A TIP: (I am not a professional, but this helps me) I am so sorry that you've been going through this. I struggle with the same thing a lot too. One thing I've found really helpful is remembering my inner child. So instead of feeding "adult me", I imagine that I am preparing food for my inner child. That really makes me stop and think, "is this something I would feel a child to grow healthy and strong (but with adult portion sizes of course)?" , "Is it a well rounded meal?", "will this make me feel nourished or will it make me feel sick after I eat it all?". I also then don't feel as guilty when I let myself have a treat, because even children get treats and sweets sometimes, but parents help them to make sure they don't have too much and don't have it everyday. This really helps me because I then get into the pattern of parenting myself, which is actually more comforting than it sounds. If I slip up, I talk to myself the way my parents would, with patience and understanding, "you messed up, but that's ok, we can do better next time. You will feel a lot better once you have a nutritious meal" Of course there are times where every parent may be too busy and they need to do something quick and not as healthy, but overall, they will do their best to make sure that their child is getting a well rounded diet, treats and all. Idk if this is helpful or if I just sound crazy 😅 but I hope it makes sense and helps someone. I just find that if I wouldn't give what I am planning on eating to a child because it wouldn't be a well rounded meal or make them sick, then I should afford myself the same care! We are worthy of that kind of attention from ourselves too 😊
I’M GOING THROUGH THE EXACT SAME THING !! I literally couldn’t have clicked on this video any quicker - it’s given me comfort knowing that I’m not alone in this. I’ve been watching your videos since the very beginning when I too struggled with my eating and I’ve recently dipped back into a bad habit with my eating 🥺
you being authentic with yourself and your audience is more important than posting content that feels fake or forced to you 💕 doesn’t have to be sunshine and rainbows all the time, trust your feelings and do what is best for you! keep playing the piano, seems to make you happy :)
I've also had issues with binge eating in the past and weirdly it seems to be creeping back in, seemingly out of nowhere, I can't even explain it. The way you explained it makes perfect sense to me. I will also be trying to pick more filling food to try to get out of it and back to normality x
Sophie I don't think you realize how much you motivate so many of us here every time. Like, the simplest thing such as hearing you talk about goals, writing things down, seeing you just DO things on the daily just sparks some excitement for life if that makes sense 🤣 LOVE YOU!🤍
One of my intentions for 2022 was to make sure that the content I was consuming was authentic, down to earth and felt healthy for me. Soph, your content is the definition of all of those things. I appreciate your consistent honesty on this topic so much as it’s something I’ve struggled with for so long myself. I truly hope you’re taking care of yourself lovely 🤍🤍
I actually loved this type of “all-over-the-place” vlog because I found it so honest and relatable since this has also been me lately hahah 💖 I love this vibe going into 2022 though because it feels true and really reflective and I think it’s in these moments when we evolve and grow the most 🧡
The authenticity is literally what we come back for🥺🥺 I’ve been waiting for a video because I miss you but I know if you haven’t posted it’s because you needed some time so this all makes sense and I hope you truly start feeling better🥺 I’m so glad you’ve been able to pick up on tendencies and actively try to work on it. I’m proud of you ❤️ happy 2022 Soph!!
You and Georgia are my literal comfort person, I watch you and Georgia whenever I feel down. You guys are so inspirational and very real you don’t fake your life like some youtubers. Love you both loads 🤍
its so true!! knowing that you are at the end of the year, and then just one second later you are right at the beginning again.Such a simple concept that I think about so much ahaha
Hey Soph, I'm not sure if you will see this but firstly, you are an angel and gorgeous. The set back you're having with disordered eating tendencies is totally normal and I'm sure you will get through it stronger, you are obviously super aware and in tune with what is healthy mentally for yourself and our bodies are so smart. The fact you were aware you were getting extreme hunger because you were eating in a deficit/ low calorie options and it could be both a physical and mental thing is really positive (set point theory - our bodies know what size we are healthiest at) and what you are doing with eating for health and feeling good is KEY! I hope this doesn't sound rude, I'm coming from a place of being in a slightly further back place than you in this area (currently working with a treatment team which I also recommend!) so you are inspiring to watch! The reason I'm commenting is because I'm a PT (& almost exercise scientist) and I have a few online clients and if you were interested I would love to take you on. This probably is SO random and you might not be interested whatsoever which is totally fine but when you were talking about struggling with motivation etc I thought I would love to work with you and help. Some of my clients didn't have a routine or workout regularly and since starting together they've come so far with their goals and following their program and progressing in their performance in the gym/ fitness in general. From experience, having multiple coaches myself for my sport helps so much rather than going at it on your own (even as a PT myself, I find having my strength coach take care of my program and that side of things for me just is so much better). But yeah, if you would be keen to try it out, that would be amazing! imi xxxx
One of my favorite vids of yours. I so appreciate your vulnerability. I kinda feel like having a healthy mindset is not about never having low points.. it’s about how you handle those lows and bounce back. I feel like the way you spoke about it (and the fact that you spoke about it publicly), your resolve to break the cycle are clear signs of personal growth!! For me having a big bank of recipes and takeout orders that I know are nutritious and balanced is the best way to know I’m fueling my body, while still being intuitive and flexible and free from tracking on a regular basis.
sending you lots of love! i totally understand what you were saying about mental/physical appetite. it’s like… is my mind mad i’m holding back or is my body lacking the nutrition..? i’m proud of you for being so open and honest to yourself (and us). diet culture has effected all of us to some extent. it’s definitely toxic. eating for nutrition vs cal is going to be such a positive change for you. you’ve got this babe 💛
I never realized how much food and exercise controlled my life until it no longer did, and the only thing that truly works for me is intuitive eating and exercising. I never restrict anymore or force myself to workout. If my body is craving a burger and fries I give it that. If I want to workout I do, and if I don’t I go for a walk or something that day instead. I don’t feel bad for not always eating nutritious foods and have faith that my body will mostly crave that anyway. I feel better about my body now then when I restricted/binged/counted calories/over exercised. I hope you get to that point, it’s so freeing ❤️
The food talk. I’ve been having the exact same, just know that it’s ok, you’re not alone and you will bounce back and feel better. I feel like I can really relate to what you said and i feel like someone understands (even if you live across the world)❤️
This is so great Soph, I love the authenticity behind losing motivation and not having the discipline at times. Im a trainer at F45 and I honestly find the pressure (mostly put on by myself) so overwhelming some times, to be fit, thin, eat well, look a certain way etc. And I think it’s so important to remind people we all have times of struggle etc where you just can’t keep up with all the pressures and routines you set yourself. Love your vlogs ❤️
I've been recently struggling with the same thing!! This video felt like I was talking with my best friend about our struggles. 😘🤗🤗 Thank you for being vulnerable. I love your videos!!!
