I have AAP and I think, for some on the more extreme end, it can be soothing to allow the urges to manifest itself in HEALTHY ways, but that has to start with your own head. You have to get right with it. You have to accept that it exists and that fantasies themselves don't hurt anyone. You have to always check in, 'Is what I'm doing potentially going to harm anyone else,' because part of AGP/AAP is causing harm or suffering. That's an 'us' problem. We don't have to be gender conforming, we can wear what we wish but we really need to keep the fact that we ARE biological men or women and be respectful of those of the opposite sex, especially women because they are REALLY suffering with AGPs in the transgender space right now.
Those poor handful of women that have been hurt by trans people. Once a trans person does it, even ONE TIME, they will be suppressed brutally. People who aren’t trans are a different story, but when trans people do bad things it’s OVER for them.
@@HopingFor_Grace yes handful! Graham linehan tried to collect data on all the times this sort of thing has happened and it amounted to maybe 5-8 cases. At what frequency do you think women are suffering at the hands of trans people?
Sadly, I have to agree that it's more than a handful FOR SURE. But you cannot talk about it you cannot post about it, women victimized are silenced in pretty much every transform I have ever been in and still are.
Agreed. Personally, I believe it to be a fetishistic person behind the screen who gets off to the idea of manipulating someone's thoughts into transitioning, simply because they have AGP.
@@inspireverse3491I don't know usually I see non stop online about how being trans is miserable and there's like a lot of gatekeeping and "trutrans" could you show me where there's pressure to transition?
This can be very difficult for a female partner. What started as something that was negotiated with compromise became all encompassing. It was no longer a partnership, I became no more than a vector, with my only use being a facilitator for fetish and kink. It got old and abusive very quickly.
that all depends on how the AGP wants to manage it. The kind of AGP you're talking about is one who has let this fantasy take over his life, and that is absolutely not fair on any wife or children who are in the picture. There are AGPs who can live normal lives, but just play dress up every so often and it stays that way, there are others who let it consume them completely. I have all the sympathy in the world for any family member who suffers at the hands of the latter.
I agree with previous answers. I am a married autogynephile. I don’t like this part of myself. I pray to God to one day just be a regular straight guy. It’s too much to ask for a woman/girl to accept the AGP as he is. A straight female wants a straight male. The AGP can’t expect a female to his partner in his kink. At best the lady can be like this: “I understand you have your kinks. But I can’t be part of them. With me I need you as a male.” If he says: “oh you’re not accepting me as I am!” He is being toxic. He is the one who needs to understand that a girl needs a man, and not a “sissy”.
AGP in long run creates a sense of gender identify when u accept ur AGP and get out of denial it starts to give Sense of identify on non-sexual settings.
I don’t recommend any agps to fully transition though, eventually the high from transitioning will ware down. Agps with dysphoria and other trans is a different discussion.
I notice that AGPs will rarely ever stop masturbating. They will complain their AGP is ruining their life but refuse to stop and completely abstain from masturbation. I always tell heterosexual AGPs to stop masturbating for a year and seek therapy from a non affirming therapist and they always end up masturbating again. It’s like an addiction it seems.
@@tula1433 "Refuse" to stop masturbating is the wrong language when it's a natural physiological process, and it's unrealistic to ask anyone to stop for a year. More to the point though, I don't see why they should have to, so long as it's within healthy boundaries.
I’m an autogynephile and I came to the exact same conclusion as you. I’d say I look quite androgynous now and this is giving me a lot of satisfaction. I’ve also figured being called “cute” is my favorite compliment :) btw you’re cute
I'd say though that society being more tolerant of men who want to present more stereotypically feminine without ceasing to be men would be a way to go with this too, instead of this bollocks of affirming that the love for wearing lipstick and high heels litterally makes you a woman.
@@avemag7561 I'm female, hence not autogynephilic, but I'm interested in this and related topics since many years, from a scientific and socio(psycho)logical viewpoint. Are you also interested in Autogynephilia scientifically, or why do you ask?
