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Hi Caroline, when you were talking about your Dad I wanted to reach through the screen to give you a massive hug, sending you a virtual one instead. You are so right about not knowing what people might be going through, we could always do with more kindness in the world ❤
Oh this rang so true, I lost my dad 2 years ago and my mum 10 years ago, and the way people think that I’m ok and over it! It’s not something I’ll ever get over, it comes in waves and hits you when you don’t expect it. Sending you my good wishes ❤
There is no time limit on grief, I think we always miss and mourn those we lose who are close to us. My best friend died when we were both 16 and I still think of her almost every week.
Just listened to you talking about your Dad Caroline - so brave of you to open up like that. I lost my Dad to dementia in July, but as you say, they are gone way before from the person they were before this cruel disease took hold. Sending huge hugs and thoughts, especially at this time of year xx
Hi Caroline loved the tree and the set of 3 cones . I can only imagine the hurt and grief you and your family are going threw .sending love stay strong xx
Dementia is as you said is such a cruel disease. Spending time with my uncle at his facility can be a source of lots of smiles or at times tears in the parking lot. He and your dad are incredibly lucky to have a family who care for them. So many families can't handle the changes and simply don't visit. You are a blessing to your dad. He has someone who loves him unconditionally. Sending hugs because sometimes we just need them. Thank you for the great trinket ideas for gents.. Enjoy your week and thank you for being you.
Hi Caroline, I feel for you so much, Christmas is difficult for a lot of people and it doesn’t help that the TV and other media outlets put so much emphasis on a happy family, with no stress and a table groaning with food and an abundance of everything else. The fact is Christmas is a sad and difficult time for many of us, myself included as I miss my Parents so much. Hang on in there and take things a day at a time, we are all with you in that most of us are dealing with the same issues. Big hugs from Germany 🇩🇪 xx.
You're so right, so many of us not feeling as we'd like to at this time of year. I'm just going with it this year, taking moments of joy as and when they arrive and enjoying them, and just accepting that not every day will be as joyful as I'd like. x
Lovely video, Caroline. I so agree with you that card shopping can really trigger the emotions…..whenever I see the Mother’s and Father’s Day cards come out, even after so many years, it fills me with sadness…..I remember being overwhelmed after my Mom’s passing whenever I was in the aisle of a DIY store that had stains and varnishes for refinishing furniture, and it really took me by surprise because, while she had occasionally refinished a piece or two, I didn’t realize how strongly I connected her with those things….grief IS a very individual, very erratic process….sending loving thoughts your way as we are all in this together, and THAT’S the good part❤
Thanks Caroline. I'm loving watching your videos as I have been living in Spain for almost 5 years and feel incredibly lonely. It's hard to get certain stuff here so it's great to keep up with what's going on xx
My prayers are with you & your family. Dealing with dementia isn't easy & is heartbreaking. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my dad and now my mom.
In December last year I had a complete meltdown buying my Dad a birthday card and a Christmas card to mum & dad. My dad had terminal cancer at the time and I knew it was the last year I would buy those cards. I grieved him before he actually passed, and felt relief when he eventually left and was no longer suffering. Heading towards his birthday and Christmas, the grief is hitting hard again. There are no rules, and everyone deals with things in the own way, but the world would certainly be a better place if we were all kind to each other. Sending hugs ❤
Hello Caroline, I went through the same with my Mum and I think in reality you lose them twice. You lose them during dementia and then again when they go. It’s awful for the poor soul suffering the illness and all their loved ones. I do feel for you and your Mum. It’s so so hard. What a lovely idea with the same card for them both. I can’t go into card shops this time of year. Without Mum and Dad to buy a card for now, it is just so very, very sad. I’m weeping just writing this. Take care of yourself. Thinking of you (and your Mum and Dad). Yes, thinking the best of people is definitely the right approach. 🤗🤗
Mrs M thank you for putting into words what I'm feeling, my dear mum has vascular dementia, I miss her terribly. It is just so unbearable to think of her in that home. My heart goes out to you. ❤
Hi Caroline, my heart went out to you when you were talking about your dad, dementia is such a cruel disease. And you are right you never know what is going on in someone's life so we should always try and be kind. Love your trio of trees and the tree in your hall is beautiful, I have never seen one like that. I am sure the carers will love the advent calendars what a thoughtful thing to do. Really enjoying your channel, thank you.
I can really relate to you regarding grief. I lost my mum 4 months ago and I am overwhelmed with the pain of grief. I am not sure what life looks like without her 😢😢
The tree is perfect as well as the 3 trees upstairs. You are so kind in making the advent calenders for the staff where you dad is. It is very sad and really tragic that our family members can become so lost. Grief is a strange thing. I lost my baby son at 14months. I was also 8 months pregnant with my daughter. I was not quite 22. I am 79 now. I can be in a store or just driving somewhere. Something will trigger a momement of grief, whether a little baby with blond hair in a shopping cart, or cards for little boys birthdays. It will hit like a knot in my gut. So unexpected and i try to get thru it as best i can. With your dad, it is as if he is gone. You see him but hes really not there. Im so glad you met a new friend. Thats wonderful. Thank you for sharing about your dad. Its good to talk about it. Have a wonderful week❤
I always enjoy your videos. It's like a chat with a friend. My thoughts are with you and your family during the holidays. You're right, the grief is always with us, but it seems like this time of year it can be more intense. As you say - you feel your feelings and move on.
I know this feeling. When overwhelming sadness comes over you. I look around and everyone seems happy but like you say we don’t know what is going on in other peoples lives ❤
Caroline I cannot believe it’s two years since your dad went into the cars home, I understand completely about your feelings re your dad not being there, it’s like your dad sitting there but his soul and heart and personality is somewhere else.
