Unintentional ASMR 🧙‍♀️ How Animes are Made in Japan (Relaxing Documentary, Subtitles)

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  • @BestUnintentionalASMR
    @BestUnintentionalASMR  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2208

    I thought the moments where those Animators worked with focus were relaxing (and I cut out the loud parts). But I especially wanted to share this documentary as I found it super interesting (and a bit depressing, too - the pressure and working conditions of these young Animators seem TOUGH). I hope you enjoy this as well! P.S. there might be ads because of some music, or because TH-cam does that now, who knows...

    • @neronlaqua
      @neronlaqua 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Une vidéo passionnante, merci du partage 🙂

    • @patriciarubilar1241
      @patriciarubilar1241 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Hey mate I got a video suggestion for you, I found a video of brian may talking and I´m sure that you would love it for an unintentional asmr video, the name of the video is "Rig Rundown - Queen's Brian May"

    • @NISSANZ33
      @NISSANZ33 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      The narrators voice really breaks up the mellow asmr parts in a harsh way but great find

    • @patriciarubilar1241
      @patriciarubilar1241 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@NISSANZ33 yeah but I am pretty confident that if he likes it, he can do some good stuff with it

    • @patriciarubilar1241
      @patriciarubilar1241 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@NISSANZ33 lmao

  • @troyjones9018
    @troyjones9018 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10005

    This video actually makes me sad asf. They’re obviously over worked and dangerously stressed... stay strong y’all

    • @TheCaptinhazmat
      @TheCaptinhazmat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +381

      Welcome to the world of animation.

    • @walkwithmeASMR
      @walkwithmeASMR 2 ปีที่แล้ว +453

      Has one of the highest suicide rates unfortunately. The whole country has an almost all work no play attitude.

    • @sigmagamer364
      @sigmagamer364 2 ปีที่แล้ว +171

      i used to spend months drawing 6 mins animation on my phone,staying late or drawing in early morning is very normal.I mean arts in general is consuming alot of time and effort and health,especially when they work for a living.

    • @laysoe2257
      @laysoe2257 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Can’t they just quit the job then if it’s too much no offense?

    • @HammidaSahiIsnang
      @HammidaSahiIsnang 2 ปีที่แล้ว +186

      @@laysoe2257approximately 90% of young Japanese animators quit the industry before 3 years of experience not even having enough time to improve their animation skills.

  • @Paulin14ani
    @Paulin14ani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11960

    depression: the documentary

    • @Ed-ry1kj
      @Ed-ry1kj 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1055

      20-30 pages a day filled with heavily detailed art work just for a couples of seconds on film, ur damn right it’s depressing

    • @elizabeht1998
      @elizabeht1998 3 ปีที่แล้ว +337

      i feel depressed after watching this...

    • @ProdbyStun
      @ProdbyStun 3 ปีที่แล้ว +287

      It would be mildly fun at first trying to see if you could be the best at your work and you give the director you pages and he burns it and says try again.

    • @schlagie
      @schlagie 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @Sanjay Gupta ???

    • @yourlocalReptillian
      @yourlocalReptillian 3 ปีที่แล้ว +259

      Not depressing, just a discouraging challenge. This is their job, their project, something they worked hard to get into and be a part of. Depending on how you look at it, it can be extremely rewarding, after the stress from deadlines.

  • @turkia9254
    @turkia9254 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6994

    Animation artist deserves more money for there hard work

    • @sarroumarbeu6810
      @sarroumarbeu6810 ปีที่แล้ว +156

      So much, and benefits and fixed periods of rests in between projects

    • @germancarrasco2028
      @germancarrasco2028 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      I wonder how much people is willing to pay to watch that sh*ty short movie for kids...

    • @sarroumarbeu6810
      @sarroumarbeu6810 ปีที่แล้ว +132

      @@germancarrasco2028 they should pay a lot...and not for the studio to hog the revenues and not pay it's hard working artists like it's been happening for ages

    • @user-jv2ye1fg8j
      @user-jv2ye1fg8j ปีที่แล้ว +75

      If you want to enrich the lives of animators, stop watching piracy. (Translation)

    • @germancarrasco2028
      @germancarrasco2028 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@sarroumarbeu6810 Starting and running a studio requires a lot of money (building, accounting, electricity, equipment, consumables, etc.). How much money will the studio receive for that short movie? And paid by who? May be the artists can publish in TH-cam and distribute the revenues, but it would not be an option if they have to pay to lots of them. And what if they need the money now, not when (if) their work gets viral?...

  • @jep98
    @jep98 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +606

    13:55 "I went home early yesterday. What time? 2AM" 💀

  • @bilegttobi9804
    @bilegttobi9804 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5453

    17:20 "I end up feeling like I'm not good at all."
    Someone tell this man he IS good enough.

    • @slantedrib9118
      @slantedrib9118 3 ปีที่แล้ว +285

      I wanted to hug him the whole time i watched this

    • @NTWoo95
      @NTWoo95 2 ปีที่แล้ว +163

      “I never had much confidence to begin with…”
      Sir, you are perfect the way you are. You don’t need to live by anybodys standards but your own!

    • @rolandodones6552
      @rolandodones6552 2 ปีที่แล้ว +139

      I feel he's the most honest and willing to share info out of them all. Probably really perfectionist and never satisfied with his work...he must be really good

    • @Nodsaibot
      @Nodsaibot ปีที่แล้ว +14

      well he is not, his work is OK but still needs to be corrected constantly

    • @krunkle5136
      @krunkle5136 ปีที่แล้ว

      What and adopt that rotten American mentality of thinking you're enough and don't need to improve.