My understanding is that as AGP develops over time, there's an increasing tendency that a man will consider transitioning. It's a really bad idea, though. I can't emphasise how important it is that we have very little research into the outcomes of transition, so one new study concluding this way or that way can really swing things in favour of positive or negative outcomes. The certainty of our understanding is therefore low. Most recently, there seems to be indication that non-medical transition can reinforce the desire to medically transition, and that the medical transition can have terrible side effects. Crucially, the very recent first long-term study of sex reassignment surgery demonstrated horrific outcomes for regret post surgery, and high rates of suicidality. Avoid the so-called 'social transition' and stay off of that conveyor belt. If the desire to crossdress is just too strong, restrict it to the bedroom, and remind yourself it ends there.
Which recent study are you referring to about sex reassignment surgery and regret? It's also worth noting that often times, the reason trans people experience regret is because of discrimination from friends, family and society, rather than the surgery itself.
I agree, a fetish should be in private, with consenting adults if any, but transitioning is feeding too much into it and it is an issue. Seeing autogynophiles who "represent" trans women online and how much damage they make in society is devastating and perverted
The only thing that worked on greatly reducing my agp is specifically risperdal (By blocking dopamine receptors, risperidone may reduce the rewarding effects of addictive substances or behaviors, which may help to reduce cravings and promote abstinence). It both decreases delusions (like starting to believe and imagine I'm a woman) and sexual urges in me, problem is that it has really bad side effects so I had to stop taking it. I take it as a proof that controlling agp with drugs is possible if there was actual research on trying to cure it instead of trying to turn us into trans. I'm trying to fight my agp again but it makes me miserable and fully accepting it also makes me miserable. I'm still trying to find a way to live with it and sadly it's currently preventing me to engage myself in relationship with someone.
Brother… do you want freedom from AGP? Well, I have good news. Seek the gospel of Jesus Christ. AGP is a sinful paraphilia that keeps us in bondage. And Jesus Christ died on the cross to free us from such bondage. The bondage of sin. Ask Jesus to forgive you from your sins (not just AGP, but others as well) and ask him to give you the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit gives power to Christians to fight against sin. You may still continue having temptations. But the fight will be much easier.
@@kaleomariz1000 I'm not religious but if AGP has some traumatic roots, and underlying guilt, shame and self-hatred, then the kind of mindset that comes with Christianity may indeed provide help. You're essentially rebuilding some kind of healthy relationship with a father figure and learning to appreciate yourself through this.
Thank you for the video. I am older and sometimes feel like i am still list at times. I didn't know what AGP really was until recently. I think when i was younger i was definitely AGP and it was rooted in sexuality but now i have managed to integrate a lot of it into my life and it is not based in sexual kink or whatever you want to call it now. I wear makeup some, nail polish, some feminine clothes but mix it with my masculine clothes.
Personally, I have no desire whatsoever to present more feminine given my history of childhood abuse from two women. I may have feminine traits, but my looks are on the masculine side. It's circumstantial depending on the person.
You look good. Like, somewhat feminine, but in an endearing way. I wish most AGPs stopped there. Once they start with the wigs and dresses you rapidly enter the uncanny valley.
Hello! Good video. I am a trans woman and I totally agree with you that the medical transition is completely a personal subject. Some people will prefer, and some people will not prefer. I have always been with females before my transition and tried to get rid of my autogynephilia desires during 8 years of therapy. However, I was not cured. I had many problems with sex because I deeply wanted to be the bottom, although I was in denial mode. I expressed some of these feelings to my last spouse, she gave it a try, but using strap ons was not something that she would adopt in her life. The problem is: I don´t like being the top during sex. Most of the time I get arousals being bottom and, when I get arousals being top, I must imagine myself as female. As always, I said that I could repress these desires, until I had the courage to stop denying my LGBT+ feelings and understood that transition could be a path for me. I cannot stress how slowly I made my transition, always knowing that being a more “feminine guy” could be a valid path for me. Now, I know that this represents a more non-binary identity/expression. I agree and confess that the fear of the society influenced in the perception that a “feminine woman” is more acceptable than a “feminine man”. Maybe, in a parallel universe where the society is less transphobic, I could spend some time as a non-binary person. However, I really think that in some point in my life, I would make some medical transition. I always preferred a complete feminine body. As I started using make up and being more feminine, I really enjoyed what I was seeing (gender euphoria). I must point out that biology helped me and my passability is pretty ok. This helped me having less trouble with society and made me more comfortable living as female. Now I am in almost 5 years of transition and I don´t regret anything. I had the acceptance of my family, my closest friends and I am better in my career than I was before transitioning. And one thing that changed is that I explored my bisexual side, which was always present but, again, I would never want to explore it. Now I live full time with my husband, I am only bottom (as I always wanted) and it is the first time that I can say that I have a healthy relationship with my sexuality. In my case, the break-up with my last spouse was devasting (the worst part of my transition story), but today I see that we were incompatible anyway and delaying my transition would only postpone the problems. Also, as I live as female, my gender identity keeps changing. I will never forget that I am a TRANS woman (I do not deny biology), but my womanhood is getting stronger as time passes by. That is why I see myself as a woman, not a man anymore, although I was born in a male body. In conclusion, medical transition is a personal subject and must be taken with RESPONSIBILITY. You should balance your difficulties in life and know that coping with autogynephilia without medical transition can be a valid, healthy and happy path.