Actually started to tear up when you were explaining how you were with food at that point, never had anyone actually explain it so well thank you for using your platform to shed light on to this and letting young girls that they’re not alone x
I LOVE your editing. Honestly LOLing at the piano copyright concern where you wrote “you’re not that good babe” 🤣 Sophie! You’re an angel. I so hope you listen to that Adele song you’re learning and say to yourself “go easy on me”! You are so beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your highs but most importantly your lows. Xxxx
The authenticity in this video is the whole reason I follow you. Thank you for being so open & honest with us soph. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, sending love x
Soph, I have to tell you this video is way more meaningful than any "perfect" one you were expecting from yourself. I'm not sure why you think that's what you need to produce (or that it's what people want to see because that's certainly not how I feel), but I'm really glad you decided to post this in the end. Sending all my love, support, and encouragement to keep being authentic. These videos are the ones that make a difference.
We all struggle with.that especially over christmas holidays soph ...I think finding joy in other things during this time can help...something like a long walk or volunteering somewhere to help somebody else can help because it takes your mind off yourself and your life... Keeps ypu busy... Good to see you anywats x happy new year beautiful x
Your vlogs just feel like a friend who is talking about her week and her ups and down, just so intimate. And I have huge respect for you for being so open and honest!
I've been going through some similar stuff with food so just knowing I'm not the only one makes me feel amazing! Thank you for being so real because it definitely helps
okay but like you automatically just play the song without looking at the notes is so impressive! 💗 It already sounds so lovely, might get into playing the piano again! ✨
I can so relate to this Soph. I’ve been struggling with my ED big time at the moment! I’ve given in and binged this week. I’m actually starting the 6 month mentorship with Riley on Monday to try and heal my relationship with food and move forward into recovery
Thank you for your authenticity and I’m sorry to hear you’ve been struggling. Just know you aren’t alone, I have been on my own recovery journey and have been following yours along the way. I have been feeling similar feelings as you and realized I was still attaching morality to foods/workouts/and amounts I’m eating which has contributed to feeling extreme hunger again. The holiday season cam with added difficulty as it was easy to compare how my body was different from last year. I continuously try to remind myself that recovery comes on a spectrum, it ebbs and flows and consistency will benefit in the long run. Sending love from the states☺️
I have to start by saying that watching you playing the piano was unbelievable, please keep showing us how you go with it 🥺 i understand what you feel, i embrace you from the distance and want to tell you that being honest and vulnerable comes from brave people like you. thank you for sharing us a part of your life that might be stuck in a bad place. you'll find a way to feel and give your best, you are more than enough and food won't be the ruler of your life. sending you lots of love 💕
That is the type of vlog I love to watch. Something that I can relate to and also has a little bit of everything. Did not think any different about this vlog compared to your others xxx
Its crazy when you go through low moments in life and feel so alone something pops up that reminds you thats not the case. My ED has been consuming me since the Christmas period. Constantly every second of ever-day my mind hasn’t been able to shut off from food. I’ve felt so drained since coming into the new year and its just reality check that a new year doesn’t mean problems just disappear. Thank- you for sharing your struggles with food/bingeing at the moment. Every single thing you said is what has been racing through my mind and took the words out of my mouth. Recovery is truly a process and when we have these lows its a reminder to see exactly what is important in life and how much time/energy we spend focusing on things that we do not align with/value (restricting ourselves, making unhealthy rules/boundaries around our eating. My low at the moment has made me also realise how far I have come in my ED recovery and to not expect that my relationship with food should be perfect “by now” it’s a constant battle but when your self aware we can progress in time. 💓💓 Everyday we tell ourselves or have the mentality that we will pick it all back up tomorrow and start fresh we are constantly setting ourselves up for failure - i do this daily. If I somewhat think i have “binged” or overeaten for one meal i will use this as an excuse it ride off the rest of the day and consume anything and everything. Instead, when we realise that “today we have been more hungry and maybe have eaten more than we typically would” that is okay and that does not immediately insinuate that we have binged. I think the biggest thing i struggle with is falling into anytime i might eat a few more servings or go back for “seconds” im bingeing. When that is truly not the case and im trying so hard to retrain my mind that just becuase i battle with bingeing/bulimia and have now for over 2 years it does not define me. I will not and have never been known as the girl who binges to other people, so i don’t need to use that as an excuse or to justify why I went back for more food. I did because i am ALLOWED to! All my love Soph! Keep sharing and being real you wouldnt believe how many people watching, like me, are so appreciative of you being open about these things. ❤️
oh the biggest yes to all of this!! when tough things are happing in our lives we turn back to our past I think too, however much it might not be good for us. Hit the nail on the head gorgeous 🤍
Oh darling Soph I’m so so sorry you’ve been struggling lately. A big NO to mental restriction with food, we have NO time for that. You should be so proud of yourself for being this self aware my love. You deserve to feel mentally and physically satiated everyday and I truly wish that for you. Like ugh. 🥺❤️🙏🏻 Onwards and upwards, you’ve got this 👏🏻
I know this open and raw chat would have brought so much peace to others going through the same thing. I love how authentic you were opening up about this. I have struggled with something similar for a while and especially over the christmas period find it hard to silence the unhealthy thoughts. Sending you so much love Soph xx
I understand exactly what you are talking about. I hope you find a way to feel satisfied with food again. These feelings can definitely be very overwhelming. Try to do things that make you feel at peace. I'm praying for you girl, you got this 💕
Thank you so much for sharing your current situation with food. I'm going through the exact same thing at the moment (after many years of having it 'under control' and for me personally it feels so isolating and embarrassing so I really appreciate your vulnerability and honesty. We got this x
agree with a lot of people, thankyou for posting this as i’ve been going through a rough month, barely gymming, not eating enough, losing muscle and weight and have never felt less motivated in my life! I think the transition between christmas and new year gets so much & theres so much pressure put on it that it throws a lot of people off mentally & physically and thats okay. ❤️
Favourite video we love a relatable & realistic queen 👑 my week has been all over the shop too & not killing my “new year new me” goals like I thought I would so thank you for making me feel like less of a piece of garbage 😅
Sophie, I'm so thankful to you for posting that chat. These past couple of weeks have honestly been tough for me too, my ED that I had been working on so hard for the last year came back in full swing with the holidays so I was feeling very low and that first week of the year was really rough, having no motivation, trying to take a step back from social media where everyone was posting about being productive AF and actually listen to my body which obviously needed rest. This week I've been feeling a lot better so I'm sure this will pass for you too but just so you know, you're not alone and we appreciate you and your honesty so much. Sending lots of love your way 💕💕💕