  • @bryanchristianabrigo
    @bryanchristianabrigo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2495

    29:58 It took him a week to just draw the fireworks that will be shown in the cut for 4.5 seconds only.. Man, that's brutal. But I commend them though

    • @justshady
      @justshady ปีที่แล้ว +39

      Should have just done it in 3d or even after effects. Because that’s what they use for compositing.

    • @srmedia91
      @srmedia91 ปีที่แล้ว +86

      And then they said that 3d people animation in spy x family is lazy... pos

    • @simplyrohith2163
      @simplyrohith2163 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@srmedia91 Ufotable hold my cg 🤣. You should see the animators there laze around every day while the the CG and effects team nearly die from watching their own works

    • @srmedia91
      @srmedia91 ปีที่แล้ว +65

      @@simplyrohith2163 That's how it should be, using 3d and 2d effectively is the key.

    • @simplyrohith2163
      @simplyrohith2163 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@srmedia91 their work looks absolutely gorgeous and they only 15-20 animators and also Ufo only does in-house work. 80% of the anime is done by Nozomu Abe and his team, Muneyuki and his team and, their veteran CG team

  • @francocruz75
    @francocruz75 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3091

    36:40 this dude called his own work trash what the heck man I really feel for this dude he's on some next level depression man. He lster just turned around and put his head in his hands and look like he was about to cry. I never said this but I really wanted to give that dude a hug. Everyone there deserves a lot of respect and most of all better work hours. It looks like there's people are worked to the bone.

    • @sarroumarbeu6810
      @sarroumarbeu6810 ปีที่แล้ว +121

      They some good rest and a good therapist on board...even some soft pets ...this amount of stress and depression is inhuman

    • @user-ck5up1bv1x
      @user-ck5up1bv1x ปีที่แล้ว +220

      not to think this will make you feel any better, but i think the translation was done too strict.
      as a japanese speaker, i think he meant that "the papers are nothing related to my actual work inside the company but practices of it", so the actual finished work might be somewhere on his desk
      but i do agree to your observations, and I'm sincerely hoping that coming plans from the television companies will make a better environment for those who work in the japanese anime industry.

    • @ray1amuro350
      @ray1amuro350 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Welcome to Japan.

    • @Exodianotforbidden
      @Exodianotforbidden ปีที่แล้ว +43

      I went home early yesterday, at 2AM .. bruh

    • @cube4547
      @cube4547 ปีที่แล้ว +78

      Art is very delicate... If he thinks it's trash then it is. The end. I don't think people should intervene with artists' personal sensibilities.
      And YES, overall, it's good to cheer people up about things, but if you try to mess with an artist's craft without them opening up to you about it, you'll only cause more damage.
      In other words... This guy may need help with his mental health, but his craft should be left out of the equation.
      I'm an artist and I've been there before. Trust me.
      (Also I think he's just really lethargic and annoyed at the camera guy. Hopefully he's doing ok rn.)

  • @julio1192
    @julio1192 3 ปีที่แล้ว +718

    This really makes you appreciate animation a lot more

    • @SaithMasu12
      @SaithMasu12 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Strange, because it doesent apprichiate animation at all for me.
      When i know something is done on the backs of people that get exploited, i have no intrest in it.

    • @Truth_Hurts_Bad
      @Truth_Hurts_Bad ปีที่แล้ว +27

      @@SaithMasu12 Do you eat animals?

    • @oak7OO5
      @oak7OO5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      ​@@Truth_Hurts_BadLol. Your name + your reply. Golden ✨👌

    • @oak7OO5
      @oak7OO5 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      ​@@SaithMasu12A thing which is backed up by so much hard work makes a particular field even more especial and interesting. Which is always appreciated in reality as it's something especial. Also the fact of 2d art is that it will always remain as a form of art, real aesthetic kind of art apart from 3d.

  • @User-wj7vx
    @User-wj7vx 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3048

    this is too much pressure for such young people, i had no idea what they went through until now

    • @henryreinhart5912
      @henryreinhart5912 3 ปีที่แล้ว +84

      you do not get advanced societies/culture/tech without pressure on a great many people for generations exactly as you see here

    • @sikerslalatm3147
      @sikerslalatm3147 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      @@henryreinhart5912 that is not a reason to put pressure on people where the fuck do you live like hell 😂

    • @oogaboogaman9631
      @oogaboogaman9631 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@henryreinhart5912 so you're telling me ted kaczynski was right

    • @clemy2030
      @clemy2030 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@oogaboogaman9631 he was right

    • @oogaboogaman9631
      @oogaboogaman9631 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@clemy2030
      Are you a user on the mongolian basket weaving forums.
      Your linux pfp and unaboomer opinion gives it away.

  • @tarttooth6022
    @tarttooth6022 3 ปีที่แล้ว +774

    "It's the first of many days of anguish."
    ...
    "Want more relaxing stuff?"

  • @falshion1837
    @falshion1837 ปีที่แล้ว +689

    38:41 I got teary eyed at this part. All their hard work paying off, bringing characters to life through such stressful deadlines and hardly any sleep!

    • @aotnorequiem7439
      @aotnorequiem7439 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Are you a woman or why cry?

  • @aqzlepsycho
    @aqzlepsycho 3 ปีที่แล้ว +663

    'I went home early yesterday'
    'What time?'
    '2AM'
    Holy fuckstick.

    • @monkemilitia
      @monkemilitia 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      “Holy fuckstick”
      Anyways it’s true

    • @conkerlive101
      @conkerlive101 3 ปีที่แล้ว +49

      That's borderline slavery.... Wtf don't they have work rights? They better be getting increadible overtime which I doubt

    • @prod-JESSE
      @prod-JESSE 2 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      @@conkerlive101 They don't get forced to go home at such a late time, its more of a choice most japanese animatiors make. The recommended time for them to go home would be pretty normal, but everyone will most likely stay to get more work done.