How do you reconcile the addictive nature of AGP with the options of integrating it to your life? To me it sounds like allowing yourself to have daily light beers as an alcoholic.
My case is probably even more twisted because my AGP is directly related to self-bondage. I feminize myself for self-bondage sessions and get pleasure from pain. and self-humiliation.
Well masochism is never good. People treat it as a weird quirky fetish and I hate that. There is something really sad about feeling comfort in pain emotionally or physically and continuing that makes you even more comfortable to suffering and makes it harder to break. I wish you the best
@@pepperpig649 There's only a specific kind of pain that brings me pleasure, in a specific area of the body; and only given specific settings, such as attire.
@@rirefaza9278 Yeah, it’s a great question. No one knows. Paraphilias probably affect the same area(s) of the brain, making comorbidity more like, but we just don’t know.
Hey, I found your channel a few hours ago by doing research on « why am I so different » I’m feel so much better now that I understand better this side of me. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I felt like I was the only one in the world to have this issue I have a few questions maybe we could discuss if you’re okay with it Thank you so much ♡
I appreciate you speaking out and being brave and transparent. You have good advice and your viewpoint is solid, however I disagree when it comes to transitioning mtf for a fetish, that is taking it too far. Nowadays many autogynophiles call themselves trans women (different than males who suffer from gender dysphoria, a mental illness and transition due to it) and they wreak havoc in society and brainwash the youth, like Dylan Mulvaney for instance. Fetish and crossdressing in private or with consensual adults is perfectly fine as it does not put anyone in harms way, but if one takes it so far he wants to live as a woman charachter full time and change their body for it, he is no longer a funcitoning, healthy man and should seek help for the issue. Just my 2 cents
I've say I would of defintely of token the 2nd route, for awhile I feel like I identified with "Bi-Gender" but I decided to draw back as I was experimenting too see if the whole AGP thing was real or not or something else, but after that I do really believe I am a AGP and staying on the boundaries of my limits when it comes to looking somewhat femimine works really well, as also my friends don't judge me for that and I'm extremely lucky for that
Hi brother thanks for your videos , I am guy but almost exactly same feelings but i don't like dress as a girl or any makeup but when I want to do masturbate or my pen*s arouse only when I think myself as a girl otherwise it never arouse, because of this fear I don't make any girlfriends even though I have crush on them . Are we can do S*x with them or not with this feeling?
Dude, I can relate to that. If you have attraction to girls (if you delight in that female smell, touching that tender skin and all that) then you will be fine. But make sure you date a girl you’re really attracted to. Otherwise you may have a problem.
So one of your sick fantasy is replaced by another disgusting thing. I'm so happy about you and your perverted mind. You look so happy and proud! What a boy we have here!
you need to explore your fem side more, AGP is just a effect of your dysphoria, once i started dressing up more as a fem, the agp liyterally went away in a few months.
I'm gay and gays do drag but I don't think we have an eroticised vision of women's things/products (e.g. make up). That's the difference in relation to straight guys. However, both gays and straight women find men's things/products erotic. Women love using men's skin-care products (or put on her boyfriend's shirt, because it smells like him), and gays can find a straight man's trainers as erotic as hills for AGP straight guys. I believe AGP is pretty normal in straight guys. You find women things terribly erotic (differently from the gays) but you shouldn't relate it to a gender identity (e.g. a translesbian) or it might have a devastating impact on your mental health.
