I teared up too! Made me think of my kitty I had to put down on NY Eve last year. I think about and miss her all the time. Estee your new companion will be so lucky to have you. ❤️
It’s one of those things where “oh no, it’s not the right time. Things feel too hectic. I don’t want to replace Reggie”. But honestly your mum is right - it’s having another life to love, it’s never the same. Having a dog and a cat at the same time - it doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t ever replace someone. I’ve had my dogs and my next dog never replaced them. It’s just different. But having someone to love is the best feeling
I completely agree. It doesn't replace them or change your love for them, your heart just sort of grows and makes rooms for a new precious little soul.
When my cat died, I was convinced I could never love an animal as much as I love her. Then I got my dog and I realised your heart just grows with each new love
Totally :) I was exactly the same after my cat died. I took me a couple of years to come around and open my heart to another animal. Now I have two cats and love them to bits.
I literally had the biggest smile on my face when you said you was getting another dog. This is such a good positive step for you. Your mum was right, a dog is the heartbeat of your home. So happy with your descion to adopt x
Estée, I just wanted to write and say that you are not alone, feeling like this... I've been watching your videos forever and I feel like I've grown into a different person with you and have gone through VERY similar experiences in life... I've been (and kind of still am) EXACTLY where you are right now and I understand all your emotions SO well... AND I'm sure that I'm one of many many people who share similar stories... All of this is just to say you are not alone, thank you for sharing, take it one day at a time, no one can tell you to feel better because it will happen in its own time... EVERYTHING will get better in time, don't let yourself forget that... ♥🌹
I feel exactly the same! And I get so annoyed when I see comments about the 'old essie'. She is changing and growing and hopefully so are all of us. Very much here for sharing and love.
I totally get being hesitant to adopt a dog (it feels like you’ll NEVER love another dog as much as you loved the dog that passed) ... But that’s the great thing about love, if you’re open to it, you just find a way to make more...
Estee, I appreciate your openness on your TH-cam so much in regard to how you show such raw emotion. It broke my heart to see you cry, and I cried with you. Losing a pet is a loss like no other. I know how much you loved Reggie. I'm so excited for you to be getting another dog. Sending lots of love.
Having a dog to love and care for is one of the best things in life.I understand how you feel. I had a dog 10 years ago that I loved so much, and I lost him. I will never forget him, he is always in my heart. A week ago I adopted a dog,4 months old and her character is similar and so much fun. Taking care of her, loving her, going for walks in nature with her is the best thing. I observe how much her being in my life has changed my everyday, I am less in my head, I spend more time in nature, I give her so much love and in general i feel like having a dog is the best medicine for mental health. I feel so much gratitude for what she brings in my life and for all the love that I feel for her ❤️
Awww :"( cried when you talk about reggie, i miss that boy in your vlogs too ❤❤ but I'm happy that you decide to get another dog, you're such a great dog mom 😙
I understand your feelings about the sweet Reggie. They’re everything, they give love and don’t want anything back from us, they’re pure love. Another dog deserves to be loved from you, and you deserve its love! You have such a big heart Estée x
Omg I'm so happy for you! Adopting a dog seems like the best thing for you now. Healing after a loss of someone so special to you will of course take a long time. That kind of love is eternal and irreplaceable, but finding a new one to love will definitely bring in all the warmth and love that makes the loss more bearable, and it will give you both a happier life. What could be better?
When you talked about Reggie I had a maaaajor cry session. I know exactly that feeling and I can tell you that one other furry baby will help you go through that. Imagine this: crying on your phone thinking about you’re dead dog after a whole year and your much little second dog comes to you cuddling and giving you kisses and not leaving your side. They help us much more than ourselves. ❤️
My heart breaks for you to see how much you loved Reggie. I love how much of a bond you had together. There’s nothing like the love you have for your dog. Very happy to hear you’re going to get another dog. You have so much love to give and any dog that ends up with you will be so lucky.
Cried with you Estée! I recently lost a cat I've had for more than half my life - the pain makes you feel like you never want to do it again or love someone that much, but all those years of joy *with* them is worth it 🖤 x
you all probably dont give a shit but does any of you know a tool to log back into an instagram account..? I stupidly forgot my account password. I would love any tricks you can offer me.
Getting another dog after this situation is such a healing experience. My dog passed away two days before my birthday, I had her for 10 years and it was the best time. When she died I was heartbroken and my parents got me another puppy a few months later (like 3 or 4) and honestly it’s hard to get used to it but giving all this love to your new fluffy friend helps you a lot and it makes you stronger. I’m glad that you’re moving on and want to adopt a new puppy.
I was crying with you. Losing any pet is so hard, they are truly part of the family. Reggie will be forever a part of your life. Just think of all that love you can give to a new dog 🐕 ❤️
When you said, "At first, I was there is no way I'm getting another dog" and then realizing that you're ready for another pup, reminded me of the grief process for a lot of people. At first it feels like you're trying to replace someone (if you "move on"), but then you realize (in time) you can love both. One doesn't replace your love for another. But you approached it in such a healthy way for yourself. I guess I wanted to comment because I think you're normalizing a part of grieving for others and letting them know it's okay/normal to love again. Sending you love.
In a world where so many people aim to be carbon copies, you are such a refreshing find. And I hope you know how absolutely and stunningly BEAUTIFUL that makes you Estee. Much love. xoxo P.S. Please produce a video on how you cleanse your crystals.
