Hello soul family, Luckily. I found this channel while I was going through dark night of the soul. I thought I was going crazy. I was all alone and trapped in the darkest dark. The only way to describe it was dying from the inside out. I tried to speak to people but there was no one. No one cared. The deepest darkest loneliest place. That’s the place where what you do next , is everything. If you resist, you remain trapped. If you surrender. You can start to rise above that darkness. I was gaining weight, using cannabis a little too much , isolated. This has been years in the making. I had an abusive childhood. I was an adult before I was an adult. I learned how to read people. I learned how to make adults laugh. If they were laughing and happy it meant I was safe. I found my solace in the woods. We’d go away and the adults would drink and I was alone. All the time. So the forest became my friend. The animals became my family. That’s how I’ve always lived. I tried so hard to fit in. I got married and had a child. It never felt right. I had always felt like I was playing a part in a movie. Being a fraud. I’d had much abuse as a child. So many times , so close to the edge always being saved. A car hit me as I played in the fire hydrant. It stopped as it touched my leg. I only had a bruise. Men attacked me so many times as a child . I was saved. Always before things escalated. I ended up in the hospital from one man. I was saved. I look at those things in my past as good. Because it taught me how to trust my intuition. It taught me empathy . Compassion. I have always talked to God and my angels. I never had anyone else. I speak to them like they are friends. I’m grateful. All those traumas made me who I am now. I am love despite all the hate I’ve endured. I choose to be love. As I got older I tried harder to fit in. Playing my part. Always feeling different. Misunderstood. I was bullied in school for not having nice clothes. I’ve always had the universe behind me. Not religion. My marriage ended. Not his fault he’s a great guy. We’re still friends. I just could not be in that mold any longer. Pretending to be someone I’m not. I had a crap job I hated when Covid hit. We went into lockdown. As Covid was getting bad, my mother was dying. My mother was extremely abusive. I still loved her. Deep down I knew something happened to her that made her that way. I became her parent. I forgave her a very long time ago. My daughter didn’t understand how I could. At the same time my neighbor was blasting his sub woofer over my bed from midnight till morning. I was cracking. I was shutting down. That’s where it started. It lasted years. I was obsessed with death. The fear of it. I went into such a terribly dark place and stayed there for years. I lost myself. I begged for someone. Anyone. To please hear me. Please see me. No one did. This past spring I decided to get out on the trials with my tiny pup. Nature has always been magical for me. Seeing the wild animals and insects. That was what life was. In the most perfect state. These were my friends. I felt them and they felt me. They saw me. For me. I started taking photos of the clouds and a tree I have become obsessed with. I started to see orbs. Turquoise orbs. I googled and knew that sometimes that happens with iPhones. I didn’t care. I felt something too. There WAS something there with me. Sometimes it was there and other times not. One day I didn’t take any photos and decided to spin around and snap only the one directly behind me. The orb was there. Large and right behind me. I blew some of the photos up and they look nothing like the ones I’ve seen online from other people iPhones. I posted them in the community chat here. That’s when I found this channel. I started to have weird things happen. Crying deep sorrowful bouts but not for me. The state of humanity. The planet. It happened every day. So much pain and sorrow. Some for the child within. I wanted desperately to heal the world. Then came the ringing in the ears. The body buzzing. The consecutive numbers. It’s escalated. The ringing is less frequent now. It would go from one ear to the other. The consecutive numbers are all day every day . The body buzzing is worse. The feeling like bugs are crawling on the top of my hair. The itchy skin. Foods I can no longer eat suddenly. Weight loss. I lost ten pounds. I wasn’t trying to as I wasn’t overweight. I’m not sure what point I’m at. I’m still a little confused. I’m trying to help a friend who is older and homeless with his cat. He’s being resistant and has a gambling problem. He has the means to be okay but placed himself in a bad situation. It’s been months I’ve been looking for a place for him and he just manages to demolish it. This is where I have a problem. I’ve made myself sick. I have flu symptoms but not the flu . I know it’s because of the stress for the past few months from trying to help someone. He calls me crying multiple times a day. It’s frustrating. Yet I can’t turn my back. Everyone says walk away. What if I’m all this person has? I myself have a hard time. I have not been able to find a job and gave up. I hated my old job anyway. Now I care for pets and sell art and have devised alternative ways or making enough to survive. Enough to cover rent, bills and give my pup all she needs. Shes my world. I am still isolated more or less but only because it’s hard for me to play my role too often. I do it. Then I have to come home and be who I truly am. Raw. Flawed. Interacting in the world is like voluntarily jumping into the matrix while understanding that is in fact what you’re doing. Only now you are aware. Definitely don’t even think of sharing your newfound ideas to those you love. They will only smile and nod wondering how you managed to escape a psych ward. No one who hasn’t a clue will ever understand. They will only condemn you for not being the same. Even my own daughter. I’ve intercepted the trauma from my family.y daughter had a normal life. I’m there to help my little sister break out of the darkness of a very toxic and abusive family. It’s exhausting. People want to tell me their problems. It gets so heavy and overwhelming. The traumas of others. Then it becomes mine. If that makes sense. I used to obsess about why I was unlovable. How I could change to make them love me. Then I woke up. I fell in love. With myself. The universe has cared for me from the moment I was born. Protected me. Shielded me. At 5 I floated across a lake in a blow up canoe. All the adults were in the cabin drinking. I could go on and on with stories of how something always intervened. I have always known I wasn’t alone. I just forgot as I became older and tried to become part of the matrix. It’s still challenging. I get lonely sometimes. I don’t date. I’ve settled for people that were not good for me in the past. I prefer now to be alone until I feel that connection from the soul level. Especially now. No matter what we are all loved. You are loved. Always. 💙🦋
Thank you for sharing your story. I was deeply moved by reading it and share similar experiences. It's a whole new world when you wake up to who you truly are and that the universe has been with us this whole time! ✨love and blessings to you my friend!