First time I’ve heard of Costway so I’ll check that out and I love the 3 lights up trees. The multi coloured one looks so nice but I don’t have space for one of those. Such a cosy welcome home. Thank you for sharing your words of grief, you are so right about the waves of grief and no two people grieve the same. I’m sure too that so often there are things you want to tell your Dad, or share with your Dad. I’m sure you do, without expectation of a valid response. You are so kind and generous with your gifts for the home.
Big hugs to you Caroline, I resonated so much with what you said about your dad. My dad also had dementia and as you say you grieve for their personality that gets taken but their body is still here. I totally understand. The Luther Vandross song ‘ dance with my father’ always reduces me to tears as my dad loved dancing and music. 19 years since he passed now and 6 years my mom but both still very much missed by me. Christmas and birthdays always harder. Your cone trees and your entrance porch both look fabulous and very pretty. Your advent boxes are a lovely idea and I’m sure will be much appreciated. Xxxx
A short story about you, Caroline: I'm American and I live in Florida. I started watching your try on videos shortly before the 'outbreak' of that 'flu'. I'm a hopeless Anglophile - I love your country and your people. So I had watched several and got to know your bubbly personality and cheery countenance. And then the lockdowns started. Remember, I live in "Free Florida" so I didn''t experience what so many people in so many places did but no American went through what you folks did. You were typical 'stiff upper lip' British during the first lockdown. The second lockdown you were a little disappointed with. The last one, you broke my heart. If I remember correctly, your son couldn't get home from the university and I think your husband was out of town on business and couldn't get back. In this particular video that broke my heart, you were sitting at your kitchen (?) table with a cup of tea, gazing out the window. You were so depressed. You didn't even want to go out for a walk. I'll never forget that. Even your 'difficult stuff' you discussed in this video didn't affect you like that last lockdown did. You have my heart.
I rewatched that video recently - it was Will’s 21st birthday and I couldn’t get him a nice card because the shops were all closed except the food shops, and it broke me. I remember it well. Awful times. Thank you for your lovely comment xx
I agree with you about the grieving for someone with dementia, I feel that you grieve for them twice. Once they start losing their memory, and then once when they pass. Hugs to you and your family for what you're going through, I went through that with my grandma. You just hug them a little harder and longer. God Bless
Hi Caroline , I love the dress on you and your trees are lovely I think you should buy another on for your hall to sit in the other end of your door huni ,hugs Katie
I can relate to your words, Caroline. For the first time ever, I’ve been going through bouts of anxiety this year. When I mentioned to someone at work that I was struggling, he said that I was the last person he’d have expected because I always look so in control. So, yes, you never know what someone is going through. Love to you and your family.
We just have to roll with it. So right, you never know what's going on in other's lives I just try being kind - sending loving kindness to you and the family ~
Oh Caroline you had me in tears talking about your dad. I lost my dad 20 years ago to cancer and even now certain things will set me off. I have friends who have lost their parents to dementia and it’s such a cruel disease.
Thanks Caroline, emotions grab and overwhelm when you least expect them. Love the advent calendars such a nice idea. Great lights, I’m edging towards more minimalistic decs these days! Is your jumper new? quite fancy one like that.
Mum died last October in a care home of dementia, but we actually lost her 18 months before that, to watch her slip away from us month by month was indescribable, so when she finally died it was a kind of relief in a way, and not as sad as losing dad who died suddenly and unexpectedly. I still feel more sadness over dad’s sudden death than mum’s , who’s was actually a release from the living hell she was in . My beautiful, kind, caring and loving mum had drifted away over the years into an empty shell that no longer recognised my sister and I. I understand how you feel completely xx
Hi Caroline, I had a little weep with you when you were on about you dad. I'm going through that myself with my husband and it just gets worse as you will know. But like you said if you want a little cry then do it and don't bottle it up. I have been watching you now for a few years and I don't blame you keeping your family life separate. You take care xxx
Hi Caroline, I completely understand, as a family we are supporting my mum who is perhaps "mid stages" , devastating disease, you feel like your coping ok, an then it washes over you. On a positive note , loved those trees ! Thank you for taking the time to do the video ❤ xx
beautiful decorations understand about your dad same thing happened to my mum 😢 and lost my wonderful hubby in february who i cry for everyday but trying my best to keep going always enjoy your blog x
Morning Caroline, Xmas is a wonderful time of year ,but can be an incredibly sad time too. I lost Dad 40 yrs ago and Mum 30yrs ago both to cancer ,but every year I look at the Xmas cards for Mum and Dad ,it still gets to me. I think too in the case of your dad and my parents too when the illness is terminal, you do a lot of grieving before they pass ,and it's almost a slight release when it happens though still incredibly sad. On a brighter note that Xmas tree looks soo lovely,a lovely warm welcome home for Ashley when he comes home after world 😄. Not to keen on the blue dress ,however ,your previous try on all the evening dresses you looked stunning in all of them , couldn't have chosen the best all beautiful .😍
Hi Caroline Just wanted to say although you’re not doing Vlogmas this year, this video was just lovely and felt Christmassy, beautiful tree and entrance to your home, and you’re lovely dress, Cobalt blue really is your colour, I love how you’ve thought about the care home staff this Christmas too, I’m so sorry that your dad is ill, I’ve just found out that my dad at 76 has just been diagnosed with prostate cancer and it’s unthinkable to see a future without him But as a family we will continue to enjoy time together and take each day as it comes Much love to you Caroline x