I liked the open honest talk in the video.. I think the universe always brings some things back to test you if you got the lesson..I definitely think you will make it 🤍 lot’s of love
happy 2022! you’ve helped me stay happy,satisfied, and motivated with life. thanks to your content i’ve learned to slow down and be present in moment. started to reflect on myself and what i wanted to change to better myself❤️ here’s to a happier year ahead! love you so much! 🥺❤️
Thank you for sharing with us. I find it so refreshing when others share their struggles, we all go through things but it takes strength to open up. You got this Soph! So happy you are starting piano again! I think it might be great for you to have another creative outlet that isn't tied to your job. Hope you are feeling better 💛
I absolutely love how honest you are in your vlogs. I’ve been having a really hard time with 2022 as well, but seeing that I am not the only one struggling really helps. So much love! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you I needed to hear this too 💖💖 Ive been in covid quarantine sick since NYE and have struggled big time with binge eating and trying to exercise but having no energy. Tomorrow I get out of the house for the first time this year and I hope it’s a chance to start fresh with a new mindset 🥰🥰💖💖 Thank you for being so real
When you said you were hoping your first video of the year would be motivated, it reminded me immediately of this: “Your struggle will become someone else’s survival guide.” Maybe that’s in how you fought, maybe it’s in the grace you gave yourself, maybe it was reaching a point of relatability…that is survival. That is motivation. You are exactly enough.
Sooo happy to see your vid again today, really missed not having the upload last week. So appreciate your honesty too with the food struggles! The best thing is to eat for health and happiness and not worry about your body. I know it’s easier said than done, I’ve been there but I think you look great! It’s a mental battle sometimes to do with the way you see yourself, but happiness comes first 💙
Personnally, the only way I started to have a good relationship with food is just stop thinking about it. No tracking, no restrictions, no low calorie food, making sure I eat three meals a day, 5 fruits and vegs a day and that's it. If I ever binged, the day after, I would just ignored it and sticked to my routine, making sure I was showing up for myself. Hope you feel better ❤️
Thanks for your honesty. Also, things are insane in Australia right now, which is impacting us all in various ways. If you look at the timing of when you started struggling, it coincides with Omicron. We need to be gentle with ourselves right now as we deal with this.
Soph, I just want you to know I struggle with almost the exact same issues on the DAILY. It is so refreshing to hear that I am not alone in this because sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy and no one gets it! Also - the second I eat what I “want” I feel like I reach for junk and sweets and gain weight. It’s so difficult and EXHAUSTING! So thank you for sharing and I missed you and your vlogs!!!❤️❤️❤️
The sunglasses look lovely on you! And thank you for opening up ❤️❤️ the real chats are the most relatable and that’s always comforting for us to watch ❤️ sending so much love your way ❤️
Totally relate on the grocery delivery, it has changed my life! I used to get a little stressed when I had a big haul. First world problems but it’s true!
Thank you for posting this! As someone who did not have a perfect first week (I got covid for Christmas) it's nice to see that others not being absolutely perfect too. As much as I love motivational content. Love the bit about being self aware, that's one of my main goals for this year!
Wow… thank you thank you thank you! I’ve struggled so long with binging while trying to lose weight. I do good for a while and then all of a sudden out of nowhere it’s like I HAVE to eat everything I see. I feel horrid by the time it’s over and it always kicks me right back to square one because I give up. Thank you for talking about this and being so open and vulnerable. ♥️
So happy you felt able to open up! Not happy you are going through it again, but my first couple weeks of 2022 is not how I imagined either and I haven't been very present and just in a bad mood. I journalled about it today and tried to understand it and I wish I had done it days ago as it helped a lot! Anyway, sending you lots of love for 2022, cant wait to see what this year has in store, lets hope its a good one for everyone! xxxx
Thankyou for sharing your struggles around food, I’m also struggling a lot, it’s constantly on my mind, wanting balance but still labeling food as healthy or unhealthy but like you said I want to start seeing food as something that adds to my life as a nutritional value 🤍
Healing happens in layers. You made such beautiful progress with your fitness and eating habits, considering some of your earlier videos. I am positive that you will conquer those struggles and come back wiser and stronger. Really excited to hear what helped you and seeing you get back into a routine again. Lots of love sunshine ❤️
Have not related to something like this in such a long time! Haven’t been feeling normal at the beginning of the new year. Had all these goals to be motivated at the start of the new year but can’t seem to get going with my goals. Probably underlying feelings that I just need to work through. Thank you for being one of my favs to watch! Love from the US!💗 also the glasses! I love!!
Literally had the exact same thing through the month of December, mindlessly eating way more food than I needed... And then feel guilty and feel sick because I had eaten way too much. You're not alone on this and thank you so much for sharing because it for sure makes me and many others feel less alone xx
Hey Soph, not usually one to comment but I wanted to let you know that you are strong, you are resilient & most of all your vulnerability is powerful. You got this girl, you’ve overcome this before and you’ll do it again. Xx
Thank you so much for being honest with us! I also consider myself to be fully recovered, just living my best happy healthy life but when one trainer at my gym measured my body fat percentage and the number was fairly off compared to what the scale at my old gym said.. It started of harmless by me trying to go on a slight calorie deficit even tho I KNEW it CAN be triggering for me. Like you said, I lost my focus which is being my healthiest self and getting stronger in the gym and exchanged that to lowering my body fat percentage which really messed with me. What I’m trying to say is that setbacks or relapses are totally normal! It doesn’t take away from any of your past accomplishments, it simply means you lost focus for a little bit but trust me you WILL get back to where you were much faster than you think!!
totally get the friends thing. Since the finale, that I watched on tv - I have watched it 2 times since. Cant watch it because then it feels like its over but if I start the show over again its a never ending joy :)) great video thank you for opening up about this
Sending love… Thank you for the realness, and all of your vlogs are great don’t second guess yourself! The range is everythinggg and who doesn’t love a good rant :)
I always love watching your videos. You are so inspiring to me and help me to be a better me 🥰 everyone be kind to yourself in the new year and set good and healthy goals and give yourself a lot of grace 💕
Sorry to hear that you have been struggling Soph. Thanks for the honesty in this vid, I think it's very easy for us to think we have to have the 'perfect' start to the new year and that just isn't always the case! I know you opening up will help a lot of people and I really hope things get better for you. P.S that piano is gorgeous! I can't wait to hear more music from you 😊💞
You can always feel comfortable talking to us cause we're here to support you beautiful. You're helping a lot of us by sharing your struggles and thoughts ✨ 💙
you playing the piano was so cute 🥺 I’m such an advocate for adult hobbies!! So fun to be a beginner in something as an adult, I can’t wait to see your progress!!