Exactly what I was experiencing.. Dark night of the soul made me question my whole existence and view of my soul journey. Because suddenly I saw everything from a "raw perspective". I couldn't recognize my friends again, the way they responded to me because I was so terrified what I was going thru that moment.. damn! When the soul cries... that's on another level. I stopped talking about what I'm going thru. Anxiety hit deep and I thought maybe I became schizophrenic?? Maybe what i'm experiencing is actually made up in my mind and tons of hallucinations? I even thought that I died months ago and maybe this is something I'm just "dreaming???" Sometimes I cannot believe we were chosen to be part of this journey. It literally sounds too good to be true... but it's real! We suffered enough but continued to keep our heart gold and pure, always saw the good in the people. And still see. Even if they hurt us. So, what you have written just hit so deep. I'm glad y'all here and we are in the same boat. Sending you and all the others so much love, strength and peace.
@@alienzzexist Maybe in a way we’re all spiritual warriors. Embedded in us. Some simply choose to ignore it. Some of us catch a glimpse of something. From inside of us. Reconnecting to something believed to be outside of us. Merging. The hardest lesson is that you can’t wake anyone up. It’s heartbreaking. Watching a hamster on a wheel to nowhere. Then the mind fleets back to. Am I just crazy? Maybe? Is this just from too many sci fi movies? Rationalizing. I’ve learned one thing. Recently. Well. Actually as I was pecking this out. That I’m only really measuring myself against the masses. Assuming that’s the norm. How can that be when it’s so tragic? So wrong. So much pain sorrow and suffering? Accepted. Raising the bar on cruelty. If this reality is an illusion. Then this is where Id choose to reside . Immersed in this insanity. 💙🦋
This video explained so much because I am experiencing a lot of these systems and have recently met my twin flame. I've also been seeing 1010, 1212 and 1111 on a daily basis. 🙏🏾
I've always wondered why i would have a strong desire to go "home." Honestly i feel like I've been here forever. I do not wish to return back here when I'm gone.
Now is the time to pursue GOD like never before. Draw close to GOD and he will draw close to you. We should love GOD with all our hearts. One day very soon, Judgment of this very heart of ours will be Judge. And if you're bless you will bw Judge by Jesus.
Just had three or four days of severe pressure in my head, aches in the back of my head. Pain in shoulders, waking often in early hours and lack of energy. . Feeling better now.
This video explains many things which I am going through and there is no one I will talk about these things,thanks for making this video,I can understand myself better lots of love ❤️
I have a form of epilepsy that I've always said is something spiritual. Do you think as I'm ascending the vibration is too much and causing seizures on occasion? Seizures are a level of consciousness, and when they happen it's ALL VIBRATION!!! Energy....❤❤❤😊
Greetings everyone, Love this video. It definitely doesn't do any harm to listen to this type of material on repeat. I have two questions: 1. Does any one hear experience any ear ringing/muffled voices in the ear canal? 2. Your heart literally feels like it's hurting or bursting? Or am I the only one experiencing it? I've eliminated the medical causal possibilities. Help? Please?
The ear ringing, yes! It is on and off and has lasted a year or longer. The heart bursting is something I started feeling maybe a year ago, not often though.