@@GonzaloMoreiraLinguist the gay obsession with straight men never ceases to amaze me. I’m an early onset post op TS and aware I’m clinically a homosexual, but I could never partake in gay sex or the risky anonymous behaviors like many gay identified men can. I’m very sexually traditional and prefer to be in a relationship with a man first before granting him sexual access to my body. I truly believe that regular homosexuality (gay identified) and homosexual transsexuals both have homosexuality but in varying levels. Sexologists say that gays and hsts are parallel etiologies. Similar but different. For myself partaking in gay sex was not an option. I was socially sexually and romantically not functioning pre transition. Lately I’ve seen gay identified men who are sexually active jumping into transition to access straight men then regretting it when they cannot assimilate. It’s two different innate forms of homosexuality and I don’t think either one can pretend to be the other with much success. Hearing you say that gay men can get off by a straight man’s trainers really showed me how different my sexuality is to theirs. My bf does roofing and I’d NEVER wanna do that but I will definitely sleep in his tee shirts lol. It’s almost like gay men have a very male sexuality except they are attracted to masculinity. Sexologists have said gay men have unmasculine brains and actual avoidant and dysphoric hsts have a brain that is pushed further in a female typical direction. I’d assume that is why some of the sexual behaviors of gay men are off limits to us and why we won’t partake in them and also why gay men are willing to both penetrate and be penetrated. Blanchards typology had a line in it that said “I’m an old fashioned girl, no sex before surgery” so seeing what Blanchard calls the “new crop” of transitioners is a shock to me, because I am more clinically like the traditional HSTS of the past.
I think am pseudo bisexual, I have very profound AAT but I am also attracted to women and more to ultra femme transexuals, and at times crossdressers but not to men per se. However, I never wanted to be the woman that I make love to at any moment of my life, I think I may have two objects of affection, myself and the person am with I never felt the need to be her at all, not even with trans women that I been with.
@@andrea-mj9ce "egg" is a term used in the trans community as somebody that is trans but haven't "came out of the transition closet" so to speak. That's why they're called an egg, they're still in their shell and has yet to come out as trans. Eggs usually start out as xdressing fembois. Autogynophilics are not eggs however, but some might be.
I have AAP and I think, for some on the more extreme end, it can be soothing to allow the urges to manifest itself in HEALTHY ways, but that has to start with your own head. You have to get right with it. You have to accept that it exists and that fantasies themselves don't hurt anyone. You have to always check in, 'Is what I'm doing potentially going to harm anyone else,' because part of AGP/AAP is causing harm or suffering. That's an 'us' problem. We don't have to be gender conforming, we can wear what we wish but we really need to keep the fact that we ARE biological men or women and be respectful of those of the opposite sex, especially women because they are REALLY suffering with AGPs in the transgender space right now.
Those poor handful of women that have been hurt by trans people. Once a trans person does it, even ONE TIME, they will be suppressed brutally. People who aren’t trans are a different story, but when trans people do bad things it’s OVER for them.
Handful? Your delusions are grand indeed. @@jamesondrinker
@@HopingFor_Grace yes handful! Graham linehan tried to collect data on all the times this sort of thing has happened and it amounted to maybe 5-8 cases. At what frequency do you think women are suffering at the hands of trans people?
Sadly, I have to agree that it's more than a handful FOR SURE. But you cannot talk about it you cannot post about it, women victimized are silenced in pretty much every transform I have ever been in and still are.
* in every trans forum
It's brutal because you're even more isolated than you often were during the abuse.
Youre absolutely right about not having to transition. Such refreshing honesty.
It's almost as if there's a pressure to transition when many simply do not want to.
Agreed. Personally, I believe it to be a fetishistic person behind the screen who gets off to the idea of manipulating someone's thoughts into transitioning, simply because they have AGP.
@@inspireverse3491 without a doubt, so many people online advocate it as if it’s inevitable.
do u have agp? if that’s u in your pfp we look similar and i’ve been wanting to talk to someone about this because it is getting to me.
@@inspireverse3491I don't know usually I see non stop online about how being trans is miserable and there's like a lot of gatekeeping and "trutrans" could you show me where there's pressure to transition?
