hey everybody! thank you so much for the nice comments AHHHH !!!!! i just want to clarify one thing: i’m not saying leda didn’t experience psychosis, i’m saying it sounds like she experienced intrusive thoughts as well as psychosis. sorry i didn’t word it very clearly. the video clip i paired with my opinion don’t really match up, i apologize ! i encourage you to watch leda’s video where she discusses her experience fully. it’s called “while i was gone” and you can find it on the channel called MacyDino :-)
I'm glad in 2024 people are still talking about Leda 💜 She was my gateway to falling in love with WoW 😅 and she inspires me to this day 💜 hope she's doing well, wish the internet treated her better.
i got such whiplash as i kinda forgot about leda, but when mentioned she was interested in wow I remember a very popular wow youtuber in those early 2010s days, Tradechat (who was my bread and butter), did an interview with leda, and i noticed i watched it at some point. felt almost like a sleeper agent with that information xD
i remember seeing her final video, and i remember bawling my eyes out. she came back briefly for like 1 month and posted a few videos YEARSS later only to disappear again. Ive never stopped thinking about her because she was why i started making my own videos and i discovered she wrote her own books and from what i could tell was living life for her.
Everyone talks about her relationship with Nate being weird but most of her boyfriends were older than her. She had a whole ass band write an album about her. Her parents were pretty absent too despite her being with one of them at like all times
her videos got me through middle school and early high school. she inspired me so much and really shaped a lot of who i am today. i still look up to her to this day. hope she's doing well edit: my jaw just dropped because you reminded me keek existed LOL
I found ledas channel in 2010 she had big influence in my style even to this day. Back then i didn't really read youtube comments i was kind of oblivious to the bullying. I never have any issues with her and her personality i really just thought she was a cool and nice person and i wanted to be as cool and nice as her. Really hope shes thriving whatever shes doing now :)
Thank you for reminding me of Leda ❤❤ I’m 27 now and I grew up watching her videos, I relate hard to her mental health struggles and I used to watch her videos to calm down because she was so soft spoken and sweet. She is so wonderful and I’m only wishing her the best in life ❤️❤️❤️
I miss Leda so much she was such a sweet kind soul. I miss her all the time even after all these years. I understand why she left but I wish we knew she was ok 😭 even if it was her mom just saying she’s happy and healthy but I totally get it why she wants to be private after being public for so long. I also randomly feel like Leda would of loved tiktok she would been in her element doing dance videos and fun acting videos. I really hope she’s okay and surrounded by love she must have a wonderful support system and friends as not a single person has ever leaked anything about her which I admire and I hope it stays that way.
I remember seeing comments on videos of people venting, trauma dumping, specifically going into great detail on self harm to Leda. I can’t imagine taking that on on a daily basis . I really hope she is doing well and thriving right now 🩷
as someone who currently/has struggled with both, yes that sounds like psychosis. im sure she had intrusive thoughts or imagery in her head as she was going through it as well though
I met her in 2016 after her return when she went on the conversations tour. She was my idol since myspace. I love leda so much thank you for making this. ♡
Seriously!!! I remember the way people would talk about her in comment sections. It was so hateful. I fully understand why she left but man I miss her. The fact that I remember every single clip showed in this video and remember the whole video is a testament to how much I watched them and how in my life she was.
Exactly. My friends little sister watched her videos. I was in my mid to late 20s when she got huge and remember seeing some of the comments she would get. Just straight up bullying the girl for no damn reason.
She was such a sweet girl and I totally agree, she deserved much better!! I was so happy when she released her book, it felt like she was truly creating the life she wanted for herself and I hope that's the reason she's stepped away from the internet! Whatever she's doing now, I hope she's living a wonderful and fulfilling life!
The way my heart skipped when I saw this 😭 I love that people are still thinking of Leda. Her and Jenna Marbles had such a necessary and positive impact on me and they BOTH completely left the internet. (Like I get why but I’m still sad about it)
She was such an earnestly sweet and kind person. It's awful how she was treated- she was very present online, and especially at the time, people often slip up/say something "wrong"/show an ugly side to themselves because we are all human- however she never really seemed to do that- she would not talk poorly of others, etc. It's quite rare, especially for a teenager. I hope that she is living a happy full life now!
I am a lot older than you, but your video popped up on my feed. I have children your age and watched them go through social situations that I couldn't have fathomed going through. There is mental illness in my family and the pressure on my kids to just to learn to love and accept themselves was unbelievable. Well, not to go into a long boring story, people like you and even Leda are positive role models. Be proud of yourself and who you are now and look forward to the wonderful people that you will become. My kids didn't think they would make it through adolescence, but I always tried to steer them towards positivity and got them help when they asked for it. I now have a married daughter who is an ICU RN and is back in school to be an NP, A son who is trans, rebuilds computers and works in IT. I drive the poor kid crazy with my barrage of computer questions and problems! (It's his fault he's practically Einstein! Lol!) The baby of the family, my other son, installs fire alarm systems in new building projects (talk about literally saving lives) and just gave me my first precious grandchild! I am looking forward to my future and theirs. Your generation is going to grow up and save us all. It's all of the old fogey's that are screwing everything up right now and I will apologize to you on their behalf! I am a proud Gen Xer! People still wonder how we survived childhood!? Anyway, keep pushing forward and be proud of yourself. Everyday.
I was at that Niagara Falls meet up in 2012 that you featured in this video. Leda was so kind. I have never forgotten that day. She will forever be my favourite TH-camr even if she isn’t around online anymore 🖤
I followed Leda when I was a young teen, and she was definitely a huge inspiration for me growing up. Her originally leaving the internet was so sad, it hurt to hear what she was going through. But at the time I don't think I could quite grasp just how difficult that must have been for her, because I was younger. But I'm now in my 20s and sadly, can relate to some of the things she was feeling back then. If she ever returned, I would also be over the moon, but overall, I just want her to be happy because she deserves it.
