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**Verse 1:**
At the start, love feels perfect, but at the end, it leaves you hurtin',
Gave my all to someone, now they act like I’m worthless, desertin'.
I was the one who was there when times were low,
But now they’ve gone, left scars I don’t wanna show.
Cuts deep in my heart, like a surgeon’s blade,
Pushin’ people away, feels like life’s a parade-
People come and go, but the pain, it stays,
They say I’ve changed, but life’s changed my ways.
I got a lock on my heart, no key could break through,
Built walls around me so thick, I don’t even want to.
Don’t wanna open up like a book, don’t wanna own up,
How can I love, when I can’t find love for myself in this mess?
**Verse 2:**
Things got clearer as I got older,
But the streets gave me paranoia, always lookin' over my shoulder.
When I was young, I’d hear Mum scream and cry,
Pretended to be asleep, hid the tears in my eyes.
Wished for a different life, but it never came,
So if I’m distant now, know I’m just tryna numb the pain.
Need time alone, but the silence cuts deep,
Can’t stand bein’ lonely, but it’s the only peace I can keep.
Seein' Mum try her best to give us a happy home,
But all this weight in my chest, yeah, it’s breaking my bones.
Got referred to Cahms, tryna heal from the past,
Absent dad, gran and grandad-life just moves so fast.
**Chorus:**
Boys don’t cry? That’s a lie they sold,
I got tears in my heart, scars untold.
Smilin’ all the time but it’s pain in disguise,
Holdin’ in my cries, puttin' on a front for the skies.
**Verse 3:**
Sister left, yeah, life ripped us apart,
And I remember nearly dyin'-nearly broke Mum’s heart.
Found me on the floor, yeah, that was a wake-up call,
Before then, I was wishin’ for things that only brought me to fall.
Now I wish for the best, but prepare for the worst,
‘Cause life’s been a test since the day of my birth.
They did me bad, got me mad, head’s all messed,
Wishin’ I could find peace, maybe get some rest.
Can’t shake these demons that haunt my nights,
They whisperin' doubts, playin’ tricks with my sight.
Tryna be strong, tryna hold it all in,
But I’m lost in this fight, dunno where to begin.
**Bridge:**
I’m carryin’ the weight of a thousand days,
Feelin’ empty inside, tryna mask it in different ways.
They say home’s where the heart is, but home’s just a place,
I’ve moved house seven times, feelin’ lost in space.
I used to give my heart, but it left me with holes,
Now I’m broken in pieces, tryna feel whole.
Memories vivid, of mum’s silent cries,
Tryin' my best but still feelin' like I'm just gettin' by.
**Verse 4:**
Life ain’t fair, left me cold and alone,
Got me questioning myself in the darkest zone.
I don’t wanna talk, my phone’s on DND,
Lockin' out the world, nobody can reach me.
It’s dark in my room, lights out, feelin’ low,
Even if I say “what’s up,” no one can know.
Ain’t bein' selfish, I just need some peace,
Tryna fix my soul, tryna find some release.
Friends turned foes, jealousy grows,
Used to trust ‘em all, now I keep my circle closed.
Let me retire my Mum, then I can rest,
Till then, I’ll keep pushin', fightin' life’s test.
**Chorus (Outro):**
Boys don’t cry, but my heart’s bleedin' slow,
Smiles cover pain, the world will never know.
I keep on walkin', carryin' this weight,
Wishin' for peace, but I just can’t escape

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Real life shit. Wit some real life thoughts. Can’t judge on kid can’t see behind those doors, if it’s beef then yk we going to war. My team don’t play lay u out on the floor. I’ve done that once maybe I lied. Done it twice, and again I lied done it on doffernt occasions plenty of times. Just sit back and listen well I spit my rhymes.
It’s real rap shit wit some real trap kid I was out on the graft tryna build my quids

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Minds puzzled like a maze think im going in a craze like the joker need a batman or a robin way that im jobbing

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Ye this life thing is fucked
Its a blessing and a curse
But how do you take this blessing
Is the question thats for cert
Man can spend it on the street
U can choose a 9-5
But how do you keep living
Knowing your soon to die unalived
And im fried once again mum im tryna numb the pain away
Waking ups an exercise im tryna find a later day
And parties and motives dont even get me paid so id rather smoke and rap so i can maybe take this pain away
Or maybe text tanisha she can give me all this brain so my mind isnt blanked with the henny and all the haze