ESHRAL - 29 (Audio) | @eshral.otb

Eshral - 29 (Audio) - Track 12 from the album "Predetermined"
Produced and mixed by Eshral (@prodbyeshral)
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Sampled from "Twins" by Gem Club
• Gem Club - Twins - not...
Cover art by Rani Race (@ranileea) and Eshral (@eshral.otb)
Lyrics:
Feeling low and I'm alone and there ain't no one to phone, not cuz they wouldn't answer but because I'm fearing the tone,
Fearing the silence and realising I'm still on my own, look in my eyes I try disguise it but I'm sick to the bone,
In my bedroom making beats is where I'm feeling at home, feeling safe I got a piece of twenty nine in my soul,
Different people different faces man they come and they go, but I don't wanna leave this place I've always known it as home.
I struggle letting go I got attachment issues, sentimental items I don't wanna discontinue,
And when I cry twenty nine'll be my tissues, I've shed so many tears on our pillow and I've been through,
All my trials and tribulations with you from the start so come the day that I depart, I know I'm gonna fucking miss you,
But my heart and soul will always be within you, nothing lasts forever though if you forget me I'll forgive you.
If you forget me I just hope you're doing fine and new people treat you right, and I'll keep our memories alive,
All the good all the bad all the truth and lies, if paranoia was the ocean then I'd scuba dive,
Not taking taxis but I got some Uber drive, if I lose I'm doing fine, cuz I'll be winning in due time,
Step into that ring and I let go of all my pride, that's my therapy within no ego just me and mind.
I wish I had less fear when my circle got smaller, cuz that was just a sign from the universe and my caller,
That I don't need a bunch of frenemies sat in my corner, I just need my family eventually we'll all be ballers,
I gotta make this shit happen no capping in my chorus, I'm only spitting truth rapping the facts and that's important,
Rapping up these tracks the final goal is to perform them, export them to the four corners and bring my people touring.
Feeling low and I'm alone and there ain't no one to phone, not cuz they wouldn't answer but because I'm fearing the tone,
Fearing the silence and realising I'm still on my own, look in my eyes I try disguise it but I'm sick to the bone,
In my bedroom making beats is where I'm feeling at home, feeling safe I got a piece of twenty nine in my soul,
Different people different faces man they come and they go, but I don't wanna leave this place I've always known it as home.
Mumzy said that I'm her biggest inspiration, if I deep it man it's blatant she's been with me through my hardest times,
And mum I hope you know you make me wanna chase it, help me reach my destination, keep me safe you're like my park and ride,
And half the time I see you grinding hours after night, you'll be an angel up in heaven if there's after life,
All of my life you've been my rock you help me laugh and smile, got twenty nine made it my home we made it last a while.
Plenty of chairs at our table so there's one for you too, yeah there's some for all my demons and a few for the crew,
Bare nostalgic when I'm barring in my booth and I'm blue, just like them boys up in the park who caught us twosing a zoot,
And when we smoked up in the field it was a beautiful view, twenty nine on the horizon saw the sun looking through,
Anywhere with you was home I thought our future was true, who would have knew that one year later I'd be bluer than blue.
But I'll always have these memories this music is my time machine, I'll write a couple bars and take me back to oh ten,
Before depression and addiction made me pick up a pen, before I heard of ocean wisdom and the voice in my head,
Growing up I thought that grownups always knew what was best, but now I've grown up in this mess I see life ain't making sense,
Past couple years I've lost all of my friends, but family is the to death and twenty nine to the end.
Feeling low and I'm alone and there ain't no one to phone, not cuz they wouldn't answer but because I'm fearing the tone,
Fearing the silence and realising I'm still on my own, look in my eyes I try disguise it but I'm sick to the bone,
In my bedroom making beats is where I'm feeling at home, feeling safe I got a piece of twenty nine in my soul,
Different people different faces man they come and they go, but I don't wanna leave this place I've always known it as home.