    • @conkerlive101
      @conkerlive101 2 ปีที่แล้ว +43

      @@prod-JESSE yeah exactly so it's the culture Norm so the one guy who is going home on time is extremely far behind compared to everybody else and likely on The chopping Block to get fired, it's not okay.

    • @TaraDG
      @TaraDG 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@prod-JESSE Japanese people are very disciplined, respect time and Workaholic tho

  • @bilegttobi9804
    @bilegttobi9804 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1010

    Now I feel bad for watching animes from pirated sources

    • @TheCaptinhazmat
      @TheCaptinhazmat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +292

      I don't. Besides the fact most platforms don't stream to most countries, the platforms like crunchyroll pay next to nothing to the studios that make the show. If you truly want to support your favorite shows/creators. Buy merch that supports them. Be it the show on dvd. T-shirts or what ever. That's how they stay alive.

    • @LordVader1094
      @LordVader1094 3 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      Unless you buy the bluray it doesn't matter

    • @TriWidyan
      @TriWidyan 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I am lucky because in south east asia region right now there's a lot of legal anime streaming platforms for free. lmao.

    • @tysu6783
      @tysu6783 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Khalifover using bruh... should get you jail time

    • @JohnXina97
      @JohnXina97 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I mean what Crunchyroll is doing is borderline robbery so don't feel too bad about it.
      Watch a show on a pirated site and if you really like it order the shows blue-rays and official merch, that way the animators get the most of it!

  • @austino9573
    @austino9573 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4032

    The level of honesty in their culture is insane. They put all of their emotion in to every sentence and give honest thought. It’s hard to watch but I understand that’s part of the culture. Mr sakamoto made me sad :(

    • @ninjaya5202
      @ninjaya5202 3 ปีที่แล้ว +101

      Here in Europe we need to lie if you are honest then you get no job

    • @analogaudiorules1724
      @analogaudiorules1724 3 ปีที่แล้ว +92

      Seems like their culture is the only one to appreciate honesty and actual transparency.... every where is else is built on lies it seems...

    • @l4dl4dl4d
      @l4dl4dl4d 3 ปีที่แล้ว +66

      @@analogaudiorules1724 at least work over here actually has a stable work-life balance

    • @sikerslalatm3147
      @sikerslalatm3147 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @@analogaudiorules1724 lol ok those are just lies. As much as I like Japan, this is just plain shit. There is a lot of corruption (just a little bit more hidden than maybe in other countries plus their culture helps hide it even more)

    • @GTAGMODZ
      @GTAGMODZ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@sikerslalatm3147 one of the fakest culture there is. It's a little less about face than china is, but you rarely see Honne, usually Tatemae.

  • @MrJakotic
    @MrJakotic 2 ปีที่แล้ว +898

    As an artist and aspiring animator, this was actually very insightful, I already knew the animation industry in Japan is very stressful and a lot of them are worked to the bone to finish these cuts, but watching this really put in perspective how difficult it really is for them to work in such conditions, I really feel for them.

    • @krunkle5136
      @krunkle5136 ปีที่แล้ว

      Agreed. They should be instead working in coal mines.

    • @MK12275
      @MK12275 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

      Imagine it's 10x worse for Jjk animators from mappa right now especially the demand in quality is much higher than this one not to mention how many big anime's they've taken now and they have to do it every single week

    • @Gonzas97
      @Gonzas97 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      ​@@MK12275 you think only mappa does this? Dude, almost every single anime studio works in this same conditions.
      Just because you discovered mappa yesterday doesn't mean they are the most suffered, all of them suffer the same way.

    • @SunGodNikaUsopp
      @SunGodNikaUsopp หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@MK12275 AI is solutions, save budget and times, mostly times

    • @MK12275
      @MK12275 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Gonzas97 Well yeah you're right but I've only heard Mappa taking big projects so frequently so I only mentioned about the studio I seem to know something about

  • @jessieperez2030
    @jessieperez2030 3 ปีที่แล้ว +329

    17:20
    Damn, you can see from his expression that he really feels like crying :'(

  • @StaelTek
    @StaelTek 3 ปีที่แล้ว +890

    I have so much respect for those who are still making cartoons in general that isn't 3D animated. I feel the writers and creators that actually make our favorite characters, frame by frame by hand and bring them to life deserves more appreciation for their work.

    • @scrithen2818
      @scrithen2818 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Its good that stuff is still hand drawn because 3D animation in anime looks like garbage 99% of the time, it just shouldnt be done

    • @animeplayvideo
      @animeplayvideo ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@scrithen2818 I agree with you

    • @krunkle5136
      @krunkle5136 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@scrithen2818 it could be done well, but I agree that hand drawn has more humanity in it.

    • @narayandesigns3291
      @narayandesigns3291 ปีที่แล้ว +67

      I'm pretty sure you haven't tried 3D animation. Hand-drawn and 3D have different pros and cons. 2D might be more time consuming but 3D needs constant movement between each frame, from something as subtle as breathing to something more dynamic as running. In anime you can see that the same drawings are kept for a couple of seconds in some cases where the action is subtle. But if you do that in 3D for a couple of frames, the characters would look dead. You have to try it yourself in order to understand. I have tried all mediums of animation and each one is difficult in its own way.

    • @raccoonchild
      @raccoonchild ปีที่แล้ว +3

      They make the most beautiful, organic-looking animation. Humanity's treasure.

  • @fen0
    @fen0 3 ปีที่แล้ว +477

    studio trigger works so hard on all of their anime, and if you were a beginner with people from gainax working with you? id probably cry. art careers are hard to begin with but having so many cuts get sent back to you would be heartbreaking especially if you think theyre perfect.

  • @Greystorm1619
    @Greystorm1619 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1897

    I love how all the comments are about how stressed and depressed these guys are, cus as someone who just graduated from animation school, that’s literally all of us lmao 😂. We literally stay inside all day and get like 4 hours of sleep a night to produce seconds of animation, like you kinda gotta be crazy to be an animator.