6 months ago I had constant ringing in my ears but now that has something to stop I guess I'm moving further on in my spiritual awareness consciousness to the fact that I'm seeing energy now lights Shadow smoke I have the cold chills sometimes I hear the muffled voices but I keep seeing light
Some are awakend and we will see the lights soon in this month of the 7th density let's say little help guidance but they are coming down to earth this time to let off a powerful blast of holy light and all in the world shall see truth and all will awaken end of September keep ur eyes at night on the sky for the last week of September LOGHT WARRIORS AND STAR SEEDS QND ALL LOVING BEINGS LOVE LIGHT AND ONE WE ALL ARE WITH THE DIVINE CREATOR NAMASTE
Thank you for confirming that I'm not going crazy. From the week before last, I've been smelling cigarettes out of the blue when there's no one smoking to a point that I could taste the smell at the back of my tongue. It eventually stopped last week. The muscle spasms have been unexpected. The wooshing in the ear has been happening as well. I've been waking up between 01h45 and 01h55 this week. Last week, I suddenly felt anxious for no reason.
phew! sometimes i rlly have to remind myself i’m not going crazy and insane🥲. met my twin flame this year… turns out it’s much more than “just” a twin flame journey. this video popped up just the right time lol. Been crying 5 mins ago because i felt so stuck. Now i’m motivated again😆
Hello soul family,
Luckily. I found this channel while I was going through dark night of the soul. I thought I was going crazy. I was all alone and trapped in the darkest dark. The only way to describe it was dying from the inside out. I tried to speak to people but there was no one. No one cared. The deepest darkest loneliest place. That’s the place where what you do next , is everything. If you resist, you remain trapped. If you surrender. You can start to rise above that darkness. I was gaining weight, using cannabis a little too much , isolated. This has been years in the making. I had an abusive childhood. I was an adult before I was an adult. I learned how to read people. I learned how to make adults laugh. If they were laughing and happy it meant I was safe. I found my solace in the woods. We’d go away and the adults would drink and I was alone. All the time. So the forest became my friend. The animals became my family. That’s how I’ve always lived. I tried so hard to fit in. I got married and had a child. It never felt right. I had always felt like I was playing a part in a movie. Being a fraud. I’d had much abuse as a child. So many times , so close to the edge always being saved. A car hit me as I played in the fire hydrant. It stopped as it touched my leg. I only had a bruise. Men attacked me so many times as a child . I was saved. Always before things escalated. I ended up in the hospital from one man. I was saved. I look at those things in my past as good. Because it taught me how to trust my intuition. It taught me empathy
. Compassion. I have always talked to God and my angels. I never had anyone else. I speak to them like they are friends. I’m grateful. All those traumas made me who I am now. I am love despite all the hate I’ve endured. I choose to be love. As I got older I tried harder to fit in. Playing my part. Always feeling different. Misunderstood. I was bullied in school for not having nice clothes. I’ve always had the universe behind me. Not religion. My marriage ended. Not his fault he’s a great guy. We’re still friends. I just could not be in that mold any longer. Pretending to be someone I’m not.
I had a crap job I hated when Covid hit. We went into lockdown. As Covid was getting bad, my mother was dying. My mother was extremely abusive. I still loved her. Deep down I knew something happened to her that made her that way. I became her parent. I forgave her a very long time ago. My daughter didn’t understand how I could. At the same time my neighbor was blasting his sub woofer over my bed from midnight till morning. I was cracking. I was shutting down. That’s where it started. It lasted years. I was obsessed with death. The fear of it.
I went into such a terribly dark place and stayed there for years. I lost myself. I begged for someone. Anyone. To please hear me. Please see me. No one did.
This past spring I decided to get out on the trials with my tiny pup. Nature has always been magical for me. Seeing the wild animals and insects. That was what life was. In the most perfect state. These were my friends. I felt them and they felt me. They saw me. For me.
I started taking photos of the clouds and a tree I have become obsessed with. I started to see orbs. Turquoise orbs. I googled and knew that sometimes that happens with iPhones. I didn’t care. I felt something too. There WAS something there with me. Sometimes it was there and other times not. One day I didn’t take any photos and decided to spin around and snap only the one directly behind me. The orb was there. Large and right behind me. I blew some of the photos up and they look nothing like the ones I’ve seen online from other people iPhones. I posted them in the community chat here.
That’s when I found this channel.
