ah yes, talk about calming down... whenever i feel stressed i go and rewatch toradora, or maybe listen to the ost its such a good show. thanks for making this mix
Man, im scared how much fitting this is. I discovered your channel few days ago and listening this music all the time, and im feeling like im sinking deeper and deeper into melancholy and sadness.
Same man, my little sister passed away at 13 a it's been a year now. Honestly I'm all alone now and he presence made me wanna live but now it's gone same with my own will to live
I'm still young but it's weird I lost my father not because he died but because he just kept letting me down. Every time he said he was coming to see me I got exited and then when he didn't show up I cried. But after a while I just stopped... feeling sadness. It's very strange to live with this because I just don't have empathy. I thought about death but I just never could I was too scared that death was just none existence. With my dad not being around I lost two people I thought were siblings, a younger brother and a older sister, I didn't see them for years and when we finally talked we had nothing in common and were on different paths. I feel a hole in my heart a whole that can't be filled. I keep trying new things and the hole is there all the way. My family/friends don't know about this, I feel alone, even with my loving mother and step father the hole stays open. I just wish my dad would turn his life around and be there for me, even writing this I feel nothing, empty. I have been through two divorces and seen my dad on a hospital bed after a car wreck, after the wreak I am not even sure if it's him, He looks different and has even told me he feels like he just picked up where somebody else left off. I haven't seen him or talked with him for around a year now. I feel the pressure of expectation and see my dreams leaving me. I feel as though I put on a mask that can never be removed, I don't even know who I am anymore. I have a container inside me, it holds all that sadness that i don't feel and recently it has started to reach it's limit and pour out, I tried making it bigger but that didn't help it just delayed it and now even that is full. My mom always asks me why i am so destructive but I think it's just a release of that sadness. I keep remembering all the time I spent with my dad and when I do I feel the container crack, I think I am about to break soon, I don't know how much longer my container can hold up. If you are wonder I don't mean kill myself when I say break, I think I will just lose everything, my friends/family/life. I used to love going to my dad's side of the family when I was younger. They were poor but i was still fed and had a lot of fun. Now that I am older I can see that they use drugs. One of my uncles even died. My dad's mother is a slave to vapes and drugs and even put it above me when I was around. My dad's dad just sits on his bed all day watching anime rotting. My dad's living brother is also a slave to vapes. I had a cousin that I loved to hang out with and I would walk with her at my dad's grandmother's house. I haven't seen her in who knows how long, I miss her. I don't even remember her name. My great grandmother on my dad's side lived with two other old ladies, I thought of them as my great grandmothers as well but every visit one more would be gone, I didn't even get to go to their funerals, now it's just my great grandmother alone in a house in a forest. My mom didn't see her father either. I have two step dads(One married to my mom, one alone) and I go to family gatherings with both of them to their sides of the family. Even time I go I think about my dad's family, my blood family and feel the hole inside me grow and my container fill and crack even more. I have so many expectation that I just want to give up. I am supposed to go to pass high school with a 4.0, take all AP classes, and do awards like DS and DSG. i am expected to go to collage and graduate. I am expected to have a family when I get older. I am supposed to be a multimillionaire before the age of 25. I am expected to be the strongest man around me. I am expected to never cry or be weak. I just feel myself slipping away and a shell taking my place. All the things that bring me joy don't anymore, I have a ton of bad habits, I don't even know what to do with my life. My escapes from reality are shot down by my family. I want to learn a new language and they told me that I should learn a different one, I told them that I wanted to learn this one and they instead offer no support. Everyone sees me as this kind, smart, young man but they don't see the cracks in my container or the mask I put on. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I don't know if I can keep going like this, I want to ask for help but I am to afraid. I keep getting told to reach out and find help, but if I reach out the people I know will find out about this. You want to know something funny about lacking sadness, it takes love with it, I don't feel a connection with anyone. I don't love my family, my friends, or even myself, I just can't love. What I need more than anything in the world as a woman to hold me while I cry in their arms and tell me it is all going to be ok but I feel once I do that she would leave me in search of a stronger man not that I even have a girlfriend. I feel like everything I do is not good enough, I feel that i will never reach any of my own goals. I just can't anymore, I can't with goals, expectation, I can't with sadness, and love, I can't with life anymore but I don't want to feel the cold grasp of death. I just don't know what to do anymore. I know it's selfish of me to post my message under two of their videos but please don't hate me too much for it.
If this is true I hope things get better, I know they will the only way to go is up now. Think positively and I’m sure u can find some joy to ur life still, and know that things can be worse, so be grateful and keep going man
![Lonely Night 🌑 [dark ambient]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/CMNyHBx1gak/mqdefault.jpg)
![4 A.M Study Session 📚 [lofi hip hop]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/TURbeWK2wwg/mqdefault.jpg)
ah yes, talk about calming down...
whenever i feel stressed i go and rewatch toradora, or maybe listen to the ost
its such a good show.
thanks for making this mix
Man, im scared how much fitting this is. I discovered your channel few days ago and listening this music all the time, and im feeling like im sinking deeper and deeper into melancholy and sadness.