This can be very difficult for a female partner. What started as something that was negotiated with compromise became all encompassing. It was no longer a partnership, I became no more than a vector, with my only use being a facilitator for fetish and kink. It got old and abusive very quickly.
that all depends on how the AGP wants to manage it. The kind of AGP you're talking about is one who has let this fantasy take over his life, and that is absolutely not fair on any wife or children who are in the picture.
There are AGPs who can live normal lives, but just play dress up every so often and it stays that way, there are others who let it consume them completely. I have all the sympathy in the world for any family member who suffers at the hands of the latter.
Terfish
Depends on the self control of the male.
I agree with previous answers.
I am a married autogynephile. I don’t like this part of myself. I pray to God to one day just be a regular straight guy.
It’s too much to ask for a woman/girl to accept the AGP as he is. A straight female wants a straight male. The AGP can’t expect a female to his partner in his kink.
At best the lady can be like this: “I understand you have your kinks. But I can’t be part of them. With me I need you as a male.” If he says: “oh you’re not accepting me as I am!” He is being toxic. He is the one who needs to understand that a girl needs a man, and not a “sissy”.
@@kaleomariz1000 yeah, sounds like narcissistic behavior
AGP in long run creates a sense of gender identify when u accept ur AGP and get out of denial it starts to give Sense of identify on non-sexual settings.
I don’t recommend any agps to fully transition though, eventually the high from transitioning will ware down. Agps with dysphoria and other trans is a different discussion.
I notice that AGPs will rarely ever stop masturbating. They will complain their AGP is ruining their life but refuse to stop and completely abstain from masturbation. I always tell heterosexual AGPs to stop masturbating for a year and seek therapy from a non affirming therapist and they always end up masturbating again. It’s like an addiction it seems.
@@tula1433 it is, but there’s also underlying mental issues under aswell.
What's wrong with masturbating every once in a while? I don't think anyone wants prostate cancer
@@pepperpig649 idk about you but I’d rather have sex with someone I love rather than masturbate in my own room by self.
@@tula1433 "Refuse" to stop masturbating is the wrong language when it's a natural physiological process, and it's unrealistic to ask anyone to stop for a year. More to the point though, I don't see why they should have to, so long as it's within healthy boundaries.
I’m an autogynephile and I came to the exact same conclusion as you. I’d say I look quite androgynous now and this is giving me a lot of satisfaction. I’ve also figured being called “cute” is my favorite compliment :) btw you’re cute
I wish I had your maturity and wisdom when I was your age
I'd say though that society being more tolerant of men who want to present more stereotypically feminine without ceasing to be men would be a way to go with this too, instead of this bollocks of affirming that the love for wearing lipstick and high heels litterally makes you a woman.
Yeah, except the fact that these people want to be women.
post more videos man, you're awesome
Thank you :)
Welcome back! Very happy you're still around!
Thank you very much for your videos!
Take care 💙
Thanks LapisDemon ✌️
@@mycelia_ow Huh you're welcome, but what for? :)
You're welcome!
@@avemag7561 I'm female, hence not autogynephilic, but I'm interested in this and related topics since many years, from a scientific and socio(psycho)logical viewpoint.
Are you also interested in Autogynephilia scientifically, or why do you ask?
My understanding is that as AGP develops over time, there's an increasing tendency that a man will consider transitioning. It's a really bad idea, though. I can't emphasise how important it is that we have very little research into the outcomes of transition, so one new study concluding this way or that way can really swing things in favour of positive or negative outcomes. The certainty of our understanding is therefore low. Most recently, there seems to be indication that non-medical transition can reinforce the desire to medically transition, and that the medical transition can have terrible side effects. Crucially, the very recent first long-term study of sex reassignment surgery demonstrated horrific outcomes for regret post surgery, and high rates of suicidality. Avoid the so-called 'social transition' and stay off of that conveyor belt. If the desire to crossdress is just too strong, restrict it to the bedroom, and remind yourself it ends there.
Which recent study are you referring to about sex reassignment surgery and regret? It's also worth noting that often times, the reason trans people experience regret is because of discrimination from friends, family and society, rather than the surgery itself.
