@@Lokanei oh, I said it because in an interview by Fader, Mitski mentioned that her heart had been broken by many Sagittarians. I am a Sagittarius myself, I know that a zodiac sign doesn't define you
You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
"I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended" I think this is talking about toxic responses to trauma. When you go through something traumatic, you need ways to cope. Some people cope by being stuck in the memory, and they feel better when they obsess over it
First interpretation I've seen that refers to it as trauma in general, and not a traumatic or abusive relationship. My past finally feels heart out, thank you.
"It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go" best part
THEORY !! its about an abuse/manipulative relationship. "i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended" represents a relationship thats obviously too far gone, yet the one being abused cant tell at all since they are so wrapped up in it. "sorry i dont want your touch, it doesnt mean that i dont want you" is the one being abused not wanting to be touched but they dont feel like they can be stern, apologizing for not liking it and trying to stay on the abuser's good side by saying that it doesnt mean they dont want them. "And it left a pearl in my hand and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby, thats where i go" the pearl is traumatic memories and so the one being abused stays up all night reliving the moments of abuse. They try to explain it to their abuser but try to make it seem as if its positive, claiming it glows. And they never get out, forever stuck in this cycle, apologizing and twisting their own words to please their abuser
And the “there’s a hole that you fill” part is the victim being attached to the abuser because that usually happens in abuse I’ve relationships where the victim becomes dependant on the abuser for “love” or intimacy.
Ok for years I have been looking for a song I kin to then I stumbled across this song and I realized all my God why is this my life lol when ever i listen to this song I feel like there were more people in the world like me and it makes me feel better about my anxiety and depression thank u
lyrics: You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
“it’s just that i fell in love with a war” for me the war is what i thought my life would be like, happy but that quickly fell apart and yet i haven’t allowed myself time to process it. “sorry i can’t take your touch” i don’t like when people physically comfort me like ever (with like 2 exceptions) and don’t like people just get physical towards me. “and it left a pearl in my head … every night baby that’s where i go” i revist the unexplored trauma and even the good memories that are now stained at night often if left in silence it’s hard as i subconsciously suppress it but i still do. also pearls have a special meaning to me. and that’s what i love about mitski’s songs; everyone can relate by interpreting it to themselves ❤
*To everyone listening to this song:* *Are you okay dear? Is everything alright? Do you need to talk to about it? I’m here for you, don’t worry. It’ll get better, I promise*
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1:33 I’ll never get tired of the way she says “there’s” here
gets me shivering n shit
that part legit makes me go😍😱🤯🤨😇😘
@@giuli1588 so true
seriously
i know 😣
Yessss
the "there's a hole that you fill, you fill, you fill" hit me real hard
In what way tho🤨😩/hj
My dirty mind said smthin else...
@@raphaeltingzon1047 way of trauma impacting someone so it’s like apart of their identity
@@umr9529 those tiktok videos..
@@user-fw7xe4er1z exactly bro...those...tik toks...dark asf
everyones like "omg u listen to mitski r u ok?" but i wanna know if mitski is ok
oml yes.
ppl think u have depression just bc u listen to a certain type of music
@@jesusmacias8433 well, not really. The type of music I listen to is almost as equal as my mental health at the moment, just saying btw :)
@@anqxlicv? i dont get your point
@@jesusmacias8433 urmom
I owe Mitski so much, but the people who hurt her owe her more.
probably just some random Sagittarians
@@_winter_I know DAMN well you didn’t bring zodiac signs into this. Who tf judges people off of their signs?? Get a grip.
@@Lokanei oh, I said it because in an interview by Fader, Mitski mentioned that her heart had been broken by many Sagittarians. I am a Sagittarius myself, I know that a zodiac sign doesn't define you
@@Lokaneiyou just got yourself ratioed my guy 💀
@@Lokaneiit is not that deep buddy 😭
1:04 i feel like this part is extremely underrated
Yesyesyesyes
100%
My fav part definitely
I love the first part and this part
FRRR
"are you okay?"