I looked up to Leda so much as a teen. She was such a sweet person and so likable, I didn’t understand all the hate. She was one of the few influencers who wasn’t seeking out fame and just wanted to be a positive influence. On one hand, I wish we had more influencers like that online, but I also totally understand why she may have wanted to step back and have a more private life. Like you said, I would be so excited if she ever decided to return, but I respect her choice to leave and just hope wherever she is she’s living her best life 🩷
Broooo I watch them every so often too 😭😭 I hope that’s not weird cause I’m 30 now but man she was a huge part of my life when I was a kid and I always was so worried for her because I knew how badly she was being bullied.
Thank you for making this video. Leda was one of my favorite content creators back in the day. She always had the coolest hair and seemed so sweet. I agree, she absolutely did not deserve any of the hate she received over the years. Wishing her the best. Also I love your hair!
I got the first 2 of her books and I thought they were really good! I wish she would have finished the series because I think it would have done really well especially now fantasy books seem to be more popular. I miss Leda so much, I would watch her after high school and I felt like we were growing up together since we were about the same age. I wish her nothing but the best
I remember crying so much for years after she left youtube. She inspired me to start my channel . Thanks so much for making this video she was seriously my fav creator ever ❤
Leda was what childhood me wanted to look like growing up. When I was like 11 she helped me learn how to embrace my own style and I rmember when she dated Nate and Mattg, two other creators I liked a lot. Its times like this where I wish I knew her personally because I wonder if those affected her and her impact on youtube
omg i loved leda so much and i still think about her. i was almost a super fan and i watched every little video and she was a fountain of inspiration for me. i remember for years thinking she was the most beautiful person ive ever seen 😭
“Hi Guys it’s Bilbo Baggins” lol I loved watching Leda when I was in middle school, she was my scene girl inspo 😭💕 it’s very clear that girls were jealous of Leda during a time that being a “influencer” was not yet a huge hype and more underground, commenters were so unhinged. She deserved better, she was just a kid! She was beautiful, creative, an icon! 💕
although I will say, I disagree with the classification of a three year age difference as predatory. I find it strange and the dynamic definitely feels bizarre but I dont think the presence of a 3 year age gap immediately necessitates some abuse/statutory aspect. Esp if they stay together -- tho obvi that wasnt the case here
I got to meet her when she was on tour for one of her partners. When I tell you I cried so much meeting her. I gave her a lil espeon plush that night. She’s so sweet!!! She really held me together when I was younger. I’m always hoping she’s doing well!
I recently saw a like renaissance faire “say hello in character “ & I’m 100% sure Leda was in it for a brief second being herself & it made me happy cause she’s probably just living her best life
I was going through something similar when leda uploaded that video of her in the field. I was having constant panic attacks and severe anxiety along with depersonalization and derealization, I literally couldn’t feel the world around me and it felt like my brain completely shut down all input from getting into my brain so reality felt muffled. I just wanted to hug her and tell her everything would be okay. Miss her
Leda is great and I’ve been following her since she was 14 making videos on ledathefknbanana. I was always a year older than her but I still looked up to her. We were actually gonna be on a TH-cam collab channel in 2014 or 2015 but that ended up being me and some other TH-camrs. She has always seemed like such a sweet soul, and this video really shows people how human she is. I hope for the best for her. Great video!
Absolutely loved Leda, almost was obsessed with her as a teen hahaha. It was so upsetting to see how it all ended. So glad someones speaking about it, I remeber being so shocked at some of the comments i saw back then towards her
I always wished so much better for her :( I can’t imagine ever being mean to someone so sweet and wholesome. I’m about 2 years younger than her and watched her videos since ledafknbanana and looked up to her like an older sister. She showed me what WoW was, cool music, how to do my hair & makeup, gave me ideas for outfits, and was always a positive influence. I hate to say it but I kinda worshiped her but I hope I never attributed to any of the pressure she had felt when she left the internet. I still adore her to this day and I hope she is thriving and living her best life. I’m honestly so glad she left because I just want what’s best for her, but I still wonder who she is today. I hope she’s so so happy ❤❤
i was thinking about leda just the other day, i loved her so much she was such an inspiration and light of my day back in middle school and high school.. i'm glad to see others still really care for her too, i hope shes doing alright wherever she is. also just wanted to say i really appreciate this video and takes like yours and specifying it's not for tea or drama... you brought up some good points and awareness i really appreciate this kind of content so thank you !! :)
Leda was a major inspiration for me as a teen, I always loved her sweet personality and style. She definitely deserved so much better. I’m glad this came up on my suggestions. This felt so nostalgic! I hope she’s living well today
Wow this unlocked some memories. I remember the drama other scene queens had with her. The drama with one of her friends and then dating that friends baby daddy, and her other ex boyfriends. She did seem like a sweet individual just a lot of teen drama happening around her and the way her fans bullied her. Hopefully she is living her life now and enjoying her privacy.
Thank you for doing a video on her! Her channel was one of the first ones I found and fell in love with when I started watching videos on TH-cam. She was everything I wanted to be - pretty, smart, funny, cool. I think of her often and hope she’s doing well 🩷
i think about leda every now and then and hope shes doing well. thank you for making this video about her! i never realized that she received so much hate back then. she was a big inspiration for teenage me!
I miss her and think about her all of the time. she was a huge inspiration to young me, always so positive and sweet and funny. I so sincerely hope shes happy wherever she is now.