    • @katharinnemagalhaes2835
      @katharinnemagalhaes2835 3 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      Exactly!!

    • @catzor4795
      @catzor4795 3 ปีที่แล้ว +238

      Try gamedevving :). Waste a couple of your lifespan just so people can shit on it and move on to the next trash.

    • @ecgeniy123
      @ecgeniy123 3 ปีที่แล้ว +105

      @@catzor4795 Im right going into that rabbit hole. Wish me luck. I will got recruited in our indie company in january :D

    • @catzor4795
      @catzor4795 3 ปีที่แล้ว +82

      @@ecgeniy123 Be mentally strong my friend.

    • @TexiTheTycoon
      @TexiTheTycoon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      As someone studying 3D modeling/animating, I completely understand what you mean

  • @marsbar77
    @marsbar77 ปีที่แล้ว +70

    “It’s hard.” Can someone please give that man a hug and tell him he’s doing so well, often the most talented people are the most oblivious to it 😭

  • @keenanlarsen1639
    @keenanlarsen1639 2 ปีที่แล้ว +164

    "It's the first of many days of anguish."
    The way the narrator said this so calmly is pretty eerie

  • @Splicer011
    @Splicer011 3 ปีที่แล้ว +145

    Stress: the ASMR

  • @ElaineCreations
    @ElaineCreations ปีที่แล้ว +114

    if any japanese animator or animator in general is reading this, you are enough. You work hard every single day for people's entertainment. And I just want you to know that you men and women are very talented doing this for us. Thank you for taking every single day from your lives and making beautiful pieces of art, and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day.❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @GamerShrihaanOfficial
    @GamerShrihaanOfficial ปีที่แล้ว +156

    Now I feel bad for skipping that one Naruto episode ;(
    Seriously the level of dedication, patience and hard work they put onto these marvelous animations is insane. Hat's off to Japanese anime creators

    • @naughtywizard
      @naughtywizard 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

      Imagine animating filler 💀

  • @TimoKanal
    @TimoKanal 3 ปีที่แล้ว +946

    I LOVE paper flipping sounds, and I love how the Japanese language sounds. So this is super relaxing while also being quite interesting!

    • @XxLuigixX
      @XxLuigixX 3 ปีที่แล้ว +95

      Its relaxing hear the others pain hahaha :,v

    • @nazzalafk8668
      @nazzalafk8668 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@XxLuigixX 😭😭😭

  • @institutokleos
    @institutokleos 3 ปีที่แล้ว +404

    Anyone else felt sorry for the boy who began speaking at about 15:16?

    • @mrnarias3554
      @mrnarias3554 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

      Yes, poor guy i want to give him.a hug and tell him he is good enough and he deserve the world 😭

    • @edufo1654
      @edufo1654 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      😭

    • @conkerlive101
      @conkerlive101 3 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      Jesus this is supposed to be relaxing and this guys completly stressed out that he's failing at his job and soon to be fired. Poor guy.

    • @ignlightenment4556
      @ignlightenment4556 2 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Why are you feeling sorry for him? Don't pity him, he triumphed at the end. There is a reason why we are shown the work he is stuck at, which is to do with the light illusions. When they are showing the finished film to young animators only his work is shown to us and the camera pans to his face to show it is his work. You can even see his reaction as he watches it, he is happy and proud about it.

    • @shishianimates9698
      @shishianimates9698 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@conkerlive101 not soon to be fired he just feels like hes not good enough the point of the project was to nurture new and younger staff but letting down somebody u idolize being yoh yoshinari is almost as worse as being fired ik for me it would be cause i idolize him to

  • @guccimalcs
    @guccimalcs 2 ปีที่แล้ว +258

    The director seems like a great person who truly cares for those under them. He treats them with respect.

  • @WeAreBlank18
    @WeAreBlank18 ปีที่แล้ว +352

    I made an anime for my high school project, and it really was 15 hour work days of drawing the same thing over and over again, only after multiple cuts later, you have to go back to the beginning since you know you can do better for the earlier ones.
    However, it was heaps of fun, since I was able to make a story from my own mind, and have other people SEE what I was thinking of, which was a first for me.
    It’s been a year since then now, and I’m working on video games instead, but I won’t mind doing animating again as a side project.

    • @foxxettie7699
      @foxxettie7699 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      We’d love too see your project you made, especially when it was a high school project

    • @tonitski
      @tonitski ปีที่แล้ว +1

      where is it?i wanna see

    • @aotnorequiem7439
      @aotnorequiem7439 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I believe you're anime was trash

    • @denyoellamcy8251
      @denyoellamcy8251 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      My Friend I want to see your art ..It will be nice if you make a TH-cam channel..Trust me you can excel a lot in this field

    • @WeAreBlank18
      @WeAreBlank18 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@denyoellamcy8251 Thank you all who have been asking.
      My art and animation can be found on this account that I am typing on.

  • @bobby9124
    @bobby9124 3 ปีที่แล้ว +336

    Came here to sleep. Ended up watching the whole damn thing. Fm

  • @miavalencia9715
    @miavalencia9715 3 ปีที่แล้ว +260

    15:45 nooooooo it’s not awful, someone please give this man a hug, he seems so sad

    • @midoriyaizuku4403
      @midoriyaizuku4403 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      He seems depressed. I feel so bad for him 🥺

    • @iiTzLurks
      @iiTzLurks 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I kinda feel like hes suicidal

    • @justsomeguy4260
      @justsomeguy4260 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Looks like a kid to me

    • @salvadormora3331
      @salvadormora3331 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Poor dude man I felt like he was barely holding back from breaking down. I hope things got better for him

    • @user-uv6rb2yu6x
      @user-uv6rb2yu6x ปีที่แล้ว +3

      あの…そこまで彼は落ち込んでないです

  • @lainaballls
    @lainaballls ปีที่แล้ว +199

    This video, I will show to people who claim that art is easy or that it’s not a real career/job. These people are putting their ALL into the craft and it gets frustrating when all your cuts are being sent back to you. The people who say art isn’t a real career probably watch an animated show and don’t realize that this is what the animators behind the show have to go through.