*no im fucking not 😍*
Me neither 👌🏻
It’s like as soon as they say that, you just wanna/will break down
your most definitely not alone
Yea same
Fr
@@impan2051 DUDE FR
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Sorry I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry I can't take your touch
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow
I thought it said " and I fell in love with a woman " 😰😰
hand? i always thought it was head
hand makes much more sense now 😭
@@aveliynn SAME
@@miumoments same
"I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended"
I think this is talking about toxic responses to trauma. When you go through something traumatic, you need ways to cope. Some people cope by being stuck in the memory, and they feel better when they obsess over it
Reminds me of how pearls are actually made in the clam's effort to prptect itself when debris enters its shell
First interpretation I've seen that refers to it as trauma in general, and not a traumatic or abusive relationship. My past finally feels heart out, thank you.
"It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around
Every night, just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go"
best part
It’s “left a pearl in my HEAD” pay attention damn
@@sweethoney5613 NAHHH I JUST COPY AND PASTED IT FROM THE LYRIC THINGS UNDER 💀💀💀 I KNOW ITS HEAD
pearl in my head
it's impossible not to identify with ALL mitski's songs
I'm white
@@RealMitskiLover ok
for real!!
@@RealMitskiLover ?
They meant that some of Mitski's songs are abt her experiences as a POC that's why it's possible to not relate all of them
STOP BECAUSE THIS IS AMAZING
TYSM
@@seabunniee9263 NP!!
IK FR
S@@seabunniee9263 I’m going
IKR😭😭
There's a hole that you fill, you fill you fill.. BUT ITS JUST THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WAR 🙁🙁🙁
1:30 that “oooooo” MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM I LOVE ITTTTTTTTTTTTT
“sorry i can’t take your touch… it’s just that I fell in love with a war” IMMENSE LOST IN THE CLOUD VIBES
EVERY SONG OF HERS IS POPULAR AND ALWAYS SOUNDS GOOD LIKE DAMN
This song is such I vibe mitski is so incredibly talented, she has been my fav singer growing up and she still is
1:45 the “nobody” is literally so amazing😍😍
This gave me literal chills
i can loop this many times and never get tired of it.
fr ill just sit n listen to this on a loop
@@spazzedoutlosersame
1:30 for me so i can play this on repeat
the ‘ooooooo’ is so mesmerising
@@zomb4rl I agree !!!
It makes my face warm whenever I hear it
"But it's just I fell in love with a war" hits hard
fav song from mitski
sameee ong
bruh the "theres a hole that you fill, you fill, you fill" hits REAL hard
I LOVE THIS SONG
“You’re growing tired of me” cuts deep
I’m genuinely at my breaking point and this song is just helping the process easier.
IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR A SPED UP VERSION OF THIS FOR SO LONG !!!
ME TOO!!!
my favorite relatable song, everything about this is described perfectly
You saved my life fr
im glad to hear that i hope ur okk
this song is so perfect it makes me want to cry
i love mitsuki laycock with all of my heart, honestly. she is literally what i aspire to be. she is everything. mitski is literally everything 🤭
1:33 is literally everything!
I dislike feeling so random that I listen to Mitski to resonate more with my feelings so I can recognize what it is
Having a mental break down while listening to this,Picaso.
This song is everything
No you are
literally my fav song & this sped up makes it x10 better
THEORY !! its about an abuse/manipulative relationship. "i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended" represents a relationship thats obviously too far gone, yet the one being abused cant tell at all since they are so wrapped up in it. "sorry i dont want your touch, it doesnt mean that i dont want you" is the one being abused not wanting to be touched but they dont feel like they can be stern, apologizing for not liking it and trying to stay on the abuser's good side by saying that it doesnt mean they dont want them. "And it left a pearl in my hand and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby, thats where i go" the pearl is traumatic memories and so the one being abused stays up all night reliving the moments of abuse. They try to explain it to their abuser but try to make it seem as if its positive, claiming it glows. And they never get out, forever stuck in this cycle, apologizing and twisting their own words to please their abuser
Ty
Why is this actually a good theory?
And the “there’s a hole that you fill” part is the victim being attached to the abuser because that usually happens in abuse I’ve relationships where the victim becomes dependant on the abuser for “love” or intimacy.
Help why do I relate to this in a lighter way but I still do-
THIS IS ALL I NEEDED
“it’s just that i fell in love with a warrr~~” i love mitski with every square millimeter of my soul
IT'S JUST THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH A WAAAARR AND NOBODY TOLD ME IT ENDED AND IT LEFT A PEARL IN MY HEAD AND I ROOOLL IT AROUND EVERY NIGHT
Okay but THIS IS MASTERPRICE.
god damn speed up hits
"Your getting tired of me." got me about to cry already
I didn't think I'd like the nightcore version of a song BUT HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO COOL !!! loved IT actually
TYSM IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR DAYSSS!!
