"I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended" I think this is talking about toxic responses to trauma. When you go through something traumatic, you need ways to cope. Some people cope by being stuck in the memory, and they feel better when they obsess over it
First interpretation I've seen that refers to it as trauma in general, and not a traumatic or abusive relationship. My past finally feels heart out, thank you.
"It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go" best part
You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
THEORY !! its about an abuse/manipulative relationship. "i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended" represents a relationship thats obviously too far gone, yet the one being abused cant tell at all since they are so wrapped up in it. "sorry i dont want your touch, it doesnt mean that i dont want you" is the one being abused not wanting to be touched but they dont feel like they can be stern, apologizing for not liking it and trying to stay on the abuser's good side by saying that it doesnt mean they dont want them. "And it left a pearl in my hand and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby, thats where i go" the pearl is traumatic memories and so the one being abused stays up all night reliving the moments of abuse. They try to explain it to their abuser but try to make it seem as if its positive, claiming it glows. And they never get out, forever stuck in this cycle, apologizing and twisting their own words to please their abuser
And the “there’s a hole that you fill” part is the victim being attached to the abuser because that usually happens in abuse I’ve relationships where the victim becomes dependant on the abuser for “love” or intimacy.
“it’s just that i fell in love with a war” for me the war is what i thought my life would be like, happy but that quickly fell apart and yet i haven’t allowed myself time to process it. “sorry i can’t take your touch” i don’t like when people physically comfort me like ever (with like 2 exceptions) and don’t like people just get physical towards me. “and it left a pearl in my head … every night baby that’s where i go” i revist the unexplored trauma and even the good memories that are now stained at night often if left in silence it’s hard as i subconsciously suppress it but i still do. also pearls have a special meaning to me. and that’s what i love about mitski’s songs; everyone can relate by interpreting it to themselves ❤
Ok for years I have been looking for a song I kin to then I stumbled across this song and I realized all my God why is this my life lol when ever i listen to this song I feel like there were more people in the world like me and it makes me feel better about my anxiety and depression thank u
*To everyone listening to this song:* *Are you okay dear? Is everything alright? Do you need to talk to about it? I’m here for you, don’t worry. It’ll get better, I promise*
lyrics: You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
![first love/late spring - mitski [sped up]](/img/n.gif)
the "there's a hole that you fill, you fill, you fill" hit me real hard
In what way tho🤨😩/hj
My dirty mind said smthin else...
@@raphaeltingzon1047 way of trauma impacting someone so it’s like apart of their identity
@@umr9529 those tiktok videos..
@@user-fw7xe4er1z exactly bro...those...tik toks...dark asf
1:33 I’ll never get tired of the way she says “there’s” here
gets me shivering n shit
that part legit makes me go😍😱🤯🤨😇😘
@@giuli1588 so true
seriously
i know 😣
Yessss
everyones like "omg u listen to mitski r u ok?" but i wanna know if mitski is ok
oml yes.
ppl think u have depression just bc u listen to a certain type of music
@@jesusmacias8433 well, not really. The type of music I listen to is almost as equal as my mental health at the moment, just saying btw :)
@@anqxlicv? i dont get your point
@@jesusmacias8433 urmom
I owe Mitski so much, but the people who hurt her owe her more.
@_winter_I know DAMN well you didn’t bring zodiac signs into this. Who tf judges people off of their signs?? Get a grip.
@@OrbitingSoulyou just got yourself ratioed my guy 💀
@@OrbitingSoulit is not that deep buddy 😭
@@OrbitingSoulI think we deserve an apology with a ukulele and a song but add some tears to seem nice
1:04 i feel like this part is extremely underrated
Yesyesyesyes
100%
My fav part definitely
I love the first part and this part
FRRR
1:30 that “oooooo” MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM I LOVE ITTTTTTTTTTTTT
"I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended"
I think this is talking about toxic responses to trauma. When you go through something traumatic, you need ways to cope. Some people cope by being stuck in the memory, and they feel better when they obsess over it
Reminds me of how pearls are actually made in the clam's effort to prptect itself when debris enters its shell
First interpretation I've seen that refers to it as trauma in general, and not a traumatic or abusive relationship. My past finally feels heart out, thank you.