    • @npcimknot958
      @npcimknot958 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      the hardest career path.

    • @Truth_Hurts_Bad
      @Truth_Hurts_Bad ปีที่แล้ว

      @@npcimknot958 I'd have to disagree. You're sitting on your ass drawing. I mean, that's not physically demanding. Subjective workplace environments aside, it's a lax profession. You're in control of your creative visions, too. Anyway, my wife's an independent artist, and she's ballin' hard (based on her output, of course). No deadlines, unless she gets an order. No stress (again, unless someone's nagging). No boss.
      Meanwhile, I've been in physically demanding lines of work for years-on-end - and it's quite literally exhausting. I understand that more artistic professions are stressful on more of a mental level, sure. Anyway, I'm Finally breaking the cycle now. Cheers.

    • @eclipseking5764
      @eclipseking5764 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@Truth_Hurts_Badyou're in a different country. After having worked 4 years in a builders warehouse and having experienced Japanese culture and customs. Very different story, it's not just the works difficulty level, it's the hours, the demand mentally, and the cultural differences that make it more taxing than it should be. It's not hard manual labour, these people are in an unstable environment with off screen strictness u wouldnt get over here, and you're looked down on for it even by your family members

    • @eclipseking5764
      @eclipseking5764 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@Truth_Hurts_Badand no im not saying its the hardest career path, im just saying its nowhere near as easy as freelancing and stuff like this can be taxing enough to lead to suicide because of its outside effect

    • @Truth_Hurts_Bad
      @Truth_Hurts_Bad 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@eclipseking5764 I don't doubt that *any* line of work in Japan is demanding on all fronts, as part of their exceedingly-strained expectations and customary standards. It's probably why most workers in Japan are freelancers, or simply not "9-5ers".

  • @amrk21
    @amrk21 2 ปีที่แล้ว +865

    I feel sorry for expecting more episodes a week.. now I understand how hard it is to work on a single episode..
    Huge respect to all these animators..
    We all must know about our Favourite Animes Animators and support and celebrate them.
    It's the least we can do appreciate their hard & tedious work.
    In this video, it's well evident that they suffer mentally trying to squeeze out the best creative version of executing a scene.
    Thanks ♥️

    • @justsomeguy4260
      @justsomeguy4260 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Who even watches cringe stuff like anime

    • @bushmaster2532
      @bushmaster2532 ปีที่แล้ว +94

      @@justsomeguy4260 then why are you watching this documentary?

    • @rajsaha7885
      @rajsaha7885 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@justsomeguy4260 who even gives birth of such cringe child like you?

    • @Kekoa552
      @Kekoa552 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      @@bushmaster2532 exactly

    • @elkrumb9159
      @elkrumb9159 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@justsomeguy4260 to be fair anime is very entertaining you just have to find stuff you enjoy

  • @sandwichdelta
    @sandwichdelta 3 ปีที่แล้ว +220

    I love behind-the-scenes videos of anime studios because the crew are always so soft spoken when working in the studio, plus animation production is super interesting to me. The film they made here, Little Witch Academia (2013), is one of my favorites too.

  • @rinowx5
    @rinowx5 ปีที่แล้ว +75

    The way our society would crumble without people who have passion and talent for design/aesthetics/creating beautiful art and yet it’s so undervalued and underpaid, is extremely depressing.

  • @technoshaman001
    @technoshaman001 ปีที่แล้ว +88

    How can you be creative in an environment like that? These people are so resilient.

  • @adilfhortler1398
    @adilfhortler1398 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    39:07 "That scene took me 2 months to get right and its already over"

    • @drajai8405
      @drajai8405 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      😖😖😖😖

    • @lunasea8908
      @lunasea8908 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Cmon don't do him like that

    • @Tirlex
      @Tirlex ปีที่แล้ว

      ouch 😂

  • @gian.4388
    @gian.4388 3 ปีที่แล้ว +444

    I can really understand the pressure of working with such an iconic legend in the animation industry such as You Yoshinari lol
    That is to be added to the already really high pressure of working in the anime production
    It's quite sad honestly
    The japanese animation industry really doesn't deserve the incredibly talented artists they have, considering how they treat them

    • @megasocky
      @megasocky 3 ปีที่แล้ว +54

      ALL animation industry is like this. The west doesnt talk about it because they outsource their animation to the east (usually Korean studios). Japan just happens to be like this because of how underfunded any arts related occupation is in Japan

    • @lovetownsend
      @lovetownsend 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Yoh Yoshinari was animator for Dead Leaves. Dude's 1 in a billion awesome

    • @gian.4388
      @gian.4388 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@megasocky No, definitely not all the animation industry is this bad
      Japanese in-betweeners end up having to work 13+ hours a day without it being illegal because the working conditions overall in Japan are unregulated af, not necessarily because it's underfunded
      The animation industry here in Italy is underfunded as fuck, but even just the studio animating Winx Club I bet is doing better than 98% of the animators in Japan
      And fyi, most of the major seasonal anime have been (and are being) outsourced to cheap korean and chinese studios too, *_actually_* the japanese animation industry survives off of outsourcing their shows as increasing numbers of talented japanese people leave the industry because of its massive issues and not being able to live off of it
      (For example: Haikyu!! is a very rare exception as only two episodes in its 4 entire seasons have ever been outsourced)