Estée. I feel you so hard right now. I lost my dog tragically almost 3 years ago now. For one, it literally feels like YESTERDAY. The pain is still so real, the emptiness is still so big, and I just miss having my best friend. Funny, I actually have a picture from a few years back of her watching Reggie on the TV. I’m so happy that you’re in a place in you’re life where you are able to give love to another dog. I will get there again, too. Soon I hope! Love from home ❤️🇨🇦
When we lost my dog (after 15 years) I was devastated. I’ve never felt worse heartbreak than when I lost him. Getting a young pup a year later helped heal me in so many ways. Never replaced but it stretched my heart a bit more.
When I lost my greyhound many years ago I had the exact same feeling about needing to rescue a different breed. We ended up with a terrier eleven years ago it helped in so many ways. It’s the hardest thing losing a friend. Sending lots of love.
My dog passed away after twenty years of joy. And I felt as though I am looking at myself by watching you. I won’t say cheer up. Because I know how it breaks me down every time I think of my dog and how much I miss him. I hear you Estee. I cried with you.
Estée, it made me so happy for you when you said you're gonna get another dog! Reggie will never be forgotten, he'd be happy about your decision as well. ❤️
Omg the way this vlog ended 😂. And on a more serious note, it's inspiring to see you being so open to what's coming next for you. You are such a loving soul. Xx
Thank you for sharing this, Estee. I have spotted "The Hermit'" card in your spread and wasn't surprised to see it here - you have been sending a lot of Hermit's energy lately. It's a beautiful wisdom and solitude card of a growth into a new level and we see that you are definitely growing into your new stage. Cry as much as you need, tears cleanse your soul, tears will ship your past away. Thank you for being vulnerable and not being afraid to show it.
I feel you Estée. I cried thinking about Reggie and all of the times he touched my heart; I can't imagine. A home does need a heartbeat....love that. Your mom is wise just like you. Keep shining.
Estée you are one of my favourite people to watch. Been watching for years but I think recently you’ve been so open and honest and it’s great, you’re videos are so uplifting xx
I wrote to you before about loosing my granddog Bella in August. I cry everyday for her. I am so glad you are getting another furry friend. My daughter is getting another puppy in January. She is being born on November 11 and will be ready for pickup in January. We are so excited but will never forget our Bella girl. I just love your channel!
I am so happy to hear you are getting another dog. I lost a dog last March and truly felt so empty. I adopted another dog FINALLY last August. My new dog certainly does not replace the dogs of the past but definitely dissipates that empty feeling and I now feel a different love for this one. He gives me reason. Reason to come home after a long day, reason to care for something other than yourself, reason to hike on the weekends, etc. I am so happy for you! I am also so happy to hear you, like myself, are adopting! I don't know about London but here in America shelters are bursting at the seams with "unwanted" dogs. You go girl, you deserve it!
I completely relate, my beloved dog passed away in May. It has broken my heart, I shed tears often. I did get another dog in July, because dogs comfort us and I love the company of them. The new dog will never ever replace my other dog....but is a new chapter. I did make it a point to get a different breed, I felt getting the same breed would be (for me) like I was trying to replace him and that can't happen. It has helped a lot having the new dog.
The wonderful thing about getting another dog while you're still grieving is that the sadness over things you can no longer do with Reggie turns into hope for things you can share your new dog ❤️ I take my dog to all the places my childhood dog loved and I feel so happy sharing those memories with him, I can feel her spirit and how happy she would be that I am remembering her through him ❤️
Your face lit up and your whole demeanour lifted when you started talking about a new dog. Last year I lost my greyhound, and 8 months later welcomed home a new dog. Honestly, the whole process was incredibly emotional, and for the first six months it was was really challenging because I was still hurting so much. But I’m so happy now, I love my beautiful boy. Good luck finding your new friend ❤️
We lost our 14 year old pup to kidney failure earlier this year and it's been one of the most challenging and heartbreaking years of my life and I've survived a ton of messed up shit when I was young. I think about our girl every single day and when I see you talk about Reggie, I break down because I feel you 1000% and it just never gets easier. The only way I've been able to cope with her loss is by adopting a new pup. Our new pup has brought me so much happiness and while I still break down when I think of my old girl, having our new pup has helped with the healing. It's the best thing you could do to be able to have that joy in your life again! Now I cannot imagine having a life without these little angels!
Thank you so much for opening up on camera about this loss. I have been there myself (found myself in tears for about three months after my beloved pup's passing) and that pain is so very real. I also barely made it to the six month point where I just had to get another dog for companionship and love and laughter and joy. They bring sooo much into your life and I cannot wait for you to experience that joy again. It'll be different, but still so fun and heartfelt all the same.
I’m so happy you’ve decided to get a new dog, Estee! Reggie will always be with you, our pets love and legacy never die. and I’m sure he’s excited to see you get a new friend :)
Your mom is a wise woman❤️ I have been doing pug rescue here in Northern California for 17 years and all of the little rescue souls bring soooo much joy❤️ Good luck on your rescue adventure💥
Estee, you should leave your aloe in it’s current pot for now and repot in the spring! They like to be pretty cozy in their pot and won’t grow much in the winter months while it’s gone dormant. 🧡🌿
I’m sorry you’re hurting, Estée! The perfect rescue pup needs you as much as you need him or her. You’ll just know when it’s right. I totally remember Iben. I’ve been a longtime watcher since 2012. ❤️
Many moons ago I started watching you because of Reggie)) I know how difficult it is to lose a pup, but you must feel better for the fact that you gave him a beautiful life! Can’t wait for you to get another dog! It will heal you and provide happiness for both of you!