"are you okay?"
*no im fucking not 😍*
Me neither 👌🏻
It’s like as soon as they say that, you just wanna/will break down
your most definitely not alone
Yea same
Fr
@@impan2051 DUDE FR
it's impossible not to identify with ALL mitski's songs
I'm white
@@numberonemitski ok
for real!!
@@numberonemitski ?
They meant that some of Mitski's songs are abt her experiences as a POC that's why it's possible to not relate all of them
"It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go"
best part
It’s “left a pearl in my HEAD” pay attention damn
@@sweethoney5613 NAHHH I JUST COPY AND PASTED IT FROM THE LYRIC THINGS UNDER 💀💀💀 I KNOW ITS HEAD
pearl in my head
1:45 the “nobody” is literally so amazing😍😍
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow
I thought it said " and I fell in love with a woman " 😰😰
hand? i always thought it was head
hand makes much more sense now 😭
@@aveliynn SAME
@@miumoments same
“sorry i can’t take your touch… it’s just that I fell in love with a war” IMMENSE LOST IN THE CLOUD VIBES
STOP BECAUSE THIS IS AMAZING
TYSM
@@seabunniee9263 NP!!
IK FR
S@@seabunniee9263 I’m going
IKR😭😭
EVERY SONG OF HERS IS POPULAR AND ALWAYS SOUNDS GOOD LIKE DAMN
1:30 for me so i can play this on repeat
the ‘ooooooo’ is so mesmerising
@@zomb4rl I agree !!!
It makes my face warm whenever I hear it
This song is such I vibe mitski is so incredibly talented, she has been my fav singer growing up and she still is
bruh the "theres a hole that you fill, you fill, you fill" hits REAL hard
I LOVE THIS SONG
“You’re growing tired of me” cuts deep
"But it's just I fell in love with a war" hits hard
This gave me literal chills
I’m genuinely at my breaking point and this song is just helping the process easier.
There's a hole that you fill, you fill you fill.. BUT ITS JUST THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WAR 🙁🙁🙁
1:33 is literally everything!
THEORY !! its about an abuse/manipulative relationship. "i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended" represents a relationship thats obviously too far gone, yet the one being abused cant tell at all since they are so wrapped up in it. "sorry i dont want your touch, it doesnt mean that i dont want you" is the one being abused not wanting to be touched but they dont feel like they can be stern, apologizing for not liking it and trying to stay on the abuser's good side by saying that it doesnt mean they dont want them. "And it left a pearl in my hand and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby, thats where i go" the pearl is traumatic memories and so the one being abused stays up all night reliving the moments of abuse. They try to explain it to their abuser but try to make it seem as if its positive, claiming it glows. And they never get out, forever stuck in this cycle, apologizing and twisting their own words to please their abuser
Ty
Why is this actually a good theory?
And the “there’s a hole that you fill” part is the victim being attached to the abuser because that usually happens in abuse I’ve relationships where the victim becomes dependant on the abuser for “love” or intimacy.
Help why do I relate to this in a lighter way but I still do-
I dislike feeling so random that I listen to Mitski to resonate more with my feelings so I can recognize what it is
i can loop this many times and never get tired of it.
fr ill just sit n listen to this on a loop
@@Buyedthecheetossame
fav song from mitski
sameee ong
IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR A SPED UP VERSION OF THIS FOR SO LONG !!!
ME TOO!!!
my favorite relatable song, everything about this is described perfectly
You saved my life fr
im glad to hear that i hope ur okk
literally my fav song & this sped up makes it x10 better
"Your getting tired of me." got me about to cry already
“it’s just that i fell in love with a warrr~~” i love mitski with every square millimeter of my soul
Having a mental break down while listening to this,Picaso.
THIS IS ALL I NEEDED
this song is so perfect it makes me want to cry
This song is everything
No you are
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WARRRRRRRRRRR 🙏🙏
Okay but THIS IS MASTERPRICE.
god damn speed up hits
I didn't think I'd like the nightcore version of a song BUT HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO COOL !!! loved IT actually
TYSM IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR DAYSSS!!