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I am feeling so much the same but have been trapped in disordered eating for a while now. I would love for you to share what you eat in a week while you work through these feelings? If you feel comfortable ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This came at the perfect time as i have been going through the same thing so it's really refreshing to see that it's normal and other people go through it too. Thank you for being so open xx
Thanks for being honest Sophie. I struggle a lot with eating healthy and doing great, and then having a setback and eating a load of crap, feeling bad and going through the cycle today. I eat a lot when I'm not actually hungry like right after lunch or dinner. It's terrible, I hope I can break that this year!
It sounds like your body is craving consistent nourishment! No diet, no restriction and no being hard on yourself!! I also think you need to speak with a professional so you can help yourself 💕 sending you the love and strength to do so 😚
Thank you so much for sharing such a personal struggle. I understand what you're saying. I have also struggled with similar issues and it's nice to know that other people are in this with me. ❤️
Omg thank you for Sharing because it does actually making a lot of Sense. Im in a similar Spot Right Now mentally with Food.. and it’s so draining I feel you, keep ur head up!✨
Thank you so much for discussing your struggles with food right now, I can completely relate with you. My relationship with food is very similar, where I know what I should be doing, but am still mentally restricting myself. I always try to eat the low calorie option, but am never truly satisfied so I overcompensate by eating more satiating or “unhealthier” foods. Then, I overindulge, feel guilty, and the cycle repeats. My New Year’s resolution is to heal my relationship with food and develop a healthier mindset when it comes to eating. It’s easier said than done, but I find watching your videos and listening to your podcast with Riley really help pull me out of these negative thoughts. Again, thank you so much 💕
Holidays are always the hardest for me when it comes to food. I enjoy eating healthy but have no control when others around me are eating crap and I just binge and binge. I’ve just lost 13kg and had a little cry that I was going backwards (even though I haven’t) because I’ve spent the last month just eating crap and minimal exercise. Thanks for your honesty :)
oh my goodness soph, you are so not alone with how you are feeling/what you are experiencing and I want you to know that 💗and this makes me feel so much better about what I am going through too, it is so similar...I feel like I am also in a bit of a cycle which I am trying so so hard to get out of I have recovered from anorexia but am now really struggling with feeling the need to track/be in a deficit because I feel my "new body" needs to be changed but rather than properly tracking I'm just so obsessed also with finding the lowest calorie foods to eat brekkie lunch and dinner, then am also not satiated, it is so so incredibly difficult and I completely understand how you feel and I know things will get better...xxxx
Thank you …. I a truly thankful for this video . I ‘be been in the exact same place . Finally finding a good relationship in the start of the year and now so many restrictions in my head . Feeling guilty but telling myself I shouldn’t be ,because this is balance but still feeling ….. Maybe a new start is exactly what we need
I love this video. You are being so real, it is so cool to hear to talk through and process what’s really going on for you. It sounds like you are in the midst of a transformation. So awesome, so excited for you. Happy New Year Sophie!!💜
Aw soph 🤍 I suffer with binge eating and it’s something I work with my counsellor about. You explained it so well. I hope you’re okay. Remember it’s okay to have relapses. Also your piano playing was good and that’s a beautiful piano too! Sending you lots of love xxxxx
Firstly I love and appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. Secondly, I would really recommend that you find a style of exercise that you love rather than one that feels like a chore. Rather than working out to change your body, try working out to get stronger, feel better and feel fitter and that will definitely make it easier for you to stay motivated to do it. And thirdly, why not try putting the energy you were putting into tracking calories into learning to love your body not only for how it looks but also for all it can do for you? Journal things you love about how you look and things you can do (e.g. I love that my hands are so perfect for playing the piano, I love my beautiful singing voice, I love that I am tall, I love that I am strong). I think you are completely stunning and perfect as you are as a side note. And never mind the pressure of the new year to be perfect and achieve loads. Every day is a new beginning. Lots of love xx
A TIP: (I am not a professional, but this helps me)
I am so sorry that you've been going through this. I struggle with the same thing a lot too. One thing I've found really helpful is remembering my inner child. So instead of feeding "adult me", I imagine that I am preparing food for my inner child. That really makes me stop and think, "is this something I would feel a child to grow healthy and strong (but with adult portion sizes of course)?" , "Is it a well rounded meal?", "will this make me feel nourished or will it make me feel sick after I eat it all?". I also then don't feel as guilty when I let myself have a treat, because even children get treats and sweets sometimes, but parents help them to make sure they don't have too much and don't have it everyday. This really helps me because I then get into the pattern of parenting myself, which is actually more comforting than it sounds. If I slip up, I talk to myself the way my parents would, with patience and understanding, "you messed up, but that's ok, we can do better next time. You will feel a lot better once you have a nutritious meal" Of course there are times where every parent may be too busy and they need to do something quick and not as healthy, but overall, they will do their best to make sure that their child is getting a well rounded diet, treats and all.
Idk if this is helpful or if I just sound crazy 😅 but I hope it makes sense and helps someone.