    • @alexandersmith4731
      @alexandersmith4731 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@gian.4388 Well duh, Winx Club animation stops caring for its movements after season 4, and they uses Flash animation cause it's quicker, with the cost of the movements looking terrible and incredibly stiff, the 2D Sirenix and Tynix is one of the most lifeless animation work I have ever seen despite its bright colours and overblown glitters trying to blind you (Bloomix is good though)
      You would be laid back animator too if you can produce mediocre or borderline badly animated series (Winx club plot consistency who? Mythix terrible 3d animation blergh) and can still sell low quality merch at a high price 🙁

  • @Boritoman76
    @Boritoman76 17 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    The amount of work that animators put in just a couple of seconds of animation is absolutely immaculate, they deserve everything, their work are absolutely phenomenal. 🔥❤

  • @KuzumiyaRiku
    @KuzumiyaRiku ปีที่แล้ว +19

    this is why i never called anime/manga's art "ugly" or "bad" no matter how the art looks , because as an illustrator, i can understand how stressful drawing can be

  • @ll0_oll
    @ll0_oll 3 ปีที่แล้ว +40

    6:32 "He keenly feels the difference in skill between himself and Director Yoshinari. It's the first of many days of anguish"

  • @Xavier-do6ty
    @Xavier-do6ty 3 ปีที่แล้ว +136

    25:50 when the camera slowly turns to them. I can only imagine how funny that looked from their perspective 😂 they were probably so embarrassed.
    Super interesting documentary! Forgot I was here for tingles and got sucked into their story lol

    • @larixa2260
      @larixa2260 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I got bad second hand embarrassment. But that shit was funny af

  • @bryanchristianabrigo
    @bryanchristianabrigo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +168

    Imagine doing hardwork with an anime, and in the end, some people say it's trash. Like that's mean bruh

    • @giov7
      @giov7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I thought the same while i was watchin the documentary u.u

    • @MorgMorgW
      @MorgMorgW 2 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      You can respect the skill and effort that went into a making a show and still think that the show was mid or trash.

    • @mattjindrak
      @mattjindrak 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      @@MorgMorgW yeah if the writing sucks, it brings the whole thing down

    • @luminescence9281
      @luminescence9281 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Oof.. never thought about this

    • @justsomeguy4260
      @justsomeguy4260 ปีที่แล้ว

      Who tf even watchez cringy stuff like anime 🤮

  • @mjdalmashhour
    @mjdalmashhour 2 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    これらの画家は本当に忍耐強く謙虚です .
    これらの画家は、屈辱や怠惰のない仕事への誠実さに完全な敬意と感謝を持っています .

  • @NISSANZ33
    @NISSANZ33 3 ปีที่แล้ว +94

    Lol when the camera person was digging through the animators trash bin

    • @paulineebenau
      @paulineebenau 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      that made me feel so uneasy. the ultimate disrespect...

    • @Rollerbear712
      @Rollerbear712 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@paulineebenau ikr, it made me feel like shit and guilty even though I wasn't the one doing it; at least he could've asked smfh

    • @MarshaNPILoveCanada
      @MarshaNPILoveCanada ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Rollerbear712 I know how you feel. "It feels like I'm guilty or they talking/blaming/etc to me but in reality it wasn't"

  • @cookiedraw8173
    @cookiedraw8173 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Let be honest between animators here : reading through the comments is extremly rewarding and refreshing. It really feels good to see our work apreciated by the public once in a while^^ this documentary is showing the hard part of the industry, but there is a lot of light too, dont worry

  • @Andreazor
    @Andreazor 3 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    I can just feel the anxiety and stress being suppressed in kind words and silence.

  • @eilois
    @eilois ปีที่แล้ว +37

    A bit of clarification that maybe useless
    Little Witch short movie (27 minutes) is actually their first work as a new studio, regardless of most of their staff from Gainax. So this kind of interaction is common.
    Founded in October 2011, they have one year and 5 month for the premier on Anime Mirai March 2013. But they didn't get the "contract" of USD 480k budget from Cultural Agency untill June 2012. This first project goal was to develop young animator, which the key for this documentary as well rather than optimal working performance. It might be more hard, or more relax. As this Anime is also not adaptation but *original work* ..

  • @candyman3
    @candyman3 3 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    Animation is no joke, hard work!!!

  • @shanewright344
    @shanewright344 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Animation is something that I have clearly been taking for granted. I never realized just how much time and work goes into animation, and all for my blatant consumption. I feel like an ingrate...

    • @ayakajinno8498
      @ayakajinno8498 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      same 😭

    • @shanewright344
      @shanewright344 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@ayakajinno8498 It's alright. Let's just try and be better going forward 🙂

  • @JohnDoe-xp4iy
    @JohnDoe-xp4iy ปีที่แล้ว +46

    I love this style of documentary. Seems less 'professional' but feels a lot more personal.

  • @juliacarat
    @juliacarat ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I am a newbie in the animation world but I can say from my own experience that making anime is a lot harder than most people think. I have been working on a scene that is barely 3 seconds long for the last 2 days (I worked on it for over 14 hours a day) and I am barely just finished with the keyframing + inbetweens. It will take me another day or two to scan the drawings, edit them with my animation software (color them + add backgrounds + add effects + add music + add my voice recordings etc.) and all of that for just 3 seconds. An anime episode is 20-23 minutes, an anime movie is an hour and a half-two hours, just imagine how much work has to be put in such long and exhausting projects. Animators/anyone who works in the animation field has my total respect.

    • @solesticia
      @solesticia ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The problem is not how hard it is but the working conditions and stress that are put on workers.

    • @juliacarat
      @juliacarat ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@solesticia Yes, of course, but that is what makes it even harder on them. They are doing a very hard thing under harsh and stressful working conditions. My comment was not really about the terrible working conditions but rather about how difficult this process is and how they should get more respect for it, it is only when you learn about it that you realize how difficult making anime is.

