How much do you remember
About those summers we spent together?
Because I don't seem to be able to recall
All the things I thought that I'd miss,
Your perfume and your sun kissed skin,
Turns out they meant nothing all along.
I was haunted by the emptiness that filled the hole you left,
A grave I still can't bring myself to visit yet.
Though I won't be losing sleep,
I still refuse to regret,
It took me so long to admit that we were dead;
But we were dead.
You buried it in the backyard of a house
That we built with our bare hands
Where you said we'd grow old together.
I felt safe there
I knew every crooked frame, every creaking stair,
I could have stayed my whole life,
But time was never a friend of mine.
I got so scared
That I disappeared into my head for 8 lonely years,
And it killed me but it hurt you too and I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
But you weren't there when I needed you most,
I felt like I was a ghost of someone you used to love,
But I was never enough to save us.
So tell me, is it serious between you and him?
I hope to god he makes you happy,
I hope I never hear your name again.
Now the home we made is nothing more than a house
Where we fucked and we ate but never fell in love,
Now you're sleeping in the bed we made with somebody else,
Are you happy? Are you happy?
I got so scared
That I disappeared into my head for 8 lonely years,
And it killed me but it hurt you too and I'm sorry, I'm sorry.