I just find that if I wouldn't give what I am planning on eating to a child because it wouldn't be a well rounded meal or make them sick, then I should afford myself the same care! We are worthy of that kind of attention from ourselves too 😊
I’M GOING THROUGH THE EXACT SAME THING !! I literally couldn’t have clicked on this video any quicker - it’s given me comfort knowing that I’m not alone in this. I’ve been watching your videos since the very beginning when I too struggled with my eating and I’ve recently dipped back into a bad habit with my eating 🥺
you’re not ever alone!!! stay strong lovely, I wish you strength and healing 🥰
Same here!!! I felt really lost because I did not know why it was happening. Now I feel less alone :)
you being authentic with yourself and your audience is more important than posting content that feels fake or forced to you 💕 doesn’t have to be sunshine and rainbows all the time, trust your feelings and do what is best for you! keep playing the piano, seems to make you happy :)
thank you so much daniella 🤍
I've also had issues with binge eating in the past and weirdly it seems to be creeping back in, seemingly out of nowhere, I can't even explain it. The way you explained it makes perfect sense to me. I will also be trying to pick more filling food to try to get out of it and back to normality x
In this together gorgeous ❤️
Sophie I don't think you realize how much you motivate so many of us here every time. Like, the simplest thing such as hearing you talk about goals, writing things down, seeing you just DO things on the daily just sparks some excitement for life if that makes sense 🤣 LOVE YOU!🤍
One of my intentions for 2022 was to make sure that the content I was consuming was authentic, down to earth and felt healthy for me. Soph, your content is the definition of all of those things. I appreciate your consistent honesty on this topic so much as it’s something I’ve struggled with for so long myself. I truly hope you’re taking care of yourself lovely 🤍🤍
wow this is everything 🥺 thank you so much beautiful girl - this 🤍 truly means so much
I actually loved this type of “all-over-the-place” vlog because I found it so honest and relatable since this has also been me lately hahah 💖 I love this vibe going into 2022 though because it feels true and really reflective and I think it’s in these moments when we evolve and grow the most 🧡
I am so glad 😅 & a big yes to all of this 🤍
The authenticity is literally what we come back for🥺🥺 I’ve been waiting for a video because I miss you but I know if you haven’t posted it’s because you needed some time so this all makes sense and I hope you truly start feeling better🥺 I’m so glad you’ve been able to pick up on tendencies and actively try to work on it. I’m proud of you ❤️ happy 2022 Soph!!
how did I get so lucky!!!! 🥺 appreciate you more than you will ever know beautiful lady 🤍
You and Georgia are my literal comfort person, I watch you and Georgia whenever I feel down. You guys are so inspirational and very real you don’t fake your life like some youtubers. Love you both loads 🤍
I love this 🥺
its so true!! knowing that you are at the end of the year, and then just one second later you are right at the beginning again.Such a simple concept that I think about so much ahaha
Hey Soph, I'm not sure if you will see this but firstly, you are an angel and gorgeous. The set back you're having with disordered eating tendencies is totally normal and I'm sure you will get through it stronger, you are obviously super aware and in tune with what is healthy mentally for yourself and our bodies are so smart. The fact you were aware you were getting extreme hunger because you were eating in a deficit/ low calorie options and it could be both a physical and mental thing is really positive (set point theory - our bodies know what size we are healthiest at) and what you are doing with eating for health and feeling good is KEY! I hope this doesn't sound rude, I'm coming from a place of being in a slightly further back place than you in this area (currently working with a treatment team which I also recommend!) so you are inspiring to watch!
The reason I'm commenting is because I'm a PT (& almost exercise scientist) and I have a few online clients and if you were interested I would love to take you on. This probably is SO random and you might not be interested whatsoever which is totally fine but when you were talking about struggling with motivation etc I thought I would love to work with you and help. Some of my clients didn't have a routine or workout regularly and since starting together they've come so far with their goals and following their program and progressing in their performance in the gym/ fitness in general. From experience, having multiple coaches myself for my sport helps so much rather than going at it on your own (even as a PT myself, I find having my strength coach take care of my program and that side of things for me just is so much better). But yeah, if you would be keen to try it out, that would be amazing!
imi xxxx
One of my favorite vids of yours. I so appreciate your vulnerability. I kinda feel like having a healthy mindset is not about never having low points.. it’s about how you handle those lows and bounce back. I feel like the way you spoke about it (and the fact that you spoke about it publicly), your resolve to break the cycle are clear signs of personal growth!!
For me having a big bank of recipes and takeout orders that I know are nutritious and balanced is the best way to know I’m fueling my body, while still being intuitive and flexible and free from tracking on a regular basis.
sending you lots of love! i totally understand what you were saying about mental/physical appetite. it’s like… is my mind mad i’m holding back or is my body lacking the nutrition..? i’m proud of you for being so open and honest to yourself (and us). diet culture has effected all of us to some extent. it’s definitely toxic. eating for nutrition vs cal is going to be such a positive change for you. you’ve got this babe 💛
I never realized how much food and exercise controlled my life until it no longer did, and the only thing that truly works for me is intuitive eating and exercising. I never restrict anymore or force myself to workout. If my body is craving a burger and fries I give it that. If I want to workout I do, and if I don’t I go for a walk or something that day instead. I don’t feel bad for not always eating nutritious foods and have faith that my body will mostly crave that anyway. I feel better about my body now then when I restricted/binged/counted calories/over exercised. I hope you get to that point, it’s so freeing ❤️
The food talk. I’ve been having the exact same, just know that it’s ok, you’re not alone and you will bounce back and feel better. I feel like I can really relate to what you said and i feel like someone understands (even if you live across the world)❤️
This is so great Soph, I love the authenticity behind losing motivation and not having the discipline at times. Im a trainer at F45 and I honestly find the pressure (mostly put on by myself) so overwhelming some times, to be fit, thin, eat well, look a certain way etc. And I think it’s so important to remind people we all have times of struggle etc where you just can’t keep up with all the pressures and routines you set yourself.
Love your vlogs ❤️
I've been recently struggling with the same thing!! This video felt like I was talking with my best friend about our struggles. 😘🤗🤗 Thank you for being vulnerable. I love your videos!!!
Actually started to tear up when you were explaining how you were with food at that point, never had anyone actually explain it so well thank you for using your platform to shed light on to this and letting young girls that they’re not alone x
I LOVE your editing. Honestly LOLing at the piano copyright concern where you wrote “you’re not that good babe” 🤣
Sophie! You’re an angel. I so hope you listen to that Adele song you’re learning and say to yourself “go easy on me”! You are so beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your highs but most importantly your lows. Xxxx
huge yes to all of this 🥺🤍
The authenticity in this video is the whole reason I follow you. Thank you for being so open & honest with us soph. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, sending love x
you are wonderful 🥺 appreciate that more than you know gorgeous 🤍
Soph, I have to tell you this video is way more meaningful than any "perfect" one you were expecting from yourself. I'm not sure why you think that's what you need to produce (or that it's what people want to see because that's certainly not how I feel), but I'm really glad you decided to post this in the end. Sending all my love, support, and encouragement to keep being authentic. These videos are the ones that make a difference.
seeing your struggle with food has helped me to not feel so alone. so thankyou. xx
We all struggle with.that especially over christmas holidays soph ...I think finding joy in other things during this time can help...something like a long walk or volunteering somewhere to help somebody else can help because it takes your mind off yourself and your life... Keeps ypu busy... Good to see you anywats x happy new year beautiful x
Honestly you chatting and being real doing a cute lil haul and playing the piano was one of the best vlogs yet in my opinion!
