I'm feeling embarrassed.... | mixie
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 2 ต.ค. 2024
- Because I was quite emotinal when doing this video, I feel like I forgot to mention a few things, so I thought I would write some extra words down here if you're intrested in reading more...
I'm feeling embarrassed.
I've tried coming back to TH-cam 2 times before and both times I've failed shortly after.
It doesn't feel great...
But sometimes life's hard. And that's okay.
I think it's important to acknowledge.
In October 2018 after months of feeling sad and stressed out I finally went to the doctor. I went on a long-term sick leave for 6 months. I was completely burned out and on top of that dealing with depression from alot of personal things that all kind of happened around the span of a year. It was like it was to much sadness at once for me to handle.
For such a long time I was afraid to express my sadness to people around me cause I didn't want them to think I was a crybaby, that I was complaining or being a negative person.
I always try to look on the bright side, but for a while there it became harder and harder, so I put on a fake smile and told everyone I was fine, even though I wasn't.
We all go through things and moments in life that are hard.
I've learned that it's important to let yourself be sad and process those things, don't keep it repressed like I did for so long. It works for a while. But when it finally didn't it only hit me so much harder.
I'm doing better now, although I feel fragile, not gonna lie.
Stuff keeps happening and because I'm fragile it makes some days really hard.
But I know I will get through this to.
It will get better. Maybe slowly, maybe it takes some time, but it WILL get better.
I've learned that I'm much stronger than I ever thought I was and this new apartement has already done wonders for me and my anxiety.
I hope I will be able to upload more on TH-cam from now on, but I can't make any promises on how often that will be. I'm going to try to upload one video per week or one every other week.
To you reading this, thank you for taking your time and please be nice to yourself.
Remember it's okay to be sad sometimes, and it will get better.
Lots of love,
Mikaela
Hey you, good to see you again. I hope you are feeling better day per day. All the love to you😘
Sending much love back to you!
Cheer up! I like the sideboard in the background and your setup to its; the plant on the right of the video wanted some love maybe 💗 ;-)
Thank you! :) They're both fake ones though, so I don't know if that would help? ;) I could try I guess! ❤️
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Honestly, I subscribed for your personality and I enjoyed you talking about everything and anything. It helped me deal with my mental healthy by watching your older videos because they are comforting. Getting over depression will require to focus on positive things in the field of negatives ❤️
Don’t feel pressure to post or to take a break.
You could do videos as an outlet on the things your really are enjoying or that make you happier. ❤️🥰
Oh really? :') That makes me so happy, knowing they helped in any way
Hi Mikaela... 😃 From what I can see of your new apartment it looks GREAT, can't wait to see more... you have such a wonderful eye for decorating... 🤩💕
Sorry to hear that you have been going through so much over the last year/6 months... 😒
But I'm glad you reached out for help and are now beginning to start to feel better... 🤝💓😊
I know for myself, my faith in God/Jesus 🙏 carries me through the tough times in life but we all still need help from each other too. We were not meant to carry ALL our burdens alone.
I think that is why God gave each one of us different skills and gifts, so we could be helpful to one another... 🙂
Well... it looks like you have are a VERY bright future ahead with LOTS of fun things to come.
And don't worry about how many "come backs" you do here on TH-cam... just keep doing them... we all LOVE them... we LOVE you... everybody loves a come back... it's the person that gives up that everyone forgets. You are BEAUTIFUL both outside and inside... 💖
Have a AWESOME rest of your day and coming week... ❤❤❤🥰😘
Hi! :) Thank you so much, I can't wait for you to see more of the apartment, it's really coming along now and I'm loving decorating it :)
Thank you sooo much for your lovely and inspiring comment, it really means the world to me