I was just looking her up recently to see how she might be doing. I grew up on her videos. We're close in age, and she was a big source of inspiration for me. I agree with just hoping she is happy and living her best life. She really seemed to be such a genuinely kind person.
Thank you for making this. I definitely agree with you. I can definitely admit to being really attached to her and it was so amazing to finally meet her. She was my first ever TH-camr. She inspired me to finally be brave enough to dye my hair and she started my love of WoW. I looked forward to her videos and would save them and watch them over and over. I'm definitely glad we know more about mental health, burnout, parasocial relationships, and like subjects. I can see how parasocial I was to her and it took me a long time to work through that and respect the space and privacy of current creators that I follow, but I'm glad we are at this point. I loved her books. She is a talented writer and I wish we could have gotten them all. It'd be cool to see her again, but I definitely feel like that isn't a healthy path for her. I want most of all for her to live a happy and healthy life.
Leda’s videos gave me so much comfort, she was my favourite TH-cam creator! I even called my cat black cat Xya 😭 I wish her nothing but the best in life 💜
I hope Leda is okay. I resonate with her story so much, and I kind of had a lot of the same experiences as her. No where near as big of a following as her but still way too young and way too vulnerable to criticism that adults were mostly dishing out to me online. I wish I could go back and take the computer/phone away from little me.
I loved her so much! Her videos really helped me through a very dark time in my life. She made me feel less alone. The hate and negativity she got was so undeserved. I just couldn't understand the way she was bullied. She was a very raw and genuine TH-camr. I hope where ever she is and whatever she does makes her happy the way she made me happy. I would love to see her come back to the internet, but honestly the internet can be so toxic so I understand her stepping away. If she's reading these comments I hope she sees how loved and missed she is.
Leda was a huge inspiration too me when I was a kid. She was just so openly herself and I admired that so much. It was a very sad day when she left, i still think about her from time to time and I really hope shes livng her best life now. She never deserved all of the sh!t that people have her on the internet
Thanks for making the vid! I love when people make videos of her cause it makes me feel like I’m seeing her lol she was a HUGE part of my life as a teenager. We are the same age so I felt super attached to her and used her as a style inspiration. I remember being one of the people defending her constantly because the comments were so brutal. Over everything! It’s insane to me that I remember vividly every single clip you showed. I would watch all her videos multiple times. The scene culture was huge back then. She also was in the wrong crowd I feel. All her boyfriends were much older than her and always seemed to leave her over being depressed. People would both glorify and criticize her relationships I would see people act like they were couple goals or telling her she was dating too many people and moving in too fast. Comments about her style changing as if she wasn’t allowed to grow up and change her taste in clothes. Comments about being immature and “still acting like a kid” even tho she was pretty much a teenager the whole time. I selfishly would want her to come back because I wish I could know how she is but I 100% support her decision to not want to be famous because it seems like hell to me and I would never want that much attention for any reason. She was just so beautiful I feel like it made other girls hate her. She was tall and thin and had these big beautiful eyes and she knew about games and movies and it made boys like her which made other girls hate her more. And she also was just nice. People didn’t wanna believe it. They wanted to “catch” her being rude, they would take things out of context and make it seem like she said something terrible or accuse her of things like “wasting food” or “cursing too much” or “spending too much money” like literally the most insane things to nitpick at. Honestly I don’t wish fame on anyone. It seems awful for both the celeb and the fan. Nobody should worship a stranger this much and nobody should have to live up to so many different expectations either.
I was literally driving home from work today listening to ghost town and i was thinking about her, perfect timing for this to pop up in my suggestions 🎉
I wanted to be Leda so bad at one point lol. She influenced a lot of people in a positive way. I liked how she was unapologetically herself. We had similar interests so I felt better about being myself. Those interests were seen as weird especially for females at the time. I agree in that popular myspacers were the first influencers. Which came with all kinds of complications for the creators. It's sad how it ended for her. There's still that part of me that would find comfort in her coming back to making content again. But NOT if it hurts her or isn't something she genuinely wants to do.
I'm always so happy when I see something scene related in 2024❤ I loved her and Ambrehhhisdead was my favourite, I used to bring pics of her to the hairdresser to get the same style. I hope every single one of these girls are okay today❤❤❤ Like someone else said this is a case of "ohh pretty girl, let's bully/hate on her for it" Now I wanna get my scene hair back, it's so boring being normal ._. I haven't worn my scenekid style in years cause people are so horrible to me whenever I go outside :(
I’m glad when I see someone who knows what actual intrusive thoughts are and the fact that if it’s intrusive you wouldn’t act on it. If you thought something outrageous and acted on it it’d be impulsive, not intrusive. Your thoughts don’t make you who you are, your actions do. But intrusive thoughts can be so tormenting if you don’t realize what they are. You feel like you’re going crazy. Like your brain is torturing you. It’s always shit you hate in your head. (I’m also not explicitly saying Leda has this exact problem, I’m just commenting on the creator of the video)
I surely do miss her ❤ When i felt alone I just watched her videos and they always cheered me up but the day she left the internet with her video of her in tears just put me into tears and i was already upset that day and then to hear one of my favorite TH-camrs crying made me wish i was there to hug her
She deserved better! ;-; I used to watch her videos all the time. I also found out she lived in the same city as me at the time once I started recognizing some places she vlogged at lol This was a good video. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, on her situation and being respectful! :3
I really adored Leda growing up too. She was i believe a few years older than me. I also remember being in AlexAddicted when she was there and was nothing but a sweetheart but also had to deal with the bpd outbursts the owner had. Which the owner of AA also disappeared a few years before Leda did. It probably didnt help with all Leda was going through because the owner definitely had one of those parasocial obsessions with her. I also missed the chance to meet her when SayWeCanFly played at my hometowns club but she really stayed away the whole night. My friend ended meeting her because i had to leave to sleep for work and he told her i wanted to say hi and she said hi back but i wonder if i just added to that sadness of people pleasing 😢 In a lighter note, i really hope shes doing well for herself! This video really made me feel like a teenager again in the 2010s and it felt nice just to chill for a minute like i was back in time. Thanks for the way you said this, i feel it was nicely phrased
I miss her so much but I really hope she is truly thriving nowadays. We followed eacother on Twitter about 5 years ago and I had the pleasure of interacting with her on there back then. She is truly a very kind soul.