I agree, a fetish should be in private, with consenting adults if any, but transitioning is feeding too much into it and it is an issue. Seeing autogynophiles who "represent" trans women online and how much damage they make in society is devastating and perverted
The only thing that worked on greatly reducing my agp is specifically risperdal (By blocking dopamine receptors, risperidone may reduce the rewarding effects of addictive substances or behaviors, which may help to reduce cravings and promote abstinence). It both decreases delusions (like starting to believe and imagine I'm a woman) and sexual urges in me, problem is that it has really bad side effects so I had to stop taking it. I take it as a proof that controlling agp with drugs is possible if there was actual research on trying to cure it instead of trying to turn us into trans. I'm trying to fight my agp again but it makes me miserable and fully accepting it also makes me miserable. I'm still trying to find a way to live with it and sadly it's currently preventing me to engage myself in relationship with someone.
As a AGP myself, your a idiot, IF I want to transition then I should be able to, none of us should be forced into a cure.
@@Bg-lee5809I didn’t read the word force (or any synonyms) in that post.
Try psilocybin microdose. It may have an effect on dopamine which reduces the motivation and resets the repetitive ideation.
Brother… do you want freedom from AGP?
Well, I have good news. Seek the gospel of Jesus Christ. AGP is a sinful paraphilia that keeps us in bondage. And Jesus Christ died on the cross to free us from such bondage. The bondage of sin.
Ask Jesus to forgive you from your sins (not just AGP, but others as well) and ask him to give you the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit gives power to Christians to fight against sin.
You may still continue having temptations. But the fight will be much easier.
@@kaleomariz1000 I'm not religious but if AGP has some traumatic roots, and underlying guilt, shame and self-hatred, then the kind of mindset that comes with Christianity may indeed provide help. You're essentially rebuilding some kind of healthy relationship with a father figure and learning to appreciate yourself through this.
Sometimes I think about what my life could have been like if I didn’t have autogynephylia, cause shit kinda sucks :/
Thank you for the video. I am older and sometimes feel like i am still list at times. I didn't know what AGP really was until recently. I think when i was younger i was definitely AGP and it was rooted in sexuality but now i have managed to integrate a lot of it into my life and it is not based in sexual kink or whatever you want to call it now. I wear makeup some, nail polish, some feminine clothes but mix it with my masculine clothes.
Personally, I have no desire whatsoever to present more feminine given my history of childhood abuse from two women. I may have feminine traits, but my looks are on the masculine side. It's circumstantial depending on the person.
You look good. Like, somewhat feminine, but in an endearing way. I wish most AGPs stopped there. Once they start with the wigs and dresses you rapidly enter the uncanny valley.
Hello! Good video. I am a trans woman and I totally agree with you that the medical transition is completely a personal subject. Some people will prefer, and some people will not prefer. I have always been with females before my transition and tried to get rid of my autogynephilia desires during 8 years of therapy. However, I was not cured. I had many problems with sex because I deeply wanted to be the bottom, although I was in denial mode. I expressed some of these feelings to my last spouse, she gave it a try, but using strap ons was not something that she would adopt in her life. The problem is: I don´t like being the top during sex. Most of the time I get arousals being bottom and, when I get arousals being top, I must imagine myself as female.
As always, I said that I could repress these desires, until I had the courage to stop denying my LGBT+ feelings and understood that transition could be a path for me.
I cannot stress how slowly I made my transition, always knowing that being a more “feminine guy” could be a valid path for me. Now, I know that this represents a more non-binary identity/expression.
I agree and confess that the fear of the society influenced in the perception that a “feminine woman” is more acceptable than a “feminine man”.
Maybe, in a parallel universe where the society is less transphobic, I could spend some time as a non-binary person.
However, I really think that in some point in my life, I would make some medical transition. I always preferred a complete feminine body. As I started using make up and being more feminine, I really enjoyed what I was seeing (gender euphoria). I must point out that biology helped me and my passability is pretty ok. This helped me having less trouble with society and made me more comfortable living as female.
Now I am in almost 5 years of transition and I don´t regret anything. I had the acceptance of my family, my closest friends and I am better in my career than I was before transitioning.
And one thing that changed is that I explored my bisexual side, which was always present but, again, I would never want to explore it. Now I live full time with my husband, I am only bottom (as I always wanted) and it is the first time that I can say that I have a healthy relationship with my sexuality.