I totally relate to your experience of grief with your dad , I remember when my mum was diagnosed at 73 with Alzheimer’s the grieving started with that diagnosis, I only discovered in the last week that there is a name for this and it’s called anticipatory grief , you think you have done all your grieving whilst they are living but sadly a different type arrives after their death , you really have my deepest sympathies . Dementia is a thief ,a stealer of people everyday a little more of that person is lost it is the saddest of illnesses for that person and their family and friends , however although he isn’t the dad he was he is still your dad so love him as hard as you can whilst he is with you , big hugs 🤗 xxx
Hi lovely Caroline , sending you a big hug...💞💞💞, its truly the worst disease , seeing the person you love slowly dissapearing , life is very cruel....love also to your dear mum 💞💞, thank you for sharing , i think it helps for people to not feel so alone....and this time of year is always the most difficult....Loved your tree it was gorgeous...and how very kind you are doing those advent calendars.....i read a quote somewhere it says.... if your kind and polite the world will be alright.....if only everyone was , wouldn't that be lovely , do take care of yourself , and take lots of lovely baths...i love em.....have a lovely week xxxx💝💝💝💝
Sending you a big Hug💕 My Auntie was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and Dementia this year she’s changed so much, she wasn’t just my Auntie but my best friend, thankfully at the moment she still remembers me😞It’s such a cruel disease for the whole family. Love watching you on you tube 😘😘
Sending love to you. This time of year is especially difficult when you're grieving. I've learned to just respect moments like those when they come, understand it's deep love that brings me to those low points and that they will ebb once again. Those are very wise words, reminding us that we never know where someone is at any time. Kindness always. xx Patty
It is hard I have lost my Mum &Dad Christmas is never the same , we have our ups and downs it never gets easy we just learn to live with it . And hopefully happy memories ❤
My heart goes out to you and your family dealing with your dad’s horrible disease xmas can be a very difficult time thinking of you all, the trees look lovely very pretty and you found an ideal spot for them both, the blue dress looks lovely very flattering 👍🏻❤️
I see a new video and I get a little surge of joy! Such a sweet one today. For me Christmas is time for those moments of emotion. I used to try to hide them but I don’t now. I can’t help it, it is part of my life kaleidoscope. 💐
How our moods can change when talking regarding your Dad and became so tearful you made me so sad Caroline .. your sadness lifted with happiness seeing your beautiful trees .. Sending Blessings thank you for sharing xx if you visit London your in the New Year .. your son is a Bus ride from me . Coffee cake on me .. x
I understand about your Dad Caroline, I lost my Mom a few years ago and she had dementia in her last couple of years. However, I lost my husband in September and Christmas is looming heavily. Good friends help but you are right, no one knows what is going on behind the smile. Much love Sue Xxx
I related 100% to your thoughts about your dad. I felt Exactly the same over my dear mum. It’s so sad, and I grieved after every visit. Sending you hugs ❤
Hi Caroline I know exactly how you feel about grief. My lovely husband has recently had to go into a nursing home and I feel as though I have lost him already. It’s been six weeks now but I still find myself crying most days and I’m amazed that people think I should have got used to it by now - I doubt I ever will. Sending love and hugs to you and your mum who will understand exactly how I feel. xx
Sending you a really big hug, Caroline.I feel I'm on my own at times moved my Mum in with us after losing my Dad in covid times.Now Mum as been diagnosed with dementia..Thank you.xx
Those moments are very difficult.. i always say better out than in! Those emotions can be bad for you so it helps to have a little weep. My Dad passed 5 years ago ( dementia and cancer) and still get emotional in card shops cos i cant buy a “Dad” card. Xx
Lovely vlog Caroline! The Christmas trees looked great and I love the dress on you, bargain! Dementia is indeed a very cruel disease, apart from my nan, who got it when she was 90, I fortunately have no experience of it in my family, but am so aware that it’s always a possibility for anyone. I worry mostly if I got it and the effects it would have on my children. I’m not worried for myself personally, but just hope that they would do what is best for them to cope with the situation. Very sad indeed, my heart goes out to you, I can’t imagine how I would have felt if my parents hadn’t at any time known who I was, it must be heartbreaking 😢❤. Thankyou so much for sharing, take care xx
My best friend's mum also has dementia, and she (my best friend) and I have discussed living wills and assisted suicide for ourselves should we ever find ourselves diagnosed with it (without coming to any conclusions). The toll dementia takes on both the sufferer and their family (emotional, mental, physical and even financial) is truly horrendous.
You are so thoughtful to make those advent calendars for your dad's carers, I'm sure they will appreciate your effort and the fun little surprise each day! It's very difficult experiencing the health decline of our elderly loved ones, and as you say - dementia is particularly cruel. I think it's so lovely that you buy your mum and dad the same card, while sad, I'm sure it must bring some comfort to your mum. xoxo p.s. Seeing you turn on those new trees makes me want to pull out my xmas decor boxes tomorrow!
Have been through dementia with my Mom and it is not easy I undetstand your exact feelings but sharing your thoughts from time to time does help so do so when you feel blue❤
Hello Caroline. Your heart felt talk about your Dad and dementia was sad however many people going though that heartbreaking illness with love ones need to feel they are not alone and feel as you do...in my humble opinion, no respect to all the other horrible decreases people suffer ..forgiving one's life,children, grandchildren, love ones is so cruel for everyone involved..my heart and prayers go out to you...