I always wondered what happened to her. I didn’t see her around anymore and her TH-cam was down. She never deserved any of the hate she got. I hope she’s doing well.
i remember accidentally stumbling upon a hate forum that was dedicated to JUST hating on her. one that stuck out to me was them pointing at how “gRoSs” her acne was and they were like blaming her for it being bad???!? it was infuriating and horrifying to behold. At that point in my life i didn’t realize that people were THAT chronically online and horrible…. i genuinely don’t get it. it makes me so sad
It's always crazy when I have old youtubers and channels that I used to watch and pop up again. I used to love the scene style and her style and wished I could have a similar style to her and others. She seemed so sweet and I could only wish her the best and still do. She did not deserve the hate she got. Its so awful to bully and criticize someone like people did to her. Thank you for doing this video !!!
YES! 1000 times yes. I rewatched her videos loads of times, and dedicated a school project to her in 2012. I wanted the woolyton jewelry SO BAD. and the strobe cosmetics makeup powders she used. I really looked up to her like an internet older sister. I still follow her instagram, and love her forever! I hope she is doing well, and I hope she knows she doesn't owe any one a single thing. I just want her to live her life happy like she deserves.
I remember watching her videos all the time in middle school, seeing her so happy and being herself all the time really inspired me. Back then being into the "alternative,otaku,scene style" wasn't really something considered "cool" or actually comprehended by many. Unlike today where we have big social media platforms that push and amnplify these new styles out of nowhere and build algorythms that will make you more seen with what you watch. I feel like she really had a great community back when it wasn't really easy to build one. Honestly I knew she received alot of hate but never noticed it that much since I was a child myself and just saw her bubbly presonality on screen. She really was like the big sister that I never had. :( I really hope she is doing well and wish her the best where ever she is and what ever she is doing.
Aw I miss Leda :( she was my inspo growing up and influenced my fashion and interests so much! I hope she’s doing good and has found the time to care for herself ❤
She built a brand and huge following from scratch which was very difficult back then not like today with the fast form content. Props to her frfr I hope she’s proud of that! She really was that girl and is still relevant today! Some people just have that spark and draw you in… I don’t blame her for pulling away from social media it’s toxic af sometimes the money and exposure isn’t worth the mental drain. Love her! And so does little me and I think that’s why so many of us still think about these certain creators they helped shape our teenage years more than they could ever imagine… what a time! 🥹
I’m literally alive because of her. I had a plan; she was doing a “24 hour” live stream with a couple friends. I started watching the stream and fell asleep instead. 🥺🥺
leda is so sweet, i can't believe how jealousy made people leave such hateful comments to her. it's always the nice people who get the most shit. thanks for this video!! brought me back to my scene queen days
hey everybody! thank you so much for the nice comments AHHHH !!!!! i just want to clarify one thing: i’m not saying leda didn’t experience psychosis, i’m saying it sounds like she experienced intrusive thoughts as well as psychosis. sorry i didn’t word it very clearly. the video clip i paired with my opinion don’t really match up, i apologize ! i encourage you to watch leda’s video where she discusses her experience fully. it’s called “while i was gone” and you can find it on the channel called MacyDino :-)
I'm glad in 2024 people are still talking about Leda 💜 She was my gateway to falling in love with WoW 😅 and she inspires me to this day 💜 hope she's doing well, wish the internet treated her better.
@@HULKinia i always wanted to play WoW sooooo bad bc of her !!
i got such whiplash as i kinda forgot about leda, but when mentioned she was interested in wow I remember a very popular wow youtuber in those early 2010s days, Tradechat (who was my bread and butter), did an interview with leda, and i noticed i watched it at some point. felt almost like a sleeper agent with that information xD
SAME!!!
I’m glad TH-cam knew to recommend me this
sameeeee such a good video, ive not thought about Leda in sooo long.
Amazing seeing you here.
omg I love ur channel sm!!!!!!
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i remember seeing her final video, and i remember bawling my eyes out. she came back briefly for like 1 month and posted a few videos YEARSS later only to disappear again. Ive never stopped thinking about her because she was why i started making my own videos and i discovered she wrote her own books and from what i could tell was living life for her.
Everyone talks about her relationship with Nate being weird but most of her boyfriends were older than her. She had a whole ass band write an album about her. Her parents were pretty absent too despite her being with one of them at like all times
what band was it?
@@vandalyzeI believe it was Ghost Town
@@vandalyze The song Game Freak was dedicated to her form Ghost town
Same with a song from SayWeCanFly
Yeah and then the lead singer of that band got outted for being a pedophile so I think that indicates a larger issue we shouldn't just brush off.
her videos got me through middle school and early high school. she inspired me so much and really shaped a lot of who i am today. i still look up to her to this day. hope she's doing well
edit: my jaw just dropped because you reminded me keek existed LOL
Same❤
I found ledas channel in 2010 she had big influence in my style even to this day. Back then i didn't really read youtube comments i was kind of oblivious to the bullying. I never have any issues with her and her personality i really just thought she was a cool and nice person and i wanted to be as cool and nice as her.