In my case, the break-up with my last spouse was devasting (the worst part of my transition story), but today I see that we were incompatible anyway and delaying my transition would only postpone the problems. Also, as I live as female, my gender identity keeps changing. I will never forget that I am a TRANS woman (I do not deny biology), but my womanhood is getting stronger as time passes by. That is why I see myself as a woman, not a man anymore, although I was born in a male body.
In conclusion, medical transition is a personal subject and must be taken with RESPONSIBILITY. You should balance your difficulties in life and know that coping with autogynephilia without medical transition can be a valid, healthy and happy path.
Bro, stay out of women’s bathrooms. You scare us.
Thanks for your experience
How do you reconcile the addictive nature of AGP with the options of integrating it to your life? To me it sounds like allowing yourself to have daily light beers as an alcoholic.
My case is probably even more twisted because my AGP is directly related to self-bondage. I feminize myself for self-bondage sessions and get pleasure from pain. and self-humiliation.
Well masochism is never good. People treat it as a weird quirky fetish and I hate that. There is something really sad about feeling comfort in pain emotionally or physically and continuing that makes you even more comfortable to suffering and makes it harder to break. I wish you the best
@@pepperpig649 There's only a specific kind of pain that brings me pleasure, in a specific area of the body; and only given specific settings, such as attire.
Paraphilias tend to cooccur, and masochism is the most common one in AGP.
@@katvtay It would be interesting to know why masochism is the most common in AGP.
@@rirefaza9278 Yeah, it’s a great question. No one knows. Paraphilias probably affect the same area(s) of the brain, making comorbidity more like, but we just don’t know.
Thank you so much for making these videos.
You're welcome :)
Hey,
I found your channel a few hours ago by doing research on « why am I so different »
I’m feel so much better now that I understand better this side of me. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I felt like I was the only one in the world to have this issue
I have a few questions maybe we could discuss if you’re okay with it
Thank you so much ♡
I’m gonna subscribe. I’m honestly curious about this 🤷🏾♀️
I appreciate you speaking out and being brave and transparent. You have good advice and your viewpoint is solid, however I disagree when it comes to transitioning mtf for a fetish, that is taking it too far.
Nowadays many autogynophiles call themselves trans women (different than males who suffer from gender dysphoria, a mental illness and transition due to it) and they wreak havoc in society and brainwash the youth, like Dylan Mulvaney for instance.
Fetish and crossdressing in private or with consensual adults is perfectly fine as it does not put anyone in harms way, but if one takes it so far he wants to live as a woman charachter full time and change their body for it, he is no longer a funcitoning, healthy man and should seek help for the issue. Just my 2 cents
He’s so cute
Well thank you ;)
Thank you so much for your videos. Right now my target is to just have to the courage to be me and you’re an inspiration of what that could look like.
Great video. ❤
I've say I would of defintely of token the 2nd route, for awhile I feel like I identified with "Bi-Gender" but I decided to draw back as I was experimenting too see if the whole AGP thing was real or not or something else, but after that I do really believe I am a AGP and staying on the boundaries of my limits when it comes to looking somewhat femimine works really well, as also my friends don't judge me for that and I'm extremely lucky for that
I'm glad you've been able to discover this about yourself after some experimentation. Good, supportive friends are always helpful.
Maybe go the femboy route 🤷♂️
@@Badlydownfood Lmao
Good video mate.
Thank you!
Well spoken!
Thank you!
i wonder if you spoke about Prince when you mentioned 'older pop stars'. he came to my mind instantly
I think Prince is a homosexual.
@@inspireverse3491 he was bisexual
Thanks for this!
You're welcome!
Hi brother thanks for your videos , I am guy but almost exactly same feelings but i don't like dress as a girl or any makeup but when I want to do masturbate or my pen*s arouse only when I think myself as a girl otherwise it never arouse, because of this fear I don't make any girlfriends even though I have crush on them . Are we can do S*x with them or not with this feeling?
Dude, I can relate to that.
If you have attraction to girls (if you delight in that female smell, touching that tender skin and all that) then you will be fine.
But make sure you date a girl you’re really attracted to. Otherwise you may have a problem.
Thank you 🖤
Happy to see you again, my dear. Maybe you remember me. Btw, I substituted femdom for AGP. My AGP is pretty much gone now.
So one of your sick fantasy is replaced by another disgusting thing. I'm so happy about you and your perverted mind. You look so happy and proud! What a boy we have here!