I’m so glad you came to the conclusion to adopt another dog ❤️ I felt the same way after my first cat passed away, that I could NEVER have another pet because the pain of losing a pet was too much to put myself through again, but a couple months later I realized the pain of never having another pet again was even more impossible to bear. These little beings bring so much joy and comfort into our lives! We are so lucky to get to have them.
The fact that you just cut to you being so real and crying while walking in public means so much to me. That is something I’ve unfortunately had to do more than a couple times haha. But I think it’s so amazing and authentic for you to share these moments with us. You’re one of my fave you tubers and have been for the past 5+ years! Thank you for being you, and keep on doing you ❤️
This had me tearing up. He wasn’t my dog but I miss Reggie too. I lost my dog this Spring and I really was so upset that you lost sweet Reggie. He’s forever a good boy. Even though this made me cry I appreciate your genuineness because I’ve been struggling to move on once my dog died and it’s just reassuring to not feel alone. I wish you lots of love and happiness Estee!
Estée, i just shed a tear with you when you got upset talking about Reggie. I totally know what you mean - my family dog passed away two Christmases ago and my parents swore they wouldn't get another but they did! And she makes me so happy, but we still miss our old girl. Sending big hugs!
Estee, I miss Reggie too. I’ll never forget how happy he was running on the beach. Thank you for saving him and sharing him with us. I can’t imagine what you are going through. When you speak of Reggie, it reminds me of how much I miss my puppy too. It’s been 8 months now, but I still think about him everyday.
I couldn’t relate to you more.. life without my boy Sam is just not... happy like it used to, but Recently we rescued two dogs and I’m starting to feel joy again, just being around other doggos... i think my heart is in the right place to start thinking about adopting again! Sending you so much love and positive energy in this journey!
You are one of the reasons my husband and I got a dog and we are so happy and obssesed with our little boi. Dogs make everything better! So excited for you.
Missing Reggie’s overbite. He melted my heart every time. ❤️ I’m happy you are getting a dog though, there is more love to give to these amazing creatures.
Always remember that he lived amazingly and comfortably with you! The emptiness is horrible but it does get better with time. Hope you can stay strong like you are!! ❤❤❤
This brought me to tears. I always think of sweet Reggie’s face when I watch your vlogs and it fills me with bittersweet joy because he was adorable. Just adorable and he was part of all of our packs. What a wonderful home you will give to another beautiful adopted soul like his. Another beautiful love story is waiting to unfold. 💛
I’m so happy you’re getting a new partner dog. You can never replace a previous pet but you can share your love with another dog. I’m all about the rescue/adoption as well.
I read tarot, have done for a few years (only for myself, not quite ready to read for others) every day I learn more, it really helps with my self care, it calls me out when I’m running away from something, and makes me step back sometimes to think.
We lost our family dog three years ago, and it was devastating. My parents just adopted a puppy, from a litter of a stray dog family friends took in, and it’s only been about a month, but I’ve seen such an improvement in their happiness and spirits. No dog will ever be what Reggie is to you, but they will fill another space in your life and your heart.
I put my dog down over 2 months ago and I really get you. It's not only a loss, but it's lonely living without a pet. I also have read tarot 5+ years ✌ it has changed my life so much for the better. xx
I cried with you when you talked about Reggie. I never feel alone when I have a dog with me to talk to & hang out with. I hope you can find another special dog to share your home with and I can’t wait to follow your journey as I did when you adopted Reggie! 🥰
Estee, I am so excited for you to get another heartbeat in your home! Noting matches the energy you get from a pup. Hoping it brings you so much happiness!
Estée! A new doggy in your life will bring you so much happiness and fulfilment. I can’t even tell you the heartache I felt when losing my first boy but luckily we had our other doggy there to cuddle through the tears (he also got depressed and needed the love) Reggie fell on all four paws with you. Another little rescue deserves some love now 💗
I'm so happy you're adopting another dog. I've recently lost two pets, a cat and a dog, and I know how heartbreaking it can be to be in a place you used to share without them and how much you miss them. This emotional vlogs are everything, thanks for sharing. All my love to you.