Your vlogs just feel like a friend who is talking about her week and her ups and down, just so intimate. And I have huge respect for you for being so open and honest!
I've been going through some similar stuff with food so just knowing I'm not the only one makes me feel amazing! Thank you for being so real because it definitely helps
okay but like you automatically just play the song without looking at the notes is so impressive! 💗 It already sounds so lovely, might get into playing the piano again! ✨
I’m proud of you for discussing this!!! You make us feel less alone. Sending you all the happy vibes 💗💗💗💗
I can so relate to this Soph. I’ve been struggling with my ED big time at the moment! I’ve given in and binged this week.
I’m actually starting the 6 month mentorship with Riley on Monday to try and heal my relationship with food and move forward into recovery
I have had a harder time lately but this is a wake up call to pull myself up again! I hope
Thank you for your authenticity and I’m sorry to hear you’ve been struggling. Just know you aren’t alone, I have been on my own recovery journey and have been following yours along the way. I have been feeling similar feelings as you and realized I was still attaching morality to foods/workouts/and amounts I’m eating which has contributed to feeling extreme hunger again. The holiday season cam with added difficulty as it was easy to compare how my body was different from last year. I continuously try to remind myself that recovery comes on a spectrum, it ebbs and flows and consistency will benefit in the long run. Sending love from the states☺️
Hey Soph you inspire me so much to be more authentic with being myself and filming videos, 2022 is our year babes x
I have to start by saying that watching you playing the piano was unbelievable, please keep showing us how you go with it 🥺
i understand what you feel, i embrace you from the distance and want to tell you that being honest and vulnerable comes from brave people like you. thank you for sharing us a part of your life that might be stuck in a bad place. you'll find a way to feel and give your best, you are more than enough and food won't be the ruler of your life.
sending you lots of love 💕
you are just EVERYTHING 🥺
sophie,
thank you so much for making such an open, raw vlog for us. it's not easy sharing something so personal. sending so much love to you xo
this is honestly one of my favourite videos. i love these more than anything, seeing you be so authentic and real. you are beautiful
That is the type of vlog I love to watch. Something that I can relate to and also has a little bit of everything. Did not think any different about this vlog compared to your others xxx
Its crazy when you go through low moments in life and feel so alone something pops up that reminds you thats not the case. My ED has been consuming me since the Christmas period. Constantly every second of ever-day my mind hasn’t been able to shut off from food. I’ve felt so drained since coming into the new year and its just reality check that a new year doesn’t mean problems just disappear. Thank- you for sharing your struggles with food/bingeing at the moment. Every single thing you said is what has been racing through my mind and took the words out of my mouth. Recovery is truly a process and when we have these lows its a reminder to see exactly what is important in life and how much time/energy we spend focusing on things that we do not align with/value (restricting ourselves, making unhealthy rules/boundaries around our eating. My low at the moment has made me also realise how far I have come in my ED recovery and to not expect that my relationship with food should be perfect “by now” it’s a constant battle but when your self aware we can progress in time. 💓💓 Everyday we tell ourselves or have the mentality that we will pick it all back up tomorrow and start fresh we are constantly setting ourselves up for failure - i do this daily. If I somewhat think i have “binged” or overeaten for one meal i will use this as an excuse it ride off the rest of the day and consume anything and everything. Instead, when we realise that “today we have been more hungry and maybe have eaten more than we typically would” that is okay and that does not immediately insinuate that we have binged. I think the biggest thing i struggle with is falling into anytime i might eat a few more servings or go back for “seconds” im bingeing. When that is truly not the case and im trying so hard to retrain my mind that just becuase i battle with bingeing/bulimia and have now for over 2 years it does not define me. I will not and have never been known as the girl who binges to other people, so i don’t need to use that as an excuse or to justify why I went back for more food. I did because i am ALLOWED to! All my love Soph! Keep sharing and being real you wouldnt believe how many people watching, like me, are so appreciative of you being open about these things. ❤️
oh the biggest yes to all of this!! when tough things are happing in our lives we turn back to our past I think too, however much it might not be good for us. Hit the nail on the head gorgeous 🤍
Oh darling Soph I’m so so sorry you’ve been struggling lately. A big NO to mental restriction with food, we have NO time for that. You should be so proud of yourself for being this self aware my love. You deserve to feel mentally and physically satiated everyday and I truly wish that for you. Like ugh. 🥺❤️🙏🏻 Onwards and upwards, you’ve got this 👏🏻
yes yes YES 👏🏼 thank you so much gorgeous girl xxx
I know this open and raw chat would have brought so much peace to others going through the same thing. I love how authentic you were opening up about this. I have struggled with something similar for a while and especially over the christmas period find it hard to silence the unhealthy thoughts. Sending you so much love Soph xx
Thank you so much Georgia 🥺 sending so much love right on back to you 🤍
I understand exactly what you are talking about. I hope you find a way to feel satisfied with food again. These feelings can definitely be very overwhelming. Try to do things that make you feel at peace. I'm praying for you girl, you got this 💕
Thank you so much for sharing your current situation with food. I'm going through the exact same thing at the moment (after many years of having it 'under control' and for me personally it feels so isolating and embarrassing so I really appreciate your vulnerability and honesty. We got this x
that was the most relatable food/eating pattern talk, thank youuuuuu 💓
agree with a lot of people, thankyou for posting this as i’ve been going through a rough month, barely gymming, not eating enough, losing muscle and weight and have never felt less motivated in my life! I think the transition between christmas and new year gets so much & theres so much pressure put on it that it throws a lot of people off mentally & physically and thats okay. ❤️
yes yes yes!