Yes I remember you, I'm glad you where able to find a little more peace with yourself :)
😂
Yeah, that could work, but is very hard to find a partner with that taste. Also, thanks for sharing your journey peaceful days.
you need to explore your fem side more, AGP is just a effect of your dysphoria, once i started dressing up more as a fem, the agp liyterally went away in a few months.
SSRIs can cure agp
Hi can you give more information on how they cure agp thanks x
@@caroldean9864 ssri only help to people who want to fight with agp
@@RussBlake80 this is so interesting to me, thank you for sharing.
SSRIs can not cure AGP, but they may mitigate desires (and in turn behaviors) in some.
Thank you so much man!
Are there ever gay autogynophiles (not seudo bisexuality)
Drag queens
Yes there is
I'm gay and gays do drag but I don't think we have an eroticised vision of women's things/products (e.g. make up). That's the difference in relation to straight guys.
However, both gays and straight women find men's things/products erotic. Women love using men's skin-care products (or put on her boyfriend's shirt, because it smells like him), and gays can find a straight man's trainers as erotic as hills for AGP straight guys.
I believe AGP is pretty normal in straight guys. You find women things terribly erotic (differently from the gays) but you shouldn't relate it to a gender identity (e.g. a translesbian) or it might have a devastating impact on your mental health.
Probably, though they are probably a much smaller minority versus the Heterosexuality AGPs
@@GonzaloMoreiraLinguist the gay obsession with straight men never ceases to amaze me. I’m an early onset post op TS and aware I’m clinically a homosexual, but I could never partake in gay sex or the risky anonymous behaviors like many gay identified men can. I’m very sexually traditional and prefer to be in a relationship with a man first before granting him sexual access to my body. I truly believe that regular homosexuality (gay identified) and homosexual transsexuals both have homosexuality but in varying levels. Sexologists say that gays and hsts are parallel etiologies. Similar but different. For myself partaking in gay sex was not an option. I was socially sexually and romantically not functioning pre transition. Lately I’ve seen gay identified men who are sexually active jumping into transition to access straight men then regretting it when they cannot assimilate. It’s two different innate forms of homosexuality and I don’t think either one can pretend to be the other with much success. Hearing you say that gay men can get off by a straight man’s trainers really showed me how different my sexuality is to theirs. My bf does roofing and I’d NEVER wanna do that but I will definitely sleep in his tee shirts lol. It’s almost like gay men have a very male sexuality except they are attracted to masculinity. Sexologists have said gay men have unmasculine brains and actual avoidant and dysphoric hsts have a brain that is pushed further in a female typical direction. I’d assume that is why some of the sexual behaviors of gay men are off limits to us and why we won’t partake in them and also why gay men are willing to both penetrate and be penetrated. Blanchards typology had a line in it that said “I’m an old fashioned girl, no sex before surgery” so seeing what Blanchard calls the “new crop” of transitioners is a shock to me, because I am more clinically like the traditional HSTS of the past.
I think am pseudo bisexual, I have very profound AAT but I am also attracted to women and more to ultra femme transexuals, and at times crossdressers but not to men per se. However, I never wanted to be the woman that I make love to at any moment of my life, I think I may have two objects of affection, myself and the person am with I never felt the need to be her at all, not even with trans women that I been with.
I so wanted you to take of your cap so that we could see your beautiful hair. God bless!
You’re so handsome 😍
Thank ya!
❤
I hope you're able to repress and raise a family but honesty I worry you're going to John 50. Praying you make it though.
You should make more videos, mate. Not sure what you could talk about but in sure it would be interesting coming from your chiseled mouth ✌️
On it!
These nonbinary conservatives make some interesting videos...
or just became beautyfull surge doll
Authentic? Hah
Delusional
God... Just transition already
Stop the cultish behaviour, groomer
Is this an advice to him ?
Only some AGPs are eggs
@@mycelia_ow Eggs?
@@andrea-mj9ce "egg" is a term used in the trans community as somebody that is trans but haven't "came out of the transition closet" so to speak. That's why they're called an egg, they're still in their shell and has yet to come out as trans. Eggs usually start out as xdressing fembois. Autogynophilics are not eggs however, but some might be.
Kek you look like your seconds away from trooning, been there done that kek 🤣