You've had a mix of emotions today Caroline. I'm pleased you got some joy from your new tree - it looks lovely. Also I've been using that eyeshadow for a while - I think its brilliant. Highly pigmented, long lasting - and cheap! In fact I've often thought of asking you if you'd tried it. I'm pleased I can see how its looks on someone else.The advent calendars for your Dad's carers are a lovely idea. I'm sure your thoughtfulness is much appreciated..❤
Totally understand about your dad and your sadness caroline, and on subject of celebrity jungle programme i don't watch either anymore same with come dancing got fed up with same as same as , keep doing what you do your very entertaining and honest happy christmas to you both xx
I’m still watching ‘I’m A Celebrity’. It’s an unusual series with two campmates quitting, I don’t remember that ever happening before! I love your Christmas tree, it’s so pretty and looks perfect where you’ve put it 🎄
Caroline I could feel your emotion, and have been there. Certain times of the year makes you reflect. Go with how you feel it is normal and if you need to cry that is normal too. Love your trees and advent calendar ideas that is very generous of you to do that for the people who look after your dad I am sure they are very touched by it. Big hug and remember the happy times with your dad and mum. xx
Hi Caroline It’s not an easy time when a loved one has dementia it was music with me that used to upset me I feel for you and your mum You are looking so well after your operation I’m pleased you are doing well The tree looks beautiful Have a good week xx❤️❤️❤️❤️
I can so relate to the grief you mentioned - my Dad ( also called Bill) suffered from dementia and passed away 5 years ago. I also lost my mum to cancer 30 years ago when she was just 52. I still find myself in tears at times (at almost 55 ). The card shopping is particularly hard. On a happier note, I love Philosophy too - currently using Candy Cane and just found out it initially won awards for best shampoo - I tried it as such and my hair felt great with a beautiful shine. I am a sucker for a lovely scented bath and body product !
What a jam packed video Caroline. Sorry to hear about your Dad being unwell it can’t be easy for everyone involved. Loved your trees and the lights are wonderful, just right for your hallway oh and the trees upstairs look very grand I love them all. I have been watching your channel for a few weeks now on a recommendation from Tina’stalktime and I’m so glad i did. Your varied videos are quite refreshing. Thank you, see you on the next one and all the best when you visit Dad ❤
The advent Calanders for the care home staff is such a lovely idea. Sending much love to you and your mum and brother, so sad, especially at this time of year. I’m only dipping in and out of IAC this year. Hope you’re feeling much better now.
Oh o love that blue dress on you!!! It looks amazing. ❤ The advent calenders you are doing are lovely and really thoughtful, I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad, I work in adult social care- it’s such a cruel disease. ❤
I loved both the Christmas tree but struggled with the site and not find either 😢. I must say you look so well I love your new hair cut and todays jumper and make up really suited you .
Such a very hard thing to go through. Sending you love and thinking of everyone who is dealing with grief. The eyeshadow looks amazing and lasted really well. Those trees are stunning xx
Love your tree at the door❤, laughed when you switched off the light and showed us what it looks like from outside. 😂 Just what I would do! Definitely going to have a look, quite fancy one for my front door!
I grieved for Mum the minute the signs came followed by the diagnosis of dementia it is so painful. My heart goes out to you and your family, it is terrible. Now my parents are both gone NOT buying cards for birthdays, Christmas or Mothers and Father’s Day ever again is so sad and heavy. Temu sells very inexpensive liners for your wax melt they are great and not as thick as the silicone so melts quicker, easy clean up. Great catch up.
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Hi Caroline, when you were talking about your Dad I wanted to reach through the screen to give you a massive hug, sending you a virtual one instead. You are so right about not knowing what people might be going through, we could always do with more kindness in the world ❤
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Hi Caroline Great to catch up with you the Christmas things look reaĺlly nice. I'm not into I'm a celeb this year at all so given up on it too.
Me too, only lasted a couple of days this year
Oh this rang so true, I lost my dad 2 years ago and my mum 10 years ago, and the way people think that I’m ok and over it! It’s not something I’ll ever get over, it comes in waves and hits you when you don’t expect it. Sending you my good wishes ❤
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There is no time limit on grief, I think we always miss and mourn those we lose who are close to us. My best friend died when we were both 16 and I still think of her almost every week.
Just listened to you talking about your Dad Caroline - so brave of you to open up like that. I lost my Dad to dementia in July, but as you say, they are gone way before from the person they were before this cruel disease took hold. Sending huge hugs and thoughts, especially at this time of year xx
Hi Caroline loved the tree and the set of 3 cones . I can only imagine the hurt and grief you and your family are going threw .sending love stay strong xx
Dementia is as you said is such a cruel disease. Spending time with my uncle at his facility can be a source of lots of smiles or at times tears in the parking lot. He and your dad are incredibly lucky to have a family who care for them. So many families can't handle the changes and simply don't visit. You are a blessing to your dad. He has someone who loves him unconditionally. Sending hugs because sometimes we just need them. Thank you for the great trinket ideas for gents.. Enjoy your week and thank you for being you.
I do feel for you Caroline. Grief hits us when we least expect it. Take care of yourself.x
Hi Caroline, I feel for you so much, Christmas is difficult for a lot of people and it doesn’t help that the TV and other media outlets put so much emphasis on a happy family, with no stress and a table groaning with food and an abundance of everything else. The fact is Christmas is a sad and difficult time for many of us, myself included as I miss my Parents so much. Hang on in there and take things a day at a time, we are all with you in that most of us are dealing with the same issues. Big hugs from Germany 🇩🇪 xx.