Really hope shes thriving whatever shes doing now :)
Thank you for reminding me of Leda ❤❤ I’m 27 now and I grew up watching her videos, I relate hard to her mental health struggles and I used to watch her videos to calm down because she was so soft spoken and sweet. She is so wonderful and I’m only wishing her the best in life ❤️❤️❤️
I miss Leda so much she was such a sweet kind soul. I miss her all the time even after all these years. I understand why she left but I wish we knew she was ok 😭 even if it was her mom just saying she’s happy and healthy but I totally get it why she wants to be private after being public for so long. I also randomly feel like Leda would of loved tiktok she would been in her element doing dance videos and fun acting videos. I really hope she’s okay and surrounded by love she must have a wonderful support system and friends as not a single person has ever leaked anything about her which I admire and I hope it stays that way.
I remember seeing comments on videos of people venting, trauma dumping, specifically going into great detail on self harm to Leda. I can’t imagine taking that on on a daily basis . I really hope she is doing well and thriving right now 🩷
It sounds like she was going through psychosis and not intrusive thoughts. Being confused between reality and fiction, that’s psychosis.
Sounds like psychotic depression
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exactly!
as someone who currently/has struggled with both, yes that sounds like psychosis. im sure she had intrusive thoughts or imagery in her head as she was going through it as well though
I met her in 2016 after her return when she went on the conversations tour. She was my idol since myspace. I love leda so much thank you for making this. ♡
Leda was really a case of “pretty girl let’s hate on her”ism!!
Seriously!!! I remember the way people would talk about her in comment sections. It was so hateful. I fully understand why she left but man I miss her. The fact that I remember every single clip showed in this video and remember the whole video is a testament to how much I watched them and how in my life she was.
Exactly. My friends little sister watched her videos. I was in my mid to late 20s when she got huge and remember seeing some of the comments she would get. Just straight up bullying the girl for no damn reason.
Yes 1000%. I remember the comments she would get. People were so insanely jealous of her.
She was such a sweet girl and I totally agree, she deserved much better!! I was so happy when she released her book, it felt like she was truly creating the life she wanted for herself and I hope that's the reason she's stepped away from the internet! Whatever she's doing now, I hope she's living a wonderful and fulfilling life!
The way my heart skipped when I saw this 😭 I love that people are still thinking of Leda. Her and Jenna Marbles had such a necessary and positive impact on me and they BOTH completely left the internet. (Like I get why but I’m still sad about it)
She was such an earnestly sweet and kind person. It's awful how she was treated- she was very present online, and especially at the time, people often slip up/say something "wrong"/show an ugly side to themselves because we are all human- however she never really seemed to do that- she would not talk poorly of others, etc. It's quite rare, especially for a teenager. I hope that she is living a happy full life now!
I am a lot older than you, but your video popped up on my feed. I have children your age and watched them go through social situations that I couldn't have fathomed going through. There is mental illness in my family and the pressure on my kids to just to learn to love and accept themselves was unbelievable. Well, not to go into a long boring story, people like you and even Leda are positive role models. Be proud of yourself and who you are now and look forward to the wonderful people that you will become. My kids didn't think they would make it through adolescence, but I always tried to steer them towards positivity and got them help when they asked for it. I now have a married daughter who is an ICU RN and is back in school to be an NP, A son who is trans, rebuilds computers and works in IT. I drive the poor kid crazy with my barrage of computer questions and problems! (It's his fault he's practically Einstein! Lol!) The baby of the family, my other son, installs fire alarm systems in new building projects (talk about literally saving lives) and just gave me my first precious grandchild! I am looking forward to my future and theirs. Your generation is going to grow up and save us all. It's all of the old fogey's that are screwing everything up right now and I will apologize to you on their behalf! I am a proud Gen Xer! People still wonder how we survived childhood!? Anyway, keep pushing forward and be proud of yourself. Everyday.
@@genchambers38 this is my favorite comment❤️
I was at that Niagara Falls meet up in 2012 that you featured in this video. Leda was so kind. I have never forgotten that day. She will forever be my favourite TH-camr even if she isn’t around online anymore 🖤
I followed Leda when I was a young teen, and she was definitely a huge inspiration for me growing up. Her originally leaving the internet was so sad, it hurt to hear what she was going through. But at the time I don't think I could quite grasp just how difficult that must have been for her, because I was younger. But I'm now in my 20s and sadly, can relate to some of the things she was feeling back then. If she ever returned, I would also be over the moon, but overall, I just want her to be happy because she deserves it.
I looked up to Leda so much as a teen. She was such a sweet person and so likable, I didn’t understand all the hate. She was one of the few influencers who wasn’t seeking out fame and just wanted to be a positive influence. On one hand, I wish we had more influencers like that online, but I also totally understand why she may have wanted to step back and have a more private life. Like you said, I would be so excited if she ever decided to return, but I respect her choice to leave and just hope wherever she is she’s living her best life 🩷
Your timing is amazing, Ive been watching old Leda videos these past few days 😭 I miss her sm, I really hope shes happy.
Broooo I watch them every so often too 😭😭 I hope that’s not weird cause I’m 30 now but man she was a huge part of my life when I was a kid and I always was so worried for her because I knew how badly she was being bullied.
Thank you for making this video. Leda was one of my favorite content creators back in the day. She always had the coolest hair and seemed so sweet. I agree, she absolutely did not deserve any of the hate she received over the years. Wishing her the best. Also I love your hair!