My heart breaks for you Estee. Losing a dog is so traumatic, I’ve been there. Even though you know it’s happened I find myself in moments of disbelief that almost leave me short of breath. Wanting to keep your heart open to that kind of love is amazing and so brave ❤️
Oh Estée I feel you so much! My Dog is a Great Dane and he’s really old and were happy about every day that we can still cuddle and love him. It’s so hard to replace another dog but no matter what happens Reggie will always be the one and only special dog!❤️
awww Estée, I know exactly how you feel! My dear dog passed away 2 years ago and I still miss him every day and have a hole in my heart in the shape of him. I feel completely the same as you about having so much love in your heart to give to another animal. I'm sure you will meet the greatest little doggie soul to take care of and give a home to, just like you did with Reggie 💖
I’m so very excited for you!! 💜 I lost my pup unexpectedly in March 2018.... I couldn’t imagine getting another dog but his litter sister actually needed a new home and so I got her the following month and she helped me TREMENDOUSLY in the coping process. You can never replace the love you have but there was still so much love to give to Wrigley (my old dog) and I knew I needed to pass it on to my new girl, Millie! ❤️ I think this is exactly how you’re feeling about Reggie and I promise you, it’ll be so helpful and you’ll have many new memories; without forgetting the old ones with Reggie! Lots of love and light to you!! ✨💕
You getting another dog is the greatest decision ever! No dog replaces another but no one should ever close their hearts to another love. The good times deserve every tear and sadness. In the end it was always worth it
My dog passed away 10.5 months ago from an illness and he was the most important thing to me. Nothing and no one could ever replace him but I’ve finally decided I’m ready to adopt another dog. I’m happy to hear that you decided to bring another companion into your home 💕
I'm not going to say "don't cry." It's good to cry. Reggie was a best friend, not just a pet. I always hate when people say "it's just an animal," because they aren't. They're family. However long it takes, cry when you need to, but know that it will get better and you have all of us to lean on :)
Estee, I went through a similar situation in 2017 when my 2 year old Shih Tzu passed away from a sudden illness. It tore me apart and I spent months and months crying over her. About a year later, I got another dog, a Havanese this time and while she could never replace my old dog, she gave me a new sense of love and family. The new one helps you remember the old without crying and more with smiles and laughter now. I also got a small tattoo to commemorate and remember the first dog. So go for it if you want to!! It helps heal
Losing a pet is so incredibly hard, I dread the day it comes for my own dog. I know Reggie was so loved and I’m so excited that you’ll be welcoming a new love into your home ❤️ Sending Love! Reggie will always be missed by all of us ❤️❤️
I remember talking to Scarlett (your makeup artist with Daisy) about your love for Reggie when I worked with her personally. I told her how although it seems at points almost unthinkable getting another little four legged friend, but honestly... once you’ve lit that love in your heart for a dog, you can’t blow it out. I’m glad you’ve found the strength to open your heart again to finding a new fluffy pal... you will not regret it. Sending a lot of love and happiness on your journey, xxx❤️
So happy you're ready to adopt another dog! It's so tough losing a (furry) companion. Everything about home feels darker, less light (I can only imagine how much tougher it is living alone too). We're always with you in spirit, Estée! 💛
Getting a new pet doesn't make you forget or stop loving the one that passed away. It makes your heart bigger with more love. It's never replacing, it's expanding ❤️❤️❤️
Girl, I started tearing up with you saying you’re getting a new dog. Congrats! Of course no one will ever replace Reggie but opening yourself up for a new furry child will fill in all the hurt with new memories ❤️
Awww I got so sad when you started crying but I’m glad that you’re open to adopting another dog. You have such a big and kind heart and any dog would be lucky to be in your life.
Yay, Estée! No dog could ever replace Reggie, but there are so many dogs looking for someone to love them and who want to love someone unconditionally that it just makes perfect sense. I think when you just want to love someone or something it's rather painful to have to hold all that love in. I can't wait to meet your new doggo!
All of my family pets passed while I was in beauty school out of town and once I moved back home I decided to adopt my first dog of my own and it was the most fulfilling feeling. I got my lab mix from a local rescue and she has made my heart so full. When my pets passed I couldn’t imagine getting another dog but after I had time to grieve and found the best match for me I’m so happy I did. 🧡
After two years of student life and not being able to have a doggo I moved purposefully and for the sole reason of adopting a dog we found on street. It's incredible having that waggy tail waiting for you when you get home and it forces you to go out and have that outside time. They're the best for mindfulness and being in the moment. I'll never be able to live without four legged friend ❤️
I'm so glad that you are getting another dog. It is a tremendous loss to lose a dearly loved furry family member. I hope the light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and closer. You've gone through a lot and it so clear that you have been working so hard on healing in more ways than one. I hope you know that we are cheering you on!
I cried with you. Reggie was one of a kind, but so happy you are ready to adopt another soul to love. Best wishes to you.
Thank you! He really was! 💕
I teared up too! Made me think of my kitty I had to put down on NY Eve last year. I think about and miss her all the time. Estee your new companion will be so lucky to have you. ❤️
It’s one of those things where “oh no, it’s not the right time. Things feel too hectic. I don’t want to replace Reggie”. But honestly your mum is right - it’s having another life to love, it’s never the same. Having a dog and a cat at the same time - it doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t ever replace someone. I’ve had my dogs and my next dog never replaced them. It’s just different. But having someone to love is the best feeling
Totally agree, its never the same and you'll never forget and the random tears still appear, but to love another puppy face-its what you need.
So true!
What a lovely thing to say🐾
I completely agree. It doesn't replace them or change your love for them, your heart just sort of grows and makes rooms for a new precious little soul.
"heartbeat in my home" will always stick with me from now on
same. what a beautiful thing to say.
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Omg I read this just as she said it
For me too, never heard it before, but absolutely love it❣
The best gift to give to your Reggie is to give another dog in need a loving home like you gave to him💜
Photo Girl I’m not sure why but that made me just cry. You are so right.❤️
This comment is so beautiful ❤️
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Estée Lalonde so much love to you, Estée💜💜💜
I concur!
We all miss reggie & can’t imagine how much you miss him, i know he’s happy & playing with all the pups in heaven ❤️
Jordan Lani Broadwell what a beautiful thing to say. My bernese mountain dog is up there too ❤️ miss her every day
Hannah yes i bet they are pals ❤️❤️
Jordan Lani Broadwell what a lovely thought :)
Hannah my chocolate lab is too. She passed within a week of Reggie. Miss her so much. 💗
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When my cat died, I was convinced I could never love an animal as much as I love her. Then I got my dog and I realised your heart just grows with each new love
Emily Rosin Aw this comment made me smile :)
Totally :) I was exactly the same after my cat died. I took me a couple of years to come around and open my heart to another animal. Now I have two cats and love them to bits.