You're so right, so many of us not feeling as we'd like to at this time of year. I'm just going with it this year, taking moments of joy as and when they arrive and enjoying them, and just accepting that not every day will be as joyful as I'd like. x
Lovely video, Caroline. I so agree with you that card shopping can really trigger the emotions…..whenever I see the Mother’s and Father’s Day cards come out, even after so many years, it fills me with sadness…..I remember being overwhelmed after my Mom’s passing whenever I was in the aisle of a DIY store that had stains and varnishes for refinishing furniture, and it really took me by surprise because, while she had occasionally refinished a piece or two, I didn’t realize how strongly I connected her with those things….grief IS a very individual, very erratic process….sending loving thoughts your way as we are all in this together, and THAT’S the good part❤
Thanks Caroline. I'm loving watching your videos as I have been living in Spain for almost 5 years and feel incredibly lonely. It's hard to get certain stuff here so it's great to keep up with what's going on xx
My prayers are with you & your family. Dealing with dementia isn't easy & is heartbreaking. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my dad and now my mom.
In December last year I had a complete meltdown buying my Dad a birthday card and a Christmas card to mum & dad. My dad had terminal cancer at the time and I knew it was the last year I would buy those cards. I grieved him before he actually passed, and felt relief when he eventually left and was no longer suffering. Heading towards his birthday and Christmas, the grief is hitting hard again. There are no rules, and everyone deals with things in the own way, but the world would certainly be a better place if we were all kind to each other. Sending hugs ❤
Hello Caroline, I went through the same with my Mum and I think in reality you lose them twice. You lose them during dementia and then again when they go. It’s awful for the poor soul suffering the illness and all their loved ones. I do feel for you and your Mum. It’s so so hard.
What a lovely idea with the same card for them both. I can’t go into card shops this time of year. Without Mum and Dad to buy a card for now, it is just so very, very sad. I’m weeping just writing this. Take care of yourself. Thinking of you (and your Mum and Dad). Yes, thinking the best of people is definitely the right approach. 🤗🤗
Mrs M thank you for putting into words what I'm feeling, my dear mum has vascular dementia, I miss her terribly. It is just so unbearable to think of her in that home. My heart goes out to you. ❤
Hi Caroline. What a lot you packed into that video. I enjoyed spending the time with you! ❤
Hi Caroline, my heart went out to you when you were talking about your dad, dementia is such a cruel disease. And you are right you never know what is going on in someone's life so we should always try and be kind. Love your trio of trees and the tree in your hall is beautiful, I have never seen one like that. I am sure the carers will love the advent calendars what a thoughtful thing to do. Really enjoying your channel, thank you.
I can really relate to you regarding grief. I lost my mum 4 months ago and I am overwhelmed with the pain of grief. I am not sure what life looks like without her 😢😢
The tree is perfect as well as the 3 trees upstairs. You are so kind in making the advent calenders for the staff where you dad is. It is very sad and really tragic that our family members can become so lost. Grief is a strange thing. I lost my baby son at 14months. I was also 8 months pregnant with my daughter. I was not quite 22. I am 79 now. I can be in a store or just driving somewhere. Something will trigger a momement of grief, whether a little baby with blond hair in a shopping cart, or cards for little boys birthdays. It will hit like a knot in my gut. So unexpected and i try to get thru it as best i can. With your dad, it is as if he is gone. You see him but hes really not there. Im so glad you met a new friend. Thats wonderful. Thank you for sharing about your dad. Its good to talk about it. Have a wonderful week❤
My heart goes out to you Caroline. Life can be so difficult by times.Be good to yourself
I always enjoy your videos. It's like a chat with a friend. My thoughts are with you and your family during the holidays. You're right, the grief is always with us, but it seems like this time of year it can be more intense. As you say - you feel your feelings and move on.
I know this feeling. When overwhelming sadness comes over you. I look around and everyone seems happy but like you say we don’t know what is going on in other peoples lives ❤
Sorry you know this feeling as well Deborah. I think many of us do. x
Sending so much love and hugs to you and anyone who's feeling the same right now. You're definitely not alone ❤❤ xxx
Thank you x
Your trees look absolutely beautiful. So sorry about your dad.
Caroline I cannot believe it’s two years since your dad went into the cars home, I understand completely about your feelings re your dad not being there, it’s like your dad sitting there but his soul and heart and personality is somewhere else.
It was two years in Oct, can’t believe it really
First time I’ve heard of Costway so I’ll check that out and I love the 3 lights up trees. The multi coloured one looks so nice but I don’t have space for one of those. Such a cosy welcome home. Thank you for sharing your words of grief, you are so right about the waves of grief and no two people grieve the same. I’m sure too that so often there are things you want to tell your Dad, or share with your Dad. I’m sure you do, without expectation of a valid response. You are so kind and generous with your gifts for the home.
Big hugs to you Caroline, I resonated so much with what you said about your dad. My dad also had dementia and as you say you grieve for their personality that gets taken but their body is still here. I totally understand. The Luther Vandross song ‘ dance with my father’ always reduces me to tears as my dad loved dancing and music. 19 years since he passed now and 6 years my mom but both still very much missed by me. Christmas and birthdays always harder.
Your cone trees and your entrance porch both look fabulous and very pretty.