NP
i love mitsuki laycock with all of my heart, honestly. she is literally what i aspire to be. she is everything. mitski is literally everything 🤭
My mum cries hearing this, after being abused by her father and my dad for the first 30 years of her life
i feel so bad for her
“You love so hard and I still can’t sleep..” got me feeling a sharp pain in my chest..
“sorry i dont want your touch, its not that i dont want you” OMGGG 😞
“it’s just that i fell in love with a war” for me the war is what i thought my life would be like, happy but that quickly fell apart and yet i haven’t allowed myself time to process it. “sorry i can’t take your touch” i don’t like when people physically comfort me like ever (with like 2 exceptions) and don’t like people just get physical towards me. “and it left a pearl in my head … every night baby that’s where i go” i revist the unexplored trauma and even the good memories that are now stained at night often if left in silence it’s hard as i subconsciously suppress it but i still do. also pearls have a special meaning to me. and that’s what i love about mitski’s songs; everyone can relate by interpreting it to themselves ❤
it feels a bit late to be commenting this but THIS IS SO AMAZING I LITERALLY LOVE YOU /p
IT'S JUST THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WAAAARR AND NOBODY TOLD ME IT ENDED AND IT LEFT A PEARL IN MY HEAD AND I ROOOLL IT AROUND EVERY NIGHT
"sorry i dont want ur touch its not that i dont want you" relateable
ily sm thank u for making this
Ok for years I have been looking for a song I kin to then I stumbled across this song and I realized all my God why is this my life lol when ever i listen to this song I feel like there were more people in the world like me and it makes me feel better about my anxiety and depression thank u
this is just what I needed.. thank you
*To everyone listening to this song:*
*Are you okay dear? Is everything alright? Do you need to talk to about it? I’m here for you, don’t worry. It’ll get better, I promise*
Ty
ily
I'm okay,ty
No I’m not fine but we out here thriving.
Ilysm
This song just hits so hard
I never want this song to end
AGHHHHH MITSKI STOPP MURDERING ME BRUTALLY EVERY DAY
lyrics:
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about
Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow
omg im literally in love with you for making this❤❤
aaaah i love thiiis its soo underrateeedddd
"Your growing tired of me," hits me so hard:/
I’m definitely gonna cry to this in the bathroom every 2 days
I love this song so much
OMFG THIS SONG THO>>>>>>>>
“I feel in love with a war”
Hit like a truck
Omg i'm crying this song hooks me up so much
fr
1:30 I hate that im not getting shivers from this part
I love MITSKI songs that build more and more intense, amazing 😻.
This song makes me want to pass away, in my sleep, dreaming about peace, And living peace.
your music taste >>>>
this song is carrying my life rn
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOVE THIS SO MUCHHHH
mitski is life
ily for this
this is so amazing :]
ty :]
@@seabunniee9263 yw
the heavy hearted feeling I get when listening to Mitski's songs 😓
are you ok?? pls take care of urself and dont listen to those ppl who speak ill of you, ily
"you're growing tied of me, you love me so hard and i still can't sleep."
Honestly this song hit me harder than my dad used to when i was a kid T-T
best mitski song. argue w the wall.
1:30 AHHHHH LITERALLY SHIVERS
I Love Mitski, she is beautiful:(💗
"ur growing tired of me"🙁
“You love me so hard and I still can’t see” *……*
THE WAY SHE SAYS "war" AHHHH
"youre growing tired of me" brings tears to my eyes
Ayo- I dropped my phone in the toilet while listening to this-
I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS
i love this
so glad mitski invented pearls
I LITERALLY LOVE THIS SONG AAAAAAAA
i just love it oml 😭😭😭😭😭😭
this song is like a sad love song. I love it.
Stop this makes me cry as someone with trauma this song is everything
I love her music sm :(
This hits
the way its said "i fell in love with a war" hit hard for me it reminds me of Belos :
Crying myself to mitski>>>>
i love this.
this hits harder than my mom🤩
*dad
I just want to curl up under my blanket and listen to this
then do it 🤍‼️
01:03 OMG! PERFECT GIRL! REALLY PERFECT!!!