'I need a heartbeat in my home' that GOT ME, sending you all the good vibes you deserve the world!!
I literally had the biggest smile on my face when you said you was getting another dog. This is such a good positive step for you. Your mum was right, a dog is the heartbeat of your home. So happy with your descion to adopt x
Estée, I just wanted to write and say that you are not alone, feeling like this... I've been watching your videos forever and I feel like I've grown into a different person with you and have gone through VERY similar experiences in life... I've been (and kind of still am) EXACTLY where you are right now and I understand all your emotions SO well... AND I'm sure that I'm one of many many people who share similar stories... All of this is just to say you are not alone, thank you for sharing, take it one day at a time, no one can tell you to feel better because it will happen in its own time... EVERYTHING will get better in time, don't let yourself forget that... ♥🌹
I feel exactly the same! And I get so annoyed when I see comments about the 'old essie'. She is changing and growing and hopefully so are all of us. Very much here for sharing and love.
Thank you ❤
Christina S. the loveliest comment I’ve ever read ❤️
I totally get being hesitant to adopt a dog (it feels like you’ll NEVER love another dog as much as you loved the dog that passed) ... But that’s the great thing about love, if you’re open to it, you just find a way to make more...
Exactly!
Ohhh Este my heart breaks for you. As a dog owner an a veterinarian I feel you so much! Another heartbeat will help you heal faster no doubt ❤️❤️❤️
I know there is a dog out there waiting for you and he will be so lucky to join your home 💛
I hope so!
Estee, I appreciate your openness on your TH-cam so much in regard to how you show such raw emotion. It broke my heart to see you cry, and I cried with you. Losing a pet is a loss like no other. I know how much you loved Reggie. I'm so excited for you to be getting another dog. Sending lots of love.
Having a dog to love and care for is one of the best things in life.I understand how you feel. I had a dog 10 years ago that I loved so much, and I lost him. I will never forget him, he is always in my heart. A week ago I adopted a dog,4 months old and her character is similar and so much fun. Taking care of her, loving her, going for walks in nature with her is the best thing. I observe how much her being in my life has changed my everyday, I am less in my head, I spend more time in nature, I give her so much love and in general i feel like having a dog is the best medicine for mental health. I feel so much gratitude for what she brings in my life and for all the love that I feel for her ❤️
Awww :"( cried when you talk about reggie, i miss that boy in your vlogs too ❤❤ but I'm happy that you decide to get another dog, you're such a great dog mom 😙
Aw thank you!
I understand your feelings about the sweet Reggie. They’re everything, they give love and don’t want anything back from us, they’re pure love.
Another dog deserves to be loved from you, and you deserve its love! You have such a big heart Estée x
Aw thank you
Omg I'm so happy for you! Adopting a dog seems like the best thing for you now. Healing after a loss of someone so special to you will of course take a long time. That kind of love is eternal and irreplaceable, but finding a new one to love will definitely bring in all the warmth and love that makes the loss more bearable, and it will give you both a happier life. What could be better?
When you talked about Reggie I had a maaaajor cry session. I know exactly that feeling and I can tell you that one other furry baby will help you go through that. Imagine this: crying on your phone thinking about you’re dead dog after a whole year and your much little second dog comes to you cuddling and giving you kisses and not leaving your side. They help us much more than ourselves. ❤️
My heart breaks for you to see how much you loved Reggie. I love how much of a bond you had together. There’s nothing like the love you have for your dog. Very happy to hear you’re going to get another dog. You have so much love to give and any dog that ends up with you will be so lucky.
Thank you!
Cried with you Estée! I recently lost a cat I've had for more than half my life - the pain makes you feel like you never want to do it again or love someone that much, but all those years of joy *with* them is worth it 🖤 x
you all probably dont give a shit but does any of you know a tool to log back into an instagram account..?
I stupidly forgot my account password. I would love any tricks you can offer me.
Getting another dog after this situation is such a healing experience.
My dog passed away two days before my birthday, I had her for 10 years and it was the best time.
When she died I was heartbroken and my parents got me another puppy a few months later (like 3 or 4) and honestly it’s hard to get used to it but giving all this love to your new fluffy friend helps you a lot and it makes you stronger.
I’m glad that you’re moving on and want to adopt a new puppy.
My heart breaks for you and your loss of Reggie. He was such a beautiful little soul.
He was!
I was crying with you. Losing any pet is so hard, they are truly part of the family. Reggie will be forever a part of your life. Just think of all that love you can give to a new dog 🐕 ❤️
When you said, "At first, I was there is no way I'm getting another dog" and then realizing that you're ready for another pup, reminded me of the grief process for a lot of people. At first it feels like you're trying to replace someone (if you "move on"), but then you realize (in time) you can love both. One doesn't replace your love for another. But you approached it in such a healthy way for yourself. I guess I wanted to comment because I think you're normalizing a part of grieving for others and letting them know it's okay/normal to love again. Sending you love.
In a world where so many people aim to be carbon copies, you are such a refreshing find. And I hope you know how absolutely and stunningly BEAUTIFUL that makes you Estee. Much love. xoxo
P.S. Please produce a video on how you cleanse your crystals.
Estée. I feel you so hard right now. I lost my dog tragically almost 3 years ago now. For one, it literally feels like YESTERDAY. The pain is still so real, the emptiness is still so big, and I just miss having my best friend. Funny, I actually have a picture from a few years back of her watching Reggie on the TV. I’m so happy that you’re in a place in you’re life where you are able to give love to another dog. I will get there again, too. Soon I hope!