  • @yourewallsareveryconvenien8292
    @yourewallsareveryconvenien8292 3 ปีที่แล้ว +307

    Those people really look tired and exhausted man. But props studio trigger for making the animes hand drawn we dont see that very often and most of the animes are digitally animated ( I think ). I`ve seen some videos about hand draw animating and by the looks of it, it looks really hard and confusing because you have to turn up the pictures really fast so you can see the frames (If i can call it like that).

    • @lovetownsend
      @lovetownsend 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Berserk. Man of taste I see

    • @yourewallsareveryconvenien8292
      @yourewallsareveryconvenien8292 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@lovetownsend When you put your grasses nothing will be wong 😎

    • @mrduck6720
      @mrduck6720 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      Standard anime are still made hand-drawn, besides the colouring, shading, VFX etc.. Key animators always start with the white layout paper, that then moves to the in-between animators, then colouring, then art and then finally cinematography. It's true team effort to bring these out to live.

    • @LL-oq5sf
      @LL-oq5sf 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@yourewallsareveryconvenien8292 anime is still made on paper
      But colored digitally
      And yes, many old animes are actually made digitally (eg: blood series first movie)

    • @sarroumarbeu6810
      @sarroumarbeu6810 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I wouldn't really give the studio any props because the profits are unfairly distributed....the artists deserve so much more remuneration and benefits for fuckin up their lives for their craft like that

  • @daniarvi
    @daniarvi 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Easily one of the best documentaries I've seen. So awesome I've never seen the inside of an anime studio like this. Loved all of it. every second of it. I wonder if they have done other studios. Thanks for this one

  • @Fanofstuff278
    @Fanofstuff278 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This was a joy to watch! New animators learning how much hard work it takes to be like their idols. Love it.

  • @ahyanayman2330
    @ahyanayman2330 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    After 3years, I really appreciate those artists!!!
    I'm gonna save this video, you also did a great job by shooting the documentary. Thank you so much!💐

  • @gemmadeniselondon
    @gemmadeniselondon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    This was a real treat because Trigger are AMAZING and I wasn’t expecting it to be about them, plus the little Evangelion drawings 💖💖💖

  • @1234kingconan
    @1234kingconan ปีที่แล้ว +4

    That lady’s advice was so sweet and I listened to it in my heart. Thank you lady 🥺☺️

  • @richardglady3009
    @richardglady3009 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you so very much for sharing the work required to make this animation. Special thanks to the artists willing to have a camera sitting over their back as they work.

  • @dreamwork69
    @dreamwork69 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Thank u to all the artists for working very hard on each second of any movies. U’r guys are the best!!!!!!

  • @kylesimpson6729
    @kylesimpson6729 2 ปีที่แล้ว +79

    They need to be paid soooo much more for this amount of stress not only that but anime has literally saved lives, well that might be a bit of a stretch but knowing that you will always have anime does play a part in helping with depression. This alone is a reason to increase their pay and if that happens I think people with potential like that guy said wouldn't leave. I'm not sure why they left but if I had to guess its probably because the pay isn't worth the stress.
    Thank you to these and everyone else that's in this line of work I used to only watch the more highly rated anime but after seeing how much work they put into it I'm definitely gonna give more of the "Smaller" anime a chance

  • @a_me_1
    @a_me_1 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    They deserve so much respect, their dedication is incredible, I worry for them in many ways too, but can't help but admire them at the same time.

  • @McRocket
    @McRocket 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    That was more relaxing then I thought it would be.
    Also, I found it very interesting.
    Thank you for this.

  • @lxc647
    @lxc647 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    this makes me appreciate anime so much more thank you all for your hard work

  • @Dinitrate
    @Dinitrate ปีที่แล้ว +3

    the animators, directors, artists..deserve more appreciation. Since I was a child, when I watched anime, all I could focus on was how amazing the animation was. I hoped that one day I could be part of something like that. I always wanted to know HOW it was done. in animated movies, I would be facinated with behind the scenes type stuff so I can actually see people working in the studio. the drafts, concept art, sketches, omg I couldn't get enough. These are true artists..they know about physics. perspective..portraying emotion, action, they have so much patience drawing things over and over again frame by frame.. they got it all. even the ones that have a bit of trouble and lose confidence, they are amazing. I wish that I could do something like this one day. Bring ideas to life like this. AUUGGHHH!!!!!

  • @Gollumfili
    @Gollumfili ปีที่แล้ว +15

    You are good enough. You are MORE than good enough. Drawing fireworks by hand is badass.

  • @jesterfeathers
    @jesterfeathers หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    The conditions in MAPPA can’t be shown on yt ☠️

  • @anon6056
    @anon6056 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    AH this was so beautiful 💖💗💕
    it was so beautiful seeing the voice actress inspire and rejuvenate their passion, and the director at the end realising he hopes he can work with these animators again and that they keep animating. I hope they kept animating too. But i hope the one animator who was so stressed and upset found the strength to keep going. It was really way more heartwarming and inspiring than i expected from this video. :)

  • @oceanboy1014
    @oceanboy1014 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    If you enjoyed this I would recommend the short documentary for the making of Akira, also on YT. The amount of work going into every frame is so impressive.

  • @gaiamorgosi7181
    @gaiamorgosi7181 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    17:20 I kind of understand, since I’m a perfectionist myself, but at the end I think that fixes are normal, in every environment, whether it’s work or school ora external activities. Fixes are there so that you can understand where you need to work to make something as close as possible to perfection. In the past, like in school, I was sooooo sad whenever I got fixes on projects or homework, but I think it was good (when it was constructive) to make me understand how to do it properly the following time. Fixes do not exist to make you feel miserable, but to show you the right direction. I hope he understands that he’s great and that his director is teaching him how to improve his abilities day by day, so that one day he will be able to even do his job or to make perfect frames that don’t need fixes. Progress over perfection. If we were all perfect in the beginning, there wouldn’t be growth.

