as a student, worker, and caretaker I don't have the time to date because I have too much on my plate even though I so desperately want to date and be in a relationship and be with someone. I keep holding out for the day I can have my own apartment and have a "big girl job" and all the other adult milestones for my life to start and so I can start dating but till now I keep feeling blah despite all the good things because I just need to keep pushing through to get the life I want
Pile 1 15:57 feel blah because although lots of new good things are happening, success is pending, it feels a bit overwhelming to remain balanced & feels like I can't slip even a little a bit, so I have to fall back on connections w people or social life because at any moment, too much passion can get over my head, or simply be a distraction, & being tugged for attention is a lot, I need it to be solid, I need it to be consistent before I truly celebrate 19:03
Piles 2 & 3. Thank you for the readings!
Pile 1. The blah feeling is because as good as things look like they're going I've learned to expect the rug to get pulled out from underneath me 😂 hopefully not. Trying to stay excited and optimistic. And the success isn't shared with anyone because people always show their true colours.
Pile 3 thank you
Pile 1: Indiana thats what it is if you know you know.
I'm pile 1 and it resonates completely. Happy birthday my fellow Virgo!!! 🎉🎉
So everyone says that I need to celebrate my victories and all I've accomplished (I'm finishing my 2nd degree this Dec, I'm set to graduate with Latin honors, I'm a TA for a college course, I'm doing grad courses in undergrad and getting all A's for all of my classes, im in prestigious honors societies, etc) and I've been feeling disenchanted with it all. I know I'm naturally smart, I know I'm intelligent, but I have no passion for my college work since I've fallen out of love with research (what I initially thought I wanted to do). I don't know what job im going to do for graduation either. I plan on going to grad school but I don't know where or for what major (currently a psych major with a minor in gender studies) also I work and people at work love me and they think I'm a great person as well as my classmates, they love me and find me to be funny and helpful but I feel like something is "missing" because I'm very like "school and work, that's it" and I want to go out more but I'm also a caretaker for my mom and our 3 pets so instead of operating as a woman in her late 20's I'm operating like a woman who is middle age and taking care of her kids and don't got time for anyone.
As for the social media part, I started posting videos on social media basically to talk about mental health and my traumas and a bunch of other wacky parts of my life and people seem to like it and see themselves within my videos and some of them are pretty humorous and people love my stories and me. In regards to the letter D person, it's a guy who I have had a crush on for like a year? Maybe more? And he follows me on social media and he sees my videos and I'm hoping he will reach out more but I take that he is listening to the videos and not commenting to learn more about me instead of just talking to me directly on the phone or through texting and I won't reach out to him because I don't want to burden him with the obligations and responsibilities I have and even sometimes I tell myself I'm not what he is looking for so I shouldn't even try texting him first (he is 5-ish years younger than me so he is living his best life and I don't want to burden him with my "old lady" life) the craziest thing is i always think guys think I'm "the homie" when honestly a lot of guys do want to get to know me but I push them away because right now as a student, worker, and caretaker I don't have the time to date because I have too much on my plate even though I so desperately want to date and be in a relationship and be with someone.
I keep holding out for the day I can have my own apartment and have a "big girl job" and all the other adult milestones for my life to start and so I can start dating but till now I keep feeling blah despite all the good things because I just need to keep pushing through to get the life I want
Pile 1 15:57 feel blah because although lots of new good things are happening, success is pending, it feels a bit overwhelming to remain balanced & feels like I can't slip even a little a bit, so I have to fall back on connections w people or social life because at any moment, too much passion can get over my head, or simply be a distraction, & being tugged for attention is a lot, I need it to be solid, I need it to be consistent before I truly celebrate 19:03
Pile 3 and 4 🍵💜
Pile 1 resonates 😅
Pile 2💖💖🪽🪽🐰
Pile 2 ❤❤
Thanks lovely
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