Your advent boxes are a lovely idea and I’m sure will be much appreciated. Xxxx
Oh yes, that song breaks both me and Ashley. Too hard to listen to x
Sending a hug, I often say that you never know what people are going through and we should be kind. Your hair looks gorgeous btw.x
A short story about you, Caroline: I'm American and I live in Florida. I started watching your try on videos shortly before the 'outbreak' of that 'flu'. I'm a hopeless Anglophile - I love your country and your people. So I had watched several and got to know your bubbly personality and cheery countenance. And then the lockdowns started. Remember, I live in "Free Florida" so I didn''t experience what so many people in so many places did but no American went through what you folks did. You were typical 'stiff upper lip' British during the first lockdown. The second lockdown you were a little disappointed with. The last one, you broke my heart. If I remember correctly, your son couldn't get home from the university and I think your husband was out of town on business and couldn't get back. In this particular video that broke my heart, you were sitting at your kitchen (?) table with a cup of tea, gazing out the window. You were so depressed. You didn't even want to go out for a walk. I'll never forget that. Even your 'difficult stuff' you discussed in this video didn't affect you like that last lockdown did. You have my heart.
I rewatched that video recently - it was Will’s 21st birthday and I couldn’t get him a nice card because the shops were all closed except the food shops, and it broke me. I remember it well. Awful times. Thank you for your lovely comment xx
I agree with you about the grieving for someone with dementia, I feel that you grieve for them twice. Once they start losing their memory, and then once when they pass. Hugs to you and your family for what you're going through, I went through that with my grandma. You just hug them a little harder and longer. God Bless
Thank you, and so sorry you've been through the same as well
Hi Caroline , I love the dress on you and your trees are lovely I think you should buy another on for your hall to sit in the other end of your door huni ,hugs Katie
I can relate to your words, Caroline. For the first time ever, I’ve been going through bouts of anxiety this year. When I mentioned to someone at work that I was struggling, he said that I was the last person he’d have expected because I always look so in control. So, yes, you never know what someone is going through. Love to you and your family.
We just have to roll with it. So right, you never know what's going on in other's lives I just try being kind - sending loving kindness to you and the family ~
Oh Caroline you had me in tears talking about your dad. I lost my dad 20 years ago to cancer and even now certain things will set me off. I have friends who have lost their parents to dementia and it’s such a cruel disease.
So many horrible, cruel diseases Caroline. ❤
Thanks Caroline, emotions grab and overwhelm when you least expect them. Love the advent calendars such a nice idea. Great lights, I’m edging towards more minimalistic decs these days! Is your jumper new? quite fancy one like that.
Mum died last October in a care home of dementia, but we actually lost her 18 months before that, to watch her slip away from us month by month was indescribable, so when she finally died it was a kind of relief in a way, and not as sad as losing dad who died suddenly and unexpectedly. I still feel more sadness over dad’s sudden death than mum’s , who’s was actually a release from the living hell she was in . My beautiful, kind, caring and loving mum had drifted away over the years into an empty shell that no longer recognised my sister and I.
I understand how you feel completely xx
Completely understand your sentiments Janine about it being a release when your mum finally died, I suspect I will feel exactly the same. x
Hi Caroline,
I had a little weep with you when you were on about you dad.
I'm going through that myself with my husband and it just gets worse as you will know.
But like you said if you want a little cry then do it and don't bottle it up.
I have been watching you now for a few years and I don't blame you keeping your family life separate.
You take care xxx
Sending a hug to you. I understand how you feel.xx A lot of us are there with you.xx
Thank you x
Hi Caroline, I completely understand, as a family we are supporting my mum who is perhaps "mid stages" , devastating disease, you feel like your coping ok, an then it washes over you.
On a positive note , loved those trees ! Thank you for taking the time to do the video ❤ xx
beautiful decorations understand about your dad same thing happened to my mum 😢 and lost my wonderful hubby in february who i cry for everyday but trying my best to keep going always enjoy your blog x
so sorry for your loss, particularly difficult at this time of year with all the enforced jollity. Thinking of you x
Oh I just love the colours on the slim hall tree….i feel like the multi coloured lights are coming back into fashion 😊😊xx
Morning Caroline, Xmas is a wonderful time of year ,but can be an incredibly sad time too. I lost Dad 40 yrs ago and Mum 30yrs ago both to cancer ,but every year I look at the Xmas cards for Mum and Dad ,it still gets to me. I think too in the case of your dad and my parents too when the illness is terminal, you do a lot of grieving before they pass ,and it's almost a slight release when it happens though still incredibly sad. On a brighter note that Xmas tree looks soo lovely,a lovely warm welcome home for Ashley when he comes home after world 😄. Not to keen on the blue dress ,however ,your previous try on all the evening dresses you looked stunning in all of them , couldn't have chosen the best all beautiful .😍
Definitely agree with you about grieving in advance and the eventual death being something of a release, Barbara. x
Hi Caroline
Just wanted to say although you’re not doing Vlogmas this year, this video was just lovely and felt Christmassy, beautiful tree and entrance to your home, and you’re lovely dress,
Cobalt blue really is your colour,
I love how you’ve thought about the care home staff this Christmas too, I’m so sorry that your dad is ill, I’ve just found out that my dad at 76 has just been diagnosed with prostate cancer and it’s unthinkable to see a future without him
But as a family we will continue to enjoy time together and take each day as it comes
Much love to you Caroline x
So sorry about your dad, Dawn, sending positive thoughts xx
So sad- I’ve lost my Mum and Dad, never the same without them xx
I totally relate to your experience of grief with your dad , I remember when my mum was diagnosed at 73 with Alzheimer’s the grieving started with that diagnosis, I only discovered in the last week that there is a name for this and it’s called anticipatory grief , you think you have done all your grieving whilst they are living but sadly a different type arrives after their death , you really have my deepest sympathies . Dementia is a thief ,a stealer of people everyday a little more of that person is lost it is the saddest of illnesses for that person and their family and friends , however although he isn’t the dad he was he is still your dad so love him as hard as you can whilst he is with you , big hugs 🤗 xxx
Hi lovely Caroline , sending you a big hug...💞💞💞, its truly the worst disease , seeing the person you love slowly dissapearing , life is very cruel....love also to your dear mum 💞💞, thank you for sharing , i think it helps for people to not feel so alone....and this time of year is always the most difficult....Loved your tree it was gorgeous...and how very kind you are doing those advent calendars.....i read a quote somewhere it says.... if your kind and polite the world will be alright.....if only everyone was , wouldn't that be lovely , do take care of yourself , and take lots of lovely baths...i love em.....have a lovely week xxxx💝💝💝💝
Sending you a big Hug💕 My Auntie was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and Dementia this year she’s changed so much, she wasn’t just my Auntie but my best friend, thankfully at the moment she still remembers me😞It’s such a cruel disease for the whole family. Love watching you on you tube 😘😘
so sorry to hear that, Julie. It's such a hard road to travel x
The new tree at the front door is just perfect. And the 3 glitter trees look lovely in the window. Hugs and ❤️♥️❤️
Sending you much love Caroline regards your dad grief is hard and not linear and can get you when you least expect it. ❤❤❤
Sending love to you. This time of year is especially difficult when you're grieving. I've learned to just respect moments like those when they come, understand it's deep love that brings me to those low points and that they will ebb once again. Those are very wise words, reminding us that we never know where someone is at any time. Kindness always. xx Patty
You're right Patty, I just let the moments of grief wash over me, acknowledge them and then move on again until the next one. xx
ThAnku for sharing all of that…I am sure your thoughtful words and ruminations will have helped so many people.