I got the first 2 of her books and I thought they were really good! I wish she would have finished the series because I think it would have done really well especially now fantasy books seem to be more popular. I miss Leda so much, I would watch her after high school and I felt like we were growing up together since we were about the same age. I wish her nothing but the best
She definitely has ADHD since she always became obsessed with something and then dropped it when it became a lot of work.
I remember crying so much for years after she left youtube. She inspired me to start my channel . Thanks so much for making this video she was seriously my fav creator ever ❤
Leda was what childhood me wanted to look like growing up. When I was like 11 she helped me learn how to embrace my own style and I rmember when she dated Nate and Mattg, two other creators I liked a lot. Its times like this where I wish I knew her personally because I wonder if those affected her and her impact on youtube
omg i loved leda so much and i still think about her. i was almost a super fan and i watched every little video and she was a fountain of inspiration for me.
i remember for years thinking she was the most beautiful person ive ever seen 😭
omg i loved her sm as a kid, she was my biggest scene inspiration back then 😭💖 wherever she is now I hope she’s well and in a better place
Wow I remember watching her! Haven’t thought about her in a decade!
“Hi Guys it’s Bilbo Baggins” lol I loved watching Leda when I was in middle school, she was my scene girl inspo 😭💕 it’s very clear that girls were jealous of Leda during a time that being a “influencer” was not yet a huge hype and more underground, commenters were so unhinged. She deserved better, she was just a kid! She was beautiful, creative, an icon! 💕
thank you so much for making this video, i have always wondered when id see a vid like this about her, she was such a huge part of my upbringing
No matter what she did people tore her apart. :/
My girl deserved better.
Thank you for the video, she was a huge part of my teenage years! I really hope she is doing well now in life and is happy.
"This is the virginity corner"
Me, out loud: Valid, queen.
leda was THAT girl i loved her content back in the warped tour tumblr era of my life
Leda genuinely seems like so nice:( I hope she’s doing okay rn
Just found you on my front page!!! Love the way you talk. Your voice and aura relax me. and the NOSTALGIAAAA
although I will say, I disagree with the classification of a three year age difference as predatory. I find it strange and the dynamic definitely feels bizarre but I dont think the presence of a 3 year age gap immediately necessitates some abuse/statutory aspect. Esp if they stay together -- tho obvi that wasnt the case here
I got to meet her when she was on tour for one of her partners. When I tell you I cried so much meeting her. I gave her a lil espeon plush that night. She’s so sweet!!! She really held me together when I was younger. I’m always hoping she’s doing well!
I recently saw a like renaissance faire “say hello in character “ & I’m 100% sure Leda was in it for a brief second being herself & it made me happy cause she’s probably just living her best life
Do you know where that video is now?
I was going through something similar when leda uploaded that video of her in the field. I was having constant panic attacks and severe anxiety along with depersonalization and derealization, I literally couldn’t feel the world around me and it felt like my brain completely shut down all input from getting into my brain so reality felt muffled. I just wanted to hug her and tell her everything would be okay. Miss her
Scene girls like leda were my inspiration in the early 2010s. Also were part of how i realized i was bi.
I hope shes doing well.
Leda is great and I’ve been following her since she was 14 making videos on ledathefknbanana. I was always a year older than her but I still looked up to her. We were actually gonna be on a TH-cam collab channel in 2014 or 2015 but that ended up being me and some other TH-camrs. She has always seemed like such a sweet soul, and this video really shows people how human she is. I hope for the best for her. Great video!
Absolutely loved Leda, almost was obsessed with her as a teen hahaha. It was so upsetting to see how it all ended. So glad someones speaking about it, I remeber being so shocked at some of the comments i saw back then towards her
I always wished so much better for her :( I can’t imagine ever being mean to someone so sweet and wholesome. I’m about 2 years younger than her and watched her videos since ledafknbanana and looked up to her like an older sister. She showed me what WoW was, cool music, how to do my hair & makeup, gave me ideas for outfits, and was always a positive influence. I hate to say it but I kinda worshiped her but I hope I never attributed to any of the pressure she had felt when she left the internet. I still adore her to this day and I hope she is thriving and living her best life. I’m honestly so glad she left because I just want what’s best for her, but I still wonder who she is today. I hope she’s so so happy ❤❤
Omg Leda... She helped me through such a hard time when I was in high school. I miss her so much.
I completely forgot I had subscribed to her back in the day but I immediately remembered when I was the title and thumbnail of this video.
i was thinking about leda just the other day, i loved her so much she was such an inspiration and light of my day back in middle school and high school.. i'm glad to see others still really care for her too, i hope shes doing alright wherever she is. also just wanted to say i really appreciate this video and takes like yours and specifying it's not for tea or drama... you brought up some good points and awareness i really appreciate this kind of content so thank you !! :)
I swear to God, I might’ve used one of her photos for my Wattpad stories back in the day
Leda was a major inspiration for me as a teen, I always loved her sweet personality and style. She definitely deserved so much better. I’m glad this came up on my suggestions. This felt so nostalgic! I hope she’s living well today
Oh man I used to be obsessed with her!! This video was much needed
19:50 Leda inspired me to color my hair a fashion color for the first time and it truly makes you realize how entitled people feel to YOUR appearance.
Wow this unlocked some memories. I remember the drama other scene queens had with her. The drama with one of her friends and then dating that friends baby daddy, and her other ex boyfriends. She did seem like a sweet individual just a lot of teen drama happening around her and the way her fans bullied her. Hopefully she is living her life now and enjoying her privacy.