Same man, my little sister passed away at 13 a it's been a year now. Honestly I'm all alone now and he presence made me wanna live but now it's gone same with my own will to live
At 2:44 AM this hits different ❤
real
hey man dont stop posting all ur playlists are banging i cant skip one ! keep it up !
Ion care about girls I'm still shooting for my goal to be just like goku he is my inspiration I hope to he as great as he is one day
I'm still young but it's weird I lost my father not because he died but because he just kept letting me down. Every time he said he was coming to see me I got exited and then when he didn't show up I cried. But after a while I just stopped... feeling sadness. It's very strange to live with this because I just don't have empathy. I thought about death but I just never could I was too scared that death was just none existence. With my dad not being around I lost two people I thought were siblings, a younger brother and a older sister, I didn't see them for years and when we finally talked we had nothing in common and were on different paths. I feel a hole in my heart a whole that can't be filled. I keep trying new things and the hole is there all the way. My family/friends don't know about this, I feel alone, even with my loving mother and step father the hole stays open. I just wish my dad would turn his life around and be there for me, even writing this I feel nothing, empty. I have been through two divorces and seen my dad on a hospital bed after a car wreck, after the wreak I am not even sure if it's him, He looks different and has even told me he feels like he just picked up where somebody else left off. I haven't seen him or talked with him for around a year now. I feel the pressure of expectation and see my dreams leaving me. I feel as though I put on a mask that can never be removed, I don't even know who I am anymore. I have a container inside me, it holds all that sadness that i don't feel and recently it has started to reach it's limit and pour out, I tried making it bigger but that didn't help it just delayed it and now even that is full. My mom always asks me why i am so destructive but I think it's just a release of that sadness. I keep remembering all the time I spent with my dad and when I do I feel the container crack, I think I am about to break soon, I don't know how much longer my container can hold up. If you are wonder I don't mean kill myself when I say break, I think I will just lose everything, my friends/family/life. I used to love going to my dad's side of the family when I was younger. They were poor but i was still fed and had a lot of fun. Now that I am older I can see that they use drugs. One of my uncles even died. My dad's mother is a slave to vapes and drugs and even put it above me when I was around. My dad's dad just sits on his bed all day watching anime rotting. My dad's living brother is also a slave to vapes. I had a cousin that I loved to hang out with and I would walk with her at my dad's grandmother's house. I haven't seen her in who knows how long, I miss her. I don't even remember her name. My great grandmother on my dad's side lived with two other old ladies, I thought of them as my great grandmothers as well but every visit one more would be gone, I didn't even get to go to their funerals, now it's just my great grandmother alone in a house in a forest. My mom didn't see her father either. I have two step dads(One married to my mom, one alone) and I go to family gatherings with both of them to their sides of the family. Even time I go I think about my dad's family, my blood family and feel the hole inside me grow and my container fill and crack even more. I have so many expectation that I just want to give up. I am supposed to go to pass high school with a 4.0, take all AP classes, and do awards like DS and DSG. i am expected to go to collage and graduate. I am expected to have a family when I get older. I am supposed to be a multimillionaire before the age of 25. I am expected to be the strongest man around me. I am expected to never cry or be weak. I just feel myself slipping away and a shell taking my place. All the things that bring me joy don't anymore, I have a ton of bad habits, I don't even know what to do with my life. My escapes from reality are shot down by my family. I want to learn a new language and they told me that I should learn a different one, I told them that I wanted to learn this one and they instead offer no support. Everyone sees me as this kind, smart, young man but they don't see the cracks in my container or the mask I put on. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I don't know if I can keep going like this, I want to ask for help but I am to afraid. I keep getting told to reach out and find help, but if I reach out the people I know will find out about this. You want to know something funny about lacking sadness, it takes love with it, I don't feel a connection with anyone. I don't love my family, my friends, or even myself, I just can't love. What I need more than anything in the world as a woman to hold me while I cry in their arms and tell me it is all going to be ok but I feel once I do that she would leave me in search of a stronger man not that I even have a girlfriend. I feel like everything I do is not good enough, I feel that i will never reach any of my own goals. I just can't anymore, I can't with goals, expectation, I can't with sadness, and love, I can't with life anymore but I don't want to feel the cold grasp of death. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I know it's selfish of me to post my message under two of their videos but please don't hate me too much for it.
If this is true I hope things get better, I know they will the only way to go is up now. Think positively and I’m sure u can find some joy to ur life still, and know that things can be worse, so be grateful and keep going man
@@lMaxe69It’s true and I don’t really have much else to say but thanks
keep trying and good things will come to you
Have a great day beautiful
Great music! Thank you ❤️
So many lonely people, not going to go over well with the man upstairs.
May your woes be short, and your joy swiftly-returning.
Life's tough, hang in there. I believe in you.
Is that... A Ultrakill reference made into a motivational message...?
Shes getting married but i fell in love with her.
What anime is this
Hello
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@@sxp1337 going well ? '_'
@@CrashrCreator Fine yes.
Hi