Thank you x
It is hard I have lost my Mum &Dad Christmas is never the same , we have our ups and downs it never gets easy we just learn to live with it . And hopefully happy memories ❤
Sending love and a big hug to you Caroline ❤xx
Free is lovely Caroline I took a look at what they had .....everything was sold out ....hey ho I'll look again ❤
My heart goes out to you and your family dealing with your dad’s horrible disease xmas can be a very difficult time thinking of you all, the trees look lovely very pretty and you found an ideal spot for them both, the blue dress looks lovely very flattering 👍🏻❤️
Absolutely loved your light up trees and really enjoyed watching your excitement lighting them up!❤
I see a new video and I get a little surge of joy! Such a sweet one today. For me Christmas is time for those moments of emotion. I used to try to hide them but I don’t now. I can’t help it, it is part of my life kaleidoscope. 💐
Oh the tree looks lovely - as do the set of 3 - very cozy
Love the hall tree perhaps another on the other side of the front door x
How our moods can change when talking regarding your Dad and became so tearful you made me so sad Caroline .. your sadness lifted with happiness seeing your beautiful trees .. Sending Blessings thank you for sharing xx if you visit London your in the New Year .. your son is a Bus ride from me . Coffee cake on me .. x
I understand about your Dad Caroline, I lost my Mom a few years ago and she had dementia in her last couple of years. However, I lost my husband in September and Christmas is looming heavily. Good friends help but you are right, no one knows what is going on behind the smile. Much love Sue Xxx
Can't imagine how difficult these last few months have been for you Sue, sending thoughts and hugs x
I related 100% to your thoughts about your dad. I felt Exactly the same over my dear mum. It’s so sad, and I grieved after every visit. Sending you hugs ❤
Hi Caroline I know exactly how you feel about grief. My lovely husband has recently had to go into a nursing home and I feel as though I have lost him already. It’s been six weeks now but I still find myself crying most days and I’m amazed that people think I should have got used to it by now - I doubt I ever will. Sending love and hugs to you and your mum who will understand exactly how I feel. xx
Sending you a really big hug, Caroline.I feel I'm on my own at times moved my Mum in with us after losing my Dad in covid times.Now Mum as been diagnosed with dementia..Thank you.xx
Love the Christmas trees, the eye make-up and the blue dress in which you look fab. Xx
Those moments are very difficult.. i always say better out than in! Those emotions can be bad for you so it helps to have a little weep. My Dad passed 5 years ago ( dementia and cancer) and still get emotional in card shops cos i cant buy a “Dad” card. Xx
I agree, I always feel better after having a cry, it helps unblock the emotional floodgates a bit, I think.
Bless your heart when you was talking about your Dad, big hugs xx
Can't even imagine how hard it must be to see your Dad this way. Such a cruel disease. Love your trees - perfect for your house!
Lovely vlog Caroline! The Christmas trees looked great and I love the dress on you, bargain! Dementia is indeed a very cruel disease, apart from my nan, who got it when she was 90, I fortunately have no experience of it in my family, but am so aware that it’s always a possibility for anyone. I worry mostly if I got it and the effects it would have on my children. I’m not worried for myself personally, but just hope that they would do what is best for them to cope with the situation. Very sad indeed, my heart goes out to you, I can’t imagine how I would have felt if my parents hadn’t at any time known who I was, it must be heartbreaking 😢❤. Thankyou so much for sharing, take care xx
My best friend's mum also has dementia, and she (my best friend) and I have discussed living wills and assisted suicide for ourselves should we ever find ourselves diagnosed with it (without coming to any conclusions). The toll dementia takes on both the sufferer and their family (emotional, mental, physical and even financial) is truly horrendous.
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You are so thoughtful to make those advent calendars for your dad's carers, I'm sure they will appreciate your effort and the fun little surprise each day! It's very difficult experiencing the health decline of our elderly loved ones, and as you say - dementia is particularly cruel. I think it's so lovely that you buy your mum and dad the same card, while sad, I'm sure it must bring some comfort to your mum. xoxo
p.s. Seeing you turn on those new trees makes me want to pull out my xmas decor boxes tomorrow!