Thank you for doing a video on her! Her channel was one of the first ones I found and fell in love with when I started watching videos on TH-cam. She was everything I wanted to be - pretty, smart, funny, cool. I think of her often and hope she’s doing well 🩷
Her books were great shame it never got finished I think that’s what caused her to leave The pressure of it all 😢
i think about leda every now and then and hope shes doing well. thank you for making this video about her! i never realized that she received so much hate back then. she was a big inspiration for teenage me!
I miss her and think about her all of the time. she was a huge inspiration to young me, always so positive and sweet and funny. I so sincerely hope shes happy wherever she is now.
I was just looking her up recently to see how she might be doing. I grew up on her videos. We're close in age, and she was a big source of inspiration for me. I agree with just hoping she is happy and living her best life. She really seemed to be such a genuinely kind person.
Thank you for making this. I definitely agree with you. I can definitely admit to being really attached to her and it was so amazing to finally meet her. She was my first ever TH-camr. She inspired me to finally be brave enough to dye my hair and she started my love of WoW. I looked forward to her videos and would save them and watch them over and over. I'm definitely glad we know more about mental health, burnout, parasocial relationships, and like subjects. I can see how parasocial I was to her and it took me a long time to work through that and respect the space and privacy of current creators that I follow, but I'm glad we are at this point. I loved her books. She is a talented writer and I wish we could have gotten them all. It'd be cool to see her again, but I definitely feel like that isn't a healthy path for her. I want most of all for her to live a happy and healthy life.
Leda’s videos gave me so much comfort, she was my favourite TH-cam creator! I even called my cat black cat Xya 😭 I wish her nothing but the best in life 💜
I hope Leda is okay. I resonate with her story so much, and I kind of had a lot of the same experiences as her. No where near as big of a following as her but still way too young and way too vulnerable to criticism that adults were mostly dishing out to me online. I wish I could go back and take the computer/phone away from little me.
Leda was my childhood, she got me through middle school and early highschool. I miss her online so much❤
I was JUST thinking about Leda 💜 I watched her way back in the day haha like 2010 ish lol
I loved her so much! Her videos really helped me through a very dark time in my life. She made me feel less alone. The hate and negativity she got was so undeserved. I just couldn't understand the way she was bullied. She was a very raw and genuine TH-camr. I hope where ever she is and whatever she does makes her happy the way she made me happy. I would love to see her come back to the internet, but honestly the internet can be so toxic so I understand her stepping away. If she's reading these comments I hope she sees how loved and missed she is.
Leda was a huge inspiration too me when I was a kid. She was just so openly herself and I admired that so much. It was a very sad day when she left, i still think about her from time to time and I really hope shes livng her best life now. She never deserved all of the sh!t that people have her on the internet
Thanks for making the vid! I love when people make videos of her cause it makes me feel like I’m seeing her lol she was a HUGE part of my life as a teenager. We are the same age so I felt super attached to her and used her as a style inspiration. I remember being one of the people defending her constantly because the comments were so brutal. Over everything! It’s insane to me that I remember vividly every single clip you showed. I would watch all her videos multiple times. The scene culture was huge back then. She also was in the wrong crowd I feel. All her boyfriends were much older than her and always seemed to leave her over being depressed. People would both glorify and criticize her relationships I would see people act like they were couple goals or telling her she was dating too many people and moving in too fast. Comments about her style changing as if she wasn’t allowed to grow up and change her taste in clothes. Comments about being immature and “still acting like a kid” even tho she was pretty much a teenager the whole time. I selfishly would want her to come back because I wish I could know how she is but I 100% support her decision to not want to be famous because it seems like hell to me and I would never want that much attention for any reason. She was just so beautiful I feel like it made other girls hate her. She was tall and thin and had these big beautiful eyes and she knew about games and movies and it made boys like her which made other girls hate her more. And she also was just nice. People didn’t wanna believe it. They wanted to “catch” her being rude, they would take things out of context and make it seem like she said something terrible or accuse her of things like “wasting food” or “cursing too much” or “spending too much money” like literally the most insane things to nitpick at. Honestly I don’t wish fame on anyone. It seems awful for both the celeb and the fan. Nobody should worship a stranger this much and nobody should have to live up to so many different expectations either.
I think about Leda every so often loved her vids back in the day
I was literally driving home from work today listening to ghost town and i was thinking about her, perfect timing for this to pop up in my suggestions 🎉
She was my absolute favorite comfort TH-camr in my youth ❤️ I still think about her and I wish she’s doing well ❤️
I was just thinking about her. I miss her. She deserves the best
I wanted to be Leda so bad at one point lol. She influenced a lot of people in a positive way. I liked how she was unapologetically herself. We had similar interests so I felt better about being myself. Those interests were seen as weird especially for females at the time. I agree in that popular myspacers were the first influencers. Which came with all kinds of complications for the creators. It's sad how it ended for her. There's still that part of me that would find comfort in her coming back to making content again. But NOT if it hurts her or isn't something she genuinely wants to do.
@@unknownchu TRUE!!!!! she got so much hate over liking video games and “nerdy” stuff just bc she’s a girl
@ Yeah it’s sad. I got bullied for that stuff too but now it’s popular lul ☠️
I'm always so happy when I see something scene related in 2024❤ I loved her and Ambrehhhisdead was my favourite, I used to bring pics of her to the hairdresser to get the same style. I hope every single one of these girls are okay today❤❤❤
Like someone else said this is a case of "ohh pretty girl, let's bully/hate on her for it"
Now I wanna get my scene hair back, it's so boring being normal ._. I haven't worn my scenekid style in years cause people are so horrible to me whenever I go outside :(
I love her older videos, reminds me of when i was in high school going out with friends. Not having a care in the world...hope shes doing ok ❤
I’m glad when I see someone who knows what actual intrusive thoughts are and the fact that if it’s intrusive you wouldn’t act on it. If you thought something outrageous and acted on it it’d be impulsive, not intrusive.