Love from home ❤️🇨🇦
Aw so sorry x
Estée you've got me crying too! Reggie was the absolute sweetest and inspired so many people to adopt greyhounds. Sending love to you!
He really was!
When we lost my dog (after 15 years) I was devastated. I’ve never felt worse heartbreak than when I lost him. Getting a young pup a year later helped heal me in so many ways. Never replaced but it stretched my heart a bit more.
Oh Estée. I just want to give you a big hug. I do think pouring that love into another pup is the best way to honor our past pets.
When I lost my greyhound many years ago I had the exact same feeling about needing to rescue a different breed. We ended up with a terrier eleven years ago it helped in so many ways. It’s the hardest thing losing a friend. Sending lots of love.
My dog passed away after twenty years of joy. And I felt as though I am looking at myself by watching you. I won’t say cheer up. Because I know how it breaks me down every time I think of my dog and how much I miss him. I hear you Estee. I cried with you.
Estée, it made me so happy for you when you said you're gonna get another dog! Reggie will never be forgotten, he'd be happy about your decision as well. ❤️
Aw thank you!
Losing a pet is so ridiculously hard. I'm so glad that you be sharing your home and all your love to another dog.
Omg the way this vlog ended 😂. And on a more serious note, it's inspiring to see you being so open to what's coming next for you. You are such a loving soul. Xx
crying along with you. Another dog will never replace Reggie, but opening your heart to another dog can be so healing. Congrats on your journey.
Thank you for sharing this, Estee. I have spotted "The Hermit'" card in your spread and wasn't surprised to see it here - you have been sending a lot of Hermit's energy lately. It's a beautiful wisdom and solitude card of a growth into a new level and we see that you are definitely growing into your new stage. Cry as much as you need, tears cleanse your soul, tears will ship your past away. Thank you for being vulnerable and not being afraid to show it.
I feel you Estée. I cried thinking about Reggie and all of the times he touched my heart; I can't imagine. A home does need a heartbeat....love that. Your mom is wise just like you. Keep shining.
Estée you are one of my favourite people to watch. Been watching for years but I think recently you’ve been so open and honest and it’s great, you’re videos are so uplifting xx
I wrote to you before about loosing my granddog Bella in August. I cry everyday for her. I am so glad you are getting another furry friend. My daughter is getting another puppy in January. She is being born on November 11 and will be ready for pickup in January. We are so excited but will never forget our Bella girl. I just love your channel!
I am so happy to hear you are getting another dog. I lost a dog last March and truly felt so empty. I adopted another dog FINALLY last August. My new dog certainly does not replace the dogs of the past but definitely dissipates that empty feeling and I now feel a different love for this one. He gives me reason. Reason to come home after a long day, reason to care for something other than yourself, reason to hike on the weekends, etc. I am so happy for you! I am also so happy to hear you, like myself, are adopting! I don't know about London but here in America shelters are bursting at the seams with "unwanted" dogs. You go girl, you deserve it!
I completely relate, my beloved dog passed away in May. It has broken my heart, I shed tears often. I did get another dog in July, because dogs comfort us and I love the company of them. The new dog will never ever replace my other dog....but is a new chapter. I did make it a point to get a different breed, I felt getting the same breed would be (for me) like I was trying to replace him and that can't happen. It has helped a lot having the new dog.
The wonderful thing about getting another dog while you're still grieving is that the sadness over things you can no longer do with Reggie turns into hope for things you can share your new dog ❤️ I take my dog to all the places my childhood dog loved and I feel so happy sharing those memories with him, I can feel her spirit and how happy she would be that I am remembering her through him ❤️
Dogs really do make life complete! Happy you’re getting another dog 💜💜💜💜 congrats !
They really do!
Your face lit up and your whole demeanour lifted when you started talking about a new dog. Last year I lost my greyhound, and 8 months later welcomed home a new dog. Honestly, the whole process was incredibly emotional, and for the first six months it was was really challenging because I was still hurting so much. But I’m so happy now, I love my beautiful boy. Good luck finding your new friend ❤️
We lost our 14 year old pup to kidney failure earlier this year and it's been one of the most challenging and heartbreaking years of my life and I've survived a ton of messed up shit when I was young. I think about our girl every single day and when I see you talk about Reggie, I break down because I feel you 1000% and it just never gets easier. The only way I've been able to cope with her loss is by adopting a new pup. Our new pup has brought me so much happiness and while I still break down when I think of my old girl, having our new pup has helped with the healing. It's the best thing you could do to be able to have that joy in your life again! Now I cannot imagine having a life without these little angels!
Thank you so much for opening up on camera about this loss.
I have been there myself (found myself in tears for about three months after my beloved pup's passing) and that pain is so very real.
I also barely made it to the six month point where I just had to get another dog for companionship and love and laughter and joy. They bring sooo much into your life and I cannot wait for you to experience that joy again. It'll be different, but still so fun and heartfelt all the same.