Favourite video we love a relatable & realistic queen 👑 my week has been all over the shop too & not killing my “new year new me” goals like I thought I would so thank you for making me feel like less of a piece of garbage 😅
Sophie, I'm so thankful to you for posting that chat. These past couple of weeks have honestly been tough for me too, my ED that I had been working on so hard for the last year came back in full swing with the holidays so I was feeling very low and that first week of the year was really rough, having no motivation, trying to take a step back from social media where everyone was posting about being productive AF and actually listen to my body which obviously needed rest. This week I've been feeling a lot better so I'm sure this will pass for you too but just so you know, you're not alone and we appreciate you and your honesty so much. Sending lots of love your way 💕💕💕
I liked the open honest talk in the video.. I think the universe always brings some things back to test you if you got the lesson..I definitely think you will make it 🤍 lot’s of love
happy 2022! you’ve helped me stay happy,satisfied, and motivated with life. thanks to your content i’ve learned to slow down and be present in moment. started to reflect on myself and what i wanted to change to better myself❤️ here’s to a happier year ahead! love you so much! 🥺❤️
Thank you for sharing with us. I find it so refreshing when others share their struggles, we all go through things but it takes strength to open up. You got this Soph!
So happy you are starting piano again! I think it might be great for you to have another creative outlet that isn't tied to your job. Hope you are feeling better 💛
I absolutely love how honest you are in your vlogs. I’ve been having a really hard time with 2022 as well, but seeing that I am not the only one struggling really helps. So much love! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you I needed to hear this too 💖💖 Ive been in covid quarantine sick since NYE and have struggled big time with binge eating and trying to exercise but having no energy. Tomorrow I get out of the house for the first time this year and I hope it’s a chance to start fresh with a new mindset 🥰🥰💖💖 Thank you for being so real
I am literally going through the EXACT same thing. It was so comforting to hear you talk about it, so thank you for being so open!
When you said you were hoping your first video of the year would be motivated, it reminded me immediately of this: “Your struggle will become someone else’s survival guide.” Maybe that’s in how you fought, maybe it’s in the grace you gave yourself, maybe it was reaching a point of relatability…that is survival. That is motivation. You are exactly enough.
I love this
Sooo happy to see your vid again today, really missed not having the upload last week. So appreciate your honesty too with the food struggles! The best thing is to eat for health and happiness and not worry about your body. I know it’s easier said than done, I’ve been there but I think you look great! It’s a mental battle sometimes to do with the way you see yourself, but happiness comes first 💙
yes yes yes 🤍👏🏼
Personnally, the only way I started to have a good relationship with food is just stop thinking about it. No tracking, no restrictions, no low calorie food, making sure I eat three meals a day, 5 fruits and vegs a day and that's it. If I ever binged, the day after, I would just ignored it and sticked to my routine, making sure I was showing up for myself. Hope you feel better ❤️
Thanks for your honesty. Also, things are insane in Australia right now, which is impacting us all in various ways. If you look at the timing of when you started struggling, it coincides with Omicron. We need to be gentle with ourselves right now as we deal with this.
Soph, I just want you to know I struggle with almost the exact same issues on the DAILY. It is so refreshing to hear that I am not alone in this because sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy and no one gets it! Also - the second I eat what I “want” I feel like I reach for junk and sweets and gain weight. It’s so difficult and EXHAUSTING! So thank you for sharing and I missed you and your vlogs!!!❤️❤️❤️
the sunnys and the dress look so good!, the sunnys definitely suite you!!!
The sunglasses look lovely on you! And thank you for opening up ❤️❤️ the real chats are the most relatable and that’s always comforting for us to watch ❤️ sending so much love your way ❤️
I appreciate you so much for this honesty 🤍
Totally relate on the grocery delivery, it has changed my life! I used to get a little stressed when I had a big haul. First world problems but it’s true!
Thank you for posting this! As someone who did not have a perfect first week (I got covid for Christmas) it's nice to see that others not being absolutely perfect too. As much as I love motivational content. Love the bit about being self aware, that's one of my main goals for this year!
Wow… thank you thank you thank you! I’ve struggled so long with binging while trying to lose weight. I do good for a while and then all of a sudden out of nowhere it’s like I HAVE to eat everything I see. I feel horrid by the time it’s over and it always kicks me right back to square one because I give up. Thank you for talking about this and being so open and vulnerable. ♥️
So happy you felt able to open up! Not happy you are going through it again, but my first couple weeks of 2022 is not how I imagined either and I haven't been very present and just in a bad mood. I journalled about it today and tried to understand it and I wish I had done it days ago as it helped a lot! Anyway, sending you lots of love for 2022, cant wait to see what this year has in store, lets hope its a good one for everyone! xxxx
Thanks for sharing your struggle and being so authentic. You put the voice to many people. I send you all my good energy!! 💪🏻✨✨💪🏻
Thankyou for sharing your struggles around food, I’m also struggling a lot, it’s constantly on my mind, wanting balance but still labeling food as healthy or unhealthy but like you said I want to start seeing food as something that adds to my life as a nutritional value 🤍
Healing happens in layers. You made such beautiful progress with your fitness and eating habits, considering some of your earlier videos. I am positive that you will conquer those struggles and come back wiser and stronger. Really excited to hear what helped you and seeing you get back into a routine again. Lots of love sunshine ❤️
First vlog I've watched on your channel, I loved it.
Also the glasses look great in you 💕
Have not related to something like this in such a long time! Haven’t been feeling normal at the beginning of the new year. Had all these goals to be motivated at the start of the new year but can’t seem to get going with my goals. Probably underlying feelings that I just need to work through. Thank you for being one of my favs to watch! Love from the US!💗 also the glasses! I love!!
Thank you beauty, so much love for you xx
Literally had the exact same thing through the month of December, mindlessly eating way more food than I needed... And then feel guilty and feel sick because I had eaten way too much. You're not alone on this and thank you so much for sharing because it for sure makes me and many others feel less alone xx
Babes it sounds like depression.. and you should not be ashamed of that. I went through this in 2021 and when I saw a doctor it changed my life.
Happy you're back 💜 thanks for your honesty. This is why your videos are the best and relatable. Where did you get the bracelet you're wearing? 😊😊
Hey Soph, not usually one to comment but I wanted to let you know that you are strong, you are resilient & most of all your vulnerability is powerful. You got this girl, you’ve overcome this before and you’ll do it again. Xx
Thank you so much for being honest with us! I also consider myself to be fully recovered, just living my best happy healthy life but when one trainer at my gym measured my body fat percentage and the number was fairly off compared to what the scale at my old gym said.. It started of harmless by me trying to go on a slight calorie deficit even tho I KNEW it CAN be triggering for me. Like you said, I lost my focus which is being my healthiest self and getting stronger in the gym and exchanged that to lowering my body fat percentage which really messed with me.