Your thoughts don’t make you who you are, your actions do. But intrusive thoughts can be so tormenting if you don’t realize what they are. You feel like you’re going crazy. Like your brain is torturing you. It’s always shit you hate in your head.
(I’m also not explicitly saying Leda has this exact problem, I’m just commenting on the creator of the video)
I surely do miss her ❤ When i felt alone I just watched her videos and they always cheered me up but the day she left the internet with her video of her in tears just put me into tears and i was already upset that day and then to hear one of my favorite TH-camrs crying made me wish i was there to hug her
She was like my idol/role model as a teen. I hope shes been doing well now
She deserved better! ;-; I used to watch her videos all the time. I also found out she lived in the same city as me at the time once I started recognizing some places she vlogged at lol
This was a good video. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, on her situation and being respectful! :3
I really adored Leda growing up too. She was i believe a few years older than me. I also remember being in AlexAddicted when she was there and was nothing but a sweetheart but also had to deal with the bpd outbursts the owner had. Which the owner of AA also disappeared a few years before Leda did. It probably didnt help with all Leda was going through because the owner definitely had one of those parasocial obsessions with her.
I also missed the chance to meet her when SayWeCanFly played at my hometowns club but she really stayed away the whole night. My friend ended meeting her because i had to leave to sleep for work and he told her i wanted to say hi and she said hi back but i wonder if i just added to that sadness of people pleasing 😢
In a lighter note, i really hope shes doing well for herself! This video really made me feel like a teenager again in the 2010s and it felt nice just to chill for a minute like i was back in time. Thanks for the way you said this, i feel it was nicely phrased
I miss her so much but I really hope she is truly thriving nowadays. We followed eacother on Twitter about 5 years ago and I had the pleasure of interacting with her on there back then. She is truly a very kind soul.
HER AND HANNAH MINX :( miss them sm
literally been thinking about leda sm lately!!!
I always wondered what happened to her. I didn’t see her around anymore and her TH-cam was down. She never deserved any of the hate she got. I hope she’s doing well.
i remember accidentally stumbling upon a hate forum that was dedicated to JUST hating on her. one that stuck out to me was them pointing at how “gRoSs” her acne was and they were like blaming her for it being bad???!? it was infuriating and horrifying to behold. At that point in my life i didn’t realize that people were THAT chronically online and horrible…. i genuinely don’t get it. it makes me so sad
Oof, when she was listening to Warp 1.9 while showing her scene photo. I've been listening to that song quite a bit lately, so that tripped me out
im too young to have watched ledas videos when they came out but this was still really interesting to watch
i love Leda 😭 she was such a treasure 🥺
I remember when her goodbye video dropped. She was my favorite channel to watch, I didn't want her to go
It's always crazy when I have old youtubers and channels that I used to watch and pop up again. I used to love the scene style and her style and wished I could have a similar style to her and others. She seemed so sweet and I could only wish her the best and still do. She did not deserve the hate she got. Its so awful to bully and criticize someone like people did to her. Thank you for doing this video !!!
YES! 1000 times yes.
I rewatched her videos loads of times, and dedicated a school project to her in 2012. I wanted the woolyton jewelry SO BAD. and the strobe cosmetics makeup powders she used. I really looked up to her like an internet older sister. I still follow her instagram, and love her forever! I hope she is doing well, and I hope she knows she doesn't owe any one a single thing. I just want her to live her life happy like she deserves.
I remember watching her videos all the time in middle school, seeing her so happy and being herself all the time really inspired me. Back then being into the "alternative,otaku,scene style" wasn't really something considered "cool" or actually comprehended by many. Unlike today where we have big social media platforms that push and amnplify these new styles out of nowhere and build algorythms that will make you more seen with what you watch. I feel like she really had a great community back when it wasn't really easy to build one.
Honestly I knew she received alot of hate but never noticed it that much since I was a child myself and just saw her bubbly presonality on screen. She really was like the big sister that I never had. :(
I really hope she is doing well and wish her the best where ever she is and what ever she is doing.
Aw I miss Leda :( she was my inspo growing up and influenced my fashion and interests so much! I hope she’s doing good and has found the time to care for herself ❤
She built a brand and huge following from scratch which was very difficult back then not like today with the fast form content. Props to her frfr I hope she’s proud of that! She really was that girl and is still relevant today! Some people just have that spark and draw you in… I don’t blame her for pulling away from social media it’s toxic af sometimes the money and exposure isn’t worth the mental drain. Love her! And so does little me and I think that’s why so many of us still think about these certain creators they helped shape our teenage years more than they could ever imagine… what a time! 🥹
I vstill have my note from her first tshirt drop, I miss her. But I know she's better off in a private life
I’ve always loved Leda and was so sad to see her disappear from the internet
holy shit i had forgotten about leda completely. what a blast from the past.
I was never into scene or emo stuff but Leda seemed like a sweetheart
I found Leda when I was 17/18, she was so beautiful!! And I imagine still is! It's so sad she went through all of this.
I’m literally alive because of her. I had a plan; she was doing a “24 hour” live stream with a couple friends. I started watching the stream and fell asleep instead. 🥺🥺
I got Kik because of her.
I remember watching pretty much all of the videos shown here.
I even use photos of Leda when getting my hair cut.
I haven't heard about her in a long time. She really helped me through high school. I miss her and hope she's well. ❤
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leda is so sweet, i can't believe how jealousy made people leave such hateful comments to her. it's always the nice people who get the most shit. thanks for this video!! brought me back to my scene queen days