  • @monkeydgoofy8074
    @monkeydgoofy8074 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    this is really amazing the amount of dedication and passion goes into each second of work !

  • @tvfarofa1312
    @tvfarofa1312 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Amazing. Anyone who sees a finished animation cannot imagine the dilemmas that occur among company workers and this documentary was wonderful in exposing this. Grateful.

  • @chandonfigg
    @chandonfigg ปีที่แล้ว +3

    as an artist this was really inspiring to watch. thank you! I feel their passion and drive

  • @mrnarias3554
    @mrnarias3554 3 ปีที่แล้ว +54

    I came here for the asmr and now im really interested in how the process work. I feel bad for those guys, they work really really hard i cant even imagine how stressfull that must be. But they still are so polite and calm even doe they probably are freaking the fuck out on the inside all the time. Anyways, nice video.

  • @piyushbire9375
    @piyushbire9375 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thanks TH-camr for making this amazing documentary 3yra ago and thanks to youtube for suggesting it on my feed

  • @bluedragon219123
    @bluedragon219123 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Awesome documentary and Thank You for posting! :)

  • @JJ-wi1xb
    @JJ-wi1xb 2 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    Way to go Sakamoto Masaru-san, you did struggle so much but today you are one of the most important asset for TRIGGER
    Be proud of yourself!!!!

  • @slantedrib9118
    @slantedrib9118 3 ปีที่แล้ว +113

    It feels like a Japanese version of the office. Just-- more bearable

  • @VizcayaAkingProbinsya
    @VizcayaAkingProbinsya หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Just a pure appreciation to their work, pure talent and skill

  • @xXxXkuramaxXx
    @xXxXkuramaxXx 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This video is insightful. Helpfully I get more like this in my recommended.
    The final outcome is clearly beautiful. A tedious start up, but the final result is well worth it, and I’m sure that’s what boost these gentleman’s morale.

  • @dan907
    @dan907 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    bro.. seriously, their job take sooo much effort, dedication, passion, and strength. they are all so talented. it must've been so fascinating and satisfying for them to finally see the final product of all their drawings. the anime industry is so interesting and talented. like, really. the way how they work just makes you appreciate everyone in the industry.

  • @montybrewster7
    @montybrewster7 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I'm sure lots of artists think working for a studio like trigger would be a dream job. The reality appeared to be a soul destroying experience with next to no appreciation or joy for their amazing talents. It was really quite sad.

  • @deivittt
    @deivittt 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    The backgrounds artist is amazing! They all are!

  • @positiveproductions6699
    @positiveproductions6699 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Man I love documentaries like this that show Japan animators drawing and working and doing such cool art

  • @thekingofstillwater5890
    @thekingofstillwater5890 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I came here purely for the ASMR and the soft Japanese accent. I find it very calming. Not a big fan of anime though, but I do love all the hard work of hand drawing each frame they do. I can respect their dedication to their craft.

  • @jamesmckean3221
    @jamesmckean3221 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is the best unintentional ASMR I've ever seen!

  • @TravelSenpaii
    @TravelSenpaii ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I had such a good time watching this. And man these guy are STRESSED but they stay calm and collected. It's insane. I do hope they get paid more.

  • @ToxicTurvey
    @ToxicTurvey 3 ปีที่แล้ว +62

    I want a follow up documentary just to see how these guys are doing

    • @SuperNeowiz
      @SuperNeowiz 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      most probably left the industry, as the director said at the end.

    • @gian.4388
      @gian.4388 3 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      Most of the animators shown there are actually becoming quite famous in the industry, but it's true that many other entry level animators tend to leave
      Now there's the problem that because the japanese beginner animators leave, the industry now has switched to taking advantage of aspiring animators from other countries, mostly china, south korea or the philippines: basically the jpn animation industry is on life support, with the life support system being the outsourcing
      This despite productions making more and more money each and every year
      Why is it like this then? Because most of the money goes to the producers and production committee as opposed to the animation studios and their staff

  • @melonman2090
    @melonman2090 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Ooh this one has been sitting in my personal playlist forever

  • @user-pp8ru6uu1s
    @user-pp8ru6uu1s 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    The way the camera moves and looks makes me think of the office.

  • @JDGaming-05
    @JDGaming-05 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    My respect truly goes to animators. They have this shit the hardest. In the entertainment industry.

  • @Ajjikmada
    @Ajjikmada ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Woah such hard work, everyone is amazing

  • @LI-88888
    @LI-88888 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Thank you, dear animators for everything you do!!!🙏 Much love💖💖💖

  • @ChasiingPirates
    @ChasiingPirates 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Animation is something I always imagined to be very tricky. And today I found that it is indeed a very tricky process

  • @MachaSavageBunny
    @MachaSavageBunny ปีที่แล้ว +2

    The voice narrating from this woman, is so relaxing, I could listen to her to sleep, live through life. Dang

  • @skully3242
    @skully3242 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I'm envious of all the talent these people have.

  • @kytheres379
    @kytheres379 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This reminded me of my intro to animation class in college. So much paper, all for five seconds of footage 😭

  • @N.E.K.O
    @N.E.K.O ปีที่แล้ว +8

    These people deserve all the respect.

  • @pupucookie6858
    @pupucookie6858 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    yo i remember sending this to you so long ago, im glad it made a good video :D

  • @hanabibloom72
    @hanabibloom72 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    As an animator it rly makes you think twice to watch the anime you've worked on bcs it'll remind you of the tears and mental breakdowns you've had while working on it sksjhs