I started to have weird things happen. Crying deep sorrowful bouts but not for me. The state of humanity. The planet. It happened every day. So much pain and sorrow. Some for the child within. I wanted desperately to heal the world. Then came the ringing in the ears. The body buzzing. The consecutive numbers. It’s escalated. The ringing is less frequent now. It would go from one ear to the other. The consecutive numbers are all day every day . The body buzzing is worse. The feeling like bugs are crawling on the top of my hair. The itchy skin. Foods I can no longer eat suddenly. Weight loss. I lost ten pounds. I wasn’t trying to as I wasn’t overweight. I’m not sure what point I’m at. I’m still a little confused. I’m trying to help a friend who is older and homeless with his cat. He’s being resistant and has a gambling problem. He has the means to be okay but placed himself in a bad situation. It’s been months I’ve been looking for a place for him and he just manages to demolish it. This is where I have a problem. I’ve made myself sick. I have flu symptoms but not the flu . I know it’s because of the stress for the past few months from trying to help someone. He calls me crying multiple times a day. It’s frustrating. Yet I can’t turn my back. Everyone says walk away. What if I’m all this person has? I myself have a hard time. I have not been able to find a job and gave up. I hated my old job anyway. Now I care for pets and sell art and have devised alternative ways or making enough to survive. Enough to cover rent, bills and give my pup all she needs. Shes my world. I am still isolated more or less but only because it’s hard for me to play my role too often. I do it. Then I have to come home and be who I truly am. Raw. Flawed. Interacting in the world is like voluntarily jumping into the matrix while understanding that is in fact what you’re doing. Only now you are aware. Definitely don’t even think of sharing your newfound ideas to those you love. They will only smile and nod wondering how you managed to escape a psych ward. No one who hasn’t a clue will ever understand. They will only condemn you for not being the same. Even my own daughter. I’ve intercepted the trauma from my family.y daughter had a normal life. I’m there to help my little sister break out of the darkness of a very toxic and abusive family. It’s exhausting. People want to tell me their problems. It gets so heavy and overwhelming. The traumas of others. Then it becomes mine. If that makes sense. I used to obsess about why I was unlovable. How I could change to make them love me. Then I woke up. I fell in love. With myself. The universe has cared for me from the moment I was born. Protected me. Shielded me. At 5 I floated across a lake in a blow up canoe. All the adults were in the cabin drinking. I could go on and on with stories of how something always intervened. I have always known I wasn’t alone. I just forgot as I became older and tried to become part of the matrix. It’s still challenging. I get lonely sometimes. I don’t date. I’ve settled for people that were not good for me in the past. I prefer now to be alone until I feel that connection from the soul level. Especially now. No matter what we are all loved. You are loved. Always. 💙🦋
Thank you for sharing your story. I was deeply moved by reading it and share similar experiences. It's a whole new world when you wake up to who you truly are and that the universe has been with us this whole time! ✨love and blessings to you my friend!
Exactly what I was experiencing.. Dark night of the soul made me question my whole existence and view of my soul journey. Because suddenly I saw everything from a "raw perspective". I couldn't recognize my friends again, the way they responded to me because I was so terrified what I was going thru that moment.. damn! When the soul cries... that's on another level. I stopped talking about what I'm going thru.
Anxiety hit deep and I thought maybe I became schizophrenic?? Maybe what i'm experiencing is actually made up in my mind and tons of hallucinations? I even thought that I died months ago and maybe this is something I'm just "dreaming???" Sometimes I cannot believe we were chosen to be part of this journey. It literally sounds too good to be true... but it's real! We suffered enough but continued to keep our heart gold and pure, always saw the good in the people. And still see. Even if they hurt us. So, what you have written just hit so deep. I'm glad y'all here and we are in the same boat. Sending you and all the others so much love, strength and peace.
@@alienzzexist Maybe in a way we’re all spiritual warriors. Embedded in us. Some simply choose to ignore it. Some of us catch a glimpse of something. From inside of us. Reconnecting to something believed to be outside of us. Merging. The hardest lesson is that you can’t wake anyone up. It’s heartbreaking. Watching a hamster on a wheel to nowhere. Then the mind fleets back to. Am I just crazy? Maybe? Is this just from too many sci fi movies? Rationalizing. I’ve learned one thing. Recently. Well. Actually as I was pecking this out. That I’m only really measuring myself against the masses. Assuming that’s the norm. How can that be when it’s so tragic? So wrong. So much pain sorrow and suffering? Accepted. Raising the bar on cruelty. If this reality is an illusion. Then this is where Id choose to reside . Immersed in this insanity. 💙🦋
Thank you for sharing.
God Bless you!
🙏
Thank you.
Your experience answers most of my questions.
Right after I was reading about the Blue Rays...we are all connected!!!🎉 Thank you....all of us will awaken soon.