Have been through dementia with my Mom and it is not easy I undetstand your exact feelings but sharing your thoughts from time to time does help so do so when you feel blue❤
Love the Christmas tree Caroline. Have a lovely weekend with Ashley xx
Hello Caroline. Your heart felt talk about your Dad and dementia was sad however many people going though that heartbreaking illness with love ones need to feel they are not alone and feel as you do...in my humble opinion, no respect to all the other horrible decreases people suffer ..forgiving one's life,children, grandchildren, love ones is so cruel for everyone involved..my heart and prayers go out to you...
You've had a mix of emotions today Caroline. I'm pleased you got some joy from your new tree - it looks lovely. Also I've been using that eyeshadow for a while - I think its brilliant. Highly pigmented, long lasting - and cheap! In fact I've often thought of asking you if you'd tried it. I'm pleased I can see how its looks on someone else.The advent calendars for your Dad's carers are a lovely idea. I'm sure your thoughtfulness is much appreciated..❤
Sending lots of love to you Caroline x
What a mix of emotions for you , so sad to here you upset . Lovely to see your excitement at the Christmas tree . Sending love and strength xx
Totally understand about your dad and your sadness caroline, and on subject of celebrity jungle programme i don't watch either anymore same with come dancing got fed up with same as same as , keep doing what you do your very entertaining and honest happy christmas to you both xx
Hi Caroline you really suit that berry colour and your hair looks amazing
Sending love Caroline. ❤
Thank you Caroline for sharing a day in your life, the ups and downs. X❤X
I’m still watching ‘I’m A Celebrity’. It’s an unusual series with two campmates quitting, I don’t remember that ever happening before! I love your Christmas tree, it’s so pretty and looks perfect where you’ve put it 🎄
Caroline I could feel your emotion, and have been there. Certain times of the year makes you reflect. Go with how you feel it is normal and if you need to cry that is normal too.
Love your trees and advent calendar ideas that is very generous of you to do that for the people who look after your dad I am sure they are very touched by it. Big hug and remember the happy times with your dad and mum. xx
You're so right about remembering the happy times, I'm grateful to have so many happy memories of us all to look back on x
I never used to wear make up much but now I always feel better if I’ve made the effort and put some on 😊
Great video, made me think about my dad x
Awww Caroline...hugs for your heart ❤
Hi Caroline
It’s not an easy time when a loved one has dementia it was music with me that used to upset me I feel for you and your mum
You are looking so well after your operation I’m pleased you are doing well
The tree looks beautiful
Have a good week xx❤️❤️❤️❤️
My Dad's favourite song was Lady In Red. I have to turn the radio off in the car if it ever comes on, it just breaks me. x
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Caroline you look so well I hope you are feeling well. So sorry about your dad ❤
I can so relate to the grief you mentioned - my Dad ( also called Bill) suffered from dementia and passed away 5 years ago. I also lost my mum to cancer 30 years ago when she was just 52. I still find myself in tears at times (at almost 55 ). The card shopping is particularly hard.
On a happier note, I love Philosophy too - currently using Candy Cane and just found out it initially won awards for best shampoo - I tried it as such and my hair felt great with a beautiful shine. I am a sucker for a lovely scented bath and body product !
What a jam packed video Caroline. Sorry to hear about your Dad being unwell it can’t be easy for everyone involved. Loved your trees and the lights are wonderful, just right for your hallway oh and the trees upstairs look very grand I love them all. I have been watching your channel for a few weeks now on a recommendation from Tina’stalktime and I’m so glad i did. Your varied videos are quite refreshing. Thank you, see you on the next one and all the best when you visit Dad ❤
The advent Calanders for the care home staff is such a lovely idea. Sending much love to you and your mum and brother, so sad, especially at this time of year.
I’m only dipping in and out of IAC this year. Hope you’re feeling much better now.
Oh o love that blue dress on you!!! It looks amazing. ❤ The advent calenders you are doing are lovely and really thoughtful, I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad, I work in adult social care- it’s such a cruel disease. ❤
Love the Christmas trees Caroline xx
I loved both the Christmas tree but struggled with the site and not find either 😢.
I must say you look so well I love your new hair cut and todays jumper and make up really suited you .
Oh Caroline my heart goes out to u and ur family, hugs to u, xxxxx❤
Such a very hard thing to go through. Sending you love and thinking of everyone who is dealing with grief.
The eyeshadow looks amazing and lasted really well.
Those trees are stunning xx
Thank you! x
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us all Caroline. Be kind to yourself, you are doing a great job by being kind. Loved the trees 👍🏻🥰.
Awww sending love . Your so sweet 💕
Hi caroline im not keen on the dark nights but in 4 weeks time it will slowly start and get abit lighter.
Love the light-up trees. Your dark pink/purple jumper looks lovely. The dress suits you as well.
Thank you!
I absolutely love your vlogs help me so much to be a little bit more positive about life the tree looked absolutely beautiful
Love your tree at the door❤, laughed when you switched off the light and showed us what it looks like from outside. 😂 Just what I would do! Definitely going to have a look, quite fancy one for my front door!
I grieved for Mum the minute the signs came followed by the diagnosis of dementia it is so painful. My heart goes out to you and your family, it is terrible. Now my parents are both gone NOT buying cards for birthdays, Christmas or Mothers and Father’s Day ever again is so sad and heavy. Temu sells very inexpensive liners for your wax melt they are great and not as thick as the silicone so melts quicker, easy clean up. Great catch up.
Aww loved the christmas tree looked lovely from outside ,take care Caroline sending hugs