I’m so happy you’ve decided to get a new dog, Estee! Reggie will always be with you, our pets love and legacy never die. and I’m sure he’s excited to see you get a new friend :)
Your mom is a wise woman❤️ I have been doing pug rescue here in Northern California for 17 years and all of the little rescue souls bring soooo much joy❤️
Good luck on your rescue adventure💥
When I first watched your vlogs, what I loved the most is seeing you take Reggie for his walks around London and to the park ❤️
Estee, you should leave your aloe in it’s current pot for now and repot in the spring! They like to be pretty cozy in their pot and won’t grow much in the winter months while it’s gone dormant. 🧡🌿
I’m sorry you’re hurting, Estée! The perfect rescue pup needs you as much as you need him or her. You’ll just know when it’s right. I totally remember Iben. I’ve been a longtime watcher since 2012. ❤️
Many moons ago I started watching you because of Reggie))
I know how difficult it is to lose a pup, but you must feel better for the fact that you gave him a beautiful life!
Can’t wait for you to get another dog! It will heal you and provide happiness for both of you!
I’m so glad you came to the conclusion to adopt another dog ❤️ I felt the same way after my first cat passed away, that I could NEVER have another pet because the pain of losing a pet was too much to put myself through again, but a couple months later I realized the pain of never having another pet again was even more impossible to bear. These little beings bring so much joy and comfort into our lives! We are so lucky to get to have them.
I’m so happy your going to adopt!! I actually yelled yah!! When you announced it!
The fact that you just cut to you being so real and crying while walking in public means so much to me. That is something I’ve unfortunately had to do more than a couple times haha. But I think it’s so amazing and authentic for you to share these moments with us. You’re one of my fave you tubers and have been for the past 5+ years! Thank you for being you, and keep on doing you ❤️
Just really appreciate you being here in this space it helps me so much and I am sending love to you
This had me tearing up. He wasn’t my dog but I miss Reggie too. I lost my dog this Spring and I really was so upset that you lost sweet Reggie. He’s forever a good boy. Even though this made me cry I appreciate your genuineness because I’ve been struggling to move on once my dog died and it’s just reassuring to not feel alone. I wish you lots of love and happiness Estee!
Sending love your way!
Estée, i just shed a tear with you when you got upset talking about Reggie. I totally know what you mean - my family dog passed away two Christmases ago and my parents swore they wouldn't get another but they did! And she makes me so happy, but we still miss our old girl. Sending big hugs!
You make me tear up whenever you talk about Reggie!! I never even met him in person but man I miss seeing him with you!
Estee, I miss Reggie too. I’ll never forget how happy he was running on the beach. Thank you for saving him and sharing him with us. I can’t imagine what you are going through. When you speak of Reggie, it reminds me of how much I miss my puppy too. It’s been 8 months now, but I still think about him everyday.
I couldn’t relate to you more.. life without my boy Sam is just not... happy like it used to, but Recently we rescued two dogs and I’m starting to feel joy again, just being around other doggos... i think my heart is in the right place to start thinking about adopting again! Sending you so much love and positive energy in this journey!
You are one of the reasons my husband and I got a dog and we are so happy and obssesed with our little boi. Dogs make everything better! So excited for you.
Missing Reggie’s overbite. He melted my heart every time. ❤️ I’m happy you are getting a dog though, there is more love to give to these amazing creatures.
I miss it too!
Always remember that he lived amazingly and comfortably with you! The emptiness is horrible but it does get better with time. Hope you can stay strong like you are!! ❤❤❤
This brought me to tears. I always think of sweet Reggie’s face when I watch your vlogs and it fills me with bittersweet joy because he was adorable. Just adorable and he was part of all of our packs. What a wonderful home you will give to another beautiful adopted soul like his. Another beautiful love story is waiting to unfold. 💛
Girl. I’m so excited for you. You DO have a lot of love to give and any pup you have in your home will have their best life. 😭🥰💖
I’m so happy you’re getting a new partner dog. You can never replace a previous pet but you can share your love with another dog. I’m all about the rescue/adoption as well.
I read tarot, have done for a few years (only for myself, not quite ready to read for others) every day I learn more, it really helps with my self care, it calls me out when I’m running away from something, and makes me step back sometimes to think.
We lost our family dog three years ago, and it was devastating. My parents just adopted a puppy, from a litter of a stray dog family friends took in, and it’s only been about a month, but I’ve seen such an improvement in their happiness and spirits. No dog will ever be what Reggie is to you, but they will fill another space in your life and your heart.
I put my dog down over 2 months ago and I really get you. It's not only a loss, but it's lonely living without a pet. I also have read tarot 5+ years ✌ it has changed my life so much for the better. xx
I cried with you when you talked about Reggie. I never feel alone when I have a dog with me to talk to & hang out with. I hope you can find another special dog to share your home with and I can’t wait to follow your journey as I did when you adopted Reggie! 🥰
Estee, I am so excited for you to get another heartbeat in your home! Noting matches the energy you get from a pup. Hoping it brings you so much happiness!
Omg, I’ve been thinking about having a tarot reading for a week now, what a coincidence! Sending love from Brazil! 💗
I don’t mean to tell you what to do but be wise of such things like this. No one know your future but God alone since He created you.
Estée! A new doggy in your life will bring you so much happiness and fulfilment. I can’t even tell you the heartache I felt when losing my first boy but luckily we had our other doggy there to cuddle through the tears (he also got depressed and needed the love) Reggie fell on all four paws with you. Another little rescue deserves some love now 💗
I think you’d be such a great mom to your new dog, and your mother is right, a heartbeat can be so healing around you ♥️
Thank you!
I'm so happy you're adopting another dog. I've recently lost two pets, a cat and a dog, and I know how heartbreaking it can be to be in a place you used to share without them and how much you miss them. This emotional vlogs are everything, thanks for sharing. All my love to you.