NP
I Love Mitski, she is beautiful:(💗
This song just hits so hard
I love this song so much
"sorry i dont want ur touch its not that i dont want you" relateable
Ok for years I have been looking for a song I kin to then I stumbled across this song and I realized all my God why is this my life lol when ever i listen to this song I feel like there were more people in the world like me and it makes me feel better about my anxiety and depression thank u
ily sm thank u for making this
it feels a bit late to be commenting this but THIS IS SO AMAZING I LITERALLY LOVE YOU /p
I never want this song to end
this is just what I needed.. thank you
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOVE THIS SO MUCHHHH
“sorry i dont want your touch, its not that i dont want you” OMGGG 😞
this is so amazing :]
ty :]
@@seabunniee9263 yw
I’m definitely gonna cry to this in the bathroom every 2 days
lyrics:
You're growing tired of me
You love me so hard and I still can't sleep
You're growing tired of me
And all the things I don't talk about
Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch
There's a hole that you fill
You fill, you fill
But it's just that I fell in love with a war
And nobody told me it ended
And it left a pearl in my head
And I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow
Every night, baby, that's where I go
Just to watch it glow
Omg i'm crying this song hooks me up so much
fr
“You love so hard and I still can’t sleep..” got me feeling a sharp pain in my chest..
“I feel in love with a war”
Hit like a truck
“it’s just that i fell in love with a war” for me the war is what i thought my life would be like, happy but that quickly fell apart and yet i haven’t allowed myself time to process it. “sorry i can’t take your touch” i don’t like when people physically comfort me like ever (with like 2 exceptions) and don’t like people just get physical towards me. “and it left a pearl in my head … every night baby that’s where i go” i revist the unexplored trauma and even the good memories that are now stained at night often if left in silence it’s hard as i subconsciously suppress it but i still do. also pearls have a special meaning to me. and that’s what i love about mitski’s songs; everyone can relate by interpreting it to themselves ❤
mitski is life
i love this
aaaah i love thiiis its soo underrateeedddd
ily for this
I love her music sm :(
this hits harder than my mom🤩
*dad
i just love it oml 😭😭😭😭😭😭
this song is carrying my life rn
Honestly this song hit me harder than my dad used to when i was a kid T-T
AGHHHHH MITSKI STOPP MURDERING ME BRUTALLY EVERY DAY
your music taste >>>>
best mitski song. argue w the wall.
"ur growing tired of me"🙁
“You love me so hard and I still can’t see” *……*
I love mitski
i love this.
*To everyone listening to this song:*
*Are you okay dear? Is everything alright? Do you need to talk to about it? I’m here for you, don’t worry. It’ll get better, I promise*
Ty
ily
I'm okay,ty
No I’m not fine but we out here thriving.
Ilysm
I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS
OMFG THIS SONG THO>>>>>>>>
1:30 I hate that im not getting shivers from this part
"Your growing tired of me," hits me so hard:/
This song is so amazing, but makes me cry
omg im literally in love with you for making this❤❤
so glad mitski invented pearls
YESsssss I LOVE IT THANK Yo7😏
NP TYSM
I can finally relate to this song..☹
Ayo- I dropped my phone in the toilet while listening to this-
I just want to curl up under my blanket and listen to this
then do it 🤍‼️
I LITERALLY LOVE THIS SONG AAAAAAAA
Love it 💗
the heavy hearted feeling I get when listening to Mitski's songs 😓
are you ok?? pls take care of urself and dont listen to those ppl who speak ill of you, ily
the way its said "i fell in love with a war" hit hard for me it reminds me of Belos :
"you're growing tied of me, you love me so hard and i still can't sleep."
I love this :(
This song makes me want to pass away, in my sleep, dreaming about peace, And living peace.
01:03 OMG! PERFECT GIRL! REALLY PERFECT!!!
1:30 AHHHHH LITERALLY SHIVERS
music perfect 💟
YAYAYAYAY I LOVE THIS
AMAZINGG!!!!