This video explained so much because I am experiencing a lot of these systems and have recently met my twin flame. I've also been seeing 1010, 1212 and 1111 on a daily basis. 🙏🏾
Agreed I was thinking damn I hope I'm not pregnant lol 😅 frfr 🤷🏾♀️💯
Right! 🤣@@TheRebrand_RebuildingCommunity
Yes I am a blue ray..star seed..light bearer...I am so grateful no matter how hard the journey may get sometimes ❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉
I've always wondered why i would have a strong desire to go "home." Honestly i feel like I've been here forever. I do not wish to return back here when I'm gone.
Now is the time to pursue GOD like never before. Draw close to GOD and he will draw close to you. We should love GOD with all our hearts.
One day very soon, Judgment of this very heart of ours will be Judge. And if you're bless you will bw Judge by Jesus.
I have almost all of the symptom. Thank you for explaining. Joy to all lightworkers as joy seems to be the way to overcome some of the sypmtoms.
Grand Rising Gods & Goddesses
My crown has been tingling
It's normal, I have been feeling that as well...⭐💜
Grand Rising Family…love and blessings to all ❤
Just had three or four days of severe pressure in my head, aches in the back of my head. Pain in shoulders, waking often in early hours and lack of energy. . Feeling better now.
Thank you....❤❤❤
Wow! that explains a lot
This video explains many things which I am going through and there is no one I will talk about these things,thanks for making this video,I can understand myself better lots of love ❤️
Yes, same here! sendimg you love
True ♥️🙏♥️
Experiencing some of these symptoms now.
Amen Jesus
Loved this video! The message was the confirmation I needed.
Thank you 🙏🏾 😊❤️
Thank you so so so much amen
This video resonates so well. Thank you 💞
Yes , this explains a lot!
Love and light ❤️🙏👑
Thank you
Thank you ❤ Amazing I've experienced all of the above.
I have a form of epilepsy that I've always said is something spiritual. Do you think as I'm ascending the vibration is too much and causing seizures on occasion? Seizures are a level of consciousness, and when they happen it's ALL VIBRATION!!! Energy....❤❤❤😊
Greetings everyone,
Love this video. It definitely doesn't do any harm to listen to this type of material on repeat.
I have two questions:
1. Does any one hear experience any ear ringing/muffled voices in the ear canal?
2. Your heart literally feels like it's hurting or bursting?
Or am I the only one experiencing it?
I've eliminated the medical causal possibilities.
Help? Please?
The ear ringing, yes! It is on and off and has lasted a year or longer. The heart bursting is something I started feeling maybe a year ago, not often though.
@@veronicasanacion
Thank you for sharing. Now I feel a bit more sane.
Yep🙏🏾
6 months ago I had constant ringing in my ears but now that has something to stop I guess I'm moving further on in my spiritual awareness consciousness to the fact that I'm seeing energy now lights Shadow smoke I have the cold chills sometimes I hear the muffled voices but I keep seeing light
I always get up at 3 am
Nothing good comes easy. ❤
Amen 🙏
Leave the shadow/smoke alone. Dont acknowledge you know something is there. Dont even think it. Just think “I wonder what that was.”
This me 👍
I m feeling more negativity around me 🥺
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾💫💫💫 7:18
John 14:6.
Forget about the bible, we are not talking about religion..
GOD bless you ☺️❣️
I love u my brother
Ive experienced alot of these ❤
🙌💜
Some are awakend and we will see the lights soon in this month of the 7th density let's say little help guidance but they are coming down to earth this time to let off a powerful blast of holy light and all in the world shall see truth and all will awaken end of September keep ur eyes at night on the sky for the last week of September LOGHT WARRIORS AND STAR SEEDS QND ALL LOVING BEINGS LOVE LIGHT AND ONE WE ALL ARE WITH THE DIVINE CREATOR NAMASTE
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How long will these symptoms last?
Thank you for confirming that I'm not going crazy. From the week before last, I've been smelling cigarettes out of the blue when there's no one smoking to a point that I could taste the smell at the back of my tongue. It eventually stopped last week. The muscle spasms have been unexpected. The wooshing in the ear has been happening as well. I've been waking up between 01h45 and 01h55 this week. Last week, I suddenly felt anxious for no reason.
Prove it
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🙏🏽📿👁️❤️💛💚
I AM A BLUE RAY ANYWAY.
❤🎉🎉
✌️💜💡🙏
phew! sometimes i rlly have to remind myself i’m not going crazy and insane🥲. met my twin flame this year… turns out it’s much more than “just” a twin flame journey. this video popped up just the right time lol. Been crying 5 mins ago because i felt so stuck. Now i’m motivated again😆