What I’m trying to say is that setbacks or relapses are totally normal! It doesn’t take away from any of your past accomplishments, it simply means you lost focus for a little bit but trust me you WILL get back to where you were much faster than you think!!
totally get the friends thing. Since the finale, that I watched on tv - I have watched it 2 times since. Cant watch it because then it feels like its over but if I start the show over again its a never ending joy :)) great video thank you for opening up about this
Sending love… Thank you for the realness, and all of your vlogs are great don’t second guess yourself! The range is everythinggg and who doesn’t love a good rant :)
Thank you so much gorgeous girl, day made 🤍
GO GIRL, for being self aware enough to know you need to work on your self awareness!! Some people don’t even have that 🥰👍🏽
I always love watching your videos. You are so inspiring to me and help me to be a better me 🥰 everyone be kind to yourself in the new year and set good and healthy goals and give yourself a lot of grace 💕
Love you and your vulnerability. Such an amazing woman 💕 2022 is going to be epic for you x
love & appreciate you so much 🥺
Sorry to hear that you have been struggling Soph. Thanks for the honesty in this vid, I think it's very easy for us to think we have to have the 'perfect' start to the new year and that just isn't always the case! I know you opening up will help a lot of people and I really hope things get better for you.
P.S that piano is gorgeous! I can't wait to hear more music from you 😊💞
You can always feel comfortable talking to us cause we're here to support you beautiful. You're helping a lot of us by sharing your struggles and thoughts ✨ 💙
you playing the piano was so cute 🥺 I’m such an advocate for adult hobbies!! So fun to be a beginner in something as an adult, I can’t wait to see your progress!!
Hope you’re okay Sophie, thank you for normalising these weeks and feelings around food 💗💗 I hope you get back into a rhythm soon x
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I am feeling so much the same but have been trapped in disordered eating for a while now. I would love for you to share what you eat in a week while you work through these feelings? If you feel comfortable ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Absolutely 🤍
This came at the perfect time as i have been going through the same thing so it's really refreshing to see that it's normal and other people go through it too. Thank you for being so open xx
Thanks for being honest Sophie. I struggle a lot with eating healthy and doing great, and then having a setback and eating a load of crap, feeling bad and going through the cycle today. I eat a lot when I'm not actually hungry like right after lunch or dinner. It's terrible, I hope I can break that this year!
It sounds like your body is craving consistent nourishment! No diet, no restriction and no being hard on yourself!! I also think you need to speak with a professional so you can help yourself 💕 sending you the love and strength to do so 😚
yes the last episodes of friends are so sad and I honestly cry at the last one every time xx
Thank you so much for sharing such a personal struggle. I understand what you're saying. I have also struggled with similar issues and it's nice to know that other people are in this with me. ❤️
i am going through the same thing with the binging and restriction i finally am starting to begin to feel like myself again and it’s so refreshing
Omg thank you for Sharing because it does actually making a lot of Sense. Im in a similar Spot Right Now mentally with Food.. and it’s so draining I feel you, keep ur head up!✨
I honestly loved this vlog babe thank you so much for sharing such an authentic version of you xxx
Thank you so much for discussing your struggles with food right now, I can completely relate with you. My relationship with food is very similar, where I know what I should be doing, but am still mentally restricting myself. I always try to eat the low calorie option, but am never truly satisfied so I overcompensate by eating more satiating or “unhealthier” foods. Then, I overindulge, feel guilty, and the cycle repeats. My New Year’s resolution is to heal my relationship with food and develop a healthier mindset when it comes to eating. It’s easier said than done, but I find watching your videos and listening to your podcast with Riley really help pull me out of these negative thoughts. Again, thank you so much 💕
Holidays are always the hardest for me when it comes to food. I enjoy eating healthy but have no control when others around me are eating crap and I just binge and binge. I’ve just lost 13kg and had a little cry that I was going backwards (even though I haven’t) because I’ve spent the last month just eating crap and minimal exercise.
Thanks for your honesty :)
oh my goodness soph, you are so not alone with how you are feeling/what you are experiencing and I want you to know that 💗and this makes me feel so much better about what I am going through too, it is so similar...I feel like I am also in a bit of a cycle which I am trying so so hard to get out of I have recovered from anorexia but am now really struggling with feeling the need to track/be in a deficit because I feel my "new body" needs to be changed but rather than properly tracking I'm just so obsessed also with finding the lowest calorie foods to eat brekkie lunch and dinner, then am also not satiated, it is so so incredibly difficult and I completely understand how you feel and I know things will get better...xxxx
Thank you …. I a truly thankful for this video . I ‘be been in the exact same place . Finally finding a good relationship in the start of the year and now so many restrictions in my head . Feeling guilty but telling myself I shouldn’t be ,because this is balance but still feeling ….. Maybe a new start is exactly what we need
I love this video. You are being so real, it is so cool to hear to talk through and process what’s really going on for you. It sounds like you are in the midst of a transformation. So awesome, so excited for you. Happy New Year Sophie!!💜
Aw soph 🤍 I suffer with binge eating and it’s something I work with my counsellor about. You explained it so well. I hope you’re okay. Remember it’s okay to have relapses.
Also your piano playing was good and that’s a beautiful piano too! Sending you lots of love xxxxx
We love some introspective inspiration. You’re such a lovely soul Sophie!!!
So important to talk about these issues! Ps. I love your sunglasses!
Firstly I love and appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. Secondly, I would really recommend that you find a style of exercise that you love rather than one that feels like a chore. Rather than working out to change your body, try working out to get stronger, feel better and feel fitter and that will definitely make it easier for you to stay motivated to do it. And thirdly, why not try putting the energy you were putting into tracking calories into learning to love your body not only for how it looks but also for all it can do for you? Journal things you love about how you look and things you can do (e.g. I love that my hands are so perfect for playing the piano, I love my beautiful singing voice, I love that I am tall, I love that I am strong). I think you are completely stunning and perfect as you are as a side note. And never mind the pressure of the new year to be perfect and achieve loads. Every day is a new beginning. Lots of love xx
Happy new year Soph!! Wishing you all the best 💛