So sorry to hear that :(
My heart breaks for you Estee. Losing a dog is so traumatic, I’ve been there. Even though you know it’s happened I find myself in moments of disbelief that almost leave me short of breath. Wanting to keep your heart open to that kind of love is amazing and so brave ❤️
Sitting on my couch crying with you and for you. There’s one lucky pup out there and you’re gonna change their world as they will yours.❤️❤️❤️
Oh Estée I feel you so much!
My Dog is a Great Dane and he’s really old and were happy about every day that we can still cuddle and love him.
It’s so hard to replace another dog but no matter what happens Reggie will always be the one and only special dog!❤️
awww Estée, I know exactly how you feel! My dear dog passed away 2 years ago and I still miss him every day and have a hole in my heart in the shape of him. I feel completely the same as you about having so much love in your heart to give to another animal. I'm sure you will meet the greatest little doggie soul to take care of and give a home to, just like you did with Reggie 💖
This made me cry too😪. Wish you all the strenght to push through Estee, you’re such a lovely, inspiring woman 😍
I’m so very excited for you!! 💜 I lost my pup unexpectedly in March 2018.... I couldn’t imagine getting another dog but his litter sister actually needed a new home and so I got her the following month and she helped me TREMENDOUSLY in the coping process. You can never replace the love you have but there was still so much love to give to Wrigley (my old dog) and I knew I needed to pass it on to my new girl, Millie! ❤️ I think this is exactly how you’re feeling about Reggie and I promise you, it’ll be so helpful and you’ll have many new memories; without forgetting the old ones with Reggie!
Lots of love and light to you!! ✨💕
You getting another dog is the greatest decision ever! No dog replaces another but no one should ever close their hearts to another love. The good times deserve every tear and sadness. In the end it was always worth it
Totally get it about how emotional losing a poochie is. Its the right decision to get a new doggo. Xx
YES to the NEW dog! It would be a waste of love if you didn’t! I‘m so so excited for you!!! ❤️
My dog passed away 10.5 months ago from an illness and he was the most important thing to me. Nothing and no one could ever replace him but I’ve finally decided I’m ready to adopt another dog. I’m happy to hear that you decided to bring another companion into your home 💕
I'm not going to say "don't cry." It's good to cry. Reggie was a best friend, not just a pet. I always hate when people say "it's just an animal," because they aren't. They're family. However long it takes, cry when you need to, but know that it will get better and you have all of us to lean on :)
Estee, I went through a similar situation in 2017 when my 2 year old Shih Tzu passed away from a sudden illness. It tore me apart and I spent months and months crying over her. About a year later, I got another dog, a Havanese this time and while she could never replace my old dog, she gave me a new sense of love and family. The new one helps you remember the old without crying and more with smiles and laughter now. I also got a small tattoo to commemorate and remember the first dog. So go for it if you want to!! It helps heal
Losing a pet is so incredibly hard, I dread the day it comes for my own dog. I know Reggie was so loved and I’m so excited that you’ll be welcoming a new love into your home ❤️ Sending Love! Reggie will always be missed by all of us ❤️❤️
I remember talking to Scarlett (your makeup artist with Daisy) about your love for Reggie when I worked with her personally.
I told her how although it seems at points almost unthinkable getting another little four legged friend, but honestly... once you’ve lit that love in your heart for a dog, you can’t blow it out.
I’m glad you’ve found the strength to open your heart again to finding a new fluffy pal... you will not regret it.
Sending a lot of love and happiness on your journey, xxx❤️
So happy you're ready to adopt another dog! It's so tough losing a (furry) companion. Everything about home feels darker, less light (I can only imagine how much tougher it is living alone too). We're always with you in spirit, Estée! 💛
Getting a new pet doesn't make you forget or stop loving the one that passed away. It makes your heart bigger with more love. It's never replacing, it's expanding ❤️❤️❤️
Girl, I started tearing up with you saying you’re getting a new dog. Congrats! Of course no one will ever replace Reggie but opening yourself up for a new furry child will fill in all the hurt with new memories ❤️
Awww I got so sad when you started crying but I’m glad that you’re open to adopting another dog. You have such a big and kind heart and any dog would be lucky to be in your life.
Yay, Estée! No dog could ever replace Reggie, but there are so many dogs looking for someone to love them and who want to love someone unconditionally that it just makes perfect sense. I think when you just want to love someone or something it's rather painful to have to hold all that love in. I can't wait to meet your new doggo!
All of my family pets passed while I was in beauty school out of town and once I moved back home I decided to adopt my first dog of my own and it was the most fulfilling feeling. I got my lab mix from a local rescue and she has made my heart so full. When my pets passed I couldn’t imagine getting another dog but after I had time to grieve and found the best match for me I’m so happy I did. 🧡
After two years of student life and not being able to have a doggo I moved purposefully and for the sole reason of adopting a dog we found on street. It's incredible having that waggy tail waiting for you when you get home and it forces you to go out and have that outside time. They're the best for mindfulness and being in the moment. I'll never be able to live without four legged friend ❤️
I’m so happy you’ve decided to bring another dog into your home. There is really nothing like it.
I'm so glad that you are getting another dog. It is a tremendous loss to lose a dearly loved furry family member. I hope the light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and closer. You've gone through a lot and it so clear that you have been working so hard on healing in more ways than one. I hope you know that we are cheering you on!
whenever i hear you mention his name i cry every. single. time. lmao 🥺 missed his cute lil snaggle tooth 💕